#am trying not to freak out!!

[suchawrathfullamb]

okay but realistically speaking I am TERRIFIED of a season 4 because I am old and hopeless and I don't actually expect them to give us hannigram explicitly and I know it will be fatally disappointing.

#like idk yk? I find it so hard to believe because we have been to deluded by fanfiction and yes it's canon but explicit? idk idk I DON'T #i don't wanna hope man I am scared #I feel like they will try to keep the general audience without niching too much to the gays you know? cause it's such a famous character #and I feel like they won't let us have it FUCK I HATE THE WORLD #I HATE THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY FUCKERS #anyways #hannigram #nbc hannibal #hannibal #will graham #murder husbands #hannibal lecter #hugh dancy #mads mikkelsen #lamb freaks out

[ningadudexx]

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I got my @nanolitore plushies yesterday ahd i was super happy i brought them to my school and work today ( *u* ) thank you so much nanolitore and everyone for the amazing plushies and art!!!!! these mean the world to me i am going to take them everywhere

#lego #monkie kid #lego monkie kid #lmk #sun wukong #monkey king #six eared macaque #liu er mihou #lmk sun wukong #lmk monkey king #lmk macaque #i love monkesy #iwas freaking out so much #i still am i love them so much #ive been goign through hard times but these made me very happy #i cant wait to bring them everywhere!! #im going to try and find them more outfits too #i have a little hat for them right now

[stuckinapril]

when you accept that the unique things about you are the best things about you. when you fall in love w your uniqueness and become obsessed w it and reject conformity. when you think for yourself and draw your own conclusions and adore that you don’t perfectly fit into a mold. that’s when you’ll know true peace

#this sounds like an instagram infographic but hear me out #all the things i used to hide as a teen are things i am so grateful to embrace now #i’m realizing that any notable person has trailblazed their own path. that’s how they stand out. #not bc they already fit into a predetermined mold. but bc they were unique and confident about it #can’t say i’m at a 100% w my self acceptance yet but there will be FAR fewer things to talk about in therapy 🥲 and that’s a good thing #ppl rly need to take their quirks and appreciate them and LOVE them and adore them and be obsessed and feel so lucky they have them #the same old same old is boring #it just sucks that w uniqueness naturally comes backlash #and u have ppl who r nasty rude etc etc. who try to make u feel like ur the freak show for being different #but as long as u know ur truth that’s what matters. that’s all #text

[triflesandparsnips]

Accidentally started rereading Northanger Abbey, and was sudden reminded all over again that Jane Austen is, in fact, fucking hilarious.

NA is her parody/satire of Gothic novels at the time, and she starts the book by choosing violence-- she describes the "tragedy" of the main character, Catherine Morland, a girl Determined to be a Heroine even though ALL ODDS are against her: she has a sane father who doesn't lock up his daughters, a healthy mother who didn't die in childbirth, no preternatural talent for music or drawing through which to reveal her Deepest Soul, and-- most shockingly of all-- absolutely zero love interests for whom she can wander the hills mourning their starcrossed fates until she wastes away from the sheer Sentimentality of it all.

But don't worry! She's got this FIGURED OUT. She KNOWS why she has not yet found her TRUE LOVE:

There was not one lord in the neighbourhood; no—not even a baronet. There was not one family among their acquaintance who had reared and supported a boy accidentally found at their door—not one young man whose origin was unknown. Her father had no ward, and the squire of the parish no children.

But when a young lady is to be a heroine, the perverseness of forty surrounding families cannot prevent her. Something must and will happen to throw a hero in her way.

(SPOILER: She is introduced to a mysterious young man who lives in an ABBEY, which everyone knows means he has a DEEPLY MYSTERIOUS SECRET PAST and is maybe a TRAGIC HERO or even a ROMANTIC MONSTER and either way this is IT this is Catherine's TIME TO SHINE she is going to get a good grade in DOOMED LOVE, a thing that is normal to want and--)

(...meanwhile Henry Tilney-- an ordinary guy who never expected "get cast as the Hero in some Grand Gothic Romance" to show up on his bingo card-- starts wondering when exactly he started finding Catherine's attempts to locate bloody daggers in his linen closet charming.)

#Catherine: *literally breaks into a foreboding cabinet in the middle of the night - finds illegible papers no doubt related to murder* #Catherine: *accidentally blows her own candle out while trying to just lower the flame for Effect - proceeds to freak out* #Catherine: *woken up next day by a maid - the cabinet was a linen closet - the papers were inventory of sheets n shit* #Henry Tilney: “Why are you like this? And WHY am I apparently into it?? #Catherine: *too busy trying to stare through the keyhole of the abbey's Forbidden Rooms #totally doesn't hear him* #jane austen #northanger abbey #austen: both a diamond thief AND a talented humorist #give me a time machine and a dinner invite and I would 100% try and flirt with her #GIVE THIS TO ME SCIENCE

[a-chaotically-small-lunta]

Okay hear me out. Imagine a story where a scientist is leading a tour of kids through his lab, showing off all the inventions that will hopefully one day help humanity! In this tour is his son, who is very excited to be with his dad at his job, while also technically going to school? Win Win!! His dad has been a bit overprotective of him, but he sort of enjoys the attention. Although he isn’t too keen on his classmates who bully (perhaps one of the bullies is his brother or something) him for it, still poking and teasing him during the tour.

After awhile the dad shows off a portal machine which can open a portal to a whole new world, or at least that’s what they think it leads to anyway. The lab hasn’t fully tested it and is making a robot to send in first. The kids all ask if they can see it and the science team agrees as long as no one goes over the rails towards the portal, cause it seems to have a suction. (You can see where this is going I bet) The science team flips on the machine and the portal lights up, and while everyone is distracted the bully decides to have some fun, whispering into the Scientist kid’s ear something like “Maybe you’ll see your mom over there” or “Perhaps I should just take out trash like you. You’re just wasting dad’s time anyway” before the kid can really process what happens he is pushed over the rail into the portal, disappearing. The machine shuts off with a clunk and the dad is pissed. He is shouting at the bully about how stupid that was and how they have no idea if it’s even life sustainable on the other side! A guard nearby says that the kid is in real serious trouble for so many reasons, only for the dad to chime in that the bully better hope his kid is alive cause if he isn’t, he’ll get a murder charge. The bully explains he didn’t mean to only for most of the class saying that the bully always does this and one student even repeats what he said before he pushed the kid in. They decide to end the tour early and send everyone home, while the bully is escorted out by the guards and won’t be going home soon.

The science team asks what they’re gonna do and the dad says they’re gonna make something. Perhaps a suit or vehicle so that he can go into the portal and find his son. The team nods and quickly gets to work, they know it’ll take more than a few weeks, but maybe if they are lucky the kid will be okay, and maybe they can get it done faster.

Meanwhile, the kid flies through the portal and lands on a soft ground. Panicking he sits up and looks around, only to notice he’s on a huge bed. The portal sent him to a world that was way bigger than his own. Fear strikes him as he realizes where there is a big bed, there’s a big person. He’s right when he looks over across the room and sees a huge person sitting at a desk mumbling to themself. He’s frozen in fear and can’t move, even when the person swings around from their chair and walks over to their bed only to pause and stare at him.

The giant just stared at him, confused as to why there is a tiny child in their bed. They swear they didn’t put them there and are about to say something when the kid just burst out crying and the giant panicked. They quickly kneel by their bed and try to hush the child and tell them that it’s okay. The child keeps sobbing and soft hiccups can be heard, but eventually the kid quiets down a bit. The giant carefully asks how the kid got there, and the boy answers between sobs. The giant listens and the boy eventually bursts into tears again, crying out that they want their dad. The giant gently scoops them up, and holds them close saying “hey, hey, it’s going to be alright. You said your dad was a scientist…sooo he must have seen you get pushed in. I bet he’s trying to get back to you, he just has to figure out how to.” The kid sniffles and asks if the giant really believes that and they nod. They then reassure the kid that they won’t hurt them and that they’ll watch and care for them, until their dad comes to save them. The boy nods and the giant pauses and asks if he likes movies. The boy says yes and that he likes action like movies. The giant then decides that maybe they could watch a movie, to help the boy calm down, they’ll even let the kid choose the movie. He gets a little excited over this and the two of them go and do exactly that. Through this we learn that the worlds are almost identical, but some things are changed like Superman is Aceman, and Ice Cream is Frost Gel. All still the same thing, just named differently, which both the giant and boy find amusing.

The boy stays with the giant for little over a week, getting used to the large surroundings and the movements of the giant. The giant provides a small house to the boy, made of a box and Legos, which the boy had fun playing with and designing that part of the little home. In the other world the dad and his team finally finished the suit. It was built to survive space, acid, lava, and other possibilities. It had a backpack built into the back that held food rations, weapons, tools, and other things for survival. There was also the case, which contained all the parts for a small return portal back home. Which had been tested multiple times….just not cross dimensionally. The suit also had a built in camera that would send live video feed back to the team while the dad, who wanted to be the one who went through, was over there looking for his son. He’d also do some science stuff, like take samples and explore a bit.

The day finally arrives and the dad walks through the portal. He finds himself behind a large plush wall, and he starts to walk around it when he hears booming voices. Meanwhile the giant is laying in bed scrolling through their phone. The kid is sleeping in their little house for a quick nap. Then out of the corner of their eye they see something move out from behind their pillow. The dad looks up and catches the giant’s eye glancing at him. He freezes, and then grabs a weapon from the bag. This causes the giant to freak out and quickly flop out of their bed and onto the floor. The dad runs over and, using the mic in his suit, shouts “WHERE IS HE?!?!?” The giant, confused as hell, asks that the “crazy living action figure dude” please put down the weapon, while also asking what he means. The dad just shouts “IF YOU DID ANYTHING TO HIM I SWEAR I’LL..” the threat falls from his lips as the giant rises above him and cautiously walks over to the little house. They open the top and reach in, carefully waking the boy up and whispering that they have a surprise. The dad, still in a fighting stance, watches as the giant approaches with something in their hands. He’s about to fight, when the giant opens their hands and reveals his son, causing him to freeze. The boy pauses, not recognizing him cause of the suit, but once the dad rips the helmet off, the kid jumps off the giants hand and rushes to embrace his dad.

Both the kid and the dad just tightly hold onto each other as the giant just smiles softly, watching them. They then comment how much of a strong and loving dad the kid has and how the dad has such a brave and smart son. They both look up at the giant, who gives them a sweet smile. The dad explains they can go back home and the son is excited to tell his dad everything he learned about the place. The giant asks if there is anything they can do to help, which the dad asks if there is a safe place to setup a portal device somewhere that isn’t, well, a bed. The giant nods, and offers their hand to the pair. The son quickly hops on and the dad, carefully steps on after a bit of encouragement from his son. The giant takes them to their desk and says they can set it up in the free space near the wall.

After some time the portal is up and running and the dad has some samples, including a hair from the giant, and the small pair is ready to go home. The giant remarks that they’ll probably be seeing more of the tiny people, but says that they are welcome to visit. The boy hugs the giants hand and thanks them for taking care of them. The dad also thanks them for watching over his son, and says that he’s glad that the giant was the one to find his son. They take their leave and the story comes out in their world about what happens. The bully is still charged for some things, mostly messing with official government science stuff, but everything seems fine in the end. Plus the boy made an amazing friend, and the dad found someone he can trust to watch his son.

Anyway, basically what if a portal led to a giant world similar to our own, but it was discovered because some kids decided to mess with a kid. Resulting in the kid getting lost in that world, having to wait to be found or find a way back themself?

#g/t #gt #gianttiny #giant/tiny #giant tiny #g/t idea #g/t ideas #g/t thoughts #g/t thought #g/t story idea #I think it would be interesting to find a whole new world filled with giants #although if I found a tiny crying child in my bed I’d probably freak out #I’d have to calm them down and try and figure out how they got here and whether or not they were always tiny #it would be 100% worse if they happened to be from the same universe and the portal just shrunk them and sent them somewhere random #especially if you see the missing posters and think ‘wait I have them…how am I gonna explain their size?!?!?’ #but if they’re from another world it’s more ‘oh okay. just smaller universe..okay okay…let’s figure out dimension travel then…I guess!!!’ #either way I’d comfort them and definitely help or try and help them get back home #I’d just make sure that they were okay and watch over them…go all mama bear mode I guess haha #also sorry this got long and is basically a short story written shorter…a shrunken story hehehe

[jennycalendar]

SO. in the process of my ted lasso rewatch, i noticed something that absolutely floored me, and that feels really fucking significant re: nate's arc. the second episode features a scene where nate, in an effort to be Cool and Angry About Losing in the same way as the players, does this:

seriously damaging the door.

now, there are a lot of parts of this moment that are super important to look at. the door is damaged because nate is trying to be someone he isn't in an attempt to fit in. the crack patterns ON the door have a nexus point that shows up directly where ted's back is -- visually speaking, nate is backstabbing ted. the scene itself ends with this nonverbal interchange between ted and nate:

ted is confused, nate is placating and apologetic, both of them are separated by a sheet of damaged glass (and ted is in the manager's office, which is the very position that nate wants to inhabit so badly!)

but the reason that i so badly wanted to bring this to the attention of tumblr at large is the single-second, blink-and-you'll-miss-it follow-up shot during sam's birthday party.

we see nate. we see the door, taped up. we see the tape, in nate's hands.

nate has fixed the damage that he did. gone and done it himself. the show makes it clear that HE did this by emphasizing him tossing the tape between his hands in time to the music. he caused damage but he learned how to put things back together and we see BOTH OF THOSE ASPECTS in this scene!

anyway. i think that one is worth thinking about. :)

#celia watches ted lasso #ted lasso #nathan shelley #i have been freaking out about this one on call with lindir for multiple hours. #i am calling it now. nate is going to learn how to do and be better. #and it isn't going to be perfect! #the door is very clearly FUCKED UP #but he is going to try and things are going to get better!!!!! #i just! ghJDSNJGDSHHG i need ppl to SEE THIS i am 10000 percent convinced i'm onto something here! #maybe this is old news but I DO NOT THINK IT IS

[rabdoidal]

idk how to express it but like. my mum asked me earlier "do you have initiative? you need to learn how to do things without people telling you" and idk how to tell her like. 1. i am autistic and a HUGE part of that is not having motivation or initiative in the traditional sense because its harder to read what people want from you, 2. i also have executive dysfunction with my depression, and 3. she is the reason why i have a lack of motivation! because my whole life when i Try to do things to help out, i either get confused or i do it wrong, and shes not patient with me and also doesnt explain things to me - and the worst part is 4. i dont know how to explain stuff to her without it feeling like an excuse, because when i speak plainly, she thinks im dodging blame, when im actually just trying to communicate my default settings and how im working on overcoming them because i live in a neurotypical society. when i dont contribute or help out because im scared of messing up, i am ridiculed and shamed, and when i do contribute, im not allowed to ask clarifying questions or ask for support, because then i am an idiot. and y'know what? its annoying to be told i have no motivation when right now is the time where i have the most self-driven motivation ive ever had

#personal #its truly just like. im not asking for solutions or comments here #its just straight up confusing for me #and i get so overwhelmed trying to say this out loud to people #like i instantly start crying #but its not because im sad! or trying to get sympathy! i am just so freaked out all the time! #i have to be so self regulated its not funny #genuinely the only reason my family dont see me as an actual autistic person is because i can talk #if i was 24/7 nonverbal maybe theyd believe me #my god

[pup-pee]

no1s mad i drew more konbart right?

last drawing is nirvana au // also i gave up on the 1st drawing mayb? i might return 2 it

#i realized im starting 2 feel insecure bc ppl my age r drawing muchMUCH better than me so i tried 2 do things i dont usual do kinda idk #trying 2 prove im not *that* bad @ art lol #which means i tried 2 draw kissing y tf did i try this I DONT I #USE TONE INDICATORS U BITCH! #nirvana au #nirvana!kon #kart #konbart #my fujcing wifi freaked out on me & i drew all of these #so thats fun!! #also i worked on my sketchbook bc NOTHING WAS WORKING sts yestefay was so boring :( #my sketchbook is exploding its more junk then sketch #my junk book #puppee art #i love nirvana!kon oh how k love them so theyre so pretty ((imo)) #i drew like 3 sidelrofiles im dying #ALSO IGNORE HOW LAZY I AM DRAWING SUPEEHERO SUITS LOL #IDRC…IDK…I DIDNT WANNA DRAW THE FLARES OR THE PATCHES PLSSSSS #ive drawn sm kon in the last like week? #bc of etsy its honestly great i have like a lil collection of those ty cards i make #uhm #i need 2 stop rambling gn #y am i saying gn???

[talleryn]

Lockwood: Goodnight moon.

Lockwood: Goodnight tree.

Lockwood: Goodnight ghosts that only I can see.

Kipps: I TOLD YOU TO STOP SAYING THAT YOURE FREAKING ME OUT

Lockwood: should’ve remembered the goggles then

#I am a firm believer that whenever Kipps doesn’t have his goggles on him then Lockwood will try to freak him out #he’ll just casually mention a ghost and Kipps will be scared shitless #shitpost #incorrect quotes #lockwood & co #anthony lockwood #lockwood #lockwood and co #locklyle #lockwood & co brainrot #lockwood & co shitpost #lockwood & co incorrect quotes #lucy carlyle #cameron chapman #incorrect lockwood & co #lucewood #ruby stokes #george karim #ali hadji heshmati #lockwood x lucy #george cubbins #lockwood and lucy

[napping-sapphic]

Yearning is CRAZY like what do you mean i’m in shambles over how badly i want to buy someone their favorite little snack

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #wish i could say this was prompted by like an actual person #but really i just ate some ice cream and remembered that love is real #also i am constantly consumed by the urge to give people things #like im the kind of freak that wants to stop by the grocery store every single day to pick out a new little snack for you to try #like ughh let me get you the things you love let me get you new things every day let me give you so so many things because i love youuu #EMBARASSING like girl chill😭😭 #im gay and i like sleeping

[canidbrained]

Some recent thoughts about nonhumanity and my relationship to the community + my personal relationship with it that I cleaned up, my writing style is a bit disjointed, I would like to share more of my writing, if anyone would be interested in seeing that :)

#I have a lot of thoughts about nonhumanity that I don’t know how to share #feel like there is such a communal focus on misinfo and easily digestible “content” #that there’s no space to talk about anything else that no one would care to look. #Not that there is anything wrong with that focus and not to say that I am exempt from participating in it! #I just don’t want that to be what represents me and the only way I engage in this community yk? #I want to spend most of my time talking to people who I have similar experiences to #not explaining things to people that are new to the space or just coming into their identities #which again there’s nothing wrong with that! everybody starts somewhere #(again I’m not an exception lol!) #I also have some misplaced resentment that I need to sort out I think idk it’s hard to sort. #It’s also hard to be okay with caring this much about stuff like this at all #i try not to be embarrassed i am anyway. #It comes with the territory of having mental stuff I guess lol can’t help being a freak! #nonhumanity #therian #canine therian #therianthropy #otherkin #therian art #nonhuman #dog therian #alterhuman #therian community #nonhuman community #coyote therian #kin #coyote kin #canine kin

[cherrych4]

if i were ever to trust evidence of ghosts it would be on ghost files because theres just no way theyre staging it yeah yeah theres always the possibility its fake but deadass they gain very little from doing that. the majority of comments are about the guys fucking around and the insane deranged shit they both do, not discussions on the evp or video captures. the ghosts just give them something to bounce off of, they dont even need evidence to make a good episode. thats why id be willing to believe actually compelling evidence if its on ghost files, bc theres any honest people online it would be them

#faked evidence just makes for a bad show #ryan freaking out over nothing is more fun to watch than some spooky wind on the evp #btw misinterpreted evidence does not equal faked evidence. ryan misinterprets the spirit box all the damn time #but they dont linger on it and try to convince us bc thats not the point of the show #this sounds rly boring and chronically online but thats bc idk how to convey the lightheartedness and earnestness at once #i am not taking this seriously but i do wholeheartedly believe they are not staging evidence #ghost files #watcher #shane madej #ryan bergara #buzzfeed unsolved #side note i love that they dont bring up unsolved by name. absolute god tier pettiness

[ollierachnid]

TSP feels like falling victim to a manic, belligerent artist and having to endure his whims despite your best attempts to rebel against him. TSD Ultra Deluxe, conversely, is more like now being married to this same artist as he undergoes a midlife crisis and you must nod along going "yes dear, very true dear" to placate his hurt sensibilities, while he goes through the motions

#pretzel talks #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #this is the best way i can articulate it lmao #mentally i am stanley walking along holding the narrators hand and nodding solemnly and trying not to roll my eyes when he freaks out #the narrator #you can rb if you like dhsdhshhs ig #i mean this w upmost positivity

[moeblob]

Anyway i should post these to my OC blog but I keep mentioning Ymber here and so you guys are getting forced to see him.

In Deacon's defense, he doesn't think it's weird that he likes being alone in Ymber's temple considering they first met /when he was alone in Ymber's temple/. In Ymber's defense, he knows Deacon has no magical powers and so the whole resonance with the dead is unexpected cause he's never seen Deacon talk to the dead because he's always on duty around Ymber.

So. (jazz hands) Deity of Wet, Ymber.

#my characters #ymber has so much stress and trauma and guilt packed in that lil body #also he tries really hard to keep hyping deacon up to fulj because every single time the two interact #she reports back to ymber to complain that his follower is really weird #so hes like okay gonna make a mild conversation and then deacon says yeah i like to listen to the dead #and ymber is like dude i am trying to help you out and reduce the freak label and you say shit like this #anyway ymber is suffering and i cant stop making him suffer and he has so much trauma #this is the third look for ymber cause the first two were incorrect and so yeah #finally got this dumb guy drawn

[bohemian-nights]

Need I remind Ryan Condal(and the fans of this show who want her cut because she’s irrelevant) that in every piece of media on the Dance [The princess and the queen(2013), The World of Ice & Fire(2014), the Dance DVD lore(2015), Fire & Blood(2018), and The Rise of the Dragon(2022)]Nettles is always there.

Some characters that will be featured in the show like Addam of Hull(he’s not mentioned by name in the DVD lore), Alys Rivers(she’s not mentioned in the DVD lore or The World of Ice & Fire), or Gwayne Hightower(he’s not mentioned in the DVD lore or The World of Ice & Fire) are not mentioned in certain versions of the story, but Nettles is featured in every single version of the Dance.

#hbo I am watching you #nettles #house of the dragon #hotd spoilers #I’m not trying to piss anyone off because I like all the characters I mentioned #I am however trying to point out how this show is treating certain characters #netty #nettles asoiaf #hotd #she’s been there since the beginning #again if GRRM or even HBO itself could always find some way to squeeze her in what is stopping them now 🙃 #why change it up 🙃 #nettles f&b #what would be the reason 🙃 #if someone replies to this with ‘HOTD has reached their Black quota’ you won’t like my reply 😊 #they also shouldn't push her back a season #they've squeezed in everyone inlcuding freaking silver denys and give a storyline before the sowing for twiddle dumb and dee #give us nettles ✊🏽

[cahootings]

did not have "downstairs neighbor apartment sinks and tub filled with rotting meat" on my 2024 bingo card i'll tell ya what

#trying to retain levity in fact I am fully freaking out right now #i think i might. go to a hotel for the night. idk.