#also waking up sucks

[koszmarnybudyn]

Here is the slut.

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #my art #glenn close #i have to wake up at 5 and write a math test tomorrow so you guys better be greatful i did this #cause i spend way too long trying to draw glenn hot like wayyy too long #i did not do school work cause of this #i dont even care about that damn pole i dont #but here is dilf glenn are you happy now? #are you satisfied? #i nearly cried cause of this damn drawing #also cause i lost my fave necklace down a fucking sink drain and am gonna have to beg some people tomorrow to help me get it out #at lesst im getting my hair dyed #i also have like two tests wendesday and like a bilion projects for thursday and Friday and all i did was draw hot glenn #im gonna go drink my hour old coffee and cry now #honestly vote carlos hes not a dick that sucks to draw #hot glenn autumn

[extra-somethin-somethin]

ik ppl hate fictional deadbeat moms but im an avid enjoyer. my feminism knows no bounds truly/j

like i get it she did a bad job. but shit she still did a job that's for sure!! like. she did it do you understand. 14 year old girl is pregnant. it's disgraceful. a shameful stain on her family. yusuke doesn't seem to have grandparents or anything so besides yusuke's bio dad she's got no one. and then when yusuke is a toddler the father disappears and considering who he is and what he's like that's probably for the best. gonna go out a limb and say that yusuke was maybe 4 or 5 when his dad cleared out so. at 18 and entirely alone. atsuko looked down at this little thing. this baby because he's still a baby to her this is a baby who only has her. Not even 4 feet tall with the biggest brown eyes looking to her for everything because he quite literally has no one else.

he doesn't know she's a failure yet. he doesn't know people will look down on them just because he exists as he is. he doesn't know how hard this is going to be from now on. all he knows is he loves his momma

so she doesn't cry. she just meets his big innocent eyes and goes "it's just you and me kid" and yusuke doesn't know that that's a sad thing.

so she takes care of him the best she can and it still sucks but yusuke doesn't know what the standard she should be held to is yet. for a small time she is the greatest and best person in his world and he's the only one who thinks so

then he meets keiko and her parents and finds out that his normal is actually dysfunctional and that his mom actually isn't all that great. that living day to day in the bottom of a bottle isn't healthy. so she's no longer praiseworthy but this person he's responsible for. just like that the roles reverse. because while she was all yusuke had yusuke is also all atsuko has. he doesn't respect her but he still punched the motherfucker in the mouth that called her a tramp. she taught him how to do it.

atsuko comes to terms with the fact that Yusuke doesn't really need her anymore, probably never did so she doesn't bother to care when he skips school or beats whoever he wants to a pulp or gambles because at 14 she was expecting so what the fuck can she really say about him. he sneers at her as he makes her coffee. atsuko lights another cigarette

it feels like betrayal when her son dies. at 14 she had him so how can he die at a sorry age like that. i wasted my teenage years on you for what? so you can die and leave me here? you fucking brat. how can she recover from this? yusuke was all she had. he hadn't looked up at her with an admiring gaze since he was 7 and stopped hugging her goodbye soon after but still he was hers he was hers and then he was gone

but then he comes back. and she doesn't get much better as a mom or as a person really. she tries harder than before maybe (keeping him in school) but yusuke never expected her to. he's made up of her bad habits and uncaring attitude but he's so much better than her. became something good something strong despite how shitty of a job she did raising him.

she's not proud because she has no right to be but something like it tugs in her chest when she sees him feeding the people he cares about at his little ramen cart looking as happy as the first time she'd taken him out to park.

yusuke's dad suggests taking another crack at the whole family thing and she wants to laugh in his face. the only family she'll ever have is that little boy who's stronger and braver than she'll ever be.

she doesn't want to see him laying cold in a casket ever again. he's meant for life, a soul as bright and durable as his. atsuko hopes he lives to see the sun explode

#atsuko urameshi #yusuke urameshi #yu yu hakusho #atsuko means warm child and i wonder if she was. #your son is sleeping and you're worried he won't wake up because you've seen him laying dead before #it takes her back to when he was small enough to cradle. she'd stay up all night just watching him breathe #because he was just so small and she'd heard about that infant death syndrome thing #and what if he just stopped breathing and she was alone #she's not a good mom but she's still his mom and he loves her even though she fuckin sucks! #also the fact that atsuko has connections to the Yakuza which is how she keeps yusuke in school #And pays their expenses is so crazy to me and also apt lmaoo #the Infamous Urameshis #people fear the very name 😤 #atsuko taught him how to fight you can't convince me otherwise

[hongjoshuaz]

'Goodmorning17' ep 1

#seventeen #svtsource #svt #svt gifs #jun #dk #vernon #hoshi #woozi #mingyu #junhui #dokyeom #userngocchi #heymax #maddieblr #this kind of sucks but idc i giffed it because i love predebut svt they were so silly and cute #woozi did NOT want to wake up #also jun carrying samuel is so cute #and ofc i had to include the iconic mingyu hitting his head part #i want to gif the 2nd part too it's also cute #their old stuff is so hard for me to gif because poor quality

[smilesrobotlover]

Was thinking about my miphlink headcanons and then this doodle turned into a fully rendered piece 🫠

#legend of zelda #age of calamity #breath of the wild #miphlink #SCREAMING AND CRYING AND SOBBING AND DYING AND AAAAHH #guys I LOVE THEM #Mipha normally sleeps but sometimes Link shuffling over to where she is wakes her up #and she is just so happy that he’s hers #this was supposed to be a sketch and then it wasn’t #bruh #the lighting is meh and the background is also meh #but oh well #is it obvious that I suck at drawing water

[hms-incorrect-quotes]

Heart: You don’t need to complain about my murder attempt when you’re reviewing a FUCKING CANDLE.

Mind [making no attempt to hide his giggling]: No, I think he does actually.

#submission #based off a real conversation #soul would do this #at the very least it’s extremely funny to imagine him doing this #< prev tags #real #{the sugar cookie scent is such a great smell to have in the kitchen It has such a nice rich smell that always makes me hungry for a cookie} #{the cinnamon candle is also a perfect scent to wake up to when you find your inner halves killing each other at 3am in the morning!} #{the clean bed sheets however suck. too faint 3/10} #{the lemon scent however is quite pleasant. very calming to have when trying to ignore the screams of your inner selves :} } #{the cedar candle is also great my chicken loves that one. make more of those ❤} #im just talking about candles now #HMS brand scented candles when/j #love waking up to the smell of my violence/silence candle its great #chonny jash #cj mind #cj heart #cj soul #chonnys charming chaos compendium

[seokmattchuus]

When Matthew tells you he's been a bit stressed with debut preparations, you help him get his mind off of things. With some handcuffs and a torturous, never-ending hand job.

#you know what. maybe i am delulu but the more i listen to this the more i think it sounds like him. oh whale #caption kinda sucks but you get the gist. the one i had before was even worse because brain no worky #it's also almost 6am and i just worked a wink shy of 12 hours so who knows if i'm even in the right headspace to even be editing and postin #i just kinda remembered that it's been a minute since i proposed it and i'm in a fuck-it-we-ball kinda mood #if it's a flop kindly let me know and i will delete in the morning i.e. when i wake up #whenever that'll be #i'm like 82% percent sure it's a flop though #so don't be afraid to tell me if it sucks bc trust me i already know #ayo have i ever rambled this much in my smut post tags? i think i've finally lost it #in my flop era for sure because what is this. what am i doing. why am i the way that i am #def going to bed now #pls don't hate this as much as i think y'all are going to #zb1 smut #zerobaseone smut #seok matthew smut #kpop smut

[hjartasalt]

Two cats I met while strolling through Tallin, thought you might appreciate them :)

I do!! I do appreciate them!!!! The tuxedo one even looks a bit like my Gríma :')

#ask #geminating #last night I dreamt she was still here with me #it was very bittersweet #I'm a rather lucid dreamer so even as I held her in my dream I knew it was only temporary #I also don't usually remember my dreams and this is a good thing usually cause I have chronic nightmares but I'm glad I did now #even though it did mean it kinda sucked to wake up without her #I'm just thankful for the small moments I still glimpse of her as my brain tries to process her loss #one day I will no longer remember the softness of her fur or the exact sound of her purr but that day is not today so until then #I am grateful for every moment my mind is able to accurately bring her to life in my dreams #she's not truly gone until she's forgotten and I plan on remembering her for as long as I can #sorry these tags are kinda heavy :( #I miss her

[sodrippy]

i love waking up early but going to bed early??? is there no joy in this world??? must i be denied even the simplest of pleasures????

#honestly in an ideal world i wake up at 4am fuck around for 2 hours workout second-breakfast then office hours #unfortunately that means i have to go to bed at 6pm and thats insane behaviour even if i didnt finish work at 6 #we should have evolved out of needing so much sleep its really lame. except when its awesome #not to mention i have absolutely no energy living like this which is also so fucking sucks #like i want to DO stuff after work i want to read and paint and embroider #instead im so fucking tired i just die #anyway its fine ill adjust i just have to fahking soldier through. i think this week might be a washout though :/

[crabs-brencil]

yk i probably should have gotten my stomach pumped a few(?) hours ago but i passed out instead and now im making myself chicken nuggets and if that's not a sign that god is playing me like a kazoo then idk what is

#ugh im like #most of the way through ...processing?? the contents of my od and so it def wouldn't do shit to either admit myself or try to diy it right? #idk #anyways the point is that im still nauseous but im also really hungry so that's also making me nauseous? idk this sucks #wow what a revelation overdosing sucks?? who would've guessed #god i feel like a fucking idiot lmao #idk i just need to bitch to ppl that don't know me irk #*irl #anyways my nuggets are done sooo #delete later #it wasn't even that bad of an overdose (fucking obv lmao since im writing this) #crazy that you can just. wake up from one tho that's actually insane #did not fucking expect that #ew

[yukipri]

I feel like over the month+, I have like 1-2 hours a day max where I feel relatively awake, and every other hour I'm fighting bone-deep exhaustion. I'll bring it up with my doc at my check up on monday, but tbh i know the solution so idk if she can help

And I can work-work when I feel half-dead, or rather I force myself to because I don't want my cats to starve, but when it comes to creative stuff, it's like my mind is slippery sludge dribbling out my eyes...

The Solution, of course: just stop working 3~10 AM every day (and then taking a short nap, working during the day, and then taking another short nap, hours vary but repeat), and maybe get at least 6, ideally 8 uninterrupted hours of sleep at least every other day, ideally every day.

But do I see that happening? No.

Like rn I know I desperately need to edit fic and reply to comments and do several arts but I'm nodding off at my desk after boss DMing me work at 5 AM and dealing with repair people since 8:30 AM...

#YukiPri rambles #yeah the next fic chapter is long done #i just need to edit and reply to comments but that's like #5 hours at least of concentration and i feel more vegetable than sentient human #coffee just makes me sleepier #my hyper irregular sleep hours (i never sleep the same hours 2 days in a row...) means that even when i DO have time to sleep #i wake up/it's not restful #i've tried melatonin and sometimes it works but more often it gives me hyper vivid pseudo-dreams #stuff like i'm in my dream i hear my alarm go off i turn my alarm off while remaining in my dream etc it's dangerous #all of this also of course means i rarely have time to do my minimal exercise of a daily walk #and i'm lucky if i eat one full meal a day #it's like being in a perpetual state of awful jetlag #i feel like my body is not synched to earth and it sucks #do you think this is what inter-planetary jetlag is like bc that must suck worse than just timezones on the same planet #that at least has a consistent rotation u feel #hmm what was this post about again #lol disaster #anyway i think i'll take a 1-2 hour nap now so maybe i can do some fic editing when i get up #see i'm repeating the cycle again

[randomgooberness]

Gordon should NOT get a biological hand back(if he does it’s busted to all hell and mostly numb). And any prosthetic he gets sucks ass unless it has a cartoony switchable feature that lets him adapt to certain tasks because even high tech prosthetic hands with the correct reaction speeds will never beat gun arm if your goal is shooting something.

What im saying is he makes a million different hands for himself to the point where he has “fork hand” and “screwdriver hand” and “scissor hand” ect

#hlvrai #gordon feetman #HAPPY 5 AM IM STILL RUNNING ON 3 HOURS OF SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #like look. i dont expect the RTVS gang to put thought into their disability rep in a comedy series on gmod. i dont #but also i get so tired seeing people be like. oh his arms back :) AT LEAST LEAVE IT SCARRED AND NUMB……DAMN! #not to mention people constantly sleep on how interesting mobility aids are to flesh out for characters #though that might be from my years of experience writing an amputee. #DISCLAIMER!! I MYSELF AM NOT AN AMPUTEE JUST BTW!!!!!!!!! LISTEN TO ACTUAL AMPUTEES BEFORE ME #though im repeating everything ive ever heard ESP that prsothetics tend to fucking suck #not saying he cant HAVE a robot hand. i draw him with one. i just think itd be funnier and more realistic if he swaps it out #might draw examples when i wake up bc its silly and fun :) #wait adding more tags despite the fact that NO ONE WILL READ THEM. this is esp the case bc hes right handed #he needs his right hand for fine motor skill you will NOT get that with a prosthetic

[grey-has-rusted]

what they don't tell you about life is that it's hard. woe is me

#ramblings #yes. i logged onto tumblr just to complain. #i have not been having a good time irl </3 #guys am i cooked? i wake up everyday with a heavy sorrow in my heart. #i am sad all the time even though i enjoy the wonders of life. #i laugh and smile and talk and learn. but im still sad. #it also doesn't help that i have psychotic tendencies and episodes #'go for a walk. that's a healthy coping mechanism' bro i can't even go outside bc i will get lost and walk for hours and almost- #unintentionally kill myself #it sucks. it all sucks and i say things that don't make sense either. apparently. allegedly. #i just want a functional brain. i would be so unstoppable if it weren't from my brain maybe i could actually function like a normal person #and hold down a job and be consistent with my hobbies and passions and actually maintain friendships #ong ive been so lonely too #i haven't bothered making friends anymore bc i know i won't be consistent and i dont wanna waste anyone's time #that's just really unfair #and i rely so heavily on videogames and fiction to get me through the day #bc it makes me feel less lonely. yeah i know i sound lame 💀 #anyways- see y'all in another year when i remember tumblr exists

[deoidesign]

Melatonin is a delicate balancing act, it took some time to find a dose that helped me fall and stay asleep without leaving me groggy after 8/10 hours. For me, that has been 10 mg gradually increased to such over a few weeks then steady since.

I also take roughly a week without it every month or two, as the bottle recommends. Listen to your body and do what you can. Good luck, and thank you for the sweet gay were/pire comic<3

Yeah, I can tell my sweet zone is somewhere between 3 and 6 mg, at least right now. Or at least I think it is. Admittedly my sleep has been absolutely horrible since I was a kid so my standards on "not tired" are pretty low, so I'm not actually sure if they're any good right now. All I know is I'm getting more than 2 hours of sleep at a time, and I'm not spending every waking moment fighting off a nap!

Thanks for the confirmation I've gotta test with it and go off and on and such, my doc didn't give me a straight answer on that (he just kept saying take it as needed... I need it every night!!!). 75% of the time being good is way better than 0% so I'll take what I can get!

And the gay comics are the least I can do 🧡 thank you for reading it!

#my boyfriend actually commented unprompted that ive been complaining less about being tired all the time..m #like dont get me wrong. im still tired #but it has been a WORLD of a difference. #like. its been every day since i was like 14 that just. all day i could fall right back asleep #and every night i wake up every. other. hour. #ive never really been able to sleep longer than 2 hours at a time #so ive never gotten uhm. good sleep before. #and ive had to stay in bed 14. 16. 20 hours to even feel like i can GET UP!!!! #super bad hahaha #but I'll take a week of that every month or so over every day #im just glad ive found a dose and combo thats workint for me cause ive tried melatonin before and it didnt help #but that was qlso before i used those nose strips. which also help me a lot? #so i think the combo is important #and i wouldn't be shocked if in 5 years i learn of another secret sleeping ingredient #anyways. maybe i can line up the bad sleep week off melatonin with the other week that sucks every month auajjddjdjejdj #see how it goes lol #oh ive also been taking other vitamins which have also been helping #so that combo leaves me with some actual waking time that im not fighting off a nap #this is why I've been posting more recently btw lol #asks #jackedupjack

[keeps-ache]

trying to get my creative gears running again !!

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #doodles #pink space #blue space #not a zip file #blagh blagh! hello it's me :D #i think i'm in some sort of rut rn.. workin on it though >:3 #//i REALLY love this shading method!! #solid cell-shading is vv nice but this feels so much more fun to me lol :> #//i keep waking up w/ like headaches and if i don't wake up with a headache then i get it only a couple hours waking up which kinda sucks ? #no idea what's up with that man. and it's just a Liiiittle bit annoying ykno what i mean #and it's screwing with my focus !! not cool dude. not cool #this has been going on for. some days now but i dunno i dunno lol #//also i wanna work on these three projects but i!! keep getting overwhelmed with How Much i absolutely WANT to do #system overload! so i end up sitting around with nothing to do for like. a thousand hours hfbsh #//BY THE WAY i helped make tartar sauce the other day and i'm v pleased with that feat :DD #it tasted good! #i did something else the second day after that but i forget loll #//okay now i'm going to try to do. something hsbfvhsb #/8 posts to 2000 !! >:33

[theshadowrealmitself]

*really late at night/early morning*

Brain: Hey, I know you’re exhausted, but for the first time in forever I’m gonna make you feel inspired to write a story, I’m also gonna give you a really good outline of how the story goes and how it ends, which you usually have trouble with

Me: But-

Brain: Oh I know, you’re not gonna be able to do it tonight, you’re also gonna lose that motivation to do it when you wake up, this is just to fuck with you rn while you try to sleep :3c

#im. im fucking obsessed with every part of this plot bunny #please please PLEASE let me keep motivation to work on it when I wake up #I already wrote down the outline so I don’t forget it #*please* #ugh only problem with writing stuff I intend to post on ao3 is that I’ve also put in my other side account on one of my stories #and I hardly use that side account because one of my exes started stalking it after we broke up #he wasn’t even following me while we were dating!! #he waited till after I broke up with him to follow me!! #and then after I blocked him he still kept interacting with my blog!!! #tumblr make a better fucking blocking system. #yeah so I’m worried about him potentially knowing my ao3 account #and I really hope he doesn’t follow this account #@ eric if you’re *still* looking at my stuff just know that you’re a mega creep and I hate you. #seriously dude. #haven’t deleted that side account or my ao3 cause I’m still attached to them #but yeah it sucks posting to either of them knowing that there’s a CREEP who WONT RESPECT MY BOUNDARIES looking at them #god I hate him #no fandom

[waywardsalt]

im thinking about possession aftereffects that linebeck experiences immediately after the events of phantom hourglass, so here are bullet points i have down for my own ideas

he’s out cold for roughly five days after the fight. he’s conscious for a bit after being freed, but it doesn’t take long for him to collapse once he’s transported back to the great sea. link finds him when he reaches his ship to see him again (he takes a lifeboat or w/e from tetras ship its a whole thing and not the point) and ends up having to take care of him for those five-ish days.

while he’s out cold, he develops a bad fever, and has a good few physical injures from being possessed; all of his wounds from being possessed manifest as burns, the worst wounds bring cauterized and mostly closed, while smaller ones are still open wounds. the largest wound is a large burn covering most of his back, which is cauterized by the time he passes out, and then there are smaller, still open burns on his upper arms and legs. (the smaller wounds are manageable by link when he follows some medical instructions, [there are some medical books on the ship] the larger one is also manageable, but takes a lot longer to properly heal).

(link asks tetra and her crew to stick around for a while to keep linebeck stabilized while he’s unconscious. when linebeck wakes up, tetra and her crew are good to leave because then linebeck can better report what’s going on, and knows how to handle injuries).

linebeck’s fever persists after he wakes up, and he experiences… pretty much every fever symptom, with especially bad chills and full-body aches. the aches are really bad for the first few days after he wakes up, he’s extremely physically weak and shaky for a while, too. that weakness and shakiness get better with time, but he doesnt go entirely back to normal without actually moving around and doing things to build that strength back up.

he’s delirious and struggles to stay awake for those first few conscious days, too, which makes that weakness and shakiness worse; he struggles to eat and drink water, and struggles to string together thoughts or words to talk to link, and both of them figure out pretty quickly that they’ll have to wait a bit longer before so much as an attempt to coax him out of bed can be made.

beyond existing problems with food, linebeck struggles to keep anything down while he recovers, and becomes ill pretty much every time after he eats anything, so a bucket is kept near his bed. with water, he obviously needs to drink a lot of it considering that he’s feverish, injured, and vomiting frequently, but while he’s sick he has a bit of an irrational fear of water (along with an irrational fear of air and the wind, which makes him hesitant to go outside while he’s sick).

he’s generally pretty irritable, which isn’t particularly new, but it makes him prone to refusing help with certain things. he’s less irritable when tired and just resting. he’s also especially nervous, and despite the overall fatigue, he struggles to sleep for very long while he’s sick, and as said before, is often delirious and even confused when things are bad.

along with the other difficulties eating, linebeck has a hard time swallowing for a bit, and salivates a lot more than normal while he’s sick. he is soooo fucking dehydrated the whole time and that really doesn’t help.

while the weakness and shakiness stays for the entire time he’s sick and even a bit afterwards, for the first few days after he wakes up he’s stiff and also experiences some muscle spasms and numbness in his limbs, and has a hard time keeping his balance the first few times he gets out of bed.

once the sickness clears up fully, linebeck has to still be careful with the scar on his back; it’s sensitive to touch for a while and hurts when exposed to the sun or air for too long and when he stretches his back too far, but eventually just reaches the point where it’s a bit sensitive but is otherwise just a large scar.

obviously he’s also going through the wringer in an emotional and mental illness sense too but those would require a whole new bullet point list.

#ask to tag #loz #legend of zelda #linebeck #phantom hourglass #this kinda just turned into early post ph chapter notes and you know what? i really needed it to be that way actually #post bellumbeck wounds manifest as burns bc i think that purple… ooze? from bellum is like fucking acid #also magic shit yadda yadda bellum burns those he possesses cuz like. melt skin so it fuses to whats touching it. yknow #salty talks #why does tetra’s crew leave when linebeck wakes up? linebeck wants them to leave and he wants to keep secret the fact that he got possessed #hes lucky that link doesnt say anything and lucky that tetra never saw any of it #he uses the story that he just got attacked by bellum and knocked out while link fought bellum #i might just leave his long term bellumbeck aftereffects at. huge burn scar on his back and some fun magic stuff #cuz he does go through all of this shit and survives what is basically literally fucking rabies its a lot of rabies symptoms #its like. mixture of real sickness/disease and Burn Wounds with a dash of. hmm what would he be experiencing as like #his body gets use to actually being in control of itself after that control is forcibly and violently hijacked by something else #also theres just some nasty shit in his blood/body in general which is why he vomits most of the time. get that shit outta here #also this whole scenario is ig a fun reversal since all of ph link is the one who gets injured/sick snd linebeck has to take care of him #so. switch things around. link is Going Through It as well this is DISTRESSING for him but he feels better while talking with linebeck #link being present seriously tipped things in linebecks favor. if he was alone he wouldve still survived. it wouldve fucking sucked tho #wouldve been really really hard but with enough effort and will to live linebeck could survive on his own thats important #seriously considering adding that at his worst he has seizures but i dont know enough abt those rn so maybe layer