#and i dont care if thats harsh. because its deserved.

[prodigal-explorer]

my tss headcanons that make my fics/ideas/profile unique!!

basically headcanons that i rarely see other people share but i love them and i talk about them on the regular!

(also most of these are gonna be about roman lol)

1. roman is dark skinned, and not even like a teeny tiny little tan either he’s like DARK dark skinned and so is remus, but remus is a tiny bit lighter than him.

2. roman has a lightning mcqueen nightlight that he uses to tackle his fear of the dark. he also regularly has nightmares.

3. in high school aus, roman is not popular. he is not the queen bee, he is not the mega powerful guy with a lot of friends. he is an OUTCAST! whether it’s because he’s a spoiled brat who was never taught social skills, or he’s a theatre nerd who never stops talking about music and art and poetry. this man is not heather chandler reincarnated, he is a high school outcast 😭

4. virgil is wayyyy way way buffer than roman 😂 he is not a weak little noodle getting carried around by the valiant prince roman, he is a tough, silent guy carrying around his whiny dramatic twink.

5. on that note, virgil is the strong and silent type, but he’s not like super shy and meek or super mean and snappy. i love my virgil to be somewhere in between. he’s got some snark, but usually, it doesn’t get expressed out loud. i would compare him most linearly to matthew cuthbert from anne of green gables.

6. logan is so protective. this man deserves a brother of the year trophy because i make him the big brother in so many aus and he is just such an amazing brother figure because he cares so much and he cares about keeping his loved ones safe.

7. on that note, logan is SO kind to the weak, harsh to the strong. and janus is the same way. enough said.

8. every single side is capable of causing damage. i see so many people who make every other side realistic and then their favorite is so innocent and special and physically incapable of doing wrong. thats not me. everybody can and has caused irreparable damage and its delicious.

9. roman has a massive sweet tooth and virgil has absolutely no spice tolerance.

10. NONE OF THE SIDES ARE SKINNY LITTLE TOOTHPICKS. WE HAVE ENOUGH SKINNY LITTLE TOOTHPICK REPRESENTATION WE DONT NEED MORE. “patton is so small and petite” NO. patton has a dad bod, logan has belly for days, virgil and remus are muscular af, janus and roman are curvy bodyodyodyody. and they’re all BEAUTIFUL. AND THATS THE LAW. like where did all the stick figure side stuff come from?? not even THOMAS is that super mainstream body type that every single popular character ever is. i can’t wait for the world to get tired of writing endless skinny characters. (AND I AM NOT BEING OFFENSIVE I AM LITERALLY 110 POUNDS MYSELF SO I CAN SAY THIS.)

#sanders sides #thomas sanders #tss #roman sanders #sanders sides fandom #virgil sanders #remus sanders #logan sanders #patton sanders #janus sanders #roman tss #tss logan #tss roman #tss virgil #virgil tss #sanders sides headcanons #sanders sides headcanon #sanders sides fandom critical #thomas sanders sides

[who-the-fuck-knows-blog]

edit: i wrote this like an hour or two after the episode. was in a really dark place. am only in a slightly LESS dark place. just want to emphasize that i dont actually. blame. djenkins or like. idk. i cant tell how i feel because i don’t want to blame creatives for the effect their narratives have on me personally. i dont want to make a bigger deal than is necessary i just dont know what is right and wrong in this scenario. sorry. ive seen people saying blaming him or talking about this is bad. and im just in The Horrors with my mental illnesses so i’m paranoid i’m doing something wrong here. I’m not saying djenkins meant for this to be the result. i dont think he would at all believe that. i think he meant for the best to happen. its not his fault or responsibility that i feel this way and that others feel this way. i’m mentally ill. i am not the arbiter of truth or sanity. i don’t want to delete this because its a marker of a vent/emotion/situation i went through. but it does not reflect my current beliefs entirely.

christ alive maybe think about shit for a minute like. to be like “i like when mentor figures die so i wanted izzy to die for eds growth bc he was like a mentor to ed”. ed spent the entirety of the first two episodes abusing the fuck out of izzy, izzy nearly killed himself. izzy got his leg cut off.

and then we think “okay. well clearly, izzy isnt coping well because theres no way that was his actual fault” yk. like sane rational people who have been victims of abuse in the past and used similar coping mechanisms to protect ourselves and our images of our abusers because we loved them.

we think “the show can’t possibly be telling us that izzy deserved it.” and then. he says “i provoked you. its my fault you attacked me.” and its not criticized or shot down or retaliated against. he deserved to get abused because he was harsh and wanted blackbeard to exist because without him he felt unimportant to ed. because he needed that closeness with ed but was denied because of their lifestyle.

what you end up with isn’t a mentor figure who went through the horrors and then died after a fruitful life. you end up with a man who was severely traumatized, suicidal, drinking to cope, telling the other man that serially abused him that it was okay because he was asking for it. a man who was just discovering he could be safe now dying immediately after.

i dont care if thats how redemption arcs or character arcs are supposed to go, if you are supposed to give this character everything and then kill him because his purpose was served. that message will cause so much harm to a lot of people. it already has.

please can someone talk to me or something. engage with me. i dont feel good. im feeling really really bad.

#izzy hands #ofmd s2

[mrstsung]

Comfort character asks: Raiden mk edition:

1. how long have i known about them: omg I've been a mk fan since baby nerd days. In my teens. Raiden was my go to man besides kung lao. They are THE BOIS ok? Like kung lao was my main dude,still is but lao was more of an all around i just love him ok?. But raiden was A HEARTTHROB CUTIE for me. But he also became my comfort too. (Shang was my fave og baddie and he will always be that one bih but this aint about him rn)

2. whether or not they’ve ever made me cry: ok several times. Like why can't y'all be nice to him? What did he ever do but help the best he could. The elder gods are assholes and none of y'all are grateful. That's why he turned dark in that one timeline. Because of Y'ALL! So if you want happy raiden? Put some respect on his name! Makes me cry. He needs a hug and a long ass vacation. Thats why fujin is here to help. Because y'all he broke his back for you. Ungrateful asses.

3. whether or not i have any merchandise/objects with them: i want some. But a bih is broke.

4. what about their personality i like: ok ok look we have so many interpretations of him. But for me? My take on raiden? His comforting presence,his wisdom,his compassion. Lord his PATIENCE! like damn

5. what about their backstory makes me emotional: his burdens. Omfg raiden plz let fujin help! Good lord raiden plz hunny sit down and relax in a hot spring! Raiden doesn't deserve this shit.

6. the moment of theirs that made me the saddest: any death or falling. Like i don't care for dark raiden (but i dont blame him either ya know) it's more just too sad for me to like this universe of raiden.

7. the moment of theirs that made me the happiest: when he finally gets a fucking break. Come here rai,i got you.

8. something about them that made me laugh: omg raiden pulling cheeky banter is the best. Because its so sassy but dry. Like how? Only he can pull this off.

9. my favorite canon outfit of theirs: honestly raiden looks cool in all his outfits. Do i have to pick?

10. my favorite moment with them in canon: ok look my brain isn't capable of retaining info like that well. But honestly any fight with him and shang is epic or him fighting shao khan (tho sadly they make him so weak sauce when fighting shao khan compared to shang tsung. And shangs pretty tough. And it doesn't feel fair and is bias af)

11. my favorite relationship they have with another character: eh i love his big brotherly vibe with his bro fujin. But his mentorship with kung lao and liu kang is wholesome too. Honestly him just being big bro to everyone is nice. 💖

12. what i like about the way the fandom portrays them: eh i guess i like it when the fans can actually write him domestic and do it without being boring or stiff. But i haven't seen many good portrayals yet. Only a few. But i will say. I loooooove when people talk about the temple and describe the interior. Like they do other things so well but people be lacking in the character development part.

13. what i dont like about the way the fandom portrays them: they make him too stiff. Now raiden is responsible,wise,and a bit more stern than his brother. But he isn't emotionless,monotonous or harsh. Is he a bit tsundere? A tiny bit,at first or for a small sec. But it never lasts long. He'll let loose more easier. Unlike a certain shirai ryu we all know n love. Raiden just gets flustered easy. But he welcomes it at the same time? Compassion and his connection with humanity is his #1 trait. Remember that. Him and fujin are similar but the key difference is,rai has a few more notches under his belt and had to take on more bullshit than his brother emotionally. Rai gets overburdened easy. So thats why fujin it there to help carry said burdens. They go hand n hand. Just like the mythos. Where there is thunder n lightning there is wind. And where they are. A storm brews. And after the storm? Peace,calm,and life giving energy n water. (Sorry to get all zen and philosophical on you guys)

14. what i liked about the way canon portrayed them: He did gets some oomf to him. But i dunno. Canon has been weird to raiden. Also unfair too. So i dunno really.

15. what i dont like about the way canon portrayed them: well i already mentioned above and in other posts i don't care for dark raiden. So other than that i got nothing else. Fans are more of an issue if anything. But even then its whatever.

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The op deactivated. So i found another source post/reblog. Apologies.

Linking because i wanna fill a blank one,but wanna credit too?

#mortal kombat #raiden #raiden mk #raiden mortal kombat #comfort character #he's both a comfort character and self ship character too #i have many faves ok? i can't pick one #don't worry the shang tsimpin will return just let me love this thunder god for a little while

[missmeinyourbones]

hemlo L ! i hope ure doing well .. ♡

i keep thinking of this scenario / prompt

& I DESPERATELY NEED UR THOUGHTS

BC UR BRAIN IS SO SEXC ! ! >//<

imagine the same dabi from ur love is series .. like the reader is really kind, warm, and so forgiving & patient with him (even though dabi can be very harsh) the reader takes him in despite everything .. but what if the reader is still pining for someone else ?-? it can be an ex or jus a long time childhood friend theyve always had feelings for !

im interested to know ur thoughts to how dabi would react & feel when the first person he's ever fallen for; the person who's made him feel loved & cared for to be hung up or having feelings for someone else ㅠoㅠ

its okie if u decide to ignore this ! i know ure very busy & probably stressed too .. i hope ure still taking care of urself ! i wish life will treat u with the same kindness you give to all of us ૮₍つ´˘`₎つ 🌷 i'll always be a lover of all the things you write !

omg hiiiiiii first things first...thank u LOL for even indulging me in this thought <3 because touya truly means the world to me and this little universe i've created with him and reader in my to love is to... series is something i hold very dear to my heart. so thank you for taking the time out of your day to send me your kind words. truly support like this makes me happier than u will ever know, and i am extremely lucky to have people like you enjoying my work <3

ok now moving onto the actual content lol im not gonna write a full piece on this but i do have some Thots....

while i do think that something like that is such a heartbreakingly tragic fallout that could make a beautiful story line...i just dont see reader doing that??? like i think the whole reason they are the way they are with touya (patient when he's harsh, gentle when he's cornered, sturdy when he falters) is because they are just as in love with him as he is them! the whole series is basically me giving touya the love and care he deserves LMFAO so i envision reader as the embodiment of his personal little angel for his little broken soul </3 i see their dynamic kinda like the "A fell first but B fell harder" trope, i think touya and reader are just as much in love with one another, but go through their own journeys with coming to that realization and showing that outwardly. and i think thats the beautiful thing about learning to love! its different for everyone and doesnt have a specific shape or form. its like water, slipping through crevices and malleable to the touch

but hypothetically taking this question out of context from the series and just thinking about touya loving someone who loves someone else, i don't even think he'd let himself. i think everything he does is an internal battle, so even if someone loved him wholeheartedly, he'd still try his very hardest not to let himself reciprocate it. hes been hurt too many times and has dealt with too much pain to even let himself try. i also think its pretty clear that he views himself as a lost cause and has one sole thing in mind for himself before dying, so i truly dont think he'd allow himself to fall in love with anyone, let alone someone who doesnt feel it back. hes so pathetically stubborn, i dont think he'd ever allow himself to indulge in something as fragile as love

#BUT I CAN CHANGE HIM #I CAN FIX HIM <3 TEACH HIM <3 #and again this is just my opinion :D #the touya in my head is not universal and thats ok #lmfao but srsly thank u for this #very happy to see that ur interested in my touya and his way of being! #this kinda turned into me rambling and getting off track but #i hope it half answered ur question <3

[kendrixtermina]

Common Assumptions of the Types

Evidently these range from ‚kinda true from a certain angle‘, to ‚sadly very often true but would get you into trouble if you assumed it was always the case‘ all the way to ‚sounds instantly silly when you say it out loud but often feels true‘; In the following, I will just be presenting them without comment beyond that it may help to ask yourself ‚is this really true in this specifi situation‘ or ‚Am I maybe being led astray by one of these traps without realizing‘

1

- impulses are not to be trusted & must be controlled

- duty is more important than pleasure – pleasure must be earned, or, it’s suspect. In some individuals the function of pleasure can get rather inhibited

- goodness & correctness come from the outside / live in the outer world

- perfection is possible

- its your job to fix everything thats wrong

- everything is meant as criticism

- youre the worst of all people

2

- all is fair in love and war, that is, anything is ok if it’s done in the name of love

- feeling is more important than, or more reliable than thinking

- its necessary to „make“ people like you or they just won’t

- „they couldn’t do without me“ & because of this, you get special treatment

- you know what everyone needs

- its in your power to make everyone like you so if they dont you messed up

3

- nobody cares about your true feelings

- you shouldn’t have any problems

- you’re no good if you’re not productive

- everyone is faking it – it’s the only way to survive

- nothing happens without you – and if your coworkers do manage while your on vacatio, it must be cause your useless

4

- if you stop going over the past, move on or let it go that’s the same as giving up or acting like it didn’t matter

- there’s something noble about suffering

- you’re owed compensation for how the world has mistreated you

- you’re not as good as others

- there isnt anyone else like you

- there is always something wrong

5

- it’s better to go at it alone

- most professions of love are fake & self-interested

- less commitments means more freedom and hapiness

- better to need little to avoid dependencies

- better to keep what you have in case you need it later – you cant eat you cake and have it, too

- if you let em have an inch, they’ll take a mile and you’ll be left with nothing

- you should be able to solve everything by thinking about it

6

- people cant be trusted

- you cant ever let your guard down

- if I can think of everything that might go wrong, i will feel safe & in control

- whatever can go wrong willgo wrong

- your intuitions and wishes are suspect

- power or proximity to it means safety

- the authorities, be they loved or hated, have great power, reach and influence

7

- optimistic bias: im great, everyone is awesome, the world is a wonderful place

- except authority, authority sucks

- if you can explain something away or avoid thinking about it, it will go away

- you need to have a plan

- you can do whatever you can get away with

- you deserve, and absolutely need to get what you want

- the best way to succeed is through charm and negotiation

- if you let the pain catch up to you, it will never, ever end

8

- the world is a lawless jungle/ struggle for survival

- to survive, you must be fearless and take risks

- what people call virtue is usually just hypocricy

- strenght & autonomy are good, weakness and needyness will do you in

- what restricts you and denies you satisfaction is your enemy

- nobody can tell you what to do

- there’s not going to be any fairness unless you make it happen

- the truth is obvious

- It’s ok to cause suffering in the pursuit of satisfaction or as compensation for past slights and reestrictions

(which maybe sounds harsh, but think of it like this: You must eat other creatures to live. It’s impossible to never offend anyone. Will you starve or shut up forever? It’s not possible to never slight anyone, so you might as well have steak and say your opinion)

9

- better not to think or worry too much about stuff to avoid suffering

- when in doubt, it may be better to conform and not rock the boat

- disagreement brings separation, so, the less conflict the better

- you should defer to the needs of others

- its not ok to further your own interest

- you cant know what you want

- youre nor important and your goals are probably not worth bothering about

#enneagram #typology

[highpriestess-stuff]

So my day started out well i started with self love affirmations which ive been doing for the past 2 days starting off with a spiritual bath and i must admit it has mad quite a difference im excited to see how this will help me i didnt realise how much i truly needed self love i honestly thought i was such a confident person but im starting to realize how harsh iand negative i can be and im starting to see exactly why all these bitches are jealous of me especially the ones that i work with ive never really had a hard time with making friends but ever since me & T broke but damn did it do a number on me.. Getting cheated the first time was just traumatic & left me with anxiety but having such a strong support system and going to the gym almost like everday and letting it out really helped but this break up just left me completely distraught and just made me not want to live life anymore and isolate myself & i didnt realize how it was affecting all my relationships with my friends my family and co workers like damn this narcissistic gas lighting bitch sucked my fucking soul like end all be all and not a single person there to pick up my pieces my like damn had to get myself out of this shit and i feel powerful as fuck never will i let anyone tear me down like that again LESSON LEARNT: Never settle for less. Took 2 years of my life to realize that but hey it coulda been worse.. still trying to see the positivity in this lol coulda gotten married to this bitch ass but thank god he really had to take me off this path this person refused to understand me & the lesson i learnt was that im not for everybody i am simply a Diving Feminine and we aint for everybody if people dont get u then dont waste your time arguing or explaining yourself cause the right people to get you like how did i become so lost and desperate? i just really wanted him to see me for me i just really wanted to make my family happy .. & he wanted to make his the only difference was im not what his family wanted and u know what thats their loss because as soon as i came out i was told i was going to be a motherfuckin champion it truly is his loss lol he fucked up big time and his family is a peice of shit if they really loved him they would want him to be happy but i guess whats what he deserves OH WELL now i see why they dont want the best for him he deserves exactly that shit even the lord dont want the best for him but me i am truly blessed and protected so thank you Jesus!

Going thru that experience really left me feeling emptier then even it felt like people could also see right thru me it left my fuckin boundaries all over the place i allowed people to step all over me cause i constantly thought i was the problem but now im starting to see i was never the problem its this cruel ass world no matter how nice u are to people or how much u just want to help them because u truly see what the can become and u see their potential it doesnt mean that their going to follow that exact path that u want for them it means giving up control letting people have their own experiences and im just trying to be comfortable with that like hey you wanna go fuck up your life go ahead like who am i to control u not like i got super powers cause if i did bruh. People are wylin & then godforbid i wanna do something for myself then they got a problem like what? are yall on. For example Victoria shes so far up my ass but yet cant even be there for me when i need her like bitch step aside and all day at work today she was so sad like what are u sad for... what happend to that advice that u give everytime "Dont Care" like lets see u do that now you dumbass u look fuckin stupid i have completely lost my respect for her like she looks for pathetic how dare she tell me not to care when i share my feelings with her like hows that going for you? keep ur bitch ass advice to yourself the only reason i ever listened to her was cause i actually respected her i thought she was someone i wanted to be like fuck no! i am so much better then her im better then any of these people how dare they show my any fuckin attitude ever like put some motherfuckin respect on my name or get the fuck out of my face and my energy aura cause i aint for everybody you wanna be around me? show some fuckin respect or get the fuck out because i value myself and my opinions and i can find people who do do i dont need you bitch ass people clearly YOU NEED ME like these people need to realise they need me at the end of the day so show respect or get the fuck out. Even will came in with some wack ass attitude but the second i refused to acknowledge him this nigga really started sucking my dick like are you for real why do i need to be rude like is that what turns you people on like is this why im working in this type of environment to learn that i just need to stay away from people who dont respect my energy why because you people cant do the work and become great like me??? ive done the work ive done the time ive earned to be where the fuck i am and if maybe yall put in the work you guys would be on my level but u aint thats why you bitches are so fuckin miserable and just focused on me unfortunatly thats what comes with the fame and i aint leveling down for no fucking body i came a long fuckin way and i deserve this shit put my crown on again & im knock it off * & this bitch shan like i thought she was the nicest girl ever bitch HAD the audacity to show me attitude like girl do u know who ur dealing with ur 20 nothing its actually cute and laughable because she looks like that character from ice age she thinks shes really doing something i cant with these hoes thinking they affect like.. like bruh this is my partime job lol this is your lifetimes career ofcourse u going to be mad lol stay mad cause what im winning? so u think showing me attitude gonna do something um no it just shows me that ur a terrible person ur disgusting and fuckin ugly i was just being nice and now that youve shown ur true colors i no longer need to loook go crawl back in ur dark cave u hoeeeeeeeeeee.. anyways ill be back for more updates byeeee

[doyouordoyounot]

oct 26, 2022 // 2:40am

i dont know how to feel what to feel

im writing this entry to help myself process what i want, my hopes, and hopefully make my eyes and mind clear of what should be felt, what i should think.

i dont know why everything is blurry to me. i used to feel that i dont have any feelings for you anymore, i dont care for you anymore. what ever you do, it doesnt matter to me.

but i know i really hurt you from what i said. and nothing could take that hurt back. no matter what i do or what i say. i want to say im really sorry. i really am. i hope i could turn back time. i was so harsh on you. i knew u still had feelings but i didnt care. i regret what i did. i regeret making you feel bad, sad, lonely, and alone. i always want us to be in good terms but i know thats not gonna happen anymore. so i have to live with it forever.

i will keep on wishing for you happiness. i just want you to be happy. more than anything. despite all that happened to us.

i do miss you. i miss us talking, and in good terms. still, i know i dont want us to be together. because of all the bagagge around ourselves, i dont think i can. but i really miss you. and im really sorry. i know i cant do anything anymore. i feel like youre already in the process of moving on. it makes me smile, honestly. but i dont know why there's a tear that comes along with my smile. i still dont know why im hurting now that you are totally gone. do i still love you? or is still just because i care for you. or is still because im selfish? i dont want to be selfish. i just want you to be okay. thats all.

i dont know why im still writing. what do i want from this? i feel like im going on circles.

if i could, and if im still relevant, i just want to say... im still gonna be here. no matter what, yuoure still welcome in my life. even as just a friend. i shouldnt be the one saying this. maybe because i want you to? i dont know. ireally dont know.

bottomline is. i hope youre okay. youre doing things that youre happy. its sad that i wont be there. but ireally do hope eveything u do, brings you happiness. i wish your plans becomes reality. and if there's someone beside you cheering and holding your hand along theway while you achieve your dreams, thats good and better. i just wanna see you smile. i just want to see your smile. it brings me happiness too. idont know why. i think becuase you still hold so much space in my life nad heart. idont know if this is love. or just care. but yes, you do. so take care of yourself. i love you justine. that love will never go away. maybe so does the pain that comes with it now that youre really gone. :) i dont know what im saying really. im jsut spewing words into texts. just be okay, okay? i wanna breathe clearly. i just want to be okay again. u being okay, is enough for me. i dont want to think you cried, were hurt, or naything negative because of me. i know theres nothing special with me, so i hope im not doing any damage to you anymore. you deserve the best. and only the best. im gonna take a deep breath now. and hopefully this will help me really let go of whatever im feeeling....

[advenitmc]

Mate I think you’re being too unforgiving in your interpretation of Wilbur

i suppose it does seem that way, i criticize him in some ways i do c!dream

there are some unforgiving things he's done in my eyes due to personal experiences and my own hand of trauma, both trauma he affects and he has

so i have a very blunt and harsh opinion of him :p

not in a totally negative way ofc, he's wonderfully written the way he is and i adore his characterization

a lot of people sympathize softlywith his character and i think thats why a lot of people dont analyze him as harshly as i do so to say?

a lot of people see it in his perspective and that its clear that hes just lonely and desperate and NEEDS communication and therapy

the way i analyze him is while being aware of that, i focus on how it affects other people, i.e. ranboo and tommy, and how his actions in the past affect the now gravely

it's all about how being mentally ill doesn't only fuck yourself over but other people around you too :p

#i suppose it looks unforgiving but if it is #ill be real i dont care much bc hes a character and thats why hes c!wilbur/revivebur LOL #that and #i always do say this and i mean it #i speak a lot from personal experiences. i project a lot and thats an obvious trait of mine #i see his faults and because people focus on one character they only focus on their traits and how the world affects them #its a self-centered outlook so to say (/nm btw idk how else to describe it) #you can be mentally ill and try to do good but fuck up anyways and thats okay #and i think thats whats interesting about revivebur #whenever i talk about him i never look at him as the 'always evil guy' #i see him as 'the guy whos struggling so bad that hes still messing it up even if he means well' #he deserves his love and affection and care. he always will. #i always just ignore that part bc i think everyone struggling like that needs it but like. that should be obvious right? #and i barely see anyone analyze characters with mental illness about the faults they do or the very obvious MAJOR trauma theyve caused #its always swept under the rug in favor of forgiving the antagonist-type when theyre antagonistic for a reason #i hope that says my word on it :p #i adore revivebur but i can be harsh on my analyzations abt him as much as i need #asbk

[mrsswaino]

broken habits .

frank castle x reader .

warnings : angst with a happy ending .

i dunno just a little drabble i wrote. (please dont hate me - im sorry if this is too long to be a drabble but to me its close enough)

you knew how this was gonna end. you were both gonna say whatever harsh shit came to mind, frank would eventually storm out, and hed show up a few days later somewhat apologizing.

neither of you really remember what started the argument. frank honestly just argued with you to push you away. but eventually, he would selfishly come back, and repeat the cycle. make you think everythings going okay, and maybe just maybe he’d let you in, and stay.

but at some point since your last argument he had time to talk to curt. and maybe for once he would listen. maybe it was time he let someone in. i mean, he basically already had. he just didnt want to believe it, and he didnt want you to know it. so he caves, just sits on your couch and lets you berate him.

truly, he did deserve it. he deserved every harsh word you threw his way. you were to busy spewing your bullshit to notice hed shut up and sat. honestly waiting for the opening and slamming of the door - because somehow even though you knew different, frank castle convinced you he only cared about himself.

that was his goal at first, and hes usually pretty good at accomplishing them. but i guess goals change. because now, even while youre yelling at him for his shitty habits, pride, and whatever the fuck else hes definitly been doing wrong hes finally thinking about all the ways to do this right.

how to patch everything up, after all the destruction hes caused. but thats what he is, destruction - no, nope there goes those thoughts creeping back in. he hasnt always been so destructive, he knows he can be caring, and kind and, and - and loving.

why wait? why wait to start patching the cracks he made in your trust for him?

but just as soon as hes getting up, youre finally zoning into the fact hes shut up. and youre thinking, ‘typical’ hes running away. but no, no not today. hes wrapping you up in his arms against your verbalized protests, and physical ones. soon enough though - youre giving into the hug. you cant help it.

#jon bernthal #jon bernthal x reader #jonny bernthal #frank castle #frank castle x reader #the punisher #the punisher x reader #frank castle angst

[mrstsung]

Kung lao (and liu kang) are kinda unorthodox shaolin monks. And kinda are different than the average monks of the order of the white lotus.

Solely because they were chosen as warriors and protectors of earth.

Also lao wasn't shunned away for participating in the tournament. He actually chose to not participate but sensed his bro would be in danger the 2nd time around so he went anyways.

That's one part of canon they retconned for some damn reason. Plus he wasn't arrogant. If people actually fucking researched and respected asian cultures.

They would understand why thats important to lao. Even if we think its silly,even if we think its "pride" or "ego" it's important to him.

Plus its not just fam and his ancestor the great kung lao. It's honor to the order he serves. And the warriors and monks and friends. He stands by.

To diss him and place it as simply ego is a gross misunderstanding of what he fights for.

And it pisses me off more when other characters especially heroic mk characters. Do the same shit. Fight for the same shit. But because lao is vocal and adamant about things. Suddenly its a problem?!

The hypocrisy and bias for Characters in mk11 is so strong it reeks.

Its like why bring lao back only to treat his character like dirt?!

Like why bother giving us kung lao players and fans what you NRS SHOULDN'T HAVE FUCKING TAKEN AWAY IN THE FIRST PLACE. only to treat his character like some butt of a joke.

And sadly johnny cage who was the actual designated funny dude. Gives him more fucking respect than anyone else.

Liu kang while i chalk it up to just playful shittalk amoung bros. Can be harsh and unnecessary. But i can see where lao could get annoyed at by it. But its sad we dont get to actually see him uplift his bro without some stupid plot device. (Aka god power) when he should have done it in the first place. He shouldn't have to take a universe ending and crisis to give his bro the respect he deserves. And thats piss poor writing and bias at its finest.

Hanzo understands where lao comes from sub is always a bit cold (no pun intended). But the ninja give more respect too. Harsh but fair. I expected that.

None of the villains are nice to anyone. So no love from them. Tho shang is equal opportunity shit talker and gives others a chance to die at his hands. Lol. So theres that. So shang tsung of all people has more respect (as much as he can give respect. Lol look take what you can get from shang ok?) Than others? This is funny,great,but also sad.

Sad that lao has been reduced to some joke.

And in canon. He's badass af. He has a simple concept and if played well. Can decimate the kompetition.

Are people just salty? Are people just that mad at lao for no fucking reason other than a shallow,one dimensional belief?

I swear the more carefree the character. The more they get shat on by high and mighty people.

Lao has an ego? How about most of the roster as an ego?

Pride is the least of your worries about lao.

Bitch has depression,anxiety,low self esteem (more likely due to his family because generational trauma and having to step up and defend for kun jin his nephew. Nobody talks about that shit,they love to gloss over that fact. Because if lao had the ego they preach about,he wouldn't care in the slightest for jin but he does. And he acts more of a dad figure than his real parents probably do.) And not to mention he dies in several timelines. For the most bullshit of reasons. And nobody did anything about it. Nobody seemed to actually mourn. And it pisses me off.

I love liu kang and he deserves respect too. And him and lao are equals and they do treat each other as such. But nobody sees it as such but them.

But also other characters seem so far up their own asses to actually see that lao is just as great and actually talk,listen,or even fucking speak to lao about why he feels the way he does.

I just am sick of it. To a point where it makes me go. WHO TF AT NRS AND OR WARNER HAS SUCH A DISDAIN FOR KUNG LAO?! LIKE WTF DID HE EVER DO TO YOU YOU SALTY HOES?!

Like did they get their ass whooped that badly by lao mains or players and now they throwing a pissy fit at the characters integrity because they fucking a sore loser?

Do they just have that much of a bias for liu and other characters?

What is the deal?!

Like fr.

Lao can be boastful but they treat it as if he's the only fucking one and its soooooo bad.

Like he's supposed to let people walk all over him?! Its mortal kombat. It bloody,its rough,its deadly. No maybe he shouldn't take it so hard. But if you had to constantly hear this time after time

You'd be pissed too.

Also its a two way street. You also can choose to not be an asshole to a warrior monk and show some fucking respect.

Ooooo. I enjoy every damn fatality and brutality when i play kung lao. Because im sick of the bullshit they pull with him in dialogue.

I only spare johnny,liu,hanzo,and maybe fujin. Thats it. Because they give some bit of respect.

Again im just done with NRS treating my og videogame bae like this.

#mortal kombat #mk discourse #discouse #vent post #self ship #self shipping #kung lao #kung lao mortal kombat #kung lao mk #💖⛩hat bae💖⛩ #he deserves respect damn it!

[markets]

ok well c!shittypenis analysis essay under the cut

c!shittypenis is so fucking sad. let me explain.

during season 1, c!shittypenis was inseparable. they had the most beautiful relationship on the whole penissmp imo (you dont have to agree, that opinion does not affect the points made in this essay as i tried to keep it as unbiased as possible). c!penis kept c!shitty grounded when necessary and showed him the importance of sacrificing things for those you care about, while c!shitty helped c!penis be ambitious and stand his ground when necessary, showed him that he didn’t have to settle for anything less than what he deserved. if they hadn’t had each other, they wouldn’t have been able to survive the cockberg war and dethrone c!admiral_anal. and that was what made their love (whether you interpret it as platonic or otherwise) so special. it was about survival and growth, whereas so many others on the smp (eg c!hairballs and c!gargle) were about power, about one of them wanting something from the other. it was refreshing, the only reason cockberg won the war (c!pisskink69′s betrayal would have decimated them otherwise, since they had little to no resources or morale left afterwards), and the driving force between season 1.

but during season 2, we saw c!shitty slowly distance himself from c!penis. props to cc!shitty for this, because it was really fucking subtle. he showed up to the bridge where they would hang out less and less, didn’t help c!penis during the confrontation with c!milfboss that ended up taking one of his canon lives (which directly paralleled the fight with c!pisskink69 at balltown from season 1, but thats for another essay), among other things. 

but it all culminated when he destroyed the bridge. the one they had built together at the start of season 1, the one they started a war for. and it was such a heartbreaking scene. cc!penis’s voice acting really does not get enough recognition. but im getting off topic. the point is, c!shitty did all this for one thing and one thing only: power.

 after freeing cockberg and becoming vice chairman of the cabinet, he was in a vulnerable position: the war, especially c!admiral_anal’s threats towards c!penis, put him in a really bad mental state, one that made him doubt every decision he made and made him desperate for some kind of security. that combined with the amount power that being vice chairman held, just enough for him to see what it was like to have power but also leaving him hungry for more (if you still don’t believe this, rewatch the scene where he imposed taxes on c!glorp’s neighborhood, shitbitch, from the beginning of the season, it foreshadows the conflict super well), made him unable to resist c!bigfuckingboobs’s offer. 

c!bigfuckingboobs is arguably one of the most, if not the most, powerful people on the server: she’s the richest member with the best pvp skills. if they teamed up, there was no amount of power he couldn’t have, no height he couldn’t reach. even if it meant cutting of his friends, it could guarantee them safety in the long run. it could be worth it. it was extremely risky, but then again, c!shitty was never one to shy away from risk. so he took it. c!bigfuckingboobs used this to manipulated him into craving more and more power, until she could use his position in the government and the distance he had placed between him and his friends to take over cockberg and either make it hers or destroy it. 

that’s why c!penis killed c!clitoris on the ruins of the bridge. he saw what power was doing to his friend, and that was his ultimatum, his way of letting him know that he had gone too far. that was the reason c!shitty felt the need to distance himself from c!penis in the first place: the second c!shitty started craving more power, c!penis was wary, if not outright critical of it (dont forget that after the shitbitch dispute, c!penis went to c!hairball behind c!shitty’s back to try and take him out of office). however, he now had what season 1 c!shitty probably would’ve viewed as a valid concern, since the way he was acting directly paralleled c!admiral_anus. hence c!clitoris’s murder, which i personally don’t agree with, but i will say that many c!penis antis ignore the fact that, since its minecraft, pets arent regarded in the same way as they are irl, so while still bad, its not as harsh as many of them are making it out to be imo.

but anyway, c!shitty knew that c!penis was warning him. he knew. but the way c!bigfuckingboobs had twisted his worldview, he saw it not as c!penis trying to keep him safe, but as him dragging him down, trying to keep him from achieving what he wanted, which had originally been safety for c!penis and the others, but was now power for him and c!bigfuckingboobs. the meaning behind c!clitoris’s death, not the death itself, was what prompted the electric chair execution, which so many people seem to not understand. 

and that was what was so sad about it: c!bigfuckingboobs was using the very things they had learned from and taught one another to turn them against each other. c!shitty’s ambition and what c!penis had taught him about sacrifice had caused him to take her deal and distance himself from c!penis in exchange for what he thought would guarantee them safety in the first place, while c!penis’s careful nature and the things he had learned from c!shitty about standing up for himself caused him to directly oppose him. this all led up to c!penis’s execution, directly paralleling c!hairball’s in the cockberg war arc.

c!bigfuckingboobs let them drive one another into ruins, because with that, the very foundation cockburg had been built upon would crumble, and she could take power without ever having to lift a finger. the war left c!shittypenis with different desires, and c!shitty’s desire for power and c!penis’s outright aversion to it due to his trauma with c!admiral_anal clashed and ruined everything they had once had. that is why c!shittypenis is the most heartbreaking dynamic on the penissmp, and why they are some of the best written narrative foils i have ever seen. 

TL;DR: c!shittypenis contrast each other perfectly, and these differences ended up pulling them apart after the war for cockberg

#the shittypenis saga #penisunavailable #shittyfartbaby69 #angiemarkets.txt #dream smp #penismp #angiewrites.txt #c!bigfuckingboobs crit #smpenis

[oliviamillss]

reading dreams chart

im only going to use up to orb 3, for stronger accuracy lmao

**if you can’t be bothered to read it all, theres a summary paragraph at the bottom**

sun:

sun in 7th: strong emphasis on relationships. tends to copy others lingo/habits. extroverted. probably ‘needs’ others. only really shows his true self around his close friends/family/partners. 

sun at 19 degrees: a libra degree. (emphasis on this bc libra rules 7h), makes him a very charming, likeable, particularly popular guy.

sun opposite ascendant: inner conflict, probably doesn’t feel like people see him for his true self, may struggle showing true self. may feel misunderstood. may need approval/validation a lot.

sun square mars: hints to daddy issues. may struggle with a lot of built up anger and frustration, but it seems like he takes it out very positively, as you can see he is competitive, so i think he lets it out through gaming. probably very energetic, motivated.

sun square saturn: high expectations for himself. probably the type of person to think ‘i’m only good enough if i do this’. probably very hard on himself. also probably very insecure of himself, but doesn’t show it. another sun square masculine planet, more hinting to daddy issues.

moon:

moon in 7th: probably relies on close friends/family/partners a lot. loves to help people, esp people he’s close with (kinda mr beast vibes). probably very like ‘oh shit, he’s sad, i need to do everything within my power to cheer him up’ if that makes sense lmao

moon in virgo: looking after people!!! esp with the sun square saturn,, high expectations. probably a very much perfectionist, which also explains why he is competitive. may ‘always need to be right’. but virgo moons are actually so lovely omfg

moon at 9 degrees: sagittarius degree, likes to help people by optimism, and giving things to the person that they would want (im aware that sounds obvious lmao). probably feels a sense of achievement when cheers them up.

moon square pluto: probably hard time dealing with and growing from negative things that have happened, possibly struggles with letting things go. possibly self destructive (why did that one heatwaves part come to mind), possible trust issues + anxiety, probably very particular about who he lets close into his life, maybe quite protective. 

mercury:

mercury in 6th: likes to help people, probably not disappointed if he spends his time working with someone, may struggle with anxiety/depression. a quick learner, probably overthink every word because it wast the ‘perfect’ thing to say. 

mercury in leo: funny asf, and out there, also thinks his ideas/things to respond and say are the best, with the 6h and 7h placements, he is open to listen to others, but in the end he only really wants his one lmfao, good with conversation.

mercury at 1 degree: aries degree, another fire placement which emphasises the loud, out there kinda vibes.

mercury trine mc: career and reputation are strongly linked with what he says. (this is obv bc hes famous lmao). he’s smart, particularly with technology and its linked to his career. *im aware this sounds like im just describing him, this is exact so thats why its overly accurate*

mercury opposite neptune: daydreamer, probably has a lot of thoughts and ideas in his head, but they just dont come across right. probably zones out, may struggle with focusing. but very creative, has big and creative ideas. i havent mentioned it before but its come up too many times now, but he has a lot of placements, when manifested badly, creates a good manipulator

mercury square jupiter: optimistic, possibly thinks his ideas are the best (we’ve covered that before), can be really overly talkative or just nothing at all. (i rlly dont know much about this placement)

venus:

venus in 7th: he will have a beautiful relationship with his future partner. charming asfff, probably a good flirt. tends to love love. needs to be liked, sort of a pleaser. 

venus in virgo: the type of person to remember everything about the people he cares about. loves to help the people he cares about. probably sees the people he truly loves as ‘perfect’, which may end up being really bad if they’re toxic. 

venus in retrograde: struggles feeling loved, possibly feels like he doesn’t deserve love. probably the type to be like ‘how could you ever love me?’

venus square mc: attract people who take care of him. either has self-esteem issues, or is quite a dependant person. creative. may struggle finding people who support his career, or may have to change a few things about himself to be liked by others. 

venus trine jupiter: very likeable, and he’s veryyy lucky. he’s funny, and a generous person, probably very giving to his close friends and family. charismatic asfff, likely he will marry someone foreign. 

mars:

mars in 9th: more things hinting to attract(ing/ed to) foreigners. loves experiencing things with people he cares about. likes to learn more and more, possibly stubborn, makes sure his opinions are known.

mars in scorpio: that boy needs privacy in his life, doesn’t like being predictable. probably an overthinker. we’ve already known this but he’s definitely a top. probably could get anyone he wants, seductive asfff. also pretty spiteful.

mars at 17 degrees: leo degree, fame bitchesss

mars square ascendant: hates to lose, competitive. people may be intimidated by him at first, can’t really hide anger, pretty stubborn.

mars opposite saturn: really hard on himself. wants to be the best of the best, leader. stands up for himself. another placement hinting to daddy issues. harsh about his work, and himself in general, perfectionist. 

mars square uranus: anger may change a lot, a lot of energy, probably struggles to focus, doesn’t like to be the one who is being controlled/has restrictions. probably struggles with authority. outbursts of anger.

jupiter

jupiter in 3rd house: loves writing, and is actually pretty good at it. knows how to talk to people, how to persuade them, and how to manipulate them. good liar, knows how to sell his wants across, how to get what he wants.

jupiter at 4 degrees: cancer degree, cancer rules his 6h. he uses his luck/money to help others.

jupiter square neptune: big dreams, desire to escape the world as it is.

saturn:

saturn in 3rd: afraid of/ is often misunderstood. struggles to open up?, maybe he wasn’t listened to much growing up. hard on himself academically, feels like he isn’t smart enough. hard time expressing himself. maybe feels like noone really cares for what he has to say?

saturn at 16 degrees: cancer degree. idk what else to say abt it lmaoo

saturn square ascendant: quite serious, maybe struggle with the way he looks? possibly quite overwhelmed about his life,, feels like he has too much to do at times. fear of rejectionnn

saturn square uranus: maybe he doesn’t like change, tradition v change clashing. authority troubles. probably needs freedom, but feels unstable without what he’s used to. rebelling against norms. 

uranus: 

uranus in 12th: probably very curious about unexplainable things, maybe quite into conspiracy theories. two complete ends of the spectrum: fear change/need it, unpredictable things happen/ everythings the same. 

uranus at 14 degrees: taurus. taurus ruling 2nd, i guess it shows change in dream’s wealth.

uranus opposite north node (and conj south node): with exceptions, doesn’t like conflict. he is fine with joke conflict, but the second there’s an actual argument he tries to be the ‘peacemaker’ guy. technology is major in his life. also quite nervous about his career/future. 

neptune:

neptune in 12th: awful sleep schedule. overworking himself, never relaxing. vivid dreams. once again, this has come up loads and i just haven’t mentioned it: intuitive asf, george is the same. whether either are aware of it or not, they are super intuitive.

neptune at 2 degrees: taurus degree.

neptune sextile mc: creative, also likes helping others, empathy to the public. has big dreams career wise. 

pluto:

pluto in 10th: determined person, gets a lot of hate, but also a lot of love. trust issues, persuasion/manipulative abilities. leader leader leader. another hint to daddy issues, maybe privacy invading, maybe overprotective. don’t want to be controlled.

north node:

north node in 6th: overwork himself. but i think we can interpret this as his life goal to be working to help people. literally mr beast. just work hard, and give a lot away. humble.

chiron:

chiron in 9th: possible restriction from either his or his communities beliefs/religions. maybe he’s afraid of leaving where he is right now (sapnap moving to orlando, whenever its brought up its always george coming to orlando)

lilith:

lilith in sagittarius: need for truth. dislikes restrictions. hides emotions, uses humour to avoid them/ make people think they’re okay when they’re not. stubborn asf. 

lilith in 10th: tend to be sexualised/ reputations for being sexual. another placement hinting to daddy issues. really wants to be at the top, the most powerful. likes using his dominance/ power to seduce. motivateddd.

lilith conjunct pluto (exact omfg): typical ‘mystery’ guy. probably the mystery/scorpio vibes he pulls off attracts/ seduces people. the most dominant partner ever. sex is probably so intense and overwhelming

moon square lilith: possible mummy issues. his need for sex can change quick asf, from one end of the scale to another. struggles to open up. 

 i ought to mention!!

there’s a theory that the degree of your venus sign is the birthday of someone who is v important in your life. what’s dreams you may ask? 1. and when are george and sapnap’s birthdays? the 1st. they’re soulmates, your honour.

summary!!!

basically, dream has so much care and love for his friends and family, and probably relies on them a lot. he only shows his true self around them, and he (at least thinks) people don’t really understand him in the way his friends and family do. he is a social person, who’s very likeable and charming. he lovesss helping people, doing everything in his power to cheer others up, he remembers details about the people he loves. he is such a perfectionist, needing to succeed and win and everything, and is very competitive. he probably doesn’t think he’s ‘worthy’ if he’s bad at something. he sets very high expectations for himself. he is very hard on himself. if he wants to, he knows how to manipulate people. he has so so many placements for an amazing manipulator. he may struggle to express himself or open up, and may be hard on himself academically. maybe he doesn’t feel ‘listened to’. a lot of emotions like anger and sex drive may change rapidly for him. he over works himself a lot. a major theme in his life is tradition vs change. he is probably afraid of change, or finds it uncomfortable, or he may have some sort of attachment to traditional values/things, no matter how much he wants to change. he is also a peacemaker. he was born to be loved or hated, kinda like marmite but if the balance was more equal. he doesn’t like restrictions. he uses humour to hide his emotions.

im also thinking of doing a synastry reading between george and dream but idk yet lol

hope you guys enjoyed, this took ages lmao<3

#dream #dreamwastaken #dreamsmp #astrology #chart reading #sun in 7th #famous people chart reading #moon in 7th #mercury in 6th #venus in 7th #mars in 9th #jupiter in 3rd #saturn in 3rd #uranus in 12th #neptune in 12th #lilith in 10th #lilith conjunct pluto #moon square lilith #astrology reading

[dyketubbo]

not to as always oppose c!dream apologists but god would dream being apart of the syndicate make me sooooo uncomfortable.... like not only does ranboo think he deserves to die but niki also hates him?? ranboo has never shown a positive feeling towards dream- and before you say anything about enderwalk- hes not.. always going to be enderwalking? and if he was always enderwalking around dream, uh. the enderwalk state is triggered by fear.

in order for ranboo to constantly be enderwalking around dream, itd have to be a process of ranboo constantly waking up, dreams prescence triggering a fear response, and him dissociating until the problems gone. thats stressful as shit. we don't have any actual evidence yet that he likes dream while enderwalking, at most theyre working together because ranboo genuinely believes in the happy family narrative, but there are many differences between what ranboo believes would be a happy family and what dream believes would be a happy family. theres like, no positives in how ranboo would react to dream being in the syndicate, hed just be constantly in and out of dissociating and panicking, as well as it would require him being stressed out about tubbo, tommy, michael, etc. he doesnt trust wilbur and could barely handle being on a different side from tubbo enough to even stay still, like hell would he manage to stay calm around dream, even in enderwalk hed still have to deal with the stress of keeping his relationships stable (especially with his family)

then theres niki, whose had a complicated relationship with dream, but its never been positive, not really. shes not as harsh about/to him as others, but its never quite.. positive, really. and ultimately, dreams actions have often indirectly harmed niki and made her life worse (especially because he often encouraged behavior and actions of the people who had more direct effects on her). theres no positives he could offer her, he doesnt care about her, and ultimately his tendency to encourage destructive behavior could only serve to mentally set her back even more, especially if he puts any focus on tommy, and we all know he will (also wilbur now viewing dream as his hero will also only serve to reintroduce wilbur even further into nikis life, and in a very negative way)

if people liked it for the angst reasons i could at least understand that (even if i feel like maybe ranboo and niki should get proper healing arcs and syndicate dream would set that back by like an incredible amount) but there seems to be some idea that it would be a healing arc or even redemption for dream that always baffled me. i dont think healing arcs should include hurting others even if they havent hurt you

#mask mews #no maintags just musing but as always its ok to rb