#also when is she not fucking crying

[hanmegumi]

LMAO

edit: turning off reblogs because some of the people that are reblogging are extremely fucking moronic. holy shit

#anti jk rowling #anti harry potter #1) she's not being removed because 'she spoke up about biological sex' she actively influences anti-trans policies #2) it's not misogynistic to remove her. the fact that she's a woman doesn't have ANYTHING to do with her removal #3) the people reblogging this in approval don't 'cry when an artist isn't credited' this isn't the same fucking thing. #this is as the article says (if you know how to read 🤭) the quickest solution to reduce her impact #this bitch doesn't just hurt trans people. it's clear in her books that she's a white supremacist and she's also antisemitic #and she said dumbledore is gay for clout. it's fucking obvious. stop defending this woman and get a life- #-or get involved on the side of trans people #or just generally drop the fucking series you read as a middle schooler. nostalgia isn't more important than the lives of trans/jewish ppl

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[purrvaire]

good omens season 2 + text posts I have on my phone (1/?)

#* in adele's voice * hello it's me #im making memes to cope lads this is my personal hell #it was quiet gentle and romantic until the horrors #im *dkdhskjsksksk * [crash][explosion] wooo weeee [sirens] good lord #(derogatory) #what and i cannot stress this enough the fuck #like dong get me wrong i loved everything even the twenty nightmarish final minutes #but im also very sad now #i feel like kate winsley in the holiday when she goes around the house crying #anyway #gos2 spoilers #good omens season 2 #good omens spoilers #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #IF SOMEONE TALKS SHIT ABOUT AZI THEY'LL HAVE TO CATCH ME OUTSIDE #tumblr text meme #user purrvaire

[fightwing]

bruce immediately asking if he hurt dick after days spent infected yeah okay dc i see this and i raise you: 😭😭😭

#such a difference between this #and like tita.ns year one when bruces first words were something like 'you shouldve figured it out sooner' #like GROWTH (the growth is me crying then to crying harder now) #also can i just say dg is so fucking stupid what do u mean he was going to reveal his identity to the president #like did we not JUST go through the grayso/n arc where he had to die and agent-ify and take down spyr/al to erase everyone knowing hes nwin #but overall love that the titan.s defeating beast wor.ld with the power of friendship #hate the rae cliffhanger like has she ever known rest but theres so much to unpack #titans spoilers #beast world spoilers #tuesday spoilers #comic spoilers #kory being the contingency for donna 😫 also the fact dick has custom made nwing logo manila folders 🫥🫥🫥 very on brand i fear #also roy was in the picture when the tower exploded so im counting that as confirmation roy is joining the team again #the teamwork of it all i love it here <33333 #* i'd love to write but it's just not realistic / ooc.

[silverskye13]

Found a new song for the Tanguish/Helsknight playlist and I’m having too much fun, actually. Anyway, something something Big Angry Dog Best Friend privileges.

#spazzcat doodles #tanguish #helsknight #helsmits #through hels and high water #redstone and skulk #the song is called Crazier Best Friend #[sings loudly and off-key in the background] #break her heart and you're also breaking mine #i'm the one she calls when you make her cry #had her convinced that she was the only one #i'll tell her that 'i told you so' and fuck you up #saw the warning signs when all she saw was wow #a guy like you is always gonna let her down #if you're thinking that she'll be a crazy ex #let me introduce you to her crazier best friend

[rowanoftheunknown]

“I hope I’ll find all the pieces of my mind that fell out of my head over all those years, and that I’ll be able to put myself together again. I hope the echoes of pain will fade, and memories of sorrow will die, and that you’ll visit me here some day…”

“And I hope you have a happy ending of your own.”

#NICHE BALDURS GATE CHARACTER FANS COME GET YALL JUICE #I may be the only one getting juice but hey. yknow #obligatory if hope has one fan it is me if hope has no fans it means I am dead etc etc #hope bg3 #house of hope #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #I love her sm you don’t understand #she’s so silly (clinically insane) and she’s brave and beautiful and UGH. hope. my beloved. #hope my fucking beloved #anyways this took fucking forever #I’m not super happy with it but i AM done with it. so. yeah #I was gonna do a bg and stuff but like. I’m sleepy #so you just get the window #also I feel like the light coming through looks a bit shit but again. it’s done for now. #I’ve never tried to draw stained glass and when I tell you it was not fucking easy lol #oh it’s just like drawing regularly but with LESS DETAIL I thought like a smooth brained foool #INCORRECT #there was maths involved #anyyyyywho. all for now. enjoy. please enjoy. if this gets no notes I may cry. a little.

[lastoneout]

So in botw you(as Link) buy the house in Hateno village and fix it up...but in totk everyone says it's Zelda's house...so we can assume post-Calamity Ganon fight Link absolutely took Zelda back there, and let her live there, and she did for SO LONG that the villagers consider it HER house???

It's very interesting, that's all I'm saying.

#AND BY INTERESTING I MEAN SO FUCKING SWEET OUGH #zelink #totk #totk spoilers #spoilers #tears of the kingdom spoilers #Link really was like 'I gotta rescue Zelda but also I need to make sure she has somewhere to live when I do' #he's such a good knight he cares about her so much I'm sobbing #he brought her somewhere safe and quiet and nice after she'd been in hell for 100 years #I'm weak I'm crying someone hold me #I am a little bit bummed the picture you get from the dlc isn't in the house tho

[adelaidedrubman]

—LOCAL CRINGEFAIL MASS MURDERERS WALK INTO SEX THERAPY. (template found here. | credit to @derelictheretic for both oc portraits used!)

was alerted to the existence of this incredible meme by dearest @henbased and obviously had to do it for the flop couples and try starting off a game. below cut is blank template (+ full res johnjess version for easier reading because tumblr decided to be difficult with me on preserving transparency) and tags to play if you have any failsex couples to share!

tagging: @florbelles @henbased @derelictheretic @nightbloodbix @mccarthycormac @corvosattano @shellibisshe @socially-awkward-skeleton @voidika @fourlittleseedlings @blissfulalchemist @clicheantagonist @cassietrn @firstaidspray @josephseedismyfather @cloudofbutterflies92 @stacispratt @strangefable @nonfunctioning-queer @nowandthane @risingsh0t @direwombat @ladyoriza @g0dspeeed @inafieldofdaisies @deputyash @afarcry5fromstraight @orionlancasterr @wrathfulrook + nsfw games opt in here!

#praying tumblr doesn’t do the ‘‘ignore format and throw images in post body at random’’ thing it definitely did when i saved to drafts #anyways. ignore the johnjess complaints being mixed from multiple verses. they would cross time and space to have bad sex. #i was going to say the only thing referenced in theirs that hasn’t happened on screen in canon at some point is john unsexy crying but. #ig he did cry just *before* their second fuck in wildfire so maybe that counts. #also with the private vs. loudmouth thing i wasn’t 100% sure if that meant to the general pop (brags about sex life) or with partner. #so sorta split down the middle for answering for everyone. #also clarification for faith leaning conservative slider did not mean conservative like. prudish. #she’s not taking the risks herself because she’s Just Laying There #oc: deputy jestiny ellen #oc: jenna swann #otp: stop bothering these nice folks #otp: a neurochemical con job #nsft

[shima-draws]

So. I just watched One Piece: Film Red,

#Holy shit. What a fucking PHENOMENAL movie #Like even with barely any context since I haven’t seen the series it was SOOOO good. SO GOOD!!!!! #Ado is such an INCREDIBLE singer all of her songs gave me legitimate goosebumps #Especially when she summons [REDACTED] #Fuck. FUCKKKK this might actually convince me to watch the series now AHRJJJFJ #Luffy’s so cute……I love him……THE dumbass protag of all time #One Piece #One Piece Film Red #OP Film Red #Uta #Also the ANIMATION???? POPPED OFF SOOOO HARD #I was sitting there like YO HOLY SHIT THIS IS INSANE ACTUALLY??? #And I was legit in tears at the end I DON’T EVEN KNOW THESE CHARACTERS THAT WELL BUT LIKE #Shanks: That’s my daughter— #Me: UBWAHHHHAHHHHH 😭😭😭 #Crying sobbing etc. You know. #Maybe I’ll stream it. Bc this is something that NEEDS to be seen I think #Just for the music alone #AND THE PLOT IS GOOD TOO??? OOOFJFHH. #Uta is the character ever I love how complex she is #Her dedication to her goals was absolutely INSANE. Reeediculous. #Shima speaks #If you see me start posting about OP it means I gave in and started watching the series. Ahaha whoops. Tee hee.

[cosmicangsts]

a 3 year toxic & abusive friendship just ended y'all! he literally got mad at me for spending MY money i set aside ages ago for something i wanted ( acheron ) & today msged me an ultimatum about our friendship while putting me down, expecting me to piss shit & cry & i DIDN'T & instead stood my ground & called him out on being a controller who doesn't see me as a person with a savior complex so he DIPPED! ♡ ( not without the classic ' i'm sorry u feel that way ' & ' caring for my friend is NOT a savior complex ' & making it all about himself u best believe it was OUTSTANDING but i literally don't care i've cried so much over u )

if the new trend is a breakup at the start of every year & it means decluttering my life of incessant negativity, then honestly i am HERE FOR IT

#🏏 ( ooc . ) #FREE. FREE LIKE A CYBERBIRD #throwback to about 2 months ago #him: have u gotten to the spot in zelda yet #me: no i been cooking and running around unlocking my map and collecting stuff #him: even after i went through all that trouble making a roadmap for you? it's almost like you enjoy PISSING ME OFF. #( me silently crying on the phone ) #a real exchange we had over totk bc i wouldnt play the game the way he wanted me to #and ran around for like fifty hours without advancing the plot LOL #yes this is also the friend i mentioned meeting irl who made me miserable #had me crying in the street over a pastry #he just became a very mean person. he's no longer who i met #he's undiagnosed bipolar disorder it's very apparent to me and everyone around him #his sister and i literally discussed it when i went to meet him in person bc she saw how fucking miserable i was #and he's told me before he can't keep friendships so yeah. he is the common denominator here

[spoopy-arcade]

This'll be a weird question but I've been thinking about this since I watched a video discussing hot takes within FNAF and wanna discuss it with other people.

How do you feel about people who still cling to the idea of Roxy being a narcissistic bully because of the stuff she'd say while hunting Gregory, despite being hacked into/possessed?

Cause honestly, I think it's funny how apparently Roxy gets flack for saying some mean stuff while under the influence of a hack. At the same time, people will go to the ends of the earth to defend William Afton or Monty (if he really did kill Glamrock Bonnie I mean).

It's SO fucking stupid and I hate it 💀

And I fully agree with the last part, people out here (youtube and twitter people) treat Roxy as a full on evil bitch while defending and wanting to fuck a literal child murder and abuser. And we don't know if Monty killed Bonnie or not, but if he did, no one's gonna say anything lmao. (Even people who think he actually did kill him, they still love him and are fully riding him, but nooo RoXy StIlL bAd Bc ShE mEaN 😡😡🤬🤬)

I guarantee you that if Monty (or a "male" animatronic) was in Roxy's place, no one would say jack shit and some people will only think he's so hOT 😫😫 for it

I really don't see Roxy as a narcissist, the game clearly showed us that Roxy deals with a lot of self esteem issues, and I think she just talks to herself so she can feel better. And the whole "bullying" thing when talking to Gregory, I really believe it was just her being hacked by Vanessa/Glitchtrap to get to Gregory.

AND RUIN LITERALLY SHOWED US THAT??? Roxy clearly had a close relationship with Cassie, and there's a reason why she's Cassie's favourite. Roxy apologized for scaring her when she recognized her voice, and when she heard her again, she welcomed her back and talked to her so sweetly and was just so gentle with her?? NOT TO MENTION HER BEING THE ONLY ONE TO BE AT HER BDAY!!! AND PROTECTING HER FROM THE MIMIC DESPITE CASSIE DEACTIVATING HER AND POSSIBLY DYING FOR HER

After all of that, you're still going to tell me that she was always a narcissistic bully who cares about no one but herself??? BLOCK ME THEN /SRS

#sorry I full on rambled- #but I get so defensive with Roxy lol she doesn't deserve this #defending her till I die <3 #I also wanna say!! #I know Gregory did what he did to protect himself #but you really think Roxy wouldn't be pissed at him for crashing into her and taking her fucking eyes?? #like I said. Roxy has self esteem issues and her appearance was so important to her. I can see WHY she'd be so angry #and we see in ruin how much that still affects her (when she was crying alone in the salon) #asks #anon #roxanne wolf #I just really don't get the whole bullying thing #if that's the case then wouldn't she be mean to cassie too? #ROXY. IS. GOOD. WITH. KIDS. #also just be clear no I don't hate monty!!

[obihoe]

kind of lame tbh how sakura in the chuunin exams arc is shown to cut off her hair as a symbol for her independence and coming into her own power (since she grew them out in the first place cuz she thought it might make sasuke like her) but then at the end of the story she still ends up being defined solely by her crush on him. like during the war arc kakashi makes it her most defining trait when he thinks to himself abt how team 7 has grown and they each have changed, he says abt sakura that her feelings for sasuke have changed. and in the end, when sasuke and naruto are about to take off to the valley of the end, she again, begs him to be with her. even says that she is pathetic for doing so like .. okay

#posts #i just smtimes wish kishimoto would give her more of a personality #other than just girl who has a crush on some guy 👍 #its fine that she has a crush on him but dont make it her sole defining characteristic maybe? lol #and like she's consistently shown to beg for him and cry for him and sasuke tells her to go fuck herself over and over #i think when she says she's pathetic ... thats how the audience is supposed to perceive her as well yknow #that is how kishimoto intends for her to be seen #and that doesnt feel right for me :c #moreover ... it is also i think not debateable really that sakura's crush on sasuke .. it doesnt have that much depth #it doesnt have really any depth #which is fine conceptually i think. not everything has to be super deep and meaningful #but to make it into such a core trait of her as a character .. it just reads as if kishimoto perceives women as shallow #they just have shallow crushes on men no deep/complex relationships tho :) not with anyone thats for the men #u know? #anyways i know im not rlly saying anything new here #naruto is sexist fork found in kitchen #but yeah

[whovianderson]

Yeah, I’ll be watching, but…

…WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK???

LET JEAN MILBURN BE HAPPY, GODDAMMIT.

She deserves better.

#no you don’t understand #without jean I would never have become obsessed with gillian #she has such a special place in my heart #needless to say I am FUMING rn #HOW DID WE GET FROM S1 JEAN TO THIS #give her a sex scene and a hea with maureen and maybe I’ll stop crying for a second #also stop reducing previously independent female characters to plot lines about their partners and about motherhood pls and ty #especially when it’s this contrived and unrealistic #laura neal and laurie nunn have more in common than their names: #fucking over the best character in their show and destroying sapphics everywhere #didn’t think I’d be starting another fln campaign but here we are #sex education season 4 #sex education season 4 trailer #sex ed s4 #sex ed s4 trailer #sex education #sex education netflix #jean milburn #gillian anderson #fln

[beanghostprincess]

My current favourite crackship that I just created myself is Hiyori×Alive!Kuina. Just because if she can't get Zoro she'll just go for his cousin instead.

You're a genius. Your brain is huge. Please, let me kiss your brain. This is just amazing. I love lesbians. You're SO real-

Hiyori is easily one of my favorite characters and I love her SO much and people won't stop reducing her to her ship with Zoro. I think she doesn't need anybody and if she did want somebody it should be a girl. Because I say so. And Kuina is just,,, She would've been such a great character. Can't stop thinking about this fanart I found because it has changed my life for the better. She's in Wano to train to become the world's greatest swordsman and I'm just thinking about what if Kuina had been there to help them out too and she had been the one to save Hiyori all those times instead of Zoro.... Thinking thoughts. Like, of course, Hiyori and Zoro also have their moments because I do actually like their dynamic and I think she admires him a lot!! But you know. Kuina saves Hiyori a couple of times (when Zoro was going to do it, actually, she just appears like a second before him and ruins his moment) and Hiyori just melts. Because who wouldn't? Kuina would be so tall and strong and a sizeable woman, and I would personally die if she helped me save my country. Besides, I think they'd understand each other because both are women that have been reduced to that role specifically instead of their ambitions and their power and they're so much more. Hiyori was helpless when she had to see her country turn into this mess and she couldn't so anything else but to pretend,, Like-- If somebody knows how being a woman in the world works is Hiyori, and Kuina would understand. She'd admire Kuina so much for her abilities and her personality and ambitions!!!!!! And Kuina would absolutely love Hiyori's kindness and strength for being able to put up with so much!!!

Not to mention that Kuina would be taller than her,,, And bigger,,, And Hiyori would have to look up,, And this is now just the aesthetic part but God they'd look so different. That's Hiyori's guard dog. Wouldn't it be funny if Kuina were all serious and teasing with Zoro and like "*raises eyebrow* seriously?" type of masc girl, and the second Hiyori is around she turns into the happiest person in the world and extremely protective of her? Zoro judges her but he can't say shit because he's literally the same with Luffy (and Kuina teases him even more because she always has the upper hand and it makes him so angry). They're both down bad. Hiyori is just so nice to her and keeps saying she trusts her to become the world's greatest swordsman but even if she doesn't, she'll always have her heart and a place to stay in Wano. And I am weak, guys, I am so weak for lesbians.

Aghhh this is SO good. Somebody make them kiss. I- This is great. Oda could just say "ah yes Kuina actually escaped her hometown on her own and faked her death and traveled to Wano" and I'd believe him wholeheartedly because I want her back. I also want Hiyori back. I miss Wano sometimes a lot.

Also, Kuina sees Zoro with Enma and she goes:

Kuina: Oh cool, you got Hiyori's sword. Good luck with that one. Zoro: Do you want it or what? I am not giving it to you. You'll have to fight for it. Kuina: Nah, when I win our fight I want to win against the king of hell. Nothing less. Zoro: Where's the 'I can't win I'm a girl' bullshit now? Kuina: Stayed with the girl. Now I am a woman and I am going to beat your ass.

And Hiyori looking at them having the biggest lesbian moment in the world kicking her feet and blushing and Momo is next to her like "hehe you have a crush-" and he doesn't get to finish what he was saying because Hiyori hits him so fucking hard he faints. Don't tease her. Poor girl. She's in love, leave her alone.

#please i know i am the first one to explain the meaning behind kuina's death but the way op treats women is just not it and i want her again #also hiyori is the love of my life she's precious to me idc she's my princess i am in love with her #i thought this post would be only about a silly crackship but they're actually consuming my brain oh my god #and when kuina has to go away from wano because she has to go achieve her dream and she goes 'i don't expect you to wait for me but-' #and hiyori just holds her hands and says 'my mother waited. i've waited. and i will keep doing it as long as you come back to me' #or something like that. and i want to cry- #i am vibrating in my fucking chair god please i love them now i need more of them so fucking bad #one piece #kozuki hiyori #shimotsuki kuina #hiyoku??? kuiyori??? #i have no idea what to call this ship tumblr do your thing somebody should choose the name for me i suck at this thing #roronoa zoro #zolu #bc zolu mention there and in my head it's a very common topic between kuina and zoro okay she won't stop teasing him about it #+

[thedreadvampy]

The thing is I am definitely not happy or chill in the Immediate Sense lately but I am, big picture, so fucking happy with the person I am.

It's like. My brain was made by and for consistent trauma and since that trauma stopped about 5-7 years ago, it is incredible what the amount of resilience and cleverness and flexibility and thoughtfulness I developed to survive can do when it's not being all spent on surviving. like I had a hundred ton weight on me so I had to get REALLY STRONG to stay in the same place and not get 100% crushed, and when that weight came off I found I can use the strength it used to take to stand up and I can leap tall buildings in a single bound.

I was talking to my mum the other day and she said, "you've got the 'fuck it' energy at 30 that most women don't find until their fifties at least" and I'm like yeah man. Imagine how unstoppable I'll be in 20 years.

#red said #i don't know that i can express this clearly but it's the most encouraging thing in my life #my mum's always been proud of me but just lately she seems to actually really admire me #like she's genuinely impressed. she thinks I've surpassed her. i don't necessarily agree but it's a really nice quiet joy. #anyway like this sounds super up myself and it kind of is. #but also it's part of realising just how heavy the weight I've been carrying around with me for 25 years was #like not to be ridiculous but i have realised again this week. that it isn't that everyone's been raped that much and doesn't talk about it #i just have been raped an Unusually Consistent Amount. i have spoken to a lot of people who have had much more horrifying things happen. #I'm not sure I've talked to more than a couple of people who've had a similar level of total consistency of abuse from all angles #and the one is not heavier or harder to bear that the other. but. i think i spent most of my life listening to people's awful experiences #and going ok well nothing i went through looked that bad so it's microtrauma #obviously microtraumas build up but still. #then the older i get and the more i have these conversations the more I notice that stuff which to me is a microtrauma #is a lot of people's defining trauma. and they're reacting appropriately which means i am SO SEVERELY UNDERREACTING #told my friend the other day about a time someone who i still like and respect was having sex with me when i paralocated my hip #and then just kept getting really annoyed with me for not being ready to have sex again while i was literally crying with pain #until i caved and just tried to find the last painful position #and my friend was like pal what the fuck that's horrific #and i was like i mean no that's normal I've had sex with like maybe 3 or 4 people in my life who i haven't had similar stuff with #like i am genuinely thrown when i am allowed to say no to sex and have it be the end of the conversation. and not end up having sex #out of guilt or out of physical coercion or through physical rape. and i have had sex with probably like 40 people at this stage? #and I'm not sure it's as many as 4 i haven't had that experience with tbh #so like. I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea #that i may have actually been doing a hell of a lot of heavy lifting. #like i developed a sense of self that can survive being constantly crushed and at this stage is fucking diamond.

[h-doodles]

truly not sorry but once again thinking abt miranda/mc/mia in RL. i need them SO bad. like, 2 of the most morally unsound persons (Mia & Miranda) + their little meow meow. Knowing both are so possessive and destructive (TO OTHERS) when they love and instead of running, fully embracing the chaos of it. Loving them despite their delusions of grandeur, the crimes, the secrets, and the deaths (+ undeaths) caused (or ordered!) by their hands. Acknowledging this is fucked up but you can't help it. Lovingly bitching abt their fights but fully done and gone to do anything else but to soothe and continue loving them, because after all those years of waiting and doing and redoing everything to be perfect was worth it for this.

also did i mention being their little meow meow. sorry Miranda, MC was the original gremlin in the relationship and Mia being the fucked up feral racoon she is now is not solely by her doing, MC was and IS the enabler in both relationships that it bled over sm and OUGHJJJJJHHHHhhhh im being so emo abt three (3) women being utter menaces frfr

#sorry but i truly love it when corruption didnt spread #it was in there all along #ALSO GOD. sorry but RL Miranda/Mia happened once to me in my brain. Dreamt abt one loop that they get so fucked up drunk they slept together #and like. they didnt process it until MC comes back fr and sees the unresolved vibe #miranda's screaming shaking crying throwing up when mia alludes to it in front of mc and mc is like. huh. good for u actually. #mia: so u dont mind? that we fucked once???? #mc: babe did u forget the stint of us fucking drunk before i met miranda. i expected u guys to do it more actually. #miranda: you WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. #mc: dont worry my love i truly do love and adore u!!!! and i wouldnt mind if u wanted to bring mia in really #mc (inside her mind): my god. these bitches gay. #mc (still inside her mind): miranda doesnt know mia's a menace when she's starting to fall and mia doesn't know mira's circling her either. #mc: god i love u both but u need to opem ur eyes really. my god. #then i woke up #and thought. hey. if this was plausible eva gets to have three (3) mommies fr and IM upset its not real ekdbdofjd #anyways dreams were sponsored by cinder's re8 harem fic #thank u cinder <3 #resident lover #mother miranda #mother miranda x reader #mia winters #mia winters x reader #mother miranda x mia winters #mother miranda x mia winters x reader #personal.txt #clown.txt #simp.txt