#and he clearly doesn't care

[vaguely-concerned]

sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go

#the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #john gaius #harrow the ninth #this is why I don't buy john as misunderstood and initially well-meaning AT ALL #this is a pattern you see with him again and again and again -- right down to his interpersonal relationships #(and indeed it's in the more grounded interpersonal relationships you can most clearly see him as he is I think #the fantasy death empire of a thousand years doesn't register quite as viscerally because it's like. heightened; not quite real #but the emotional violence and manipulation that surrounds him? oh boy that is EXTREMELY real and scarily well-observed) #there's a premeditation to so much of what he does (contracts with planets that only end 'in the event of the emperor's death' anyone? #yeah john we get it you're hilarious and I wish you weren't) #the greatest trick john ever pulled was making anyone think he's just a lil guy. what does he know he's only god #when you first read the book the complete callousness of the other adults is so horrible that john seems like an oasis of care #(though you start to get this uneasy feeling when that care never seems to translate to like... relief or soothing or resolution) #and it makes it feel almost obscene when you find out what's actually going on #it's the mercy & augustine enabler hour but at least they're completely honest in their cruelty there #while john is -- well he sure is being john huh #this is just me being angry with him btw philosophically I don't think this is how the story will or should end #(with john slam dunked right into hell that is) #it's just... harrow is so vulnerable. and what he does to her is so insidious and fucked up #john is very deeply human. unfortunately the capacity to quite simply suck so much is deeply human too

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Assisting Acquaintance Acquired.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #Ignore how Wen Ning's hair looks here because I messed it up. Let's pretend he just sported a different hair style for a brief moment. #I am not exactly great at consistency but I am trying very hard to work on that (immediately messes up again). #Absolutely *love* how Wen Ning clearly remembers and admires WWX...who does *not* recognize him. #This is the best day for Wen Ning and it means *nothing* to WWX. A painful one-sided crush made worse. #It is bittersweet to realize that we care about someone more than they care about us. Sometime we pour love into a relationship- #-with someone who just can't reciprocate. It isn't always a conscious things either. Some people just aren't aware we care. #And painfully - so painfully - You can't make them aware. No act of kindness or gift or self sacrifice will make someone care about you. #You can martyr yourself for someone and they will continue on unchanged. #I think a lot about the parallels between WN and LWJ. Not foils - just reflections. A theme repeated. #People who give so much of themselves to someone who doesn't have the capacity to give any part of themself away. #I will die on the hill of 'Wen Ning would be the love triangle romance if that trope wasn't being avoided'. #And to be honest - thank the stars above that is the case. I do not know any good love triangles in media. #We are skipping some of the sad Jiang Cheng content because I really want to finish season 2 before May. #Sorry JC emo moment lovers...I'll deliver another time.

[nelkcats]

The List

Danny knew he couldn't keep the existence of the ghosts a secret forever. The GIW was a clear example of that, they had managed to disband the organization but there were always traces left behind that made him anxious.

Times had changed, and while Amity was hiding behind his "small town" reputation, the world was changing. New protectors, heroes, as well as new threats were appearing. And as much as the halfa wanted to, he couldn't transport his entire town to the Realms on every occasion of danger, that would definitely be suspicious.

So he made a list. He gathered information on the heroes that had come forward and categorized them according to how easy they were to approach, or how open they would be to the existence of ghosts.

Unfortunately his "safest" choice was John Constantine, someone he wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole, so he decided to settle for the second one: The Flash.

Danny had weighed the pros and cons, but as he walked through Central City he wondered if it had been a mistake. Although it was probably too late to regret it, the speedster had already noticed him.

#dpxdc #ghost king danny #Danny just wants to make things as peaceful as possible #he did not realize that his collection of information would be suspicious #the League was alerted that someone was investigating them #collecting information from each of its members #and hacking the watchtower for it #Danny honestly didn't notice #he just asked Technus for help to make his list of pros and cons #he might know their identities but he doesn't care #dp x dc #dc x dp #Danny hates Constantine for all the paperwork #Flash is clearly nicer #he even treats his villains well #Danny tries to make friends #his new friends are in panic because of him #just wait till he tell them it was a list

[wilsonsmcgillsweatshirt]

🗣 HOUSES PROBLEM IS NOT THAT HE LACKS EMPATHY, IT'S THAT HE HAS TO MUCH OF IT

#Here's your annual reminder #I've made posts like this before but I will scream it from the rooftops until the day I die #House does not avoid patients because he doesn't care #He avoids patients because he cares to much and if he meets them be will become to emotionally invested #And it will cloud his judgement and he won't be able to see clearly and it will affect his ability to properly diagnose and help #House has so much empathy it's insane #I despise the whole “House has no empathy it's why he's so cold. He's actually a sociopath.” #Nothing wrong with people with ASPD but House does NOT have it #He is literally the opposite #I'm ready to fight people who say he doesn't care #house md #house #greg house #gregory house #housemd #hate crimes md #hatecrimes md

[yunamiudon]

The crystal 💎✨🌟💫

(I can't believe it's been almost 3 years since I painted this! ↓)

#codywan #cody worried about the crystal #he is so sweet #and kind #cody doesn't want his Jetii to get hurt #he wants him to live #cuz #obi-wan is his precious one #and obi-wan didn't realize that #I mean #how could he haven't notice it??? #Cody clearly cares about him #well #maybe #that's just how obi-wan is #He should know better that he is loved #btw #my art style has changed a lot in couple of years #hasn't it? #it's kinda scary #star wars #light saber #commander cody #obi wan kenobi #the clone wars #star wars fanart #Yunami_art

[ctl-yuejie]

"It will just end how it started"

#only friends the series #only friends #ofts #neo trai #mark pakin #i am living for them #glad nick found out in ep 3 and we have now a bunch of episodes of them just making everything worse for each other #nick really worked so hard on keeping boston i want to hug him #his proud smile after jerking boston off ;A; #and he tries to voice when he is uncomfortable and at the same time already realizes that boston is very much not on the same page #and my boy is already escelating listening in on the car sex #possible intended the bug for other reasons but baby - do not put yourself through hearing the whole thing in stereo....you could already #see them from the outside #have to had it to boston: he really nearly doesn't care at all about getting seen #p'jojo getting in his tweet <3 #it is very telling that nick clearly knows who boston is but in his mind their encounters are just a tad more romantic with a focus on the #kissing they are doing and not so much the sex itself #fyi: i saved these gif files under the ship name 'tonnic'

[lgbtlunaverse]

A-qing is such a tragic figure and i care her so much but one thing I love is this quiet character arc she has from a little girl doing what she has to do to survive, already more wordly and bitter than Xiao Xingchen even at her young age, a girl who isn't cruel but isn't here to help other people either, into genuinely a kind of guardian figure. After her death she sticks around and dedicates her non-life to protecting people, leading visitors away from Xue Yang and warning wwx and the juniors about him. And it works, in the end, without her they wouldn't have made it.

The yi city arc can seem so cynical sometimes. Idealism fails, helping a dying stranger by the side of the road only leads to tragedy, but a-qing cares and it helps! She's a counterpart to both xiao xingchen and song lan in that way, and thematically also a kind of counterpart to xue yang, where tragedy becomes a motivation for caring instead of against it. It's a weird thing to say since she's a kid that dies and her soul is shattered, but I think yi city would have come off a lot darker without her.

#mdzs #mdzs meta #yi city gang #a-qing #yi city #i don't mean to frame her vs xue yang as a 'good victim vs bad victim' kinda thing cause i am SO not interested in that #but i do think yi city as an arc deals with idealism and cynicism and he is squarely in the position of the cynic in the story #he's just kind of given up on humanity and refuses to acknowledge he cares even when he clearly does like with xxc #a-qing is his counterpart in the fact that she doesn't do that. she arguably ends the arc caring more than she does at the start #it's still obviously a tragedy #but she's a little refutation of complete grimdark. something in between xiao xingchen and xue yang. #caring can't fix everything. but it matters

[transmascutena]

thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder

#akio and utena #m #long ramble in the tags sorry: #the thing about akio is that he's so evil bit he's also so human #he has feelings. i just don't know what they are (if anything) toward his victims #he loves anthy at the very least i'm sure of that. even if he hates her too. just like she loves and hates him. the lines are blurry. #and i just. i have to wonder whether any of that extends to utena at all. we know anthy at times feels similarly about utena and dios #(and akio by extension.) the simultanious love and resentment. so it's not too unlikely i think. #like. even though he never had anything but bad intentions in getting close to her #i'm not sure it's possible to do everything he did and feel nothing #not that he has any meaningful amount of guilt or remorse for it. i don't think that. #and i obviously don't think he “loved” her in any of the ways she might have thought he did #but did he not care at all? did he not feel any kind of fondness or sympathy or just. idk. pity? for her? #whatever the case it wasn't enough to reconsider having her killed so you know. how much does that actually matter anyway #idk. i think about it a lot. how abusers are rarely entirely indifferent toward their victims #the role he's playing in her life is so fucked up but it IS a role he's playing and i wonder how much he you know... internalizes it? #how much does he believe the illusion of family that he invites her into? because akio DOES often buy into his own illusions. #(similarly i think it's possible that akio is fond of touga too. their mentor-protégé relationship is horrible and abusive #but that doesn't make it less real. you know? maybe real is the wrong word.) #when he talks in episode 25 about wanting utena and anthy closer that's obviously so he can continue to groom her #but is there something genuine there too? i don't know. #again. it obviously does not make anything he does better or even different. but it is interesting to think about to me. #on the other side of that coin does seeing his own past youth and naivete and desire to do good that he (maybe) once had #reflected back at him through her mean anything? #is there resentment there? that she is what he couldn't be? or more likely he just thinks that idealism is stupid. #either way it's something he wants to take from her. anyway ramble over. #i talk a lot about utena's feelings toward akio (familial vs romantic love and the way the two are intertwined in fucked up ways) #but not much the other way around. probably because utena is actually a sympathetic character whose feelings the show very clearly #wants you to analyze and think about. #which is... less true for akio i think. though he's still a complex character with complex motives. he's just harder to get a grasp on.

[butwhatifidothis]

Will never forgive certain parts of the fandom for letting the idea of "Claude being confused over Hilda's willingness to die for him is a showing of how morally lacking he is" become an idea that's any kind of popular.

This man spent the first 15-16 years of his life having basically no friends and having everyone around him either trying to murder him outright for attributes about himself he had no control over or otherwise forced him to completely fend for himself against said attempts on his life (Parents of the Year), but he's supposed to just accept that he has someone willing to die protecting him? With that someone being a person who presented herself as someone who would never do exactly that (and who in fact genuinely believed that she would never do that)? After he'd told them to retreat if things got dicey?

His parents literally wouldn't even lift a finger to help stop people trying to murder their child - they told his ass to Get Gud or perish. But him being horrified and baffled that someone would die for him means he's a shitty person who never actually cared for anyone in Fodlan. What complete balderdash

#claude #claude (fire emblem) #claude von reigen #don't normally post in the main tags but omg this take is so ass #''Local Man Raised To Rely On Only Himself And Not Others For Self-Preservation Is Confused By Others' Willingness To Protect Him'' #some folks: clearly this is evidence he never REALLY cared #also ignore his culture that teaches him that retreating to fight later is better than dying in a fight now #that can't possibly have anything to do with anything no it must be that he just doesn't genuinely care #because that is completely congruent with how absolutely distraught he sounds as he's yelling in horror over her dying for him #(oh ENG!Claude if only you were allowed the same emotional range as JPN!Claude because holy SHIT the difference is staggering)

[zishuge]

There were so many things I wanted to tell you right away... but you weren't waiting for me at the door. I wanted to go in, to see you, and tell you in person everything that happened in the back hill. But... I can't open this door anymore. My Journey To You (2023)

#my journey to you #云之羽 #gong ziyu #yun weishan #zhang linghe #esther yu #cdrama #cdramaedit #cdramasource #asiandramasource #mjtyedit #*gifs:mine #i love themmmmm #ziyu was so happy coming back with his little piece of ice #and then immediately is told that both his mother figure and fiancee have betrayed him #i'm so sad #listening to him talk about how he understands why his adoptive mother wants to leave bc there's clearly nothing left for her here #like he doesn't think he's worth her caring about #stopppp ;_; #“as long as it's what you want... i would set you free” #stoppppp #yes it's been a week and i've watched one episode.

[nowritingonthewall]

I’m just begging you: Don’t make us go there again.

#oscar isaac #moon knight #marc spector #moonknightedit #chrissie gifs #tw: trauma #tw: child abuse #It still blows my mind how the people involved in this show seemed to have a better understanding of trauma #than most professional therapists do #It's so heartbreaking to see how you can literally see Marc being stuck in his freeze reaction #While Steven moves around and explores #Marc's feet are rooted to the spot #He doesn't get a word out and he is clearly struggling to breathe #He can't even move his body towards the threat (i.e. his mother banging against the door) so he mostly just moves his eyes #Until the door bursts open and Marc's flight mode is activated #There is so much evidence that talking about your trauma again and again does nothing to integrate it and heal from it #And Harrow is such a text book example of so called health care professionals that force their patients to be re-traumatized again and again #Marc literally shows Steven how he suffered the most horrible and painful injuries to his soul #And it neither helps him to integrate his trauma nor to balance the scales #The healing process only starts when he allows himself to start learning to be accepted and taken care of by Steven #I am sorry I just love him so much 🥺

[timlucys]

PENELOPE GARCIA & LUKE ALVEZ Criminal Minds | 16x10: Dead End

#criminal minds #criminalmindsedit #cmedit #garvez #garvezedit #penelope garcia #luke alvez #usercher #usercourt #usergrace #tuserjen #tuserkei #luke x penelope #*gifs #luke loves her so much man it's actually insane #this season did them so dirty (and their characters. both in two very different ways) but oh man adam sucks me back in for them every time #this man at the end of the day would do anything for her. break his own heart lay his life on the line kind of love #because the heart wants what it wants or else it doesn't care #and he knows when he says that that he's talking about her and he KNOWS she isn't talking about him and just. ugh. #the potential of these two makes me feel bonkers because it's ALL RIGHT THERE. the writers clearly KNOW and can SEE it. #and truthfully i've never doubted the eventuality of them at all this season but there's definitely been moments i've doubted if i wanted it #and then of course they let these two have this scene and this moment and just. ugh. okay you fools i'm back my clown makeup is back on!!!!

[rocksanddeadflowers]

Absolutely hilarious that I have a gigantic aroace super mega crush on Marius von Raum but I am also absolutely terrified of medical malpractice.

#granted at least he'd probably care more about my health than many doctors I've experienced #like that's not to say he'd care about me personally I just mean the man's clearly dedicated to his craft #just because he may end up being wrong doesn't mean he doesn't want to figure it out #the man wants to doctor and not even for the money and i can respect that #I'm just terrified of him and would not let him operate near me <3 #the mechanisms #marius von raum

[artistic-astral-antics]

Just finished reading the updates on Regressor Instruction Manual manhwa I purposely stock it up to binge read, and, well... spoiler alert if you haven't finished season 2 of the Manhwa.

From what I can assume...

Park Deokgoo was Lee Kiyoung moral compass, or at least, what's holding Lee Kiyoung from going to the deep end of no return. In the first first life, things were tough, yes, and they struggled, true. Lee Kiyoung is still scheming and calculating, but Park Deokgoo is there to keep his conscience intact, somewhat. He's still happy and have a good time, not deranged or full of vengeance or madness to kill everyone.

But then, the world in the first timeline is pretty ruined. The Masked-Man is obviously Lee Kiyoung, but he's not someone who would have cause mass destruction unless provoked. Lee Kiyoung is petty. He pays back ten fold the slight people done to him. He does thinks to his benefits, or countering what others did to him.

In the first timeline, Park Deokgoo DIED. Protecting him. There were people hunting them down. Lee Kiyoung would have targeted everyone, starting from mere pawn soldiers all the way to the higher-ups who ordered for the hunt/mess. Heck, with Park Deokgoo no longer there to ground him, to keep him from straying too far, Lee Kiyoung would go as far as destroying the world for his pain.

Thus, he became the Masked-Man.

Kim Hyunsung worst adversity.

Park Deokgoo is essential for Lee Kiyoung, if only for his mental side because Park Deokgoo is kind, loyal, and good. He can pretend that he only wants a meat shield, but it's obvious that Park Deokgoo death was what triggered him to lose control.

Then again, this is my take.

Just needed to let that out.

#Lee Kiyoung #Park Deokgoo #regressor instruction manual #RIM #spoiler #Lee Kiyoung is clearly devastated inside seeing the only person he cared for in that first timeline died #And that anguish turned to anger #Turning him into a volatile force that causes the ruin and tragedy in the first timeline #He was furious and exacted his revenge towards everyone #Of course that doesn't pardon him for pulling a massacre and genocide #Still #At least now it's clear how and why he became even more twisted and warped during the first timeline #The one who prevented him from him from going maverick was his “Pig”

[fairyroses]

Truce?

— SMALLVILLE, “Hug” (1.11)

+ bonus

#smallville #smallvilleedit #svedit #lex luthor #sv 1x11 #dcmultiverse #my gifs #he is soooo alsdkfsksdkf #'I just don't like you' honestly king shit #also just the fact that lex clearly absolutely loathes this brand of slimy businessmen #and yet I'm supposed to buy the idea that he eventually becomes just like them? lol yeah okay #in this ep lex is disgusted with the environmental impact of this guy's business endeavors but in 5x04 he suddenly doesn't care #that the weapon he's now randomly building for the military is destroying nearby aquatic ecosystems?? MAKE IT MAKE SENSE SHOW

[dylanconrique]

lucy waking up from a nightmare about her DOD and being comforted by tim is so detrimental to me. i need it more than the oxygen that fills my lungs.

#*and this is icarly! #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #ik lucy is as tough as nails and is mostly over her kidnapping by now #but i imagine in the couple weeks leading up to the anniversary date every year she starts having nightmares about it again #and now that they're officially canon tim will be there to comfort her through it #i can so clearly picture lucy gasping up in bed #tim immediately shooting up right behind her and sushing her and giving her sweet reassurances #while she mumbles partially asleep something about not being able to breathe or 'no don't close the lid' #which absolutely shatters tim as he lays her back down and holds onto her #he always manages to soothe her back into slumber at the cost of his own good nights rest #as long as he knows lucy's well taken care of though he doesn't care #GOD I FUCKING MISS THEM AND I NEED THIS FOR S6 #I NEEDED IT LIKE YESTERDAY