#and find a REAL hobby

[mozzaremi]

[sapphosewrites]

garashir bad ending

(This was inspired by asking myself what I thought Julian would not forgive)

"I fail to see what you find so upsetting."

"Do you really?"

"You knew who I was when you married me."

"You're right. I agreed to marry a paranoid ex-spy with no respect for his husband's privacy or boundaries. My patients didn't."

"I didn't harm your patients."

"You cannot possibly believe that I would excuse your extremely illegal and highly unethical accessing of hospital files, tracking down my patients, and interrogating them because you have this ridiculous idea that I've been hiding an affair from you."

"It was hardly an interrogation. When I was in the Obsidian Order-"

"I want a divorce, Garak. Oh, so that's what shuts you up, is it? I mean it. You've absolutely crossed the line. You've destroyed my professional integrity and quite possibly the hospital's reputation. People need to be able to trust us in order to receive care, and you've jeopardized that. You've compromised the healing of people who know exactly what kind of interrogating you did in the Obsidian Order, and are terrified to be on the receiving end of it again. If you've convinced yourself I'm fucking someone else and lying to you about it, fine, I figured out that you were never going to trust I love you. But you don't do this. You go and- and- I don't know, call Ezri on subspace and ask for a counseling session or get drunk and read terrible poetry or blow up your damn shop again. You can self-sabotage as much as you like, and you've shown very well that I'm powerless to stop you. But you do not get to sabotage my patients."

"If I apologized..."

"Was that unfinished sentence your idea of an apology?"

"My dear, I'm sorry."

"I'm sure you are! I'm sure you'll go and wallow in self-loathing and enjoy it very much, but that can't be how this works, Garak. I shouldn't have to ask for a divorce in order for you to admit you did something wrong. If this is what our marriage is going to be now, then I... I can't, Garak. I don't know what it is that would help you, but whatever it is, I can't provide it."

#my writing #i don't really do bad endings so the secret real ending to this is a second half i may or may not ever write someday #wherein garak does in fact call up an old friend but it's not ezri it's kira #because kira knows what it's like when the world is different and the rules have changed and your family's dead #and none of the ways you used to solve problems work anymore #and also they got close hanging out in mila's basement #and garak's like hm. what if i made a grand gesture of sacrifice #and kira's like what if you learned to interact with people and got a hobby #and over a very long slow period garak has to do the difficult work of finding ways to process his trauma #that don't involve ruining people's lives #even his own

[patsypsyop]

its mad funny when i get hate dms then get blocked by the person. how cowardly do you have to be to try to be a bitch then block someone

like 💀 fix your relationship with your parents no wonder they didnt want you, i wouldnt either

#misa we never fucking talk get a hobby. stop making fun of people and find a way to make use of your miserable lifw #yes i faked my suicide. it was funny. i dont feel empathy and i dont care if it hurt people #but i was spammed with hate dms and lost a bunch of friends #you wouldve faked suicide too. its more pathetic to get into arguments online that to suibait #if i have an issue with one of your friends you can stay out of it. holy shit bro #get offline and find some real friends

[papastarion]

Writing out the postgame is so much fun when you just. Do whatever you want. When you get to explore your own interpretation of what comes next for these silly, silly newly dubbed heroes (or villains, if you went that route.)

People have pointed it out a million times how much Astarion changes in such a sort period of time and how he’s a blank slate, really. He’s got to learn who he is now, not who he was. Now, I’ve personally expanded the timeline of the game itself quite a bit for my own purposes, so he has even more time and there’s even more that happens. And those first few months in particular after the ending are chaotic for everyone in the group.

But I like to think Astarion, prickly Astarion, who, at his core, has become a survivor, is so soft now. The more he adjusts to being him, and to learning what he likes, the more fun I have writing him as forever the king of sass, but he’s just so content that the sass isn’t so venomous anymore. It’s jovial. It’s borne from contentment, not a coping mechanism. He still has his days. His moments. 200 years of torture will never leave him. But he never has to go back.

He’s seen that people can care, that he can be loved—he is loved. He’s learned that a hand can be raised to reach out and help, not just poised to strike. I don’t ever see him becoming fully altruistic, but he’s no longer fighting to survive. He gets to live now.

He’s the stray cat who’s finally found a home, a safe place. Is he still going to cause chaos? Tear up the proverbial carpet, knock over the glass of water? Sure. He wouldn’t be Astarion if he didn’t. But there’s a certain pleasant domesticity he gets to enjoy now. And after so much time playing at family and at being at home, it’s cathartic getting to write him building his own, real, chosen family and growing more and more comfortable in a real home.

#domestic Astarion is so so so important to me you don’t understand #and to everyone who talks about or makes art of him becoming a tailor of finding some kind of hobby after everything I love you #he’s got a real home now instead of a prison #Astarion #bg3 #can you tell I’m PROCRASTINATING

[intriga-hounds]

lmao 10 minutes before the end of school and one of my lil guys gets escorted back to class from the bathroom to be taken up to the office by the Vape Police.

u couldn’t wait 10 minutes??? u went and did it in a bathroom that is guarded at all hours by a mustachio’d man who is clearly only there for the purpose of Policing Vape????? the logic here is absolutely bonkers to me.

#text #teaching #also ur 14 find a real hobby #putting steam in ur lungs ain’t it #and ok since I’m sure someone who loves dying on hills and calling it moral highground is bound to find this: #obviously i know this kid is prey to a cruel business practice that wants to exploit him for his entire life #and i hope he breaks this habit sooner than later #that doesn’t mean he wasn’t incredibly dumb about his choices

[hellodahliah]

adding to my endless wishlist for ts4:

-martial arts hobbies and fencing we already have animations for those two to easily be integrated into a pack.

strangerville and get famous came with hand to hand combat (in the military career in strangerville) and swordfighting (if you're an actor you can play pirate and swordfight)

-more dance hobbies like ballet, breakdance and poledancing.

-more active hobbies like acrobatics, ice hockey (we have the ice rink already)

Just more hobbies overall

-collecting bugs or stamps

-puppetmaking (could work with the puppet show from kids room stuff)

-pottery? Sewing machine? A normal non-electronic sketchbook?

#pov: you're doing townie makeovers and trying to fill likes and dislikes with hobbiesand are bored by the lack of hobbies and preferences in #the game #also i want tybalt to be able to have fencing as his real hobby rather than trying to find poses and play pretend

[designernishiki]

Fun fact: Takeuchi the guy who wrote those MineDai RGGO stories said that he thinks Mine and Daigo should be together. Like yeah bro. We got that memo loud and clear already

(if you have a link to where he said that id LOVE to see it btw)

YEAH he made that pretty fucking Obvious.

you know……with the combined power of takeuchi wanting minedai to be together and yokoyama being super into mine and wanting to bring him back…………you see where im going with this

#THERE IS HOPE. THERE IS HOPE IN THIS CHILIS TONIGHT #minedai #rambling #mine’s gonna make the wildest fucking comeback ever if the stars align and we see it happen #for real tho especially now that daigo’s a civilian it’d be great to see him get his happy ending. like that man never gets a fucking break #and hasn’t been able to make a life for himself that he Wants to live. and we know he’s a really soft guy under the chairman face he puts on #I think all he really wants (that I think he gave up on a long time ago) is to be in love and be loved and do the things a Normal person can #do that he’s never been able to. maybe travel. maybe try every hobby he can think of to find out what he actually Likes to do. start #collecting vinyls again after shoving the pink part of him away in storage for so long. and yeah. do it all with the love of his life #something just possessed me there but. anyway. you get it. point is I think after having such a strict high-pressure life for so long this #is the kind of resolve he Deserves

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[italofobia]

#precure #pretty cure #precure oc #now the real question is. how the hell do i name this fan series....... #idk if i should put tarot in the title maybe that's too unoriginal.....hmmmmm #i should also find my sister's tarot book and deck. like ok youve abandoned this hobby bc it's “too satanic”? GIMME

[coldvampire]

anyway as soon as i pry myself off this couch im gonna share some screenshots of bg3 protags on my sideblog. just gotta like. reach the desk first.

#all i can think about is the shelves im gonna get installed here over the next little bit fdghj #yall dont understand its so hard to keep things clean and brain friendly when you just dont have anywhere to put stuff. #hellish #& then i get overwhelmed and turn into a massive bitch when i try to get it under control fdgh #instead its been like. 2 straight days of dopamine i fucking swear?? my body probably definitely wouldnt let me do this for a living #(my hip is screamingggg dfghgjj) but actually if i could & if i could work in a team then yeah. ykw i enjoy it. #organization go brrrrrrr #i dont think she was expecting me to work that fast either but ive been like a feral animal. skittering over clutter. #finding Spots for Things #okay i lied the flood was actually beneficial in one way to me specifically. #estranged father just forgot a Bunch of tool sets here & ive claimed them now fdghjk #that nail gun is MINE #she suggested i look out for an actual tool chest/bench thing (ykw the ones with wheels and stuff) for everything and i havent been that #excited for anything in months fdgh tools are expensive alright. too bad he took the table saw. #i dont talk much abt my Masc Hobbies as i call them lmao no real reason to but hoooboy i love to Build Things #give me that ikea desk ill have it done in an hour or less every time #maybe trade school is still on the horizon for me gfhj always wanted to Weld Stuff i think id be good at it #as much as i fuckin loathe yard maintenance i was a real garage sooooo bad its not even funny #shame i wasnt just inherently expected to know car stuff tm i feel like i would have loved it too #scarrier to learn on your own later in life especially with a lease vehicle but ill get there eventually #anyway yeah bg3! new mods. new ocs #have not done much with them yet but they Exist and theyre pretty

[lyriumrain]

As an unemployed, 31 year old autistic/ADHD person who's been through a few jobs and many, many years of volunteering and various training/certificates, I ask - what do I do? What exactly am I supposed to do? Because society is telling me I should just die.

I see a post going around time and again, often reblogged by "successful people" I follow (aka people who have found their favoured career path), that says networking is vital - that you can't get anywhere without networking.

So, with that in mind - what do you do when people don't like you? What do you do when you don't "fit in" anywhere? What do you do when masking your autism doesn't work? What do you do when unmasking, and trying to be yourself, still doesn't work?

Something I've greatly struggled with is people... just not liking me. I'm not saying they're bad people, quite the opposite - it's normal to not like/be neutral about someone who you unconsciously perceive as "weird" or that something is "off" about them. However, I can't do anything about that. How people perceive me from a quick conversation is not in my realm of control. So... what do i do?

At the end of the day, the supposed life-changing networking hasn't ever panned out for me. That is just the reality I live with. People, generally, don't like me enough to be interested in what I want to do, they don't like me enough to remember me (so there's no mentioning of me to people who could help), and in the rare instances where someone tries to help - it's down career paths that are not compatible with my abilities and limitations (and god knows I've tried to follow those paths regardless because, despite how this post might come across, I am actually an optimistic person - I'm always holding out hope that the next thing I try is going to work out).

I am forever grateful to everyone along my journey who's been kind to me and extended a hand, but the fact of the matter is they were not in a position to help me in a meaningful way.

"Networking", (aka socialising), is just something humans do. Which makes sense why it's become this... "thing" in capitalism, a "thing" that you need to do to prove you're a good worker. A thing that people are always talking about, but also never talking about at the same time. There's zero help for those of us who cannot seem to get a grasp on it. Just network, network, network.... and if that doesn't work then "obviously" you're the problem - "obviously" you're just a horrible person to be around.

This is not a "woe is me" story btw, it's a story of fucking anger. What am i supposed to do? I wish someone could just tell me what basic life skill I must've never been taught that will permit me entry into living a normal life.

#this isn't an autism specific thing - i know a lot of people with a lot of different issues struggle with this as well #anyway shoutout to people who feel like they weren't made for this world because they just cant seem to find their place #can't even monetise my hobbies because for like 10+ years i've felt like i dont deserve to work on them #because i should be looking for Real Work #long post #skip talks

[benbamboozled]

“Shipping Batcest is harmful for real-life adopted families”

First of all, no, no it’s not. “Fictional people fans think should kiss” could not be more abstracted from real life. Get some fuckin perspective, mate.

Second of all, let’s be real here. You just don’t like it. It’s okay to just not like things, or to even be squicked by them. You don’t have to make up reasons why it’s actually bAaAaAaD. You can just go “it squicks me. Next!”

Thirdly, if your issue really is “I believe the very concept to be disrespectful to adopted families” there’s an easy fix for this.

The obvious solution?

Make them all blood related.

Boom. No more issues with “adopted vs. blood related family” anymore!

You’re welcome.

#clearly the only currently ethical Batcest ship is BruDami *nods sagely* #i don’t *need* people to ship Batcest. #it’s totally okay to NOT ship things! #i would just prefer it if people dropped the morality façade and were just open with the fact that they don’t like that people like things. #‘I think the way you play with your paper dolls on your own time is harmful in some vague way with literally no supportive evidence’ #fucking LISTEN TO YOURSELVES. #you could be sparking joy for others! #this also conveniently ignores that canon is CONSTANTLY bouncing around #what the batkids think of each other/how Bruce categorized them in his life. #like the entire EXISTENCE of Damian is based on the idea that a blood son is ‘more real’— #AND THAT IS CANON ITSELF. #so…do you renounce all Batcanon? cut ties to it entirely? if not—why not? #oh…so it turns out that it’s only ‘terrible and bad and disrespectful’ and blah blah if it’s done— #—​within a sphere wherein you believe yourself to have some amount of power! #you can’t ‘fiction = reality’ fandom while finding a million and one excuses for why ‘fiction != reality’ for motherfuckin CANON. #CANON—which has SO MUCH MORE reach and impact than goddamn…the niche hobby space that is fandom! #i will probably delete this because I try not to get this salty on main… #…unless it’s about Jim Starlin lol. #BUT THIS KINDA SHIT GETS MY BACK UP? #don’t pretend like having a squick is some moral stance with actual meaning besides ‘it ew to me.’

[sysig]

It always seems like such a good idea in the moment (Patreon)

The first four are in reference to a great idea I had of - since I’ve finished my lower-limit page number testing for making books; shorter fics take up less page space, and just increasing the font size isn’t as handsome! - simply making a mini book! All it would take would be to halve the pages again, right? Just cut them right down the middle! Easy peasy!

As I’m sure you can tell by the second, no. Not easy peasy. Difficult painful un-fun >:(

Obviously I still did it tho! What do you take me for, someone who could have the idea of an even tinier book and then not do something about it?? No It’s also the only one so far to have a paper bookmark rather than a ribbon!

All told it’s a bit smaller than your average manga (I love the monochrome covers on these under their dust jackets haha <3) - you can see even with effectively doubling up the pages by halving their size, it was still very small-spined!

A quick shot while it was still being made hehe ♪ It’s Out! Paired here - and the earlier one, just without its dust jacket haha - with my Zarla SC2 collection (ft. Family, Negotiations are Going...Well, and With No Obligation) - I absolutely kicked myself after the fact for not including Out as the run-up to everything, I was really trying to make a full collection in probably-chronological order! Out would’ve been a perfect start! And it only would’ve taken like four pages!!

Ah well, it was still quite a learning experience - I probably wouldn’t make another standalone of under 4k-ish just for formatting reasons but I did get some good ideas of how to do so if I wanted to! Although, my next project is going to be even more of a formatting nightmare........I’ll get there when I get there! Lol

#Doodles #The impulsive thoughts are always the funnest! But then it's all a matter of actually putting them into reality... #Ahh well like I said under the cut it was a learning experience! And I really wanted a physical copy of Out haha ♪ #I don't think I've ever mentioned it - not even in my pre-fic notes :0 - but Out was another one of my inspirations for Drinking Game #I mean - the drinking lol obviously but I hadn't considered what VUX drinking would be like before reading it :) #I wanted to pair it with both physical copies hehe ♫ I'm happy I attempted it! And I have a better foundation to build on in the future! #I ended up using the scrap leftover from making such a small cover as the bookmark haha - and I picked the covers so they'd almost-match :) #They go together! But not quite! Just enough! #The sting of creation has worn off - it's actually been a while since I've made a quick book! - so the itch is starting to come back haha #Well - almost lol - the formatting is still........but I do want to do it! Especially now that I've got a hand-in-hand hobby to go with it #All that later ♪ For now snakes! #And also spiders I am also the same when spiders #I've been escorting a lot of spiders outside lately and pretty much all of them fall under the moniker of ''darling'' to me lol #Still no luck on finding a jumping spider :( But I also haven't got an enclosure set up yet either #There's this one booth that always has such adorable and pretty jumping spider enclosures ahhh I might have to break and get one someday #Same place where I got to hold the snake in fact! :D She was a love <3 Beautiful full-grown female cornsnake if memory serves #She was rather wiggly - she was tired and fussy and didn't feel like being handled by a stranger but she was so polite about it #A real delight to handle <3 And I got to see her babies! So cute and tiny! #The rest is more SCII fic stuff haha ♪ Rereading the Pirate fic was a lot of fun :) Intentionally avoiding Vargas fic(s) does make me a bit #Well I really like Vargas still lol it is candy to my brain so any gesture even remotely in that direction is very exciting haha #I'm perfectly happy with the rest for now tho! I have plenty of things to read and make! >:3c #Heck there's still a SCII fic I haven't read yet that I want to!! I just have to get all my previous SCII thoughts out of my head first haha #I will tho >:3c Always always ♪♫ #SCII

[musclesandhammering]

If shippers are making you this pissed off, you need to stop interacting with them instead of being so fucking negative.

And if seeing negativity makes you pissed off enough to anonymously (lmao) send me a message about it, you need to adjust your filters accordingly to avoid posts that are specifically tagged as anti from blogs that have anti right in the name 🤷‍♀️

#and I don’t interact with them #I have the ship tags blocked on here but half of the time y’all don’t even have the tumblr etiquette to tag your ships #and there’s not really any way to avoid stuff like that on Twitter aside from blocking everyone that posts shipping stuff (which I do) #and as I a rule I don’t get pissed off about fictional stuff in my real life #this is a hobby #these websites are for consuming and discussing media for entertainment #and sometimes that includes being critical of parts of media #and if you’re one of those fans that’s so childish that you can’t handle anyone ever being negative about the Thing you like #well then #maybe find a children’s version of this app? idk what to tell you #anons like you annoy the hell out of me #and the fact that you’re such a scaredy ass weirdo that you do it on anon? lol #lord have mercy #anon #fandom wank #anti lokius #anti sylki #antisylki #loki series negativity #loki

[vryivs]

ruan mei is relatably autistic to me but you guys aren't ready for that

#iv.txt #hsr #people are calling her a sociopath 1. like its an inherently bad thing (its not. lol) and 2. as if being deeply invested in something #but unable to find real connrction or demonstrate how you care in a way pepple understand isnt a common autistic trait #'she cloned an emanator' god forbid women have hobbies

[sibelin]

i think i'm tired of tumblr. ha!

#i can't find any sense of community here #all i see is people being ignored versus borderline influencers #i do love talking to people when i do but it's very rare and i'm just bored seeing the same posts over and over again #and the same bands and the same things #idk i'm tired of social media. i want real conversations and hobbies and friends on the internet. i know it's possible just rare :( #i'll answer to tags and reblogs later. i'm tired and still sick maybe that's just that