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❝               you     punched     me     in     the     face          ,          you     made     me     walk     through     𝘀𝗵𝗶𝘁𝘁𝘆     water          ,          brought     me     to     a        FUCKING     CRACKHOUSE          (     !     )          .  .  .          and     now          ,          i’m     gonna     have     to     kill     this     fucking     clown          .               ❞
𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗     𝖔𝖓𝖊         .          dossier     .
full  name:  richard  james  tozier.
nicknames:  
primarily  known  as  richie.
rich.
trashmouth.
bowers’  gang’s  slew  of  derogatory  nicknames.
‘chee.
age:  twenty - one.
date  of  birth:  march  seventh.
place  of  birth:  derry,  maine.
nationality:  american.
occupation:
college  student.
bartender.
regular  on  the  local  college’s  radio  station.
sexual  &  romantic  orientation:  he’s  gay,  totally  gay  !
gender  identity:  cisgender  male,  using  he/him  pronouns.
hogwarts  house:  ravenclaw.
𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗     𝖙𝖜𝖔         .          biographical     .
richard  james  tozier,  known  affectionaly  as  richie  or  trashmouth,  is  the  only  son  of  wentworth  and  maggie  tozier,  and  for  the  most  part  they’re  a  relatively  unassuming  family.  wentworth  is  a  dentist  whose  attitude  towards  his  own  son’s  dental  care  is  simultaneously  strict  and  lax,  and  maggie  makes  a  life  out  of  spoiling  the  fuckshit  out  of  her  boys  but  she  loves  it.  there’s  nothing  out  of  the  ordinary  about  the  little  family  they’ve  built   ;   established  in  their  routines,  in  their  practices,  the  toziers  are  nothing  to  write  home  about.
richie’s  a  handful,  admittedly.  diagnosed  with  adhd  when  he  turns  four,  he’s   hyperactive, loud,  histrionic,  a  sarcastic  little  smartass  before  he  knows  what  any  of  those  things  are.  he  keeps  himself  entertained  with  comic  books,  drinking  in  their  bright  colours  and  their  intricate  storylines  and  develops  an  infinite  love  for  their  careworn  pages  and  their  impossible  tales.  they  keep  him  grounded,  strange  as  it  is   — -   when  all  goes  to  shit,  as  it  inevitably  will,  he’ll  thumb  through  an  old  copy  of  uncanny  x-men  and  the  world  doesn’t  seem  so  heavy  anymore.  when  he  gets  his  first  pair  of  glasses,  thick - rimmed  plastic  frames  and  lenses  more  like  coke  bottles  than  actual  lenses,  he  spends  two  hours  spiraling  deep  into  the  familiar  world  of  his  comics.  when  he  gets  tripped  up  the  first  time,  when  he  gets  called  fuckface  or  four - eyes  or  worse,  he  swallows  back  the  lump  in  his  throat  and  legs  it  home  for  his  comics.  when  he’s  reading,  he’s  not  so  hyperactive   — -   he  still  frantically  jiggles  one  leg,  but  he’s  quiet,  introspective   — -   the  silence  is  rare  but  comforting.
his  sense  of  humour  is  sharp  as  anything,  practised  daily  on  his  poor  mother  and  father.  he’s  developed  a  slew  of  Voices,  little  impressions  that  differ  only  in  tone  and  intention,  but  wentworth  and  maggie  encourage  him  to  keep  working,  keep  building  on  them.  his  wit  gets  him  into  trouble  at  school,  and  numerous  teachers  have  written  in  reports  that  richie’s  got  a  bit  of  a  reputation  for  being  a  class  clown.   (   humour  is  a  desperate  attempt  to  grab  out,  to  latch  onto  a  friend  because  really,  he’s  so  fucking  lonely  it  hurts  and  he  just  wants  someone  to  laugh  at  him  and  entertain  his  endless  bullshit  and  be  there.   )
shouldn’t  have  wished  so  hard  for  friends,  because  they  come  along  in  the  form  of  the  losers’  club.  richie  moreso  stumbles  across  them  than  anything   — -   knew  bill  denbrough  because  they  lived  on  the  same  block,  found  him  fuckin’  round  in  the  barrens  with  some  other  kids  and  hey,  it’s  like  they’d  been  best  friends  forever.  there’s  bill,  big  bill,  stuttering  bill,  de  facto  leader  and  richie’s  unspoken  idol.  there’s  stan,  preternaturally  neat  and  it’s like  he  came  out  of  the  womb  like  that,  already  a  coherent  amalgamation  of  smiles  in  his  voice  and  rolled  eyes.  there’s  mike,  with  his  killawatt  smile  and  good  intentions  and  comforting  voice  that  sets  ease  into  richie’s  perpetually  rattled  bones.  ben,  whose  creativity  and  quiet  reassurance  is  something  richie  pines  after  desperately.  beverly,  the  only  girl,  cigarette-scented  voice  of  rhyme  and  reason  and  rationality.  then  there’s  eddie,  and  richie  swallows  up  anything  he  can  say  about  eddie  before  the  words  come  out.
it’s  painful,  realising  you’re  in  love  with  your  best  friend.  it  starts  early,  a  quick  glance  here  and  there  that  lingers,  a  breath  that  catches  in  your  throat  when  you  see  him  smile.  you  try  and  push  the  feelings  down,  swallow  them  whole  before  they  can  infect  every  part  of  you  but  darling,  it’s  never  that  easy.  by  the  time  summer  arrives,  you  are  in  far  too  deep.  you  never  really  recover  from  your  pre - adolescent  tango  with  love,  and  it  develops  into  an  adolescent  waltz  with  it,  and   — -   you  get  the  picture.
what’s  worse  is  knowing  that  you’re  not  the  same  as  the  others.  you  don’t  look  at  beverly  like  bill  and  ben  do,  and  you  hate  yourself  for  it.  you  wish  you  could  find  joy  in  the  sweet  smile  of  the  girl  that  sits  in  front  of  you  in  english,  but  you  find  yourself  drawn  to  the  boy  who  snorts  behind  his  hand  at  your  mistimed  joke.  you  hate  the  way  it  makes  you  feel  warm  and  fuzzy  inside.  you  hate  yourself,  but  you  won’t  speak  that  into  existence  /  choke  on  the  jokes  that  burn  like  acid,  swallow  down  the  insults  you  hurl  at  yourself  when  you  think  no  one  is  watching.  trash  the  trashmouth  --- -  first  one  to  hit  the  trashmouth  where  it  hurts  is  the  trashmouth  himself.
summer  brings   — -   well,  it’s  been  years  now  and  richie’s  still  lost  for  words  that  fit  what  that  summer  really  was.  it  starts  with  a  few  kids  going  missing,  ending  up  dead  and  then  it’s  george  denbrough,  little  georgie,  one  arm  chewed  off  and  yellow  slicker  tainted  sticky  red  and  then  the  whole  world  seems  to  fall  apart.  bill’s  a  madman  on  a  mission,  and  richie  follows   — -   follows  when  it  means  getting  taunted  by  a  demon  clown  alien  thing,  when  it  means  fucking  fighting  said  demon  alien  clown  thing,  snapping  eddie’s  broken  arm  back  into  some  kind  of  place  whilst  bated  breaths  are  held  back  in  case  it  hears.  they  beat  it,  and  richie’s  still  not  sure  how  but  he  knows  that  for  six  months  after,  he  can’t  look  at  a  clown  without  digging  bitten  fingernails  into  calloused  flesh  of  a  palm.  a  year  later,  he  still  jumps  at  too - loud  noises.  two  years  later,  he  starts  seeing  a  therapist  because  his  parents  have  noticed  he  can’t  sleep  in  the  dark  anymore.
he  remembers  the  entirety  of  that  summer  in  vivid  clarity.  he  wishes  he  could  forget.
high  school,  college  applications,  they  all  become  a  blur.  the  losers  spend  most  nights  together,  endless  double  features,  piling  into  cars,  growing  up  and  together  and  apart  until  the  first  one  of  them  leaves,  and  it  feels  like  taking  a  fucking  bullet.  slowly,  they  all  scatter  to  the  wind,  memories  firm  but  never  forgotten  and  richie’s  planning  california,  hot  summers  and  comedy  shows  but  he  ends  up  in  castle  rock,  only  a  stone’s  throw  away  from  derry.
he  studies  political  science,  because  he’s  got  a  weird  aptitude  for  it.  he  finds  comfort  in  arguing  about  trotskyism  and  writing  essays  about  the  fall  of  the  third  reich  at  4  am  in  the  morning,  buzzing  on  caffeine  and  glued  to  the  crackle  of  the  tiny  little  television  he  bought  with  the  majority  of  the  money  he  saved  for  textbooks.  he  barely  attends  lectures,  and  manages  to  ace  his  classes  because  despite  everything,  he’s  brilliant  (  and  no  i  won’t  let  this  point  go  ).  despite  a  well - earned  reputation  for  clownery,  he’s  always  been  a  brilliant  kid  and  he  never  chose  to  go  to  school,  so  he  never  bothered  applying  himself.  he  chooses  college,  therefore  he  works  and  it  shows.  
the  nightmares  persist  well  after  he  thinks  he’s  over  the  events  of  that  summer.  he  wakes  up  in  a  cold  sweat,  throat  sore  from  screaming  and  clutching  ripped  sheets,  and  he  can’t  chase  the  nightmares  away  because  they’re  too  real,  they’re  out  there  and  he  can’t  stand  that  knowledge.  he  can’t  deal  with  it,  so  he  drinks  instead.  there’s  a  few  jack  daniels  bottles  stashed  under  his  bed,  and  he  won’t  let  anyone  know  about  those  or  how  painfully  dependent  he  gets  on  the  hot  burn  of  whiskey  down  the  back  of  his  throat  when  the  nightmares  are  bad  and  he’s  sticking  to  threadbare  sheets.
and  yet,  despite  everything,  he  does  his  best  not  to  change  ---  same  sense  of  humour,  all  bark  and  no  bite,  tinged  with  a  wide  grin  and  sleep - tousled  bedhead.  despite  everything,  he’s  still  the  same  old  richie,  still  loudmouthed  and  too  quick  for  his  own  good  and  too  much  fun  to  be  around.
anyways  i  love  richie  tozier  a  lot  thank  you  for  coming  to  my  ted  talk
𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗     𝖙𝖍𝖗𝖊𝖊     .          fun     facts     .
he  currently  has  a  radio  show  on  the  college  radio  station,  played  in  the  early  hours  of  the  morning.  it  keeps  him  up  and  keeps  his  nightmares  away,  for  the  most  part. his  Voices  have  been  getting  gradually  better,  and  he’s   been  considering  doing  a  segment  on  his  radio  show  using  them.
his  entire  room  that  he  rents  in  a  sharehouse  is  covered  in  film  and  music  posters,  not  in  frames  yet  bc  he’s  not  that  kind  of  adult  yet.  he  fucking  loves  star  wars,  and  he  thinks  empire  strikes  back  is  the  coolest  fucking  thing  he’s  ever  seen.  he’s  an  avid  pop  culture  junkie,  swallows  it  all  up  and  ingests  it  until  he’s  glowing  with  it  all.
he  works  as  a  bartender  to  make  ends  meet,  amongst  other  things.  he  hasn’t  been  fired  for  drinking  bourbon  from  the  bottle  yet,   so  that’s  good  for  him.
he  bought  his  first  car  when  he  was  about  seventeen,  and  he  loves  the  damn  thing  even  though  it’s  pretty  much  worthy  of  nothing  but  the  local  trash  heap.
dresses  like  a  fucking  idiot  but  has  that  ever  changed
slowly  he’s  thinking  about  veering  out  into  comedy  n  i  support  it  for  him.  ur  not  jerry  seinfeld  but  try  ur  best  sweetie
a  girl  blew  him  a  kiss  in  high  school  and  he  pretended  like  he  got  shot  and  ‘  died  ’  in  mike’s  arms.  end  scene
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Oh...? Are you hung up on Wakaba, too, Doctor?
Oh, Rumi. ...Who's Rumi?
IS IT KASUMI'S SISTER??? bc you know there's weird stuff going on there
Probably not but this is for wild guessing anyway
If we can believe Kasumi then her sister is younger than her
And that'd be pretty weird to talk about in a romantic context
The problem is if kasumi is to be believed
she's dead I know she's dead I don't think she knows she's dead but she's super dead
Or in a coma I guess but let's be real here
I don't trust Shibusawa in the slightest. He's definitely going to try to take that research. I wouldn't be surprised if he was one of those men in black suits, either. He's rich - he goes to the Wilton on a whim, with his "buddies" - he could definitely be one of Shido's men.
OMFNDJD THIS LES MIS KNOCK OFF FILLS ME WITH JOY
Hoo boy. Maruki... I don't think you'll be very pleased with our answer. I do think you have good intentions, now, but you will definitely be an antagonist here.
I'm still really impressed with Chihaya. She really thought that the protag would hate her once she told her story, that her fortune said he was supposed to hate her, and she "never thought [he] would overturn even that fate". And yet, she told him anyway.
A Yusuke & Ann showtime!! : D I wonder what it'll be like?
THATS SO INCREDIBLY ANIME I LOVE IT
Haru idolizing superheroines vs Ann idolizing lady villains fight
I cannot waittt to see what they do with cognitive Haru, if they decided to make her this time around
YUSUKE CAN DUPLICATE IN PALACES?!?!?
A Will Seed with lasers barring the way? Interesting.
FUTABA FINISHING TOUCH FUTABA FINISHING TOUCH!!!!
Huh, it's kinda goofier than I was expecting.
"When a person is continually faced with oppression, they come to welcome its presence." Yusuke : (
"Such psychological trickery is being used here. I... experienced it first-hand for many years." YUSUKE : C
It's kinda nice that those workers are being blocked by lasers instead of us being too intimidated by their number to just go after them. ...Am I remembering this correctly?
Oh, Noir... I'm glad I get the option to ask if she's okay.
The Yumizuki High uniform really does suit Yusuke.
I wonder if there's a way to talk to people about their outfits.
Does Futaba's thing happen in place of Joker's, now? That's kind of a shame
HEY DO YOU THINK IT'S POSSIBLE TO HAVE FUTABA SHOWTIMES?!?????
Airlock time.
Man I want to see robot/cyborg Haru so badly come on Okumura I know she's here
This stuff about being okay for 30 sec as long as you close your eyes and mouth sounds wrong but I don't know enough about the condition of the human body in space enough to dispute it so okay I fuess
Anyway this is run by clap your hands if you believe kinda magic so it doesn't really matter anyway (also, thank god for Futaba saying that it'd work)
It's interesting - space factories/stations aren't a typical heist target (nor are castles, tbh, but museums, banks, pyramids, casinos? Naturally) (space stations in general can be, in the right genre. But this is set up a bit unusually for that). Corporate offices of shady companies, however...
Spaceeeeee ahdskdjs this is SO COOL
what the fuck what the fuck was something else going through the airlock?!?!
Ugh, how aggravating. I had been able to get the Will Seed the entire time until I pulled the lever that allowed me to progress
What is this shadow???? I'm not sure I know it! "Pagan savior", huh?
No, guys, there's another airlock room. Stop saying 'the treasure is just beyond that door!' when there is a whole other area/floor to go through. Especially since you have a map
Futaba gets motion sickness...oh no I'm so sorry ;u;
I...actually remembered the first half of the solution to the transfer line. I got out of there in practically no time. Heck yeah!
"Thou hast to awakened to the ultimate secret of the Sun, granting thee infinite power..." Yoshida...! TAT
I always end up maxing him right around the end of Okumura's Palace. I feel so bad. His newfound popularity is gonna absolutely tank soon. ;-;
Man, who even gets elected after the populace starts caring again? I don't know how Japanese politics works, really, like at all, honestly, but probably he has a subordinate who can take his place. But like, his whole crew's gotta be corrupt, right? Especially someone who'd be his replacement. Though honestly, considering how paranoid he got by the end, he probably chose someone weak-willed in order to prevent
Oh wait hold on I just looked up how this works. Apparently, uh...
Huh. I'm not sure if the cabinet resigns if the prime minister does usually or if that's just if the house passes a vote of no confidence. But, the prime minister appoints the ministers, so if the prime minister changes then there could be an issue there, probably?
But anyway. Looks like the Diet would immediately try to vote for a different person once the prime minister seat is vacant.
Huh, I wonder who gets voted in, then. Well, we only know of 2 candidates other than Shido, and Yoshida doesn't have the funding or even (yet) the popularity to become prime minister, so Matsushida is really the only other choice unless they pick someone we haven't heard about.
Oh my GOD I hate the school. They're being such assholes to Kasumi. She got 3rd place!!! That's amazing!!! This isn't even a school specializing in gymnastics!!!!!! YOU SPECIALIZED IN VOLLEYBALL AND EVEN IF THAT WERENT THE CASE YOURE TERRIBLE
*ahem* Anyway.
You can tell that Maruki is quietly pissed and honestly? Valid. Super valid. Same, Maruki, same.
She's not gonna get that text, with how her phone is.
"we took in those sisters to improve Shujin's standing, but at this rate, we're only going to end up suffering for it." Oh??? Oh??????
"not only have we lost one of them, but the other ones not doing us any good. Talk about a waste of effort..." Hooooly shit you asshole
Wait, hold on, it's October already????!? November's just a month away!! I have less than 3 months for social linking! And I still haven't maxed knowledge or kindness! (Or guts, but whatever) I've only maxed 1 person! Although I'm close to maxing Ryuji & Ann & Yusuke. And some npcs
AHHHHH CUTSCENE CUTSCENE!!!!
So the keywords - lab, stadium, and ... Either Maruki or Kasumi for the person. OH MAN AND EITHER WAY IM ALREADY IN MY PHANTOM THIEF CLOTHES
ONE OF THEM DOESNT TRUST ME
It's probably Maruki, right? Bc of the lab... But also I thought the whole wish fulfillment thing was going to be his cogpsi project... With the help of Jose, maybe...
Speaking of Jose, Jose looks like a toy, especially with that hair and those ears. I wonder what material he's supposed to be? Based on the ears I'd say plastic, maybe, but the hair looks more ceramic to me.
Anyway, back to the relevant FUCKING PALACE WOOHOO
I haven't even sent a calling card for Okumura yet so we're not dealing with this anytime soon
Ooh, this music... <3
Oh man, I totally forgot I had Morgana in the maid costume. I gotta get him into something more serious
Why is dancewear not the p5dsn costume??
This is...really empty...
I am suddenly really scared at what the people are going to look like
There are pigeons here...
But wait, if this is Maruki's Palace, then this is bc of all his grief... He doesn't want anyone to hurt, ever again. The people will be their ideal selves, probably...
...I'd love to see a cognition of myself, tbh. That won't happen, but I'd love it.
This place is really beautiful... With the music it seems like a sad place...
Look at all these wires
That's probably the sister, right?
Unless that's the cognition of Yoshizawa when she was alive and her current self is her ideal self.
The shadow attacked the cognition???!?!
YUP this is definitely Maruki's Palace
Hmm. Interesting.
Oh, Cendrillon really is perfect for her, huh.
SHES DOING A MAGICAL GIRL TRANAFORMATION WHAY
WHAT
WHY????
IM NOT UPSET ITS JUST A LITTLE WHAT????
Does her outfit look like mine a little bit bc she's using me as a role model for her source of confidence - confidence that she is using/interpreting for her inner rebellious spirit?
Wait, lost my train of thought
Aww, I mistimed that. I was hoping to get a Kasumi finishing touch
MORGANA-SENPAI
It is definitely an unfair consequence
Oh, so that's why, narratively, her phone sucks. It's to prevent us from figuring out whose Palace it is.
Yeah, this time it's entirely on you, Morgana.
... it's because of gymnastics? And not because you disagree with us on an ideological level? ...okay. sure. Whatever.
Hoo boy. This is gonna suck when Okumura has his mental shutdown. I wonder how she'll react.
She is of the Faith arcana, whatever that means. Maybe she'll keep faith in me? I did max her half-confidant
It's cool, Kasumi. I really didn't do much. You may have a debt of gratitude or whatever but like you don't actually need to repay it. Just keep being my friend and maybe one day you'll quit keeping score
*sigh*
If only. Too bad you're probably dead.
SHOWTIME WITH HARU? SHOWTIME WITH HARU? PLEASE?
Oh, Mona-chan. I figured as much, but I was still hoping...
Anyway, Haru&Mona showtime still very good!
Man, I would kill to hear their explanations for what they're doing.
...this is incredibly violent, isn't it? I anticipate it with bated breath
Oh man, can you imagine a showtime with Kasumi? Maybe with Akechi, if Atlus isn't going to give me one
Which, fair enough, from a gameplay standpoint
Still. : (
"the Phantom Thief Basic Training"?
Oh, good, we're actually addressing cognitive people with Haru.
Oh, this is either gonna suck if they address the implications, or we're gonna see cognitive Haru. >: 3
Dream world, huh...
THE YUSUKE-HARU FRIENDSHIP IS SO UNDERSTATED AND UNDERRATED I WANT MORE CONTENT
THERE SHE IS!!! THERE SHW IS!!!!
Oh, man, I had a lot of feelings during that fight. That time limit though
I like how they updated this fight
Although I think I'm a little underleveled, potentially. I could not destroy her before she self-destructed, and it took me a while to beat the chief directors and executive director. Oneshotted Okumura himself, though.
OH MAN I SHOULD HAVE READ THIS BILLIARDS BOOK EARLIER
I DIDNT REALIZE I COULD INCREASE MY TECHNICALS????
I already thought that technicals were beefed up from how they were - I guess this is part of that!
Wish I had another book on kindness, ugh.
SO THATS HOW THEY CHANGED POSITION HACK
Ann & Haru have such similar colors. I wish they would have darkened Haru's a little bit more
Wait I never got to see the Haru-Mona showtime
I even had both in my party : (
GOD IWAI YOU'RE SO SHADY
I forgot to start his social link until now whoops
Although I've only had my guts high enough for past ~2ish weeks so there's that at least
Guh, I have to get to Mementos and start up Shinya's...
How many part-time jobs does this have? Like, 5? Maybe 6, if you count him helping out Sojiro? The convenience store, the beef bowl place, the flower shop, Crossroads, and now the gun shop. Anything I'm missing? I feel like I'm missing one.
Desire & Hope is really pretty. The Desire underneath is kinda weirdly desaturated compared to the hope, though. Not sure if it actually works as well as Desire did by itself. Idk. They're both good, but I liked how Desire looked a bit more. I understand that D&H has personal meaning, though. Who knows, maybe in person I would feel differently
I kinda really like that Yusuke tends to go more abstract with his stuff, even if he does try out a bunch of different styles
Maxing Yusuke. And thank god for Affinity Readings. Finally got Ryuji at a point where I can max him.
Oh. I had forgotten how Kamu Susano-o looks. ...
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baekuras · 3 years
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Me: Urgh how could I ever get over 100 points in Gwent though that seems so hard
Me literally just fucking around with Dryads and Cats
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.....i see it now
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had a series of bad days on TF2, and tonight wasn’t much better. couldn’t get a headshot as sniper, kept getting nailed by the enemy sniper/pyro no matter where I stepped out of base, the medic ran past me three times when i was on fire and did nothing (they weren’t healing or fighting, just running about, and normally it’s like... if that’s what you wanna do, but like I kept dying just in front of the damn resupply locker so upport would have been great).
not to mention this one self-righteous pain in the ass kept blocking my machina scope bc she told me ‘you don’t look like you are doing anything back here’ (not sure if she knew you can’t use it if it isn’t zoomed or if she was just being a dick bc she could) and then got bitchy about it. One of those 12yos, right?).
got stuck on freaking gold rush perpetually - it was the only server/map going, and then when i tried spy... either my teammates would draw fire at where i was hiding or the enemy would land on me (not kidding, this soldier landed on my head, spun wildly looking for why he was hovering, then fired down and blew his own self up as well as me. COMMITMENT)
and several backstabs landed... but apparently a knife to the spine is bandaid-worthy bc they lived (or probs i lined it up wrong, i don’t know, there was always someone exploding me as i aimed), and also i forgot how to jump and decloaked by accident [no idea why i fucked that up but like ????]. 
and when i was engie my buildings were always destroyed bc i couldn’t get anyone to assist nor the pyro to spycheck (but that was, in their opinion, bc i was ‘a bad engie’  who couldn’t keep their buildings up under constant fire wi/no help and a spy perpetually backstabbing... so i flipped to heavy bc fuck ‘em, and then they complained they needed me as engie, but nah).
and the dozen matches i was medic someone always complained i wasn’t healing them over trying to stop myself being killed... which was funny bc not once did a heavy drop a sandvich, or a pyro extinguish me, a scout did throw mad milk once which was nice. and a sniper pissed on me, which was also alright, bc i was on fire at the time... also i was a single medic on a team of 12, and everyone was screaming medic whether they needed healing or not...
if it hadn’t been 1am, i would have screamed into the mic “Spam that E-button one more fucking time, my misguided fluffy fucklings...” or something of that nature. But no, the fact medic was perptually murdered, or having to stop healing to save themselves from spies, scouts, soldiers, demos, pyros... was bc they were a bad medic...
It’s like... ???? protect your team mates.
Maybe it’s just frustrating bc i had this amazing team the other day at 2fort. Perpetual communication, everyone worked together to (not cap) bombard the other team, the heavy threw out sandviches as needed, medics were protected, pyros took out spiues for engies, snipers pissed on the burning, spies sapped sentries for the intel snatcher scouts, demos and soldiers kept the enemy away, etc. And it was like that through a variety of different matches... Then you go to a server where it’s one for all, and you’re like ???? excuse me, we’re wearing matching shirts so maybe try to pretend we’re working together There was this match last night where my team took off at start and i couldn’t find anyone all match. they were dying, clearly, and respawning, but the other team asked a few times if i was the only one playing Main thing bothering me is that i couldn’t seem to get a good headshot. Spy and Sniper are my weakest classes, but i thought I was getting better? Finally got Australian Rules (dominate enemy sniper) the other day, by accident. And Levelled up as Demo, bc I got the eyelander + a dozen eyelander achievements. But then you suddenly can’t get any headshots or backstabs and it’s like... “Maybe I am truly the worst player ever?” Even my attempts at Pyro, a top fave class, was dismal. Normally I get at least 70 points... today only 41, and half the time I was sniped by huntsmans (meaning if I’d seen it coming an airblast would save me, but did i ever see it coming?! Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo). - I dunno, I just really love the game. It’s fun, you usually fall into an exciting match or other, and you get better as you go. But suddenly I was super shit at everything, and every night ends on a bad match, bc the server seems to die at 3am or something. So you have to go to sleep frustrated at your subpar performance. The only good news was that I managed to use my strange red tape sapper on multiple buildings, without being exploded (until my location was found by an enemy trying to blast the teammate crouching on me). Except I never got the points bc a teammate would blow up the sentry/dispenser/teleporter before it finished... Which is annoying, bc it’s a strange item, so it counts successful saps and levels up. Also I got the eyelander & the bootleg (?) peg leg thing, so when I randomed in as Demo... things got interesting. still haven’t figured out the charge/swing thing yet... which sounds stupid bc it’s one button then the other, when you hit the target. But apparently now I can turn, the splendid screen gives higher resistance, and the eyelander counts heads... but not everyne i hit will lose their head? 
Oh, decapitated a cloaked spy today, sort of on purpose (knew they were in the vicinity, but not that close) and got the achievement ‘Shorn Connery’ (hah). so that was alright.
- I actually like 2Fort and DoubleCross, tbh. Kept angling to do anything but goddamn Gold Rush (even leaving/disconnecting slingshotted you back there) all night. they were options, but everyone bitched about them.
Also, why does everyone hate Mann Up missions, the grappling hooks make them FUN AS FUCK, PEOPLE... and the powerups. Once you work out hat they do. I love Supanova most; bc of the extra attack you get. But I haven’t tried them all.  Somehow I always run into the Plague carrier, and die immediately. Still, once you get the grapple going (at any mann up ctf but hellfire) it’s all good. But at hellfire, i have fallen in the lava so many times so help me fucking law and order... mistimed grapple and die, that’s the motto.
Still would have taken legit any map (even sunshine) over Gold Rush (and last night it was nothing but Badwater Basin, until it was 3v3, everyone bored and competitive... until my team quit and it was 3v1 medic)... 
Got my wish, in a very genie way.
Very last match was Vanguard, but half of either team had reached the point where they legit no longer gave a fuck and were hi-fiving or dancing as they slaughtered us. And it was like 30 seconds long, frustratingly.
It;s more fun if both sides are pushing hard, winning and losing... 
I was once medic on this team (game where i managed 25 invulns!) at the place with the rocket... it was a control point map anyway. But like, we managed to hold the other team off the final capture control point for 25 minutes... and won. It was so close the whole time, and super-exciting.
There was a lot of communication there too, btw. Brilliant match. Something similar happened the other day as well, except we lost with 12 seconds left, bc they had so many bonk!scouts coming at the point we couldn’t kill them all AND deal with the snipers, heavies and sentries... it was also brilliant. 
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...I really need to get a taunt or an interaction item. It would be nice to initiate the dancing or something else, for once. Always wanted rancho relaxo, bc the amount of freaking times I get stuck waiting by a sentry/dispenser on certain maps... or something else. I’ll see what’s in the store some other time, when it’s not 4am.
Just really wanted to let out my frustration, or i’ll go to bed with it in my head, and that will just exacerbate this freaking cold no end.
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