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ithinkinggenshin · 1 year

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Yae Miko's Captive

pt.2 to Yae Miko's part in Messed Up Messy Love

Warnings: Torture, Possessive behavior, Non-con elements (no smut), Mentions of death

You don't recognize yourself in the mirror. You don't even acknowledge yourself.

Emptiness.

It became a mantra to you.

Give her nothing.

Don't feel.

Don't react.

Don't think.

When Yae caught onto what you were doing, she finally decided to let you out.

Among the shrine maidens and guests, you realize your mistake.

You took the bait.

You were thinking again.

And now, Yae Miko gets to punish you for it.

She knows how to twist every word you say, every sliver of emotion. She'll send you spiraling downward only to catch you by the thinnest string. A true puppet in her hands.

She knows how to make you feel, even when you don't want to.

She’s driving you mad.

You're going insane.

Unpredictable. That’s the only way to properly describe her.

The others only see the tiniest sliver of what she's capable of. You have the great honor of bearing witness to all of her madness.

Her fingers dance along your body, nails digging bloody holes into you. Her voice and words drag you by the skull through a mental maze she constructed, just for you.

Her little pet.

And when she can't seem to get you to react how she wants, she has many more tools to help her.

You will appreciate her hard work and attentiveness. She's taken so much time to learn about you.

Don't you realize?

All of this was for you.

She understands you perfectly, now.

Before she was easily able to predict your movements. Now, she knows what you'll think before it even happens.

Emptiness.

Empty your mind.

If you–

"If you have no thoughts, then I can't predict them," Yae Miko stares at you. The corners of her lips twitch. She wants to show you her canines. In a smile? Or as a threat? Not that there's any difference.

"What a sad reaction. You'd throw away all of what makes you human, just to spite me?" She fakes a pout.

"Too bad it won't get you what you want," she swoops in close, "I will never let you go." She laughs and pats your cheek like she just gave you a lollipop. "So no need to bother with such boring behavior. Let's keep this interesting as long as possible, okay?"

You hate that sing-song voice she uses when she talks about getting her way.

There's no escape.

You tried to die, and she wouldn't let you.

You're killing yourself in a different way, and all she can do is laugh.

You'll die by her hand, only when she allows it.

You find the only sanctuary is in your sleep. The nightmares are nothing compared to real life. Yet even that reprieve is stripped from you as soon as you show the pattern of using it to escape.

You wake up trapped inside your mind. Your body goes to Miko. You pound and shake and scream, yet it's all for naught. You feel sick. Your body doesn't respond.

Miko and you do things you wish you never witnessed. You wish your body didn't seem so eager. You wish you could go back to sleep. But it's like you're the subject to a failed hanging. All you can do is dangle helplessly and watch as the world spins around you. Or maybe you're the one spinning. Does it matter? Your body isn't yours anymore.

The next day, everything returns to normal. Miko expects you to be as shaken. She always knows what to expect. You're afraid to sleep. But being awake with her feels terrible too.

How did this happen? This nightmare hellscape. That woman has too much power. To control a person like this, it's unimaginable.

All those centuries. You wonder– despite not wanting to– if she's done this before.

You can't imagine anyone being drawn to her.

Except the goddess she calls her friend.

Except her friends in higher places. The ones that fight to possess you at any chance she gives them.

Except the humans coming to pray.

But the archon has a madness of her own, so it's no surprise the two get along.

But her friends have been trapped almost for centuries and are desperate, fighting like starving rats for just a lick of freedom.

And the humans. They're only there to relieve blessings and to worship. Miko would never give them the privilege of seeing this side of her.

No.

They don't count.

They shouldn't count.

Because none of them truly know her.

Because none of them are you.

Being empty means you’ll be possessed.

Being full means you’ll be her treat.

But no matter what you are, you are Miko’s.

You belong to her.

Mind, body, and soul.

Whatever is left of it, anyway.

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amyreads · 1 year

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its 1AM and Orion's POV chapter is done. 5.6k words YEAH

every single line, every choice...and it was so fun ha

#infamous chat #writing chat #i still need to work on the drabble but god that one is like pulling teeth right now #or wading through quicksand #and i don't know why #its a slog to get through #i think my energy may be drained thats all

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trion-revolutionary · 7 months

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Kvar teaching Lloyd the basics of key crest engraving. The blackboard is a diagram of a basic keycrest and it's assembly very important for Lloyd to know. But more importantly, Kratos is back.

#tales of symphonia #kratos aurion #lloyd aurion #kvar #crulloyd #my art #cruxis #this is old #i have been sitting on it.#and i don't know why

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starsandhughes · 1 year

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quintin hughes🥰

#i barely call him quinn at this point #and i don't know why #i just love quintin #quinn hughes

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dont-read-this-im-dead · 4 months

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I love it when dean and Sam meet Charlie for the first time, and dean is trying to convince her to use her feminine wiles on the guard to get into dick's office. But Charlie is like, "uh, yeah, no, I can't do that." And instead of automatic judging that you get on a lot of shows, dean is straight up, "alright girl, just do what I tell you, and you'll have him wrapped around your little finger."

#dean is teaching a lesbian how to flirt with a guy #and i don't know why #but it's my most favorite moment in the whole show #supernatural #spn #destiel #charlie is my favorite character

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teecupangel · 1 year

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A friendly reminder that this mug of Altaïr exists and my dumb ass is still looking for it just so I could make a

"look at his ugly mug"

joke.

#assassin's creed #altaïr ibn la'ahad #as far as i know this is an official merch #what the fuck #i love him your honor #and i don't know why

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muffinwalloper · 8 months

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Clara Oswald x William Boldwood

They become friends even though he's twice her age. When he asks her to marry him she turns him down, not wanting to risk their friendship. But she soon realises that something more is building between them.

#clara oswald x william boldwood #clara oswald #william boldwood #jenna coleman #michael sheen #and i don't know why

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floef-likes-everything · 6 months

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Specifstick.

#this was the single best word from session 1 #and I don't know why #it just sounds so hillarious to me #mumbo jumbo #trafficblr #secret life #secret life smp

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illiana-mystery · 1 year

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Am I the only one that finds this oddly cute?

#i mean it looks cold as fuck #so that's probably why he did that #but still #it's just so cute to me #and i don't know why #god i'm down so bad #for this senior citizen no less #but do i have any shame #not really no #inspector gamache #three pines #my sweet alfredo #my heart #❤️❤️❤️❤️#alfred molina

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aneldritchmoth · 1 year

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NEW FANDOM AQUIRED

Guess who finished Jack's Portal 2 playthrough? ITS ME!! I drew this while it was playing in the background. Have some Wheatley fanart, he's my fave.

I also just now realized that I have in fact misspelled Wheatley, uhh don't mind that.

I love him, he's so skrunkly. Also I tried a new artstyle, which is like the stratchy black paper that I used to doodle on when I was a kid.

Bro I just realized I kin this robot guy and that I am also very late to this fandom lol

That's it byyyye

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wanderingmind867 · 4 months

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Why does it feel like there's no good copies of the Wizard of Oz anywhere? I've seen multiple copies before, but none seem any good. The first copy I found had terrible illustrations in it, the second copy I found had a felt style texture in the cover (I think), and the third copy was better than the other two, but had strange quotes from random pages inserted at random all throughout the book. And it's annoying. Listen, I know the book is old (coming from the 1890s or early 1900s), but it shouldn't be this hard to find a good copy of a book! It's annoying.

#You wouldn't think it'd be this hard #but it is #I don't know if it's been as hard to find any of my other books #but It could have been #autism #asd #books #wizard of oz #autistic #adhd #my thoughts #random thoughts #It's hard to find good copies #at least for me #and i don't know why

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radiosummons · 10 months

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