#also my LOL got cut off... too tired to retype that longass tag just pretend its all there correctly thamks

[bbeelzemon]

i wonder how much effort it would be to remake a new main email address for myself at this point.. while i dont think i currently consider my birthname to be a deadname necessarily, it would be Very nice to have my main email have the name i, like. actually enjoy using on it instead hfsfhsfd

#i dont.. like my birthname.. in the slightest. its long and clunky and religious and its Not Very Me #i don't know if i will ever really be able to fully consider it a deadname because thats just . what my parents will always know me as #and thats not reallyyy like.. an unsupportive or anti-trans thing. my family just Does Not follow nicknames ever #if you try to go by a nickname or change your name it just isnt gonna happen hfsjfhd #but idk maybe ill try harder to get them to think of me as rosie.. rosie is the most me name ive ever decided on hfhsfjf #anyway.. baby steps.. tomorrow i will remake my main email address with rosie.. my real name :] #remains to be seen how many of my many various accounts i will switch my email over for but hey i can keep the original as my spam email LO #my 5-pizza-restaurant-emails-daily email account... #oh when i say tomorrow . i mean later today just when i wake up again fjsjfhHDSd #also my LOL got cut off... too tired to retype that longass tag just pretend its all there correctly thamks #anyway.. at least my parents actively enjoy the name rosie considering they gave it to me as a middle name fhsjfjdh #well. rose anyway. but i like rosie its more fun and Me i think fhsjhFHDFs #but yah.. my parents will ask every so often 'what do ur friends call you?' and ill be like 'rosie!' #but tbh i have no clue why they ask because so far they have yet to actually unprompted call me that themselves HFSJFSG #ok god too many tags im goijg back to bed goodnight .