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#and dont even get me started on the trans thing
saccharine-mutt · 6 days
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the more i work out the more i have brainrot of being a match in physical strength with my dom; my legs have always been muscular, my shoulders broad, my arms big when i consistently work them. starting T will only enhance the strength i already possess, and i want it to show. i keep thinking about being stocky and overly-confident about it, taunting my dom with, i don’t know, wrestling competitions or something—just to prove i can beat them. the idea that they have to work to subdue me, or get me so deep in subspace that i want to fully submit… man. i want to watch them get pissed off the more i fight, the harder i resist, because of course i have to make shit difficult; i can’t help but be a brat, solely because i love seeing their reactions. having them manhandle me once they tire me out, moving me into whatever position they want me in, pressing on bruises from past scuffles just because they can, because they like to see me squirm. mocking me for being so easy, scolding me for thinking i could win, praising me for trying so hard. having to restrain me cuz i’ll just start it all over again if i get the chance, just to get them angrier, and being threatened with something worse than rope or handcuffs if i keep it up; they aren’t above beating me into submission, if they need to—they clearly had no problem with shoving me around, so why wouldn’t they hit me? especially if it means reducing their big strong boy into a stupid, pathetic, whimpering mutt.
brainrot, i tell you. woof.
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mokutone · 1 year
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I kind of adore how in ur tags you're talking about his foot position being off and everyone (including me) in the tags is too busy being memorized by tenzō's arm and armpit hair to notice or comment.
ITS REALLY FUNNY!!! AND HONESTLY KINDA HEARTWARMING!!!! I LOVE IT!!!! LMFAOOOO also u + everyone else is right body hair is sick as HELL!!!! its easy to forget to add onto drawings too
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ispyspookymansion · 6 months
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i need to make a zine about navigating the (professional) world as a trasmasc dyke so bad i feel like i could chew all my fingers off
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northern-passage · 1 year
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Genuine thought as a fellow trans dude, I’ve seen a lot of (obviously non-serious) questions on other blogs about characters’ genitals such as “how does it look like?” and similar, and I think we all know & understand that such questions are extremely inappropriate to ask and (I hope) no one would actually go around asking these questions irl. Idk, I think we should treat trans characters just like cis ones, without any special “precautions”, so to normalise them and not make cis people treat them like fragile boxes, a thing which happens to a lot of us irl. Hope this doesn’t come off as an attack or anything lol.
no worries, i didn't take this as an attack at all. i actually agree with you, that's why i mentioned feeling conflicted about it and also mentioned that i've changed my stance on how i felt about handling Noel and Clementine in game and in explicit intimate scenes.
however, for me the problem comes from the fact that people... don't ask these kinds of questions about cis characters? i suppose people do get cheeky "who is the biggest 🤪" asks but i would hardly compare the two. to be a bit crude, no one is going to be asking if a cis character has a dick or not, or "what does it look like". of course it's natural for people to be curious, and i honestly encourage the open discussion and am happy to see trans bodies being talked about more in a positive way, but not everyone is going to be comfortable with it due to the inescapable transphobia online and in the community. sending me that kind of ask is like sending out an invitation for a debate or a discussion that i don't necessarily want to have. i also just don't think people should default to asking a random IF author on tumblr dot com to describe what bottom growth looks like.
and with most of these asks typically coming from someone who is anonymous, i have no way of truly knowing what the tone is, what their intentions are or why this is being asked - is it another trans person? or maybe someone who is just genuinely curious? or, more likely in my experience, is it someone who is going to immediately follow up this message with something transphobic after i answer? do i want to roll the dice and find out?
so while i agree with what you're saying, it's important to consider the context and the reality we live in. the IF community is not kind to trans people or trans characters. and as a trans person, my first priority is protecting myself and my mental health. so what i mean when i say "precautions," is that those precautions are for me, because i've had to deal with transphobic harassment here for years now, and i try to mitigate it as much as i can. it's also for my personal comfort - again, to be blunt, i'm simply just not comfortable discussing a trans character's genitals with anonymous strangers on the internet. it makes me feel vulnerable.
also i do want to say i didn't mean for any of that to come across as a dig at other authors - if you're comfortable answering those kinds of questions, that's really only something you can decide for yourself. like i said, this is just coming from my own experiences in IF and for my own personal comfort - i have previously talked a lot about trans stuff and gender and sexuality here, when i'm feeling up to it, but it is something that is very draining for me and can also be very upsetting.
basically: i do agree that it's important not to other trans characters or treat them any differently than cis characters, but i also think there are ways to do it that don't require me answering invasive questions or questions that i don't feel comfortable with as a real life trans person, you know what i mean?
#hopefully this better explains what i was trying to say#again no worries anon i've had this exact conversation before with other trans people#and it's something that i don't think has a perfect solution esp with the current... climate#and especially online with the anonymity it makes these topics really touchy. you don't know who is reading this or who is interacting#if it's sincere or in bad faith#things have changed a lot in the IF community for the better but it's still not safe and i always advocate for an author to protect#themself first#back when i started tnp it was not at all common for ppl to list characters as cis#really it was only nb or trans characters that got listed in that way#and it's why i chose not to do that and why i wanted the player to find out lea and merry was trans at the same time as the hunter#same with noel and clem and their privacy#giving them that agency was important to me#and it's still important to me now#but i got a lot of harassment because of that. the lea reveal didnt even end up in game it was on the blog and it was weeks of harassment#afterwards that still makes me anxious to this day whenever i talk about lea's transness#so basically like. it comes down to what someone is comfortable with and what they're mentally able to handle#edit: thinkin abt it more &im going to be honest if someone sent me an ask that said ‘what does it look like’ i would be very Not Happy#like cis people & cis characters do Not get treated that way so why would i allow it for my trans characters#so i stand by saying that these asks are inappropriate like. i obviously dont know the context of what ur referencing#but that’s a hard no from me personally either way#to me as a trans person that question in itself is othering and objectifying#ask#anonymous
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frankly-alien · 1 month
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look. i know that the best thing i can do is shut up and get to work but like, i am so so tired you guys. and i know everyone else is too and everyone else is probably more tired than i am and im speaking from a place of immense privilege here, but im really really tired. i am educating myself and i am learning and i am being quiet and i am building others up as best i can online and in real life. but i barely have enough energy the shit i need to get done to keep my head above water, and its hard to be helpful and present and active right now. i know im complaining and i know that being in a community is work but i am exhausted lmao
#this ken's job is useful lmao#its hard when i dont pass enough for cis people but when i dont pass enough for trans people it hurts on another level#with cis people its: misgendered all day. ignoring the pronoun pin. explaining to me why people are uncomfortable around 'sensitive' trans#people. looking at me when im in the bathroom stall and that kind of thing. handing me my T and calling me 'she' to the other pharmacists.#little things. i expect that of cis people.#but with trans people its: asking me how long ive been on T and then telling me what i can do to make my beard thicker to pass better#its asking me if i have a binder while im wearing it#its not being able to use any other pronouns aside from he/him/his because no one will use 'he' ever again for me. in fact a lot of times#folks just start using 'she.'#im happy to fill a more traditionally masculine role than im entirely comfortable with if it makes the lives of the women in my life better#and i would never distance myself from other trans people just because im ineptly presenting my gender#but at the same time. i would like to be given a little bit of grace so i can wear the clothes i like without being misgendered by my own#community. i know that the comments made about my body and the state of my transition weren't meant in malice but i am allowed to feel hurt#that the care i try to extend to others is not returned to me#again i realize that as a white dude im the last person who should be complaining. and i understand that most of my trans siblings are wors#off than i am. im just feeling isolated and tired and every time i seek community i find that i do not meet the qualifications#this isn't anyone's fault really its just kinda how things are for right now. for what its worth im sorry that my body isnt right even afte#i did the hormones but it is the body i have so id thank you to stop telling me what i can do in the gym and what haircut i can get.#rant#sorry thats just been eating me alive lately#im not making a prescriptive statement either im just feeling my feelings lmao#delete later
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dirt-str1der · 1 year
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just wanna say im obsessed with your mind and i read your posts about kiryu like the morning paper. thank you for your service
(Sweats) e-even the ones about him laying eggs ?
#Thanks for the ask !#HIIIIII thank you for reading my posts im really a serial rambler so that is no easy feat. i just had a lowkey nightmare that was insect#based so its nice to think about different kinds of eggs once in a while. sorry for the eggs i just learned the word gravid and i cant stop#saying it !!! i literally opened tumblr to make another post about kiryu i was gonna say he was probably antisocial in his childhood which#is really a miracle any girls managed to notice him at all. and i believe that he was very dismissive of his clothing and appearance because#you know when youre young and trans and havent realised it but you just randomly hate everything about your appearance and dont even knowwhy#i think his hair was always too long and too shaggy and he would let nishiki comb it sometimes because he really could not stand his mane#and sometimes when it gets wayy too long and shitty the sunflower caretaker would drag him outside and just cut a chunk of it off with a#knife and kiryu would have shoulder length hair for a little while... anyway i need to give him a little girlfriend like how rikiya had one#when he was in school because all trans guys need a little girlfriend or an all girl group of friends to be his girlfriends when hes a kid#so he can carry their shopping bags and wait for them outside the changing room etc and kiryu cant resist a girl so he gets a letter from#nishiki and he tells him yeah this is probably a prank to have you wait there for hours or there might be guys waiting to ambush you and#beat the crap out of you. and kiryus like Nobody beats the crap out of me except our dad. and goes to meet this girl and he actually agrees#to go out with her and this is the thing that keeps him in school because otherwise he would literally not go. like hed walk with yumi and#nishiki and the rest of the kids at sunflower that he doesnt care about to remember the names of. and he would just wave them off at the#gate and wander the town in his school uniform and then after school he’ll meet nishiki and possibly yumi at the gate (yumi probably makes#other friends but its a Must to walk nishiki home because he’ll get lonely) and when kiryu starts going out with this girl hes obligated to#walk her home so he already broke rule one but nishikis like happy for him But he has to walk home with some other random guys now and#eventually theyll broach the topic of ‘his psycho sister’ and nishiki literally has to beat a few guys up to defend kiryus honour and when#he comes back with news of how unpopular kiryu is with the rest of the guys because he looks better with short hair than they do and has a#girlfriend whos super cute. kiryu is just like damn did you commit social suicide to protect my honour? youre my best friend. but whatever#kids get over it fast. but parents dont!! and kiryu walks his girlfriend right to her front door and soon enough her parents are going to#find out that the boyfriend she keeps gushing about is a girl and straight up take her out of school to make her stop being gay and kiryus#like but ... im a boy ... punches the ground and screams to the sky. anyway enough about dysphoria simulator im here to talk about this guy#when hes a bit older because im salivating and shaking over the thought of his bootyass rip kiryu you woulda loved thongs. i think hed hate#ripped jeans but only because he thinks theyre a waste of manufacturing. its literally better for the world that kiryu decided 2 transition#because can you imagine if she was a girl and needed to wear a bra? like she would literally have an itchy back all the time which would#give her a hair trigger temper which means kamurocho a&e room will be very healthily plush indeed. god my battery is dying i need to take a#shower noww anyway really thank you for the nice message you are so sweet ... hi ...
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rivilu · 2 months
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Hey hello can i be sad on main or will the heavens unleash 7 thousand ravenous hawks upon me
#river rambles#vent post#tw for basically everything bellow just saying it now#sorry the last 8 years of not a single reason to live are getting to me <3#i hate being alive i hate being trans I hate being autistic and not able to work like a normal person#to provide my transition to myself instead of having to rely on parents that kiind of support me? (dad) or are straight up pulling -#the 'you're making MEEE SUICIDAL!' card (mom)#i hate not being able to talk to people like a normal person#it's not even just the autism anymore i feel like i've been the worst version of me for such a long time i dont even know where to start#dysphoria is so fucking bad and getting worse every single day and any semblance of trans positivity winds up feeling toxic#like even body neutrality feels like an insult. im at a point where i want to tear myself apart just when i'm sitting still#i hate being told to wait for things to happen#the dreaded 'it'll get better'#it hasnt#it's been EIGHT. FUCKING. YEARS#nothing helps. i've exhausted every option within reach. no words of encouragement help at all#literally the only OPTION is to wait. and i've had! ENOUGH OF IT!#I've dreaded pride every year because it feels more and more like i'm living a lie being there. im not PROUD of being trans.#All i feel about it is misery. All the time. I hate my body so fucking much i cant do a single thing i want to do#most of my early years after figuring out im trans i tried to just ignore it and focus on pride about my sexuality#since i couln't transition then anyway#but as time went on and i became an adult and there's still not a single glimpse of light on the horizon. I can't focus on it anymore#because you know. those things are interconnected. So now i just feel like an unlovable piece of shit!#Like i will never be what i was meant to be. what i want to look like.#and i dont even want to try for any manner of relationship before that . because even if anyone DID like the current version of me#that's not even me#birth is a curse and existence is a prison etcetera
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perilegs · 8 months
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i’m making huge generalizations here but idk i feel so much more comfortable just existing around trans (and some gnc) people than i do with people who are cis (and gender conforming) bc of the way we view our - and other peoples bodies. i hear trans people talk about bodies with so much love and adoration. like sure hating your body is a big thing for most trans people but most of us also learn to accept what we look like. and the acceptance often turns to genuinely liking yourself. especially if you make changes you want to to your body. it’s just. idk i feel like only a trans person could see my body for what it is
#ive seen a lot of trans art recently and its all been so lovingly made and with clear adoration towards bodies that look like yours#idk im not very eloquent and theres a lot more nuance to this entire thing#but like. i personally love my body like yea i have parts im insecure about we all do but also i have been able to choose to do things to m#body that make me happy! and  i dont just mean surgery and hrt bc thats not for anyone but also choosing to do whatever the hell i want to#with my hair and getting piercings and dressing in a way that feels good#i know being able to dress etc the way you want to is a privilege#and im so grateful for it#i can't believe there was a time when i wasnt allowed to cut my hair or wear boy clothes and i had to dress up as a girl#and got constantly reminded of being a failure of femininity etc. and now that i dont talk to my mom anymore im so free#i can exist in my body and i actually feel like my body is mine and not there just for show if that makes sense#like i look in the mirror and go that me!#and also like seeing myself like that has obviously made me appreciate others bodies as well#bc when you have for a long time always payed attention to the positives of a certain thing you start noticing positives more!#just like how idk going for a walk and finding 5 nice things you appreciate or looking#in the mirror and listing things you like about yourself#out loud. even if you feel uncomfortable#it helps#can you believe you're happier when you fall a bit in love with everything around you#there are so many wonderful things on this earth and you have to condition yourself to notice them and its hard work that never stops#but it is so worth it#i have lost the plot of my post#leevi talks#anyways i love how trans people love bodies
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magioffire · 7 months
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Cis occultists be like: i dig the imagery of baphomet and the divine rebis and the immaculate androgynous and use it all the time in my practice, but if I saw a trans person's pre op body I would throw up
#its actually shocking going into pagan and occult spaces and witnessing all the new ways they justify their bigotry#like bruh i rather deal with good old fashioned bigotry than whimmywhammy abracadabra new age bigotry LOL#And its just very. very funny to me how#many western occult practices use images and concepts of: the rebis. the divine androgynous. the intersection of binaries. etc etc#but then turn around and say shit like#'actually trans people cant be true thelemites because they are at odds with their True Will uwuwu' girl what#and yes this is an argument i saw on facebook LOL#And yes i know not all thelemites or occultists are like that#but yall sure are quiet about all the written in bigotry and weird psuedofascist shit in new age occultism#if youre gonna be in these spaces consuming these things you gotta be critical of them#just like you are critical of literally every mainstream religion :)#anyway im Tired.#ooc.#tbd.#and dont even get me started on Terf druidism#transphobia cw#religion cw#not rp related.#and dont get me started on all the weird phreological type shit in modern occultism too!!#what does it matter if you Reject Mainstream Religion if youre just gonna keep on keeping on with the worst parts of religion just with#a different edgy aesthetic.#theyll rail christianity but wont lift a finger to address the same bigoted preconceptions and ideas in their own religion ugh#also yea i know technically occultism ISNT a religion but it intersects with religion and is often used within a spiritual application
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perenlop · 1 month
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let me tell you it is so easy to tell when some people went to high school in a super liberal area or didnt suffer from bigotry there.
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snekdood · 4 months
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idk who needs to hear this (vaush) but being a skilled debater and being Good With Words does not make you correct.
#just bc you can finesse your audience into believing anything you say bc you're good at convincing them STILL doesnt make you correct#on everything bud.#spewing incorrect shit just bc you know you can get away w convincing ppl of it makes you no better than the alt righters you hate#its like he learned he could convince everyone hes correct if he words things the right way and decided his biased opinions#was what everyone needed to be taught as fact. fucking wild.#'durr its not my fault if my audience uncritically believes everything i say' yeah it kinda is bc you kinda set it up as#'if you dont agree with me you're just dumb and dont know anything'#also even if you jokingly say 'im always right' doesnt mean 1. thats not gonna subconsciously effect you to make you think you Are#and 2. that doesnt mean everyone knows you're joking.#so fucking pissed at him for this. unbiased my ass#maybe he lost a huge chunk of fans all at once so hes doing everything he can to keep the remaining ones not sure#oh well. at least hes not as bad about it as keffals. though i am still starting to get culty vibes from vaushs audience now.#at least the ones perpetually in his chat.#also then again i wouldnt exactly consider keffals anything near a 'skilled debater'#and before any a yall accuse me of kds bitch idgaf about the noodles shit. its dumb. i understand nuance.#unlike yall who are devolving into b/w thinking where you think anyone critical of your faves is just a wokescold with#[enter name] derangement syndrome#only reason i stopped interacting w keffals shit is i realized she would never respect me as a person so yeah. same w vaush quite frankly.#keffals dismissing trans mascs. vaush acting like ppl who believe in shit are all mentally ill. yeah im over them for that shit.#like get fucked you up-your-own-asses elitist tools#ig that one applies to vaush more. keffals just doesnt care about anything but herself it seems like.
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aropride · 1 year
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like what the fuck am i supposed to do
#tw transphobia american politics etc#like. in terms of meeeee its all about me all the time. whatever.#like my state currently isnt looking super bad legislation wise & im very lucky & very grateful#but we've seen how fast things can go downhill#and it's like . i dont know what the fuck i'd do if things get bad in my state#like. where would i get t. bc there doesnt seem to be any resources for it online because it is a felony . & ppl will be all 'oh just diy i#' as if resources for diy hrt for trans men Exist or are nearly as easy to find as those for trans women. Which they arent because it is#a FELONY !!!!!!!!!!!! for trans men. But even if i were able to get t and start t whatever#if things got bad after that. idk. ive made my peace with probably never passing in no small part due to nvr pass by she her hers#go stream . but that would make me a very obvious target & there is Nothing i can fucking do abt it bc that is just how my body is#and i dont know. if my state passes anything like mo just did. im fucked man like completely fucked#but im not gonna not transition out of fear. But its like what would i do.#Anyway in terms of not-me. How am i supposed to help people in other states Like theres no real material way i can help other than#sharing information but its like am i even accomplishing anything if i cant provide a way to help as well. but i dont know how to help.#and things just keep getting worse in my country & around the world & i cant help & i cant fix it & i dont know what to do#Anyway. whatever#text
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policyoftruth · 9 months
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Finally saw the new spiderman and after all the craze that's been going on online abt it i expected smth spectacular, but MAN did i go even BEYOND my expectations how can a film be this RAD
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mothheart · 1 year
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Idk what I was doing or what I had searched but I just remember this one time I saw someone say something like 'trans men need to stfu about jk Rowling bc she only harms trans women' like sorry what. How did we even get to this point when did a majority of people start assuming the t*rf queen only harms trans women. Why do so many people have this belief that trans men experience No Opression
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rebellum · 8 months
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Logically I know transphobes are dumb and illogical. But.
It's still hard to push their voices out of my head.
If a trans masc has sex with cis men, they're """basically straight women""", and if we have sex with cis women or other trans mascs we are """pussy4pussy""" like we are women copting the trans experience or something.
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69shrimp · 2 years
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birth control is so funny bc youll be like hey i get this unbearable side effect daily and the doctor is like "thats not happening. not from birth control!" because they dont want you to go off it
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