#am I gonna break down

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

rough day...

#i might come back and color this. Eventually.... #scribbled this after a busy day of lots of moving things into storage and hauling boxes around #i felt a bit like a workhorse! #at some point i sat down on the uhaul w/ my water and thought. Wow. How Does Eddie Manage #poor guy deserves a break... #he needs a day off smh #i mean the neighborhood would fall apart w/o him probably but still. he needs a vacation! #he works too hard! someone tell him to prioritize himself for once! #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #eddie dear #alrighty well its 12 am i need to get up in less than 6 hours and i still have Several Things To Do before i can sleep! #so! queuing this and getting those last chores done #wait fuck. what where they #well! i'll remember when i get up to do them! probably! #yknow 7 hours into tomorrow's drive im gonna be like OH FUCK I FORGOT THE [insert task here] #oh. shit did i eat dinner? hm... im not gonna be ready for breakfast when i wake up #so i might as well add 'quick cup of noodles' onto tonight's Before-Sleep list.... #im rambling! sorry! #anyway i have Much affection for eddie! somebody get him a spa day and some shiny new stamps!!!

[kitocrystal]

Checking out other Quest AUs as I wait for my will to come back to continue with Inky Mystery.

(The conflict has not let down yet and I’m starting to feel dread)

Anyway, go check out this neato retell of the og Quest story by @thequestfortheinkmachinecomics. The characters’ designs are nicely touched up, their personalities seems more natural now, the art is really cool and oh no, I’ve run out of juice for words… I just know that this retell will be good so I’ll be on along for this ride.

#kitos art #fanart #bendy and boris the quest for the ink machine #babtqftim #tqftimc #cuphead #bendy #no that isn’t bendystraw #mugman #boris #felix #felix the cat #i’ve posted art a lil nonstop for the past few weeks i gotta lay down and rest for a while #eughghhgt #my brain’s a soup now #none more energy #aaaaaaaa #i wanted to also draw more art for JaAC #but i need to take a break or else i really am gonna have a burnout #i slightly mimick the style of the au i draw #with my own influences ofc #so expect diff styles and designs for diff aus cOugh #just waitin for the father-son stuff #im mushy for my favs getting caring parental figures #just makes my heart go hgngnhg #alr ill stop talking now and go to sleep #or take a nap

[lengthenedshadows]

HELLO??

Fully blindsided right now & still processing the situation as I type this

My employer of 4 years, who has always been honest with me (sometimes to a concerning degree) has just let me know quite suddenly that she does not have the money to pay me for my last 2 weeks of work.

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It's not totally out of the blue, I knew the company was struggling in an expand-or-die sort of way, but she's been reassuring me for months that she had investors lined up etc etc and that she'd let me know well ahead of time if I needed to start looking for another job.

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Timesheets for the second half of September were due on the 1st-- mine totaled up to nearly full time at 19/hr. Typically payroll goes through within a couple of days or we at least hear an update. Crickets.

My internet bill was due yesterday; the charge hit my closed bank account and bounced. I was barely expecting to be able to cover my existing overdue and anticipated expenses with the paycheck i believed was coming. I reached out via text to ask for an update:

I have in fact been looking for another job-- at least on the side to make me feel more secure and allow me to live more comfortably-- but no one wants a gardener in the winter, or a gardener who can't drive, for that matter, and I hadn't begun to start looking for the sort of work from home admin job she had me doing.

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She's been like a weird family member to me for ages now, and yet she let me do all that work the last couple weeks, knowing she couldn't pay me for it, without saying a damn word. I have emails from her asking for me to do more for her as recently as yesterday. No mention of oh btw it's gonna be volunteer labor for now. I'm feeling heartbroken and betrayed; she was one of the few 'adult' figures in my life I genuinely felt I could count on.

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I'll double down and figure something out-- but, in the meantime, I'm SO fucked and I really need your help. Please please at least reblog this for a boost, and if you have even an extra dollar I'd be tremendously grateful if you sent it my way.

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Ca$happ/venm* $wanderingivy

Dm for paypal or evidence of debts/bills/expenses and shit if you want it, I can't psychologically tolerate trying to dig it all up right this second

#ivy.txt #financial #help needed #donations needed #please help #seriously the floor just fell out from under me i dont know what to do #please at least reblog to boost. im so scared. i am a contract employee with no unemployment insurance. okay im gonna go break down now

[soobinswifeyy]

percy didn't even think TWICE before choosing annabeth for the quest!!! HE WILL ALWAYS CHOOSE HER 😭😭

#DO YOU HEAR ME CRYING? #this series will break me in every way possible #what am i gonna do when he turns down immortality for her then #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo #annabeth chase #percy and annabeth #percabeth #pjo series #sally jackson #grover underwood #pjo tv show

[dying-acc-idk-man]

hey guys im still not okay after the movie even after months, have me coping. ive been thinking about ari as uta and and and

and also a bonus

#i promise ill actually draw uta fr #also because i want scar to have all the funny shenanigans bepo did in the movie its so ngklenKLNKLGAENKLAENGJKLB #pls dont look at me i havent coped after watching im still not i am gonna break down #dingus art #mcyt #ariana griande

[zebratimw]

Spirit animal SQH

#svsss #shang qinghua #but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but #but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee #also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but #I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg #oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left #I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something #or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird #LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm #I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either #I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself #eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it... #I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up #I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa #man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong #cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk #its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment #with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig #and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down #but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀 #irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living... #just the ol regulars yknow? #and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want? #I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what? #whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate? #so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it? #that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications #and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly #man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk

[androgynouspenguinexpert]

never trust a blond

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #art #illustration #redacted blake #redacted balance #closeknit #i am seeing an UNACCEPTABLE level of blake slander across my dash right now so im back in the trenches #is he a good person? jury's still out #everyone has a breaking point at which they start doing awful things #im absolutely not defending blake's actions good lord #but of course he's gonna snap have you seen the shit he's been up to lately #every good villain thinks they're the hero of their own story #blake is so desperately clinging to being the hero that he hasn't noticed he's already fallen off the path and is on the way down

[welcometogrouchland]

IMPORTANT UPDATE FOR BATMAN AND ROBIN (2023) FANS!!!...he eat a burger [ID in alt]

(taken from Nicola Cizmesija's insta, who's on art for B&R issues #5 and #6)

#ramblings of a lunatic #batman and robin #damian wayne #dc comics #''ladel are you gonna get obsessive about the character again and hunt down any and all official art of them-'' no what makes u say that #nikola cizmesija was the artist on the recent red hood gotham wars tie-ins btw! same colourist as those issues too #...idk how much dc tumblr is actually in to the production side of comics. i know i am but i have a feeling that's not universal #anyway i actually really like to know the individual artists colourists and inkers on stuff if i can it's fun! #anyway i quite liked the art in those red hood issues so i am :] excited for issues 5 and 6! #there was also a cover(?) defs done by cizmesija that has damian and bruce in like underwater batsuits? like they're wet suits #and they're fighting orca on it! and cizmesija mentioned getting to design new suits so! it seems like we're getting an underwater adventure #for that arc at least! the writer joshua williamson said that he's trying to focus the structure more around shorter arcs this time #so it seems like in the shorter breather arcs we might get little artist changes to break it up?? neat imo #i like a book w consistent art if I'm really vibing w the art but i get that a lot of ppl have mixed feelings on di meos art for b&r #so I'm interested to see what the reception will be to cizmesijas when it comes out in...i think January? same month as the annual #i saw a solicit that said the art for the annual was by Howard Porter but i could be wrong #god this got way off track. ANYWAY! he eat a burger #(also williamson has said before that damians a vegetarian so I'm assuming it's a veggie burger)

[vaguely-concerned]

I've been devouring the first few seasons of star trek deep space 9 recently and folks... after several false starts we might finally have found the trek that will take my brain down like the weak gazelle of the herd. I love this shitty little space station and the cast of exclusively weirdos that inhabit it so much

#star trek #star trek ds9 #ds9 #so begins the great game of 'which tags are gonna stick for me here' #I have watched a lot of TOS and enjoyed it (the search for spock especially Did things to me) #but not like in a brain eating way. not like this hfjdska #I tried tng for at least half a season and I retain absolutely no memory of it at all I am sorry. fully head empty #these fucking weirdos immediately resonated with me though there's not a one of them I didn't vibe with on sight #I think I just needed a more cramped shitty everything-breaking-down environment to really thrive and ds9 is giving that bless #will I finally reach the full sci-fi trinity. will I reach the gate the wars and the trek of it all at long last and know enlightenment #(also will the occasionally overlapping but often diverging sci-fi nonsense words and concepts break my brain? we'll see!)

[ahollowgrave]

Redid Odette's little attic bedroom to be more enclosed. I missed her bed being open so I am gonna repurpose the previous loft build for Prudence's apartment. Still not done adding clutter but I'm pretty happy with it for now!

#pigeon screens #i am also maxed out on slots for now until i break down my flower studio in the basement but #that probably won't happen for a while so!!!! #we're just gonna ignore the fact that some things aren't dyed #agreed????

[angelpuns]

I want to keep up with the TMNT Au comp propaganda but its starting to make me not want to draw at all, so I probably won't be making too much more propaganda and will instead be focusing on finishing this Kid Leo Intermission. After that I will probably be taking a short break from comics because everything lately just feels too much and too difficult ;-; I still have so many extra comics I want to draw and I had a lot of propaganda ideas, but I just can't keep up with the pace of it right now and forcing myself to draw things that I don't want to is hurting more than helping.

TLDR: I'm gonna finish out the Kid Leo intermission here soon and then take a break and draw some other stuff for like a week before getting back into comic posting :)

I'll try and answer tmnt au comp asks and add on to previous propaganda if I can, but more than likely I'm just gonna be resting or drawing other stuff for a while

#i hate taking breaks #but sitting down to draw lately just feels awful #and i find myself dreading it more and more #so #i am thinking i need a break #ill probably draw some other stuff un the mean time #or ill just stream games or smthn #i just need to step back and take a huge breath cause i feel terrible all the time #sorry for not being able to keep up tho <3 #im at least gonna finish the intermission today

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn

#its nice to be this excited about something again! to the point of nausea! #and i Mean That #this is the good kinda stress. tis a welcome break from the usual brands #all week i've been having moments of 'ohhhh god New Information Incoming' and i have to sit down every time #and measure my breathing to chill tf out #is this unhealthy! maybe! i am trying to keep it Contained!! tightly leashed if you will #BUT OH FUCK ITS ALMOST HERE AGH AGH AGH #absolutely unprompted #welcome home #i will probably be unable to discover secrets bc i am bad with computers and the like #but hey! ill try! #if there's like... a spoiler tag yall want from me ill make sure to tag any Update Posts with it #then again wh is a unique scenario of like... Are there spoilers #bc it feels like a 'a couple people uncover stuff and then show/tell the rest' thing #but what would i know! this is kinda the first update! #LETS GO GAMERS I HOPE THE NEW STUFF IS TRAUMATIZING FOR BOTH US AND THE CHARACTERS #alright im getting to excited again im gonna go lay down #gonna be refreshing pages every ten seconds even when its completely illogical and meaningless to do so

[bakersfield-row]

I love Radiohead. No, you don't understand. I love Radiohead. They are the best. Nothing is better than Radiohead. No, you don't understand. They are genius. Not just ok, genius. No, there are no other good bands. They are the best band. It makes me sad you don't understand that. Radiohead is more than a band. The Bends is entry level. I love Radiohead. I love them. King of Limbs will be genius. Everything they do is genius. I would die for them. You need to hear more of their music. I should tie you up in a room and make you listen to their entire catalog. Then you would understand how brilliant they are. You just don't understand them. I love Radiohead. They are my religion. If you don't love Radiohead, then I cannot understand you. They are great. I wish they were air so I could breathe them. I wish Radiohead was water so I could drink them and have them inside of me. All of their songs are amazing. All of them. I love Radiohead. They are more important than you. They are more important than any of us. You don't understand their greatness. I love Radiohead. I should kill you and stuff a stereo into your corpse so your body will sing Radiohead. I'm just high on my love for all things Radiohead. I am not crazy, I just appreciate Radiohead. They are my favorite band. I have all of their albums. They are smart, they make people download. You just don't understand them. I wish I could take a bath in Radiohead. I would like to soak in all the greatness of their art. They are artists. Radiohead is more important than you or me. You just don't understand. I love them. You need to listen to Radiohead. You should listen to their new album. It will teach you things. I love Hail to the Thief. I love Thom Yorke. I love In Rainbows. Thom Yorke is the new religion.

(Also here to remind yall to try to support artists directly since Spotify barely gives them shit)

#radiohead #I am SO FUCKIJG BORMAL ABOUT THIS BAND #if they went on tour FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FIVE YEARS #I’d UFKCONG CRY #idk I might try to get tickets for the snile #call my cringe or a looser idgaf #OH HOLY SHIT IF THEY LIKE WENT ON TOYR #AND THEY LIKE #PLAYED LIFT #OR THE ACOUSTIC VERSION OF TRUE LOVE WAITS #WHILE IM AT THE SHOW #I’m gonna FUCKING BREAK DOWN #OH SHIT IF THE PLAY BLACK STAR ULL FUKCIMING SALIVATE #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #OH MY GOD #IF THEY LIKE #BEGAN THE SHOW WITH THERE THERE #HAD HOW TO DISSAPEAR BEGIN EN ENCORE #HAD FAKE PLASTIC TREES END ONE ENCORE AND KARMA POLICE ON THE OTHER #WHAT IF THE FUCKING PLAYED JIGSAW AGAIN #THAT WOULD BE #UGHHHHHHHHH #YUHHHHHHHH #AAAAAAAAAAAAA

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[dennisboobs]

blacked out and came to with a document full of macden

#ada speaks #ada writing macden in 2024........ hm #its all dennis introspection but i have a Plan #the funny thing abt macden is that mac is so goddamn dense i can commit to usual den shenanigans #charlie is way too perceptive it doesn't usually work #i will laugh if i manage to post this before any of my longass fics #its. playing with some concepts i have used before (i will say. victoria being conceptualized as an entirely separate person.) #i find den's separation of self really fascinating bc for me the trans experience has been. hm #playing a part for the masses but knowing who i am beneath that #its opposite for dennis but also the same. he doesn't see vicky as himself but he doesn't have a core either #he's a shell hosting her in his body but she also feels like the most authentic version of the self #and thus. gender euphoria. very weird and complicated gender euphoria. #one dennis holds himself back from expressing to its fullest extent #what was i talking about again #oh yeah macden. that's there too. i think probably den's gonna put the moves on mac but i haven't decided how itll go..... #this fic is just dennis doing psych student brain things thinking abt mac and their relationship and breaking it all down

[skitskatdacat63]

And so what if I teared up over a radio from 14 years, so what??? And if I had to hold my head in my hands???? And if I actually had to sob???

#HE SOUNDS LIKE HES CRYING IM GONNA FUCKING LOSE IT #very similar vibes to seb malaysia 2015 tbh #just that fucking palpable relief i feel sickkkkkk #girls will know the results of a rave and yet still get over emotional abt it #the voice cracks im gonna sob im gonna lose it i cant do this #no bcs i watched it and was like okay 🥹 i am very normal abt this. #and then had to keep rewatching it over and over and every time theres more tears in my eyes #just that yes yes yes yes where he sounds like hes gonna break down #i feel it in my soul #f1 #formula 1 #mark webber #2009 german gp #we do a little bit of f1