#and i have no clue which to start first

[skeletoninthemelonland]

a glimpse of what their early dynamic looks like

#i'm posting these in this blog first because i think its very silly #i could talk about them if you want me to #*ignores if you want to hear me or not and simply starts talking* #I think at some point during development i stopped thinking about them as 'mrs. afton and mr. afton' #it's funny knowing they were never supposed to meet at all #Ballora belongs to sister location. which takes place some time around 1983 or 1985 (Behind The Codes has its own canon timeline) #Fazbear's Fright happens in 2023. which is 30-40 years apart #but then we have Ultimate Custom Night. Everyone is trapped together in the same location seemingly with no chances of escaping. #if you think about it. they're just a part of this huge scrupulous plan #no one is predestined to anything. it's certainly not different for Springtrap and Ballora. #they are just... there. like everyone else #they are all linked in some way. all the clues tie back to the Missing Children Incident. #but... you're probably right. maybe there's more to it #maybe there is A Link rather than a link. you know what I mean? #Episode 3 will explore this and much more #for now. have these two idiots trying to figure out how to get out of trouble #behind the codes #fnaf #fnaf behind the codes #five nights at freddy's #ballora #springtrap #fnaf btc #my art #starbstalks

[askinsufferableprickmod]

😭😭😭😭 my bookmarks and tabs r gone,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

#had 2 reset my pc cus it kept crashing and................... #first i couldnt remember my firefox account password...... #(firefox resets ur accont if u try n change it without a recovery key which i did not know..) #n then...........when i Finally did #............................they were gone anyway............. #PAIN #n i have such a bad memory so i have no clue what shit i had open/bookmarked.......................... #:( #hopefully nothing 2 important... #rambles #oh well #gonna try n look on the bright side... #i had so many tabs that i was planing on getting around 2 eventually.... which was cluttering stuff #now i can start fresh

[random0lover]

Was talking to this guy at work just now that I kinda liked and I’m not interested in him almost at all now 💀

(Rambling in tags)

#it’s so funny to me cause I was already pretty hesitant about wanting to talk to him #and then he comes up to me and we’re talking about what I did on my days off and I told him about the movies I watched #which led to him talking shit about #the ‘feminist bullshit’ in captain marvel #and then on for the cherry on top wanted to start talking shit about lesbians and them forcing ‘that shit’ when it ‘doesn’t feel natural’ #I have never disconnected myself from wanting to engage with somebody quickly in my life #my god #like you’re talking shit about that to the wrong person 😭 #he’s so pretty so which should’ve been my first clue 💀 #random0lover rambling ♡

[camels-pen]

mmm read a hurt/comfort Zoro fic recently and like. I get it now. That guy DOES hurt so pretty. kinda wanna try my hand at it.

-

A voice disappeared.

Zoro stopped in his tracks, feet rooted to the spot.

Who was it? Where? How-?

Just barely, he managed to block a blade aiming for his neck.

Luffy was ahead of him, laughing his head off. The cook was a bright flaming beacon in the sky.

The rest? C'mon take a count, Zoro. Make sure.

Usopp. Nami. Chopper. Jinbei. Robin. Cook. Luffy.

What? Two? No, where were-

His breath hitched as he blocked another attack.

Calm down. Take a breath. Count again.

Usopp. Nami. Robin. Cook. Luffy.

Fuck. They couldn't-

No, they had to have left the battlefield. These guys were smallfry, even for the so called "weakling trio".

Zoro took a moment to focus on the enemy around him. He let off a tatsumaki before focusing again.

One at a time, Zoro. Come on.

Usopp.

Robin.

Sanji.

Zoro jerked, eyes wide and searching frantically.

"No, no no no no no. He can't have-" Luffy would never leave before the battle was done, not without making some kind of grand exit. He wouldn't leave without telling Zoro- telling anyone- about it.

He wouldn't up and disappear into thin air like that. Not unless-

Zoro shook his head roughly. They were fine, he just couldn't see them. It would be too much of a coincidence for them all to disappear like that. He just needed to count again, then regroup with Usopp, Robin, and the cook, and figure out what was going on.

Stay calm, Zoro. Losing your head won't find your friends.

So, again, Zoro breathed. And Zoro counted.

Usopp.

The only voice left, was Usopp.

Zoro wasted no time.

He sprinted as fast as he could, cutting down anyone in front of him almost as an after thought, as he bulldozed towards Usopp's voice.

He'd nearly made it too, when some dead man kicked his side hard enough to stop him in his tracks.

Zoro turned to him, a snarl on his face. "Get out of my way before I kill you."

"Huh?" The man sneered. "I should be saying the same thing, watch where you swing those swords, asshole."

Zoro was about to retort when he noticed Usopp's voice moving away from him. He didn't have time for this.

Without warning, Zoro moved to slice through his opponent and, to his surprise, the man blocked it with ease.

"You wanna go? Here and now?" the man growled. "I'll kick your fucking ass."

This man- Zoro has never met him before, but nonetheless felt he would need to pay him his full attention to have a chance at winning.

But Usopp was getting farther and farther-

Oh, Zoro could hit himself.

"USOPP!" he yelled at the top of his lungs, startling the man. "STAY RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE, I'LL BE THERE SOON!"

Usopp didn't respond, but he stopped moving, and that was good enough for now.

"Hey!" The man yelled, pressing down on Zoro's swords. "Whatever you need him for can wait until after our battle's over. He's got his own problems to deal with."

Zoro didn't bother wasting his breath. He cut and slashed, throwing attack after attack without abandon. It didn't matter if he was wasting his energy, he needed to get to Usopp before- before-

The man, infuriatingly, blocked almost every blow, and got a few hits in on Zoro himself.

Zoro would get to Usopp, even if it killed-!

Suddenly, there was a crackle in the air and all at once, Zoro's nerves lit up with pure unfiltered pain.

He dropped to his knees, blurry vision wavering on black shoes. He couldn't feel his arms. Or his face. And his head was getting lighter and lighter.

Zoro's fading thoughts were prayers, to a god he didn't believe in, to keep his friend safe.

-

"GYAHHH, ZORO'S GONNA KILL ME!"

"Nami-swan, a little help please?" Sanji said, voice uncharacteristically strained.

"If you're asking, how can I say no?" Nami said, smirking. "Get out of the way... now!" The moment Sanji pushed off Zoro's swords to hop away, she brought down her Thunderbolt Tempo on top of Zoro. He fell to his knees before crumbling to the ground, twitching.

"You could've knocked him out on your own though, why ask for my help?" Nami asked.

"Ah well, it seemed he had a couple screws loose and I didn't want to kill what little braincells were remaining." Nami nodded in understanding.

The two of them turned to Usopp as he inched his way closer. He carefully prodded Zoro's thigh with his boot. "He's really unconscious, right? Not gonna get up anytime soon?"

Nami shrugged. "It's always hard to tell with him. But don't worry," -she stood tall, holding out her Climatact- "I'll shock him as many times as necessary."

"That means I get to live another day, so you have the Usopp deal of approval." Usopp gave her a thumbs up.

"What'd you even do to get him so pissed at you, Usopp?" Nami asked.

"Nothing!" He paused and looked away. "Well, nothing recently."

"He wasn't just mad," Sanji said. "He looked..." Scared, Sanji wanted to say. But the word was so... simple. Too simple. And it didn't explain the desperation in his eye. The wet sheen. The way he hardly blinked.

The way he kept himself facing the direction Usopp was in, revealing his constant use of Haki.

This wasn't just Zoro scared. This was Zoro terrified.

And Sanji had never seen him terrified before.

"...off," Sanji settled on, furrowing his brow. "He looked off."

Nami and Usopp hummed in thought.

The three of them stared down at Zoro's prone body. An ominous dark puddle started growing under him.

The three of them sighed.

"I'll call Chopper-" Usopp felt a tug on his ankle. He looked down. Zoro's hand was holding his boot. "I thought you said he was unconscious!" he yelled, trying to break his grip unsuccessfully.

Sanji poked Zoro with his shoe. Zoro didn't move. "He's still unconscious, so you're gonna have to be his teddy bear."

"What?! No!" He gripped onto Sanji's shirt. "Sanji-kun pleaaaaase free me before my ankle's crushed in his sleep!"

Sanji rolled an eye. "You'll be fine."

"Then can you go get Chopper? Zoro's losing a lot of blood."

"The mosshead'll be fine too. Also," -Sanji pointed to Luffy and Chopper doing some kind of strange combo attack, with Chopper in Heavy Point using Luffy as a whip- "I don't wanna break up their fun."

"Sanji-kun," Nami piped up. "Go get Chopper, please."

"Of course, Nami-swan!" Sanji immediately ran off.

-

The two of them quietly watched him go.

"Did you see what caused this?" Usopp asked.

Nami shook her head. "I know about as much as you do: Zoro suddenly taking out a big group at once and then charging towards you." She bit her lip. "I don't think he recognized Sanji."

Usopp sighed, squatting down to pull the bandana from green hair. He stared at the slackened face of his friend, hands tightening in dark fabric.

"What happened to you, Zoro?"

#one piece #roronoa zoro #nemo the writing ho #oh crap i think i accidentally started a multi-chapter when i meant o write a drabble aaaaa #the gist of this is. devil fruit or marine weapon or something. fucks with zoros head. so he thinks his crew has disappeared one by one #and its like. a subtle thing. which is why nobody notices until Zoros bulldozing toeards Usopp #tbh i have no clue where to go from here i just wanted to cause him some hurt #ack. this has not enough zoro pain #ah well. late night drabbles are. well. late night drabbles. #ohhh perhaps. perhaps even after this whole thing is resolved. zoro has hella trouble sleeping. #bc hes afraid he'll fall asleep and he eont be able to hear his friends voices anymore #so he takes as many night watches as possible. he doesnt take naps anymore. stays up even without having watch #all this just to obsessively check and recheck his Haki. #and then visit each and every one of them to confirm with his own eye that they were still here. still alive #haha yeah. itd probably take awhile to be comfortable enough to sleep again #maybe the only way he feels safe to do so at first is to be in a huge pile with his friends sleeping on or around him #oh fuck now im making myself hella sad #okay thats enough for tonight its bed time

[sleepdepravity]

THE VIBES THE VIBES THE VIBES

#malky reads #fabricant 100 #I’m really worried about this series I have no clue how it will continue #if it can continue #by which I mean mechanically the premise feels on shaky ground #not that the premise is bad just that it’s something I imagine is hard to. like. #create continuously. #starting off with ‘we go around and kill/defeat a finite amount of enemies’ #is something that can work. (konjiki no gash bell) #however gash bell starts without that premise it starts with the mystery of it instead #which structurally gives it time to create character rapport #and a reason for them to fight that’s completely separate from beating the finite enemies #(the first reason being ‘fight to keep you in this world’) #(the second reason being ‘fight to make your world a better place’) #fabricant 100 I’m guessing is starting off with this premise and I’m gonna have to guess that #it’s going to reveal more of its hand as it goes #but without being able to have that ‘mystery’ phase it’s like. shaky. #that’s what I’m worried about. hopefully there will be something added

[raveartts]

woaHg its albytwoss !!

#raveartts #wings of fire #albatross wof #didn't feel like lining this.... #i heard there's some more albatross lore in the new guidebook #which i'm about to go start reading rn #i feel like i need to reread the entire series first to get refreshed on who all the characters are again #like i always forget the minor characters #fuckinbgghg fierceteeth??? who's she #(i KNOW it's starflight's sister don't @ me i jusrt forget what she even did in any book lmao) #screw it i'll just use the wiki if i don't remember which of clay's siblings are named what and etc #ask me who died in the war. crane or pheasant and i'll have no fucking clue i'm sorry #i'm just gonna go read it whateverrrrrr

[navramanan]

hadnt used quizlet for years, downloaded it again for vocab lessons someone in class created, saw they have a premium version of the app now and soon after realized that you require the premium version if you want to study a set/lesson more than once. everything has turned into a money milking scheme i hate this

#clue as well. i've had it for years and years now to track my period obv #and i dont really update app but that one stopped working so i had to #they rolled in a paid version that greatly limits the functions of the free version #you could create tags that you could use for each day like idk it could be anything like back pain & youd track it on the day you felt it #i had tags for each prayer to know what prayer time my period started at so i knew the time #accidentally removed a tag that was a prayer time. wanted to add it again. found out that's behind a paywall now #like such basic features that make these apps usable in the first place. need to be paid for now #idk man it's all so dumb #oh and probably among the most annoying changes on clue is that you have to be connected to the internet to use it at all #which is so fawking nonsensical #nesi rants

[bittersweetstargazer]

pov txt's album was so good you almost majorly injured yourself listening to it

#background. #cleaning up bc yesterday was easter and we had ppl come over and there are a lot of dishes that I have to clean #I was emptying out the dishwasher to make space #I needed to put a wine glass back in it's spot but said spot is in a high place that's taller than I can reach #so I needed to grab the step ladder #I was listening to the new album and having a great time #so good in fact that I didn't notice that he step ladder was damaged (which it wasn't the day before) #and so I open it up and it's like shaky and fighting me #which should have been my FIRST CLUE bc it doesn't rlly take a lot of effort to open #and it's open and I'm like okay then and I get to the top step (which is the one that's broken) #and I have the wine glass in my hand and I'm reaching up when I feel the step under me start to bend and buckle under my weight #because it was BROKEN. #I realize that is not how step ladders work and very carefully put the glass down on the counter first bc I didn't to break if I fell #and then I placed my hands on the counter and leaned forward so I was holding most of my weight on my arms #and then very carefully stepped down until I reached the floor #my heart was pounding bc I knew anything could have happened had I not noticed in time #and when I checked one of the screws holding the ladder in place had been unscrewed and at first glance #it seemed totally normal but only after inspecting it did I notice the loose screw #my dad said he'd check it out but ugh I still have so much stuff to clean up

[rosicheeks]

Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parents… sometimes. But it’s uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasn’t caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..

I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. It’s wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.

I was texting my sister today about it and she said

“I 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesn’t realize it cause they’re still drinking the kool-aid.”

I ran out of tag room and didn’t want to delete any 😭 seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences

#I relate to all of this so much #and it’s so sad how many people truly have religious trauma #I still find myself lucky and privileged cause I know there are stories MUCH worse than mine #it’s really hard cause my parents still think I’m a Christian #honestly at this point I have no clue what i am #even if I end up still being a Christian that doesn’t help or heal all of the years of church trauma #but the hard part is still acting the part for my parents #growing up I always tried to fit into the good Christian girl mold #cause I know that’s what my parents wanted and I didn’t want to disappoint them #but once I started smoking weed and they found out? it went all downhill from there #their perfect angel fell from heaven #and I feel like ever since I haven’t been really their daughter…. I’ve just been living on the outside looking in to everything #it hurts looking back at all the years I spent brainwashed into believing that was the ONLY faith #it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the fact that I went to a pro life rally #the thing I was talking to my sister about was how mental health was never talked about in the church #when I started dealing with it and went to my parents or the pastors or any adult really and told them what I was dealing with #wanna know what the first thing they would ALWAYS say? well have you prayed about it? the way they treated mental illness was that it was #YOUR fault cause God is punishing you for something…. that you need to pray or go to church so then God will eventually take it away #and the thing is I don’t necessarily blame my parents (which kinda sucks cause I want to blame someone) #but honestly it’s just the environment they grew up in too… like I’m 99% sure my dad has dealt with depression his entire life #but won’t get diagnosed or anything cause they always believe faith has something to do with it #which makes me incredibly sad cause I just think about how much my dad has suffered and how he didn’t need to #^^ I was typing this out when I was late to my family gathering hahaha but then I think my sister called or something so I had to stop #sorry this post is all over the place - I swear I could write a book about religious trauma #yesterday went ok surprisingly but today? TODAY is going to be so much worse #sure I’ll make a post about it later but I guessssss I should go to bed now? it’s 2am and I have to get up at 5:45 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #and I have a fuuuuull day of fun Christian festivities while I’m dealing with all of this bottled up and unresolved crap from my past #please don’t get me wrong I love my parents and like I said I don’t blame them - they did their best #it just really sucks wondering what my life would have been like if I didn’t grow up in the church or in a super religious family #I wonder if when I told my parents I was depressed if they would have instantly brought me in to get help

[princekirijo]

I wanna write something but idk what

#like i have creative energy and i wanna use it #i could do art but like ive drawn a lot today and i need to let this design im working on simmer in my mind for a bit u know #me writing i know shocker #ive been messing around with it #just for myself though lmao im not posting anything #in all honesty i should be writing captain lore #theres so much stuff i need to get written out but i have no clue where to start 😭 #although if im being REALLY honest i should be getting some sleep bro #ya boy is feeling the bad vibes. which is why im writing. to distract myself #ill sleep soon but i need to do something first

[yeonban]

★ for welt and/or caelus @ dan heng :)

Send me a ★ and I’ll bold what applies to your muse.

DH & Welt

I like you / I hate you / I dislike you / I love you (platonically) / You are family / I would take a bullet for you / I would shoot you / I would lie to your face / I would say something cruel to you on purpose / I would say something cruel to you accidentally / I would cheat on you / I would physically hurt you / You annoy me / You amuse me / I’d laugh at you / I’d laugh with you / I’d manipulate you / You scare me / You confuse me / I wish I knew you better / I trust you / I don’t trust you / You inspire me / I consider you an equal / You are beneath me / You’re better than me / I would trust you with my life / I think you’re mean / I think you’re petty / I think you’re childish / I think you’re smart / I think you’re stupid / I think you’re a bad person / I think you’re a good person / I’m not sure what kind of person you are / I wish you would listen to me / I want to make you proud / I wish you would notice me / I want to impress you / I would hurt other people for you / I’m not sure how to make you happy / I’m a bad influence on you / You deserve better than me / We make a great team / I’d have a one night stand with you / I’d have a relationship with you / I would marry you / I fantasize about our life together / I would trust you with my most treasured belonging / I would tell you my darkest secrets / You disgust me / You intimidate me / I hope I intimidate you / I’d hug you / I’d let you hug me / I’m scared of losing you / I don’t think you like me / I want to be better for you / I respect you / I don’t respect you / You’re my mentor / You’re my friend / You’re my best friend / I have a crush on you / I could easily watch you die / I’d get drunk with you / I’d party with you / I’d comfort you / I’d prank you / I’d spike your drink / I’d act behind your back / I’d abandon you / I’d hurt you to get what I want / I would choose my happiness over yours / I would choose your happiness over mine / I despise how much I care for you / I need you / I’m dependent on you / I don’t know what I’d do without you / I’m scared of you leaving me / I’d give my life for you / You frustrate me / I’d call for you in a time of need / I would protect you / I’d visit you in the hospital / I’d carry you if you were hurt / I’d feel guilty if I hurt you / I’d let you be near me when I am vulnerable / I’d ignore a phone call from you / I’d call you at 3am / I’d break you out of jail / I’d get angry at you / I would shout at you / You’re too loud / You’re too quiet / You’re too sensitive / You can’t take a joke / You embarrass me / I feel nothing for you / You’re reckless / You’re bossy / You bore me / I would ask your advice / I would blame you for something I did / I would cry in your arms / You have the power to hurt affect me more than anyone else /

DH & Caelus

I like you / I hate you / I dislike you/ I love you (platonically) / You are family / I would take a bullet for you / I would shoot you / I would lie to your face / I would say something cruel to you on purpose / I would say something cruel to you accidentally / I would cheat on you / I would physically hurt you / You annoy me / You amuse me / I’d laugh at you / I’d laugh with you / I’d manipulate you / You scare me / You confuse me / I wish I knew you better / I trust you / I don’t trust you / You inspire me / I consider you an equal / You are beneath me / You’re better than me / I would trust you with my life / I think you’re mean / I think you’re petty / I think you’re childish / I think you’re smart / I think you’re stupid / I think you’re a bad person / I think you’re a good person / I’m not sure what kind of person you are / I wish you would listen to me / I want to make you proud / I wish you would notice me / I want to impress you / I would hurt other people for you / I’m not sure how to make you happy / I’m a bad influence on you / You deserve better than me / We make a great team / I’d have a one night stand with you / I’d have a relationship with you / I would marry you / I fantasize about our life together / I would trust you with my most treasured belonging / I would tell you my darkest secrets / You disgust me / You intimidate me / I hope I intimidate you / I’d hug you / I’d let you hug me / I’m scared of losing you / I don’t think you like me / I want to be better for you / I respect you / I don’t respect you / You’re my mentor / You’re my friend / You’re my best friend / I have a crush on you / I could easily watch you die / I’d get drunk with you / I’d party with you / I’d comfort you / I’d prank you / I’d spike your drink / I’d act behind your back / I’d abandon you / I’d hurt you to get what I want / I would choose my happiness over yours / I would choose your happiness over mine / I despise how much I care for you / I need you / I’m dependent on you / I don’t know what I’d do without you / I’m scared of you leaving me / I’d give my life for you / You frustrate me / I’d call for you in a time of need / I would protect you / I’d visit you in the hospital / I’d carry you if you were hurt / I’d feel guilty if I hurt you / I’d let you be near me when I am vulnerable / I’d ignore a phone call from you / I’d call you at 3am / I’d break you out of jail / I’d get angry at you / I would shout at you / You’re too loud / You’re too quiet / You’re too sensitive / You can’t take a joke / You embarrass me / I feel nothing for you / You’re reckless / You’re bossy / You bore me / I would ask your advice / I would blame you for something I did / I would cry in your arms / You have the power to hurt affect me more than anyone else /

#muse: dan heng. #oneireth #:( the peepaw and the bestie #I love how DH is the first stray kid Welt and Himeko picked off the streets so he subconsciously wants to live up to their hopes for him #hence DH wanting to make Welt proud... and basically holding him in the highest regard... what if I start crying. WHAT THEN. #and w Caelus it's like? one of his first ever friends his age. quite literally his 2nd EVER close friend after March. #It doesn't even matter that they've only known each other for a few months in canon - DH still cherishes their friendship soso much #I also adore? how Caelus (and March) are able to tap into DH's gremlin energy just by being around him. #LIKE the amount of things DH would've never done on his own or if he was just w Welt & Himeko but he does so casually w these 2... #Their adventures in Belobog were peak comedy ESPECIALLY THE SCENES OF THEM RUNNING FROM THE GUARDS WHILE POSING FOR PICS #And I feel like they'd understand each other really well if they just sat down and talked too. in the sense that they don't exactly know #who they themselves are. DH bc of DF's memories and former acquaintances which led to him having a kind of shattered sense of self #and Caelus bc he doesn't know how he was born. he doesn't remember anything pre-Kafka. he has no clues who he is either #(and March too w her not being able to remember anything about herself pre-Express) #There's a warm sort of kinship in understanding each other's struggles on a personal level. even if they are technically different

[hella1975]

WHY ARE YOU MESSAGING ME NOW OF ALL TIMES 🤺🤺 BACK 🤺 BACK I SAY 🤺🤺🤺

#not the childhood best friend popping up it’s as if he knows my mental health is fucked when I’m home #he said yes now is a great time to reach out actually #and he’s right too! i know damn well I’m gonna respond! #basically <- typed that word and burst out laughing bc idk how to even START explaining this mf to you guys #basicallyyyy me and him were in the same form at secondary so EVERY DAY we saw each other and in year 8 we dated #for a good while actually but tbh my mental health was FUCKED all caps FUCKED in year 8 like there was nothing special about it #it's just i reckon it was the first proper depressive episode i had and being so young i didnt know yet how to handle it #so i just spiralled and i did some really awful things and my home life really suffered for it and being me no one at school had a CLUE #so he was just like 'yes we are in love!' and i knew i didn't like him romantcially but i strung him along anyway #bc he genuinely was one of the few things keeping me above water at the time #which looking back i now know was a bad thing to do and i should have called it off sooner but like #his friendship was EVERYTHING to me at the time bc he was like really. adoring? he was really really infatuated with me #and at a time when i was convinced i was a monster it was just. i cannot explain how much he kept me sane #though he was obvs OBLIVIOUS to all that and when i finally got Mentally Healthy again i obvs broke up with him bc it was the right #thing to do and he was DEVASTATED like this man was vaguing about me on sc and refused to talk to me for MONTHS #but eventually we became friends again and at a time when i was changing friendship groups every YEAR if that he was just #a really consistant point in my life and i loved him a lot. BUT he always went for really batshit girlfriends and they always HATED me #no matter how nice i was to them and he'd always break up with them and crawl back to me and we argued like cat and dog like #he's the only friend ive ever had where we argued ALL THE TIME and he still liked me enough to come back #i genuinely thought the world of him despite everything we just have sooo much history #AND NOW HE'S MESSAGING ME???? god im not your strongest soldier

[princeanxious]

Im not saying I picked up stardew valley on my switch the day i learned i could play that on it buuuuuuut...

Its been barely a week to the day that i got it and i have like 34 and a half hours on my first save file already.......... And this is while also working a full time job 👉👈

(Add this to the list o' adhd reasons why i dont often pick up games for myself, bc I have so little self restraint in not hyperfixating on them for weeks at a time fisnfjsk)

On a side note.. Now i rly wanna draw my farm character chilling with Sebastian. So theres that. Dunno if ill draw it tho. Even if i do i doubt I'll post it cause it ain't sanders sides djfnfjf

#luka rambles #for context: i have this game on steam on my laptop but obvi playing so constantly w/ mouse and keyboard is not ideal #so my body would force me to pace myself and then id get sore & set it down for a while and start again and have no clue where id left off #which lead to like 3-4 aborted save files with like 6-10 hours put in them as i switched computers and 1 main save file with like 108 hours #except the main file was my first and i didnt know how to optimize shit in that file so all that time was half-wasted bc i was v bad @ #-@ farming and stuff. i got rly good at fishing tho. #playing on the switchlite is so much easier and has made the game so much more fun and ive made so much more progress on my- #-current save file with literally a third of the time spent comparitively to the old one???

[the-amber-droid-dreams]

i hate that i made it my whole thing that im so Not romantically jealous and that im always 100% cool and chill with all that comes w being polyam bc im having a hard time w my gfs newest relationship and i cant say anything about it

#im not even sure if its *jealousy* i just. #it started dating him RIGHT as i broke up w my long term gf (my longest standing and first ever relationship) #who had abandoned me replaced me and ignored me for 6 months in favor of another relationship #my gfs new bf is someone i Also have feelings. possibly for slightly longer than my gf has but theyve only really intensified the past month #and he has zero clue and most probably zero interest. which. yk is fine. but.. #and then add the ✨️crushing dysphoria✨️ and almost.. gender envy ? #its just. hes also pre everything but he passes so much better. bc he actually puts in an effort. #and everyone treats him.. idk #like my friends keep joking that him and my gf are at first glance a straight couple even tho theyre not. and it stings ? #bc no stranger would ever think of me as a man #and my gf is / was a lesbian right ? started calling itself a bi lesbian a few months after we got together + its crush on the bf took hold #and at the time i was touched bc it felt like it was adding the bi for Me. bc of My gender. #but now that it and him are together its REALLY leaned into the bi part. like swapped out all its pins and corrects ppl and stuff #like im not even sure if its a lesbian anymore ? which is fine and good that its figuring itself out but. but.. #idfk. i just. i wish i was Actually seen like a guy. i wish i had proof my friends didnt view as just some weird bs nonsense to put up with #i wish i could just *fucking ask it* but im too afraid #amber actually saying stuff #vent

[noahtally-famous]

I usually don’t lean heavily on soulmate/soulmark aus, especially for td, but the random thought of a dashawn soulmark/soulmate au that's also sorta compliant with canon popped into my head and it’s got ahold of me simply bc of how utterly wack it is--plus a side dose of angst and obliviousness

(blaming shark with his "destiny brought them together and keeps them apart" line /lh)

#braindump here bear with me #so it starts from the beginning up until…like the finale #so the whole season basically #it’s the typical ‘your soulmate’s first words to you on your body’ au but with these two you bet it’s gonna be wack #debating between the words on dave being totally normal smth ANYONE would say so he literally has no clue if he passed his soulmate- #-without knowing #adds more to his ‘normal guy’ deal #OR it could be the exact opposite (bc this is Shawn’s first words to him so) and it’s smth so wildly abnormal BUT #he doesn’t hear it being said to him so he thinks he hasn’t met his soulmate when in reality he has #for SHAWN it’s more complicated #given the guy’s mentality I can see him being more skeptical abt soulmates and the marks #(prob thinks it’s a conspiracy) #so either it’s a fluke and he somehow doesn’t have a soulmark #OR he has one he just hasn’t looked or given it attention in so long he’s forgotten what the words are #he like literally doesn’t give a shit abt it which opposes dave’s more romantic view #and like there’s pining and frustrating obliviousness and idk who finds out first but damn imagine the feels #and they naturally gravitate toward each other bc of them being soulmates and they’re confused af but rolling with it #‘yeah idk why I’m seeking out your company but I’m chalking it up to wilderness insanity nothing more. you’re my best friend here man’ #it’s all in the ✨perspective✨ and that’s what makes it interesting #wow I could actually take this somewhere #I wanna finish agtsta first though. or at least get halfway through it #plus I’ve so many other plot bunnies hanging around 😭 #no but I’ve a whole set of bullet-points for this I might post it later on if this gets traction #noahtally-famous #total drama #kit stuff #dashawn

[galmiahthepigeon]

Oh I'm so embarrassed about the reaction I'm having to The News

#my friends Robin and Leo started dating recently. which would be wonderful if not for the fact that i like Leo. a lot #and it's stupid for me to be upset about this bc i was not going to get into anything with Leo anyways #I don't think they like me like that and i was content with things being platonic between us #but thinking that they like another person over me is making me feel bad. WHICH AGAIN IS SO DUMB #LIKE. I GET IT. I'M NOT LEO'S TYPE AND ROBIN IS. SIMPLE AS THAT. THAT DOESN'T REFLECT ON OUR VALUE IN LEO'S LIFE OR OUR VALUE IN GENERAL #I KNOW #BUT IT'S STILL UPSETTING ME LIKE CRAZY #I'M SO EMBARRASSED I CAN'T BE THINKING ''what does he have that i don't'' THAT'S SO LAMEEE AND IT'S A FLAWED WAY TO LOOK AT IT. #but wait the story is even funnier #bc one time we went out clubbing and Leo was doing this thing where he tries to make out with as many ppl as possible #he had gotten to 7 so i sad wanna make it 8? and they said yea and we kissed for a bit #AND APPARENTLY. I NOW FIND OUT. THAT ROBIN STOLE MY PICKUP LINE THAT LITTLE GREMLIN #AND THAT'S THE WAY HE ASKED LEO OUT #I'M GOING TO EXPLODE #even more embarassing #is the fact that my first immediate reaction to finding this all out was to think ''oh now i REALLY need to get into something with Draxx'' #Draxx is a friend that I'm kinda into. Leo introduced me to him at a party recently. #Leo does not have any sort of attraction towards him. so why did my brain plot it as some sort of poetic revenge? no fucking clue honestly #I'm upset and none of my thoughts are rational rn #don't even know why my brain wanted any revenge in the first plane it's all so absurd #big stupid feelings that I'm obviously not sharing with anyone involved #jealous and for what