#and he cant help the despair that creeps up in his tone as he hangs his head. hands fisted in his doublet

[roughentumble]

I've had this fic idea for the longest time and your post about illusions reminded me of it, basically it's a total ripoff of djinns in spn showing ppl what they want most, very land of the lotus eaters

Jaskier's stuck in this idyllic illusion where he and Geralt are together and everything's perfect, they travel and fight monsters and Jaskier sings songs but Geralt never gets hurt and Jaskier doesn't sleep around, they're together and in love and it's wonderful

And then Jaskier gets ripped out of it, finds out it was all an illusion and he's devastated bc now he's had what he wants most and thinks he'll never have it again, not really, and it's driving him crazy

Geralt eventually takes him to Yen to see if she can help, thinking maybe there's lingering effects of being trapped in whatever illusion Jaskier was put in, and Yen's prodding trying to figure out what he saw in the illusion, what was so wonderful he nearly wants to be put back into it, and Jaskier finally snaps, "He loved me back!"

ohhhhh shit i dig this!!!

#jaskier's clammed up. he doesnt want to talk about it. in part because geralt is standing right there #clearly worried about him but he cant-- he cant just SAY WHAT IT IS when geralt is right there #''what couldve been so wonderful you'd prefer to walk back into the jaws of a monster?'' yen asks and-- #and it isnt like that not exactly. but he feels her start to poke around the edges of his mind since he's being so reticent #and he hisses at her to /get out/. thinks as hard as he can about anything else but she's everywhere and its overwhelming #and geralt crouches next to him as tears spring to his eyes. places a hand on his knee. all gentle concern #as he says ''please jask we're just trying to help.'' #and he cant help it. he just snaps ''he loved me back!'' #and geralt goes a bit still. asks ''who loved you back?'' and jaskier doesnt say it but yen can see it #cant help but think back to every gentle touch and loving smile and the casual affection and the endless perfect days #and he says ''i dont-- i dont want to be some monster's meal living out a fake life in my head. its not that. its just--'' #and he cant help the despair that creeps up in his tone as he hangs his head. hands fisted in his doublet #''--he /loved me back/.'' #witcher tag #ogc tag #AUGH so good i love