#and dont be too much stress or overthink a lot

[marsixm]

im not sure if im just overthinking but im currently having an autism "is my definition of this word different than everyone else's???" moment re: "stress", like do others not consider stress to be stress if they dont have a specific accompanying emotional response...? or??? idk

#butch manager was like 'do u ever see me or fave manager stressed???' and i was like ???????????????? #that man is a literal ball of stress waiting to explode what do u MEAN? #like sure he doesnt 'freak out' he doesnt really get angry .. he puts his head down and gets things done #but hes clearly exhausted and under a lot of pressure and constantly being yelled at by bossman??? #and hes not happy with a lot of shit !!! #i cant tell if this is just me knowing that man better than others or if other people only associate 'stress' with 'freaking out' or what #i dont think theyre correct in doing that but if thats the definition the rest of the world is using i guess itd behoove me to know? #ok i may be overthinking. IDK #this was also in the convo about me stressing too much and i know i do but how can u not be stressed when work is chaotic and difficult #is that not stress??? #work mom literally has also complained about shit being too difficult and says she prays b4 work #is that not stress.......................? #is it only stress when i do it because i continue thinking about it afterwards???? #is it only stress when its from the stress region of france if not its just sparkling annoyance

[noxtivagus]

i'll succeed with everything. definitely.

#🌙.vent #last one fr then i think i have enough energy to fix my account. bcs. i don't really care. anymore. gna gaslight myself into being fine 🤍 #smiling felt painful earlier but oh well! this is stupid anyways i shldn't think too much. this is so stupid #i have so much thoughts but yk what i will stop writing n force myself to do wtvr the fuck n yh fuck everything i'll stop overthinking i'll #just be myself. i thrive the most when i just be myself <3.. no wait i was gen doing a bit better but every time i think back n. 🥹 it Hurts #but. why the hell am i letting these stupid things bring me down. i've never really been the type to hide or bring myself down or. yeah #i shouldn't think too much on it all i know eventually i'll always succeed :< that said tho i am rlly v tired i just wna be invisible #for a while. see what'll happen if i just disappear or cut myself off from the world. if anything wld change if i'll be 'gone' in some way #but no that's bad n destructive behavior i Shouldn't but sometimes when i get stressed enough i lack any care to. stop myself maybe. but. #i made promises to myself. a lot of promises to myself in my past n to my future that. i won't do anything i'll regret. holding unto tmrrw. #the future. holding unto that sense of hope has kept me alive. even if i'll always be full of regret and disappointment i want to live to #to love and to succeed and to be free and to. fight the world & find my freedom in reality. thats hard for me n i probably dont deserve it #maybe that's precisely why i'll forge on ahead. to prove that wrong. to be kind to the other part of me that has kept me alive #it sucks bcs while. like i just said i don't think i deserve certain things. at heart i know my main truth wld be that ik i'm deserving #bcs i'm human too :< but both ends r just intense in my head n when times r draining it gets harder to. yeah #idk what i'm writing anymore but no matter how hard it gets i need to succeed. i need to improve i need something better #i'll work hard enough so i could be at peace. have freedom in my own way. 'fly' as i'm meant to and as i've always wished to #that said though ik i'll succeed in terms of several of my passions but when it comes to people.... i always feel like i fail there T_T #every time i'm distant i'm aware of how it affects me negatively but then i try to deny it at times bcs 'i just need myself blah blah' #surely i can't be weak for. wtvr but like. all that is smth that is not up to me. trying that w how i oft feel i don't belong in this world #i can't help but think that there'll always be better ppl than me for others. not that i think low of myself but its hard to feel i 'fit in #? it's a lonely world for me n i still can relate w others n socialize n wtvr n all but it just hurts. this is stupid :c thoughts like #'my friends wld be better off without me' or 'i dont contribute much anyways' & 'not much would change if i'll be gone' hurt me bcs #i do want to believe that i'm loved & cared for too in this world but.. it hurts its one of my weakest points. a hell i can't escape. #but i'm fine with it. it's my fault. my mind's fault. idk i live in my own lil world most of the time n i feel too different from others #so it's always been hard for me to reach out since i don't think it would be particularly wanted from me but i do love helping others #unconditionally n. my family's always been here from the start i can always trust them. fuck my old friends though i have trust issues #i'm working on that n i know all i shld technically fix w myself but it's easier said than done n. genuinely i rlly want to improve. #but i wonder if i'm too harsh n perfectionistic about it. making it counterintuitive. sigh. idk what i'm writing anymore i'm a mess #i'm fine. when i'm stressed n overwhelmed it's just v easy for me to lose sight of myself. i'll be fine i think soon. just need to remember

[borzoilover69]

Jake Writing Guide : 2024 Colourised!

Ok well, this isn't the prime year 2014 but I really wanted to make a concise and easy to consume guide for how to write Jake accurately since he can be quite the fussy tosspot if you dont know where to start. [ WARNING ITS A BIT LONG I INCLUDE JAKE DIALOGUE TO HELP WITH UNDERSTANDING WHAT IM SAYING. ] First off: drop the commas, and the apostrophes. He uses largely run-on sentences and has a sort of rambly sense of words. He does however use "these" every now and then and just as it strikes him tends to *Drag out the ole roleplayisms.* when it suits the situation.

Jake doesn't really tend to use old-timey slang but he does have rather antiquated ways of speaking, with a pension for more articulated language. He only REALLY breaks out the old timey words when particularly impressed or exasperated for emphasis. Usually, these words are british slang.

Note how he goes on a ramble that is slightly self-centred. He also spins stories similiar to how Dirk does, but without the ice-cold deal. Tossing in his own spin with his own words.

This one is just really fucking funny.

When hes particularly exasperated he leans into it MORE. Just really spreads it on thick. Like if he continues to say funny words you'll forget everything else and be distracted by his whimsy.

Jake is FAR more socially aware than people give him credit for but prefers to avoid tricky subjects hes not too comfortable with until he feels suitably ready for it, prefers battles he knows he can win so to speak. He also tends to think hes overthinking it and backtrack into ignorance. He overcomplicates things same as dirk does but rather than doing Dirks "yup thats a me problem. Im going to quietly stress about it now!", jake brushes it under the rug and tries not to think about it like a college student trying not to think about their outstanding academic paper and the promise of "Yeah, I'll do it later" (doesn't)

Note his more genuine understanding of why Dirk functions the way he does, well aware of the pros AND cons of having something like a combat machine hunting him.

His awareness of Janes crush and reluctance to deal with it:

Subsequent backtracking and denial of said premonitions, brushing it under the rug. Again, stating his reluctance to get into it because it's a situation he's not wellversed. Jake doesn't like being put into unpredictable situations, he prefers the easy road that won't inconvenience him much.

Also his desire to be seen as seemingly perfect and not have to dwell on others intents. Now this is something I don't see touched on as MUCH on writing guides for Jake English (then again the majority were made in 2014 so who can blame them.) But when Jake touches on what he views as MORE TABOO feelings aka ones which compromise the go-getter Adventurer image that arent BRAVE and GUSTO and GUNS, such as weakness, hesitation, he tends to pose back to the asking party as a question and reconsider his thought process. Like: Do YOU think its ok for me to feel this way? Why do you think that? Could you imagine me thinking something like that? He cares a LOT about his image and whats acceptable for him to be and to mask his difficulty in some social situations.

He doesn't like acknowledging that which might be sort of difficult for him to come to terms with, with the ye olde character trait of repression that him and John share, believing if he keeps his feelings buttoned up, they don't need to feel embarassed (aka: avoidance)

Hes also a fair bit more snarkier than fanon gives him hooks for. His subconscious takes the form of his best friend, but its commented as being “like hal, in terms of snarks”. Jake can also be the snarky customer to Dirk AND Hal, and Caliborn too. He's a gentleman to ladies (TO A DEGREE) but with guys he's not afraid to be more cutting with it. I am begging you on your hands and knees to drop the woobified jake english and make him slightly snarky and a bit offputting and weird. Jake grew up in the middle of a jungle and burned his grandmother.

Also he seems to be slightly aware of outside forces, note him calling attention to the fact he knows things he shouldn't canonically even be able to know.

Because Jake IS a little freak. He thinks corpse puppetry is funny. He punches what he thinks is fish hitler while ranting about movies. Hes funny as fuck. Hello.

However, with all of THAT out of the way, lets focus on some of the more ABRASIVE parts of his personality. While Jake is funnily charming with his old lingo and tendency to ramble, he has issues! One HUGE one is reluctance to fully FACE things he doesnt feel he has a full grasp on. He DOESNT like going out of his comfort zone, he DOESNT like talking about his emotions to people he really cares about or thinks has fallen for his manic dreamboat pixie persona, He's well aware people fall for it. He works hard to make sure people DO. But it sort of restricts him to that persona, he can't grow from it as long as he holds onto the idea that this persona hes chasing is the only way he can BE without being vulnerable.

Jake can be OVERBEARING, and not just that, painfully unaware when he's up his own ass! This critic he gives to Dirk applies to himself! The reason why he doesn't like brainghost dirk is because GOD forbid the man self-reflect juuust a little and find something that upsets him. Nope! Not going to deal with it. Just as quickly as he is to switch the thought that everyone loves him, he is just as likely to switch to think that everyone doesnt.

Anyways, I think thats all I have to say, Jakes words speak a LOT about his character, and I genuinely love him a lot. He has some words i think about a lot and hes genuinely such an awesome guy. I'll let a few choice pieces of dialogue from Jake himself close this out for me.

This was one of the last conversations we see with him. And I still think about his words a lot.

I'll probably edit this when I get the energy. But I think i covered most of it. Happy writing!

#jake english #homestuck meta #borzoi meta #homestuck #hom3stuck #borzoi talks #astonishing roleplay guide in this year of 2024.. #boy oh boy was this a doozy..

[actualbird]

nxx team at a sleepover low stakes all-nighter stakeout mission or something, bear with me, i just have thoughts on who would last longest in staying awake

this post started out as a joke and then turned into a found family feels fest. bon apple teeth!

wc: 1k

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marius is awake nearly the entire time because this is usual shit for him

this mf sleeps 6-5 hours normally w only 5 minute naps in between, so hes been trained via his Hell Schedule for minimal sleep. 

this plus whatever stakes is going on for the stakeout basically ensures hes gonna last a long time. 

he’ll be the 4th to sleep, and if he had ever gone to a sleepover with friends when he was a kid (he hasnt, everybody either hated him or was using him, marius, how come every time u talk about ur childhood it makes me wanna cry?) he’d only pass out at like 4am because hes got a Lot of energy and needs to burn it all before sweet sweet unconsciousness hits him over the head.

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artem is awake for a while as well because hes a caffeine addict who has regular insomnia problems 

he is 3rd to sleep, succumbing at around 3am. 

he honestly would have slept earlier but then marius, who was burning off his own energy by asking countless inane philosophical questions, had asked him one of those said inane philosophical questions

marius asks, “hey, do you think worms dream? do you think they wonder about their place in the grand scheme of things?” 

and those questions inexplicably send artem into a spiral of overthinking his place in the universe 

like oh god, do worms dream? do worms also worry constantly about how theyre existing and being fearful that tomorrow theyll make wormy mistakes thatll forever tarnish the record of their whole wormy lives?

when artem passes out, he dreams of cartoon worms in court. the worm judge, who has the voice of his father, says “court is now in session. all writhe.”

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vyn is asleep by 8pm. end of sentence.

he is the 1st to sleep. he is not going to be participating in whatever kind of superiority of “ha, i stayed awake longest!” because he thinks thats stupid as hell and hes right, having a fucked up circadian rhythm is Not something to be bragging about. Get Help, People.

he tells mc to wake him up once hes needed or when something important happens and then he curls up into a sleeping bag and sleeps like a fucking rock

nothing is getting through to him the moment hes shut his eyes, with the caveat of mc’s order for him to get up, because for all of the rightful value vyn puts upon sleep, he is also rightfully whipped for her. if she says wake up, he’ll be doing it

doesnt mean he has to enjoy it, but he’ll do it

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mc sleeps only after she makes luke PROMISE, CROSS HIS HEART to sleep at some point during all this and let somebody else take a shift

because luke “ive done a ton of stakeouts before, i dont need sleep!” pearce is hugely stressing her out. they will lightheartedly argue about this for HOURS until midnight when mc finally makes him promise. 

marius: oooooh, she got ya there buddy. you gonna break a promise?

artem: thats like breaking the law

luke: what? no it isnt

artem: it is for this situation. and the punishment will be severe

vyn, sleeptalking elegantly: life sentence....

mc: IVE GOT 3 //pauses to look at vyn and his questionable wakefulness. IVE GOT....2.5 WITNESSES. promise! and no breaking it!

luke: fiiiiiinnneeee >:/

so luke promises. That! Is! All!

and mc goes to sleep, the 2nd one of the group to fall asleep, w a smug smile on her face, very happy shes won a battle of Help Luke Not Be Too Much Of A Self Sacrificing Bastard

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luke sleeps last, but this surprises him because he wasnt planning on “sleeping” at all 

and he’d like it on record he technically wasnt planning on breaking mc’s promise, he WAS gonna take like some uhhhh micronaps, shut his eyes for 3 minutes at a time. technically thats sleeping, right? so he hasnt broken the law-promise!

(if mc wasnt asleep and artem wasnt trapped in an absurdist worm legal drama dream, they wouldve ripped luke apart)

so hes up for the entire night, until everybodys fallen asleep, and he knows theyre all trying to help but he needs to keep them all safe. he needs to play the role of protector, and with everybody snoozing, the role is solely his

then vyn wakes up and luke is like What

luke: What. i thought you dont get up until the sun is up?

vyn, grumbling: usually, that’s true, but a certain somebody had advised me before all of this that you might be planning on playing arbitrary hero, and unlike you, i do keep my promises to her

marius: oooooohh, nice burn from vyn!

luke: why are YOU awake

marius: i had some of mc’s energy drinks awhile ago, and, in hindsight, that was a mistake! dude, check out how im shaking

luke: oh my god

marius: dyou think worms get the jitters as well?

artem: stop making me think about worms

luke: aaaaand youre awake too. uh you look a bit.....are you ok? 

artem, haunted: no. go to sleep. we’ll cover the rest of the night

and luke is just about to try and find a way out of once more but then mc, in her sleep, attacks luke w a sleepy koala hug. he is trapped. and

well, he cant help but feel all tired and sleepy when hes in her arms. he feels safe. he cant help it. 

mc, sleep mumbling: gotchaaaaa

luke, feeling so much love in his heart for her and also the others for teaming up for this: yeah, okay....you guys got me

luke’s final thought before sleep takes him is that maybe, in this team, they can take turns doing the protecting

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bonus, after mc and luke are asleep

vyn: .....what were you saying about worms?

artem: please. please dont ask

marius: is it possible to have a seizure but in slow mo?

vyn: neither of you are healthy individuals

#tears of themis #marius von hagen #luke pearce #vyn richter #artem wing

[yifftwiceplz]

rambling about daves timeline under the cut

this info has been touched on but a little more in depth

so i couldn't decide what age dave i wanted to RP and came up with some weird bullshit to be able to jump around impulsively but i have a general timeline for my dave

16-17: beats sburb, moves onto earth c. i DONT care about the endless isekai plot i want my boys to be happy B( i support anyone strong enough to stick with it, but personally i am rewriting it in my head the strilondes move into a duplex with roxy and rose on one side, dave and dirk on the other side. they do this because it seems like the healthiest option for all of them to live with their siblings and help each other grow and heal

dirk and dave have a lot of shit to work out both with dirk's chronic isolation and impossible standards for himself, and dave having been raised by a basement dwelling abusive dick. it's a little rocky at first especially with dirk's messiness and dave's clinginess but they push through and the strength of their relationship grows

neither of them has a job at first but they both piddle around with comics, youtube channels, and side projects until they both start messing with crypto scams. namely scamming crypto bros out of their money. it's around this point where they somehow get the rights to interdimensional twitter, which is a silly meaningless side plot but a fun one.

i probably won't play him at this age too much, but if i do the main things to look out for would be that he rambles way more and makes weird run-on sentences, like a full paragraph of metaphors, and still lives with dirk / the fam. he's also quite scrawny and still wears his god tier jammies most of the time.

around 22-23: dave moves into a house with karkat, funded by dave's youtube channel, karkat's job as a marriage counselor, and help from dirk, who's sad to not be living with his bro anymore but is very supportive and pointlessly rich.

he's at home pretty much 24/7, just casually working on youtube videos, comics, whatever he wants really. karkat is fine with being the breadwinner and household leader, dave is fine with being bossed around and he likes to clean. he has very few priorities to deal with so he does what he wants (mostly troll you all here)

this is his current "real time" age, around 25, so after he's lived with karkat a couple years already. he doesn't ramble as much, usually in a good mood and lets things roll off his back. he is also chunkier and doesn't wear his god tier outfit much anymore; he got tired of the style. he does still wear the pants around the house.

around 30 is when dave really makes a name for himself on youtube and makes his first movie, which is relatively low-budget and simple. his career kind of explodes from that point and by 35 he's in the middle of making his second movie, which is a genuine hollywood affair. he loses quite a bit of weight due to stress / being busy, usually has a 5 oclock shadow, and his outfits are usually pretty dumpy (unless it's a premiere or a press tour).

he and karkat are mostly long distance at this point, which dave stresses about more than he should. karkat is fine letting dave do his thing, but dave is beginning to overthink the fact he's going to far outlive karkat. he eventually decides to bring dirk on, which he was reluctant to do because dirk really needs to work less and get out more. but dave accepts he needs help and dirk is the only guy who can do the job properly. and dirk is happy to live his childhood fantasy of being on set with his bro

things to look out for would be his hair has a nice fade, he wears his shades less, he's usually scrawny (unless he's on break back home to be re-fattened by karkat), and he uses punctuation/rambles less

he's really busy most of the time so until i get some more things worked out he's like a little old man treat that i sprinkle to you guys like goldfish pellets in a pond of giant koi

around 40 is tbd but chunky hairy homebody dilf-with-no-kid dave supremacy.

#editor's note #lore tag tbn #weight stuff is because of editor's own fluctuating weight #around 40 is when he stops actually ageing sorry to the god tier keeping you young forever deal #i want to see that man old and grizzled and domesticated

[nerves-nebula]

2012 has so much room for character analysis. And analysis in general.

I watched it when It was coming out on tv and have been rewatching it for the past couple months very slowwwllllyyyy. Shshsbbdd

Anyway I'm just getting nna ramble my analysis in your direction.

Starting with Mikey! Par tof the reason people sorta cling to Mikey I think is cuz like, splinter sorta ignores him.

It's this sorta odd thing going on where we have scenes like splinter telling Donnie to act more like Mikey cuz he's thinking to much and it's impeding his abilities cuz he's overthinking. Which, is an attempt to address Donnie's anxiety albeit in not the best way but it sorta worked?

Which means splinter is acknowledging mikeys fighting prowess. And that Mikey not thinking to hard and just doing is a good skill to be able to execute.

But ALSO, we get a scene of when the boys first got their weapons, and splinter tells everyone why they're getting what weapon, and why they'll enjoy it. Except Mikey. Mikey just gets nunchucks. Which, is dead ass the hardest weapon to wield there so what the fuck dude?

And Mikey is, so fuckin smart. His brain just in Canon goes too fast for him to remember words and shit. He's so adhd frfr

But Leo is dead ass the golden child. Like, everyone asked to be leader, cuz they are teen boys, but splints chose Leo cuz "he asked for it" and then instills all his ideals in him! He's treated like he's the best at everything and is expected to be the best at everything AND to care for his brothers. And he can only feels like he doesn't really have a life. Which leads into the whole Leo develops a crush on his half sister while not knowing she's his half sister nonsense.

Donnie is just, he's the smart one. He's stressed all the time, but also a. Fucking simp who is never reprimanded by his dad for how he treats april, which he really should be! Having mindmap of every possible way an interaction could go with her is creepy! And literally stalking her!!!! Donnie's also the one who deals with Timothy and he gets in trouble for it with splints despite not even wanting to be dealing with it himself. It's a mess.

Raph has just, obvious anger issues. And splinter does not address them in a healthy way frequently. It's a lot of, "just breathe" and Raph is just: "I want to punch someone or something yesterday."

OH and splint sets his brothers shoot him with plungers while yelling at him and roah like, has a whole ass panic attack. That manifests aggressively cuz raphs anger oh so obviously comes from anxiety. But splinter like never picks up on that.

2012 splints treats the boys like students more then sons ALOT. But also cares about them enough to do shit like, break brain control cuz he didn't wanna kill them ✌️

I could probably word that better but I'm still a little high on laughing gas rn cuz I just had a dentist appointment.

yall be out here writing fandom dissertations & shit after going to the DENTIST yknow what I do after going to the dentist??? lay around in mild agony cause my sensitive ass teeth hurt...

anyway these are fun times.

i still cant get over the fact that i made my neglected turtles stay underground and never go out as a way to reflect my weird family isolation as a kid and then i watched the first ep of 2012 and it was like "yea they're fifteen and they've never left the sewers. they only know each other" and im LIKE!! WHAT!! THEY'VE LITERALLY ALMOST FINISHED PUBERTY AND THEY NEVER LEFT THEIR HOME???? THEY ONLY KNOW EACH OTHER????

i dont think the writers understand how fucked up that makes you and your relationships to people and its just like a part of the turtles story i guess???

LIKE THINKING ABOUT IT, I GET IT, and im sure thats how it is in a lot of tmnt iterations, but thats crazy. these boys would be so fucked up irl.

sorry for the ramble i just aint got much to say about ur analysis, cant say if i agree or not cause i aint even watched much 2012 lol.

#nnstuff #ask #tmnt 2012

[zeltqz]

I think I get you and your struggles about your writing. They are good. You just start with many ideas and feel overwhelmed when they got together? But like hard to get was cute. Others are good too but this is the only one finished as I remember (in series). Your side characters and side stories are mwah good too most fic writers dont care to put much personality in them. Youre the best.

YES HEAVY ON THE GET OVERWHELMED 😭 it’s not even that deep yet I find myself stressing so much over it

also thank you so much😭😭 I used to just write whatever came to mind back then and it was before I got a bunch of followers so I didn’t rlly care about embarrassing myself with my writing but now I feel like I gotta lock in and write professional stuff and then it just gets overwhelming cuz I start overthinking a lot

#I do miss my old ocs tho #they were inspired by the people I was hanging around back then during high school #now I graduated and don’t talk to them anymore I feel like I can’t write characters like that no more

[natsmagi]

hello !! yet another different anon, but just wanted to share this while we’re on the topic of self-criticism - hopefully this doesn’t come off as patronizing, it’s just smth i’ve found helps me as an artist and hopefully it’ll help u :D

i think it’s rlly important to view old art more from the perspective of the feelings u had making it rather than the actual content of the art itself. sure, ur artistic skills have improved a lot over the years, and maybe when ur looking back at ur older work u see a lot of flaws in it - weird anatomy, bad lighting, articles of clothing that don’t make sense, etc (not saying ur old art has any of these i’m just listing examples i’ve had in my own lol) - but u had fun making it !! it’s a drawing of something u loved and still love, and it served its purpose as an outlet to express that love. when people go back and like those old drawings, they’re not seeing it for its flaws - they’re seeing it for the love it represents, a love they probably feel themselves. while it’s good to critique ur own work to some extent for the sake of improvement, people liking ur old stuff is far from cringe-worthy! it’s just someone enjoying something u once enjoyed too, like an internet happiness hand-me-down :)

again, this sort of mindset has rlly helped me personally - i don’t feel as nervous about drawing or posting, bc im just having fun !! it’s ok if it’s kind of janky or has weird details, it was made with love and people can see and appreciate that. nobody ever stops improving or seeing flaws in their work, so its best to focus more on the joy it gave u and push urself towards improvement with the promise of even more joy rather than forcing urself to improve under the threat of feeling ashamed of ur creations

hopefully all of this makes sense i kind of have the shakes rn lol. sorry for the super long ask, i just dont rlly know how to explain all of this in a short way-

hope u are having a fantastic day full of pretty girls !!!!

omg no worries at all!! your message read as very sweet so please dont stress urself out over how u came across!!

AND I DEFINITELY AGREE!! tbh its a mindset i tend to have, but i think where ive lacked is definitely in applying the "im just doing it for fun" logic to past me. i tend to be someone who very much lives in the present and have a bit of a disconnect both from the past and the future, and this can cause me to totally disregard everything about my past self and past work LOL. so honestly having all this put into words has kinda been an "OHH RIGHT" moment for me KASJHFJAHSDKJ

theres also the factor of my audience being bigger now........ im not really someone who likes having alot of eyes on me for various reasons, which sometimes causes me to waver a bit AKJSHFKJH THOUGH ITS NOT THAT BAD. i think most of my shyness comes from having artists i really admire now see my art and im like "FUCK IC ANT HAVE IT LOOK BAD WHAT IF THEY SEE" which can cause me to overthink things But also i tend to forget that those people even follow me 80% of the time. tbh all of my "insecurities" in regards to my art are purely circumstantial and only really present themselves if im in a flustered state, but a large portion of the time im just chilling KJAHSFJKHK

i do also wanna say tho that i think the viewing all art as coming from a place of love sentiment is very sweet........ esp bc in the beginning one of the compliments i got the most was along the lines of "your love for the characters really shines through!!" so to think that, in spite of potential quality, that love is still visibly present makes me very happy.......... Perhaps if u have genuine love for what u do itll shine through no matter what

#Big fan of that “art” thing. Hope we keep it up #ask

[aficionadonn]

liveblogging todd scouts

ok ok ok so ive seen some donnie clips and ndskjcnsadlkjxmsadl he. im looking forward to this im sorry donatello

rocking back and forth like me during every spare second of the day and then some

donnie has been looking so sad

absolutely miserable

wait where did he go

THERE HE IS HE MADE HIMSELF A SHELL

i scratch myself in stressful situations too but that might just be my eczema (or i have eczema because i’m so uncomfortable so much of the time i need help my nose is itchy and everything is tickly and thus itchy all the time HOW DO I DEAL WITH THIS)

THE JUPITER JIM FAKE TV

also donnie skilled in home decor and artistry?

oi what the peanut butter chocolate fudge do they think they’re doing to this guy

he’s always so happy when he learns something asdjkfjkdfajfhdgdjklv

“Hey, look at us, we don’t even need our phones for this one super specific mission- but in general, and I cannot make this clear enough,

i relate to this, i need my phone because then I overthink about what would happen in an emergency or something but I’ve been working on leaving it behind when i go to the restroom and stuff while I’m at home

how do they deal with that goo on their faces though like seriously

I AM GOING TO LEARN ASL IF ITS THE LAST THING I DO

do you think donnie can talk to the sewer rats

dont mind this one just an art reference for the back of their heads bc masks

also i know this was a late reaction but DONNIE MADE SUCH A NICE TREEHOUSE what if he’s really adept in nature but just suffers without the technology he’s used to. idk maybe with all the time he spends online, he picked up some wilderness survival skills and soaked it up to know how to glue stuff together with tar made from tree sap or maybe i’m just projecting

i love him. also i will say this if i am in a situation that calls for it

yoink

also donnie seemed to conveniently forget

:|

leonardo has the superpower of turning everything gay and anime

whahahahaha?????

WhahaThheheckings?????

huh

also i guess Donnie’s adjusted a bit! I think having the tree shell on helped a lot. I think it’s nice - it does feel safer having something like that.

#aficionadonn #aficionadonn liveblog #long post #liveblog #rottmnt #rottmnt liveblog

[rzyraffek]

I LOVED THE AUSTRALIAN ONE YOU Made!! Btw! Could you do another Australian reader one where the reader for Christmas has a big family meet up with her dad side in the morning than her mums side at night, and the family is really welcoming and it’s filled with a bunch of people and they got gifts for him? :D

The slashers can be John the man, Billy loom is and Stu, and anyone else!

Headcanons if possible and she/her pronouns :D

NO I LOVE IT AAAAAA, Imagine John tearing up cuz He finally has loving family🥰🥰 I never wrote anything about Stu and billy but I will try!!Btw! Im writing chrismas special atm so prepare for more chrismas themed fics!!! She/her(sfw) Request open

Chrismas with slashers in Australia

Hush man (john)

Men almost cried when his gf's perents invited him over for chrismas. In long time he didnt expirence wholesome time with family

At morning when he goes to her dad side he is a little stresses, like yeah he knows her dad already but what if he fucks something up?? He is a little nervous

There was so many people too! Uhh how many uncles and aunties you got s/o??

Day went goog, until there was prezents time, ofc he bough smol gift for her and maybe her perents but He did not expect to get one too! He might accually cry tbh

Meeting her mom side was less stressful idk He gets along with ladies ig

He will wear chrismas sweater and s/o better wear one too!!! He bought matchng ones

Also idk, how chrismas looks in Australia?? Im too lazy to Google and too curious to not ask?? U guys have huge amount of snow or no snow?

Also s/o mom teaching him how to make (insert some chrismas-themed cake/meal) would be very wholesome

Billy Loomis

This boi is in amercia, I dare anyone to try to convice him to go in plane and fly (s/o did btw)

But he loves her sooo much and her family invites him over, he kinda cant say no

When he meets her dad side he will be a little stressed cuz yk IF THEY DONY GET ALONG HE HAS TO SIT THERE FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG AND HE HAS NO CLUE WHEN THE NEXT PLANE TO AMERICA IS. But everything went well🥰

He just tend to overthink a lot

Bro got suprised that they bough gift for him! :) happy billy=goog billy

If theres snow He will probably have snowball fight with her cousins (s/o pls join)

Stu Macher

He is chaotic bean

Due to him being open and extravertic her family will love him instantly! Just dont be too loud Stu

He will hold her hand when he gets nervous but its okay, her family is very wholesom

Accualy they get along very well, her dad already invited him over on next easter!

Stu got gift? :0 yay

He will make jokes about kangaroos tho, he is goofy ahh

He will wear chrismas wearter, hat and socks so s/o better wear something too to match his wonderful outfit

He will build a snowman

#slasher x reader #slasher headcanons #hush x reader #hush 2016 #hush headcanon #the man x reader #stu macher #stu matcher x reader #ghostface x reader #ghostface #billy loomis #billy loomis x reader

[7ndipity]

Hiiii! Happy new year love! 💞 I hope your shipping game isn't over. So let me introduce myself. 🫶🏻

Sun - taurus

Moon - Pisces

Rising - Sagittarius

I tend to be very introverted, however if I meet someone who's also very introverted, I kind of take the lead and become very extroverted, especially in situations where someone has to take action about a certain thing.

I like to think I'm open-minded, trying to understand everyone's perspective no matter what. I only respect and appreciate people who respect me too!

I overthink a lot and I get pretty self-conscious about myself. Im also very stubborn. I wouldn't say I'm very ambitious considering that I get demoralized easily and I need someone to support me especially emotionally. As much as I try to keep calm, I lose my temper very easily, but I'll quickly get over it if I get a few minutes to spend alone and really process the situation. I get overwhelmed a lot and I'm in constant stress. I have severe trust and abandonment issues.

English is not my first language and I'm a polyglot. I speak my mother language (I don't want to say what language it is), English, French, German, mandarin, Italian, basic Latin (I had to learn it in school 😔) and I'm currently learning Korean. My major at uni is history and I'm living in the balkans. (Maybe the last part wasn't necessary 💀)

I love history and foreign languages and cultures, I also love writing, drawing, fashion and reading!

Since I was 14, I do many fashion sketches.

My love languages (that I like to give to my s/o) is drawing them, physical affection and words of affirmation.

I also would love to receive praise and physical affection but if my s/o isn't okay with that then it's alright. I can live without it as I've been doing until now.

I like to read non-fiction, history, thriller and fiction literature and you can ask me anything about history and I will tell everything you like I'm some voice narrator on a documentary 😭

I watch mostly just documentaries and thriller dramas.

So as I've said at first, I'm introverted, but if I'm comfortable I quickly am very loud and social, however my social battery dies fast so I will at some point become suddenly silent. I also have adhd and anxiety. I used to suffer from depression since I was a little kid. I've got plenty trauma 😊 and I'm very scared of the dark and insects, like spiders for example.

I don't like dancing and singing, mainly because I'm bad at those 💀 and I also don't like painting.

Usually I'm the therapist friend and I never share anything about my personal life to my friends, I keep my problems to myself.

I love cats and skincare and I listen to music constantly ever since I was a baby.

I'm not very fond of petnames that couples use. However if someone calls me "love" or "darling" I will simply die

I can get quite possessive and jealous, but I don't usually show that to my partner or do anything about it at all. Mostly because I know it's a toxic trait so I keep it to myself as I don't want to potentially hurt or make my s/o feel bad.

I'm very loyal and loving. When people yell, don't let me speak or interrupt me while I'm speaking I get either very pissed or i simply just cry 🫠 I can get very triggered when someone yells at me

When I'm hurt, affected or upset about something that someone did to me, I will isolate myself and not tell them what's wrong until it's too late.

I dont like people telling me what to do.

I'm sorry if this was very chaotic written and not organized at all, I just wrote whatever came to my mind about myself (watch me forget to mention some important details about myself 🤦🏻‍♀️) but yeah, basically this is me. 🫶🏻

I would ship you with Yoongi and Hobi!

You and Yoongi have super similar personalities imo, so I feel like you would understand each other really well! Like even the way you described sounding like a docu narrator reminded me of how Army joke that Yoongi’s a walking encyclopedia on so many topics!😭(also Pisces are really great matches for earth signs like Taurus)

Yoongi and Hobi both have very supportive, reassuring energies, and tend to be the therapist friends as well, so I think they would be good at helping you open up and making you feel safe. I also feel like they would lowkey be a bit protective over you.🥺

I also kinda feel that you and Hobi would be a pretty good match! You have several similarities, and he also has this ability of bringing out the best in people and making them feel really comfortable, so I feel like he would be your ultimate hype man!😊

Hope this was okay💜

#ship game #7ndipity speaks #7ndipity 2k celebration

[hiscules]

Yesterday around 6PM, after we watched a contemporary ballet Romeo and Juliet in Ateneo, we decided to eat first before we visit Willie. And we wanted to buy some food that he likes before going there so we ate at Rustans.

About sometime ago, you told me that a relationship is a work. If you want to make it work, you need to put time and effort, love cannot maintain a relationship— it’s not sustainable in the long run. And along with these lines, you also said that one of the frustrations in a relationship is that you cant always expect your partner to behave the way you wanted them to behave. This one resonated in me. I always come back to this thought whenever something you did is not something that I like, since this also applies to me. And something for me to control my mood, a tool to rationalize.

One thing I was not ready when I entered a relationship is how every little thing that you do affects my mood. It makes me go crazy. I told you that my intrusive thoughts are loud. Maybe louder than most. And I overthink a lot. This one you knew, well not the extent of it.

You know that I always consider your time. I always have and will. Since comparing the both of us, I have a lot since I dont do much, while you, I think one lifetime is not enough. I know that I might be crazy, that I maybe making things out of proportion. But when we were done eating, you said that you also wanted to try the salmon. So you got up, and ordered. Or so I thought. What might have been done for like 10 minutes extended for about 35mins to 45mins. I was waiting for you. Like literally waiting since my phone was low battery and theres really no signal inside. My mind was already running with scenarios of what might have happened. And I cant leave our table. I was so bored and I was angry and concerned and at the same time I was already tired and sleepy.

It turns out, you were buying other stuff for Willie. This is aside from the stuff we already bought. I was angry but I’m trying to control myself. I was thinking that a little chat might have been appreciated. And I was thinking if how would I have done it if I were in your position.

You know, I will tell you immediately , and I’m the kind of person that will apologize for making you wait. That I’ll also tell you that the cashier made a mistake that’s why it’s taking so long. I will tell you all this real time just to let you know why you’re still waiting, because I know you value your time.

You were also stressed because it was taking so long, but you know it’s hard to sympathize if I’m already not in the mood. And I already kind of lashed out and stayed quiet which you also decided to do. So now we’re not talking, now I cant sleep. Now, I’m overthinking again. And I’m too tired to fight it. So, the thoughts just poured. And I’m lying here in bed, putting a distance between us, my mind full of thoughts.

[hystixia]

Sweetheart please don't think like that.

It's not gonna help if you keep denying your feelings. Thinking about suicide is DEFINITELY not the best thing.

I know the pain that your going through with your parents, and if you ever need a shoulder to cry on then you can talk to me (us, ur fans and mutuals).

It might be difficult, but you mustn't give up.

Keep applying for jobs and you will get one eventually. Maybe look for someone in need of a roommate? Or ask a friend to let you crash over for a few days to clear your head?

And maybe you should talk to a professional. Or create a burn book. Maybe go to a rage room and take out your anger? There are multiple possibilities doll, and suicide isn't one of them.

Stay strong!

I belive in you, you're doing great so far <3

All my love

- 🍯 Nonnie

this is what broke me like i just started crying and couldnt stop hhjskxkak okay okay im good im calm i promise

thank you for the kind words you’re the only one that said anything AKDKWOC and while i dont expect anyone (especially you guys) to react or check on me, it means a lot when someone goes out of their way to do it. so thank you for being so caring :,) unfortunately i dont know anyone (not anyone i could trust anyways) to crash with for a few days just to temporarily escape my problems and because of the tight leash my parents have on me BECAUSE im jobless and basically have to depend on them for everything, i’m unable to even find and keep a job because i dont have a car and they wouldn’t drive me (they literally told me “who’s going to drive you? we dont have time for it. stop being selfish.” LITERALLY said that to me and what did i do? i stayed quiet and took it and gave up.) i also couldnt just walk to work because every job thats hiring is roughly an hour drive away. which sucks. it’s just very inconvenient and i feel lost and helpless and it’s suffocating when i overthink like this because once i start it’s difficult to pull myself out of that hole. i literally have no one to turn to for help in any capacity, only myself and even i am getting tired of having to pick myself up and ignore things that no one else would put up with in my situation because its not okay to be treated like this but i know that if i defend myself and speak up for myself, i’ll also be fucking homeless because that’s the direction this is heading and im trying to stall and prevent it for as long as i can manage. basically im just stressed and i have nothing to do or turn to but suicidal thoughts unfortunately. it doesn’t help, it makes things worst and i gotta stop resorting to that mindset whenever things get to be too much for me. idk why i rambled/ranted sorry JDJFKSKLF

#! doll takes notes ! #! patient 🍯 nonnie ! #stay silly cadie stay silly #maybe if i drown myself with fics to write i’ll be too busy to be depressed methinks #idk im trying to make it lighthearted and a joke now that i’ve slowly recovered from crying over it all

[pashminalamb]

AAA!! YOUVE MADE IT, CONGRATS FOR THE 2K, Thank you for always feeding us with some high qualities blue lock content.

Please match me up with someone. I am actually quite reserved in the real life. I dont really have much energy to converse with other people. Because i got too tired by just overthink everything. I spent 5 min alone to recheck my message on chat, afraid that my message is too cold.

I'm a big fan of books. I have a secret room dedicated as my library. I also play chess a lot with my brother. When i got too stressed or sad i drank some bubble tea and it magically fix my mood. Cooking is also my favorite activity to de-stress.

I hope this information would be enough(?). Thank you so much once again. Make this sfw please

thank you for kind words !! Haven't reached 2k and yet and i'm not sure I will cause my base has shifted to ao3 now, but i support my interactions here and host character ask events here as well... but i appreciate it <3 It's awesome to meet a fellow chess enthusiast! - I match you with Niko Ikki!

Vibes I get from this relationship - mutual respect and growth. He is a strategist (always 2 steps ahead) and isn't arrogant. he overthinks but the healthy way, and his character is evolving. he's a good bf tbh- "Did i sound too cold over this text?" you muttered staring at your screen. You : 'Can't make it, Ikki. I'm busy working.' you watched as the text bubble appeared and disappeared, your anxiety causing to you to bite the tip of your nail. Ikki : 'Got it.' 'maybe the text was too aggressive.' you thought, tossing your phone aside. An hour had passed by, and you heard another ping from your phone. 'Notification from Ikki' Picture attached with that of a convenience store : 'Don't overthink about what you said, stupid. I know you're working. Dropping by your place soon. What flavor of soda and pocky?'

#belle.☏ #.lost sheep : anon

[schoolarsugardaddy]

✨logic behind law of assumption/manifestation✨

okay so, my blog is not totally abt manifestation/LOA/the universal powers or whatever/however u like to refer to it but to all the people who think this is non sense coz it doesn't have logic in it, i wanted to try and give u the scientific approach towards it that i find believable.

i'm a science student a person of logic naturally, so i too, looked for the logic and reason behind this.

i began my manifestation journey in 2019 end/2020 start. back then i used to refer to it as the 'power of the subconscious mind'. as i said, i'm a science student and the brain is truly a wonderful organ. it works in mysterious ways.

there are two parts of the brain acc to the kind of thinking (idk how to explain this term sjkjdjd u'll get it in a bit) one is the active thinking and one is the passive or the subconscious thinking.

active thinking, as the name says, involves the thoughts u have on your mind right at the moment, for eg. u're reading this, so analysing and comprehending it currently is what u're actively thinking about right now. it's the main thoughts that u have on any given moment.

passive or subconscious thinking involves thoughts that u know already, and have labelled in your head as a fact or a universal truth, or simply as smth that can't be changed. it also involves muscle memory. basically the things that are carved deep down into your memory, for example when u're singing your fav song, u don't actively have to think what words or lines come next bc its like, ur brain alr knows what comes next bc u have it memorised, or when u're typing u don't really have to search where the letter s or letter e is bc u're so used to it that u always hit the right ones when u're typing.

your subconscious mind is the mind of ultimate knowledge. ur subconscious mind already knows everyth it needs to, u just have to learn to tame it.

idk if this ever happened with u but like the singing a song ex i gave, sometimes when i'm singing a song w/o thinking much abt it, the lyrics come right out my mouth but sometimes when i actively think abt it i go "??????? what was next" and thas bc ur subconscious mind knows better than u ever will!!!

what i interpret, when u try to tame ur brain in a certain way, u urself start acting in a way that will help u achieve it. for example, if i constantly keep thinking abt wanting to score well in a specific exam, and i keep telling myself that i HAVE TO SCORE WELL then i automatically get trained to work towards the exam. ik this is a lot different from the theories y'all might've come across, stuff like u don't have to do anyth when u're manifesting... well technically here too, u don't really have to do anyth bc u wont be doing it actively, it will be a slow and gradual process and u'll eventually bring changes into ur life that will help u get good marks w/o realising it.

because w the subcon mind, u never realise its happening in real time. u only realise it when u look back in time and compare the times before u manifested smth and after u started manifesting.

i'm not saying that this is the ultimate theory, different things work for different ppl. however i feel this is a somewhat logical explanation of the LOA and manifesting powers. manifesting can sometimes take yrs and sometimes take just a few seconds, altho u dont have to worry abt it. whenever u see urself getting worried abt it just try to divert ur mind from the negative thoughts; learn to tame your mind to believe what u tell it.

as i said, ur brain is the MOST POWERFUL ORGAN. tryna understand what i'm saying here, but the brain doesn't have a brain of its own, it simply believes what u tell it. u meet a person named taehyung, ur brain believes and remembers that person as taehyung bc u told it so. so u just have to tell ur brain the things that u technically alr have, and live like it. don't overthink it or stress it too much, whenever u feel like u getting negative thoughts regarding it then divert ur mind to affirm again!! that will help u to avoid slipping into the pessimism. simply believe and create ur reality it's that simple.

u are ur own boss. u got this!!!<3

#manifestation #loa #manifest #affirmations #self concept #logic behind law of affirmation #law of assumption #manifesting #neville goddard #.text

[brattata]

AHH u dont know how happy i am to see an alphabet type of fic that isn’t exclusively nsfw, ty so much for doing something so nice!! may i request a matchup for jujutsu kaisen?

- i'm 18 & my pronouns are they/she, and i prefer men

- i space out a lot & tend to be quiet (not shy) but when i start talking i turn waay loud, i tend to dramatize small things but then have a stoic attitude towards big/unexpected stuff. i can be passive-aggressive a lot of times & show fondness by teasing/being a little shit. I plan a lot for the future and am internally organized.

- some positive attributes are: giving my undivided attention when listening (being quiet plays a huge role in this), my friends say i’m generous & go over the top when giving but definitely not with my food(unless i REALLY love u), i never lash out on anybody no matter the intensity of my emotions & distance myself before conversing, i’m pretty solid with keeping secrets & promises to others (not with myself tho-).

- negative attributes are: i overthink a lot & almost never share anything about it i can’t pry the energy out to explain most of the time, i’m generally very distant even when i’m in a good headspace and this often sends mixed signals, i’m very pessimistic, i have trouble opening up.

- i really love cooking & baking (biggest stress repellent), i often draw my recipes so it's easier for me to know what i’m making, i also read & write in my free time too!!

- i don’t have many dislikes but maybe not being listened to, and a dealbreaker would be if the person can get controlling bc i don’t like it when my plans/goals are disrupted.

- zodiac signs would be: gemini sun, aries moon, virgo rising, and gemini venus. and my love language is physical affection, quality time and absolutely spoiling with gifts!

- the letters i’ll pick would be: O, W, R

ty so much again!!

🦇 anon

You're very welcome, and thank you for joining the event! I've gotta admit, I do mostly write smut these days, but it's really nice to write some good old fluff sometimes too. ☺️

Anyway, I think you would pair really nicely with…

Inumaki Toge!

The quiet yet chaotic couple. 😽 You both choose your words carefully (in his case because he has no choice 😅) and are unexpectedly fond of being teasing little shits. You’re very attentive and he’s very experienced with non-verbal communication, so you’re able to understand each other even when other people can’t. He appreciates your organization and forward thinking, and finds your dramatic tendencies adorable. And even if he can’t easily say how much he cares about you, he’s a very reliable, loyal, and comforting boyfriend when you’re feeling especially pessimistic.

O is for On Cloud Nine

He’s not super outwardly expressive, so the changes brought by being in love are pretty subtle to someone who doesn’t know what to look for - especially since that high collar is pretty good for hiding a blush. It’s a good thing one of your love languages is physical touch, because that’s the easiest way for him to express himself - being near you as much as he can, resting a hand on your shoulder or waist, etc. Maki and Panda will obviously give him so much shit for hooking up with a senpai. 😂

R is for Romance

Since Toge can’t exactly spout poetry to you or even just simply tell you he loves you, he has to get creative with the romance. Maybe the next time you open your sketch pad to draw a new recipe, you’ll find a cute doodle he made of the two of you. Or maybe when you head back to your dorm room after a hard day of training, you’ll find a new book you’ve been wanting waiting for you on the night stand. He won’t ask, but he secretly thinks it would be very romantic for you to read aloud to him, since you also don’t share your voice with just anybody.

W is for Wild Card

You get your own safe word: “tenmusu (tempura shrimp)” which is roughly “I love you” or a general expression of affection/admiration for you. 😘

I hope you enjoyed the matchup! 🥰 Inumaki is so cute/badass. Cuteass? 🤔

#alphabet matchup event #jujutsu kaisen matchup #jjk matchup #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk x reader #inumaki toge x reader