#and i earned myself a treat...

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

helloooo my dearest darling listeners, i am back on my soapbox to regale you all with the marvelous things i witnessed/experienced on my Whimsical As Fuck™️ three hour drive today. not necessarily in order <3

some cute does with bigass floppy ears / very sweet waitress who called me "hon" and put the most tasty looking crepes on my table / a pair of hawks divebombing a golden eagle / a kite (the bird) / a flock of magpies / some GORGEOUS scenery / a rainbow / lovely rain sprinklings / MORE gorgeous scenery, i mean what the fuck / fields of purple/orange/red tipped bushes / a meadow of buttercup-yellow very tall grass, in which many picturesque trees stood / lots of fluffy, adorable, tasty cows / a large herd of likely-feral horses with a wonderful variety of patterns & colors / the fluffiest husky ever / the juxtaposition of cold wind through an open window + warm sunlight / the most stunning snow-coated mountain of whites and blues in the sun, wreathed in clouds / no seriously some really fucking Gorgeous scenery, i was near tears with some of it

#i am feeling. Better Than I Have In A While #you know! last night i was very unhappy that i would have to do this drive! #but after my 2 hour doze in the ihop parking lot #and a nice breakfast of crepes and tea w/ my book #i was feeling better and decided Fuck It. im gonna make myself enjoy this drive #im gonna take my goddamn time and really absorb my surroundings #by fuck i will stop at a rest stop and take a walk! and i did all of it! #life is actually worth it! glad to have continuous confirmation of that #its so nice to drive and actually see things #beautiful landscapes... wildlife... Geography... #instead of just Flat. Scrub. Brown. More Scrub. Dirt. Dead Scrub aka Tumbleweed. Boring Brown Hills. No Weather. #i can go outside the clouds are Full and the air is Fresh and birds are Singing and i am Alive #absolutely unprompted #i expect the feeling of realness to fade soon but i will enjoy it while it lasts! #and maybe if i feel it often enough it will outlast the disconnect! #now i think i am going to treat myself to a pork bun i just bought & get one of the nice beers from the garage #ive Earned It! #you all treat yourself to something you like as well. we have all earned it simply by existing! #you're here today! Yippee! indulge! #im feeling so fucking whimsical today... ill go work on setting up my extra monitor and figuring out how the fuck that works! #my mic has already arrived! i have hope that i will do a test stream Soon!

[sketchy-tour]

Rocking back and forth feeling oodles of pure joy when I get a commission of my oc

#text post #just rambling #literally just throwing my thoughts into the void #its such a mood boost every time #I shake Dandy around aggressively to get any bit of joy i can out of them #I love seeing them in so many styles!!! #Its been my only way of treating myself lately. Like “oh this week sucked. maybe i can get a lil commission as a treat” #throwing my hard earned money at artists

[knoxvill3-nati0n]

guys... please talk me out of buying one of the new BAM decks... I'm so serious. $90 is really good for a board but it's probably in USD 😞

especially since I just blew an embarrassing amount of money on steve-o's website... guys tell me i don't need it, i'm begging.

#vent post #jackass #mtv jackass #bam margera #steve o #johnny knoxville #viva la bam #skateboarding #i need to stop spending money challenge #don't let me give another man my hard earned cash #i'm not good enough at skateboarding to treat myself so heavily #dilemma

[tripleyeeet]

okay

2k on commission DONE

2.5 on ascended astarion DONE

zayis playlist DONE

laundry HALF DONE

it is time to go to fucking BED

#i think i've also earned myself a treat #and by treat i mean a lil edible to thoroughly put me to bed

[rosesradio]

#i think there shouldn’t be a limit as long as anyone involved is dressed up & respectful :-) #because it’s fun & there’s a sense of earning when you get your candy instead of buying it. plus you might get extras that aren’t candy #every year i tell myself that i won’t trick-or-treat anymore but my neighborhood is pretty non-judgemental & has other college kids that do #so i’ve just been going only down the street. one year i’ll stop—probably when i get yelled at or something—but for now i’ll keep going #tumblr polls #halloween #trick or treating #rose’s polls

[carrionsflower]

having an entire weekend off is so insane to me … like i have so much that i want to do but it’s like my body is still telling me to EARN that mid day nap, earn updating that page, earn making that edit … like i cannot get myself out of this work = reward mode

#airika txt. #it’s not even 9 yet so i’m gonna grubhub breakfast as a treat … do some laundry … dishes/vaccum ect #i just wish i could allow myself to do things without questioning whether not i’ve earned the simplicity of doing fuck all

[jakeperalta]

spent weeks psyching myself up to stand up to my mum and then immediately got shot down by her 😃👍

#vent incoming i apologise in advance for the long tags #we've lived together just the two of us since dec 2021 (although her boyfriend is here like 2/3 of the time as well) #and since i got my job in march 2022 i have been paying half of all the bills (literally down to like tv license when i barely watch the tv) #which is £300 a month #plus i buy all my own food + pay for the amazon prime she uses + contribute to various household things like toilet roll etc #and she doesn't have a mortgage so i am paying the same amount as her to live in her house #(and it is very much her house not our house) #and I've never been very happy with any of that but never complained either #but then recently it turned out she never set up the water bill when we moved in (it's one of the only bills i didn't sort for us) #so we have a huge backdated bill from dec 2021 and i knew she was going to tell me to pay half #so for the past month or so I've been preparing myself for this conversation and sure enough today she came and said 'we owe £700' #so i was like 'oh i thought maybe it would've been covered by my £300/month' which is the biggest stand I've been able to work myself up to #and she immediately started going on about how i live here too and use water too so it's just as much my responsibility to pay #and how when we're both earning i should be paying my share and i was like yeah i know that's why i never complained about paying before #but also i already pay more than most people would to live with their parents #and she went off about how actually most people charge their grown up kids rent on top of the bills so really i'm lucky i don't have to #(when she got the original £300 figure it was actually rounded up from like £240 to include 'rent' but i wasn't gonna bring that up now) #and in conclusion she doesn't see why she should be subsidising my bills #like i don't know maybe because you're my MOTHER and i am your CHILD who is just starting out in the adult world #and maybe that entitles me to being treated better than some lodger???!!!!! #anyway i paid the bill and now i'm trying and failing at not crying at my desk 😃 #talking

[slutdge]

k nevermind that gay shit was too vulnerable, ill just tell yall that i got socked in the face again and my face hurts and also i got some new vinyl and have also developed this terrifying new hallucination where i can hear footsteps running towards my bed in the dark when im trying to sleep

#i think i have earned drinking myself into a coma. as a treate.

[ef-1]

the girls that get it, get it

#return of kelery kate! i never left i was just on a self destructive spiral #note to self dont wear your cunty little gym shorts shopping after gym bc men are gross #from a couple of weeks ago. i think im not as okay as i thought. ive been having trouble meditating and my sleep schedule is fucked again #after the first week after leaving south africa i thought i was okay but i literally think that was just me being determinedly delusional #i was having trouble eating and i had an msepisode and it makes senseand im trying to be better because i have to be better for myself #be better inspite of everything etc #so im taking my sleeping pills again and its making mornings a little harder and im dazed throughout the day but its for the better #take care of yourself! treat your body with love! love yourself! You're a little miracle and you dont have to earn self love. #being alive alone warrants being loved and loving yourself #anyway celery/ photo series

[iguessigotta]

Have you ever thought of the prospect of Dark being able to hypnotize? My Drabble lord, please bless me with a hypno Drabble 👏😩

have i thought about Dark being able to hypnotize? ONLY EVERY FUCKIN DAY SINCE I READ THAT ONE FIC weirdlyhornyforegos DID!! TW/CW: mind control, possible dub-con if you squint, reader's havin a fuckin great time tho, nsfw-ish No gendered pronouns used, but written with a transmasc reader in mind i tried to base the general vibe off of some of the honestly hottest lyrics I've ever heard: "I can't wait to get you all alone, all alone//Once I'm in, there ain't no letting go, letting go//Watch me turn your mind into my home" - Mind Games by Sickick "Bite your tongue//Don't you know how wild these thoughts will run?//Careful now//I hang on every word that leaves your mouth" - Ideas by Au/Ra but idk how well i did there, lmao

Your mind felt hazy, slowed and dragging slower by the second. Stringing a full thought together took a near-Herculean effort, as though you were trudging through knee-deep mud, feet sticking to the bottom with every step. A lazy drunken smile spread across your face as you swayed lightly in place, your eyes rolling back before closing, as your head tilted up to the ceiling. You felt confused, disconnected, almost floaty. You breathed a bit heavier, feeling the panic of not having a tether to the ground beginning to rise in you, as though you might float away if someone didn't save you. It was hard to stay standing, even harder to think.

Exactly how you'd asked him to make you feel.

Eventually that tether you craved did arrive, in the form of Dark's hands wrapping gently around your arms, pulling you towards him. You gasped when his hand appeared in you hair, cradling you head, only to let out a contented sigh as his lips met your neck. At the same time, you felt this odd sensation, as though someone had tied a rope to your mind, and now they were gently tugging on it. Try as you might, you couldn't figure out what it wanted. The addition of quiet, distant voices wasn't much help. You strained to make out words, frowning and letting out an unhappy sound when you couldn't sort out what it was saying. What it was commanding you to do.

Dark froze at the sound, backing off and lifting his head to look you in the eye. "What's wrong, Love?" the hint of genuine fear in his voice was like a stab to the heart, "Are you alright?"

"W-what? Am I...wait, nonono, you're fine," you said, voice raising to a near-whine as you reached out to hold his face in your hands, "You didn't d-do anything wrong." He held still a moment, resting his cheek in your hand, looking at you, before closing his eyes and letting out a breath you didn't know he'd been holding.

"Is it too much, then?" he asked, a teasing tone to his voice, "I can always turn it off, you need only ask. I know how much of a toll this can take on a mind."

"Turn it off? Don't you dare!" you half-shouted, dragging his face to yours, resting your foreheads together with a giggle, "I-it's - I - I'm..." You huffed and tried to organize your sluggish thoughts. "It's not overwhelming, that's the problem," you confessed, feeling a little guilt at demanding more from him, "My head's slow, but still too loud. I can't hear the.....your.....commands...well enough. I don't kn-now what they're saying."

As you spoke, you felt your face heat up, suddenly very glad you'd pressed your foreheads together, as you were sure you couldn't look him in the eye at that moment. His breath fanned across your face as he let out a light chuckle before moving down to kiss your neck.

"Oh, is that all?" he asked against your skin. Or, you thought he did. You found yourself suddenly unsure if he'd spoken at all, as he continued to kiss a line down your throat. You took a steadying breath as the room began to do a slow backflip, clinging to Dark's arms in an effort to stay upright. You heard him chuckle again, but this time the sound came from inside your own head, echoing lightly, making your mouth split in a smile, a light laugh escaping you. Reality felt like it was spinning, the weightless feeling was nearly overwhelming now, turning Dark into your sole anchor, making you desperately crave any contact you could have with him.

And then you felt that tug on your mind again. The accompanying voices were much louder this time, though you still couldn't make out what they said. It seemed as though your body understood, however, as it started moving on its own. You watched as your own hands raised themselves to press against Dark's chest, pushing him back, pulling another chuckle from him. You grinned at him before letting control over your body go.

Dark watched you turn with a small smile, his hand dragging lightly across your back. He made quick work of removing his jacket and shirt, barely holding back an affectionate laugh when you stumbled, catching yourself on the bedpost, before following you.

His hand rested lightly on your back as he slid past you into the bed, laying on his back. You held back a frown, opting instead to tilt your head at him in confusion, brows furrowed. "What are y-" you began, earning you a soft "Hush, Love" and another, stronger, tug at your mind. You let out a shaky breath before allowing your body to move. Unfortunately this time Dark stopped you with a hand on your shoulder.

"Ah, I forgot," he murmured, sitting upright and reaching for the waistband of your pants, "These need to come off first." Without even a second's warning, Dark pulled your pants and underwear down to your ankles, pressing a kiss to your outer thigh as he straightened up.

"I apologize," he spoke, that light teasing tone back in his voice, "It seems I'd skipped a step in my excitement." When you made eye contact again, you fought to not hide your face, suddenly shy under his burning gaze. He smiled softly, a mischievous turn to the corner of his mouth, before laying back once more, eyes still on you.

You wanted to say something, but before you could form a shred of a thought, you felt that tug again. Closing your eyes and sighing happily, you let it move your limbs, pulling yourself onto the bed and climbing clumsily to straddle Dark's torso. You began inching upwards, towards his face, as his hands came up to rest on your ass. You frowned lightly, pausing to look down at him.

"T-this.....isn't what I thought you'd have me doing," you spoke slowly, straining to keep the slur out of your words, "What're y-" He cut you off with a gentle "shh" before pressing on your ass, forcing you upwards again.

"Don't worry, My Love," he said, breath hot against your inner thigh as he helped you to straddle him, hovering nervously above his mouth, "Be patient and let me have my fun first. It will be your turn soon enough." Before you had a moment to think of objecting, his grip, now on your hips, tightened as he pulled you down to him.

#darkiplier x reader #darkiplier x y/n #darkiplier x trans!reader #n/s/f/w #ok this isn't quite what i'd had written before but it's close #all the same scenes just worded differently #tbh i'm amazed i was able to remember any of this much less rewrite it all in one go #i've earned myself a treat for that i think #anywho hi yes hello i am a Full Grown Adult(tm) who has never written smut in his life #so i apologize for the fade-to-black ending. i'm just not sure how well i'd do at writing it #BUT if y'all like this and really want me to try lemme know #and i'll try to pick this up in a part two #try is the key word #it's 4 am and i'm full of chaos so imma just post it #happy sunday! here's some almost-filth!

[space-writes]

Despite train fuckery this morning doubling my commute and forcing me onto a wretched bus, I am still going to have the next Obsession fic up soon. Public transportation issues be damned, I will inflict more gay fanfiction upon the internet

#everything got cancelled #It was extremely stressful and I'm now stressed about getting home also #However I have my laptop and WiFi and we do in fact persevere #I might get myself a little snack. As a treat #I earned it

[novatix]

idk what's worse, waking up and immediately having to go to work, or waking up and then having to fill time for an hour or two before having to go to work

#nova.txt #dreading my shift today since both of the other closers called out so it's me and the manager #and by the time we get to closing i'm probably gonna be in a lot of pain and moving very slowly so closing is gonna take forever #ughhh #maybe i'll treat myself to a pizza when i get off shift because i've fuckin earned it after this goddamn week

[grimalkinmessor]

Back on my bullshit where I read fics that make me pissed off at L and then I go work on all of my fics except the Lawlight ones

#'light needs a man who treats him RIGHT!!!' #he is a mass murderer #i say this bc i reread green-eyed monster and now im indignant on light's behalf so i have to go write matsulight & mikalight & terraito to #calm myself back down lmao #death note #grim rants #me @ myself: boi what. chill. #i have no chill my chill is hard-earned and it expires SO quick help #why do i do this to myself

[whenthegoldrays]

Okay I definitely still have homework to do before sleeping but I'm gonna treat myself to a chapter or two of Mansfield Park first. That definitely won't screw me up completely 😊👍🏼

#'I'll treat myself I think I've earned it' she says after watching like three kdrama episodes on a day that was intended for just homework #great going elly #elly's posts

[tortademaracuya]

love being reminded by the "bestie" that keeps being close friends with all the girls that treated me like shit about the other friend not from that group that also treated me like shit and tried to convince others to leave me

#and she talked like it was such a pity i didnt want to try anymore to 'fix' things. i never had a problem with her #she just woke up one day and decided i was shit and deserved no friends while acting like nothing was wrong when i asked #and i didnt even learn she was talking shit until years later!!! #if she doesnt think that was messed uo what does she even think of how their grouo of friends treated me...? #i knew it was being too good a day :/ always end up finding some stupid comment that makes me feel like shit #woooo im unloveable and everyone will end up hating me sooner or later wooooooooo #maybe shes right and both that and the other Incident werent anything and im being an idiot about it #why does it even matter. they were right and its my problem for getting sad that they were saying what a horrible person i am #maybe its true and my presence does ruin everything for everyone. i should just stay home and never go out again #sigh #haunted.txt #maybe its all my fault for not trying hard enough ti earn forgiveness #even though i embarrassed myself so many times to do so and it was her shit friends that kept treating me like garbage #even after saying they forgave me and refusing to give me any apologies

[mangosorbetter]

The thing about making a phone call you don’t want to make is: the person picking up the phone will not be mad at you for calling. It is their job to help you actually. and 9 out of 10 times I haven’t actually died from making a phone call I didn’t want to make.

#I just got off the phone with insurance company and nothing bad happened #reminder to myself #I earned a treat for myself for this I think #personal