#and also I have been working on this post for three hours

[lorelune]

(aventurine x reader /// continuation of this concept)

"explain to me," the good doctor demands, "why do you need my help?"

"because." you fumble around you're words. your lips feel cold. herta's space station, especially this deep in it's bowels, is an unpleasant place to have any conversation, let alone one that is also unpleasant. "i don't have time."

"and you assume i do?"

"partially?" you rub a hand over your cheek. "throw me a bone here, doctor."

ratio has been sizing you up for the better part of half an hour, scrutinizing your intent in any way he can. you have been skillfully attempting to dodge most of those attempts, but veritas ratio is as diligent a man as he is intelligent. which is to say that he is not letting up until you divulge the truth.

you sigh.

"you will explain to me," he says outright, gaze piercing. "how one of the intelligentsia guild's most esteemed researchers needs help with an algorithm that is far below both of our skill levels. it's insulting to both myself, and yourself."

you sigh again, deeper and harder, "i, once again, do not have time. i have the 'full time job' of handling aventurine's odds, and those calculations don't run like any other odds i've ever worked with, and he is a variable constantly in motion. i need help making this algorithm so i can have some assistance with my main job at hand."

the doctor scoffs, and walks a circle around you, "i'm sure he's just thrilled with the company."

"we— he manages."

more than. but, veritas doesn't need to know that. you're sure he'll figure it out eventually.

veritas tagged the briefcase on a nearby table. it's gleaming, with a discreet ipc logo embossed on the side. the sight of it makes you nauseous with anxiety.

"is this bribe from him?" he asks.

"no." you've stopped aventurine anytime he has tried to intervene and make things easier for you. he rarely listens, but your relationship with ratio and the guild make him somewhat neutral territory. "higher up."

"i assume diamond wouldn't bother to dirty her hands. so, jade?"

"yes."

dr. ratio, for the first time, seriously considers your offer. then scowls. "it would be a waste of my time."

you sigh. there was a 67.22% chance of this outcome. luckily, you have gamed out the conversation from here.

"so you can't?"

"you know i can."

then, you laugh, and shake your head. "yes, i do. sorry to tease. i'm quite tired."

"you should go find your gambler." veritas crosses his arms, looking sidelong at the briefcase.

"i will, eventually." you turn your back to veritas as you begin to leave the open atrium. the air is hollow and frigid. "i'll just ask some other intelligentsia guild members about the project first. i'm sure they'd be happy to help."

you only take a few steps before dr. ratio grabs your arm. his grip is far too strong.

(chance of failure to secure dr. veritas ratio's assistance: decreased by 31%.)

"don't bother them."

"someone needs to help." you turn back to look at him, expression schooled. "and if you won't, i'm very sure someone else will be happy to work beside 'one of the intelligentsia guild's most esteemed researchers'. or, does such a title not truly apply considering i've been ousted from my previous position?"

he frowns, but before he can speak, you interrupt him. you haven't seen veritas since being tied down to your current post. you haven't let him have it. he deserves it, maybe.

"i heard from jade that i received a glowing recommendation from another well-respected scholar. apparently, the position was being considered for either one of us. somehow, with that recommendation, i drew the short end of the stick and now play handler for a man with a death wish and a statistically measurable chaos quotient that's ever-changing in multiples of three."

veritas's face is unmoving. unchanging. but you know you've struck something. it was to be him or you in this position. and you don't have the pride he does. you place your hand over top of his, posed to speak, to tear him apart—

a shrill ringtone shatters the tension. it's yours. you already know who it is.

you flip your phone open with one hand, still staring at ratio.

"hello," aventurine's voice beckons from the other side, smug and smooth. "where is my favorite, most brilliant mind hiding out? we're due to leave soon."

"sadly, with another one of your favorite, brilliant minds. i'll be finished up shortly and meet you at the docks."

"aw, did he not get onboard? that's quite the choice for him to be making. do you want me to give him a talking to you?"

"no, it's fine. i'm working something out."

"you sound upset."

"i'm tired." you rub at your eyes and break away from veritas with a yawn.

"you can nap on the ship. we have quite the journey."

"that we do. i'll see you in a bit?"

"see you there." you can hear the smirk in his voice.

sending you down to veritas alone was aventurine's gamble. one that is working out, predictably. never mind the damage your reputation will take after these next moments. you close the phone with a sigh and begin toward the grand elevator.

"veritas," you call his name. "i forgive you, for what it's worth. try not to do it again."

"i couldn't."

you laugh and shake your head as you ascend. by the time you arrive at the docks, the ipc's premier vessel is packed away and priming its engines. lights and sirens echo from it. aventurine's idles outside, waiting for you. he beams when he sees you.

"so," he whistles, guiding you with a hand on your lower back. you let him. "was the good doctor as prickly as ever?”

"if not more so" you admit. aventurine gestures with a sweeping hand to your shared quarters for the time being. there's a single bed, but you're used to this. you've come not to mind it. "i think i bruised his ego."

with a genuine laugh, “i don’t think that's possible."

"want to bet on that?" you ask.

your phone's text tone chimes and you shoot aventurine a sharp smile.

aventurine's odds are ridiculous. ever changing, constantly moving. none of your perceptions and calculations that are usually steadfast and unmoving can keep up with him. not with efficiency, anyways. it's exhausting work. however, the likelihoods of everything but aventurine? the predictions of a man like ratio?

easy. simple. you could do them in your sleep.

aventurine squishes against your side as you open your newest message.

[SENDER: Doctor Ratio <intelligentsia guild>]

> here is a first draft. forgo payment. i do not need to be in the stonehearts’ pocket.

[file attached: STONE ALGORITHM DRAFT 1.0.spqxxxiun.pqo]

aventurine laughs, muffling it against the side of your neck. his teeth are sharp and his breath is warm. it settles something in you. you lean into him and deflate, sliding down into your lap so your head is pillows there. a gloved hand cards through your hair.

"you're quite good at the game, when you choose to play." aventurine reminds you. he tells you this often.

"i know." you turn your face into his hand as the ship rumbles. "but it's your job."

aventurine pauses his pets, then thumbs over your lips. he looks sour, only for a moment, before resuming his motions, a bit rougher this time. you relish the feel of it, sinking into it.

"one of us has to, right?"

"right."

"and the other," he taps your lips. your sputter, indignant. "plays support."

"one of us has to." you remind him.

it's silent between the two of you as the ship whirs and bellows, taking off from herta's space station without reverie. onto your next destination, wherever aventurine is deigned to be needed, with you by his side, dutifully.

you press your face into his stomach, letting the smell of linen and his cologne envelope you.

neither of you have a choice to play this game. the cards are stacked, and you best not loose count from aventurine's side. you'll be damned if you do.

(there is a 98.769% chance that you are damned regardless.)

at least, at least, you have each other, you think as aventurine bundles you up closer, and you wrap yourself around him. you'll take that, for as long as it lasts.

#lore writes #drabbles #aventurine x reader #repost bc it deserves its own post hehe #this concept has been on the brain #the plot worms #i need deeply codependent reader/aventurine love love LOVE

[hopelesslyromanticshark]

covey’s 1k follower event 𝜗𝜚 ‧₊˚ ⊹

oh. my. god. are you shitting me??? bffr. like, seriously guys. this is INSANE LIKE WHAT. THE. FUCK. anyways, i’ll stop screaming- jk, thANK YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH. i am the most grateful person on the planet right now, you guys are so so good to me and i couldn’t be happier i started posting on here!! honest!! this wasn’t even a dream of mine- honestly?? i thought id get lost and forgotten in the tags, destined to never be found. and even THAT i would have been grateful for. so…yeah, thank you!! this feels me with a joy that can’t even be measured 🥹🫶

AIR MAIL—

playlist for fic, blurb, or hc of your choice!! (mind you, these are probs gonna be like 3 or 5 songs, nothing too crazy!!)

PACKING PEANUTS —

tweets that give off the same vibe as you or i think you would find funny!!

POSTAGE —

moodboards! either for a work of mine or any character from pjo + hoo!!

SHIP ME A SURFBOARD —

memes to make yall laugh. thats it bc im a silly girl

BUBBLE WRAP —

i pick a marine animal plushie that reminds me of you or i feel matches your vibe!!

POST OFFICE AFTER HOURS —

poetry for the soul!! poems that i feel you (or the world) needs to hear!!

NEWSPAPERS—

more little tiny blurbs!! this time around, let's get a little crazy with the characters!! i wanna write some platonic stuff if you guys are down to ask for it!! but also the romantic stuff too!!

MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE —

(moots only! sorry!) basically, i give yall a letter telling you what i think about you and things that you remind me of and whatever else i have to yap about!!

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up to three separate requests in one day, as to not completely flood my inbox !!

make it clear that the ask is for the event and not a request, please and thank you !!

event will be over on may 10th

normal requests will open april 29th (UNLESS OTHERWISE STATED)

some kindness and patience is always appreciated !!

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[halfelven]

love random not even logged in readers just dropping their 'constructive criticism' on your 100k+ story that you're putting online entirely for free. this is just a rant btw

"You obviously have a great talent and I think you should work on honing it some. As much as I’ve enjoyed the story, there are a few things that stand out that you might consider looking at. I feel like the story isn’t sure what it wants to be at times; is it character driven or plot driven? It doesn’t flow smoothly because sometimes we have these wonderful character vignettes, like Illumi and Kalluto on a road trip or Kite/Leorio/Gon/Killua in an apartment where plot doesn’t really feel important, followed by what feels like heavily plot driven beats, like Kalluto and the spiders. In addition, it contributes to confusion because sometimes we see established characterization turned on its head. Especially the weird way everyone all of a sudden just sort of was OK with Kalluto being a spider and then working with Illumi when they just went to all that trouble to escape him? It all kind of feels forced and not natural. You know?

Anyway, I’ll definitely keep reading and look forward to seeing what happens."

first: love you trying to sound legitimate with your "in addition" like this is some kind of writer's workshop. second: in what way would I, the writer, think that an incomplete part of my story in which the reader does not yet know most of the main motivations (they are only hinted at so far) feels forced and not natural when I know what's happening, where it is going (and where I haven't had other readers comment with confusion about that part)

and moving on. don't do this. also like i said this is a wip in and no, no one is cool with Kalluto being a spider and no they're not cool working with Illumi, really. it was already established that some of them /have/ been working with Illumi before this~ he's someone that they know. like have you never been in a seriously dangerous situation that you just have to get through before you get back to what you want?*** also at this point Chrollo's real motive hasn't been entirely revealed.

Killua keeps changing his mind about what he's doing because he's a scared kid whose self-hatred is destroying him from the inside out. the POV is so tight that I have to keep dropping reminders that what is stated in the narrative is often not true! Illumi's POV, for example, keeps showing Killua as really loving him and being happy he's around but struggling with a desire for freedom, while with Killua's POV he's terrified of Illumi most of the time. like how is that not obviously a distorted POV where you can't trust the narrator?

"where plot doesn’t really feel important, followed by what feels like heavily plot driven beats"

this part is especially irritating because it's like yeah that's how I want to write it? this isn't a published novel. I don't have to commit to making sure every scene is important to the plot. I can spend time writing a full scene about someone drinking a glass of water and then 13 chapters in a row that are for moving the plot forward. I didn't even tag it as a novel... I did tag it for unreliable narration and I keep getting annoyed that people keep ignoring that.

"I feel like the story isn’t sure what it wants to be at times; is it character driven or plot driven?"

it's both??? it's neither??? it's a fanfic??? why do I keep getting comments lately where people are expecting me to adhere to like fucking publishing standards. this keeps up and I will write a chapter which is entirely about a minor character drinking a glass of water. watch me. I'll write one about phinks drinking a glass of water and you'll like it*

"Overall, the story is good and presented a compelling alternative to CA. Look, each fan has their own opinion on CA and I know I didn’t like it. I think it was a product of what Togashi was going through as he began to experience health issues and then finding himself right back where he said he wasn’t going to be mentally after he ended his earlier manga. We can never know for sure, but it certainly had a “watch it all burn vibe” to it near the end. I honestly believe he wanted it to end with the finality of Gon’s suicide as a capstone statement, but was probably convinced to go a different route, which kinda of left a jarring feel in the narrative and culminated in a rather unsatisfying end to Gon and Killua’s journey. Despite that, I am very reluctant to read fics where the events of CA are erased or grossly modified and honestly yours is really the first long AU/alternate timeline I’ve enjoyed"

okay first of all, I love the CA arc. but I had to split a point off where Kite was going to survive. why do you have to leave this whole paragraph about how you think Togashi was or wasn't going to go with the CA on my fanfic? I didn't even write this as 'oh look at my alternative to CA bc I hated CA' I don't really look forward to hearing comments about how random people didn't like so and so aspect of the story that I'm basing my story off of. I've never written fanfic for a story that I didn't like (except for some things that I don't have published I wrote at a request for friends for a fandom they were into that I wasn't really) and yeah I've wanted to 'fix' aspects (like tolkien's treatment of women for example) but I am not looking for your 'this is what I hated about the source material' comments on my stories

tired of getting comments with little 'oh I didn't like your style at first but now I do' or 'here's how to fix your story!' unsolicited advice from people who aren't better writers than me (I don't even want it from people who would be better writers than me on stuff I'm just doing for fun and for free)

when did stuff like this become normal? at least don't be a coward and be not logged in so you can't even get a response notification. like girl they aren't cool with it! why do you think everyone is on guard standing around like they're in a fucking hostage situation? how do you see such wildly different interpretations from different character's POVs and think it's not intentional? what part about Kite watching Killua like a fucking hawk makes you think he's going to let Illumi take him after this?

like if you've never had to smile and pretend to be cool with your abuser (pretend to love them) or someone who was threatening you to keep someone else safe then good for you! it fucking sucks! also don't know how to explain to you what a child who is growing up in an extremely isolated abusive situation goes through (though I keep writing about it in this story you should catch on...) but it's a million back and forths with emotion and feelings--especially if their abuser does (to in some way or to some degree) love them. and it is often blaming themselves. I'm not letting my years of studying human psychology and child development go to waste here**

is this story perfect? no but I'm not gonna hire an editor for a fanfic. and everyone's interpretations of characters will be different. especially with child characters who are going through huge changes in the world around them and their personal lives. part of the appeal of fanfiction is 'who would they become if this happened instead?' *sorry I keep writing about starving and not having clean drinking water but I will never stop because that's what I grew up with and it's hell. also phinks drinking water would be compelling since I assume he'd have harder access to clean drinking water

**hunter x hunter is also one of the only stories I have encountered with characters who have backgrounds as fucked up as mine and Togashi's interest in human psychology really stands out.

***like good for you but that was most of my life and you sometimes just have to shut up and get through it. and no I will not put my notes in the right order bc I'm not being paid enough****

****I'm being paid nothing

#sorry i got one too many comments that irritated me #feel free to chime in if you're getting comments like this too #it's been really getting on my nerves lately #and making me not want to post anything #you're not my teacher or editor #and i don't use a beta reader bc i'd never post anything #if i had to think of it as work and not just for me #i already do writing for work where i have to really consider the reader #i also didn't like one commenter pointing out typos #i'll catch them at some point #they were like great chapter! here's all the mistakes i saw #so download the story and fix them yourself if they bother you so much you have to run through and do line edits #if you don't want typos i'd have to wait two to three months so the story looked fresh #to catch them before posting and i'm not doing that #you can think this sounds bitchy but writing is hours and hours of work #i could jot down five sentences just for myself and have a story for years just remembering what i was thinking when i wrote those #you want a perfectly edited story? then go read a professionally published book #oh i guess that's not good enough for you either #okay now i am being bitchy but in my defense #i'm not forcing them to read it

[reclusiveopossum]

Glowy, spooked spooder.

slightly obsessed with him rn

But this was fun and I’m happy with how the lighting came out. Also just so everyone is aware, the addition effect in procreate is my bestest friend ever and yes.

#I just wanna pet his fluffs #and his fuzzy stripy armses x3< #my child is the bestest boi and he deserves chin scritches and I love him #also been working on outlining his story so maybe someday you guys will have some context to go with him and Phoebs #apparently in an active mood today #three posts #though idk if the first one counts #but I have things to say and fuzzies to throw at you #so #gt #giant tiny #spider #spooder #Sasha Art #nonvore #giant #golden hour #OC Art #painting #lined painting #also why’re sweaters so fun do draw- #tnd #tnd art #tndArt #SashaArt #my art #iris rambles

[sneez]

fairfax in 70s clothes because i think seventeenth-century men would love flares and incredibly loud shirts and questionable woollen tank tops. i don't have a better explanation than that i am afraid

#artwork #fairfax #puritan swag. the parliamentarian drip #i'm still mid-exams (which is why i havent answered my asks yet i am so sorry dear friends) so this has been my stress relief activity #it has been very effective! would highly recommend drawing historical figures in flares :-D #and belted jumpers for some ungodly reason. i looked at many 'top ten worst 70s outfits' articles in the process of drawing these #i must confess though i would wear 100% of these outfits. especially the first two he is making it work so much #to be honest i dont know if fairfax would actually wear any of these in reality but the whole cavalier/roundhead fashion divide is mostly #fake anyway (they pretty much wore the same clothes for the most part) so i like to think he would. he was a swanky guy #ALSO theres that one extant buff coat he owned which i have posted many times before which had pink silk sleeves so i am choosing to #believe that he would wear all of these. thats my opinion as a historian #anyway! i hope you are all doing well my dear friends :-D i miss you all very much #i am so close to being Fwee now..........i only have two more exams and my final one is on the last day of term so i am Almost There #i am absolutely exhausted though. i have five five-hour exams writing three essays for each and they are about as agonising as they sound #but this time next week i will be done!!! and then i will have time to draw more 70s fairfaxes (my purpose in life) #until then though i will continue crawling across the ground making horrible moaning noises until my final two exams are out of the way #eeueuuu. eueuuuuuuhh. eeeeuuuu. like that

[mem-fr]

Was just wondering how long you have been doing pixel art for? Oh and what art program do you use for your pinfeather pixels? ^-^

i'm not really sure ! i've never really focused on pixel art , i've just kind of meandered in it now and then since like 15 years ago when i would spend my computer class drawing in MS paint with a mouse haha .

i've also never gone out of my way to make 'real' pixel art . i know that there are standards in regards to the amount of colors , using layers / layer effects , etc. that some pixel artists and communities considered defining elements to whether something is actually pixel art . the limitations are considered part of the craft which is very cool ! but i don't have any of that stuff in mind , or refrain from using anything that gets the look i want or makes my work easier , so i don't try to call myself a pixel artist or the pinfeather pixels 'real' pixel art , i just sort of go for the aesthetic i suppose lol .

so , i use SAI 2 and photoshop ( CC 2018 ) for the pinfeather pixels , same as most of my art ! SAI's binary brush has a very smooth tapering effect with pen pressure that makes creating Good Shapes™ easier . i do a lot of the actual drawing in SAI .

photoshop has the custom brushes i use for broader dithering + layer management and adjustment tools that create a smooth workflow . these templates take a whole lot of work , time , and testing to create , with the trade off that i am making them as easy and efficient to use once i am actually taking orders .

#managing forum shops / orders is VERY stressful to me #like REALLY stressful . we're talking 'i have OCD and will re-read any post where i am pinging people for over an hour to make sure i'm not #doing something wrong and have considered paying people to do that part for me' levels sjfkdl #so if i left the hardest work on the adopts for myself /on top/ of doing that #i'd never want to do more than like two or three dragons at a time lol #so personally that's why i do ALL the pinfeather genes/bases upfront rather than a sponsor system #i can be finicky and get stuck on difficult genes and what not without also feeling the pressure #of someone having already paid and waiting for it #the only stress factor to it is basically how much of my free time i'm willing to dedicate up front to getting these bases done #without total guarantee that it will pay off . but i'm very grateful that pinfeather pixels have always been well received #pinfeather pixels

[you-are-my-neverland]

ok. nano in one week and i have two (2) options:

drafting the post-chosen one wip. obviously this is the choice is should do with it as it is already started, i just kind of dropped off the last couple weeks. unfortunately, i have one glaring problem, which is that the most recent chapter went off the rails and i also reached the stopping point in my plot and now idk how to move forward. i know what's theoretically going to happen later on, but i need to seriously sit down and outline to smoothly draft. will i actually do that in a week? who knows.

start my pirate wip. the option i want because it's my current obsession, but i'm also very much in the creation stages and fleshing out worldbuilding details. so it's all bare bones, and i know starting it might be fun, but i don't have a firm enough grasp on the story itself yet unless i plan like crazy over this week. again, do i have time to do that? who knows.

#.txt #nano 2023 #don't think i did nano last year?? i literally cannnnnot remember #but it would be so fun to do it again even though it is so hard with 25 hour work weeks and 15 credit semesters. #also i have two papers to write throughout the month at least... #BUT!!! i need to focus on writing so i might make a smaller goal of say 15k #500/day or something #the problem with my post-chosen one wip is that there is just so many plot threads and i need to visually plot it out #like there's the whole doomsday prophecy and then the rot returning #but also alice chasing the magician and her & kel and then alora all alone and then belen waking up & rani #and also the political layer of the white wraiths vs the govt which i need to flesh out #also alice is supposed to break some guy out of prison. that's a thing that's going to happen #then on the other hand the pirate story is sooo fun! even though i've only had it for like two weeks #i love to create worlds...actually drew a little map shockingly #and the characters are already half formed in my head i just keep adding more #but it'll probably be option one since i have been working on that story in various ways for at least three months

[cha1cedony]

Haven’t interacted with people outside of my office or family or music ensembles for like a month. Think I am going to go bonkers

#I need to talk in my Discord server it’s been MONTHS #but I don’t really share interests with them #online I mostly just talk to two or three of my closest IRLs T_T #I want to make Tumblr friends but I am SO intimidated #chalcy stuff #idk why I’m posting this here #just sitting in the parking lot procrastinating on walking into the office… another 7 hour day :’) #I would also LIKE to have new hobbies but I simply do not have time #<- taking 6 uni classes AND working 25 hours/week in an inherently busy/stress-inducing field #so rn my hobbies are just.. college choir community choir vocal lessons aaaand fanfic #none of which are really friend-making environments #since you don’t exactly get to TALK during choir #and community choir is full of people 40 years my senior :( #at least I have one friend from college in there and we go to the bathroom together during our 10 minute break lololol

[night-dragon937]

gods listening to music of artists that i've gone and seen in concert/at raves and just like. reliving the euphoria of the moment when i was there at the live performance like. obviously sitting at my desk with my headphones is not the same as being at a rave or concert but i can kind of capture some of the memory and those good feels are just smth else

#blog post #tw ahead im gonna go on about some dark shit #kind of? idk #like so when i was younger and struggling #by which i mean when i was suicidal from ages 9-18 #one thing i tried when i was 15-18 was making a bucket list and essentially it was stuff i wanted to do before i died because saying #'im at least gonna live to do these things' was SO much easier than saying 'im gonna live the rest of my life' back then #and on that list was going to several concerts (all of which i've done now!!) and like tbh i had my doubts like is a concert good enough #to keep living for (yes) and like what happens after i see these bands in concert (i wait for them to tour again and see them again duh) #(and also see other bands) #and i wish i could go back in time to past us and be like. u were so right. seeing these groups/artists in concert (and the ones i like now #and hadn't heard of back then) is SOO worth it #im so glad i have been alive to go to all the concerts and the rave that i went to in the past year and a half it was so so good #and im so fuckin excited to go to more #there's at least two concerts im planning on going to this spring plus a rave im considering going to (its a three hour drive one way so #idk yet) plus our top favorite band for years is hinting at releasing new music which means a tour!! #im just gettin the feels because im remembering good memories and so fuckin excited to make more good memories #im so glad im alive and honestly that brings tears to my eyes that i can say that totally honestly now #like. i have a cat! i am reconnecting with family i didnt use to be close with! im working on cutting off toxic family! im working on #health issues which is very good. im out as queer and im so happy and proud of that. i have several hyperfixations i love consuming and #cosplaying. cosplaying!! i have so much fun making tiktoks and going to cons and putting everything together its so great!! im starting to #work on my big huge writing project with my coauthors for the first time in years and im soooo excited to revive that old hyperfixation and #share it!! i have an awesome partner who i care very much about and while i recently cut off some toxic friends i have plenty actual #friends that im so glad to have!! #im currently at a job that pays well and that i enjoy which is a win for me and i might possibly be in a position to go back to college #soon which means going into my preferred field which im SO stoked for!! and im actually really excited to go back to college. when we were #in person i had such a great experience and i cant wait to go back #ough

[krispycreamsicle]

oh god

#you know. they say law school is hard but oh my fucking god. oh my fucking god. #what have i gotten myself into jhgfdfghj it's just. so much reading. and it's not 'so much' as in a lot of pages #it's less than i had to do in undergrad. but it's so dense. it took me three hours to read and take notes on 20 pages #and that got me like? a quarter?? of the way done with my work. for one class :) #help kjhgfdfgh if any lawyers following me want to offer me a job now so i can just coast through school that'd be sick #krispy's personal tag #i've been told it gets easier. or really that you just get better at it. it's just gonna be interesting until i get to that point #also i'm gonna make a law school tag. these'll still be tagged with my personal tag but if you don't want to see law school posts block -> #krispy's law school tag

[crossbackpoke-check]

a doc of omega yamo being a nuisance, you say?

well…

#the doc sure does exist 🤷 #me waiting to post this until i had compiled all the tags into the doc so it wasn’t just the empty doc i started with good intentions #that just said ‘yowling’ #and then me not even doing that 😭 what’s in the doc right now? absolutely unhinged shit from ANOTHER yamo post. why #liv in the replies #anon i love you so much. this is the correct method to get me to do things (be interested) (bully me a little) (i have to write FOR someone) #maybe if i actually write something for omega yamo being a nuisance i will post snippets #and not have to create elaborate rules about posting them. also i keep telling myself it helps to be like. home & functioning to write #& maybe if i chilled the fuck out a little bit i would have the time to do fun things i like but i feel like i have been saying #‘ok once i get through this [semester/summer/working/class/season]’ for like. three years now but also i don’t feel like i have stopped ever #in my life so that may also be part of the issue. anyway! in the mindset now that i have to make time for things that bring me joy/creative #because otherwise there will never be time #but also telling myself that like. i work seven days a week 8.5-9 hours a day plus commute/classwork so it’s ok to only be able to come home #& do Adult Tasks & write my coursework requirements & ALSO i’m doing my fucking applications which i really really need to do & should take #priority & i am going to need to work very hard to do because. i don’t want to do them :) #so!!!! this is your daily tag dump on a post which it is not relevant to (on brand for me) #but also the point was to say thank you i love you please have 0 expectations because i don’t want to disappoint you #but i love your encouragement and am not taking it to be any pressure!! i just have to preface bc i am like this

[sluttyten]

if it was just up to me I’d be on my way home by now, but I’m staying with my best friend at her boyfriend’s house, and she told me last night that she wants to sleep in and go to a local mall this morning (which doesn’t even open until 11), and then we have to stop in another city because I promised an old coworker I was close with that we’ll stop and see her since we’re going that way anyway, but now I’m like probably not getting home until late afternoon, but if I left now, or like an hour and a half ago when I woke up, I’d be home by a little bit after noon, actually earlier than that because there’s a time change somewhere in there

#I tried telling her the other day when she first mentioned the mall that I don’t really want to go #but she really wants to #and it’s kinda annoying because it’s a little bit out of our way? #like it’s the same general direction that we’re going in but not really #and also she’s gonna be up here again in like two or three weeks? she can just go then #it’s not like she needs to go she just wants to see this one store that our mall at home doesn’t have anymore #and I just want to go home 😭😭 I barely wanna stop and see my friend in the other city now #but I also really do because I want to see where she works and that’s where we’re meeting her #but also if I get home at a decent enough time I might be going out of town again tonight lol because there’s somewhere my mom wants to see #that’s like a two hour drive away from home #like damn let me just spend the entirety of my four day weekend traveling #(I’m fine with it mostly) I just hate that right now I’ve been awake for an hour and a half just waiting #at least I’ve been writing #working on yesterday’s kinktober prompt #I think I’m nearly done and then I’ll start on the one that’s supposed to be for today #I don’t even know how I’m gonna post these now that I’m a few days behind #bc if I post them all at once then I feel like they’re just not gonna get notes #but we’ll see #I’ll probably post at least the day 14 and 15 tomorrow #hopefully 16 and 17 too but since those two still need to be written and I have to work tomorrow idk what’s gonna happen

[candyradium]

GODDDDD i fucking. HATE drawing rope. its my new nemesis. the bane of my fucking existence. im a sailor but after this i never want to see rope again and im not even FINISHEDDDD

#candy posts #candy's adventures in art college #THIS IS HELL. THIS IS HELL #ive done like. maybe a quarter. and ive been at this for like three fucking hours #its taken so long bc i had to work out the construction of the rope before i could draw it. bc my ref photo is dogshit quality #and also bc i was deliberating anxiously for ages over what rope kind to draw #bc the photo is so bad that im having to draw from brain instead of from reference. which had the potential to fuck up the entire thing #thankfully it looks extremely good!!! i am very proud!!! however i would rather chew glass than continue. but im SO FUCKING CLOSE

[blackpearlblast]

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[kitchenelf]

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#hi hello i never make personal posts but i am So Frustrated today so here we are #i FUCKING hate ahdh #i hate it with the bottom of my heart #i have been sitting staring at my laptop for a full goddamn hour trying to write an essay that is already THREE DAYS LATE and i just #can't fucking do it #(also i have an extension i was legit extremely ill this week shoutout to flu) #I'M EVEN ON ADDERALL AND IT'S SUPPOSED TO HELP FOR THIS FUCKING SHIT #my mom likes to think that i'm too 'put together' to have adhd and sometimes i believe it and then days like this happen #i just want to be able to do my coursework and not bring myself to the point of tears bc i'm so stressed and can't function daily #i literally had to step into the bathroom of this coffee shop to calm down bc i was actively tearing up #i'm just so angry and i want a brain that works

[arolesbianism]

Whenever I watch someone play oni I always get so caught off guard when they cut and it's like 100 cycles later but then I remembered that most ppl actually use the fast forward buttons and I'm the weirdo who sits there at normal speed just watching large scale constructions slowly inch forwards while also pausing every other minute to plan out the next 3 projects I wanna work on next

#rat rambles #oni posting #I spent like half an hour just watching my chefs cook to make sure my new kitchen was working well #I almost have my infinite food storage finished I just need to get the area cool enough to deep freeze the food #I also sent over most of the berry sludge from my second colony since I got my second rocket built #food is very much not a problem but I am addmittedly a bit worried abt oxygen #currently its nowhere near a problem but I have been using algae still and while I have a lot I rly should start setting up long term #oxygen producers in electrolisers that arent just sitting out in the open spittibg hydrogen everywhere #but also its annoyinggggg #I have more than enough resources to make a large scale spom but Im not nearly in enough need of one to want to put in the effort #I am so good on oxygen and power rn and will be for a good while #I might just make a similar set up but just shoot the hydrogen into space and eat the power drain #I have three natural gass vents + two more on my second colony + a plug slug farm so Im like so good on power #and I havent even tapped into my oil wells yet (because theyre buried in frozen oil because rime but yknow) #rly tho the worst part abt my current playthrough is that Im starting to realize there might not be ANY slicksters in this save #the only planet with an oil biome Ive seen so far is my home colony which is yknow. rime. #and Ive uncovered a Lot of the map its basically just the far edges I dont have #so Im starting to have my doubts that I will be able to tame every critter in this save #I did find the gassy moo planet tho and I plan on getting some basic life support set up there soon #I might end up changing my mind if there genuinely arent any slickters tho cause if I cant get them all then why bother with the bad ones #ok I used to think that plug slugs werent worth the effort too and Ive been loving them so who knows maybe gassy moos will win my heart #but they do seem like a pretty rediculous amount of work for rly mediorce benifits so I doubt it #I mean hey. I got a shove vole farm set up so I dont think I can start whining now #I should probably set up more shipping and automation stuff in my ranches but tbh Im willing to just eat the dupe labor #I have like 5 ranchers and several shipping ppl most whom have nothing better to do #most of my current projects are all focused on space travel and some minor base reworks so I dont feel like its needed rn #especially since I have so much fucking food all of which is being run completely sustainably #well ok the peppernuts arent Yet but Im only domestic growing like 3 of them so Im ok for a bit #the other colony has been wild farming them for ages and have had more than enough to cook massive amounts of high quality meals #I actually set up a proper kitchen in that colony first due to how much food variety there was along with grub fruits