Can someone tell me if monsters help I keep seeing stuff about it

Like what does it do??

Day 2 : April 15th, Thursday

morning weight - 69.7kg (154 lbs)

I maintained. Probably because I ate dinner

When I weighed myself at night I was so ashamed of myself because I was at 70.4 after dinner

But that means 0.7kg was lost when I fell asleep

I’ll do better today

𝘊𝘳𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘸𝘯𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘯𝘦!!

I felt bored so I did this. They are simple but help

i think I may actually hit my first goal weight (115 lbs) by the end of this month, I've been steadily losing about a pound a day, and so if it keeps up a pattern of even half a pound a day, ill be there!! I just gotta keep restricting- reminding myself that this is what I need, not food.

I wanted to buy a skirt. My mom came with me (bad idea). She almost saw my sh scars. And then she commented on my body. :D

I didn't buy shit and cried my way back home.

Fucking hate how my body looks, fucking bone structureeeeee!!!!

Anyway I'm not eating ever again.

Fml

Having an Ed and other mental health issues means ur exhausted all the time and cannot clean your room because your brain doesn’t know how or where to put things in a timely fashion ❤️ I’m exhausted from doing nothing I wish I was neurotypical

Just ate dinner 🤢🤢🤢 I moved back home bc of covid but maybe I should get an Airbnb for a few months so I don’t have to come home to the smell of food. I’m not above admitting I don’t have the willpower to fast if food is shoved in my face and also I’m overweight and my stomach is big. It’s going to want something. It was probably around 500 kcal. Which means I had maybe around under 800kcal today.

I signed up for a yoga/Pilates class and want to do more dance so hopefully that helps because I hate exercise otherwise and won’t want to build muscle.

I refuse to beat myself up because I’ll binge. I’ll just clean my room and go to sleep and hope for the best. I’ll probably buy tomatoes tomorrow so if I get hungry at night I can eat them (they’re 3kcal 1 tomato) so it’s a filling treat.

You don’t know true fear until you live in a dorm and take a laxative and you’re on the toilet and then you hear housekeeping lady rolling the cart down the hall and opening the bathroom door to start cleaning 😳

my greatest fears about weight loss

(I’m skipping day 3 of the 30 day thinspo challenge - “a picture of your thinspiration” - because that’s what usually gets people deactivated)

30 Day Thinspo Challenge day 4: Your greatest fears about weight loss

To be honest, I don’t have that many. My skin has always looked very pale and sickly (frequently get made fun of as ‘vampire’ just not in the hot way), and I’ve never had much muscle that I could possibly lose. I suppose I’m scared of finding out how large my hipbones are, because trust me they are wide in EVERY direction, with or without fat. Part of me thinks I’ll keep my pear shape even after reaching my ugw.  Oh, and my hair! It’s always been too thin for my taste, but now it’s actively falling out and it pretty much never looks good anymore. Yeah, that. 

If I didnt spend so much money on food I would save even more and THAT is a good motivation for not eating as much

Anyways it’s 3 pm and my stomach kind of hurts and I’m getting that empty feeling you feel in your throat and chest when you haven’t eaten but I ate breakfast 7 hrs ago!!!! And I have gum and mints and tea and water so I will try to stick it out :( plus I had chocolate.

Someone encourage me if I can make it through this ONE day I will be even stronger tomorrow

Received a chocolate at work, this will be lunch lmao

It’s about the size of half my finger but I’m just going to think it’s 100-200 kcal which means I have around 200 kcal left

Just want ppl to know that this is my diet for my own insecurities stemming from my life and I don’t feel like anyone should or must do the things I do. My body and weight is my problem alone and I don’t project or see it in others

Felt bad so looked at some ✨progress ✨

I used to be so ashamed of the old picture but now im kinda proud

I wish I could post my body exactly at this moment but I’m bloated af 💀 ..... kinda bitter sweet

Sooo what do you do when you get a pay raise and now you have all this extra money but you’re anorexic? I mean it’s not like I’m going to buy food.

Ughhhhghhughhhh I keep fluctuating :((((((

Bought 2 bottles of water and 1 bottle of green tea along with these mints/gum

Top : 30kcal the entire pack

Bottom : 50kcal the entire pack

Of course water and tea are 0 kcal and I’m not counting breakfast because that’s setting myself up for failure (fasting, binging, gaining, ripping my stomach open and throwing up) . I recommend everyone eats a nice healthy filling breakfast bc it really does help lose weight (I have an office job so I don’t move around much and I manage to lose)

Day 1 : April 14th, Wenesday

Morning Weigh In 69.7 kg (-0.3kg)

Breakfast : kimchi noodles with veggies and dumplings

I’m going to try to stay under 500 kcal today. I usually let myself have a normal breakfast (and don’t count my breakfast calories) so I don’t break and binge.

It helps me stay on track because I remember I had a normal big breakfast and I’m nourished so I don’t try to buy snacks or munch at work. Sometimes I can even get through the whole day with just breakfast.

Oh my god?? I have a fucking thigh gap??? I’m in a “normal” BMI but I still look huge but I have a fuckinG THIGH GAP?? It’s super tiny still but oh my god 😭 laying down AND standing up with knees and feet together I’m so beyond happy I can’t wait to see what it looks like when I’m actually skinny