#am suffering

[millennialgrandma]

Kaz accidentally calling Jesper "Jordie" in the heat of argument and then later answering Jesper's question with "Someone I trusted. Someone I didn't want to lose."

#emotional damage #am suffering #kaz brekker #jesper fahey #crooked kingdom

[phantomyaa]

silently craving for the sebastian and o’ciel interaction I need for a living but not gonna get in the near future

#kuroshitsuji #am suffering #nj #can’t take this anymore #when will we see this dorks again #ahhhh #my life is worthless #sebastian michaelis #o’ciel #ciel phantomhive #anime #black butler #manga #craving

[smol-lif3-in-smith3r33ns]

Angry Mood😡 / Rant 1 (30/08/2023)

hating how as soon as brown girls hit around 21, that fam starts taunting each thing we do and go "is this what you're gonna do in your sasural?"

bish u dont need to remind me of the horror that would come with A.M.

it's inevitable but i dont need a constant torturing reminder of it

to the new brown parents, do better than this for your daughters. why was it that since a young age, i heard the concepts of shaadi and sasural and shit like that, but not of masters and phd and making a goddamn career as priority

i sometimes hate them so much at times like this

no they wont sit me down, on my 20th Birthday to discuss about my upcoming 20s, or on my graduation to hear out my career plans or guide me on the career options ahead

but THIS

every fucking day

and god forbid if i too lose my shit in the middle of it or fight or increase my voice volume. because at the end of it, there's only one loser that loses everytime and that's me. it's only met with something worse everytime i do

the marriage age they have in mind for me: 24

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?

imma run someday from my home if this goes on

ukw, i get the reason why they want me to do my masters so soon, so early RIGHT NOW before even letting me explore my career field or my 20s or a chance to find love or live in different cities, countries even

im so angry

imma plan my Masters around this age itself so that for 2 fucking years they wont be able to do shit. tab tak toh main khud dhund lungi koi accha, and if AM is after that then i wont mind even

and uske 2 years toh break even lagne mein hoga

25 tak toh jeene do baccho ko :(

why is it like this in gujju family (matlab dhong mat karo na phir progressive hone ka)

even my bros (padhe likhe bros) agreeing to this ki haa 24 pe rafa dafa

and being such lil patriarchal shits that kitchen ka kaam sikh lo whenever they get angry on me (which is most of the time a day)

hume dafaa nahi hona

i wont do this shit until like 27-28

jao dhund sakte ho toh dhund lo. and if they badger me, imma shut down on them like they do on me (whenever i try to get a word in)

fucking double standards

the fact that i have to stay at home all day (cause i have no studies or classes to attend, or any job to go to...and not many friends i can find sanctuary in) is already eating at my SOUL.

maybe ill just go to the library, and sit there all day. Because i cant fucking bear this another minute.

wow great, now they're asking what the fuck are u doing on phone all day (this is the first time i took my phone at length today :'))

#desi family #toxic parents #am sucks #am suffering #life rants #life ruiner

[fruitmans]

Who turned on the heat again?🥵

#stop it #am suffering #ugh #dont mind me #bells be speaking to herself

[curiosity-killed]

As it turns out, underpainting doesn’t actually make the actual painting that much easier orz

#am suffering #send aid #also feel like I started with the wrong shade of brown and that’s throwing me off a bit #personal

[frxemriss]

my breeding projects are going well! thamks for asking adkjf :wheeze:

#flight rising #xemspost #am sUFFERING

[spacejammie-eimmajecaps]

Today has been crappy.

#im so sick rn #was a little feverish on friday/yesterday but it wasnt too bad #was still able to get writing stuff done #but not today #today is the worst #am suffering

[mangosmoothiepussyv3]

i am up early once again and i hate everything

#personal #i have work today too :') #im dying #and i gotta study for the final im taking /today/ ugh #am suffering

[a-polite-melody]

Hate that my hips ache when I have period cramps. The uterus pain is bad enough…

#about me #am suffering

[doyouhavefood]

One of my friends once said that at birthday parties, there should be a birthday human instead of a birthday cake. This is also the same friend that their chocolate chips cookie in tomato soup

So yeah, this is my life and my friend group, and somehow, I both love it and hate it

HELP ME AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #am suffering

[fallentale4]

why

is it

so

damn

hard

to find

a comfy spot

on the damn

floor

#am suffering #please help #I don't have a desk chair #nor a good desk #or a clean desk

[astral-catastrophe]

Anyways I no longer want knees because my knees are in pain and it’s making my whole leg hurt

#Am suffering

[devihashi]

i been listening to the same 3 Ali Project songs for the past 5 hours and i still have to shade this

but later cuz my head about to expload rn 😀

#//moxyma #devihashiart #wip #am suffering #i hate drawing feet #use a reference please #i actually did for this picture #but not the foot 😔 #screaming and crying over how hot he is #orz....

[worstloki]

Have you seen the sandman? Has some great blorbo material

NOT YET! BUT I WILL !!!

#i've been busy #am suffering #i also want to watch nope #whenever i get to it i suppose #*glares in general direction* #I HAVE HEARD DREAM HAS NIGHT SKY EYES???? #I'm already sold on the concept alone

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[mobius-m-mobius]

#obsessed with their priorities

#mobius #loki #lokius #mcuedit #lokiedit #marveledit #owen wilson #tom hiddleston #loki spoilers #it's got your shape to it... i'm sensing owen at work again 😂 #banter for DAYS they're so married it's unbelievable #am i distracting myself from pain and suffering by thinking how hilarious it is loki's vocabulary now includes phrases like 'hoof it'?? #maybe so maybe so :')))) #btw if anyone wants to theorize about the ep - #i'm going on record as assuming mobius getting hot cocoa on his own is the point where the timeline went wrong ;;;; #dianagifs #owenwilsonedit #marvel #loki s2 spoilers #ouroboros #o.b. #casey