#and I am a little bit (a lot) emotional

[toodrunktofindaurl]

Happy Valentine’s Day to my beautiful girlfriend whom i love very much and promise not to drop phones on ever again ♥

#valentine's day #happy valentine's day #i am nothing if not a little bit pathetic #in my defense i was pmsing and also #I THOUGHT I LITERALLY KILLED HER #THE EMOTIONAL WHIPLASH WAS A LOT OKAY #anyway #this is one of her valentines day gifts #love you baby #maryneart

[bilaudad]

thinking about this on my most recent rewatch

(gif source: ferndaphnia)

It can be kinda easy to get exasperated with Aziraphale sometimes for how much he’s struggling with what seem to us like really obvious moral non-dilemmas. How slowly and arduously he comes to the conclusion that Elspeth and other resurrectionists are meeting a need that polite society’s nonsensical arbitrary rules don’t yet have an answer for.

But this shot, this scene, just underlines to me how genuine and earnest his struggle is. He’s not being squeamish about graverobbing, like it offends his delicate sensibilities. He’s slowly unlearning some bullshit, and he comes by it honestly and is doing his best. He’s just learned that the contents of the glass jar in his hands are a tumor that was surgically removed from a 7 year old boy, who did not survive the ordeal. Look at his body language, look at his face (so much sorrow between those mutton chops!). If he were just squeamish, he would, idk, push the jar away from him, set it down, grimace. Not cradle it closer to his chest, as if it were the 7 year old boy he wishes he could comfort, as sadness and understanding washes over him.

#idk I had a very Big emotional and spiritual reaction the first time I touched a tumor in a medical setting maybe I’m projecting a bit #i am aziraphale a little bit sometimes #a lot sometimes #good omens #good omens meta #good omens season 2 #the resurrectionists

[tea-time-terrier]

This creature has been smooched on her face and stuffed full of snacks <3

We qualified each rally obedience run (despite large areas requiring handler improvement <3) and finished the weekend with a 97, 84, and 97. This baby dog now has her Rally Advanced title!

(All rosettes were default as we were the only ones in our class.)

#a whole collection of emotions #I am really proud of her #she is a fun little dog and she tries so hard #I asked too much of her to do two trials in a day (now I know) #lots of areas for improvement but this was a nice satisfying way to finish trialing for a while #my low key goals this year was her RN and CH (if we were lucky) #so to have finished both of those + her RA has me a bit lost now #we're probably taking a break for a while until I figure out what our next steps are #she's growing up so fast and yet is so baby 😭 #turnpike #gotta go camping with all this nice weather

[orcelito]

Like OK so I've been reading a fic with trans wolfwood in it that is so. HONEST. About how it affected him and still affects him. In a way that's very much not an average cis writer portrayal of a trans character.

Like. Either this writer is trans or did plenty of research, but it just feels REAL to me. And it has me thinking about my own way of writing trans Wolfwood.

I'm not there yet. But I've been thinking about it. The ways that what the EOM did fucked him up... but it also acted as HRT that affirmed his gender. So what do you do when you're in a body you don't recognize, but looks much more like a man than ever before? There's some gender euphoria in a way, but dysphoria at the same time bc you didn't grow into this. You didn't watch yourself transition. Suddenly you just Were this, and it's not you, but also it's nice to finally be seen as a man, but it also feels wrong to feel grateful for any part of what they did to you...

On and on and on

You see? This is what I want to think about with him. This is why trans Wolfwood is so compelling to me. It's just so Complicated, he'd have such Complicated feelings about his body and the way he lives with it. He learns this new body, it starts to feel more like his, but he also mourns the fact that he didn't get to watch it grow into this like he should've.

That kind of thing.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #tagging it bc these r things relevant to itnl ww. because. he is trans☺️ #TRANS WOLFWOOD MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!!! #i wanna do more research into trans things. ive already done a lot. but like #into the actual physical side of it all. the effects of HRT. all those messy little details that people dont often focus on. #some months ago i skimmed thru this writing guide on how to write trans men. and i think i wanna revisit it #read it more slowly and thoroughly. #bc im confident in my ability to write trans characters. considering the fact that im not cis myself. #but im not a trans man. so there r some Things that i just dont know about by virtue of not having experience with HRT #so. research! supplementing my existing knowledge with the perspectives of the actual people im writing about. #and so it goes when ur writing about an experience that is not entirely your own. #it matters to me to make my writing of trans men as realistic as possible. #even with the messy details that people normally shy away from. Especially them. #i pride myself on my realism as much as is within my means of capturing it. #realistic emotions. realistic reactions. realistic bodies. #i am Going to write a trans wolfwood that is So realistic. as much as possible. #(i keep specifying ww with this even tho vash is trans also just bc vash is a bit more uhhhh not human lol #so the definition of what makes him trans is a bit more loose. still inferred by real life experiences #but he wouldnt have the same sorts of experiences with HRT. or gender expression in general #so i feel less of a pressure to capture it as fully accurate to the real life human experience as possible. if that makes sense.)

[prettybbychim]

i read a fic recently and let me just say something

sensory tools do not need to be removed to “fully be present”

sensory tools do not mean you are not “living in the moment properly”

sensory tools make the moment tolerable so that you can live in the moment properly

i loved this fic otherwise, but this one comment left a rather sour taste in my mouth.

it was a violent slap to the face as someone sitting here day in and day out with their own headset on to dampen the noise of everyday life.

you can have alhaitham remove his headset. that’s not the issue.

this issue is making him out to be thoughtless and uncaring of others. an abnormality. that robot of a man blocking out the world because everything and everyone is needless and an annoyance.

this reflects right back on us.

alhaitham can fully enjoy an evening out with his friends with his headset. he does not need to take them off. know why? because if he did, it would all just be sound noise sound overwhelm pain get me out of here

again, i dare say, it makes the evening tolerable. so that he can be fully present, mentally and physically.

fuck right off with that ableist mindset

#genshin impact #genshin #mental health #sensory overload #alhaitham #rant post #rant #ableism #sensory issues #auditory sensitivity #this was not supposed to be this long #i have a lot of emotions #i’m protective of him #because he is me and i am him #genshin alhaitham #genshin impact alhaitham #genshin fanfic #i will admit i projected a little bit at the end there #but my point still stands

[alltimewhat]

wound dehiscence can quickly escalate to infection or even evisceration

#it took me literally like a month to finish this drawing because i started it and did the sketch #and then immediately had NO ideas for the window panes LMFAO. so im really happy to have it done #im not sure i'm supremely happy with it but i'm definitely not Unhappy with it :) #reza #this piece kinda has a stupid level of symbolism in it that pretty much only i would recognize without being told LMFAO #i love to make very symbolic art of an oc that nobody knows enough about to understand #the main conceit though is that reza's abusive family altered his memories with magic. and he struggles a lot with the combination of #like #'i am missing the true facts of huge portions of my life' and simultaneously 'my parents left a lot of memories of them being awful #so how bad is the stuff they erased' #also a little bit about the harm he was groomed into causing when he was young and his own emotional autocannibalism

[elegyofthemoon]

well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost

#avil plays hi3 #tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This. #yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17 #i. :( #the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :( #ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart #BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI #BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA #AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER #MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE #tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3. #kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but #now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because #'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS' #also idk i was thinking about it too #mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time #and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option #IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING) #sprawls on the ground #at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that #and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag #can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else) #idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people.... #but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other #okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL #MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it #but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying

[brown-little-robin]

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#military surplus store trip 2 days ago #I got a very pink cowboy hat despite questioning everything about how I present myself. it was Calling to me #multiple people loved it and when I got home and put it on my 3 yo sister stopped in her tracks and said 'wow... you're soo pretty' #that has never happened before #so I Guess the pink cowboy hat will be a Special Fashion Thing #despite the little existential crisis it gives me every time I think about being a pink cowboy hat girl #which is a bit ridiculous but there you go. #I was so secretly dedicated to looking either vaguely emo (<333) or cuttingly defensively professional for a long time #that the idea of being COWBOY-aligned (CONSERVATIVE IDOLS UGH) and not only that but PINK (feminine??? >:O) really did not appeal #but it looks GOOD on me and... sigh. I don't have to make people know my personality by my clothes. I can just wear what I WANT to #and I really do LIKE the pink cowboy hat!! it's silly and awesome and goes clink and it's a COWBOY HAT man!!! #I get to be BOTH pink cowboy AND every other thing I am. I can still be CoolTM. I can still be completely myself. #those who love me will understand me. those who don't... don't have to understand me. #goodness gracious that was a lot of soul-searching over a HAT #I also got very very tough Army jungle combat boots #I am expecting them last well >:D and they make me feel SO POWERFUL #Robin processes emotions on main #I Guess XD #I only meant to tell y'all about my cool new items I swear

[magentagalaxies]

toronto day one update:

paul bellini sent me an email while i was on the drive up with the subject line "Toronto!" and the phrase "Let me know what's up so we can hang." he also invited me to a screening of a movie he cowrote that was never released called "hayseed" tomorrow and said "if you're here you must come." this is the most excitement i've ever seen in a paul email and i am living for it

bruce texted me last night to ask about my ETA and texted again while i was on the road. then when i got to toronto he told me to call him so we could discuss plans for this next week and when he picked up the phone he immediately went "is this my protégé?" and like even tho he calls me that all the time hearing his voice on the other end of the phone still made me super emotional like yep it's me we're in the same city now

long story short the guys are very happy to have me in canada again and i'm so happy that i almost started tearing up in the grocery store thinking about how supportive they are

#i will probably be updating this every day since i'm going to be seeing A LOT of paul and bruce this trip #and at least a little bit of scott (hopefully more) #and i'll be sure to update this with what hayseed is like btw i'm very excited for that #as for right now. i'm very very tired so i might go to bed early #but just. oh my god i'm so emotional about how lucky i am to have paul and bruce in my life

[zoomingupthathilla]

I just really want you all to know how much I appreciate you<33 seriously without you guys I wouldn't be able to explore max as much as I do. You are all so lovely, and wonderfully talented, and I am so grateful to have you as mutuals, and honored to interact with most of you. Some I just watch from afar bc , god the talent is just so intimidating BUT I truly adore all of you sm!!

#ooc #{mad max out #I've written a lot of muses but max is one of the ones that I just... idk I care about her sm & it truly warms my heart that I get to care #about her with you guys! #sometimes I think about writing another ST muse; but I know i'll never live up to max SO LIKE WHAT IS THE POINT #airiuehfiah now I am rambling; just thank you #i've been a little emotional lately; so you get a little bit of my mushy side

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

hiii uh. dunno if this will make any sense, im kinda just throwing my thoughts at you

OKAY. so. been thinking about kuron(again) and the thing im just realising how ALONE he is, at least at the beggining. the people he thought of as his family fucking KILLED him, stole his body, and then basically forgot about him for YEARS. and after being ressurected- like, in the first few days, weeks, months- did kuron had ANY support? anyone to lean on?? to help him adjust to being alive again?

i know he starts to meet new people and make friends, and thats great! but. at the beggining....... lance was in a coma 'n shit, team voltron propably wasnt too enthusistic about helping kuron, and it just hit me that, at least the way i understand it(i might be wrong), he had to figure EVERYTHING out by himself

thats FUCKED dude

Oh god yes!!! To be honest i dont really have like a detailed idea for this part of the story like at best i have this one idea where Veronica is the first one to find him. Like in my head Veronica has been trying to track down Lance cause he ran away/didnt give the address once he moved out, isnt picking up his goddamn phone and literally dropped from the face of the earth and she cant find a trace of him. That was until apparently Lance?? 'Attacked' Shiro?? Like Shiro's fine just fainted and on bedrest and according to Curtis, Lance was saying something about "he is still in there" before apparently using Magic?? Somehow?? And taking something? From Shiro?? Yeah Veronica has no fucking clue. But a lead is a lead and she was able to track down Lance's new home only to find 1) a guy butt fuck naked coming out of a quintessence filled tub like the girl from Shining and who looks a bit like her boss. 2) her brother unconscious. She instinctly about to pull a gun on him except Kuron just slips and hits the floor, so now Veronica has two men she needs to drag to a hospital. Joy.

So like yeah Kuron's first stranger-to-acquintance-to-friend is Veronica. She neither has the history of All That™ the others have with Kuron, knows a bit about the clone situation to not be weirded out by it, but also doesnt really care about the whole Evil Clone thing™, cause i am so sorry but she has seen this man fall on his face first 5 times and counting, cry over a fridge ad that had kittens in it, and try to name himself Frank Shelley, even if he somehow becomes Evil~ Veronica is sure she can just Take him down easily, and like what is she supposed to do? Just leave him? He clearly has even less of an idea what is going on and she cant in good conscience leave him like this.

And thing is that Veronica does want to support Kuron, because he deserves that! It's the right thing to do and he deserves that! But at the start he really is a stranger to her and Lance is more of a priority to her than he is, and he is like one of the only leads that explains what is going on with Lance. And while she wont admit this but Kuron can tell and like logically He Gets That™!! He Gets That™!!! And he wants to help Lance too!! But he's also someone who is used and thrown away by everyone around him and this shit hurts like hell. Like this is a recipe of disaester for both of them and will result in a shouting match but right now Kuron is too high on pain meds and pain of being alive again to truly get into it so.

So like physically he isnt really alone in figuring this out, Veronica is trying to help him as much as she can help him, and the hospital staff she dragged him to are really nice to him as well. Emotionally......well there is effort. Vero is trying! Heck she even defended him when Shiro suggested they should lock him up cause he was a danger to everyone and is evil. She is trying but she also has her own trauma, whatever is going on with Lance, her family having separation anxiety, her job, etc etc and she can only do so much, and like Kuron is also trying but he is also dealing with so much and pushing it into the back burner and my guy is just not having great time at all. So like yeah he did had to figure out so much himself

#Kuron uses what scrapes of emotional intelligence he has to be understanding of Veronica so he can be unapologetic Shiro-Keith-Allura hater #It's like you try to find your lost brother only to come across his freaky necromancy science project and him in coma what do you do? #obviously not abandon him! She has read Frankenstein no thanks #Kuron being adopted by McClain siblings wasnt something i thought of but this idea is starting to be very appealing #Kuron is Lance's Little Guy while he is Veronica's Pathetic Little Meow Meow #This is the only idea i got that would actually make sense but i also am a bit hesitant to use it cause i dont know A lot about Veronica #But i also dont want to do to her what vld did to Pidge #I decided to be a bit nice to Kuron for once and gave him a friend and he decided to have complicated relationship with this one too jfc #Like dude get your shit together #What? You gonna have a beef with that janitor as well? Have a complex intricate relationship with that lovely old nurse too? Come on dude #post s8 au #empty answers #kuron voltron #kuron vld #veronica mcclain #lance mcclain #takashi shirogane #voltron legendary defender #Thank you for the ask!!!

[waywardsalt]

now bc of that one post abt zelda getting fridged whenever that one guy directs a zelda game im thinking abt tetra just getting turned to stone in ph and like. what would it have been like if she were an actual character in ph. what would she have done how would this have changed the story

#not gonna do a whole lot of tagging im just musing. if you wanna rb or reply with ideas thats great #im not the person to figure this out bc i dont actually care much abt tetra #not like oh i hate her but like. i only played ph and what i see of her beyond that has not endeared me to her #shes fine i just dont get it. ig cuz i didnt play ww but eh #cuz like. ok. pretty much the majority of phs plot relies on tetra having been turned to stone and fixing that #and me being the autistic little freak i am the psrt that also makes it hard for me to wonder what could happen if #tetra werent stone and that making the game better is like. ok what about linebeck and his arc #listen his arc is so fucking good and hes great and i dont think his arc would have been so good if link wasnt the character he was put wit #cuz link is a great foil and despite having minimal characterization has just the right personality to nudge linebeck along #cuz hes def part of what inspires some of that change in linebeck so idk what might have happened #if tetra was an active player interacting with him in ph too. cuz like idk most of the time when i see people #do stuff where they interact its usually tetra one upping linebeck or whatever and thars like. ok thats whar ciela does #maybe im reading into it too much and focusing on linebeck. idk how you couldve done and changed #the plot of ph to include tetra without just straight up rewriting the whole thing or putting link away #bc look me in the eyes. i do not think linebeck would have developed the way he did without having met link specifically #salty talks #idk i feel like linebecks arc is the best bit of story in ph so i want that to remain more or less intact bc thats where a lot of #the emotional stuff comes in at the end. his dialogue in the ghost ship battle and the final boss. its important #i dont think about tetra much cant you tell. so id leave this to someone who actually cares abt her as a character

[decimatlas]

bar exam in 8 days. i am so scared lmfao

#ooc. #a bit of negativity in the tags: #i am also a little sad bc my studies and lack of availability/focus have def caused some people to not want to stick around here #but i am trying not to think about that now #thanks for sticking around if you're still here #i really appreciate it. i love being here and talking with you all. my life has just been so hard lately #when i was still able to write my brain would only let myself focus on certain things #and it is nothing to do with the lovely people i write with here #and more just what my brain let me focus on #this has been a thing since i have been in school #i opened my blog back up to the public right before finals #so you really have known this stressed scatterbrained version of me #that i would like to think isn't reflective of who i am as a person or writer #i've just been full of a lot of emotions lately #because i hold my fandoms and the people in them near and dear to my heart and i feel like i have inadvertently driven some of them away #so my heart is breaking a little bit. #if we have spoken on here #or i have sent a meme to you #or received one from you #or gotten a starter from you #or written a starter for you #you Do mean a lot to me. #i have not forgotten you. #i'll probably delete this soon. i'm a little embarrassed #i don't want this to be a pity party but i feel i owe an explanation #just know i have everything saved #everything in my drafts/askbox #and i never drop anything unless i tell you i need to for some reason #thank you for being here again #you all have offered me some solace and community during the hardest time in my life

[duvewing]

in all seriousness i do genuinely think that kyrie has much more potential as a character than just being “the normal one.” like idk idk but with everything she’s gone through it just feels a bit ?? to me for her to be characterized as like...the only normal one, absolutely normal, nothing to see here, with few struggles and is perfectly happy to be the emotional support for everyone else with no issue.

i think she has the potential to be much more interesting and just putting her down as “the normal one” really doesn’t do that potential justice. like personally i think kyrie should be allowed to be scared, angry, weird, exhausted, trying the best she can and having to choose kindness and finding strength in that compassion over and over again not bc i think she deserves to struggle but bc i think she deserves to be like. an actual person

#saint.txt #dmc #kyrie dmc #like i know canon doesn't really do kyrie any favors either and it's sorta just like. #easier. i guess. to just make her the normal one and nero's emotional support without delving too deep into it #especially since doing otherwise would actually need you to care abt kyrie which...yea #but kyrie being the normal one is boring to me. sorry. #not asking for anyone to care about kyrie but i just might #it helps to stop fanon depictions of nerokiri from falling into the trap of just being 'nero ft. kyrie' #like idgaf if nero deserves a normal boring gf this aint about him!! #anyway i think abt kyrie a lot #like even in fanon i wish she gets to be more than just nero's emotional support girlfriend or known to be like this pure walking saint #with few issues of her own that aren't really given much focus #and that's if she even gets to play a role and gets acknowledged at all #personally am a big fan of weirdgirl kyrie who also gets to be a bit of a little loser sometimes #bc honestly some people will portray her as being like...this effortless angel who is devoid of any other personality that it makes me #wonder why nero likes her at all #like yea fanon often treats kyrie better than canon does but is that really saying a lot

[soldier-poet-king]

Amen aka "let it be so" but not as a prayer or a plea or an expression of peace, but as a horrific, pyrrhic surrender. As anger and desperation. As a, I give up. Fine. You win. Just make it stop.

#anyway #franposting #been thinking a lot abt horror and faith lately #and the nature of the divine as smthn terrifying as well as smthn good #like. see the face of god and die yknow? #amen isnt some sweet little word #its horrifying? that doesnt make it bad. it just is. it just is #and its a horrible surrdender. choking on your blood and giving up #yes i AM making a playlist for this #only 2 songs on it but yknow maybe thats how it is #its a highly specific emotion and thought #and maybe i am just literally getting a little bit crazy again #due for a paranoid spiral probably #also little gay bitches. like. we're the only ones who get it maybe

[chaoticartistan]

stop being mean to jade harley my second or third wife

#hs2 #homestuck beyond canon #this might get me backlash so i will defend myself in the tags like a pussy #i agree that kanaya has the right to be upset and yell at jade for fucking her wife i've been waiting for that for a while #what i have an issue with is other readers being way too aggressive about jade and jade only #which like. you are allowed to be mean to jade i think #i just think some of you are being weird about it #one comment i saw on twitter said that yiffy was just jades emotional support kid and like. idont knooowww man that rubbed me the wrong wa #sorry if i am emphasizing too mucgh with fictional characters i do that a lot i just keep thinking #it'd be weird to say this about a real ass guy #“yiffy is MINE now fuck you jade!!!” ok dog whatever #should we not also be mad at rose? she definitely didnt do as bad as jade but i still think shes at fault a little bit!!! #for yknow. cheating on her wife ! #this post is a bad idea but i am posting it anyways suspect it to be deleted within a few hours when my senses kick inbye