#and i sometimes wish i was different but wtf is wrong with wanting to be alone

[whatlovelybones-if]

"the screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain" THE WHAT?! YOU DARE AVERY??? AND WTF J???

What would happen if MC and J were about to kiss, but MC suddenly stopped and just apathetically stared at them and said that they resented them for not being their first kiss, and just left? 😂😂

(Also, did MC have a some sort of relationship before the story began, or is that left for headcannon?)

it started with a simple statement.

“i won’t be riding back with you today,” J said.

you didn’t mind, not really. of course, you used to take every opportunity to spend time with them, but you could understand that they had their own life and sometimes their plans didn’t line up with yours.

“anything special you got planned?” you joked while closing your school locker, but you feel your insides wither and shrivel like a crumpled flower when they give you the actual reason.

“avery wanted to take me home today,” J said, shrugging like it wasn’t a big deal but the embarrassed pink on their cheeks give them away.

you had a feeling whatever was going to happen today, you wouldn’t be liking it at all. on top of that, J was acting weird as hell. not to mention that this avery person had been someone they’d been weirdly close the past couple of days.

you also happen to know that avery lived on the other side of town, completely off the route you and J took to get home every day. avery wasn’t just giving them a ride; it was something else. the more you thought about it, the more it sounded like a date. a motherfucking date.

you felt your heart starting to weigh three times heavier as you forced a smile and said, “oh, sure, that’s fine.” and then, before you could stop yourself, you found yourself stupidly asking, “so did they ask you out on a date or something?”

to save yourself the embarrassment and act nonchalant, you find yourself ruffling their hair slightly. if J noticed that you were forcing it, they didn’t let it show. instead they just laughed nervously, trying to fix their hair, and said, “actually, i was the one who ended up asking them out.”

wonderful. you wanted to scream, but you managed to give them the fakest smile you could. “i’m so happy for you.”

J picked up on the hint that maybe you weren’t feeling as happy as you’re saying you are because they asked, “are you alright, teddy?”

that nickname hurts even more now as you nod, “of course, why wouldn’t i be?”

one of J’s love languages has always been physical touch and everything just gets a lot more complicated; their hand on your back is warm, the inky dark eyes that stare back at you are kind and worried, the full pink lips that you wish to kiss look so inviting. they smell the same as always: leather, strawberries, spearmint, and marlboro red smoke masked by a fancy cologne/perfume.

“did i do something wrong?” J asks, looking like a kicked puppy.

you can’t stand it. the concerned look on J’s face as they ask you what’s wrong when everything is wrong right now. it’s wrong that they can’t see how much you love them. it’s wrong that they can’t see how loving them has become second nature for you. it’s wrong that they can’t see how you don’t want to be just their best friend.

knowing them, you know your best friend is probably imagining a thousand different scenarios of how they must’ve hurt you. but you know that they didn’t hurt you, they could never do that, at least not intentionally.

then you do it. you actually do it. one of the stupidest things you have ever done in your 15 years of existence.

you leaned in and kissed them.

the look on J’s face makes you wanna crawl into your own skin and die. their body had tensed up, their lips frozen open, parted but not uttering a sound. all of that was enough to tell you that it was fucking mistake. so you do the only thing that made sense to you at that moment: you turn and run outside like a fucking coward.

time seemed to slow down, each second stretching impossibly beyond normal. the only sound that could be heard was the rain. heavy, rhythmic, and coming down without pause. you don’t even feel the chill setting in as your whole body burns with the shame of what you did and the image of J’s reaction only makes your skin crawl more.

stupid, stupid, stupid!

you run across the parking lot to get to your car and book the hell out of the school campus. you utter a loud curse when you check your pockets and realise you left your car keys in your locker.

you’re soaked to the bone and you aim a swift kick at your car; panting like you just ran a marathon, hair sticking to your neck and cheeks, heavy breathing pushing your chest up and down, your face wet from both the rain and your tears.

tears? no, you’re not wrong, you can feel the saltiness mixing up with the rain and pouring down your face. you haven’t cried in forever. at least not in a genuine way.

why in the world did it have to J of all people that you had to fall for? they had been your best friend since you were kids, always a constant and comforting presence in your life. almost a decade of friendship down the drain because of your stupid feelings. it wasn’t worth it at all to lose your best friend like this.

your best friend who’s now calling your name. a yell in the distance muffled by the sound of the rain and of your breaking heart. your breath hitches but you ignore them. there’s no way you can face them, not right now.

“for god’s sake, you can’t just kiss me and walk away! hey!” J yells out.

“go away, J! i really don’t want to talk to you right now.”

they catch up to you, refusing to let you run off again. “and why is that, hm?”

“i don’t know!” you answer, throwing up your hands in exasperation. “i’m ignoring you right now.”

“well,” J continues to stubbornly come closer, “i am ignoring the fact that you’re ignoring me.”

you give them a glare. “that’s not how it works.”

J matches your challenging glare. “fine then. tell me why you kissed me and i will leave you alone.”

“i kissed you because i love you, you daft dumbo!” you nearly yell, frustrated beyond reason. ignoring the dumbfounded look on J’s face, you continue, “i’ve loved you ever since we were kids. i love your eyes and how they sparkle like stars when you’re talking about music. i love your voice and how it soothes me whenever i’m having a hard time. i love how you know me and know exactly what to say to make me feel better whenever and wherever. i just love you so much and i cannot stand the thought of you with avery. i will get over this though, J, just give me some ti—”

in a heartbeat, they lean in and their lips are on yours. you can’t help the gasp which slips out of your mouth, too surprised, too tense, and J holds your face dearly like you’re something precious, pressing your lips and body against theirs with something akin to desperation. both of you so entirely soaked from the rain, so entirely frightened, so entirely in love.

when the kiss ends, it’s because both of you are completely out of breath. J doesn’t let the space between the two of you grow any further, though. they instead press themselves further against you, your bodies fitting like perfect puzzle pieces.

“don’t get over me,” they plead, the taste of strawberry in your mouth, forehead against yours, dark eyes fluttering close. “don’t ever get over me.”

“b-but,” you stutter, head still spinning, “what about avery?”

J groans, following it up with a chuckle. “one date and i think even they’d be able to see it.”

“see what?”

“how you are the one i’m in love with.”

before you can even process what they just said, they lean in again to seal it with a kiss.

#asks #wow this was longer than i’d planned #an AU where everything went perfectly and they were high school sweethearts? #this is my late christmas gift to J romancers #also yeah you can headcanon if MC has dated someone in the past #what lovely bones #ro: j park #bonnie nonnie #ro scenarios #interactive fiction #interactive story #ch: the killer #interactive game #ignore the typos lmao 💀

[whyse7vn]

FREE NAMJOON -

[ ot7 x reader ]

FREE JIMIN

8 participants - 8 online

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y/n: if i open instagram and see namjoons feet again i’m going to go insane

tae: me 2 😆

jimin: tae makes physically ill !

hobi: real.

tae: i never said i am going the good insane what the hell

jin: you didn’t need to say anything

we know

jk: the fact ur not trying to hide it anymore is real upsetting bro

tae: society will never progress with people like you guys

i am the future

yoongi: why are we always taking about feet?

jin: some times at that prehistoric age you tend to do drastic things like that

jimin: prehistoric?? ur older than him?

jin: okay and? you look fucking older than him

wrinkled fuck

jimin: you are turning into dust as you type

namjoon: bye we are not talking about feet again.

y/n: tae and joon for therapy i say!

jimin: jin for a retirement home!

jk: who do you think will die first?

like out of us

hobi: you

tae: probably jimin

jimin: are you insane jin is literally 82 on deaths doorstep fr

jin: i agree jimin will be first to go no doubt in my mind in fact i will single handedly make sure of it and that is a promise to you all as my closest friends

jk: omg! ur so cool!!!!!

jimin: wtf???

what about that is cool?

yoongi: jimin would die first

jimin: WTF?????????

jin: LOL

jimin: FUCK YOU

yoongi: when have you guys ever had a civilised conversation

namjoon: who wants food? i’m ordering

jk: maybe it’s all sexual tension

y/n: fr just kiss or something

jin: HE WISHES

jimin: the way i almost threw UP

namjoon: can someone answer me

jk: sometimes there is no answer

hobi: deep bro.

jk: awomon

namjoon: is it not amen?

jk: clearly you are NOT a feminist!

jin: me personally? i’m a feminist

jimin: me 2 i love pussy

hobi: awoman 🙏🏼

tae: international womens day everyday!!!

suga: 🤞🏻

y/n: can you guys go one day without mentioning feminism omg

jin: it’s so deep in my veins i cant

jk: what is an orgasm??

namjoon: i’m actually leaving the group

jimin: kook not knowing what an orgasm is was ur last straw?

weak 🥱

namjoon: no it was actually after tae talked about feet for a least the 1000th time today

tae: is it not the power house of the cell??

y/n: oh wow

jk: holy shit ur right

yoongi: ????

tae: wydm ???

yoongi don’t be upset cuz you didn’t know

jk: right…

tae: nvm it’s actually pretty common knowledge so maybe you should be a little upset

jin: you guys make me want to pull my hair out

jimin: it’s practically falling out already doesn’t really make a difference

y/n: tell me you guys aren’t being fr…

tae: wait….

MY FAULT i thought you said organism 🙏🏻

wasn’t wearing my glasses

yoongi: the way that’s still wrong

hobi: he wears glasses?

jk: so what does it mean

jimin: guys i have a crush 🤭

jin: always a crush never a job

y/n: HELDPDODOFODKFJFKC

hobi: set him free for fucking real

yoongi: pt2

jimin: fuck you all i didn’t want to talk about it anyways

jk: do you think ironman gets lonely in heaven

namjoon: maybe you should join him

jk: OMG???????

namjoon just told me to kms (real) (not clickbait)

tae: what if jungkook doesn’t go to heaven?

who knows what he does behind closed doors

y/n: he vapes

jk: NO

y/n: if you say so

jin: jimin and namjoon going to hell that’s all i know

jimin: omg take my dick out your mouth

jin: ew?

namjoon: ????

tae: i know joon does coke on the low

yoongi: :3

namjoon: what???

hobi: i could be a red velvet member if i tried hard enough

y/n: i believe in you

hobi: means the world tbh

namjoon: when have i ever mentioned coke in my life?? let alone taken it

tae: see how defensive he’s getting

someone call the police

yoongi: jungkook joined a cult yesterday

namjoon: what?

hobi: namjoon are you not tired?

namjoon: ?

hobi: always asking questions like are you not sick of it

have you found the answers you’ve been looking for

if not i suggest you stop asking and give up all together :/

y/n: I AGREE

#stopthequwstions2023

namjoon: im leaving before i say something i regret

*namjoon left the group*

jin: he was so gonna say the n word

y/n: HELDPDODDODODOODOD

tae: stop the namjoon hate 2023

jk: i miss him so much

my life is falling apart

*jk added namjoon to the group!*

namjoon: leave me ALONE.

*namjoon left the group*

jimin: yikes

yoongi: skill issue tbh

y/n: i take no blame for this btw

jimin: i didn’t do anything!!!!

tae: not me

yoongi: ❌

jin: lowkey hobi’s fault

hobi: i blame jk

jk: wtf…

#bts crack #bts fanfic #bts fluff #bts imagines #bts fic #bts text #bts x reader #bts x y/n #bts x you #namjoon x reader #jin x reader #yoongi x reader #hoseok x reader #jimin x reader #taehyung x reader #jungkook x reader #bts texts #rm x reader #suga x reader #v x reader #jhope x reader #hobi x reader #bts fake chats #bts incorrect texts

[iridescentdove]

Hello!I rlly liked the Elysia fic :D if your requests are open, may I request Herrscher of Sentience or maybe Fu Hua! Reader? (maybe w poe , ranpo , dazai ,yosano and higuchi? Its fine you can do any character you want though!)

Poe, Ranpo, Dazai, Yosano & Higuchi x HoS! Reader

Hiya Anon! And why not HoS mommy. You were once part of the Fire Moth organization about 50,000 years ago in the last civilization. You are one of the few people who survived against the Final Herrscher.

Later you became the guardian of Shenzhou, coming to be known as The Sage and devoting your life to eliminating the Houkai. However ... what if ... the Herrscher of Sentience were to make her comeback?

EDGAR ALLAN POE:

He thinks you are absolutely beautiful, but absolutely terrifying. He's interested in your past and the world you had lived in - it would make for a great novel.

But again, Poe is too nervous to approach you. Hell, even Ranpo wanted nothing to do with you.

So he sucks up the advice ...

But somehow ,, ends up at your doorstep, literally not knowing why he's coming right to you after wimping out. Like ... for the 17th time already.

You're not as bad as you looked, actually. You were pretty nice and tsundere when not trying to destroy the world.

So he found really refreshing, although, thinks you might just do some 360 and end up just fooling him into thinking you were a peacemaker. He's paranoid, okay.

Really like your HoS outfit though. It didn't look like the normal, but again, you were from a different world.

You sometimes talk about your years back in your home.

Poe listens so aggressively, taking down notes which he might be able to use for his own novel.

Most of the time, you guys get along so well. From thw times he's spent with you, you're actually cute. Whenever you get annoyed, you puff your cheeks like a kid.

Totally differemt from when you're pissed- literally all creation might get crushed then and there-

In the moment you were indeed, embodying the path of ruin and destruction, you were ... actually so scary. No one knew what to do.

The Port Mafia was unable to make a choice, in doing so, they'd be destroyed. The ADA ran out of options, no longer sure what to do. The Guild was wimping out lol.

Decay of the Angels? They sure live up to their name! Turned to dust and decay under your very hands! Pun intended

Poe only wishes you come back to him and solving crimes like you always did.

You better make up for it if you do end up admitting defeat because he is shitting tears.

He'll take a bit to get over it but he loves you sm. <3

Kiss him, hug him, literally hog all of his attention for the next few weeks and he'll be so happy about it. Come on now, get your priorities straight.

If you try to ever go on a HoS rampage this bitch fr might just get a heart attack-

"(Y/N) WTF WTF WTF WTF NOT AGAIN PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE NOT THIS NOT THIS–" :)

RANPO EDOGAWA:

He literally cannot figure you out lmao so that's a job well done in my book.

Ranpo wouldn't know jack shit in all honesty. You're from a whole different world, possibly even GOD there. Herrscher? Elysian Realm?? ReveRSE CREATION WAIT WHAT

Please give him time to breathe in the information.

Mk but if you like sweets he definitely gonna share some, he's now interested in you.

You gave him odd vibes at first, and in the end he was technically not wrong. Bro knew you were no good since the start but man who is he to judge.

Ranpo and you are ... well, in a way to say it ya'll are dating but never verbally established it??

You guys decided to just start doing it LMAO

Everyone is so surprised. Like, "YOU NEVER TOLD US YOU WERE DATING WHAT?"

In other words you guys are basically acting like you're dating. In which, you are. But ya'll don't even care to officialize it like it is what it is 😭

But that aside, he reaaally thinks he shouldn't be around someone like you ... even if you're together.

He deduces that it will not end in his favor.

And Ranpo was correct. You are out for blood and for the death of their world, in which you don't care about even him when you did that.

He feels betrayed. Super betrayed, a little mad? You guys did so much together and damn repaying him with that.

But he does understand why you're doing it.

That anger may not be centered towards you but instead the others are pissed off mafia be like

Upon the destruction of everything, if you succeed, bad ending it is then. Everyone's dead, the world is decaying and you've made Fyodor happy ...

Except he's rejoicing in hell bc you killed him.

Ranpo looks at you like you were the demon satan itself, so livid and upset about what you've done. Guilty, a little.

If you decide to spare them some slack and don't succeed, well, Ranpo's here for you. Come on now, it's better off this way don't kill everyone wtf

He's the first to go up to you, pouty and wanting you to make up for your mistakes. Cuddle him or else I shoot

He doesn't understand the concepts sometimes, but as long as you're there with him, just eating away sweets and telling him interesting stories of your life, he's all for it.

Would 100% smash in your herrscher form

DAZAI OSAMU:

I can smell the rizz a mile away

Okay, you're actually so chill. He respects that, unlike when you're out in a rage and turning people into Odasaku

You're not free from his teasing. You're like a second Kunikida he messes around with lmao. Except when he pisses you off he's actually running for his life–

"Don't you wanna die though?" "SHE'LL TORTURE ME I HATE PAIN AND SUFFERING"

Has the audacity to hide behind Atsushi. Now both of them are terrified and running while you cutely and respectfully, turn into Herrscher of Senti completely <3

Ends up dating you anyway.

For a bit, he'll take time to trust you because he finds it strange like Ranpo. There's something odd sometimes about your behavior he can't pinpoint himself ...

Ooh wait. So you wanna destroy the world. Ok.

He can understand why from all of his own experience, but wouldn't advise you to do that. It ain't smart of you, bae.

Your powers are actuallu very respected by him. He also finds it pretty and interesting! Will ask you a few questions and compliment you from time to time.

If you tell him stuff about your own world, he'll be somewhat interested in it too. As for how he knew ...

Dazai figures it out pretty easily, although it took a bit of time to realize you weren't from this world.

Not just that too. Basically, a Herrscher could be the same as a literal God. He's not all that scared but you're really full of surprises. He is not taking you lightly, though.

Knows you can literally reverse creation single-handedly.

But he doesn't want that. Come on now, dude wants to die but at least let him achieve the wish of marrying a pretty girl first before that :/

The pretty girl i'm talking about is you. "Belladona! Oh my, dear. Just stop whatever you're doing and return to my arms! I am lonely! So very lonely!"

He's technically not wrong

Everything in his willpower, he and the agency would find the best way to intercept with your plans.

They're here to save people, after all. If there's a full 100% chance they'll die – it won't matter. Push through. Gotta save all those lives before it's too late.

Good luck. Even though Dazai knows you can blow up the world with ur sexy self /j

But think again. If you're good enough a soul to stop your tomfoolery – all's well that ends well. Again, HoS is not evil but simply, a misunderstood individual.

Dazai will understand all of that. Okay? He'll just be glad you didn't turn everyone into toast.

But I guess he'll have to be careful not to piss his bbg off <3

YOSANO AKIKO:

Great job because she's glaring at you literally every time you breathe, talk, or even sleep.

Yosano doesn't trust you at first knowing something's up, and by Ranpo's deduction – she trusts his judgement wholeheartedly and believes you're up to bad.

It would take some time for her to trust you.

After long, possibly a few weeks she'll start to change your mind. You often help around often, and you save their asses everytime with your strange "ability" if it's even one.

You didn't act as bad as you look, and were probably just a big tsundere, mind her.

At the end of the day, Yosano really liked you. AYY bestie takes you out to go shopping and you would pamper each other so much with slight complaining from you

Both of you are great partnered up in missions. You were already strong enough, not needing assistance.

Yosano is just supporting at the back with her healing.

And around the time when you started to grow distant is where she's growing suspicious again. All of that for what? She'll be really uneasy all of a sudden.

Peakaboo :) Guess who :) it's Herrscher of Sentience bitch

Knew she shouldn't have trusted you. But come on now, she obviously knew your times spent together was genuine. Yosano knew you didn't do this because you're evil.

But well, all have their reasons, and you do as well. Will not stand for it and will smack you into sense if necessary.

"GIVE MY (Y/N) BACK" "YOSANO- PUT THE BROOM AWAY-" "YOUR POINT??"

Girlboss saving her girlboss girlfriend.

Will not stand to leave you, literally comes out to go against you even if she knew she'll loose. If there's at least 1% chance you'll come back to her, she'll take it.

Got her chainsaw ready and all. Doesn't want to hurt you, but has no choice to kick ass lol

If you seriously choose to disregard your actions then she'll be so relieved. Atsushi super mega relieved in the corner

Honestly, don't be ashamed. They all understand. Even though some will take time to forgive you. It's not easy to forget things like this.

The agency will gladly let you stay. After all, mommy-

Jokes aside, Yosano is worshipping the ground you walk on and you do that to her in return. Literally two queens that aren't taking bullshit from anybody.

And you guys kiss sjsshj- dammit by bi ass is showing

ICHIYO HIGUCHI:

I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER

Here we go, now it's much more fit. Let's just say they know stories about Herrschers and their existence about being born to destroy humanity.

You were once a normal human like them, but was cheated out of your life but then damn here you are.

A lot were intimidated, everyone probably. You can end the world with all your own hands. Reversing creation as you say, and being in the Port Mafia? HOO WHAT A DAY

Higuchi does admire you the more she learns of you. Really likes your chill personality when you aren't out for blood.

Fr you're just there standing and she's going "🥺"

Like in that episode with Akutagawa and Gin, she misunderstands easily and gets jealous – thinking that you're crushing on Kouyou, dating Chuuya, etc.

Please give this girl some attention. She wants to drown in your presence because you are just so mommy amazing

Whenever you activate your ult she is mesmerized. I mean, sure it's destruction and chaos but Higuchi is down bad for your strength and possibly, beauty.

Would try to train with you to get stronger, to be able to protect Akutagawa.

But hey, why is she spending more time with you than him-

Soon enough you realize she's smitten and probably forgot about Akutagawa's existence. AKUTAGAWA. HER forgetting about HIM?

Damn you are God.

Really tells you to go back on the decision. Think this through, are you really gonna destroy the world? What are you gonna do then?

It's most likely not all fun and games once you've did it. Higuchi is just a worried bbg.

Totally siding with Ranpo on railing you

Again, don't be upset about whatever it is. You aren't evil, basically – it's a misunderstanding. Higuchi sympathizes with you and doesn't hold a grudge.

Now ... kiss kiss fall in love relax and let yourself be loved.

I headcanon her being rescued by you all the time and she's too flustered to even say anything ... with those sparkly ass slow-mow moments as if you're her prince or sumn 💀

#bungou stray dogs #bsd x reader #bsd headcanons #bsd yosano #ranpo x reader #edgar allan poe #bsd higuchi #yosano x reader #poe x reader #higuchi x reader #honkai hcs #fu hua honkai #herrscher of sentience

[ibarkatpeoplewoofwoofbitch]

league of villians headcannons

goes into my head 24/7

Shigaraki

I feel like he has a lot of animal facts stored in his brain especially dogs.

Definitely touch starved but if you touched him he'd freak out and decay you

His hair gets very matted if he's like to focus on other things and forgets to brush his hair or only showers to wash his body/not now only when he had blue hair and dabi weirdly enough helped him because he was somewhat sane and for once peaceful.

He definitely sees the League as a family toga reminds him of Hana sometimes

Loves red sourpatch gummies but hates the blue ones so he gives dabi the blue ones but he actually doesn't hate them he just realized they were dabi's favorite and did it normally but of course doesn't wanna be kind so he plays it off as a "whatever I don't like them take it".

He let's twice of the hook the most if he says or does something. He knows twice doesn't mean it or wish it.

Spinner definitely asks shigaraki to play rpg games with him and shigaraki introduces him to games.

Mr compress is quite amusing to shigaraki but like in a "wtf is wrong with you" way but he can't talk he's mentally ill too.

Dabi

Now I know dabi fights with himself o na daily basis more like with his inner child he's going crazy and he knows he's not gonna make it pass 32.

Definitely bipolar

The inner kid in him fully left at the battle with endeavor just dabi being a body of rage who lost themselves somewhere along the way.

Now if he could cry and didn't burn his tear glands I think he would have a lot of mental breakdowns behind closed doors.

Shigaraki reminds dabi of someone he can't quite put a finger on.

He sometimes questioned what life would be like if it wasn't like this.

Probably the most mentally ill out of the League.

Him trying to kill endeavor is his plan to die with his dad if he can't get his dad to look at him maybe just maybe his dad would hug him before they both died together.

I feel like if he and shigaraki were heros in a different au they'd trauma bond and be close in a platonic or romantic way.

He sees toga as a little sister he didn't want toga to end up like him that's why he gave her that speech.

It was to late for him but not for her

Twice doing those hands movements when he moves them side to side infront of him denying something reminds him of natsuo.

Oddly enough he feels peaceful around spinner

Him and Mr compress definitely had a dance class together to teach dabi to dance.

TOGA

She understands that everyone is dying off slowly and has nightmares about her being next.

Probably put stickers on the leagues clothing

Goes to the arcade to do those dancing games.

Twice

Twice appreciated the League for what they've done.

He saw toga as a daughter.

Fan boys over deadpool.

Sometimes before he died he wished he was dead but as soon as he did he didn't want to die.

Spinner

FANBOYS THE SHIT OUTTA SHIGARAKI

One sided love

He also gets depressed the leagued falling apart.

As a kid he dreamt of owning a business.

Mr compress

He loved dancing and being a center of attention

Probably went to dance classes before he was a villian.

He loved teaching dabi how to dance because someone went to him for help in something they both like.

Probably threw roses if dabi got a dance move right definitely 🕺 emoji fr.

#tomura shiragaki #shigadabi #mha shigaraki #tenko shimura #touya todoroki #dabi #mha #toga himiko #mha himiko #league of villains #twice #spinner #mr compress #mha deku #mha bakugou #shouto todoroki #enji todoroki #rei todoroki #natsuo todoroki #fuyumi todoroki

[nic-42]

Bro I need to draw Kogoro and Ginzo interacting with Yuusaku and Toichi, it would be very fun!

want some headcanons? oh you want them

(It is a compilation of headcanons from different aus, therefore there is no coherence or they contradict each other, maybe in the future I will explain the aus as such, but each hc will give some context )

The first time Ginzo saw Toichi was when he saw him fall from the tree to his backyard, Toichi stood up as if nothing had happened and said "Hello! I'm your new neighbor, sorry for entering your property like that haha, Would you like to come to mine and have a drink?" [I like to think that's how they met lol]

Kogoro believed that Yuusaku was gay, and Yuusaku believed that Kogoro was a delinquent, prejudices due to their school days. [They are both gay and delinquent lol, magic au?]

Toichi almost killed him by 'accident' ["The lightning thing was an accident, the cocktail thing was different!" toxic love au ]

Toichi and Kaito are sons of bitches, they have killed people and hidden evidence at their convenience. Shinichi and Yuusaku know it and have done nothing about it [here Shinichi's moral code goes to shit, he is forced to kill, magic au?]

Ginzo and Kogoro agree that Yuusaku and Toichi teach questionable things to their children, but admit that they are useful. General hc.

Kogoro suspected that Yuusaku was suicidal because of the marks on his arms [he was not wrong, the entire Kudo family has had serious problems since they were children] but the marks were not from that. (my main au )

Yuusaku had a hard time growing his mustache. General hc

Toichi also likes Yoko-chan's music (only for him and Kogoro to bump into each other at a meet and greet and say "wtf?" )

Sometimes Kogoro wishes he could continue tucking Ran in, sometimes he does it with Conan. General hc i love it.

Ginzo and Kogoro learned about "The Tale of the Ice King and the Fire Jester" by Yuusaku and Toichi, and decided to use that idea to talk about their love relationship with their daughters. (Magic au?)

It was a bad idea, Aoko and Ran thought it was a joke or that they were even trying to make fun of the situation (his homosexuality ), don't use fairy tales with 17 year old girls.

Yukiko completely supports Kogoro (in this au Kogoro and Eri's relationship is more turbulent and Eri is a bitch in pursuit of the plot)

Ginzo never said a single swear word in front of Aoko, Kogoro tries to soften them so that Ran does not imitate them, Toichi taught Kaito to swear in French and English. yukiko put yuusaku in time out and we know why.

Ginzo and kogoro are cat persons

Kogoro has no intention of returning Conan to his parents.

Ginzo and Aoko think that Kaitou KID is gay, they are not wrong–

#dcmk au #kuroba toichi #kudo yusaku #nakamori ginzo #nakamori aoko #mouri ran #mouri kogoro

[ay4kshalatus]

important notice 📢

hcs: tua season 3 trailer where wanda!y/n and five realized that they're on the wrong timeline. "love... we messed up.", "..shit."

but wanda!y/n is already aware and ready to see the changes. they should be back before the apocalypse swallow the whole world with only a matter of seconds left because that's the time they jumped (marvels inspired) and they made a huge fuss on their past timeline and returned to the altered timeline or in short, they made a "time-paradox".

"kugleblitz... just imagine what will happen if a star grows big." that's all she could explain to the siblings even her demonstration is quite different. "close but.. the cause is not that accurate." , "well.. kind off? we caused a massive ruckus on the past timeline and the big star is now taking her precious time to explode." the couple are doing some smart talks, making her siblings grow even more confused. "esstentially, we're screwed!"

umbrellas vs sparrows time!! five, luther, allison and wanda!y/n tries to avoid that woman who can summon birds. five sometimes forgot that wanda!y/n, can go against the sparrows but he drags her out from harm anyways. "love-- let me go wtf- i can stop her!" , "your powers are destructive as viktor so no!" he knows her potential but still made an excuse... stressed wife has to let whatever his husband want.

umbrella sibs (and y/n) are outside, trying to come up some theories..

"next person to say "dickhead" is getting punched on the throat.", "dickhead." all siblings chanted especially y/n. luckily he loves them though and you.

"forgot to mention. y/n is also a freaking pandora box." (viktor complimenting sis-in-law) so wanda!y/n decided to fight the baby black hole herself! she's powerful enough to control the timeline but fixing the altered reality was never easy and overusing her powers will cause destructive effects so she tries to lessen the damage that it caused. and yes she's now a threat to the sparrows.

"if i kill you, do we get our ben back?", "we're not having a death wish, diego." wanda!y/n giving hints to the siblings that there's another apocalypse to be stopped.

note: wanda!y/n is five's wifeyyyyy and maybe i make another wanda!y/n hcs soon.

#five hargreeves x reader #five hargreeves #reader #wanda reader #wanda #marvel #hcs #headcannons #tua #the umbrella academy #umbrella acadamy #the umbrella academy x reader #umbrella academy x reader #marvel x reader #pamcake's writings 🥞

[alexxcxrpse]

Bsd x reader

Hunting dogs in a nutshell part 8

After having a little conversation with Kunikda, one of the members of the arm detective agency, Jouno walks out of the room with a devilish smile on his face. The screams coming from the poor man pleases the ears of the blind king.

"Jouno, don't break him too much." Y/n said as they lean against the wall. Y/n was never a big fan of Jouno or his tactics, but that doesn't mean they hate him or anything. They just wish that Jouno wouldn't be so heartless and cruel sometimes. Sure they are enemies, but they're human too. "But hearing their pains and scream of agony pleases me. Something that you'd never understand." The blind man scoffs and stops next to Y/n.

"By the way...where's Tachihara?" Tachihara was finished with the sky casino mission. Now he's back in the whole port mafia business. It was his main mission after all to infiltrate the port mafia. "He's back with the port mafia, the co-captain required him to continue the mission so." Y/n lights up a cigarette and puts it to their mouth, inhaling and exhaling the smoke. Jouno's nose scrunched up to the stench of smoke. "I would appreciate it if you didn't smoke in here. The smell of cigarettes disgusts me." Jouno pinched his nose so the smell doesn't overwhelm him. Y/n takes another drag from the cigarette before replying back, "Then go somewhere else. Idk why your still standing here." Jouno just scoffed at them and replied with a "whatever" before walking off.

"Vapires?"

Apparently, for the past few days, vampires have occurred, and they say that the cause of it was by the arm detective agency. All the hunting dog members gathered and are currently having a meeting rn. Tachihara talked about how the port mafia was attacked by vampires. "So using a contagious ability transfered through biting. What do you think Teruko?" Jouno asked, looking at the co-captain. "Well I doubt he's lying or hallucinating. There's evidence backing up his story. Port mafias been reporting rumors of mysterious disappearance after another for the past few hrs." She said, looking at the reports.

"We're gonna need to contain it as quickly as possible." Jouno said, but everyone knows that It would be no use, Teruko drops the clipboard on the table and stretches as she explains why it wouldn't be worth doing. "Naw, it's already too late. The contagion is spreading way too fast. The best solution is to eradicate the ability user itself. Which means we have the kill them." she said. Jouno came up with a question of how they were supposed to find it before its too late. The vapire army just keeps spreading everyday. "The arm detective Agency," Tecchou spoke out. "Jugding from the timing, its a safe assumption that this is the agency's next act of global terrorism."

Jouno was looking all smug and Y/n just gives him the "wtf is that face?" Look. Jouno feels like his ears have been blessed. "What's wrong?" Tecchou asked. "Oh nothing! It's just that I only hear you say anything sensible about once a month or so. I was thinking about marking it down on my calendar." Jouno said. "Jouno be for real your just as goofy as him." Y/n spat out. "Excuse me? You little b-"

"Anyway! This task is going to be difficult. After that one incident at the live broadcast. The situation has been a mess due to police force splitting up into different sides." Y/n said, interrupting the hot head.

"That's also includes the hunting dogs that have sided with them too." Jouno pointed out, looking at Tachihara. Everyone turns their heads at him too. "I'm just simply wanting to investigate the situation! The true culprit Is out there! So please, request permission to investigate!" Tachihara pleaded.

Y/n felt bad that he was somewhat of a suspect. They don't think he's a traitor. They never thought of the detective agency as terrorists in the first place. "I agree, just to be sure. Please allow Tachihara to investigate further into the situation." Y/n pleaded with him.

Fukichi sat there in silence, thinking of an answer before speaking. "I will not permit a new search for another criminal."

It took a lot of talking and convincing for Fukichi to finally accept the request. After that, both Tachihara and the captain left the room.

"...So whats this whole thing about me saying something sensible?" Tecchou asked. "Well it's because your always saying non sensible things and your incredibly stupid." Jouno responds plainly. Y/n flicks his forehead, "that's mean. You do the same thing yknow." "I do not!"

"I'm out of here" Teruko hops out of her chair and walks away.

"Tecchou, are you now eating chocolate with soy sauce?" Jouno slowly turns towards Tecchou with his nose scrunched up and teeth clenched. Tecchou was just sitting there clueless while munching on the chocolate. "It's snack time and I rarely get a cheap day." He said. "..Now im curious, do you also pour the milk in before the cereal?"

"Yes."

"....."

"Ok that's too far, Jouno you have permission to beat his ass."

"Thank you."

Jounk cracks his knuckles and knocks the chocolate out of Tecchou's hand. "My chocolate-" "time to die bitch." Jouno jumps his ass.

"WHAT THE FU-"

To be continued ->

#bungou stray dogs #bsd x you #anime and manga #bsd #anime #fanfic #hunting dogs bsd

[the-carlos-cow-eyes]

Okay, so - I have an intense urge to explain my little concept AU with Grumpy Devon and Sunshine Jake. How will I do that?

By using Hozier's "Too Sweet" but in the female's perspective. (This is stuff I've gathered online and stuff I think would fit Jake's perspective)

NOW. ONWARD.

"I'm really picky about who I date/My body's scared, let's keep it that way." Jake being pretty strict on what it takes to access him since this is probably the only thing he can have true control over. Everything he's like has already been taken away or tainted, his body and mind are the only few "pure" things about him that he wants to stick.

"I wish I could go along, but you came off way to strong." Do not get me wrong, Jake is in fact in love with Devon. This man is head-over-heels, weak in the knees, kicking and screaming into a pillow kind of in love. However, he is worried that Devon's "bitter nature" will affect the relationship because Devon doesn't think he's worthy of good things and he perceives Jake as something good that comes once in a lifetime. Also, Devon can come off as rude or unfeeling or even like a fucking asshole sometimes, hence the "way too strong."

"You know you're tough as the ocean, bold as a storm, pretty like a bonfire, hands too rough to hold." This is Jake describing almost everything he knows and likes about Devon. He likes that he's tough and doesn't take bullshit, he likes that he's bold and will say what's on his mind, he likes - no, LOVES that Devon is pretty like a bonfire. Pretty far away, beautiful up close and pulling you in but will burn you if you make the wrong move, and Devon's hands being rough is also something to like. From experience, rough hands are stimulating to run your fingers up and down and trace. ESPECIALLY if you already have soft hands.

"I do love a sweet whiskey, but I hate it straight and cold. Baby, don't mold.." This implies that Jake likes the same things Devon does - room temperature whiskey or hard liquor, and hating when it's cold the difference is Jake prefers it sweet. Or more over, he prefers it bittersweet. And "mold" implies transformation or change, and he's saying "Don't change for me."

"I'd rather take my liquor sweet. Your coffee black, I put 6 sugars in my tea. But these things are best bittersweet, wouldn't you agree?" This is self explanatory. Jake likes sweet things because it's what seperates him from his uncle and father, who drink hard ass, bitter ass alcohol. And Jake's saying that alcohol, or them, are better bittersweet. It's almost like a discreet love confession and Devon's answer will imply if he and Jake ever have a chance at being in a relationship.

In other words, your honor, they make me severely mentally ill.

SCREAMING INTO MY PILLOW RN, OMFG

I LOVE ALL OF THIS WTF

#grumpy × sunshine jevon my beloved <3 #jevon #jake wheeler #devon evans #chucky on syfy

[thatpunkmaximoff]

[Book Three of Three]

Story: 4 out of 5 Smut: 3 out of 5

Wow. Where the hell do I even begin?

First of all, Callum is definitely my favorite. Though he is very much an Archdemon and is rough and tough with his Lady Witch, he’s also very soft with her… and ugh, he melted my heart. I honestly did not expect him to WANT Everly to peg him tho lmao.

Everly was also my favorite girl because she was so pure and innocent, and corrected her path when she saw the true path Kent was leading them all down. These two are perfect for each other.

The trip to Hell was fun, as was Callum and Everly giving each other their metal (their piercings were the best out of all them), but I was NOT a fan of the final battle with the God. Don’t get me wrong, it was good, but THAT ONE SCENE had me gasping.

You know what you did, Harley. How dare you make me take a breather before I got back into reading. Holy shit.

All in all, I loved it. This book felt different and I’m guessing it’s because of Callum’s demon-y sweetness with Everly that I don’t think Leon and Zane quite possessed with their own females.

This trilogy was amazing and I’m so sad to see it end.

Now here are my rambling thoughts...

* So Everly’s mother took her own life? I call bullshit.

* Oh no. Poor Marcus. I can’t believe Jeremiah killed him like that. What a dick.

* She found her Coven family house!

* Callum’s here! And he’s… crazy? lol.

* He got a little excited and went a little feral 😂 Poor Everly doesn’t know what to think. And now she’s given him Sam’s name since he bruised her, and Callum is pissed. FUCK. SHIT. UP!

* Yessssss. Sam deserved that.

* lol the dead grandma speaks through an old radio. Wtf 😂

* I’m getting puppy vibes from Callum. A murderous puppy, but a puppy nonetheless.

* “I’ll be watching. If your father tries to keep you, I’ll ensure you escape. I’ll bring you home.” // “Home… I don’t know if I’ve ever really had a home.” // “Home is wherever I can keep you safe.”

* “You should wear a bell so you don’t give me a heart attack.” // “A bell? Like the one’s humans put on their cats?” He tipped his head curiously. “Only if you promise to drag me around on a leash. then I’ll gladly wear your collar.”

* Callum crawling just short circuited my brain 😂

* Who the fuck is hunting Callum?

* Fuck. Lucifer sent his right-hand to speak with Callum. If Lucifer interferes, I’m gonna be pissed.

* I’ve never been more glad for Kent to be dead. He fucking put magic dampening cuffs on Everly!? I need Callum to see them and lose his shit again.

* Wow. She pegged a demon 😏

* Fuck. Who cuffed Callum?! 😩

* So that’s how the book got in the box.

* Fuck Kent for making her strip like that.

* Fuck Mrs. Hadleigh too! Stupid cunt trying to hit Everly. Dumb bitch fucked around and found out.

* Run away, Everly! And go find out what the fuck happened to your demon.

* “Everly is not, and has never been, a mere fascination. She is my reason, my logic. She is my one and only God. Think I’m mad if you wish. There is nothing left for me in this existence except for her, and I would sooner rip myself apart than allow you or any other being to stand in her way.”

* I fucking hate Lucifer.

* Aww, Callum. He doesn’t wanna claim her because he’s afraid for when she dies… but she’s dying right now, so…

* “No matter what it takes. No matter what I must sacrifice. No matter who I must kill. For you, I would burn this world and the next.”

* Lmfao. Poor Everly is trying to find a spell to get rid of the wraiths before they notice her, and fucking Callum slaps the wall to get their attention 😂

* Goddamn. Callum and rope play. I dig it.

* She can shapeshift!

* Awww. Callum is so soft. Sometimes.

* Ugh. Juniper attempting to attack Everly still pisses me off lol.

* Callum is making me interested in rope play now 😂

* “I love you more than life itself, more than my own freedom. For you and you alone, I’ve stayed alive, Everly. For you, I would face everything I ever feared. I’ve lived a thousand lifetimes and I swear I’ve loved you in every one of them.”

* Oh shit… she walked into Hell with Callum. What’s going to happen here..

* So Callum is going to get a piercing for Everly… and not the other way around? Wow. I kind of wanted Everly to get a piercing tho lol.

* She pierced his dick 😂 and got a matching clit piercing in return. Such a brave little witch.

* I’m so glad the council put Lucifer in his place. Jealous fuck.

* What the fuck!!!! It killed her?! And she was pregnant!? You’re fucking lying.

* Oh my god. She was pregnant!

* She lived. She fucking lived 😭

#booktok book review #book review #souls trilogy #soul of a witch #harley laroux #everly hadleigh #everly laverne #callum #dark romance #monster romance #demon romance #demon smut #monster smut

[reilleclan-blog]

(SPOILERS POSSIBLY)

I recently finished disco elysium. Like a day ago? It was a pretty cool game maybe I will replay it. I don't know if I "connected" with it as much as the fandom but I definitely understand why ppl felt so attached to it. At first I didn't know shit about the game literally at all I put my points mostly into logic and encyclopedia and little bit of pain ther/hand eye later on in the game. I started to realize at the beginning that the game was a heavily literature game and sometimes I don't hate games like that I'm ngl I will skip dialogue especially at the time I'm like "I got a case to do". Um but when I went into the library at the start of the game I realized encyclopedia gave u most of the time random facts about shit that wasn't necessarily "important" I didn't mind but when prompts would come up "in the mind" sometimes logic or ency would jump in and I'd say to myself this is pretty irrelevant right now and laugh about it. It's like my own mind was distracting me which is pretty funny cause I relate irl. I definitely felt the "deepness" of the character's dreams I've recently been haunted by my dreams. And realizing I'm not just some stupid ass cop and I had some darkness so deep the dream sequences were actually "shivers" but so interesting and pretty. Sometimes I definitely felt like I didn't understand but some parts of me did and "didn't". Maybe some of it was just for aesthetics. But it fit. It definitely made me interested in replaying the game for sure but idk when I will cause again the dialogue can be pretty heavy at times replaying it I wouldn't want to miss certain stuff. Also (correct me if I'm wrong I don't mind) but I felt like when he kneels in front of the mural of that figure I think she reminded him of his wife and I picked that option just cause. But I didn't realize he saw her as this all mighty being. Until the "final boss" of the dream sequence when she's leaving him. It was pretty sad being in love with someone and still not getting over it. How vulnerable it leaves u. I felt Harry's pain but honestly when the game was ending it made me feel like "maybe things aren't so bad for me" cause we solved the case I was happy with my choices letting the blonde hair girl go. And not seeing ruby shoot herself in the fucking face. I liked that I was super inquisitive than I thought I'd be. Something as simple as taking a mug and showing it to a "semi racist" lol and figuring out he had a piece of the armor. That's something I really loved about the game no lead was untouchable or insignificant. I kinda wish I got to see what happened in the end but I guess u can infer. I felt like The union guy was using us from the start so I didn't get the 2 ppl sigs (but I got 2 random drunks) so I didn't know if still count toward the construction stuff. And honestly him thinking we'd do whatever he wanted cause I was a dumbass cop was fitting b/c as the player I didn't know who to trust, I just wanted to figure out the case and have some resources since I was bone dry in a bender I had no memory of. All in all the game was interesting as hell if u like story driven rpg. Choices matter type deal. I hated that ppl genuinely hated the blonde hair chick cause she lied. I think it's such a stretch cause yeah it was a bit of a run around she was helpful to the case.(please I'm not looking for debates) I'm just saying she had her reasons for lying. And I wasn't surprised she later on left. I wish we could've helped them more it felt nice helping them even if I helped them "escape" they weren't bad ppl. Most of the revachol ppl weren't just different. I never actually "hated" anyone in the game lol. Everybody was poor and had some attitude but not bad I liked most of the characters tbh. Kim was my nigha for sure and the fact u could actually take the jackets from those dudes was pretty funny. Uh yeah good game cool game. The fucking phasmid showing up AT THE END OF THR GAME I WAS LIKE WTF?? Lol we actually got a picture of it too. Anyways Harry yeah ur depressed now but u have a good job ur a good person and u are disco??

#disco elysium #black girl #streamer

[caelum-et-ocean]

Vent!! feel free to ignore, its the little things that annoy me pretty much except i get too deep into my feelings and shit happens

i’m tired of people only reaching out to me when they need something

i’m tired of being everyone’s second choice

i just want someone to love me as much as i love them

i wish people bothered to text me first for a casual conversation

i regret trying so hard only to make little to no progress

what’s even the point of trying to continue anymore when all people do is push me away

i want someone other than my parents to say that they genuinely love me

it pains me sometimes to comfort people yet it also pains me to not be there when they need it

i’m struggling to outwardly say my feelings because i dont want to offend or make it seem like i set too many boundaries

am i the problem in people’s lives?

do i make things worse?

do i annoy people too much?

i’m not sure why i keep doing this. i want to give up so badly yet for some reason i can’t bring myself to pull the trigger or tie the rope

its like. i want to disappear but only for a short while before i go back to the real world

but why do i even want to disappear?

what’s the source of my problems?

wtf is wrong with me i can’t even answer those two questions

i’ve been considering going to therapy but i’m too scared to bring it up to anyone other than close friends and it’s not like i can pay for it anyways

this shit is getting too bad to the point where i can’t even brush it off as being “just a low period of my life”

i stopped crying too much recently

the only reasons i have cried within the past few weeks was because, i just felt like doing so

even after all the shit in my life happened, i didn’t really cry. and that’s the part that confuses me

i used to do it a lot before, what makes these moments different?

anyways i’m going to stop before i embarrass myself further. i sound so fucking edgy ANYWAYS GOODNIGHT GUYS and uh thank you, whoever read the entire thing

#lord this is a chaotic little jumble #but hey that’s what vents are right #IM DEF GOING TO REGRET POSTING THIS SO MUCH #I MADE THIS SOUND SO MUCH MORE EDGY THAN IT HAD TO BE #IM SO SORRY

[vizthedatum]

Is it just my period, or is it that the more stable I become in my environment, the more I validate my own feelings, the more I speak up for myself, the more I cut out the people-pleasing, the more that I realize that my ex has so little empathy for me... the more it hurts?

My head is pounding. I look so fucking gorgeous right now but on the inside... I feel weak. I'm shivering from pain, and it's still not as bad as it used to get. I'm so functional right now that it's amazing. But still - I'm barely unpacking (and I need to) and I can barely fucking do my work because I literally am freezing up. Yesterday, my doctor told me it's so understandable that I'm having freezes at work. I feel like all I want to do is just... chill. I wanna have fun and chill out.

I feel like I am just so... fucking good at managing life, and I don't want to be anymore. I just moved again, and that's such a huge toll. My friend almost died, FUCK. I am doing what I can at work and I honestly hate that I'm so "qualified" sometimes - I wish I weren't. Where is my job where I can pay my bills, not feel like I'm dying, and am happy with it all? I am breaking up friendships, making new ones, learning what love can be, and learning what love is not. Trying to be stable financially, paying all my bills, eating, exercising, mandatory relaxing, seeing my friends, self-care, etc. etc. etc. Gah. Like... I need a vacation from everything. I need things to kind of just work out without so much turmoil, and I need a fucking break. I am so burnt out. Someone just take me away to a beach where we can just be hot and enjoy nature for like at least a week... or a month.

I'm crying again. I know I'm not a mess, but I feel like one. I wish none of it had happened like that. I really wish it hadn't. I don't care if that would make me a fundamentally different person. I wish my parents didn't do all that they did. I wish my exes didn't do what they did. I wish I were happy with just a Bachelor's degree - and then just gotten a job. I wish my brother were healthier back then - I was basically trying to keep him alive and half-assing my own health and schoolwork for most of my twenties. I wish I had more self-worth and the courage to walk away instead of begging for breadcrumbs. I look back at pictures of myself when I was in my early twenties - and I wish I could have told that person that YOU ARE A GORGEOUS TRANS NON-BINARY MAN WHO LOVES TO WEAR MAKEUP AND BE FEMININE AND PLEASE DUMP THAT PATHETIC MAN WHO LITERALLY CANNOT LOVE YOU THE WAY YOU WANT WTF. I wish I walked away from my ex/spouse earlier so that I wouldn't be so financially devastated and completely heartbroken. I wish they didn't yell and fight with me so much. I wish that I didn't know that emotional abuse is worse than physical abuse. I wish they loved me better. I wish they were nice to me. I wish I felt safe. I wish I didn't fall in love so easily, especially with people who do not have the capacity to fill my needs - and I wish I could have said, "Nope, I love you so much, but I am not going to continue for the potential of the relationship. I will set up boundaries OR leave because I know I deserve EVERYTHING. I love myself more." Wishing is garbage now.

I am completely remodeling my life. I'm doing it now. I know that I'm hella emotional. I know that I have skills. I know I have trauma responses, and I struggle to communicate. I know that I deserve a lot. I know I love to have fun and do stuff outside. I can face my fears. I can explore the world. I deserve to have my feelings validated (especially by myself). I don't need to justify myself for feeling how I feel. I can be rejected, and I'll be ok. I am not wrong to be how I am. It's okay to not be aligned with people or my job. I am literally dating amazing people who adore me - who, so far, can hold space for me. I am *healing* and working on things - it's an ongoing process. I don't need to be perfect to live this life. I can work on my goals and not feel bad that I'm not achieving them. It's okay if I lose my job - there are more.

#healing #trauma #love #neurodivergence #queer #harm #heartbreak #self love #prose #journaling #grief #intentional feeling your feelings #ugh it's so painful

[theblogtini]

“I’m going to give him the privacy he wanted and not buy this book” - I'm crying at this! To be honest, I've done therapy many times over the years and I just cannot imagine doing shit like this to my family under the guise of therapy. As some point, you actually have to learn to move on. It's not healthy to constantly go over and over traumatising things all the time. I dearly wish H will realise he has so much - money, health, wife, children etc. More than most people.

I've been going to therapy every week - at least once a week but sometimes more frequently - since 2012. That's OVER A DECADE.

If I told my therapist I would pulling this shit she would be like WTF is wrong with you, what would EVER make you think this was a good idea?! lol

You're 100% right... at some point you have to *learn to move on*

Moving on doesn't mean it hurts less. It doesn't mean you don't care anymore. It doesn't mean that you're accepting what's happening.

But it does mean that you're willing to say "okay, that was in the past, and I am now a different person, in a different place... so I am not going to let that affect my day to day and my every day decision... I'm going to let the past be in the past and I am going to focus on the future (or at the very least the present)."

[cats-thoughts]

Hi, uh I came here because of that high school au, but what the otterverse?

oh gosh what isnt the otterverse Okay so its like a series? Where people send in asks to further the story? idk how else to describe it sorry I feel like I should direct you to Pacificseaotter, who runs the thing and also has a few different posts for catching up, but instead I'm going to try and recall the whole story by memory! Fuck it we ball yk

Okay so it started as a bit, but slowly evolved into an actual story? first season took place in a theater, It was mostly felicityphoenix5, pacificseaotter, and divorce anon (as far as I remember, also all c! they've been pretty much playing characters since the start) Felix was tied to a chair, Divorce Anon and Paci quoted hamilton at each other, I think Paci killed someone? then paci shot the chandelier, killing herself and divorce anon (revealed to be wallace-marte, crab guy) Felix survived bc xey are a phoenix. Everyone else got out alive I think? We were audience members, also tied to chairs (maybe) Meanwhile I slept through the whole chandelier thing, which becomes a reoccurring bit with my character.

Season 2 was more interaction from everyone else, it lead up to pink anon (who turned out to be wisp? I think?) convincing Otter (pacis character died so star made another, named Otter) to pull a lever, starting the apocalypse. Which my character (stickynote) slept through. This took place in a wendies btw. I made a good "wrong lever" joke. So, apocalypse started, everyone rushes to try and fix it. Eventually pink name shows up again and is like "ik how to fix this follow me" and otter is, reasonably, like "wtf no you started this whole thing like that" but eventually agrees, and goes to flip the lever again. Gumy and Pink text (probably wisp?) fight and both die. Otter dies saving Felix. Oh yeah the lever gets pulled again and MOST of the monsters of the apocalypse die/disappear. Some are still around. My guy, Stickynote, goes into stasis for 4 years, and everyone else learns to cope with the apocalypse. the wendys anons get married and start a new city.

Echo (pacis newest character) shows up and. Well they're just kinda here rn I think? Stickynote wakes from stasis and is trying to answer all of the wishes people left on the fountain beneath where they slept. Theres a kid that can control the monsters?? somehow?? Felix is in MISERY why does her wife keep SHOWING UP AFTER THEY DIE- oh yeah and divorce anon may come back we're not sure, arise from the dead and all happens sometimes

if you want an actually comprehensive update/summary of the otterverse go check out pacificseaotter and search through rains Otterverse tag, whether you want the whole story or just want to dig until you find the summary posts. I'm sorry this is so incomprehensible I have terrible memory

#chatwithcat #otterverse? #oh yeah you could also search my otterverse tag I've got 2 comics about it that might help you get the vague idea of whats going on? idk

[piecesofmicorazon]

god, why is it that everytime im here i have too much to say. i've been avoiding this as usual, even though i'm supposed to be on this self help journey. i'm supposed to be investing in myself, i'm supposed to be finding myself again.

but what does that even mean honestly?

here's what's been going on since me and bj broke up, twice. i feel like the first breakup was real but we fell back into it. we went to her soccer holiday party and then she spent the night. i love spending time with bj, i love how i can show this side of myself that i have never revealed to even myself. she has become the safest space for me. so yeah, it does break my heart that i'm not attracted to her anymore.

i want to force it, i wish i grew up different, i wish all the circumstances were different. something my therapist was saying that we are conditioned to see things a certain way sometimes. that real love is only between a boy and girl, that it's important what people think of us, you know. all of that.

i wonder if this world was different and same-sex relationships were a normal thing... would i think this way?

but unfortunately, it's not. this is how the world works and that's not how i was conditioned.

it just makes me wonder so many things.. have i been brainwashed this whole time? does any of this actually matter?

anyways, the second break up was really hard. bj didnt talk to me for a few days, i was just blowing up her phone on my own honestly lol. but finally! she came over to drop off my jacket, and it felt like everything was okay again. but i dont want her to get false hope, i dont want to keep having sleepovers that will not lead us getting back together, i dont want to keep breaking her heart. but i cant let her go, it's the most selfish thing i've ever done but i will never let her go.

in the meantime, i'm working at the coffee shop and i met a boy. like wtf right? and we all know how i get when i meet someone new. i already start to have expectations..

anyways we were supposed to hang out, and thank god we didn't because thank god i had my implant appointment. but then he came to my party on saturday and fuck he's cute and even more fuck he smelled so good, and i thought fuck, i could marry him. like what the fuck is actually wrong with me?

i was trying to avoid him the whole night but knew i would need to eventually see him and then it just all happened at once and next thing i knew.. his hand was on my waist and we were dancing and i was getting coochie butterflies. i wanted to kiss him so bad, i wanted to do the most reckless thing so bad. but then the instant guilt starts to seep in. how dare i? is this what i meant by "i have to find myself?" god, i wonder if bj knew... how much that would've hurt her. i'm such a horrible person.. am i really going to move on this quick? is this moving on? i started to self sabotage.. i started going back to that place i was at 3 years ago when i hooked up with those boys and felt like i gave myself away..

i really don't want to fall back into that cycle, i really can't. i can't do that to my precious bee.. right?

but yesterday ryan said some really lovely things to me and i was extra thankful that we were friends. he said, "all this over a DANCE?" and in that moment i felt like i stepped out of myself to see it from a bigger picture standpoint, and i thought. wtf? he's right!

i'm not trying to be reckless. but at the end of the day, i can't try to plan out my growth. perhaps a couple mistakes along the way is going to help shape my growth.. who knows. what i know is -- i can't jump into a relationship, i don't owe anyone anything and this is all on my terms. there is nothing to overthink, i don't need to be concerned if he's messaging me, paying attention, because i made a commitment to myself and bj that i would do this self journey for a reason. to be less selfish, to be more kind and hold more grace. so as i start this therapy journey especially, i'm going to learn about me again. unpack trauma and emotions. it's going to be amazing.

so cheers to whatever that looks like. my journey is my own and i don't want it to be influenced by anyone, even bee. that will be hard but perhaps that's what i'll have to work on letting go. even with a little bit of time i am learning that life does go on, time does heal, and i don't have to be bound to any expectations.

now. i'm still trying to figure out what i want to do with this man. go on dates? kiss? hook up? date? god, who knows. it may not even go anywhere. honestly that's probably is what will happen. i already find some things weird about it. i don't want to just be excited just because it's the only person that's in front of me.

still, that's life.

[balkanballad]

So, i met this german guy in the hostel i was staying and we had a *vibe* from the first moment, it was so obvious that strangers asked us if we're together. And we had sex the second day but now im sad because he is doing erasmus in a city near mine but he obviously wants nothing to do with me because he didn't even follow me back on Instagram and i mean, okay it was just a random hookup but sometimes it gets me how every guy i have sex with wants nothing to do with me after that. And everyday i hear all this stories of people that have long distance relationships and travel to different countries to see their lovers and im like wtf is wrong with me and why im so easy to forget. And how men's brain works because the german guy seemed to really enjoy our hookup and he said multiple times im cute but he didn't want to have sex again the next night. Yeah idk where this is going, i just feel really lonely and like shit and i also kinda miss him cause he was so sweet and i liked his personality. And also, well, even tho it was obvious he liked me, we wouldn't have sex if i didn't do the first move and that's always the case with guys, they never like me *enough* to try for me. I just feel like i ran behind every guy I like, i dont mind trying tbh but i wonder if they take me for granted because I'm so obvious when i like someone.

(uf, not a German guy... just joking, sorry. I had to) oh dear :( I always feel a bit honored when I get anons like these and hope it helped to simply put it out because somedays that really is the best thing to do - put it and let it go. however, I also feel a bit sad that I am probably not the best person to give any good advice here. I get a lot of the things you are talking about, I really do, and I understand those feelings like 'when is it my turn? can things go the right way for me too?' one thing I can't stop repeating to myself is: stop comparing yourself with others. And I don't only mean looks but also situations. Just like everyone has their own face and body we have our own relationships of all different kinds, which are our own. I don't think anyone would actually be even able to switch these with any other person on the planet (and also like it) because they are as individual as we are.

I really hope that you won't feel lonely for a long time. I think it's very brave to do the first move. You seem a lot braver than me. I wish that I would dare that and be less scared of rejection (it's on my to do list... I am trying but it's hard). Personally, I think it's making it easier for everyone involved if the communication is clear. So, look at you, being brave and communicating clearly :) amazing. what the other person decides to do is not in your hands and it also is hard to assume what the other person is actually thinking, going through themselves maybe etc. sometimes it is simply not meant to be something more (I know, sadly). But maybe it was good for something or just somewhen a fun memory to talk about.

#asks #i know it will pass. as dumb as that sounds but with your brave heart #you can do it. you are living having fun and everything else will also surely find its place #btw as i am saying this i really mean that i am trying to also live a bit more but even if not i can appreciate all the other kinds of love #that helps me too when i get really lonely. hope it helped a bit <3