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captainclervals · 1 year

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I am once again thinking about Walton's objectifiation of Victor and how regardless of the kindness and good intentions he showed he still didn't treat him like a person

because how can you really have the deepest human empathy and genuine love for someone, while seeing them absolutely heartbroken and losing the last grasp on the will to live, in despair over losing every single meaningful thing they'd ever had—and as they cry in front of you in the most vulnerable and tormented shape you've ever seen another person sink to, you think of how noble and divine and beautiful they are

he couldn't have been in love with Victor

there's not really a way to truly love someone you've literally just met, you can have a spark of attraction, an interest, a connection; you can get along and take the first steps of learning about each other and realize that you do want to develop the relationship further; depending on the person and personalities you can even have a mutual affection, but how can you actually be in love with someone you don't know?

it's not being in love with the person—it's being smitten with the idea of them, and in love with the picture of them you've painted in your own head, completely divorced from the real living breathing multifaceted person

and Walton (subconsciously) didn't allow himself the opportunity to see Victor as that layered multidimensional person that he could grow with and learn how to best love. he was just as much at fault as Victor for the distance between them that couldn't be bridged. Victor may have rejected Walton's offers of help and company in starting his life over—he put distance between "friend" and "soulmate"

but Walton practically put all the miles between the dirt and the seventh heaven between them. he lifted Victor from a lonely death in the ice, but higher and higher too, until he was more of an idol than a person, until Walton could just watch from the ground and admire and yearn after all that knowledge and beauty and mystery that he can never obtain, never conquer, because he put it out of his own reach. and when Victor made those small steps closer to connect to Walton, Walton deferred further to kneel even lower, insisting on his inferiority, his subpar education/intelligence, his faults, his desperate need for someone far greater to patiently guide and direct his life for him

there could never be a middle ground because Walton wouldn't let himself think of Victor being on that level with him. he talked about how he always wanted to be with a man whose eyes could reply to his but he couldn't even allow themselves to be on equal footing to look him in the eye at all

#txt #ive gone over this before i know but every time i think of it i realize how much more flawed it is on waltons side too #i want to psychoanalyze him.#why tf does he put such lofty things seemingly deliberately out of his own reach #its like he sets himself up for failure but maybe doesnt even realize it #not just with the whole massive deadly undertaking of exploring the north pole thing #but even in his early years #things like his poetry #he wouldnt let himself just learn to be a poet and enjoy it #his goal was to be on the level of shakespeare and homer and whatever. and when he inevitably failed to live up to that #in a short amount of time #he gave up in despair #for some reason he needs things to be out of reach. if its realistically obtainable he cant let himself strive for it #dont @ me im just crawling around after hours.

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mxwhore · 1 year

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thinking about uploading here martin 1 from hunger pangs...

#tell me ur opinion mutuals #as deliberate advertisement and to give myself time to #REST #tbh i still need to do commissions because itchio still doesnt give me my moola #therefore i couldnt save a thing for my trip... living costs and all that #so overall it dodsent matter please support me...#im going to do some remote work for my professional practice so i wanna do some more personal projects too :3 #tessas txt #me wam rest #most of all

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homielander · 1 year

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every once in a while i remember that nobody in season 3, not even annie or MM, ever bothered to bring up the very valid point that maybe the boys shouldn't be hunting and killing supes who haven't actually done anything wrong (at least to their knowledge), and i am filled with rage all over again

#when annie and mm at herogasm were like. 'u cant blow up the house! theres human s*x workers there!'#i THINK ur forgetting some people idk....#unless they had proof that each of these supes was a deplorable murderer i am not interested in hearing excuses #like did the tnt twins even do anything other than enjoy weird s*x parties?#and weirdly hughie's conscience kicked in for mindstorm but not the herogasm supes who were. as far as he knew. just as innocent #i guess atp ever non-7 supe is written like a cartoon villain and mindstorm was only needed to wake billy so y would the audience even care #also only used the * because i know the tumblr tags are funky and hide posts #the boys #also like idk. maybe all of s3 was a pov trap and later audiences will recognize the gruesome reality of what they were cheering for #and btw some of you WERE cheering like weirdos #'to stop the unstable supervillain they should work with the other unstable supervillain! the second of whom is actively blowing ppl up!' 🤨📸#and i STILL think annie's resistance was dumb because they tied it around toxic masculinity for hughie 'benchpress me' campbell #and annie failed to bring up the much more devastating impacts of what he and butcher were doing #it's just as much as i want to think this is deliberate on the writers' part. why WOULDN'T they have their moral beacon raise #the most pressing issue at hand? not her being undermined or working with someone bad but lives being lost? idk.#especially considering annie's arc is not one of corruption or even overcoming corruption. she's just the total good guy #point is it just makes me worry for what's next #(also me complaining abt the boys s3... it feels like old times <3)

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toxapex-lore · 7 months

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I’ve been wondering something about Rayne’s world. Is it like another dimension, or a different universe entirely? I remember reading that she traveled between worlds. How does she do that?

Also a semi-related question. Do Legendaries in that world function the same as in other worlds? Like do they fulfill the same roles, or do they differ in any way?

Lastly, are Legendaries in your universe(s) immortal? I know that Rayne killed a bunch of them, but would they have died eventually anyway, or are they functionally immortal and can only die by a deliberate act? Is there a special technique you have to use? (I’m not planning on killing any of them I swear)

Sorry if that’s too many questions, I started thinking of more and more as I wrote this XD

What is Rayne’s World?

As a pre-warning I’m going to apologise for my blatant misuse of the word ‘Universe’. I know what it means, and the space and physics loving side of me hates that I’m misusing it, but I cannot think of a better term to explain it, so sorry in advance.

Okay, so to start with I’m going to explain what I consider Universes and Worlds! A Universe is a collection of Worlds (and some inbetween space, such as the Distortion World, Ultra Space, etc) and each Universe only has one Arceus and Creation Trio.

A World, however, is more comparable to the ACTUAL definition of universe - like the one we live in! The Pokémon, Pokémon Mystery Dungeon, and Poképark games would all be three separate Worlds for example! Furthermore, Pokémon Diamond and Pokémon Pearl would always take place in seperate Worlds, due to conflicting events.

Basically, if something would count as an alternate universe or alternate timeline, it’s a new World! If you’ve seen my Toyhouse, Canon Compliant and Hydra’s World (or as we’re calling it here, Rayne’s World) are both different Worlds in the same Universe, whereas Gods and Servants is another Universe entirely!

How does Rayne travel between Worlds?

Well, to answer that, I’m going to have to talk about another character entirely, as Rayne’s story does not begin with herself.

It begins with a Hisuian Decidueye, partner to the main character of Canon Compliant’s events of Pokémon Legends Arceus. This Decidueye is called Tansy, and after the events of PLA, she was frustrated that Arceus did not send her Trainer back to the present, and decided the reasonable course of action would to be to fight Arceus to show them that they were in the wrong.

This did not work, and Tansy was killed by Arceus after a hard battle. Impressed by her strength, however, they decided they could use her to help subdue rogue gods in others Worlds. Tansy was reborn as an Alolan Decidueye, and given a blessing so that she could not truly die - she would instead travel to another World when she was either killed, or subdued the rogue god in that specific World.

However, Tansy eventually stopped enacting Arceus’ will, and yet the god was not ready to lose out on her strength just yet. Tansy’s corpse had remained in Arceus’ realm, and so they decided to make an artificial soul to inhabit it and use its power. A soul that had Tansy’s skills and her blessing, but none of her personality, only a desire to make sure the gods did not step out of line and cause major problems. This being, now inhabiting inside of Tansy’s repaired body, was sent out into a random World to wake up. Initially, they did their job very well, but eventually became jaded by the amount of rogue gods they saw, and decided the obvious solution was to kill all of the gods before they turned rogue.

As I’m sure you will have guessed by now, this being was Rayne, although she is fully unaware of her origins. As far as she knows, she woke up in a field with amnesia, and has always been able to travel between Worlds either through death, or killing the ‘correct’ god.

However, after she became determined to kill every god in the World that we know as Hydra’s World, Arceus limited her blessing, and she was no longer able to travel between Worlds. Instead, she now returns to that same World, after a period of a few days to a few months.

Legendaries in Rayne’s World

Short answer to that; the Legendaries & Mythicals in Rayne’s World are actually recruited from other Worlds, and although they typically have the same powers as the others of their species, in their new World they are expected to be doing the jobs of multiple gods.

Long answer: there were eight gods who travelled to Rayne’s World (a Meloetta, Shaymin, Landorus, Tapu Fini, Hoopa, Celebi, Jirachi and a Yveltal), as well as Lilith the Darkrai, the sole known survivor, due to allying with Rayne. Furthermore, there have been three gods born (a Marshadow named Darci, a Jirachi named Goose, and a Hoopa named Currant) and a single demigod born (Sotis, Rayne’s child), making the total number of divine beings thirteen.

The Jirachi, who is called Shallot, is currently sleeping, but their job was to take the light from Luci’s corpse (a Necrozma who assisted Rayne during the mass deicide, and later betrayed her) and redistribute it. However, some of that light was already used up, leading the world to have shorter days and winters of darkness.

Shamin, Landorus, Celebi and later Goose are in charge of making sure enough plants are growing in the world for food, as winters are extremely cold and lack sunlight, easily killing the majority of plants. Additionally, Landorus is in charge of making sure storms do not become too destructive.

Tapu Fini is in charge of making sure the seas do not become too violent, as well as currently holding the objects housing the souls of Treasures of Ruin to prevent them from reincarnating - their seals did not last forever, and they eventually broke free, causing a lot of death and destruction to a world that is already very sensitive to that. The reason why she was chosen to be the holder of them is that none of them can get access to their element underwater, so they are unable to reform their bodies!

The Yveltal, Mara, and her son Sotis, are effectively performing the role of the full Aura Trio by ensuring both life and death stay in balance, rather than just death, as they normally would as Yveltals. It is their job to monitor how many have died, prevent unnatural revivals or gaining of immortality, and in the worst case scenario deliberately revive Pokémon to avoid their World from completely dying out - humanity is already extinct, as well as a few Pokémon species, and the population is very low in general.

The Hoopa, named Allium, and his daughter Currant, are in charge of obtaining any objects someone may need from another World! Furthermore, if you want to leave this World, you will need to talk to Allium and convince them to use their rings.

As an adult, Darci uses his powers to both deliver messages between the gods, as well as explore the world, both surveying the state it is in and bring anything he finds worrying up to the others, and trying to find items that may be useful! She also provides Z-Crystals, as her body naturally forms them!

Lilith, both due to not being fully trusted due to her past (although is she is trusted far more than Rayne, due to her genuinely being kind, and as far as the other gods are aware, never actually killing another god, only helping Rayne and Lilith plan) and causing nightmares as a Darkrai, does not officially have a job. However, she is often the one the other gods elect to talk to Rayne, as they are close friends.

Meloetta basically works as the overseer of both the gods, making sure no one is having any interpersonal issues (which is very common, unfortunately) and that they are both doing their job and not abusing their powers against mortals (something Rayne has made clear that she will not tolerate). Basically she’s their manager!

Overall, they are doing a LOT more work than they typically should be doing - either by covering domains related to theirs, or a much larger territory than they would usually. It is apparent that the gods are stretched thin, as their World is far less habitable than others, but fortunately the remaining Pokémon have adapted to these harsh conditions!

Legendary/Mythical Immortality

Arceus and the Creation Trio are the only ones who are truly immortal in every sense of the word, as they are less living beings and more part of the Universe itself, and need to uphold its order.

However, Mythicals and Legendaries lifespan range from long-lived to immortal to being able to revive themselves! They are all able to be killed, but how difficult a task that is depends on who you are killing, especially if you need them to stay dead.

Generally, Mythicals tend to only be long-lived, and will eventually die by natural causes, whereas Legendaries are immortal and have to be killed by outside means.

You’re correct in that some of them do need a special method to be truly killed though! Victini, due to being the Victory Pokémon, is very hard to kill in direct battle, as that is a situation where there is a winner and a loser. However, indirect confrontation, such as poisoning or natural hazards, would circumvent that issue!

Furthermore, Xerneas and Yveltal have to be killed twice to avoid them simply reviving themselves, by destroying their tree and cocoon respectively.

Most of them, however, only require you to be strong.

Thank you for asking all of these questions by the way! It’s nice to know what may need elaborated on explanation wise, and all of your questions I have genuinely thought about before!

#general thoughts as I type this:#yes there is something Extremely Wrong with Tansy’s Arceus. god simply does not care about individuals - only the big picture.#(they’re also not used to being directly disobeyed)#yes the gods in Rayne’s World know it’s Bad. they’re trying their best though - it’s hard to convince other gods to help #Especially Since the individual guilty of killing the last set of gods is still living there herself - even if she’s retired #and later reformed #I don’t know what role Marshadow is meant to fill other than ‘copycat fighter’ so Darci’s role is more based on his personality!#he likes exploring and fighting… capable of both travelling the world and defending himself if needed!#the immortality status of gods Varies. I need to work out the specifics for all of them. but I’ve had thoughts on a couple!#it’s rare to hear of a god being killed though - most of the time it’s their own recklessness. They can get overconfident in being stronger #than mortals. But rarely it is due to someone deliberately killing them… very worrying…#oh god who do I tag for this #oc lore #hydra’s world #tansy (oc)#hydra/rayne (oc)#mara (oc)#sotis (oc)#shallot (oc)#darci (oc)#lilith (oc)#i think that’s the majority who got major lore mentioned?#OH ALSO: meta wise Rayne originated as an AU of Tansy! hence why they’re still connected - even when she did become her own OC…#I’m so very glad I got to talk about those two… love them both so much...

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humandisastersquad · 1 year

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#i am. i am going to murder the entire government #auspol #covid 19 #this is completely and utterly enraging #i mean im fully aware of how theyre deliberately not informing and /mis/informing the public about covid by downplaying it etc #so this is to be expected but idk it's just really set me off i need to go kick the living shit out of albo and paul kelly #and every other asshole responsible for withholding vital statistics from the public and esp researchers #that could have informed the public better and possibly have saved lives #i jsut #aaRHRHHHFGJGHFJDKHG FUCK!!!!#FUCK!!!!#FUCK the government #both the current and previous #for this absolute shitshow and callous disregard for human life and health

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justinefrischmanngf · 5 months

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people tend to compliment me when they’re apologising to me and like i appreciate their apologies and it’s sweet of them to compliment me, but it’s also just like, i don’t want to be the bigger person here. i don’t want to be like yeah great i have this skill and you don’t and because you don’t you’ve hurt me but awesome! i’ve got it! like idk i’m just feeling very petty and sad and full of Emotion and i’ll get over it but idk. i have this real desire to be so cruel and i won’t act on it but idk it’s this horrible part of me that wants to be like well fuck it EYE want to be the one fucking up and hurting people and making things complicated !!!!!!! and that’s not ok!

#this is not to say i’ve never fucked up or hurt people because i definitely have and i deeply deeply wish that i hadnt #and i’m obviously not going to go out and start being rly cruel to people and honestly people are very rarely cruel to me #these things that i’m talking about have never been to deliberately hurt me #so it’s not like it’s a big deal.#i’m just angry & sad. and have had a weird week. and my room is a mess. and i need to shower.#and this is all so silly because nothing’s rly a big deal like GENUINELY if i was in a better frame of mind it wouldnt matter #but i’m not and so it does ! and i’ve been connecting so many dots lately which is just not rly all that pleasant i cant lie #anyway. i live a very good life and i need to remember that

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clonerightsagenda · 1 year

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cuntboy-official

bad kepler takes? im listening

Love that you knew exactly who I was talking about.

Because I am stuck waiting for the dishwasher to finish I will post my Complaint untagged but I want people to know this was solicited. I'm not trying to provoke people with different interpretations.

Basically to each their own, and I know my read of the character trends toward the unsympathetic, but I am bewildered by assertions I see regularly that Kepler was broken up over or even fazed by Maxwell dying. When Jacobi gives his heartfelt eulogy, Kepler is making snide comments about only attending the funeral for the food. He complains about his hand ("Big deal. I just lost command of this station. I just lost a hand.") but noticeably does not complain about losing an entire human being. In Dirty Work once he realizes Jacobi is pissed about Maxwell's death, his response is incredulous: "After everything you've seen, you're still not over -." The idea that someone might still be grieving about their friend and teammate being shot in the head is so wild to him that he is blindsided by it.

And it's important that this is the case, because that's why Jacobi turns on him. If Kepler had shown any kind of remorse or sympathy, I honestly don't think Jacobi would've defected. Even at the very end, after Kepler has let him get puppeted around for two weeks and is allegedly cool with wiping out and replacing the human race, Jacobi is still willing to let him come crawling back if he would just say sorry. Belonging to a group and being part of something is important to Jacobi, and Kepler not turning a hair over Maxwell dying indicates that they were never valued as much as he thought they were. ("You treated me like one of them".)

I do think Kepler gives an atrophied fuck about what happens to Jacobi, albeit not enough that it does either of them any good in the end. But I do not think he gave much of a damn about Maxwell beyond her value as an asset, and tbh I suspect the feeling was mutual. Jacobi was there because he values group membership and validation. Maxwell valued the resources Goddard could provide; she didn't need pats on the head.

#cuntboy-official #replies #Kepler has spent an unspecified amount of time deliberately making himself into someone who doesn't care about other people #and sees them as handy buttons to press and levers to pull #and it takes one of those carefully calibrated tools going 'fuck you' for him to go oh uh #is that a human being. what do you do with those again #and then he's rendered himself unable to answer that question and dies for it among other things #but even when he is taking those tiny last baby steps of like.#acknowledging that people may have actual feelings #he Still does not indicate any kind of regret over Maxwell #idk I know si5 evil found family is popular but I am more amused by a triangle with t he sides of #fucked up vaguely homoerotic and lopsided whatever the fuck THAT is #besties #and two people who dont' really care if the other one lives or dies but are being professional about it #so you know. regular coworkers mostly #the one rebuttal here is him pulling out the stops to rescue her that time she got trapped in the lab #but imo based on how he reacts elsewhere this was more bc he needed her to control hera #than bc of personal feelings #wolf 359

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