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#and hes aggressively mormon aka the religion that fucked me up and the root of most of my issues
cadaverousdecay · 3 years
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my dad just asked if i wanted to go out to eat anywhere cause its just me and him at home right now and im hiding in my room, and even though food does sound good i said no because i can not handle being alone with him in any context ever
#i do not like him#and he keeps ignoring all the bad stuff he says to me and pretending that nothings wrong#there have been times of reconciliation where ive been able to at least talk to him but then he always fucking ruins them#ive told him before i dont believe people can have a relationship if their core beliefs and ideals are too different#he thinks the lgbtq community is wrong and he thinks most of my interests are evil and he hates my political beliefs#if i just talk about things like how disney sucks or how columbus was a bad person or anything like that he gets pissed#and hes aggressively mormon aka the religion that fucked me up and the root of most of my issues#he tries to bond with me over guitar and music but the reasons i like them and the reasons he likes them are so fucking different#i just dont wish to have any relationship with him at all i dont think it would be beneficial to anyone involved#but his religious beliefs say that family is important so he thinks we have to love each other cause were family#i just#i dont know#its hard#i dont care if he actually does change his views im not gonna try to force him to see my way#i just want him to leave me alone#he always tries to force me into situations with him but whenever i think about being alone with him it always brings up a really bad fuckin#g memory of when he trapped me with him at a restaurant to berate me for not doing anything and being lazy and using depression as an excuse#and other shit happened that night but that was a really dark time in my life and i dont want to think about it right now
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