#and I refuse to go back to season one

[bugsbenefit]

scary that there's still Will bowlcut haters around. like... that's his core character design, it looks nice too. sorry to all the different hairstyle enjoyers out there but Will without a bowlcut simply wouldn't be Will to me. that's the side effect of them doubling down on that one single hairstyle for 8 years. they can style it different or make it messier sure, but he needs Some version of a bowlcut otherwise who is that

#Duffers did it to themselves #if they'd change the haircut Now i'll call the s5 hair department a flop no hesitation #not because it would look bad but simply because That's Not My Will that's just noah schnapp with a wig #also unrelated side tangent ik this is just about silly hcs but anytime i talk about Will's hair i get annoyed about how the #bowlcut became the minion meme equivalent of the fandom #i simply refuse to believe people actually hate bowlcuts that much that has to be some kind of moist phenomenon #i've never in my life seen someone irl make fun of bowlcuts or personally even noticed one as 'strange' #but go online and there's apparently consensus that bowlcuts are cringe or something? lmao? #you can probably imagine how surprised i was when i found the st fandom for the first time and everyone just kept talking about Will's hair #when it's literally a normal ass haircut #and meanwhile no one realized that Mike also had a bowlcut for 3 seasons. i swear 'Will bowlcut lmaoo' just became a meme #i'm convinced half of these people don't even know what a bowlcut looks like since they apparently can't recognize one #side tangent over this had nothing to do with what people are talking about actually 😭 #my furstration about the way a fucking haircut out of all things became the funny stinger of the show apparently never goes away #and comes back out any time i type the word hair.... oh well #ignore the tags i was having a moment (flashback having nothing to say after a show besides 'the hairrr 😭')

[kirbyddd]

#school rumble #i could write an essay on it #actually i have #one of the most powerful stories ever written gah it drives me crazy that it comes in such a strange package #the story so powerful the animation team rejected the manga's bs to give the characters the finale they deserved #even though they were forced to retcon it in the final 2 episodes to push for another season #literally they just end the story on episode 19 and hard pivot to movie parody skits/vacation specials for the rest of the episodes #it's magical #until the episode 25 does the ''ohhh nooo they forgot the whole thing and put us right back where we started uh oh whoops'' #''awww looks like we're gonna have to have another season'' #literally #anyway if i ever start feeling emotions im probably going to start school rumble posting and never stop #schoolrum's so stupid you can only appreciate it emotionally #it's not like nichijou where theres still all this artistry and richness you can still engage with if youre cut off heartwise #i didnt even have emotions when i first watched it but it was still powerful enough to make a visceral impact #but at this point im just too far gone i need a bit of heartspace before i can have any chance of actually registering any of it again #<- finally caved and posted a schoolrum rant after like 5 and a half years on here #its the kind of series that lurks forgotten for years at a time #until one day it jumps out and grabs you and refuses to let go until you rewatch it again #best dub in history btw you didnt know english localization and voice acting could be this good #knocks the original japanese out of the park and truly ties everything together #nichijou japanese and school rumble english are the two best animation dubs of all time

[milflewis]

everyday i wonder how max is not embarrassed and today is no different

#sorry . just. wheezing over him refusing to take part in dts which. while it is fair. it does piss me off when ppl go ‘oh poor max being #shown as the villian in season one and two. bless his heart !!! it makes so much sense why he didn’t want to be part of it’ but then turn #around to shit on lewis for not doing a two minute clip at MOST for fucking secret santa. and staying in dts who are worse to him than they #are to max but you just know if he refused to do it then the sympathy shown to max for not doing it would be not given to lewis at all. #and now that max has that number one on his car and then spent last season wanking off to him so they could shit over lewis he’s like. omg #i’m back. i never called them a cunt. dts is my friend #like. have some backbone max ffs. pls be serious. are u not ashamed #anti verstappen #probably #but it’s more funny than anything else. sort of. laughing through my anger etc #blessed.txt

[slippery-minghus]

oh no. i feel like if i do not consume an entire load of bread in the very near future i will simply cease to exist.

#very uh. very worried about my finances right now #like. i'm fine. i have some savings. but i also just got to put something into my savings for the first time in a VERY long time and now #now i immediately have to take it out #and i'm getting stressed out about buying groceries #because if i dip into my savings here what about there? where is the line? #and i owe so much to taxes but i can't exactly afford getting less of my pay...... #my last paycheck was $0.66 more than my rent #my insurance is refusing to reimburse the last of my electrolysis visits from last year and like #i'm SO over the fight but that's $120. that i really actually kinda need? #and i'm starting to get that funny in the head feeling about wondering how i'm going to feed myself #i still feel so much shame about that funeral i went to years ago and my only thought during the reception after was about #how there was just so much food and i could actually eat my fill #i have leftovers for dinner tonight and it's fine but.... making a lovely vegan dish wasn't the best choice tbh #i feel like if i don't have a large helping of bread and meat i'm going to go insane #and it really REALLY doesn't help that i've apparently lost the ability to eat in the mornings #so i'm at quite a significant fuel deficit and it's stacking #but no matter how hungry i am in the morning the concept of processing solid food is just repulsive and daunting #eating a clif bar at 9am would take literally all of my spoons for the day #i was looking at protein shakes since i can handles *drinking* breakfast #but the cheapest one that meets my dietary requirements is $35 for a 12pack #and i'm uh. i'm worrying over spending $10 on produce this week #personal #and nevermind that i don't have the spoons to even GO shopping (: #(on an aside i switched back to my regular melatonin gummies last night and i Actually Slept. so hopefully that will continue and help some) #i just want to curl up in a ball on the floor and have someone gently place a roll of bread and hunk of cheese next to me in my enclosure #also it's photophobia season and i still feel like i haven't recovered from saturday #got too much sunlight and was nauseaus for half the day #my body feels so bad

[jedi-bird]

Went to a yarn store today that's not too far from our house. Drooled over all the pretty soft and squishy things. Managed to talk myself out of buying some expensive but also pretty reasonably priced skeins, but did get some cotton hanks I'll have to wind when I can finally get to my crochet cart again. I really wanted some very pretty cotton and linen blend yarn, but I'll have to wait a bit. There are two more stores I eventually want to check out, but I'll definitely be going back to this one.

#birdy did their best to hold back and not spend hundreds of dollars in one go #the temptation was quite high #even my partner got excited about a few things and they don't crochet or knit #they ultimately refused to let me buy something for them but i might go back and get something later #gift giving seasons are never that far away #I'm hoping i got enough to make a rainbow cardigan #and if not I'll go back and try to find another color that will work

[quietwingsinthesky]

prev post I don’t want to bother op with this but. that is why s5 lucifer is so good too.

#ex. hammer of the gods. I mean he’s fucking gleeful about the massacre. he’s having fun. #and then this is the same episode that ends with him in tears and breathing shakily over his brother #and there’s no one watching. this is not a performance. he is just. he’s grieving. #and idk!! compelling!!! #joke post yesterday about Lucifer crying more onscreen #but actually it was not a joke I would have killed for more moments like this #late seasons lucifer could have been redeemed for me if like. we just had scenes where he stopped for a minute. #like maybe when he hears about Raphael’s death. maybe when Chuck refuses to pull Michael out of the cage with Lucifer. #and just fucking!!!! let him mourn them in privacy!!!!!!!! #like it’s not much but that would have added a little depth to his spiral!!!!! he’s alone!!!! he’s the only one alive and free!!!! #ahhhh late seasons lucifer who is exactly the same when around the human characters or demons because he just. doesn’t care anymore. #but when it comes to Heaven. to his remaining siblings. he puts in the effort to care about them. #you know just like how much better would it have been if Lucifer was completely and utterly genuine in his attempts to create new angels #and he just couldn’t. he didn’t know he couldn’t and he finds out because he’s trying and he can’t. #nothing much has to change he can still get kicked out for ‘lying’ about being able to. #whos’s going to believe him when he says he didn’t know? #and now imagine a version of Jack & Lucifer’s relationship coming off the crux of that #Jack is the last ditch attempt at creation. the breaking point. #I’m rambling but you see it. you see it right? the desperate grasping at something he could never get back? #the way everything would clash. if he treated Jack with love. but everything else could burn for all he cared. #cause Jack was it. he tried to make angels and failed but he DID make Jack. #and the winchesters trying to keep his son away from him? turn Jack against him? he might. break. about that. #like I’m saying if you kept the basic plot structure of the final seasons and just made tiny adjustments to Lucifer’s character #not even really his actions just his motivations!!! BOOM!!!! fucking!!!!! better show!!!!!! #anyway this has been speculation with will come back at 8 and I’ll talk about the bunker being a mushroom #spn #Lucifer spn

[dinitride-art]

okay, so, I have had my suspicions about this for a while, but The Great Gatsby is  47,094 words. And that’s whatever, it’s a short book, and easy read and has a weird historical explanation as to why it’s popular now even though it wasn’t when it was originally published. 

My point is, that it’s still a book. 

As of right now, my lighting analysis/analysis of season four is 36,491 words.

By the end of this analysis, I will probably go over the word count of the Great Gatsby. 

And that is absolutely insane. That is a (short) novels worth of writing. 

what has byler done to me

#byler #this goes into the tag because yall did this to me #the lights #this is fine #my google doc is 127 pages due to the spacing #but still #i refuse to process this any more until ive actually finished it #and i know that fics regularly reach like 60k #but i have not written a fic thats gotten anywhere close to that #so this is uncharted waters for me #i have written enought to hold in my hands #but not enough to understand what the fuck is going on with elumx #so we go forth #and then back to season one #and then season three #and all over the place #to try and figure this shit out #but my god thats a good chunk of words

[palettehao]

Thinking about newly turned vampire Mike and witch in training Will

#i love fantasy #witches and vampires are one of my go toos tbh #the byers would be a family/coven of witchs who live in the woods #which would probably be an extra reason people in town talk about them yk #and Mike gets turned into a vampire somehow and FREAKS out #so he immediately goes to Will way past midnight and asks for help #and they try to turn him back with Will's magic but he isn't skilled enough yet to do so #so it turns into a bunch of trial and error because Mike refuses to tell anyone else about it and only trust Will to help #what if i drew this... i probably won't cause im not great... but if #byler #byler tumblr #will byers #mike wheeler #byler season 4

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

'you are your own person and anyone who doesn't like you for that isn't worth your time' is a very well and good message, I just think that it can and should coexist alongside 'but change can still be good and learning from others is valuable and taking the advice of the people who love you is the only way to truly grow'.

#so much emphasis on staying true to who you always have been #and it's a good message! important! I actually love that theme in stories! #but it's also important to remember that staying true to who you /are/ does not mean the inability to change #you MUST change you MUST grow #you cannot always stay stubbornly fixed to one spot in an attempt to 'be true to who you are' #gurt says stuff #storytelling #stories #characters #(yes this is about miss eliza and the duke) #(I just think that as much as eliza has to fight to be respected as she is and as much as she shouldn't change that #so that she's more likable or most tasteful to the changing whims of society #she could //also// stand to grow a Lot! and I would rather see her submit to the humbling experience of growth #instead of stubbornly refusing never to change and being supported in that) #(watch this season actually go and do this and me have to come back to this post with clown shoes on in like 3 episodes :P)

[lupismaris]

I'm just gonna complain in the tags tw medical stuff tbd etc

#its the final stretch and i refuse to will anything into this universe other than this is the final stretch im having treatment and it ends #this is the end of this here and now i will not continue to live like this i cannot continue to live like this i cannot carry this fatigue #any further genuinely i cannot its not a matter of will not anymore i just... i cannot. im legitimately still hiding at the office #despite everyone else having gone home because it takes too much effort to gather my things and walk to my car and im afraid of falling #i forgot my cane at home and its cold and my body struggles with temperature regulating and seizes up so badly #but the fatigue has finally reached a point where its hard to lift my bag or put my coat on or my jewelry without help #or walk across the parking lot just to get to my car and its not like the usual hey we have to adjust to new level of disabled #it's fatigue kneecapping you put of nowhere with a tireiron until you can barely loft your bag or fix tea or prepare dinner #and the fact the all the joy of food has been robbed from me because everything takes so much goddamn effort now #everything takes ten more steps and an hour more planning and special ingredients and yes i know lots of people live like this always #but i haven't and its been a forced short term adjustment period with absolutely no support from medical professionals #and im the only cook in my household/family/immediate social circle so all the labor inevitably falls on me not out of malice #but by default even if they try to help they can only do so much because they dont know what to do #i am literally on the verge of a meltdown just thinking about how much effort dinner is going to take because i cant just #eat a fuckin box of easy mac or ramen with an egg and go to bed no I've got to make a special soup with special ingredients #or a proper balanced meal with protein and veg and whole grain and certain seasoning #and im just so fuckin tired im so goddamn tired if this radiologist doesn't come back and say i can eat freely come Friday #i genuinely dont know what im going to do #food is one of my greatest joys and to be limited even in such bizarrely simple ways requiring so much excess labor #is too much. its too much on top of all this hypothyroidic fatigue. i cant do it. #i dont want to go home and make a fuckin soup. i want pizza. i want take away. i want lamb curry and rice. i want food i dont have to cook. #god im so fuckin tired my body feels so ancient like something wrecked in the seabed being involuntary hoisted to the shallows again #and im not sure its going to survive the process. i mean it has to. we dont have a choice. but fuck.

[d-e-s-t-i-n-e-s-i-a]

NOT what I expected this season

#hello??? #tua #the umbrella academy #tua season 3 #tua spoilers #I wanted to add some examples but it got all messy but. uh #throw a party for viktor #dropping that number one stuff #everything with his father??? #refusing to give reggie the time of day was so GOOD to watch #everyone telling him to give him a chance vs luther who learnt his lesson!!! #(more spoilers ahead here) when he walked into that room with Reggie I thought they were going to make them forgive each other and #have some 'forgive everyone' moral #but NO #they were like: 'luther gave his father one fuck and reggie used it to kill him. don't go back to the people who hurt you kids' YEAHHHHH #I didn't think there was anything that could make me begin to like him. I'll probably change my mind when I rewatch season one heh #I just think. his character arc was so well done and am. so happy

[comic-sans-chan]

garashir the nanny au

#garashir #star trek #deep space nine #ds9 #dsn #deep space 9 #i'm contractually obligated to make this post about every new fandom i join #garak the experienced manipulative fashion icon who spends several seasons madly in love with a julian who refuses to get with him #even when he's got his ridges fully exposed like a hussy #OR alternatively julian the unreasonably gorgeous bombshell waiting longingly for garak to make a move but refuses to wait around forever #and keeps going out on dates while garak sulks about it #the three adopted bajoran/cardassian orphans think the whole thing is hilarious #cc and niles are quark and odo (lmfao) #the more you sit with this one the more parallels expose themselves in all their perfect beautiful glory #like garak fired (exiled) from a job he spent most of his life in (obsidian order/cardassia) by a loved one (his DAD) #only to end up at julian's front door (the infirmary PFFFT) #okay i feel like i went too hard with that one i need to roll it back a little bit #julian in a mini skirt #there we go

[a-sparrow-under-an-umbrella]

I made a bingo card with my predictions for The Umbrella Academy season 4

Let's see how well this ages

#honestly I had only 4 ideas for this and added the others as I go #i don't think Diego will get stabbed but idk what else to add so 🤷‍♂️ #also lowkey disappointed we didn't see two other versions of Five during season 3 #cuz yk. in season 1 we have five the original #then in season 2 we have five the original and five a few hours before traveling in time back to his siblings aka two fives for season 2 #it would have been funny in season 3 to have five the original. five the very old one and another five so they could be 3. for season 3. #but no can do #the umbrella academy #i refuse to believe they will not make a season 4. i need no confirmation I know it in my bones there's gonna be a season 4 #bingo card #tua

[you-were-meteowrong]

everyone shut the fuck up and watch warrior nun rn

#i need a season 3 #i will literally riot for this #how dare they end it like that #i mean its nicely tied up if they dont get renewed #and it can be like an open ending #but also like #no #i refuse #also the rest of the tags may be slightly spoilery #so #SPOILERS AHEAD #warrior nun spoilers #BRING HER BACK COWARDS #im raging #and crying #it is one in the morning #i cannot #fucking FUCK man #i loved it #but also i hate it keep going #also that scene with the wings? #you know the one #fuckin EW #i hated every second of that scene #like chill bro #anyways #warrior nun #avatrice

[feliadox]

I AM.. VERY UPSET???

#WDYM NINJAGO IS OVER #NO #HEY NO #GET BACK HERE #i havent even finished all the seasons myself bUT #BUT NOW I DREAD IT #ILL HAVE THE SAVOR EVERY EPISODE #DOWN TO THE LAST ONE #hhhhHHHHHHHH #time to find that ninjago groove again #whip out my keyboard and continue the storyline MYSELF #this ending will not be MY ending #i refuse #i refuse your end and ill continue writing until i find my own #feliadox #hawk speaks #going feral over legos and lego kids shows #don't mind me #gnaws on it actively after eons of being a ghost #ninjago

[t-lostinworlds]

well....that was...something. now what do i do with my life

#i refuse to believe eddie is dead #he's going to come back in whatever way they can make him #max is going to wake up and have powers i'm sure of it #william will become a wizard #i'm just #idk how i feel about this season tbh sksksks #it wasn't bad #i enjoyed it #kinda #the vecna thing creeps me out so much #probably why i didn't like most of it alksalsk #but it was just so... #it was a LOT #it's like they crammed so many storylines in one and my head is just ??? #also vickie and robin needs to happen #i also would like to kiss steve in the mouth to make him feel better #t's live babble #stranger things