#and alhamdulilah no for me

[peachiyyy]

If I buy my friends something or pay for the meal, I wouldn’t expect them to pay me back for it because I do it out of love. Also, if I have the means to do it, why would I expect anything back from them. I’m not even well into my career yet and am not rich but my way of loving is to treat the ones I love and care about whenever I can. So it’s really bizarre to me that people pocket watch their friends like crazy.

#personal #im blessed to have really good friends Alhamdulilah #ik not all friends are the same but the constant social media discourse about this is so crazy to me

[forbiddnsky]

after i put my complete faith in God's teachings I realize how I'm naturally disgusted by whats haram. someone random man approached me today and bothered me while i HAD HEADPHONES ON and he kept tapping my shoulder trying to hit on me it was so disturbing, he reached his hand out and I said "I don't shake Men's hands, I'm Muslim" and he just stood there awkwardly for a second and walked away. like ACCESS DENIED 🚫🚫🙅🏽‍♀️👎👎⛔⛔⛔😒 i actually felt grossed out at the thought of a man touching me who's not my husband lmfao like that truly is NOT for me at all. i dont want to give just anyone access to me, especially physical contact. ill passss

#sky rambles #to each their own! #just NOT for me! #alhamdulilah #im still learning 🤍

[mrsq8geek]

Ramadan Challenge 2024, Day 4

Day 4: Ramadan is the month of the qur'an. What is an ayah from the Qur'an that has changed your view of things or impacted you deeply (this year)?

وَمَن يَتَّقِ ٱللَّهَ يَجْعَل لَّهُۥ مَخْرَجًۭا (٢) And whoever is mindful of Allah, He will make a way out for them, وَيَرْزُقْهُ مِنْ حَيْثُ لَا يَحْتَسِبُ ۚ وَمَن يَتَوَكَّلْ عَلَى ٱللَّهِ فَهُوَ حَسْبُهُۥٓ ۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ بَـٰلِغُ أَمْرِهِۦ ۚ قَدْ جَعَلَ ٱللَّهُ لِكُلِّ شَىْءٍۢ قَدْرًۭا (٣) and provide for them from sources they could never imagine. And whoever puts their trust in Allah, then He ˹alone˺ is sufficient for them. Certainly Allah achieves His Will. Allah has already set a destiny for everything.

— Dr. Mustafa Khattab, The Clear Quran Surah Al-Talaq aya 2-3

This isn't from this year, it's actually from April 2013.  I was going through such a hard time and completely losing hope in everything.  It was one of the few times in my life I actually felt ungrateful to god because I couldn't see the point of everything I was going through.  I felt embarrassed for being ungrateful as soon as I felt it, because clearly I was doing better than a lot of people.  I was just lost and couldn't think what to do next.  So I said whatever dua came to mind for guidance, just prayed from the heart because I felt helpless and powerless in my situation.  This was the aya that got me through an incredibly dark time, a crucial fork in the road when I really needed courage to speak up for myself or risk suffering potentially devastating consequences for the rest of my life.

I still keep the ajr in mind for my daily tasks, even if I don't specifically refer to this aya in particular in daily life.  But it's always there for me to fall back on.

Diary for today:

Writing this before I go do the final preparation for futoor.  Today the hunger pangs are working together with PMS cramps.  I can't even cough without feeling it.  The PMS headache and lower back pain aren't helping either.  I have the privilege of being able to be kind to myself today: since I'm too physically weak for much, I mostly slept, then when I woke up, did less than usual.  I have that option and the rest will allow me to recover my strength inshallah.

I saw that the Oscars are trending on tumblr these past couple of days. Listen, I understand celebrating our website-wide certified holiday, the Ides of March, but y'all really said let's not talk about the Oscars and then did.  And you know what?  I get it.  Unless you're the one in the situation, you won't be able to keep on that one note, because you've got a life outside of it. 

Maintenance is hard work.  These fights are marathons, not sprints, although the sprints definitely help, too!  I'm wondering to wear for Eid even as I hold my breath over the inevitable atrocities they're planning for Palestine's Eid.  I just hope that even if people don't turn up for Palestine every day, enough of them do for some change to take place.

Daily click as much a reminder for myself.

Day 1 | Day 3 | Day 5

#ramadanchallenge2024 #notetaeker #I haven't thought of that aya in a long time actually #It's been such a long time that I nearly forgot that extremely dark time #I am in a much better place now #You can live under tough circumstances and still be happy #and that's better than the alternative #where I was living in better circumstances but wanted to die rather than have things forced on me #alhamdulillah #alhamdulliah #alhamdulilah

[mostlykind]

girlies I think I’m finally making it out of the work-friend trenches 🥹 we’re going out for lunch together !!!!!

#it’s only taken about 4-5 months loooo #but I never wanted to ask first cos she just seems to like her me time / walks at lunch #and I think cos I’ve been wfh for a month there’s lots to catch up on #anyways she asked and I was Obvs like omg yes #I sound like her biggest fan haha I’m just glad there’s someone my age I get on with #cos I was fighting for my life in my prev jobs with no Muslims #no ages mates / no one w a similar culture etc #alhamdulilah fr #rahma’s rambles

[rabbigfirlee]

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#my mom came to visit me for a few days #she just left a few hours ago #and I feel so heartbroken #literally so sad #ya Allah preserve her protect her and bless her with only the best and the highest in this life and the next #Ameen #I miss my mom 🥺💔 #alhamdulilah she was able to come visit and spend time with me #ufffffffff #personal

[aldxbai]

mama i made it!! couldn’t have done it without covid lmaoooo first class honours in nuclear medicine babyyyy

#put some respect on my nameeee #alhamdulilah #massive flowers to hide my baby bump #i graduate once #cant have this boy taking the attention off me lmaooo

[magnoliamyrrh]

also. realized last night

#i converted to islam on november 2nd so many yrs ago now #there goes another year of being muslim alhamdulilah #... its been so many... like.. 8 1/2 .. 9? somewhere around there #its so odd to me to even call myself a revert by this point. im just muslim 🤷‍♀️ and frankly basically the same apart from some minor #things from other balkan muslims 🤷‍♀️ #ive always held a bit of a dif. relation too tho from other reverts ive seen even from the beggining #hmm. its certainly been a journey for sure which im very thankful for. ive changed a lot ive grown a lot etc #but at times i do remember what it was like at first. not even bc it was islam in particular but because #feeling god in your heart truly for the first time after years of studying theology is...... #something... #very very similar to doing psychadelics for the first time #.... people get confused at times why i never waiver on islam even tho i will critique things and dissect things and this and that and even #tho ultimately i believe in the truth of all religions bc there is only one god. different paths to same goal #but this one will forever have my heart

[damneddunya]

Landed a new job and I start in 2 hours! Wish me luck 🙏🙏

#5 hours sleep after that 2am workout sesh got me feeling like 💀 #Excited tho ngl #alhamdulilah

[aslisjournal]

I’m so grateful for you guys on this website

#had to move this to the tags it just felt so loud? #I was debating with myself if I should post that poem about death #cause I was thinking what’s the point #and I was afraid of being seen as unhinged lol #so to see people acknowledge/relate #Alhamdulilah #that was a really intimate thought of mine #it’s very relieving to be reminded that there are people who have so many similar feelings and thoughts #Sorry it’s 2am and I’m emotional & ranting #I know it’s only like 20 notes but #I guess all I’m trying to say I’m very very grateful I can share my writing on here #I write for myself but it’s great a few people like it #tumblr is such a chaotic part of the internet but it’s so homey??? #I can be myself here #so yeah #I hope you guys are getting to know me through my words #🫶🏾 #This is low-key healing my childhood traumas lol #Anyways back to regular scheduled programming

[heavierthanlaila]

allah surely is the most merciful and he truly does listen to your duaas and he indeed answers all of them.

#i literally made duaa few days ago and said ya allah if this person is bad for me or if this relationship is making you angry with me pls #take him out of my life #(i was only talking to this guy to know him better for the sake of marriage) #and LITERALLY the next day this dude out of nowhere decided to be super passive aggressive because of something very minor #so i confront him and express my feelings clearly and calmly but get a little mean at the end and his reaction is why are you being mean lol #so i explained why and he was like even if let's say i was mean why would you be mean to me in return??? #LMAOOO #like... #so i said so you get to be passive-aggressive and give me the silent treatment and i dont even get to protest in a harsh tone????? #but i didnt argue i just said i really thought you were better than this and that was that #he left just as quickly as he came into my life #the funny thing tho was when he said that he doesn't like it when i use “big words” like manipulation and passive-aggressive #like so he even wants to dictate how i express myself let alone be angry that he crossed my boundaries and was doing something i found annoy #honestly egyptian/arab men are indeed something else #I'm just sad that i let him disturb my peace tbh #I'm glad it's over because I dont have time for some elementary school kid trapped in a 29 year old body #he even made me seriously question myself like if i was that rude or that inconsiderate but honestly it was just him being too insecure #alhamdulilah he is out of my life #I'm so grateful that allah is my wakeel because he surely won't let me down

[aiaaya]

turned 29 in Doha 🤍

#me #Alhamdulilah for another year

[mostlykind]

Is One Day watchworthy????

hiii so I’ve only watched four episodes so far but I think it’s good!! the leads have great chemistry and the yearning will-they-won’t-they is real but kinda agonising.

tho fyi I watched the eps in one sitting then proceeded to cry for like 30 minutes after lmao so I’d say if you’re prepared to be sad then it’s watch worthy but if you wanna pick peace then maybe give it a miss 😭

#also I should add I was feeling rly emo anyway about not experiencing love #and was comparing how non-Muslims live and was kinda depressed that I’d never experience certain things #tho ofc alhamdulilah and all #buttttt it did make me a lil emo because of that #the first four episodes aren’t actually that miserable I was just very sensitive #but all in all the main guy is sooooo cute and him and em are adorable #I hope this makes sense #asks

[rabbigfirlee]

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#ngl #the last few days in the OR have been rough #I started my gen surg service #and its a team of only men #and I feel like they undermine my ability #firstly they’re all 6ft if not 6ft+ so the table is raised significantly higher than it normally is and comes up to my chest #which makes it terribly difficult to do anything #but on top of that #the seniors barely let me suture or do anything to help #because they think I don’t want to get my hands dirty #alsoooo #I have this one patient who refuses to call me anything but “little girl’’ #because she’s convinced I’m a high schooler who’s shadowing the surgeons 🙃 #she literally refers to me as ‘the little girl’ when she’s speaking to my attending about me #ugh #idk this week has been rough but Alhamdulilah #just needed to vent #alhamdulilah anyways

[getting-messi]

MY GRADUATION IS THIS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!

#I feel like this has been such a journey #like I got on this website when I was a sophomore in high school #and now I’m about to start my masters in the fall??🫣😵 #but I am SO SO EXCITED!!! I got this beautiful red dress to wear that matches my school colours #I took THE ENTIRE DAY OFF FROM WORK BECAUSE I DESERVE IT! #it’s gonna be like a cute long weekend and I’m gonna force my brother to take me out 💃🏾 #I’m like excited to walk the stage and just have my little moment omg I’m so excited #also I have these cute pictures I wanna post on IG BUT I LITERALLY CANNOT COME UP WITH A CAPTION😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #I want it to be cute but also funny #idk idk i might just end up saying Alhamdulilah and keep it simple #my post

[seeker-of-peace]

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#The milkshake of mc donald #And a good walk always does it for me #Alhamdulilah #Plus it's finally sunnyyyyy #Vitamin d babyyy