#and WHY thry made it now out of all times

[steampoweredskeleton]

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#delete later #the thing about delusions is theyre suoer scary ahen your in them but theyre also fuckin terrifying when out of them #like i haveht been in one for a while but i get the like tuggings of the same fear thry made now abd again and it's always an oof #bc like when youre in it you believe it with like every shred of your being. and thats fuckin terrifying #like even when i didnt feel like i was being followed and hunted i believed that i had been and he could come back at any time #its only in the last like few years that ive fully accepted that it was a delusion abd i waant veing followed #makes it real hard to trust your understanding of reality. #and makes me worry a lot about it coming back #its why seeing shadow spiders freaks me out so much. its p nornal nbd and doesnt happen that often but when it does its the same fear of #i believe fully that something is there abd then i gotta logic that no there isnt a football sized spider crouched around that corner just #out of sight #but anyway. im the most mentally healthy ive ever been and if this is rhe holdover from my shitty brain theb thats not too bad at all

[the-lark-ascending69]

I just got an idea for whump Ronance.

What if Robin and Nancy gets captured by Brenner?

Like, they end up becoming his new lab rats. Thry get tortured and abused just like El was.

What do you think?

(Also, what kind of powers do you think they would have respectively?)

Anon I am so sorry i wrote a long asf response to this and then it got deleted and I was so mad I didn't want to do it again but now I feel inspired and motivated to give it another try.

SO. Wonderful concept! I love it! Let me share my thoughts!!

So what I came up with is:

At age 15, they both get lost in the Upside Down. They only vaguely knew about the other's existance from school but when they found each other down there, they became inseparable. This is an AU in which Will never went missing. Anyway they're terrified and starving and exhausted but at least they have each other, and they hold hands almost the entire time because they both desperately need the comfort.

Eventually, they make it out on their own after finding a gate... and it's in the Hawkins Lab. They come out on the other end before the unbelieving eyes of dozens of scientists, who were convinced no one would survive a minute in there without the proper equipment. Yet these trembling, starving young girls covered in grit survived with only the clothes on their back for a week.

Brenner recognizes them immediately - Nancy and Robin, the two girls from the missing person posters circulating through town. Everyone already thinks they're dead. They made fake bodies of them, for Christ' sake, he's not letting this opportunity go, especially after the disappearance of his only remaining test subject, 011.

This will be a new experiment. A different one. They are given different numbers for ir - A01 for Nancy and A02 for Robin. They get that tattooed in their arms. The purpose of the experiment is to study the effects of short-term exposure to the Upside Down on humans of their height, s.ex, age, health status and weight. They call themselves doctors. They give them separate rooms and run a series of tests daily on them. They try to be subtle at first as to not scare them too much - they don't want another 011 - so they call them by their real names for a while. They ask questions about their lives before the Upside Down and reassure them this is meant to test radiation levels - a standard procedure, before they can return them to their parents.

They immediatelly call bullshit. Why can't they talk to their parents now? Why can't they see them through a glass, at least, or a camera, if radiation is what they're worried about? Why won't they tell them what that place was or why it led back to the Lab? Do their families know they're safe? What is going on? They ask so many questions about every procedure ran on them, resisting in more and more extreme ways until the scientists need to tie them down and drug them whenever they want to do anything.

Brenner notices similar brain activity in them to that of his old test subjects, and he suspects the Upside Down might have given them some kind of ability. He keeps them in the rainbow room, hoping each other's company will help them develop their powers, yet for a long time nothing comes. They can't move objects with their mind, or astral project, or open gates. Even despite everything they do to them. Despite every horrible procedure they perform on them. Drugs of all kinds, leaving them delirious and weak for days. Electrocompulsive therapy. Hypnosis. Pain tests. Sensory deprivation. Solitary confinement. Brenner wants to activate their powers in one way or another, desperate after losing subject 011.

(It's terrifying each time. Nancy is invaded by pure rage while Robin is paralyzed by fear. Whenever they take one for a procedure, the other waits impatiently for her return, fully concious of what they're doing to her - or so it seems. Nancy, at least, thinks she knows what they're doing to Robin. She thinks they do the same things they do to her - tie her to a chair, put an IV in her, maybe, or stick a needle into her neck. Brenner will do this while casually telling her she'll only feel a small pinch, before doing such a monstruosity to her that she'll be woken up by seizures at night. It takes Robin some time to tell Nancy the truth).

They seem completely useless for a long time, but that changes the moment they capture a russian agent.

He was a scientist, working from an unknown location beneath Hawkins, trying to get intel from the Lab when he was caught and tortured to extract information from him. Robin wasn't usually allowed to wander the halls alone, but someone left the door unlocked and she was curious, and soon she found herself in front of a closed door, hearing panting and ragged breathing after this man received the beating of his life. He was talking to himself - curses and meanderings about death and whether or not he'd see his family again. Robin, despite having never learned Russian, understood everything, and in a perfect accent she began to talk to him. She didn't know why - she didn't even realize they weren't speaking English. For a moment he thought he was being rescued, and he shared with her a lot of information.

Brenner caught her in the act and severaly punished her. Solitary confinement for one week. She would only see other people when they ran tests on her, and even then they wouldn't speak to her at all. He ended up not living up to his threat when, not two days after the event, he noticed her brain activity going wild. He has fascinated, and he asked her what had happened, if that russian spy gave her something like a drug. "Russian?" she asks, only then understanding what had happened.

They believe her powers are related to xenoglossy, the supernatural ability to know a language without having ever learned it. Something extremely useful in that specific historical context. She'd be an incredible spy, and oh, Brenner can't wait to experiment with this. They kill the spy after she tells them everything he told her.

They begin to give her a special treatment over Nancy - not exactly for the better. Brenner wants to understand this new ability, developed not in the womb like in other subjects but when subject A02 is a teenager, possibly caused by exposure to Upside Down radiation, though that's not confirmed. Maybe it had more to do with their experiments. He thinks he hit a dead end when it's revealed Robin already knew intermediate-to-advanced French, Spanish and Italian from before being captured - she'd be just a regular poltglot in that case, a prodigious one, right, but with nothing of interest for Brenner. But he quickly realizes this is not the case. Robin didn't know a word of Russian before, and he develops a hipothesis he'll spend the following year testing. He tries her ability with different languages, escaling on rarity, complexity and distance from English. From reading a single short text, Robin becomes profient in Finnish - a non-indoeuropean language Brenner doubts she's ever had any contact with. Proficient, but not fluent. It seems like she can very easily extract a language's grammar from a short sample text, applying it to terms she's familiar with, but she can't magically "guess" vocabulary of grammatical rules not present in the material she was given. For example, by reading a text in which all 15-16 grammatical cases of Finnish are present, she will be able to apply them to any noun in nominative case she knows, but she can't do it with nouns she doesn't know, and she can't use grammatical cases not present in the sample text given to her. She also can't guess spelling or pronunciation without both text and audio samples, and she can't speak in accents she hasn't heard (though she can easily switch accents in a way native speakers of the language can't, a skill that is curiously not translated (lol) into her native English). She learns faster with audio than with text, but even faster with a real-time conversation. Brenner brings a colleague who is fluent in Japanese to test her and he's amazed by how quick her progress is. His hipothesis, seemingly now proven, was that hers was an entirely mental skill, not a supernatural one, since she doesn't magically have access to languages she never had any contact with. This would make her ability not real xenoglossy.

A few more fun facts about her "power":

Her pre-existing skill with Spanish, French and Italian didn't improve until she was exposed to these languages again after being captured. She becomes incredibly skilled at solving puzzles and cracking codes. Brenner believes her power developed thanks to her intensive studies in languages through her childhood. Her brain activity is similar to that of non-native speakers of a language during the few first minutes of having contact with a new language, but in less than an hour, it will be the same as with native speakers. She's confused by some reconstructed languages, but not others (Proto-Indoeuropean was easy for her to learn, Proto-Uralic took her some time before learning more finno-ugric languages than just Finnish. If this were happening in the 2000s, when the Dené-Caucasian theory was already formalized, then Proto-Dené-Caucasian would have sounded like absolute gibberish to her).Some of Brenner's colleages hipothesize that her knowledge of living languages help inform her of the grammar and syntax of proto-languages in an extremely accurate way, to the point she subconciously knows when a reconstruction is wrong. This would make her an amazing paleolinguist. Brenner is less interested in the reconstruction of ancient turkic languages in Siberia and more interested her use as a spy and code-breaker - though it wouldn't have hurt him to take a second look at the idea of turkic languages, because that Russian agent, he was from a region of Russia called Tartary, and he spoke another language aside from Russian, the Tartar language, though he never got to speak it in Robin's presence. Brenner and his colleagues, not familiar with the vast diversity of languages on Earth, spend a long time working with an incorrect hypothesis because they couldn't notice Robin speaking Tartar to herself as a distinct language from all the others they were teaching her. A year and a a half passes before someone spent enough time listening to her to notice the difference. It's a discovery that shatters completely Brenner's first hypothesis on the absence of a supernatural element in Robin's ablity, and he's once again fascinated when he discovers it. His new hypothesis: Robin's power grants her access to a person's mind through speaking to them in a strange, confusing way, and he can't wait to destroy her, pick her brain apart and figure out how it works even if he kills her in the process.

In fact, he does. Literally. He does it over and over and over again, and Nancy has to watch it happen time and time again.

Because here's the thing: Robin wasn't the only one to develop powers, and in fact, she wasn't even the first one.

If you've heard of the videogame Life is Strange, anon, then you'll understand Nancy's power here: she can rewind time. Her power is pretty much the same as Max's in LiS - she can rewind time up to a certain point, though it causes a great mental strain, and eventually, she will discover she can time travel to specific points in time through photographs she's present in, as her younger self.

She discovers her powers the first time Robin is killed.

Misbehavior got her punished - solitary confinement after a long testing session. She had an overdose in her cell, and no one noticed in time. Nancy barely remembers what happened then, other than the horror she felt, before the events of the day flashed backwards before her eyes and she was brought back to Robin - warm, alive, breathing - in the rainbow room.

She begged her to do as they said, to behave, to not fight back. Robin is confused but Nancy is in tears and she agrees to do as she says.

This time, when she has an overdose, they treat her on time. She was in a comma for a week, but soon she was back on her feet and back in Nancy's arms.

It keeps happening - over and over again. The time she swallowed her own tongue during a seizure because Nancy didn't hold her right, and she had to try over four times (and watch her choke and die four times) before she got it right. The time she didn't die - but she lost her ability to speak after hours of electroculpulsive therapy, and she had her fake an illness so they would submit her to less aggressive procedures. It happened again when, after a similar trial, she forgot her own parents and thought the scientists were her parents. But she mostly just died. Over, and over, and over again. Mostly from overdose or brain damage during seizures, but one time, she was purposely asphixiated during a test. To this point Nancy still isn't sure what was it that they wanted to test with that. She suspects it was just torture for the sake of torture. To break her, somehow.

Nancy is terrified of long-term effects of all of this on Robin's health. She's scared the damage will cross the point of no return too early, to a point she can't go back to, a point in which she can't stop it. She can hold Robin's head during a seizure but she can't stop the seizures, and the lasting damage they leave.

Robin is aware of Nancy's powers. Nancy didn't even have to prove them to her - she believed her immediately whe she told her, and she trusts her judgment completely. If Nancy tells her it's better to do X, you can bet Robin will be doing X. Robin doesn't tell Nancy about her newfound ability immediately - she doesn't want her to worry about something she can do nothing about. But she does share it with her, after some time. She felt the need to explain to Nancy why the sudden interest on her. Nancy worries about her Robin so much, so so much, because she's just become Brenner's favorite new toy, and he'll do anything and everything to exploit her. She's in much more danger than Nancy is, and Nancy wishes she could take her place, make herself into Brenner's toy, draw attention away from Robin, but they both know the best they can do for their safety is to keep Nancy's invisible power secret. Nancy hates herself for not being able to take Robin's pain for her.

They escape one day. It's a complicated plan including short-distance time travel, manipulating russian spies through a stolen radio, several forms of treason and going out the same way they came in - through the portal. Nancy does her best to keep them safe with her power as they search for the other gate, the one they first crossed three years ago. And then, they're out. They're found unconcious on the side of the road.

They wake up a few days later in the hospital, surrounded by their families. Nancy's brother, Mike, has a new friend - a quiet girl with long brown hair and a 011 tattoed on her wrist, and she knows she needs to speak to her desperately, but she's exhausted, so for the time being, she'll sleep for some time, feeling almost at peace now, knowing Robin is safe and in the good hands of doctors.

#ronance #whump #tw torture #tw drugs #tw electrocution #uuuh that's it i guess #this took me forever to write but i'm satisfied!

[headspace-hotel]

Okay I was planning on staying out of it but this is painful to watch.

To be clear, OP was being very weird and didnt at all need to say that. But it seems like hald the people since then have just been trying to explain what OP mewnt and doing it horribly, because I do in fact get ehat thry were saying.

Theres been a bug movement with online fascists thats like "modern society is too urban (see: diverse). Weve gotten too far from how we traditionally lived, and were so out of touch with nature. Kids spend all their time inside or in the suburbs and never get to see real nature." And its all a recruitment tactic.

The Start of that pipeline is often just "huh modern scoiety is extremely out of touch with nature. Kids grow up without the experiences I had as a kid running around in creeks and stuff. Kids cant recognize plants." And most of that is true and it Is bad, but they then often make a very quick leap to "this is a problem with Society." And from there to fascist talking points.

And like, if you squint, you can very easily draw similarities between the very start of that pipeline and your recent posting.

Again, this is Obviously incredibly stupid and anyone who actually reads anything you post can see that. But like, I can at least see how, if someone is primed to always look only for fascist dog whistles, and one of your recent posts crossed their dash, if theyre not smart, they could arrive at that anxiety.

Everyone since then has just been dumb about it.

...Okay I'm thinking the "cottagecore" discourse has just rotted people's brains out here. I didn't realize it until now but "posting pictures of a basket of freshly picked strawberries is a fascist dogwhistle" really was a Thing on here a while back. Okay. That makes sense now.

I know about the "trad"/fascist-adjacent 'homesteading'/off-the-grid doomsday prepper attitudes. Where I live, being a 'homesteader' often goes along with stockpiling guns.

But these people's attitudes are individualistic, it's all about personally escaping the "Modern" world and living in The Wilderness(tm) somewhere and being "self-sufficient" (lmao). Kind of a manifest-destiny adjacent fantasy (gross)

This is where the "cottagecore" discourse brain worms did immense damage—no one wanted to explain why the individualistic, intrepid settler homesteader fantasy was a problem, so all the well meaning people on the margins of the discourse went "oh, okay, wanting to reconnect with your natural world and consciously participate in your local ecosystems is a fascist/colonialist thing."

I have multiple posts buried deep in my drafts about this somewhere that I was afraid to post, because I was met with the "google is free" stuff when I tried to figure out what was going on, and Google was entirely empty of any material explaining the (alleged?) fascist and colonialist roots of cottagecore.

It makes my brain hurt because yes, actually, I *see* how "homesteading" is sometimes related to white supremacist and colonialist shit, and the fascist and "cottagecore" communities do have an overlap that is not purely coincidental. That's real. It's not made up. But. A lot of people on the internet have learned to recognize fascist "dogwhistles" instead of learning to recognize fascist ideas.

A lot of the work of recognizing fascist-adjacent stuff in the wild does rely on developing a sensitivity to such "red flags." I've talked about things that I consider to be red flags, and I sometimes respond strongly to them. But—it's crucial that you understand that the red flags themselves are not what fascism is. You have to be able to see and recognize the actual harmful components of an ideology instead of deciding that any similarity, no matter how superficial, Is Fascism.

A lot of colonialist and fascist systems of thought have "relationships with nature and growing plants is good" somewhere in there, but the actual poison here comes in a few forms:

unquestioned romanticization of settling/colonizing an Untouched Wilderness

deciding that some kind of stable, inherent 'natural' state of human existence is always good, and 'unnatural' things are bad

modern society is decaying and degenerate, "traditional" values and lifestyles are better (enter romanticizing the past as a paradise of moral and racial purity)

Yes, there were statements in my post that looked superficially similar to some of these. No, those statements were not even remotely close to communicating the same things.

And "dogwhistles" are not about superficial similarity. If you learn about 'homesteading' as a white supremacist fantasy being a thing, and you jump onto a post talking about growing native species like "Oh look I've found a fascist dogwhistle!" You've misunderstood the assignment.

[dismemberment-on-a-tuesday-night]

🤗 for jay

Eden

Whumptember day 22. Captive whumpee | New whumper

TW: guilt, self loathing, referenced major character death, pet whumpee, multiple whumpees, carewhumper

Note: Yeah yeah, I know this was supposed to be comfort, but I wanted to delve into Jay's mindset, and it isn't comfortable at all.

Jay knew, deep down, that they had ruined everything. Not their own life. No, of course not. There were only so many times someone could do that to themself. Instead, they had ruined the lives of the only two people who cared for them.

They couldn't understand how they could be so cruel, even by mistake. There wasn't anywhere else for them to go, but they resented their own presence as much as Ezra did. Even if they pretended not to notice every sigh of annoyance when they needed his help.

It felt... bad. Asking so for much and doing nothing to help anybody. Especially when Ezra clearly prefered Christopher, and Christopher clearly prefered Colt. Maybe they would be fine if it were just the two of them, even if they weren't ever getting Colt back.

Despite having seen it all too many times, Jay still couldn't understand the concept of death. It hurt their brain to think about. And all they could really convince themself of was that Colt had abandoned them, and probably found a replacement by now. What else could it be?

Christopher and Ezra both tried their hardest assure Jay that they weren't a burden. But they knew better. They didn't deserve the good meals that filled their stomach to the point of bursting, or the warm hugs that melted all their troubles away for a blissful minute.

And Jay sure as hell didn't deserve to be treated like a beloved family member. Not while they were keeping secrets, and hoping beyond hope that Ezra and Christopher never figured out why they were with Colt in the first place. That would ruin everything.

But Ezra wasn't under any obligation to treat Jay nicely. Every scrap of affection had to come from some very real place on his heart, even if Jay couldn't quite fathom it. Ezra was nice. Even if he got annoyed so easily.

Christopher wasn't under any obligation either. But that thought was less than comforting. How many mistakes would Jay have to make before he kicked them out? Thry knew they were a constant reminder of Colt, and they hated themself for it.

This was their idea of paradise, but it was far from perfect. It was their own flaws that made it so unbearable, despite the best intentions of those around them. God have mercy on their broken little soul.

Taglist: @hugh-lauries-bald-spot @thedarkmongoose @whumpsday @whump-by-robin @kira-the-whump-enthusiast @annablogsposts @whumpshaped @seetheothersideofparadise @knittedeyebrowsandcardigans @whatwasmyprevioususername @boonasaurusrex @suspicious-whumping-egg @heavenlyeden @melancholy-in-the-morning @snakebites-and-ink @suck-my-clit-loser @i-eat-worlds @scp-1296 @chiswhumpcorner @skittles-the-whumpee @whumpkinz @dokidokisadness @enbygesserit @camislycaon24 @be-gay-do-crime-ahaha @a-crumb-of-whump @pixelated-whump

#Abraham original: Hot off the press #Jay #Eden #Whump #whumptember2023 #Whumptember day 22 #Captive whumpee #New whumper

[ivanzplaid]

Hi! I am obsessed with all your the grabber stories so far and I would love to see a story where the grabber kidnaps reader and then discovers they have hemophobia? Thank you ☺️

ohhhh, this would be interesting. he would definitely use it against you, hate to say it but he is not good whatsoever & may tease you, but still be a bit considerate in thr end, cannot wait to publish this🙏

this is a short one, but i still think its cute

requests r open, this was my last grabber request i had, so please ask away at anything!! thry keep me motivated🫶 ( masterlist pinned )

Warnings: Blood/Injury description, The Grabber, Slight Manipulation, Kidnapped Reader

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The moment you awoke in the basement, with the searing jaw & head pain, and minimal recollection from hours before, you were fucked. A hard punch was dealt to your jaw earlier that day, and you immediately tasted blood, having a reaction instantly. The taste wasn't just unpleasant, but sickening, causing your head to ache & stomach to mix before passing out cold, limp in his arms.

You found yourself in a dingy basement, the cement was dull, creating a blurry gray space from your obstructed vision, most likely from the punch. What stood out was the figure m, leaning calmly against the wall, three or four feet away from you. His eyes met yours, both of you awaiting a move. As soon as they met, they broke apart, his eyes focused on something else on you.

"You have a little something on your shirt, dove."

Serving a confused & distraught look, you peered down, what met you was a horrific sight. Your light colored shirt was tainted with a crumbling red liquid, drops tracing the fabric. You could feel the saliva accumulate in your mouth, prepping yourself to throw up. Not only did you feel a bruise coming for your under eye, but now you knew why your nose felt brutally violated. The more you stared, the more the color drained from your face. You praised god that you had an undershirt on that day, hastily pulling off the blood stained shirt and tossing it at him with disgust.

"Keep it."

Your voice was quick, hushed. You could still feel the contents of your stomach coming up even after you disposed of your main enemy. When you looked at the man again, he was slightly amused, eyebrows raised at how you were so willing to give up an article of clothing like that.

"Not a blood fan, are you?"

You saw his eyes crease, he was smiling at your squeamish reaction, poking at you for it. A groan came from you, putting your head on your knees and arms over your head felt like the only remedy. Pondering his word choice for a moment, he balled the shirt and tucked it into his pocket, half of it leaning out. He made his way over to you, stroking your back lightly, his fingers tracing circles all over as he spoke gently.

"It's alright, I'll take it into consideration next time, depending on if you were good or not,"

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i know its very short but i thought a little drabble would be cute to end thr night, this was my last grabber request i had, so please submit more! i have a few vance fics that will be comjng :)

#the grabber #the grabber x reader #black phone #ethan hawke #the grabber x you #slasher #gay #gn reader

[dollfaceksj]

Yes just as that anon said I don't think that a fuckboy au is for me. Like if somebody hurts me or make me jealous, either I would ignore that person totally (I am the kind of person who doesn't fall for someone's antics or manipulation at all because I myself am a little manipulative so I can easily guess and resists) or be petty as hell to them (if they are already close to me).

I also have this in me that I don't get attached to people normally. Like we would be friends for a year or so and if they aren't talking to me now then I don't feel anything and just move on. I am only emotionally attached to my family and 2-3 people who are with me from start. Like if s new person is coming in my life and staying as long as thry want then leaving, I wouldn't mind them leaving.

So yeah I think I am not that kind of person who get hurt easily or let's say let someone hurt my feelings.

So please warn me about it already so that this fic won't mess with my mind afterwards please. BTW love the crack > 💌

listen. i don’t wanna be rude at all but bear with me

i’ve been getting a lot of anons telling me they don’t like fuckboy aus but still end up reading my fuckboy stuff.

can i ask why? why read something you don’t even like? it still has all the elements you dislike so i’m confused on why i’m being told in my inbox several times “i usually avoid this type of fic but” but what? what’s the difference ?

fuckboy aus are so very typical and repetitive so i’m questioning why you even view this one as different when it isn’t

you say you’re not the kind of person to get hurt easily but then ask me to ‘give you a warning about my fic so it won’t mess w your head’, babes it’s literally a fanfiction. like it’s a made up story. it’s not real. some random stranger pulled the idea out of their ass and i am freestyling it as i go, why would you need a warning about something like that if you don’t get hurt easily anyway?

it’s just a story, y’all like i really just went with what the very first anon asked, took the idea and just freestyled and improvised as i went and now there are several anonymous thinkpieces in my inbox about people swearing how they don’t like fuckboy aus to someone that’s actively writing a fuckboy au like i just don’t understand

no disrespect at all but a lot of you guys are also 30+ in age and i need you to understand this oc is in college so yea she’s not gonna be as wise or strong as you yall it’s literally just a made up character why has this become a controversy in my inbox i just wanna write stuff😭😭😭

thank u for loving the crack tho !

#clover over

[noro-noro-noro]

had a dream heavily based off almost winning a lantern apostle victory & then going to jail after 5 hours despite having 16 cultists. i hate this stupid game why did I get hebe stanton from a piece of sh14 lore instead of an area that would've given me the rite intercalate. i had every ingredient. anyway what do i remember ...?

- being high up on the walls of a courtyard on a sunny day. it was a very large area enclosed and the walls might have been part of a larger castle.

- I was in a group of people. they were cards on the board and they were there with me out side of my elementary school. one guy had long & light purple hair ? by clicking on him he had some kind of special thing - rich heir maybe? weird family circumstance?

our event (?) here might've been cancelled, but i wanted to do mentor reading to the kids anyway, so we just walked in. it smellrd the same as it always did & made me feel really nostalgic. we were going to talk to the principal to make sure we were allowed to be in here, & asked the first teacher we saw where the principal was. out shopping, she said, and shrugged.

one of the others was reading something on the wall & it was supposed to be an area you draw & write about your friend. one of these hung up drawings and paragraphs had my name & a picture of ME !! i was so touched. I thought it might've been a kid from summer camp that I became friends with (i also recalled that the last time i worked at a summer camp was the year i started college, which was 7 years ago, so no child would be in elementary school postibg drawings remembering me unless they were a baby when i workd with thrm). anyway the others walked on but I wanted to take a picture but t ket ending up blurry. I asked purple hair guy to do it bc he was really tall but idk if It worked then either.

I ended up in the principal's office & was looking around at things I remembered. they'd replaced the ???? from my childhood memory with a pool table. but the double piano was still there. there was an older lady supervising me and said that I could touch the piano once and she wouldn't snitch (I remembered playing fur Elise on it as a kid) & I put down my handful of ??? on top of the piano. thry all immediately fell inside. the lady also immediately got worried that the owner would return and see us touching her stuff & hovered by the windows,.not helping me pick up my things.

- now much more flat based but way more fallen London themed as well. the cards of people were decreased. i could gain a power that would extend the period of time before a failed summon attacked and it was just a cropped panel of izutsumi. ordering purple hair guy to stqy out late on cult business introduced w new annoyance which was "strict family that I'd have to persuade".

i ended up finding tutorials on what to aim for on stackexchange for some godforsaken reason & they basically suggested I needed to perform ultimate summoning, hope the old winter woman wouldn't grab me and instead get one of my minions, & then "try to save him" aka mutilating his transformed and destroyed body until he looked like a cartoon green witch corpse. and with the corpse we ... ??? achieved. something.

unfortunately my brain reintroduced all the requirements of an apostle victory again so I was like damn now I have to prevent the green sun corpse from decaying into two raw prophets. and I ALSO need seven witnesses and the allure and the lantern ichor and frau schussel and

#dreams

[fansideblogtocjcherryth]

Notes From Book 6 Explorer

October the 2 of this year

Okay so done one was able to let me beable to read the book on libby. Also I notices that for some reason on the libby pages are around 652 in this book while it says the book has 408 pages. Could it be a way to move mire words onto a page or something?

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Well shits got to be intense if him getting a shower in this book 

Bren going into a mental nite if the back round to the series

Bindanda helps him get dressed for the day. Kind of have to remember that the atevi can make a adult human look like a ten year old in height

He really wants his old job back . He already hates being the lord of the heavens.

Kaplan is there to meet them and jago out side his office on the ship.

Bren has a photo of jase catching a fish from the planet

Holy shit sabin should not have pissed off ilisidi or she would not have been food poisoned.

Bren and jase are trying to look through the records to try to find proof that there might be more things about the situation.

Bren is now paranoid about potential treachery. 

Jase is like currently 30 years old. Holy hell he has daddy issues / what was i made for? Around his dad figure ramirez. 

For some reason jase and Yolanda was taught culture and history from earth 

Seems like sabin and ogun were in a currently unknown relationship of ship politics.

Nine years so the station may have repaired itself.  

Thry plan on confronting sabin about the whole shit show they are in.

2

Bren asks banichi to tell the staff that everything is under control.

Kaplan makes some tea for the meeting with sabin.  From what happened last time I don't blame her for taking it at first.

Bren explains to her knowing that ramirez faked the monitor output before seeing the survivor's. 

Damn bren is trying his attempt at diplomacy with a roughly tough old lady.

So ramirez may have had contact with something that the guild known about.

Well shit it looked like they ship folk like tamun were planing to help the humans try to take over the atevi continent. That would not have worked due to mostly those humans hatting doing what the ship folk told em too. Luckily sabin kind of gained acceptance of the atevi. 

The situation was a success, they got alot of info and keeping an eye on sabin for anything new.

3

         Bren talks with banichi and jago about sabin and the situation.

god damn it caljeiri you scared me, thought an attack was happening. even jago is a little done with the bull shit. caljeiri please do not tick her off.

caljeiri tells bren that ilisidi asked for him to visit her at breakfast but that time kind of passed for obvious reason.

currently the kid is seven so its been kind of a while.

bren gives a little word about how aijiin have the security defend them instead of gun's , bows and arrows. also the kid is in brens man'chi

he gose to ilisidis study to visist her with cenedi being by her side as always.  its kind of funny how she has the vibes of a disaproving grandmother twords bren being kind to caljeiri.

they discuses what has been going on and the deception of what has been happening. as well as the contrasting theory's of why ramirez was trying to consider doing what he did.

ilisidi says that its gonna be funny when she gets back to grigiji and rub in his face about all the stars she has seen.

bren kind of feels like that sabin is rather unpredictable and kind of reminds him of tatiseigi , ilisidis maybe old lover and  tabini's wifes uncle.

after talking with her theory on why sabin acts the way she dose , he decided to go to gin or ginny kroger who is on the ship.

ginny is maybe sixty years old by this point.

she is damn worried about all of this shit for good reason. deception is definitely something she is understandable pissed about. happy sabin was able to agree to the idea. 

ginny discusses home and the seasons that are probably going on. bren thinks about the fortress of ilisidi's home with the mecheita .  offers to get him dinner when they get back.

god damn it she knows about jago's and his relationships with each other. ginny is learning ragi and compliments bindanadi cooking.

4

they have pizza being made for dinner. from what I remember I think the pizza is green instead of red.

bren praises whos been along for the voyage and Ginny practices ragi to praise the dinner. bren is so happy that this has been a social success .

he is hoping that jase gotten to bed.

after going to bed after looking through notes he made of the day, he and jago did the deed of darkness or as the mospheirans say make love.

damn this feels like a love confession even though it technically is not.

oh shit there is a "oh-god" in the morning news of ship moving in one hour. he thinks of his brother and the world and screwed up the family he left behind.

if kind of cajeiri to make racing wheel cars he learned from the archives.

they are looking through the tapes for anything new and cajeiri is viewed wonderfully by ginny's engineers and mechanics

he writes a letter to toby as a way to try to talk about how he feels about everything.

His mom is described as " was one of those women who defined herself by her children. And who consequently cannibalized their growing live until,  ultimately,  the campaign drove the family apart " 

He even writes to tabini about everything. And the work of his son.

Knowing the ship has a gymnasium and he works it off the food.

Oh my god the idea of bren translating the games on the archive to let the staff and the kid use is so damn wholesome. I hope some one gets the idea to maybe make a fanfic something like that. Cajeiri making the planes as well.

whist is brens favorite game.

They just adore godzilla . Hamlet was like, confused by Romeo and juliet and horrified and gratified by oedipus.

He wants to join the atevi and feels he is unable to. He is also desperate for answers.

He talks with cajeiri who wants ginnys crew to help him fix his car. Bren only agrees if cenedi wants to. 

Caljeiri I think accurately behaves like a 7 year old. 

It's funny that he has to avoid showing anything to caljeiri that defys authorities like a parent avoiding things with sex in them. The three musketeers is chosen.

Banichi and jago are playing chess and the staff are placing bets.

Bren writes a letter to toby about his moments of homesickness. 

Bren is done and says fuck it he is talking to sabin with the log. Banichi joins him.

He dose get a copy of a log of the encounter of ramirez of the aliens near planet gamma .

he falls asleep trying to find more information and is advised by narani to get a shower, he falls asleep in there as well.

he thinks for a bit about ramirez actions but even ilisidi thinks he should as the parody book gose "Go The Fuck To Sleep"

he talks with jago about the actions of ramirez but unfortunetly even she wants him to rest as well. but then he falls of the bed when jase tells tells him that they might finnaly have something in sight.

he gets the news to jago and ilisidi and everyone else who may need to know.

he is told that sabin is now in charge and warning the poeple of the voyage to take hold as they start to drop . 

bren is so scared that he starts having flash backs to pre and during book one of this time with tabini and ilisidi

bren and his group go to the bridge to see what is happening

5

bren tells all that are with them that they may have arrived at the destination that they have been trying to get to.

ilisidi talks to sabin and jase about what is going on and it seems like they are close but not there.

Ginny comes up to visit with moral support and advice as she put it.

ilisidi got a bit snappy with caljeiri about wanting to see the screens of the ship with her cane.

this whole book up at this point is just me adoring ilisidi and caljeiri. 

they got a connection to the station , bren is considering maybe trying to give sabin advice. she just loves calling him bitch or bastard doesn't she?

oh crap something else just caught a signal for them, and its not from the station they are trying to get to.

he suggests to use lights on the ship to try to send a patter response to who ever it may be.

something may have happened and the lights may have worked enough so that they may have to be cautious around what just contacted them . 

bren is gonna try to contact them and not ghost them like ramirez did before. bren is impressed that a phoenix caption actully told the truth. 

ilisidi wants to join the action as well as ginny. also for some reason the station has not even answered any of there questions.

okay so a dude called guild-master Braddock answers them with maybe not get close to where they are trying to go towards.

the aliens flashed more lights that are more better of a message then braddock's.

6

sabin is complaining about how bren , her , cenedi , banichi , jago , gin and jerry are in the same room as her , saying it ain't a tour. 

bren is still tired as hell but still trying to do what he dose.

sabin is doubting his hope for cooperation with the aliens. 

"works in downtown jackson traffic" such a funny line when you plan to use lights to try to communicate with aliens.

banichi and jago being able to sandwich him between them to keep him from shivering is so funny.

he is able to rea sure banichi about the situation 

hey station , maybe take sabins instructions if you want her to take yours. they say fuck it lets take the aliens route instead

 the aliens are coming to them.

ilisidi gets some tea for bren to talk about the situation at hand. they think it might be a robot or aliens.

7

the alien ship mimics there ships actions so that it migh be good. 

to not lose more fuel they use beeps from radio to make sounds and images to communicate with the aliens. 

they realize the delays may be because these are aliens instead of organic.

oh shit the aliens are innovating the images they got. they are trying to communicate what happened 10 years ago with ramirez . they drew a little stick figure of themselves.

well shit the guild might be hiding bullshit, great. welp blowing up a random due is one way to piss off an alien and vow vengence.

banichi gives some advice to maybe keep communicating.

yep the guild might have stolen a body or dude. great job guys

bren is goona try to negotiate the body back from the guild.  and is worried that they may be getting over there heads. 

ilisidi is hopeing he is goona sleep.

lies , lies everywhere, here there be lies.

8

he is awoken by ginny who is telling them that sabin is not telling the guild anything by giving them the silent treatment.

the station is pissed with there current actions. and they are gonna try to get on board. 

sabin warns everon on the speaker that the stations situation in unknowable so to be cautious.

Its so funny that jase hats the situation that he wants yolandas current job and bren wholeheartedly agrees

9

jase is corrected by bren the word is eavesdroppers instead of bureaucrats.

ilisidi calling caljeiri a blood thirsty child is so damn funny to me. 

and now things are suspicious , damn it station master Louis Baynes Braddock.

baraddock is already lying , fantastic . sabin is not taking the red tape shit.  they are threatening them with a bomb.

sabin is ignoring his advice and he gets pretty sad a bit.

sabin tells them if they have her they can atleast escape with akers , one of the captions and jase. 

ilisidi is adviced to go below deck. she and almost all of the atevi come along with her.

banichi is also explained about the situation.

they get bren dressed and even give him a gun to protect himself from what ever could happen. 

10

he wakes care of somethings before exiting the ship. he really hates how lonley he is with out those he cares about. 

he realises that some one in his office could see the photo of jase with the fish and realize more stuff was going on then what they though.

he encounters a bunch of humans in the gallery and asks for some basket of sandwiches to take back up to the bridge of the ship. he also warns them that the station might try to take the ship by force and to be carfuel.

well one of the damn station guards is here and jase is trying to keep him from getting mad. its funny seeing bren act like a low ranking , cheery crew member . 

jase is being so damn cool , there is gose off to being damn cool.

hey guild maybe being lying little shits can't help you know.

the gaurd might be suspecting everything. oh shit dose one of the crew members esan might have something contagious.

holy hell bren , kaplan and jase lock the intruder in jases office.

they don't care, whats stopping them from from collectivly beating the shit out of the security from the station is sabin isn't answering?

kaplan , polano and press men with also a few others dragged out the neeted men with out armors or weapons.

11

jase gose out to tell everyone that they got control of the ship back and to get sabin back. ilisidi also aproves

they call jase taylors son, the man who sacrificed himself long ago to save others and is the source of jase's existence . 

jase is worried that sabin might be a traitor. 

he goes back to the atevi who are pretty happy to see him back. cenedi and cajeiri go to him to congragulate him for his sucess by ilisidi. even ilisidi her self praised him.

bren explains to ilisidi about the little hostage situation for sadin if the guild master tries shit with also the pissed crew.

bren hopefully tries to get to bed.  and thanks ilisidi and cenedi for the advice. 

banichi suggests to take over the station as they help him to bed . thank goodness the gets the rest he needs.

jago is sad to have to wake him up. jase wants to tell him to to try to interrogate there guests.

he tells jago to hide while he deals with this with there guards they have with the ship crew. he also tells her to please sleep. 

12

jase is waiting for him and bren has given him food to eat and also  the prisoners.

he has the little hard fruit candies and give them to kaplan . polano and jase in a way to calm down.

oh shit they have ave got some sick crew members. from the archives in maybe origins.

he is taken to where the prisoners are , in the medial bay. bren tries  to tempt them with food. they do not want to take it.

he is rubbing in their face about how much things are better are back at the phoenix.

damn bren knows how to guilt trip these guys.  he is also just getting to them. 

he dumps the bomb about what is happening to the whole thing that happened those thousend years ago.

becker may not have budged but bren might keep trying.

13

he is getting dressed to plan to see what is going on with jago and banichi to see what could be.

I need to count when ilisidi hits caljeiri with the cane in this book, cuse it happens a bunch.

ilisidi is a hundred percent done with the stations bullshit and says fuck it we are going to tell the prisoners to stop getting in her way.

its so funny that kaplan calls ilisidi gran sidi . he is also worried they are not gonna be polite as he puts it.

those poor bastards have no idea what they are dealing with. and the crew are fucking cheering for her to beat their ass. 

turns out the guild members are looking for the log and they may have found it.

holy hell one of them named coroia who has kids and kind of admit they need help. becker do no fucking shout in front of ilisidi , the fucking atevi hate that when superiors are shouted at.

polano you doing amazing sweetie. go crew go!

becker is shocked that cajeriji is a 7 year old kid . 

one of the prisoners dropped a bomb shell that there was no dead alien , because the humans managed to get on and hold them prisoner.

they give them a deal to get the families a chance to get on the ship so that they get the fuel and the alien prisoner. hell even becker says fuck it he is helping these poeple to not have there loved ones not be on that damn station anymore.

okay ilisidi wacked cajeriji with her finger this time.

ren comes up with a plan to carry out to invate the ship.

14

bren admits to jase he took the photo from his office to protect them when the thing would happen. also to tell jase to get some rest.

they talk about the nightmare fuel of senarios that could be dealing with the situation. he also asks jase to get a sleeping pill to rest better.

he tells narani to try to make a bunch of written paper for jase idea on how to get the atevi to not be seen as a threat.

15

jase sleeps , thank goodness 

he talks with jago to explain to her the disappearance of sabin. 

banichi is so insist on to taking the station. he suggests to use the access to get control of the ship and seek out the location of the prisoner.  banichi is at first weirded our by the plan but he gos around to it.

he suggests to go with banichi to help with the who thing. they also get help from gin and cenedi. 

gin is upset about the robots being used and the translating for robot is roboti

to annoy the gaurds.

he writes a letter to both tabini , toby , his staff and jase about this plan if it gose to shit.

jase Aproved of the plan and warns him of the fact that ramirez's key maybe with ogun or sabin.

the fucking brochures look like travel brochures except for a planet.

 he gets anxious when the numbers are not an odd number. gin , the atevi and him go through. with barnhart with them. 

there is a damaged station waiting for them while they are in a pod. and a shoot out happens.  jago grabs him to shield him from harm.

they slowly make there way to the place . bren Give a brochure to a guy in a man at a desk. stop the guy from trying to call security and get him to find the prisoner. 

is funny how he get some one to look at the brocure befor seeing a scated bren aming a gun to the guys head.

they get to the prisoner then get the hell out with them. seems to blow gas out. they succeed but something might have happened and jase wants to speak with them.

16

oh shit jenrette is there and hurt with kaplan. esentually the robot plan helped jenrette to get back to the ship to try to help get a message from sabin.

bren suspects that ramirez wanted to go back to take the station from the guild .  he also supects that jenrette may have killed ramirez and is fucking lying. 

wow jase is not having it with jenrette shit. deskbound is a new one. it may have hitted jenrette . holy hell jentrette is one back stabby bastard. wow as a traitor deserves as they say, making him go out to spy again for a parden.

they plan to try to talk to the alien in what way they could.  

bren meets back and finds that his staff got clothes that do not look like shit.

the laine tried to bite poeple. gin is also grieving her robot who heroicly was destroyed to help them. 

sigaiji . a work for a leader who could not get more followers. or  a rouge

poor bindanda having to make new clothes quickly.

cajeiri wants to see the alien but cenedi looks at him to say no.

the aliens name may be prakuyo. its kind of sad and funny that prakuyo just says "Damn Dumb Shit". also brings up Madison 

they get Prakuyo to go to the the dinner and serve the guest tea cakes. they get him some more stuff to eat. 

they use stuff to illustrate and try to explain what happened. ilisidi joins and trys to help in what she can

jases comes up and tells them that he needs bren because the ship is back.

17

there is a little of a bit of chaos and jase is haveing to explain to braddock to deal with the ship.

during the argument sabin Finnaly is heard. and tries to get the situation for braddock but jase is not taking it.

prakuyo seems okay in ilisidi company . 

braddock is a little pissy that jase gave him the hand in a way. jase and bren try to fidue out what could have happened to cause the situation.

welp a bunch of the poeple are boarding the ship because fuck the guild master. gin says fuck it she is getting the suit to try to fix the shit herself.

bren gets his security and himself to help go with gin. 

18

it takes a good minute to explain how this mob of umans may have come to the ship's door. 

banichi , jago , bren , barnhart and three of ilisidi's men desabi , anaro and kasari are in a lift to see the humans.

getting poeple to evecuate the station is a fucking night mare.

they get into a nasty as hell pelleting of the gaurds and thankfully bren is protected  by his gaurds and still tries to act politely . they are tool that braddock is in his office .

yeah fuck you baraddock fuck you. jag thank you for getting him. barnhart gets the speaker in the office to announce to everyone to start getting of the station.

while he is around he heard sabin and finds jenrette . thay also kind of do not know where gin is. and jenrette is already in everyone's shit list so no one mourns his death

sabins okay and helped them get the fuel for the ship. says hato . word for good in ragi. she just wants her wounded crew aboard the ship.

19

they kind of startle the refugees but they do make it to the medial. 

the situations a bit chaotic and bren explains what is currently happening and seems like they are still talking to the alien ship.

banichi got a minor cut that bren got a bit worried of. banichi tells branhart that he owes him a drink for the help.

oh my gosh ilisidi , cajeiri , parakuyo and ilisidi and brens staff are watching black and white cartoons.

he finds out jago and banichi with held injuries to keep him from worrying about them 

he explains the situation to ilisidi and what they need to do for parakuyo. parakuyo is a fast ish ragi learner. ilisidi says fuck it lets call up the alien ship for parakuyo. 

bren theories that ragi is easier for patakuyo then english .  jase is a little worried about ilisidi and cajeiri and bren to visit the ship.

20

they get ready for they whole shit show on the alien ship.

parakuyo Poeple are called the kyo . seems to not want to be included or maybe assimilated .

the ships here to take them abroad to try to settle the 6 year bullshit once and for all.  cenedi , ilisidi , cajeiri and bren are with parakuyo . 

is in a bit of an argument with the ship owners who probably have a long ass grievance with the humans .

the aliens offer the group  a drink to chill the fuck out.

after explaining that the humans and atevi are gonna fuck off back to their solor system cajeiri gives parakuyo his toy car . 

they explain the good news the jase. 

21

Bren writes a letter to toby and tabini explaining the good news that . the assimilation part is due to the kyo being poeple who have a tendency of assimilating others into there nation. 

he fell asleep at his desk writing it for tabini's letter . he gose back to meet with jase , sabin and ilisidi. 

he gets into the seat to get ready to travel back to earth and carejiri got in trobule with dice fron what jago told him. 

#foreigner series #c. j. cherryh #fansideblogto #foreigner series spoilers

[clownbasedintrigue]

wait shit where's my post where i was "if they touch macallan's lore i'm quitting"

#tginking abt the tf1 callback #and WHY thry made it now out of all times #that and the viper callbacks. bringing blisk back. yknow REVIVING ash #i Do Not Trust Respawn #look look. barkers the mostly likely of the three to be brought back bc he's a fan fvaorite #macallan is dead and VERY solidly dead. like space dust and nuclear explosion kind of dead but that hasmt stopped them before #ash was LITERALLY ON TYPHON when it went boom (unless i missed a piece of lore) and she was space dust dead!!!! #and they still brought her back!!!! #also graves is dead?? as far as we know at least #and like. blisk has come back. blisk wants smth enough to come knocking on ash's door. blisk also has Very personal beef w mac and graves #like...ur teammate. a part of ur unit. the pilot u work with throughout the titan war betrays you #and then fifteen yrs later you very narrowly miss getting to kill himself yourself? and watch him get his final moments of heroic glory #even if he died he still messed up your plans and then was framed as a war hero? #and then to top it off ur long-time commander for those fifteen yrs AND the yrs in the war. Turns around and betrays you as well??? #leaving you to be one of the only people left in charge of a floundering army stranded at the far end of space??? #bro i would be fucking PISSED #wait shit *****graves ISNT dead #i hate the tumblr tag system sometimes lmao #anyways. if they bring thr tf1 cast back im fuckong losing it #this doesnt include barker or briggs they deserve the spotlight and were also in the second game #homk honk #head full many thoughts

[29121996]

realisimg some.fucked up shit actuslly?

#i shpuldve known nonenof them were good when thry all went to the show tgth anf didnt invite me. #like jv jm and le werr all there together #e was w someojenelse im p sure #they just didnt want md fhdre. #and yet i continued to b friends w them for anothdr several months lol. #man that ehole group gimeline feels like a fjcking fever dream. lime so mhcb dhit hspprned in such a short soan of time likw. #what the acrysl fuck were any of us doing. why was that tbe outcome. #idk msn i still find it funny tbst jv slept with 3/4 of uz but was romanticslly talking to ALL of us at some point that year. #LILENDJSNDIDDJ #anyway. #god . this sgit feels fucking inssne i reslly cant wsit until i see a therapist and jusr go: #'now hold on. i wanna tell u a story that is basically the whole rrason im here. its gonna tske a while and u might wanna take notes' #'of ppl btw. theres a few side stories that are jmportsnt but i will sum those up. and thrn u will see why im unhinged acrually.' #like i feel .that all of that made me so unhinged bc thats so mhch???????? #i got dropped thrice by ppl i considered good friends. #gave a dumb dog a part of me aftrr i didnt ever wanna . ymnow. #only to find out i was lied to (intentionally or not thats how it came across lol) #and thrn was pubically slammed online and called out to thd fact that i was a fucking VIRGIN up until that point. #like . holy shit?????????? it got to the point where i qjit my job anf turned fo drinking agsin. #like uh. #ahaha anyway.

[sainadazai]

hi, could I request dad ushijima headcanons?

Yes ofc :)

Things Dad!Ushi does

He doesn't understand that when your child is a baby, they are...just a baby

Speaks to them seriously as if they will respond to him

It's cute tho-

He will be in the kitchen warming up some milk at midnight, asking the baby about their day

"Your mother told me you almost fully lifted your head today. I always told her you would be strong c/n."

Ushijima goes on a run each morning, and if his kid is being fussy, he just straps them in a carrier and takes them with

It's like weight training

He won't admit to this, but when he is alone with the two of you, he likes to play with their little belly fat

It's so cute how their tummy is chubby he just wants to kiss it all the time-

When they grow more and begin walking and talking, he will realize somehow that he produces the most genius kids in the world

Will ask for more

He knows you don't like it, but he never palys the stupid kids shows when he's watching them, he always puts on a volleyball match

Thinks that he can manipulate the infant into loving volleyball

Doesn't goof around at all, though

You are for playtime and Ushi is for serious training 😡

Instead of teasing around with toys he will do drills with your 4 year old 😀

Sports is how he has fun, so he figures that they will too

It's kinda funny to come home to find a grown man in your backyard doing push-ups next to a pre-schooler

He cheers them on, too, just to be sure they don't feel sad

"Thats it, your almost at two push-ups c/n, hold on, we must record this! Your mother will be so proud she always tells me she likes muscles."

He doesn't understand that the strength isn't what makes you like his muscles :/

Its okay though

Does not give a shit about gender norms because he never knew they existed.

He will let them go to school in a too too and polka dot leggings if they want. Regardless of gender.

He thinks anything they chose to wear is perfect- so why would he change it

If anyone teases them he WILL be seeing the principle about it.

He loves taking them to the gym with him when they are old enough.

Not to workout, but to meet his team

Kageyama pretends to hate them but they play tag all day

Your kid is competitive as shit. Can't help it, it's in the genes

So they will throw tantrums if they ever lose st anything.

However, you can't rely on your wonderful baby daddy to help because he insists on never intentionally losing a game.

They like to play connect four together

So one day you teach your six your old an easy way to beat dad and instead of shaking hands and admitting defeat he refuses to talk to them all day-

Ushi doesn't like losing :/ so now you have two babies to take care of

He wants three kids.

He says that they will be bestfriends and he always wanted siblings growing up

But when you bring home your second child and the first one starts to throw toys at it he gets so confused.

At first he yells, and c/m goes to time out "we do not throw toys!"

But later that night, when you are sound asleep and he is waiting for the baby to inevitably get hungry, he is wondering why on earth your kids wouldn't love eachother

Like...#2 is so cute? Looks just like c/n with that cite lil baby chub :(

He solves the problem by saying that exactly to the 6 year old 😃

"But c/n they have little fat legs? And chubby cheeks? And they laugh when they fart? Just like you."

Somehow it works tho-

They bond over farts and Ushi regrets this so much

He buys a dad car

Two car seats and toys and Disney music

His teammates tease him for it but it so convenient? Why didn't he buy it ages ago?

Struggles a lot with letting go

Like when he has to travel for games

Puts on a brave face for the kids and the calls you on the plane begging to see them and know what you were doing the 30 minutes he's been gone

Being a dad doesn't make him laze off on sex.

He IS a dilf

Although he doesn't know what a dilf is

He is prepared to read a story book to his babies and then pound you into that mattress

Sometimes he does get sick of them

Not specifically, but once they are old enough to argue with him he gets so tired

He insists on not yelling at them

So when thry don't listen he has to put on that stern and scary face but deep inside he really just wants to give them anything they want

Only disciplines them because he knows you'll get mad at him for not

They know how to schmooze him, though

It's the same look you used to give him

Those big brights eyes and soft pout, almost teary with want

He gives in everytime

The man can't help himself he made SUCH CUTE KIDS TF

You don't like it. But you let it happen

Because you know he loves them more than anything in the world <3

#hq daichi #hq atsumu #hq ushijima #domestic haikyuu #hq smut #hq anime #hq imagines #hq hcs

[narmisseite]

Am I Step-sis or

Mommy ?

Character : Yuuji Itadori

Reader : Female (dom)

Plot : After y/n gets adopted in jujutsu school, she and yuuji get close to each other indeed very close at one point.

Warnings : mommy kink, bondage, semi public sex, creampie, foul speech and lots more.

Another day in Jujutsu School. You lost your parents 3 months back when a curse attacked them . You and your family was having a peaceful dinner when all this happened. You saw the curse slowly takin life away from your parents and you couldnt do anything about it but just watch it. As you saw the curse the jujustu socerers thought you were a special kid and so the took you in but under a condition. I had to stay with other grade 1 socerers and learn about killing curses. You thought to yourself that you have nothing else to loose now, you will atleast have a house to live under too so you didnt deny.

And now you were stuck with teenage boy who is handsome as hell and kind and humble. Takes care of you and loves you with all hir heart but, ... as a little sister. He is Yuuji Itadori. You were fed up being treated like a little sister and being cared about all the times especially by yuuji. You both shared a room together had fun together and learned together. You and yuuji were Gojo sensei's best students after Yuuta. But yuuji would just treat you as a sister even though you knew that he had feelings for you.

So you decided to slice things up a bit. "Oni-chan ! Wanna study today we have theory exams coming up next week and i have some doubts could you help" you shouted out to yuuji whose was standing standing across the hallway with nobara. "Young lady wants to top this year huh ! Ganbare y/n chan !" Nobara greets you patting your head. You smile to her encouragement. "Ok fine then be in your room in afternoon after practice okay ?" Yuuji said walking past you.

-time skip to afternoon in room-

You waited in you room all ready for studying the art of seduction today. You wore a white tight tshirt which showed you cleavage and tight shorts whuch defined you round buttcheeks. Yuuji entered the room with his bag and was quite surprised at the way you were dressed today. But he ignored it and placed hi bag down and sat on the chair. "So y/n what doubts do you have tell me" . You started telling him various silly questions as the clock kept ticking. And at one point of time you you dropped down you pencil. "Lemme me pick it up,oni-chan" you bent over almost flashing you tits to your step brother. You could the tension getting created in the air and the nervousness getting built up in his veins. "Umm..yo.you got your pencil?" He asked as he rubbed the back of his neck. "Haiii!"you screamed pretending aa if nothing happened. After a few more question you bounced of your chair and exclaimed," Oh ! I forgot i had a doubt in the other book too, wait lemme get it" you walked away for the table towards the corner of your room where you kept your bag on the floor. You kneeled down on your knees and bent over to remove the book from your bag. Yuuji's eyes had followed you all the way there and now thry were on your ass. You smirked as you kept fidgeting in the bag knowing well you ass was showing clearky through thos 3 inch shorts. Yuuji couldnt resist anymore he started sweating profusely as he rubbed his buldge that was getting build up in his pants. He couldnt help but stare at his step-sis. "Heres another doubt !" You sat cheerfully on the chair back again and saw the change in yuuji. "Oni-chan why are you sweating so muach are you all right ?". "Umm ... ye...y...yess *cough* *cough*" Yuuji said in a hesitant tone. "Oh wait here drinm some water. You handed over glass to him when you dropped some water on his pants . "Oh noo i am so sorry for the mess i made lemme me clean it up for you ,Onii-chan~"

Part 2 due on Tuesday, 28th December.

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[flightlessangelwings]

How You Calm the Comandante

Comandante Veracruz x afab!reader (smut with no pronoun use)

Word count: 2.9k

Warnings: smut (18+ only), fingering, edging, unprotected sex, rough-ish sex (it’s actually fairly tame for V here lol), cockwarming, Veracruz-typical violence, migraines, fluff

Idea based off of this anon I got that I loved so much I had to write: Veracruz would be a fucking pouty angry man who takes it all out on his subordinates when he is sick/has a headache. They all pray he goes to see his girl cause thry can't take much more of his wrath! But Veracruz grumpily melts into a puddle when she fusses over him.

Gif credit: @ewan-mcgregor​

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Comandante Veracruz was in a mood. He usually tended to be, but today especially he was extremely short tempered and irritable. He stalked around the compound where he was currently stationed with his men for training exercises with a deep scowl on his face and a don’t-fuck-with-me air about him. It made his men absolutely terrified.

His yells could be heard throughout the complex, and the men cowered in fear and just hoped that Veracruz’s wrath would not be directed at them next. They hid when they could, and did their best to appease him when they couldn’t. Even with how the comandante was on a normal day, this was exceptionally tough for the men.

Veracruz ducked into a shadowed corner and buried his head in his hands. The pain that rang through his skull was almost unbearable and he had never felt anything like this before. His eyes felt like they were on fire in his skull and every sound and light source felt like he was getting stabbed in the temple. No doubt this was a migraine, and a particularly nasty one at that.

With a heavy breath, Veracruz gathered himself again and moved back out to command his men. Today though, “commanding” took on a whole different meaning as he tried to cover his pain with shouts and screams. They ran dills harder than ever before, and Veracruz even pulled his gun on those who did not respond fast enough to his orders.

No doubt they were all terrified, and they had to do something about the comandante’s sour mood. Most of them just did their best and hoped that Veracruz would leave and go see you. He was always in a much better mood after his visits with you, and it did not take a genius to figure out why. The men began to think that some time with you was their only hope.

Veracruz’s lieutenant, his second in command, finally decided to do something. And, acting in the men’s best interest as well as Veracruz’s, he snuck out of the compound and drove to your place. He was the person, other than you, that Veracruz trusted the most. And he was the only one who knew where you lived. Veracruz kept it a secret for your own safety, but he also decided that he needed a backup in case anything ever happened and someone other than himself needed to get to you.

You opened the door with a surprised look on your face. You recognized the lieutenant, but you had no idea why he was here instead of Veracruz, “Is everything alright?” you asked.

He let out a deep exasperated sigh, “Not exactly,” he briefly explained the comandante’s mood and current violent rage, “He even shot one of the new recruits in the foot when he didn’t move fast enough,” the poor guy sounded so tired.

You let out a heavy sigh at that and immediately understood why he was here. With a nod, you agreed to come with him, even though you knew it broke protocol as well as several rules. You figured that since this was within the complex and they were only working on training exercises, it would be ok for you to sneak in to take care of your comandante. Besides, Veracruz had snuck you out into the field before so this was not nearly as risky.

The drive was quiet and the sun had started to set when the lieutenant pulled into the complex with you in the passenger seat. You were quiet in the drive, and you could tell that the man next to you relaxed visibly as he led you toward the comandante. Your overnight bag sat in your lap; you came prepared since you always tended to spend a good amount of time with Veracruz whenever you were together.

After he parked and guided you through the complex, you could see looks of relief on the men’s faces. You had to laugh to yourself; you knew they knew why you were here. Honestly, you felt bad for them, and you hoped that your visit would help. Veracruz may have kept you a secret from his enemies and anyone else, but his men knew exactly who you were.

The lieutenant stopped in front of a door with Comandante Veracruz’s name on it, and gave you a grateful nod and small smile before he turned to leave. You shook your head; all these tough military men and they needed you to calm the rage of their leader. With a half grin, you knocked at the door and you rolled your eyes when you heard his muffled yell on the other side.

When the door swung open forcefully, you were met with Veracruz’s scowl in your face. But, he immediately relaxed and dropped his shoulders when he saw that it was you. A fire still burned in his eyes, and you could tell that he was in a lot of pain, though he tried to hide it. He scanned you over as he breathed your name.

“What the hell are you doing here?” he snapped and immediately winced at the loudness of his own voice.

You weren’t intimidated by his attitude and you didn’t back down; you knew he would never do anything to you so matter what his mood was, “I was told you needed me,” you answered matter-of-factly.

Veracruz growled as he smiled through grit teeth. He grabbed your arm and pulled you into his quarters and slammed the door shut behind him. You were taken aback at how dark the room was, but you didn’t have time to dwell on it as the comandante tossed your bag to the corner and slammed you up against the door.

“V, what is it?”

His answer came with a heated kiss as he used his body to keep you in place. Veracruz’s hands ran down your body and bunched your shirt up and lifted it up over your head. You took the opportunity when he broke away to remove your shirt for a deep breath before his lips were on yours again. While his tongue tangled with yours, you clung to his shirt as he worked to unfasten your pants.

Just as the comandante loosened your jeans, you tried to fiddle with his own clothes, but he had other plans. He grabbed your wrists and pinned them up above your head with one of his large, strong hands while his other hand dipped down below your underwear. Veracruz swallowed the moan you let out with his mouth as he pushed two fingers into your cunt.

As much as Veracruz usually loved to hear your moans, his migraine did not allow for loud sounds in the room, so he kept his mouth on yours as he feverishly pumped his fingers in and out of you. Your muffled moans and the wet sounds from between your legs were almost soothing to him and strangely helped with the throbbing pain in his head. However, it created a new problem as Veracruz quickly got hard from the way you writhed and whimpered at his touch. 

You strained against his hand and bucked your hips, desperate for more. Veracruz grinned against your lips and picked up the pace. Your heat around his fingers was more comforting than he thought it would be, and the feeling of your body against his eased the pain he felt. Just as you were about to cum, however, Veracruz pulled away. He laughed darkly at the whimper you let out, and the two of you locked eyes for a moment before he reached out for you again and yanked your pants down. A shiver ran though you at the sudden rush of cool air against your skin, but you didn’t have time to dwell on it as the comandante led you back towards his bunk.

As you let him lead you into the room, you grabbed onto his shirt and pulled him in for another desperate kiss. You fumbled with the buttons on his shirt as he backed you up against his bunk, though you were not as quick or graceful as he was with your own clothing. A small yelp escaped your lips when you felt the back of your legs hit the edge of his bunk and you heard him chuckle softly against your skin. Veracruz let you remain standing so you could strip him of the rest of his clothes.

He watched with darkened eyes as you tenderly pushed his now open shirt off of his shoulders. While your hands worked to undo his belt, his own wandered all over your naked body. You let out a surprised squeal when Veracruz gave your ass a squeeze, and he only grinned at you in response. He always liked to turn things into a game with you, and as needy as he was for you, Veracruz enjoyed when he made things harder for you.

So he distracted you the best way he could: by touching and caressing your body in every place he knew drove you wild, especially with how sensitive you were after being edged once. Veracruz’s hand moved up your sides and he felt you shiver under his touch before he grabbed your breasts firmly. You gasped and leaned forward into his chest as he pinched your nipples and rolled them between his fingers. You moaned softly as you shoved his pants down, but your strength always started to leave your body as he played with you.

Veracruz took pity on you and let you go so that he could push his pants down. The moment he stepped out of them, he pushed you onto the bunk and you landed on your back with a grunt. The comandante crawled on top of you and groaned into your mouth as he kissed you passionately.

You sighed against his lips as you wrapped your arms and legs around him, desperate to have him closer to you. Veracruz kissed his way down your neck and bit down hard at the sensitive spot there, which made you moan loudly. He hissed at the sudden noise, but he was not as bothered by it. As long as it was your moans and cries, Veracruz could deal with the searing pain in his head.

He bucked his hips against you as his hand trailed down your body to your slit and he growled when he felt how wet you were. Perhaps a little too roughly, Veracruz pushed a finger inside you once again and you whimpered for a moment before it turned into moans of pleasure. He broke away from your neck for a moment to watch your face as he added a second finger and pumped them in and out of your body rhythmically. 

When you felt his gaze on you, your eyes fluttered open and you breathed his name in a desperate plea for more. You reached out for his length and began to stroke it slowly. Veracruz groaned as he rocked his hips against your hand before he realized his own movements. As both of you locked eyes with each other, you both found that you slowed your movements and just got lost in each other’s eyes. It was an intimate moment that didn’t happen often with Veracruz, but he came to treasure those moments when they do happen.

Just as the moment started, the comandante ended it as he pulled his fingers out of you and lined himself up at your entrance. In his mind, he thought that he could fuck his migraine away and use your body for his own gain. Of course, however, he would never leave you unsatisfied. Perhaps others liked to think differently, but Veracruz always made sure you had your fill when he fucked you, and he prided himself on his ability to make you scream so loud that you lost your voice for a brief time.

But because of the almost blinding pain in his head, Veracruz entered you much more slowly than he normally would. Regardless, you moaned and bucked your hips against him as he stretched your pussy out with his length. When he was fully sheathed inside you, he paused as collapsed down on top of your body. You felt so good around his cock, and Veracruz was pissed off that the pain in his head didn’t allow him to enjoy the feeling of you fully.

“V? You ok?” you asked in a hushed voice as you wrapped your arms around him.

Not one to be defeated by anything, Veracruz quickly recovered and pushed himself back up with a low groan. His eyes trailed down your figure as he took in the sight of you underneath him in the dim light. Even in the darkness, he could still see the outline of your body and he groaned when his eyes locked on to your pussy with his cock buried deep inside it.

The sight set off something within Veracruz and he planted his hands on either side of you and started to pound relentlessly into you. Immediately, you threw your head back against the firm mattress of the bunk and cried out in pleasure as you clung to his shoulders. 

But the comandante soon changed positions and he brought his arms down and hooked them around the back of your knees. He used the leverage to hike your legs up and folded you in on yourself. The action drove his cock even deeper into your pussy and you both groaned at the action. The comandante stilled himself at the new angle for a moment and just relished the feeling of your cunt and the look of sheer pleasure on your face.

“Mine,” Veracruz spoke in a low growl for the first time as he thrust into you again.

Your cries filled the room, but Veracruz didn’t care. Where others' sounds felt like a stab in his head, your sounds were music to his ears. He wrapped one of his arms around your thigh to reach your clit and rubbed furious circles. You clawed at wherever you could reach as you bucked your hips against his and felt your orgasm build up already.

“Yours…” you whispered as you held onto his knees, “V… I’m close…”

His grip on you tightened at your words as he sped up his thrusts, “Come, cariño.”

That was all it took for your climax to wash over you. Your whole body trembled as you came with his name on your lips. Your inner muscles clenched on his length as your legs shook on either side of his head. And your orgasm triggered Veracruz’s own as he growled your name as spilled his seed deep inside you. The warmth that flooded his body was the welcome relief that he had chased all day. 

Once Vercruz rode out both of your orgasms, he collapsed down on top of you. His cock stayed buried in your pussy as he let all the tension in his body go and just covered you with his body. You let out a surprised grunt, but you immediately caressed his sides to let him know you weren’t hurt. You didn’t want to lose the connection to him just yet.

He buried his face in the crook of your neck as you wrapped your legs around his waist and moved your hands up to stroke his head. Veracruz stayed still on top of you as you ran your hands through his hair a few times before you gently massaged his scalp. You felt him tense for a moment before he just melted into your touch. Normally he hated his hair touched, but you had a feeling this would help ease the pain he felt.

With a smile, you focused on the back of his head first and rubbed circles at the base of his skull. You felt how tight the muscles at the base of his neck were and you were determined to get them to release. His head became heavier on the top of your shoulder as he groaned softly and you knew you achieved the effect you wanted.

Next you ran your hands up the sides of his skull and rubbed small circles on the pressure points there. You found the grooves of his skull and pressed harder there to relieve the pressure that came with a headache. After a few moments, you changed direction and scraped your nails along his scalp in a soothing manner. 

The connection between you and Veracruz was unlike anything else before. He remained still and calm on top of you, his softened cock still inside you while you soothed his aches. It was an intimacy that was unmatched and you would give anything to stay like this forever. This was a first for Veracruz too, and little did you know that he would wish for the same if it were possible.

You stayed comfortable underneath him while you continued to work on his scalp for a long while. His weight on you was a welcome one, and as you rubbed at his scalp more and more he felt heavier and heavier.

“V…?” you whispered against his ear.

His response came with a soft snore, and you realized that he fell asleep at your touch. Between how he wore himself out in the heat of passion with you and your soothing touches afterwards, Veracruz couldn’t stay awake any longer. His face stayed nuzzled against your skin so you couldn’t see that his expression had softened, but you were alright with that. You placed a soft kiss to the side of his head before you shifted yourself slightly underneath him so you could fall asleep as well. 

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Notes: I hope that anon sees this because I loved that though so much I just had to write it! And honestly, I had a lot more fun writing the non smut part of this lol. As always, taglists are open!

#comandante veracruz x reader #comandante veracruz #veracruz x reader #comandante veracruz x you

[noro-noro-noro]

dreamed again

first bit was like I was playing w a stranger on a modded Minecraft server. no idea how any of it worked but there were weird caches that had skeleton eggs (?) like not skeleton spawn eggs but red eggs that had cursed purple skeletons in there on them. the person I was with also had several buttons labelled "oh fuck" in the overworld that wluld teleport you back to base. they were very blunt & businesslike. to the point. idk why I was there but I think I was like forced to live in there or whatever so that was also the world. most of the time I was inside trying to tend creatures.

actually this came before - I was bringing home a bag of small crabs & horseshoe crabs & also giant triops & other made up dream crustaceans. & an alien-like sea urchin made f 6 or 8 jointed segments that would extend its segments through anything slowly but surely to gain more nutrients. I got a HUGE tank and put it in my mom's living room & tried to amke them.comfy - I wasn't planning on keeping wild animals, but I needed to have them, so they light as well be in a better environment than a bucket of water. there were also several mid size dead and decaying animals I threw in for them to eat.there was also several isopods . one in particular was like a rubber duck one exceot with a white body instead and he was super interested and active. my sister wasn't scared of him

eventually the first tank was too full of water(we had no lids) and I realized the creatures might jump out so I asked my sister to help me drain water & she broke the whole thing. I tried to save everything but some of the tiny fish died while I was gettjng two new tanks setup. I threw them in for the crustaceans to eat, and eventually the second tank was devoured and eaten through by the special sea urchin that ate glass. and this happened BEFORE the Minecraft dream bc it then shifted into me taking care of mieceaft fish in our base.

scene shift & that person became wrio genshin. his story quest was now released....! and it was about helping those two researchers that hate each other but everyone thinks they're in a relationship bc they disappear to the infirmary at the same time all the time. this was a 3rd person dream where I was basically just watching the traveller as she assisted wriothy with helping the researchers as thry bickered the whole time. there was a scene where she went too far out of her way for them and got hurt and wrio came to visit her as soon as possible in the infirmiary and like grabbed her chin and leaned over very closely tp have the conversation. it seemed like she was about to be kissed & was like um !!!? 😳😳😳😳 and then the researchers peeked in and immediately started gossippibg like "and everybody says WE are in a relationship even though we hate each other and these people are RIGHT THERE doing this kind of stuff with the duke ‼️" & wrio kinda smilled & sighed & walked away to reprimand them like"do you really think spreading rumors about the Duke of the fortress of meropide, your employer, is a good idea?" & they eere like "no your grace sorry your grace see you later" & scurried off, & thr story quest ended with a cgg of rhe traveller doing that anime girl thing where thry look off to the side beet red and touch their lips where they were almost kissed, & wrio in the bg. I was like wow.they really went shippy with this one this never happens. even with ayaka and Xiao.

hm after that I had a dream I was with my sister at ?a beach resort or smth. there was a GIANT wall of makeup products including a bunch of really weird colors of eyeliner. I tested out a bright silver from a silver/orange/gold palette & actually genuinely really liked it,so I wanted to buy it without the rest of the pallette. apparently the owner of the brand was in the same town, so I told my sister I'd be back and walked over. the makeup store was also part hair salon - a girl was getting her hair died to have like a dark blue tint with kther rgb streaks in it & each streak that overlapped had like a sparkle illuminating that part, but the sparkle was dyed in..anywsy the whole place was run by a large and very friendly trans lady. I asked her directly aboit the eyeshadow I saw and also asked for a haircut since my split ends were acting up.in the dream I was also on my period & the lady said sympathetically "oh if you're on your perjod your splot ends get worse but we ca fix that!" & I was like okay.... and sat on the hairsresser chair, which was more of like a lounge chair than a normal one.

I don't remember if she actually did anything about the hair bc a lot of people I knew suddenly came inside. kt wasnow dark and raining outside. one of my studio classmates revealed that she'd lived in this shop before bc the owner kindly let her use the room upstairs for free after her landlord screwed her over. also the assistant from work showed up but younger? and I forgot her name and said it was ALMOND. so embarrassing. anyway I was just sitting in the chair for a while and texting y sister updates. when I asked again about the silver eyeliner, she revealed that they were leftovers shipped in from somewhere else & arrived here unlabeled, but she'd try to find the one I wanted for me.

eventually I went to walk home but the weather was so bad.... I was treated to another 3rdperson scene of lumine genshin impact waking up in a cozy bed in a strange room with leafy branches putsife the window and a warm sun shining through. wrio's Castle...? (even though he's only I charge of the underwater giant prison) then I woke up . I need to wash my hair but kts getting stixky again and I don't want to.

#dreams

[justasimplesinner]

Almost forgot about this!

Can I request headcanons of Venom, Carnage and Spawn getting the most sincere, loving kiss and "I love you" from their male s/o.

(Can you even kiss Spawn🤨 I mean I did see some official art of him with a venom mouth, so I guess)

okay, i did my fair share of research about Spawn but that motherfucker has a history so complicated and so detailed i'm not nearly as knowledgeable about him as the other two, so i'm sorry if my take on his character sucks. if ya'll got any tips on how to write him, please share

and, as i promised before, i'm making this request GENDER NEUTRAL fo everyone to enjoy

Venom not knowing how to handle love hcs:

Venom is a simple creature. they take what they want whenever they want, they're not afraid to destroy whatever stands in their path - in short, they're not exactly a good creature. not necessarily bad but not necessarily good either. their life wasn't exactly filled with love and affection. Eddie's might have, but the alien itself finds love a pretty foreign concept. but thry know when they feel love, and it certainly is around you

it's not like it's their first time being kissed. you've kissed them before. they know how it feels to have your lips against theirs, and it feels good. but you've never kissed them like that. you've never looked at them like that, never cupped their face like that, never... never said it out loud. they don't find words nearly as meaningful or powerful as actions, but hearing that from you... it's different. it was different. something changed and it was a good change. it felt like they were truly allowed to feel. you made them feel something. you always did, but not so much. you made them feel guilty, you made them feel happy, sometimes you even made them feel angry, but this time, you made them feel... loved

it takes them a moment to calm down the emotions raging inside them. it's like they didn't know it meant so much but their heart did, their soul did, and they understood the true significance behind your words. they now understood how it felt to be loved. this is something new to them, so don't be surprised if they practically pounce on you, engulf you in their body, lick you all over like an excited puppy. they can't quite handle that feeling yet, so you have to deal with all that

Carnage not knowing how to handle love hcs:

while Venom is a simple creature, Carnage is an even simpler creature. they just don't care. they don't give a shit. they do whatever the fuck they want whenever the fuck they want. they don't give a shit about morals, they don't give a shit about feelings, they don't give a shit about others. and then you made them care. you made them want to do something good. just for you, of course, not for some fucking society. you made them want to protect you, you made them care about someone other than themselves and Cletus, you made them scared for your well-being. and let me tell you, it was fucking hard for them to accept and handle all that

they have no fucking idea what love even is. they heard about it but they laughed at it. they stopped laughing when they met you. you made them scared, you made them feel guilty about some things, you sometimes made them hurt because you didn't accept all their advances (and those advances include but aren't limited to: being gifted dead animals, being randomly picked up and taken to the roof of one of the highest buildings in the city and basically being endangered in at least one way). and if that wasn't love, they didn't know what was. if that burning need to be around you, to be with you wasn't love, then nothing was. but, despite realising that this might've been a deeper feeling than just "tolerating" you, they never really admitted it. they never said it. but most importantly, they never expected you to say it

what you said, what you did, hit them like a ton of bricks. all at once. just like that. three simple words. just a stupid fucking "i love you". and it made their head spin. it made their heart beat faster. you didn't just "tolerate" them either. you didn't put up with their bullshit because you thought you had no choice (although you really didn't), and all that affection you spoiled them with wasn't empty or out of pity or some shit. you looked at them, you saw the true monster that they were, and yet you had it in you to love them. for all they were and weren't, you loved them whole. they won't just let you go after that, you're tied down for life. you're fucking theirs now. and they're going to show you just how much they love you back

Spawn not knowing how to handle love hcs:

Spawn has his experiences with love. well, he has Albert's memories of love, at least. he knows how it feels, and for him it feels meaningless and hurtful. it means pain and disappointment and wasted effort. in the end, it means nothing. he doesn't trust anyone, he doesn't feel for anyone, he doesn't love anyone. anyone but you. you don't bring pain or disappointment. of course, sometimes he hurts because of you and sometimes you hurt because of him, but that's normal. he feels for you, but he wouldn't dare call that feeling love because it'd feel insulting for you. in his eyes, love is nothing good, it's all bitter, no sweet. so he tries not to label that feeling

he recognizes the gestures you do as some from Albert's past, as the gestures he did for his wife and his wife did for him once. and it... scares him. it does. Albert has loved and lost, and he doesn't want to repeat that story. he doesn't want to depend on you, he doesn't want to seek you out, he doesn't want to associate happiness with you, because what if you left? what if you were gone? what would he have then? nothing. but it's too late already. it's too late, and he realises that the second you cup his face so gently. he realises that the second you kiss him, despite him not really being able to kiss you back. he realises that the second you say that wretched word, "love", right to his face. because he realises that he fucking loves you too and it's utterly horrifying

he will be still for a moment, he won't say it back. instead, he'll look at you and ask you why. you will have to make him understand that love doesn't only bring pain and guilt and disappointment, and that love doesn't always end in a disaster. worst part is, he immediately believes you. he doesn't even question it, because he... trusts you. love is trust, and he trusts you, he... loves you. it's terrible but he's never felt better. he's never felt more like he belonged somewhere than when he pressed his forhead to yours and held you close. and in that one moment he decided that, even if it was going to hurt in the end, he wanted to love you like this forever

#hosts #venom #eddie brock #carnage #cletus kasady #spawn #albert simmons #albert francis simmons #maybe i shouldntve tagged the since this isnt about them but fuck it #my writing #headcannons #angst #a lot of fucking angst #i overdid this #i so overdid this shit #too much drama #so fucking stupid #anonymous #i feel like one of them romanticisim-era poets #fucking exaggerating every smallest thing #turning normal shit into one big dramatic experience #and on a sidenote: what kind of fucking pronouns do i use for those fucking idiots