#and i just. gods i'm Struggling!!

[clouvu]

Save me french yuri... Save me

#genshin impact #arledrone #sandrone #arlecchino #haha remember when we all thought that sandrone and arlecchino would both show up in fontaine and be gay together? #good times.... good times #jk i'm ready to end it all actually #I KNOW WE HAVE LIKE ONE LAST MAJOR FRENCH PATCH BEFORE NATLAN BUT IVE JUST ABOUT LOST ALL HOPE #the way that literally every wlw arle pairing got fed so well following arle's drip marketing EXCEPT for arledrn... hate it here so bad #anyways shipping aside HOW is it possible that the frenchiest of french harbingers with heavy ties to machinery #and like two major world quests tied to specifically to her lore and is even MENTIONED of being present in fontaine #also being one of the first harbingers ever mentioned dating back all the way to the description of chode's teaser trailer #just???? doesnt show up?????? #Sandy enjoyers are stronger than any us marine because my GOD are we struggling out here #anyways ignore the fact that I completely forgot to draw sandy's wind up key it was hard drawing through the tears #(actually it was cause i half-assed this doodle but we dont talk about that)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I was *not* longing, I swear.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #wen ning #If you have not listened to this scene in the audio drama I am *pleading* for you to #It's so funny. Oh my god the voice actors nail the part. Plus the music cutting out abruptly #Genuinely incredible comedic timing. #WWX voice: 'I was almost caught having an (unidentifiable ) emotion. How embarrassing. It will never happen again.' (lie) #wwx has unlocked: aesthetic attraction. He is now starting to develop emotional attachment. #This is a incompatible program with the current version of WWX. He requires an additional update #Please note that the actual countdown is *eight* seconds before passing out. My memory was fallible when I did my blocking #pd-mdzs lwj gets an extra 2 seconds. One for each bunny ear. #This comic kicked my ass a little. Normally I don't re-do comics unless its pertinent #but I struggled with getting this one 'just right enough'. And I'm happy with it! B*)

[dandyleyen]

Twitter post | Fellas, is it gay to hold hands in the bath and share your mana ?

#i've been thinking about this for days #gnawing at some bones rn #GOD #they're so cute i sure hope nothing awful befalls them #also i'm still struggling to stylize them in my style but its baby steps okay pls give me some peace #anyways i'm nauseous thinking about the next episode just because the next two or three chapters in the manga are. stressy. #shoutout to marcille for surviving this bc i would've dropped dead i would've had a heart attack #so how evident is it that falin consistently has me twirling my hair you guys #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #screencap redraw #farcille #marcille donato #marcille #falin touden #falin #my art #fanart

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

I've been reading Exodus lately and I've just gotten to the portions where God gives the first commands to the people via Moses (twice), and then goes on to give detailed instructions about the tabernacle and how it should be built, and I'm just... we think art is unimportant?? we think things only mean as much as their functionality?? we so easily fall into the trap of believing that beauty means nothing, that it's cheap and only worth whatever mindless distraction it brings, that it's barely more than a cheap sensual thrill, that buildings should just be practical and plain and cheap, that everything should be functional but ultimately disposable, that paintings and dresses and mugs and curtains and carpets are just pretty but have no real value, that beauty is fleeting and vain and therefore shouldn't be thought about too much, if even looked for at all... we fall into these traps so easily, and we forget that there are chapters upon chapters of painstakingly detailed plans to build one portable worship tent, and those plans have been handed down through thousands of years of human history, because beauty and art and skill in craft is important

#I have to go get ready for work now but I will come back to this #and don't even get me started on the parts about God calling specific craftsmen *by name* #he called them!! by name!!! he said 'this man is good at his job. he creates beautiful work. he will build my temple and make it beautiful' #and even more--God inspired him!!!! it was a calling of GOD for him to create beautiful carvings and tapestries and candlesticks!!! #look even if you're not jewish or christian or religious at all you have GOT to see what it means that all these incredibly detailed plans #for building this tent-temple are extremely important #because even if you don't believe in God and don't think that this is all significant bc he personally gave the instructions #and then helped preserve this record of them so we could still read them today #you do have to see how important they were to the people of that time who first wrote them down #and the extreme care that was taken to record all of those detail #AND the fact that it's been preserved for so long and we can still read all the care that was put into creating this incredible piece #of artwork and worship they made #gurt says stuff #I just. gahhfhhfj. I'm feeling emotional about chapters of the Bible that I can't even fully force myself to pay attention to #bc there's so MUCH and I'm bad at visualizing this stuff and I tend to zone out while listening to it #but the fact that it IS that much!!! that there SO MUCH DETAIL and it goes on for SO LONG that I even struggle to pay attention!!! #that this was THAT IMPORTANT to the people who wrote it and to God!!! as an artist and someone who has always cared about art #this means so much to me ok #christianity #bible verse #bible thoughts #exodus #art #theology

[guntapon]

You can read lips, right? [...] Have a... sweet... dream. Do you get what I said?

FOURTH NATTAWAT as LI MING & GEMINI NORAWIT as HEART ↳ [EP03] MOONLIGHT CHICKEN (2023) dir. Aof Noppharnach Chaiwimol

#moonlight chicken #moonlight chicken the series #heartliming #heart x liming #fourth nattawat #gemini norawit #geminifourth #thaidrama #* #mlc* #gemfourth* #struggled so hard to get that panning shot squeezed into one 540x450 gif #but i had to include it because it was so ahhhhhhhhh #god someone please tell me what exactly i'm supposed to do with how much i adore them #three episodes in and i already have 34733 things to say about them #unfortunately my brain is a jumbled mess but #just know. just Know. there are thoughts up there

[mintjeru]

it probably wasn't the smartest decision to start an ongoing 1000+ chapter webnovel when i know it'll consume my every waking thought but here we are

open for better quality | no reposts

#turning novel #터닝 #kishiar la orr #yuder aile #when i tell you i read the manhwa in one go last night and then started reading the novel today bc commenters said it was good #and my god were they right #i'm 40+ chapters in so i've just passed where the manhwa is at rn and wow #first of all thank god there are high quality and easily accessible translations #second of all kuyu-nim has a way of making all the lines carry weight. the dialogue and body language cues especially #like i'm definitely not that far in but there are already a few lines i can point out that made my heart clench #and the tension between the two leads is so so palpable #kishiar is very enigmatic i'm very interested in finding out what he's really thinking and what his abilities are #and i really appreciate the way yuder's development is focused on him caring about others and relying on them #ok and third the fact that it's a slow burn romance but focuses heavily on the plot and politics and relationships is so good #based on the tags this could have been very tropey but they didn't go that route and i'm glad for it #in other news i'm upset about how yuder came out but i have to post him bc i will not separate them ;;; #thought kishiar would be harder to draw bc he's pretty:tm: and i struggle drawing pretty boys but yuder put me through the wringer fr #anyway!! i love them very much!! going a little insane over them as you can see!!

[zukkaoru]

🌱 alive & free (look at me!) 🌱

The man is wrapped in a blanket that was likely white at one point but is now smeared with dirt and grass stains. His hair, too, is dirty. Like he’s been sleeping on the ground for more than just one night. Kenji tiptoes over to him. He rolls his shoulder, then kneels down beside the man and pokes him. “Um, sir, are you okay?” The man doesn’t respond. Kenji pokes him harder, putting a little extra strength into it with the help of his ability. The man rolls from his side over onto his stomach, groaning. Kenji breathes out a sigh of relief. That means he’s not dead, at least. “Are you—” he whistles. “Are you hurt?” “Twelve seconds,” the man responds, still facedown in the dirt. “Then, I’m going kill you.”

after the decay of angels incident, kenji makes a new friend and nikolai starts to heal

🌱 22.4k words || kenji & nikolai || post-doa arc 🌱 written for corey @that-was-anticlimactic <3

#kenji miyazawa #nikolai gogol #bsd #bungou stray dogs #nikolai #fyonikonathan #<- there's enough in there it counts i'm tagging it here #anyway. um. oh my god i can't believe i wrote this #my longest oneshot in just over two years. my longest bsd fic to date. #and it's about two characters i have STRUGGLED with getting down #like nikolai i was pretty confident with when i started this. but kenji????? #man i jumped into this blind with him and i somehow found him along the way #anyway not to toot my own horn but i went off with this fic. it's a banger. you all should read it #grace's writing tag

[sskk-manifesto]

Proof that bsd would be a lot better if they just let it pass the Bechdel test more often

#It barely counts too since the conversation between Kyouka and Kouyou verges a lot on men but eh that's the best we can offer #Idk I just really like Kyouka's arc and think that in this episode too it was well developed. #Her relationship with Kouyou really is one of the most interesting of the whole franchise. #About that I LOVE LOVE LOVE KOUYOU WHY AREN'T WE TALKING ABOUT HER ALL THE TIME I want her back as soon as possible 😭😭😭 #And her va is k/l/k's Ryuuko va aka my favourite va ever from my favourite anime ever. God I love k/l/k an inconceivable amount #Which is funny because k/l/k also does have a villain mother figure #The Kyouka / Kouyou dynamics are a lot like. The very watered down version of the Emma / Isabella dynamics. #(I'm once again saying read t/p/n) #I just think. Kyouka's interior struggle is really interesting and we don't talk about it enough!!! #Also FINALLY SEASON 2 ATSUSHI HOW I'VE MISSED YOU!!!!!!!! #I really don't know what's up with anime Atsushi every time he's on screen I'm hit by cuteness aggression. It's an illness. #Next. Can we agree Reason Living is the best b/sd op of them all both music wise and visuals wise #MAYBE on par with True Story for visuals but that's it. #Again I really can't vibe with Granrodeao but that's intrinsically a matter of personal taste ////// #MARGARET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MARGARET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #Also Akutagawa voice cameo eheh <33 #There'll probably be a lot of screaming over characters this time lol sorry in advance. Unfollow me now etc. etc. #random rambles

[madootles]

a baby

#vash the stampede #trigun #I saw one mention of trigun stampede and immediately it was time to rewatch trigun 1998 #it's still so good #who ever said vash was the original babygirl was so correct #babygirl #I must've last watched it around ten years ago and I totally forgot it's the one fucking season #TRULY HEARTBREAKING #my GOD #fma03 already destroyed me why did I get back into trigun #anyway I binged all of trigun stampede and WOW he is pathetic I love him #just completely :c #I am so depressed that the next season is like two years away but goddamn I am excited for Millie #also I'm sorry but I'm losing my mind over the theme song and post credits song for tristampede WHY ARE THEY SO GOOD #injecting them into my veins #although 98 theme song is so good too #anime #fan art #his hair is WOW difficult #not a fan honestly but I struggled harder with the OG haircut so this is it #sketch #vash #trigun stampede

[shannonsketches]

he's so important to me

#i guess i need to watch the anime but super's manga has just been a self-indulgent fever dream for me from start to finish #100000/10 absolutely perfect so validating so extremely catered to my tastes and headcanons and analyses and humor #so fucking funny and emotional and intense and goofy and beautifully drawn #my beautiful son getting to finally fucking see his HARD won character growth fucking shine and choose love and choose to be loved!!!!!! #Goku just being Goku Vegeta being Team Dad Piccolo being Team Grandpa Bulma being a fucking superstar keeping everybody organized and fed #god i love this squad i love this series i love these dumbasses and their struggles and their triumphs and their stupid childish bonding #I love that Toriyama just spent the last several years reminding the class that DB as a whole has always been an ACTION-COMEDY about LOVE #and I'm SO sad that the z anime really never did it justice in that sense because of having to fill time with dramatic tension but god. GOD #THE MANGA HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO CLEAR ON THAT THESIS. #Just all about Restorative Justice and Community and CARING even when you wish SO MUCH that you didn't care but yoU DO GODDAMMIT!!! #SUCH a great series I'm so sad it took losing mr t for me to finally read it but my god I needed to read it now and I'm so glad he wrote it #and i'm SO glad he wrote it Exactly Like This #once again rip to a legend i'm caught up and crying it's so perfect it's SO everything I've wanted to see onscreen and embedded in canon #and canon isn't everything but it still feels gREAT to be SO 1:1 on the same page with an author re: how you interpret your blorbo yknow??? #been rotating this man in my head for 25 years and Mr Toriyama just mWAH kissed me on the forehead about it #anyway enough tag rambles I'm off again aklsjla #bonus for that kenpachi shit and letting him say 'sorry dude I can't be cold and numb anymore but this is still cathartic as fuck lol' like #mr t i hope you see the HIGHEST tier of heaven for that (and obviously for like everything all of it the whole life you led)

[vynnyal]

Btw I'm basically speedrunning now

#Rain world #game clips #I've gotten a lot better since I made this video but I still love it. This will be my tenth challenge and I've spent like 7 hours on it lol #I mean 7 hours of actual attempts before I realized I need to get better to stand a chance. #So I'm smacking my friends in the face with rocks while sliding or have to wait for everyone to catch up all the time #Because now I can't NOT use the cool movement tech I've learned. It's so fun and useful and ✨fast✨ #It's actually saved our lives so many times. Nothing funnier than yelling ''BEND OVER'' to my buddy and absolutely booking it #Also since we've delved into the world of modded regions it's been extremely nice for the bs parkour people include for no reason 😭 #If I'M struggling good god it must be tough for casual players #SPEAKING OF MODS! I've been hanging out and talking with modders and oh my god they're all crazy #One of my favs was the deserted wastelands dev who was just. So jaded. it was so funny #And we're playing thru Drought which is very interesting. It has like. Multiple endings and stuff #Finally know who that striped black cat is lmao #Gonna post some fanart in the future because I'm actually in love. Moon is such a mom in this campaign #It's also a horribly glitchy mess that destroys your game files but wwyd

[dameronalone]

tism/ND ppl with executive dysfunction:

how the fuck do you get yourself to eat food when any amount of preparation feels entirely unreasonable

ive had such low energy the past like week and a half I'm barely eating enough food to get me through the day and def not like whole entire meals like I used to or intend to or sometimes was able to manage.

it especially sucks bc I loveeeee cooking I really do but cleaning up is such a chore it sucks all the joy out of cooking. and even when I know I enjoy cooking, the idea of standing for all that time and using all that energy to make food I will eat in less than ten minutes just. makes it not worth it

even like, making a sandwich. I'm not a huge sandwich person it's not really my jam. I'll eat them but I don't like go OH BOY SANDWICHES. idk. idk

simultaneously my sensory issues mean I typically dislike canned soup with meat/noodles/veg in it and I typically don't like most frozen means if they have meat in it. I just don't like the texture of meat when it's been frozen and microwaved. and when I don't cook, I don't have leftovers to eat for lunch when I come home from work which means I often just eat a little snack during my break.

i just don't know what to do and I don't think getting fast food is a good solution either because I don't have that kind of money to spend on groceries AND THEN ALSO for takeout or whatever

like I don't know what to do. I am so often not even very hungry and I know that's probably at least partially a side effect from my meds but then I just don't think about it and it's just such a decision paralysis meltdown inducing task to try and figure out what I'm going to eat for dinner it's like what even is the point. and I live by myself so there's nobody to share the load of cooking or even deciding what to do

all that to say, tism/ND ppl with executive dysfunction: pls tell me you have advice that I haven't tried already that actually works

#autism #actually autistic #autistic #adhd #actually adhd #adhd problems #neurodivergent #food tw #like I'm really glad I'm able to live by myself but I just #im struggling to see how this is actually going to be sustainable for me #and ofc I don't want to move back with my parents and I can't but *god.* #the amount of things that my mom did just as a part of taking care of the family #like I rarely had to bother about my own supper #bc she was cooking #I didn't have to put effort into that #I just. plops down. #it's fucking exhausting and I don't know what to do #executive dysfunction

[ghouljams]

COWBOY SOAP??? COWBOY KONIG????? RUNS OFF INTO THE HORIZON SCREAMING RUNS BACK FROM THE HORIZON STILL SCREAMING

Hello sharks, thanks for joining me, here's my Cowboy!König pitch:

König runs a horse ranch, he likes animals, has always felt more comfortable with them than with humans. He has huge draft horses, and they are the biggest babies. This is what he's doing with his retirement from KorTac, and they are paying him a LOT of money to stay retired. Sometimes if you get too good at a job people will pay you not to do it...

Anyway, he's got horses, he's got all his pastures fenced, he's got the prettiest little filly he's ever seen wandering around with his- That is not his horse.

Then he spots you running after it and thinks maybe that filly was just the second prettiest thing he's seen, because you are just... wow. That said he can't have you running around the pasture like that.

What's a man to do but go scoop you up and make sure you don't get hurt while he snags your mare's bridle?

#He seems like an animal guy to me idk #his darling is a hot mess she's really struggling with managing on her own #anyway if I don't come up with a better spot for König I think this is it #there used to be a horse farm down the street from me #was fun going up to the fence and giving the horses apples #that said I'm not really a horse person #horses always look at you like they've just seen the face of god #ghoul speaks #cowboy!König

[thefirstknife]

Getting real sick of a certain subset of Destiny players complaining that it’s a baby game and crying to Bungie to nerf exotics and abilities when their ENTIRE POINT IS TO BE STRONG in specific ways as if they are being locked into using them.

IF YOU WANT AN EXTRA CHALLENGE STOP BEING SUCH A DPS GOBLIN AND JUST EQUIP SOMETHING THATS NOT TOP TIER META AND STOP COMPLAINING JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

MOOD. Go off.

It's incredibly annoying to me. They always use the argument of "the game should FORCE me to do things, I should not SELF-IMPOSE challenges." And like. ? I'm sorry but what? It's a video game for a big audience, it's here to be playable and accessible to the widest possible playerbase. There are plenty of ways to make the game difficult for yourself, so knock yourself out if that's your thing, but don't force others into it.

Like, I enjoy hard content, I regularly at least attempt day 1 raids, I do master raids, GMs, solo and solo flawless content and all that. But only when I want to. Sometimes I don't and I don't want to suffer in a patrol zone or struggle in a seasonal activity I'm doing for the story. The majority of the players don't want that. Designing games for the professional gamers only has NEVER been a good idea and never will be. Fifty streamers can't sustain a video game. It needs casual players who will want to come back to the game instead of feeling defeated.

One of the reasons I really enjoy helping others is because I know that casual players tend to struggle in stuff that's basic activity for me. I've seen people unable to get through a strike. I've sat for 10 minutes rezing someone who couldn't do the jump in a seasonal activity. I want those people to be able to play basic content without feeling frustrated and I want them to know that there are people out there who will help them out.

And this doesn't apply just to basic content, although it should start with that. I think all dungeons and raids and everything should be things that all players can complete. Fine, doing a master raid with all challenges should be tough, but it should be achievable with time and practice, not impossible. What a lot of these "pros" want is just completely divorced from reality.

It takes days and days of practice every time a new master raid is out for me and my team (all with thousands of hours of playtime) to get comfortable to finally finish it. We're far from casual players and it still takes a lot of time to be able to finish hard content. Making it even harder is insane to me. Like, if something is so hard that my team full of people, each with 5000+ hours of playtime and a coordinated team that's been raiding together for years now can't finish it, that means it's absolutely impossible for probably 90% of the playerbase. That's wild to me. Raids and GMs should have more people playing them. If master raids are too easy for you, Mr. I-Play-Destiny-For-A-Living, that's on you buddy. Unequip the super god tier god roll meta guns and loadouts or play something else.

And ofc, another excuse they make is "if I don't use meta, I am not going to win a raid race!" Then don't. Idk. Let me play you the tiniest violin. This affects literally nobody except a grand total of 50 people. Run your meta in day 1, and play with random shit otherwise. Play raids with all white weapons. Play without mods. Play without a HUD. Do things solo only. I don't know, make up a way to spice things up for yourself. I'm not interested in that and neither are 99% of the players out there. The game is genuinely hard enough for the majority of the players. On top of that, I am here to feel like a powerful space fantasy superhero. I am NOT here to die to dregs in patrol zones. If there's ONE thing that I know for a fact that put people off from Lightfall (as in this year of Destiny), it's the difficulty changes. They're annoying, frustrating and for some a barrier to entry more than anything else.

#destiny 2 #gameplay #ask #long post #i really do love helping but i can't not feel bad because once the people i helped are out of my fireteam... #...there's no telling what other experiences they'll have #there's so many speedrunners and people who don't care and people who just aren't helping and are instead mocking others #you can only do so much for a few people you see in activities #this season's activities are super tough. every time so far I've played everyone in the team was struggling #i'm gonna have to start going into altars of summoning with my full support build warlock just to sit in there and help people #istg the 'pros' have to get their loadouts restricted. go play with non-god tier armour sets and guns #equip the same loadout that some casual player has available and let me see you then #this idea that everyone has minmaxed best equipment available at all times is bizarre. please get your head out of your ass #'i have perfectly rolled all artifice armour with perfect stat exotics for every loadout because i have infinite time to grind' okay dude #most of us aren't being paid to play destiny. lmao #'the game used to be hard' no. you got better. you mastered it #why is this so difficult to understand. everything is hard when you first start. 5000 hours later it no longer is #the game is fine. the 'health of the game' is fine. you mastered it and outgrew it #either impose challenges on yourself or find something else #like. when i first started GMs they were almost impossible for me #now i play them for fun. they're still challenging but they're not the same level of hard and I'm fine with that #i enjoy them as content and they're still entertaining #and when a new GM comes out it's a new challenge to master so it'll be hard at the start #as everything ever in the world #if that's no longer enough for you then you just outgrew the game and should probably move on #the only reason why some things used to be hard was poor quality of life that got improved over time #not being able to mantle in d1 is not difficulty. it's just not good design. it was fixed and improved #the bitching about light 3.0 as well. man. just don't use the 'OP' fragments. it's so easy to unequip them #i personally love the variety and all the options i have now as opposed to before #okay tag essay done. fhkajhakfhksjf

[y0rk-ie]

Something something Steadfast Tin Soldier and the Ballerina. (Will polish/colour this later).

#y0rkie productions #tf2 fanart #tf2 #tf2 soldier #tf2 engineer #helmet party #god this is so out of character and cringe #I'm sorry #Struggled on Engie's dancing outfit tbh #I would've just drawn a dress if I didn't suck at drawing frills