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allylikethecat · 2 months

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Omg, also a TS fan since debut and I massively took a step back from her personally prior to the reputation era because of her antics and victim complex. The music will always mean so so much to me, her lyrics mean so much to me, but her actions as a person and TS™️ as an entity is just weird and greedy. I think she accrued a lot of fans when she disappeared for a while who've completely constructed a narrative in their heads of who she is and they believe it and are eating up this current era, but those who've been here a long time know how PR and image driven it is. Exhausting.

I apologize in advance I have been having way too many feelings about this whole situation and how it relates to my identity as a 28 year old woman and you are about to get an oversharing novel in response lol

Also, I guess CW: this post is about Taylor Swift and if anyone sends me any kind of hate or whatnot related to my own personal opinions and feelings I will be deleting it because I am NOT playing that game.

My Aunt bought me the Debut album CD at a concert after seeing her open for Rascal Flatts. She was like "I thought that you would like her!" and she was RIGHT Taylor Swift became my entire personality. One of my FAVORITE core memories as a child was the day Fearless came out. For some reason we didn't have school, and my Mom and I watched Taylor on the Ellen show, and then we went to Target and bought the physical CD, we then drove around town so we could listen to it together. My mom hasn't been well and that is one of my favorite memories of us together. It's silly but when you're in middle school that kind of thing is important to you. Then in high school I actually got MADE FUN OF for wearing Taylor merch and being excited about Red. BUT I loved her music and felt like she actually stood for something, so I brushed it off and continued to be a HUGE Swiftie. I had the Taylor Swift dolls, I had the perfumes, I had the LOVE LOVE LOVE bracelet, I had the sundresses from WALMART. I saw her on the Fearless and 1989 tours, I had the fucking 1989 haircut. I was supposed to go to Loverfest.

I was still a HUGE Swiftie during the post 1989-pre Reputation eras, then the Reputation era. I'm a few years younger than her, but I felt like I could relate to the kind of manic panic that she was sharing with us (lol turns out I was just unmedicated and we're doing much better now). It felt (in my probably naive mind) like she was experiencing the same insecurities that I was and reacting accordingly. Was she playing the victim at times? Oh 100% BUT I also fully believe that she thought she was one. (Plus... Kim is my least favorite Kardashian lol)

I LOVED the Lover era even as it was shit on at the for the sunshine rainbow hyper colorful aesthetic. Like, I don't know if new fans realize but when Lover was released? It was NOT as beloved as it is now. Then Folklore and Evermore were absolute genius, it felt like Taylor had grown up, and she got all of these new fans, which was great! She was in an "adult" relationship and her music and publicity choices seemed to reflect that. It was so refreshing to see a celebrity keeping their personal life, personal, and sharing what they wanted to share through music. Midnights broke all kinds of records, again, amazing! Even if it wasn't as strong as say Folklore. I fought for my life and got Eras Tour tickets (opening weekend!!) I had the BEST TIME EVER.

Taylor has always been extremely calculated with her public image. She was over exposed during The 1989 era and the public turned on her, so I truly cannot figure out why she is doing it again 100x in this new era of whatever the fuck this is. I don't know her, maybe she is legitimately happy, or maybe this is a cry for help. But I have been so grossed out by her behavior lately, and how in your face everything is with Kelce. It's no secret that I hate Kelce (and people that know me IRL know that it's not a new Taylor related thing lol) and if she actually loves him, fine, that's great for her, BUT we don't need to see it! Yes she was public when she was dating Calvin but ALSO she was what 25-26? She's a 34 year old woman now with the biggest platform of any celebrity ever. She feels too old (and this is not me age shaming her because I would be grossed out if my friends were doing it, and I would be embarrassed if *I* were to ever do it) to be licking a man's face in public like this. This feels like sorority girl in her first college relationship (I was *in* a sorority for a hot second so this isn't hate on sorority girls either!) and not record breaking Grammy award winning artist. ALSO I feel like she used to come across as so articulate and well spoken? Controversial opinion but I thought she sounded like a fucking idiot in that Time Person of the Year piece.

I think that this whole thing is PR for something, but because it just feels too icky to be real, but I don't know what it's PR for, (trying to bury the Matty situation from May? Because if so that just makes me even more sad for him or trying to get back at Joe? Which if that's the case, I feel bad for him too and she's even more immature than I thought) and now, for the first time, AFTER SIXTEEN YEARS I'm embarrassed to be a fan of her, both because of her own actions and also the actions of her fanbase as a whole.

It feels really weird, and I know I'm being parasocial about it, but when the times got bad I always had her music to fall back on and now I just, I don't know it feels cheapened somehow because the current image that's being crafted doesn't match the one that we originally fell for. And you know what, people change, she's a celebrity, I don't know her, what she does DOES NOT affect me any way, and how I feel does not AFFECT HER in the slightest, and I know it's being parasocial but I feel like a big part of me is in mourning about it. Less because of her changing her image so drastically, and more so because I feel like I'm mourning the loss of childhood and joy that used to be associated with her music for me and I think that's what's making me the most sad.

I have Eras tour tickets for one of the London dates this summer. I'm probably going to still go, because I paid for them, and I also have tickets to see Noah Kahan that same week in London (... and also the Longines tour has ALSO decided that the London stop is that week...) But I don't consider myself a "big fan" anymore. Maybe I will be one day again, but this current image that she's putting out just isn't it for me.

Sorry for the longest Taylor related novel in existence, I have had a lot of bottled up feelings about this that feel ridiculous typing out and sharing out loud BUT I know I will feel better sending them into the interwebs and your ask was the perfect catalyst.

Thank you so much for sending this in and for your continued support! I hope you continue to enjoy my fics and my secret sports hot takes 😂

❤️Ally

#allylikethecat #ask ally #anon ask #keep it kind #i am so sorry this got so long #i just started word vomiting and couldnt stop #then i started crying thinking about my mom #and yeah anyway i am 100% sober just dramatic lol #dont worry i will still be working on you know where the city is #Fictional!2014/2015 taylor has not made me sad lol #and i know it doesnt matter or actually impact me and its super parasocial and probably not healthy that im sad about all of this #BUT i love projecting my feelings and shit onto other things #and why deal with the ~other trauma~ in my life #when i could just... be bummed out about taylor swift turning into a trashy hoe instead of the poet we thought she was #BUT IN IMPORTANT AND EXCITING NEWS #the way i am so hype for this beyonce country album #im not even a beyonce stan #i dont even know if i would go as far as saying im a casual fan #but 16 carriages is so good #and im so excited to see what the rest of the album has in store #also please be nice to me im being vulnerable on the internet #because i am too stubborn to be vulnerable in real life #... there is a 75% chance i am going to panic delete this later but oh well here it is

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vogelmeister · 3 months

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10, 11, 31 for the concert asks!

oh my god u are lucky im on desktop so i can open the questions in a new tab. i also forgot i did this lol.

have you ever worn an elaborate costume to a show?

most elaborate ive done was probably my cheerleader costume i wore for 1989 in sydney, where there are defs photos of somewhere lol. i had a massive sign saying 'she danced to forget him" which was the secret message in shake it off's linear notes (ogs will remember lol) and the costume itself was my school sport socks (bc they were navy and yellow lol), a blue skirt and a white singlet with the TS transfer papered on.

i'm not even really going elaborate for eras, im just kinda wearing a vibes outfit based on lover.

have you ever sat front row for a show?

okay so this question is quite complex. because ive been to some very small and intimate niche gigs where front row isnt much of a flex (keiino in sydney springs to mind, fred touched my had which thinking about it... lol) so we can kinda discount that.

so in terms of actually impressive front rows!

in 2014 i was in the pit during katy perry's prism tour in sydney. due to circumstances i dont really want to discuss online due to it Not Being My Place and This Post Not Being the Right Place, my mum, aunt, sister, cousin and I got in to the pit. we got lanyards with "purple prismatic section" or something, its the reason i have prism on CD bc it came with the package. to put this in perspective, this is the stage and i was in the triangle:

in other news, the most impressive front row i have had was chef'special in haarlem. when i say the giant flag that comes out during amigo literally brushed on my head, i am not kidding. its more impressive than katy perry in the sense that katy perry i had a vip package that entitled me to the purple prismatic section, where as this was all GA. i think it was also the first time being that close meant something to me too, but i walked out of patronaat haarlem a changed woman.

high heels and all the stops or sensible shoes?

sensible especially if ur GA. I mighhhht wear heals to eras bc of my outfit, but i'll have a seat and will probs sit down during the slower eras like folklore and evermore. overall, concerts are a strain to the feet and i do not wanna make it worse.

questions!!

#thanks for asking!

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dodiefanwhoisalsogaylol · 3 years

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okay first thing -

here is my (obviously absolutely correct) ranking of taylor’s albums (with my favourite song from them as a bonus):

(lowest to highest)

- speak now: ik ppl are going to kill me for this but i hate to break it to you - fearless was better and the debut was the go to country album :) sorry not sorry and my favourite is sparks fly

- evermore: ok i love it sm but folklore is better (a) and (b) it doesn’t feel that much different- similar to speak now and fearless. anyways, the album is incredible either way, i really love the route she’s going down and my favourite song is evermore (marjorie is a close second)

- 1989: I LOVE HOW NOSTALGIC THIS ALBUM IS. really reminds me of being 9 again so i love it. it’s a lot different to her current stuff and honestly i don’t miss her pop side as much. nether the less its amazing and my favourite is clean :)

- Taylor swift (debut): IK ITS HIGH UP OKAY. but seriously - she wrote the songs on this from 13-16, and did you write a masterpiece like teardrops on my guitar at 15? no - didn’t think so. anyways, country is only good when it sounds like this and my favourite song has to be our song

- reputation: ok but it deserves more praise. this is a no skips album, and makes me feel ten times more confident. love how much more strong she sounds in this (proud of you Taylor) and my favourite has to be New Year’s Day :)

- Red: the most incredible, most summery and most happy album ever - without being condescending. just nice, childish vibes. also super nostalgic but the praise is really here for how young yet how talented she was. it’s amazing. favourite is treacherous.

- fearless: i have had this on cd since I was 7 - BECAUSE ITS A MASTERPIECE. fearless will be the song I listen to in a storm in my best dress. i love it too much. favourite is fearless (and has been my favourite ts song since I was 8)

- lover: THIS. IS. EVERYTHING. honestly - lover will be my first dance song - no debates. it’s incredible, it’s positive, it’s gay, it’s just so so comforting. I’d be lying if I said that I haven’t cried to this before. favourite is lover (paper rings is a close second)

- folklore: this is the thing I cry to, laugh to, sing along to like a maniac and dance to in my room at midnight. it’s an actual godsend. romantic, beautiful, tragic and intricate - it’s her best. it’s my favourite album of all time and I’d sell my soul just to make sure I have it forever. favourite songs (couldnt pick just one) are exile, invisible string and peace

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