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mayullla · 1 year

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Quest: Clear out the slimes in grandmother's garden.

Character(s): Slime Monster (Oc / Original work) Summary: You are an adventurer, taking up missions and quests in the guild. You didn't know that your choices all have unfair consequences. You thought of the slime more as a pet while it thought of you as a mate. Tags/warnings: Yandere!monster, fem!reader, non-consensual kissing and touching, possession (not the reader), taking a bath in front of a 'supposed' pet if that is a warning needed

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You took a simple mission, help an old grandmother clean out the slimes that have been eating all her crops and vegetables in her garden.

Clearing out the slime with your sword you noticed a smile, a little lighter blue than the other slimes. Weakly moving around while others jumped in panic at the sight of your sword. You should have killed it then and there, but you left it.

The old lady was kind and gave you your reward for clearing out the monster yet she could not help but question if it was really all right for you to hold such a dangerous creature in your hand. "Are you sure it would be okay to keep such a thing? I know some people keep them as pets but aren't they still wild creatures?" You tried to calm the worries of the grandmother stating that you will only release the slime out to the wild.

Walking deeper into the forest you gave it some food to eat that you have brought with you. You watched as the sandwich slowly disintegrate inside the slime's body. You wondered why you let this one go, really while most slimes are harmless too many also cause trouble for the ecosystem. Maybe it was because of its unique color, you never saw such pink slime in your life.

"Don't come back if you know what is good for you." You mumbled poking the little slime on your hand. The gushing sound it made in delight perhaps because it finally ate made you smile. When you thought you were far enough from the place you tried to place the slime down. "There you go- huh?" You were supposed to plop the slime onto the grassy floor instead the slime continued to cling to your hand refusing to let go. "What the..."

No matter what you did, the slime did not let go. As you scoop the slime from one hand it started to cling to the other when you tried to remove the creature from your hand with your boots. It still didn't let go instead choosing to stick to your boot's ankle making it hard for you to walk.

After trying to get this thing off from you and failing miserably you had no choice but to take the thing back home as the sun slowly goes down and the day ends. "What am I supposed to do with you." You mumbled scratching the back of your head as you glance at the thing on your arms giggling in happiness that you weren't trying to throw it out anymore.

The little thing had become a pet of sorts for you. It followed you around the house everywhere you go. When you finish eating, the remaining food and plate you would feed it to the slime where it would eat all the leftovers and clean the plate and then give it to you. (You thought it the little thing could become your dishwasher with how clean your plates look but at the same time the idea that it was not washed by water and soap and instead slime doesn't sit right with you.)

It would follow you when you get ready for the day and follow you to the bathroom and even when you shower. The slime had at one point crawled into your bathtub once joining you in your soak. You didn't think much of it really, the thing didn't have eyes nor a mouth or anything it was just a blob really.

"Hmmmm" You poked the floating slime that did its best to get on your bathtub. The slime clinging to your finger at that moment and started crawling closer to you till it reached your shoulder nuzzling itself on your neck.

It followed you to your bed when you went to sleep. The thing tried to cuddle next to you again, and while it didn't bother you while in the bath it bothered you now. It was a weird feeling! How were you supposed to sleep went it feels like one side of the bed was wet. Too uncomfortable you grabbed the slime and placed it on a pillow that you tossed to the floor.

"That will be your bed from now on all right?" You told it satisfied when you saw the curious motion it was doing looking at you and then at the pillow. Too tired you were soon fast asleep.

You woke with the thing right on top of your chest as if it had sneaked up when you were sleeping. And the next time it happened again and again, you tried to put the small slime outside your room but it seems that since it didn't have any bones it was able to slide on the crack of the door and place itself again close to you.

You had gotten so used to this slime being in your life thought of it nothing more than a pet unknowing that in the end it still was a monster. That pink slime grew so attached to you, unknown to you its attachment was somewhat an obsession than something cute.

In a sense, it thought of you as its mate. Your affection for it was a courting ritual for the pink slime as it returned your affection with rubs in your hand almost as it was a puppy when all it wanted was to merge with you. Yet it can't. Slime went the smartest yet they pick up fast as it watched you interact with a man. You wondered what the slime was thinking when it watched you as you talked to your crush. You have fallen in love with another adventurer for a while now and while you two aren't partners sometimes you would join with him on a quest or two if you happen to bump into each other.

But you weren't able to dwell in those thoughts anymore when the adventure called your name wondering if you were okay or not as you seem to zone out a bit. "Are you okay? Want to rest somewhere?" "O-oh no! I am completely alright!"

You wondered where that slime had gone after the quest, disappearing near the end. You called out a small nickname you have given to it yet no blob of pink appeared in your vision and after trying to search for it for a while you returned home thinking that it finally returned back to the wild. You felt everything was odd at first there was no squishing sound of slime following you and when you tried to reach out for something you realized it was there anymore.

After staying in your life for more than 2 months you have grown used to the little guy that you can't help but become a little solemn at the thought.

Yet you didn't want this... You certainly didn't want this...

It was a rainy night when you got a knock on the door. It has been two weeks since the pink slime left but it also has been two weeks since you last saw that certain adventurer that you have in mind. You gasp when you saw him all drenched from the rain standing right in front of the door. "H-hey... It seems that i have been caught in the rain... Sorry, can I stay at your place for a little till the rain stops..." He told you having an awkward smile on his face.

You have given him the shower while finding clothes that he could wear. You let him stay for a while, thinking that he would leave the moment the rain stopped but it didn't as your heart beat with how close the man that you liked was as if the man was unconsciously nuzzling you on your neck as the two of you waited on the sofa for the rain to stop.

When you realize that he was that slime that you once cared for it was too late when he forced you down on the sofa his hand slowly changes to something more slimy texture yet still strong enough to pin your arms down. The smile he gave was so lovestruck and goofy as you could see specks of pink in his eyes.

When he forced a kiss something that the slime has saw all the other couples would do, you could taste and feel the texture of slime on your tongue as the slime on top of you curiously explore your mouth. His eyes were sickeningly sweet... you now knew you make a mistake in bringing the slime in.

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msfbgraves · 1 year

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Non-Konmari day 9: spoonie cleaning

I've already remarked that one of the things I like about Marie Kondo is that she doesn't compartmentalise. I have been raised in the tradition of going straight for the problem and fixing it. But that has always bothered me.

You see, if you go straight to the problem and fix it, you choose to not look at a whole bunch of other problems. 'Ah,' the Westerner says. 'We will cross that bridge when we get there. One thing at a time.'

That's all well and good, if you can deal with the discomfort caused by all the other issues surrounded with this one. But since moving in the physical world is difficult for me, I have a very low tolerance for extra discomfort.

'Onwards!' the Westerner says, by now. 'If you try to fix everything, you will end up fixing nothing. Discomfort is a part of life. Pain is good for the soul!'

No, it isn't, I think by now. Pain is terrible for the soul, and the body too, but let's not get too esoteric when the issue at hand is that I want to take a shower. In a clean tub, thank ye kindly. Except the tub isn't clean, so I will have to fix that. I could take a shower in a dirty tub but I don't want that, and this is my flat.

'Well, that seems pretty straightforward," the Westerner supplies. "Get your cleaning supplies and clean the tub."

Yes, I muse. But the least painful way to do that is to get a pillow, put it on the floor, kneel down and clean the tub. And the floor is kind of dirty. If I want to do that, best clean the floor first. Which means taking things off the floor, vacuum, and mop it.

Btw, since the vacuum is out, the easiest thing to do is also vacuum the kitchen. That way, I don't have to drag the thing out twice.

By this time, the Westerner wants me checked for ADD and a crash course on prioritisation. Only I am prioritising. One, these things need to get done, in whatever order, too, this is really the most efficient way on my strength, which is limited.

Unshowered, I walk to the kitchen and get the cleaning supplies. First thing, the little bin on the bathroom floor. Since I am handling that, I might as well empty and clean it. I do, and put the thing on a table in the living room, then put away the towels to get washed.

OK, if I want to vacuum efficently, I might take away the chairs, bin (I apologise for the continental English on display. I use whatever word or spelling is in my heart rn), and wipe down the table. And the chairs, while I am at it. Also the downside of the bin.

There's quite a lot of dust on the counters, though, and a few crumbs. It would be most efficient if I cleaned those first, and vacuum whatever ends up on the floor.

So I do, and spend a lot of time on the stove. Some removable parts are quite greasy. The best thing to do is put them in the dishwasher now, which is kind of empty. Also, if I want to to wipe down efficiently, I have to do something about that potted plant that I meant to throw out.

I rearrange the stove things in the dishwasher, put it on.

I take out the plant. There's earth everywhere. Good thing I hadn't vacuumed. And though I can feel the spirit of all my primary school teachers weeping in a corner, I am not totally beyond reason. It would in fact not be more efficient to get some fresh earth for it now, because I am not dressed and yet unshowered, so this thing will have to wait. I put it aside and start cleaning out the vase the plant was in. I remove a sticker with some really icky sticker remover, clean and polish the vase and put it in the cupboard. Rearrange some of the contents for more logical use. Crash on bed, then start cleaning up dirt and wiping down counters, put on water to use to clean the drains, as I will be here a while and that needs some time to do its job. I am quite determined to have it be a pleasant shower by now. So I put soda in the drains of both my sink and the bathtub - as yet uncleaned - and continue polishing the kitchen counters, since I'm here anyway. I have seen, though, that due to the dirt I will have to clean my brush, which is OK, since I have to clean some rags anyway due to the sticker stuff. For that, though, I need to hang some things I'd put in earlier and for that I need to clear some clothes off the clothing rack, hang the new clothes, which I do, mend a hole, and now can put the dirty rags in the washer with my dirtied brush.

The kitchen right now is getting close to spotless, which means I can work back and vacuum the floor, after which I vacuum the bathroom floor, deal with the drains, and, since I'm here, clean down the bathroom sink and mirror. I need to eat something, but heaven be praised, it seems there is nothing stopping me from mopping the floor. Granted, the dishwasher with the stove things is finished, so I clear that out first.

I grab something to eat - nice in such a clean kitchen! - clear that away as the dishwasher is empty, grab the mop and mop the darn floors. I know. Crash again, put something on Tumblr about my blorbos. By now it's getting kinda late so best clean and mop the toilet, which I had meant to do sometime before tomorrow. I need to vacuum a little in the toilet (separate room) and vacuum my rug for the hell of it. Mop the toilet.

By now I'm sure I stink, but the toilet, kitchen and bathroom are clean save for the tub, so I can put the pillow out, get on my knees without pain, and scrub the thing, which by now is actually kinda easy given that the rest of the bathroom has been done.

I finish, put away all the supplies, the dirty mop with the rest of the cleaning laundry, and have an extremely comfortable shower that I wanted in the first place.

This has been 8 hours of straight work to get to take a shower, and the efficiency of that seems sub zero. I think this way of working also qualifies for ADD.

The thing is that I didn't get distracted by these chores. I felt free to choose not to do them; I knew exactly what I wanted, finding an easy way to clean my tub. And if I'd done it immediately, I would have either have had to make extra work on myself by dirtying something under the pillow, or doing it standing up, which is hard on my back and makes showering painful.

A few years ago, when writing my thesis, I read The Now Habit, and felt it was an excellent help for dealing with the fears that lead to procrastination and distraction, and indeed a great help for Getting Things Done Now. In fact, I vowed to live that way forever. Get all the work and chores done in between scheduled relaxation, housework, playtime and social interactions. God, this is a Protestant's dream.

So there I went. If I had a window of free time, fill it with a bit of a chore, which meant a lot fewer chores and a freer mind.

Except for one little thing. After three days of this, my body was aching all over. Cool if you have the energy to schedule your relaxation between 13:00 and 14:00 for an episode of Buffy you love. But my body doesn't care about schedules. If it needs rest, it needs rest, and pushing through until you get to the scheduled rest will not get me anywhere other than weeping on the couch.

And true, I would have thought this associative way of working would have me crash like nothing today. Goodness me, I did not mean to spend eight hours creating the perfect conditions to have a shower in. That's not what was taught me. It's unpredictable, and undependable: can you let in anyone, in pajamas and apron, sweaty and covered in dirt? Hardly.

But waking up today, I was only a little stiff. Eight to nine hours of labour, and this was the only price my body exacted of me. It went away within the hour. Normally, I would have barely been able to move after a day like that.

So did I do what I had planned, and go to the thrift store? No, I didn't. But my kitchen and tub got deep cleaned, and I am in barely any pain. Is that really less efficient? Should that really be medicalised?

I so pray that it works for the rest of life. If every problem you can solve makes it easier to solve related issues: shouldn't that protect from the despair that causes giving everything, and failing, to attain something essential that the abled world demands of you to survive? Or, if not survive, be afforded a modicum of dignity?

Is it really true that things that not get handled directly do never get done?

Do you have to scale a mountain and risk to crash? Or can you look for the softest parts and tunnel through it? Even if that is in no way a straight line?

I really hope so. Because life has so many obstacles, and I've crashed so many times.

Everything I've learnt says that you can only survive if you face problems head on. Physical limitations blocking you? Go to the gym. Mental issues stalling you? Go see a therapist about it (don't tell anyone, though). I have always longed for somebody to say: "Do what you can. Do things in their own time. Get there your way."

Because, well, yesterday's goal was minuscule, and it took ages to reach it, but it was hardly the only thing I did, and the massive detour did bring other benefits. Like not being sick.

I don't know if tidying up my house will help me find a way to take care of myself without killing myself in the process. Not superficially. I mean, people would probably recommend me finding a coach, doctor or intermediary, talk to other people about specific problems I face, deal with them. But I have been trying to do that, non stop, since I was two years old. I see people I love either getting on the wagon or getting run over if they fall off it, convinced that it is simply too hard and what use is it, doing what you can?

But what if doing what you can, the easy, meandering way, could actually make you a little stronger? Just a little stronger? And yet a little stronger? The task, so daunting at first, just a little easier?

I hope so. I so hope so.

Because head on, I keep running into walls.

#personal #spoonie life #long post #disability #konmari

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hav-vok · 3 months

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24 HR pain dairy day 1

00:33 - been in bed & sleepy for around an hour, unable to sleep - restless legs, general pain in thighs + hips, neck + L shldr

00:46 still unable to sleep, also now pain in L wrist and radiating through hand. tired.

01:01 need support pillows for knees and upper body to prevent pain whilst lying on side. tossing and turning trying to get comfy but no luck. trying different spundstrack

01:09 R knee shooting pains getting much worse even with support. L ankle shooting pains start. L forefinger pain from wrist, R ribs ache now. other pain levels same.

445 awake l leg pain

06:10 awake, back neck ankle pain

07:50 awake ankle pain

8:55 - woken by stong burning pain in right hand, radiating up to elbow and shoulder, can't grip, pressing phone screen to type is painful

9:42 - unsuccessful at getting back to sleep, burning pain now in both hands, right still worse, radiating from wrists up to elbows. cannot grip with right hand, can grip large objects with left but no dexterity, typing with one finger (left) whilst phone rests against pillow

get up for bathroom - L hip painful until repositioned. instead, support myself on walls, feet hurt to put pressure on when standing, shooting pains in knees. need to hold on to bathtub and window ledge to support myself on and off toilet. make my way back to bed to doze a little as very tired

10:40 hands have calmed down enough that I can now get dressed with some amount of struggle, grip strength is still lacking so putting socks on took much longer than usual. comfy PJ's. basic stretches to help with stiffness in body. support myself on walls and both handrails on stairs, need to walk one step at a time BC of knee ankle + foot pain

breakfast - one plain gluten free brioche roll + water. can't hold knife (no grip strength + pain) to cut open roll, can't open jam jar etc. water in a cup with a straw because I do not have grip strength to hold it up and drink from normally. I struggle for 2mins to open my vitamin box to take vitamin and 10mg CBD.

dishwasher needs unloading. might try later. settle on sofa with various support cushions and blankets to read on phone.

12:25 been feeling better as I've sat and resting, my hands feel nearly normal but there's still a light burning/weakness to them and they feel stiff and fat to move. random shooting pains through legs that fade fairly quickly.

pins and needles along my left arm and 3rd+4th fingers, for around 5 minutes now, stretching and rubbing the arm helps a little bit the feeling has yet to fade

can't hold my phone for more than a minute or so without the pain in my hands getting stronger still so having to rest it on a pillow to read

14:06 - had an accidental nap for around 30 minutes. hands still sore, shooting pains still in legs. lunch time, leftover hotdogs from last night warmed in the microwave. mug with water, handle of mug is easier to grip. have to carry plate and mug separately to my study where I want to watch things on the computer because each is too heavy for one hand, need to carry with both hands.

15:39 watched some programs online, wanted to play some video games but holding the control was too much. R arm burning sensation running through elbow into hand, worse when extended fully or bent to any degree, or when using hand. im R handed so this basically rules out me doing any hobbies today. typing one handed with accessibility key board on my phone. at least my lefthand is okay now so I can drink easier. L shoulder occasionally stabbing pains again but they come and go and don't last long luckily. guess I'll just watch stuff and research or read.

16:10 burning pain is improved by not moving limb at all and hot water bottle.

17:28 both hands/wrist back to medium burning pain. given up trying to do anything because of discomfort. R knee + hip sore with occasional shooting pains when standing, made me unsteady and bump into door frame when walking.

19:14 partner is home, deciding on dinner. I can't life the baking tray to put it in the oven so my 'help' with dinner is to sit on the floor and offer conversation. my hands are both still burning so it's easy finger food, chips and salmon bites. standing it's tiring for more than 2 minutes, shooting pains in my knees cause me to spasm or kick out.

helped to put away some of the dishes from the dishwasher. which boils down to me slumped against the kitchen side struggling to hold on to single knives and forks to put them back into the correct place in the draw. also started to get sharp pains in my lower stomach like cramps, bad enough to cause me to clench, or to literally be bent double because they're so sudden and painful.

20:16 dinner was good. shooting pains in knees whilst sat down now, down into ankles. hands feel better but it's moved up into elbows, and gripping hard or holding anything heavy is still painful. stomach pains seemed to go as soon as they came which is good. glad i didn't need to hold a fork because I don't think I would have been able to for a full meal.

20:52 body is generally starting to hurt all over now. partner helps me up the stairs by supporting my hips from behind me and taking some weight whilst I use both handrails to get up. he helps me into the bathroom so I can shower.

21:32 I needed to sit in the shower after around 5 minutes or so because I felt unstable standing on the wet surface whilst being so tired. I found it difficult to open bottles and hold soap due to pain. I gave up washing my hair properly and just rested my head under the running water in the hope to get the shampoo out. I didn't condition it because I did not have the energy. I needed help out of the bathtub (shower over) afterwards and feel unable to do anything else for the rest of the evening now, including drying myself and my hair wkth towels or a hakr dryer, so i will likely go tonbed woth wet hair.

22:26 - dry and clothed for bed with help and lots of resting. watching qi in my study to stay under the heated blanket. heat helps

23:39 finally found the energy to make it across the hall from my study into the bedroom. did some basic stretches whilst lying down on the bed. partner offered to dry my hair for me. hands still slightly burny sensation but less stiff and fat. neck shoulders back and hips all bad pain now. waiting for the bed to warm up before trying to get comfortable and fall asleep. resting on cushions on top of covers. tired and sleepy.

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