#and being poetic when upset...is a trait that sorta runs in my family according to my dad who is the same way

[rainecloud020604]

When someone cant tell the difference between a venty poem and one about an oc *dabs* 

#shush raine |random nonsense and rambles| #this is actually 100% amusing to me djafaklsjfklsa like i vent through ocs and also ocs have lots of pain and its pretty funny #those poems are not about ocs for anyone who wants to know actually they are my personal thoughts into a poem and i am about to info dump #Star covered lies is now a favorite like self-reflective demise because they are short simple yet strike deep in a way #both my english teacher loves and the original copy of star covered lies is on her poetry wall and ;;;; yeah #star covered lies is actually based off of the line from ashes to dust or something like that cause i saw a friends play the other day #and his part one of the few anyways was him talking about that called tomb with a view from all i need to know i learned in kindergarten #which that part hit me hard and was my fave part of the play cause god d a m n #the poem is about self worth because i mean..ashes and dust arent worth much are they? then why are we that? #Word Beast is mostly about my selective mutism!! that and also my anxiety and how much it overtakes me and it can make me really distressed #and also my s//cidal thoughts that sometimes come with mental state and like how you need to overcome such cause like..its hard #words are heavy and can hurt or heal you choose what yours do and how you handle your thoughts and the word beast #white stained lace is another venty one about how i feel like a disappointment and how when im really upset i do end up really poetic #i compare myself to a dirt stain on a white dress cause thats how i feel my family views me and they do tend to avoid me in public #and being poetic when upset...is a trait that sorta runs in my family according to my dad who is the same way #that and I feel pretty weak and worthless when this hits me all at once #BUT oh my god all of you saying it reminds you of ocs honestly makes me pretty happy cause i want this to be viewed differently #through everyones eyes and it makes me really happy seeing that