#also im renting a house with some college friends!

[koostarcandy]

nonsense, it's l-o-v-e!

summary: "she's a, oh my god, she's like a taylor swift song!"

pairing: student!jungkook x student!fem!reader

genre: fluff, mentions of smut, koo is a music major here hence the banner :)

wc: 1.8k

a/n: there was an anonie who wanted a song fic based on into you so i combined that and my new playlist i've been obsessed with! also im abit obsessed with writing a whipped male lead ;)) oktyilybye <3

"are you out of your mind? it's not nausea, you fool, it's called being in love."

"love? like l-o-v-e love or what you and taehyungie hyung do everyday?"

jimin has half a mind to punch the innocent doe-eyed face infront of him, who's slightly trembling because of a text he got a few moments back. and left it on read.

"you idiot, reply to her quickly or she's gonna think you fainted again!"

jungkook scrambles for his phone, tossing aside the controller to goodness knows where. "i will see you, no, i will pick you up and we will go for boba together tomorrow. with a heart, duh." he says what he types out loud, a habit he developed along with your blossoming relationship. either his namjoon hyung would be there to correct his grammar which he would've made a ton of mistakes in his eagerness to reply to you or he would be batshit scared if he sent something which may or may not upset you, very slightly. hence why jimin is there, who is nursing his empty can of beer, wishing he had something stronger, because he doesn't remember signing up for this clownery, just for dance club.

"jungkookie?" jimin calls him sweetly, a fond expression growing on his face when he looks at his best friend's lovesick smile.

"yes, hyung? is it my hair again? i didn't put too much serum this time, right?" jungkook has registered that tone of voice in his head under the category of "uh-oh. something isn't right."

"when you and your, uh, lover move in, do you expect me to do the same with you both?"

"why are you moving? did the landlord raise the rent here too? do you want me to knock some sense into him? people are acting crazy now, don't they know broke college students actually exist?"

"no, kookie," jimin giggles, "you always need one of us around when you're doing anything remotely concerning her. like what we were talking about before, maybe you should tell her, no? save yourself the heartbreak and whatnot."

jungkook's thighs which were shaking in excitement slowly cease. he's way too familiar with that concept, always hoping and praying and wishing that isn't the case with you. he likes you too much that he can't imagine his future without you. somewhere, in his rose-tinted dreams and in a perfect house, you're growing old with him, laughing at something silly he said. in the 2 years he's known you, he was lucky enough for you to like him back, getting giddy again when he remembers you asking him on a date quietly in the middle of class, fingers intertwined with his tightly when he whispered an excited "yes!", not caring if he garnered a few concerned and judgemental looks.

"don't think about it too much, little one," jimin pats his head and pecs, throwing the can into the bin. "go home and worry about the outfit you're wearing tomorrow 'cause lord knows you've pulled all-nighters for that one."

"you look so pretty right now, i'm actually jealous, koo."

jungkook thinks you're more beautiful and more pretty but he's too tired to argue now. the golden rays are hitting the both of you just right, golden hour living upto it's name. your warm skin against his cold one raises goosebumps, wondering if you can hear his heartbeat from the close proximity. you shift from your position on his chest to propping yourself up on your elbows, the duvet slipping from your bare shoulders.

"your hand goes down any further and i'm yeeting you out of this bed, my love." you threaten jungkook half-heartedly, referring to the wandering hand on the small of your back, inching towards your hip chain.

"you couldn't get one more out of me even if you tried your very best, darling." he says, leaning his head back on the new pillow you bought with an infatuated smile, throwing a tattooed hand over his eyes.

"is that a challenge, jeon?" you tease, fingers playing with the thing string of sliver around his neck, matching pendants with your bracelet. you let the magnetic pendants do it's job, looking at the pretty heart stuck together with a solicitous gaze. "looks adorable, doesn't it?" you praise his choice, reluctantly pulling away to place an indulgent kiss on his sternum.

you had all but jumped on him when he had come early to pick you up, in your favourite jacket and his ripped jeans, kissing him all over his face, claiming you missed his cute dumbass. that compliment ensued scattered clothes on the floor, needy lips trying to convey so many emotions fervently.

you're now tracing impatient shapes on his chest, your quickly shifting mood and pouty lips hinting that you're hungry. it's currently 2.45 pm on a sunday, but honestly, who cares? jungkook has the love of his life wrapped around him and is practically on cloud 9. he could literally-

"did you just say love of your life?"

jungkook shoots up, suddenly sitting up and looking at your blinking face, rubbing your eyes for some reason.

"what did you say?"

"i thought you were sleep talking again but it seems like it wasn't," you mumble, looking away from him. this is it, this is where the sky comes falling, pigs are flying, hell is freezing and-

"you're so annoying, i wanted to tell you that first!"

you're close to tears, frustrated for some reason. he takes in your messy hair and swollen lips, courtesy of him of course. you're glaring at him, like he just stuck his tongue out at you and he told you that he finished the last of the raspberry cheesecake in your fridge. "oh thank god," jungkook lets out a sigh of relief, strong arms pulling you to his lap and kissing your lips repeatedly. he's acting like he's come back from war, holding you so close and so tight.

"what? why would you say that? is this some big set up so you can finally ask me to move in with you so you can quote, unquote save money and electricity?" you ask, eyebrows furrowed cutely that he can't help but place the sweetest of kisses on your forehead, smoothing the creased lines.

"let's save money and electricity, i've had enough of you complaining of inflation along with jiminie hyung."

"you're just ditching your hyungie, my precious roommate, just like that?"

ah, so that's why jimin asked. so much for him being concerned about his love life. "we'll think about the technicalities later," jungkook says cheekily, chasing your lips and holding your face between his large hands.

"that's cool and all but can i get off you now? koo junior seems to want attention now."

"you know, some of us are very painfully single here," yoongi comments, staring at jungkook over his simple lunch of kimbap and iced americano. "so, the lyrics sound good?" jungkook smiles, stealing a bite of veggie kimbap.

"you're whipped, man, you've written these lyrics in record time. the last time this happened you were crying on our shoulders, telling us you love us all so, so, so, so-"

"okay, i think the point has come across, hyung." jungkook shudders at the thought, vividly recollecting the time he got drunk with his friends for the first time, dragging them all to their shared studio so he could showcase his latest assignment.

"you must really like her alot, huh?" yoongi comments off-handedly, secretly trying out a theory that taehyung had put out. one mention of you had jungkook's irises turn into pink hearts, his hands quickly taking his phone to show pictures of your latest date.

"i'm sure like is a understatement at this point, hyung," the said whipped man says sagely, like he's preaching to an attentive crowd of 100.

"oh god, here we go-"

an elmo-like laugh resonates in the small spaced studio, jungkook anyway going on a joyful rant about you. it can be seen in his lyrics, the way his eyes light up like you're his most precious person (and you are, no doubt), how he sincerely writes love poems for you and how he loves seeing your face light up when it shows randomly in one of your notebooks, happily tucking it away in a file you've saved especially for his letters.

"its like I can finally relate to those poems namjoon hyung reads to us sometimes you know?"

"mhmm.."

"and every one of iu's love songs is suddenly right and the universe finally makes sense and-"

"uh huh?"

"she's like a, oh my god, she's like a taylor swift song!"

"wow."

"whatcha upto, handsome? too busy to spare some time for your hungry roommate?"

jungkook glances at the time from the digital clock, glaring 12.30 am. he stretches and breaks his finger knuckles, legs moving towards you on a mind of it's own. you're wearing one of his many oversized shirts, a white one this time, big but it seems to fit you just right.

"why are you still up, baby?" he asks, arms around you immediately. "i'm hungry, koo," you say again, "was waiting for you so we can order some snacks and watch hotel del luna again," you mumble against his chest, your hands rubbing his tense back. "let's go then," he grabs his phone and throws you over his shoulder effortlessly, nonchalantly saying it's been awhile since you've had spicy tteokbokki and bingsu. you stumble when he puts you down, unfazed when you're voicing out that you both can't eat spicy food at night anymore, as if the last time that happened wasn't scarring enough.

you kiss his cheek, reminding him to save his work and that you'll get everything ready in a jiffy. jungkook all but zooms to the bedroom, already eager to get back to you. he chuckles at the title on his screen, knowing that "nonsense, it's l-o-v-e!" is going to be the best birthday gift you've ever gotten.

he finds you sipping away on a cranberry breezer, can of chilled beer waiting for him. your eyes are enraptured by jang manwol and her beauty, instinctively leaning on him when he's settled next to you.

it's like a satisfying puzzle, feeling all the pieces click easy when he's with you. in your shared abode, huddled up and in your own cosy bubble, away from the world. hands easily finding their way around your bodies. synchronized laughing at a clever comment passed by the male lead. jungkook feels like this is one of those moments he would write about in a song later or write in one of your weekly love letters. you're the definition of right person at the right time, knowing that if you both were in a rundown apartment or in one of the biggest bungalows ever, you'll still love him the same.

pt time: @armys-dna ; @junsai-tree ; @soobhyun ; @shatzkrinslinzki ; @astronaut-jin-moon ; @cherishoshi ; @fragmentof-indifference

#jungkook #jungkook fluff #jungkook smut #jungkook x reader #jungkook imagine #jungkook drabble #jungkook oneshot #bts x reader #bts jungkook #bts oneshot #bts fluff #wow so soft im.melting bye

[whilomm]

Hey, so this is kinda off the wall, but I need to find a roommate but I'm so anxious about it, did you use a certain website? Or like do you have any roommate finding tips?

oh yeah i was super nervous about it too bc of previous bad experiences (with college apartments that were auto-matched), i guess my tips would be from someone whos only done this manually Once:

worth a shot, straight up ask if any of your friends need a roomie. sometimes things line up! didnt for me atm (aside from one friend who said "oh maybe in like 2 years but maybe not")

try and keep in mind that if it doesnt work out its not Forever if that helps you not freak out as much. like, maybe yall stay to the end of the lease and split, or if yall have to split before than eh youre just starting the matching process over again. getting that thru my head helped me lmao

as for websites, yeah there are a ton of specific roommate matching sites you can use, personally I just used facebook and posted in a couple of local groups with a lil thing about myself and I got some matches p quick. I live in a largerish city tho (austin tx) so if you live somewhere smaller there might not be AS big of a pool. facebook as a whole sucks of course but the groups here and there are useful!

I posted both in a more general group and a queer housing group, and i said a lil more about myself in the queer group, but you can also use your post to explicitly or gently filter out ppl you dont wanna live with. personally i did purposefully mention being autistic offhandedly just to hopefully filter out ppl wholl be cunts about that (made a lil comment about "im autistic and a super picky eater, so i wont eat your food lol"), you can explicitly say you dont wanna roomie who has pets/smokes/etc, stuff like that.

(oh, also, if you have a long abandoned facebook acct/need to make a new one, that can sometimes look a lil sus so maybe straight up say "i dont use facebook but i can give you one of my other socials if you want to snoop")

look around the website/group for examples from other people on what to include (max rent, apartment layout prefs, area, whether you already have a place picked out or not and if you'd be willing to apartment hunt w someone, timeframe, etc)

and of course actually say a lil about yourself in the listing. I know thats nerve wracking and all but eh, people wanna have a vague idea of you beforehand. List some of your hobbies/interests, normal boring stuff like that.

talk about how clean you are. and how clean you want your roomie to be. neat freaks and gross ppl may be Incompatible. "i can keep the common area clean but my rooms gonna be a mess" was my thing, and roomie is sameish, which works out!

make a listing, in multiple places if possible, and both see who contacts you and browse other peoples listings. this is defo a time to get over that fear of being the first to say hi! if someone lists a super sweet set up at a good price tho and gets 20 likes dont be surprised if they dont respond lmao, might have a waitlist going

(OH YEAH and if u havent used facebook in 10 years be aware on mobile theres a separate messaging app and you might miss ppl messaging bc of the stupid "pending" tab or whatever. a lotta ppl in the group specifically also commented "messaged!" on posts ig to just say "HEY CHECK THE OTHER STUPID APP IF IT DIDNT GIVE YOU A NOTIF", i found it REALLY easy to miss messages for a bit)

SCAMS EXIST! be cautious, dont just send ppl a "$500 deposit" off the bat, make sure you meet people IN PERSON and preferably talk to whoever you're gonna be renting from (like the leasing office if its an apt complex, or just the landlord) first before signing whatever someone on facebook sends u

as usual meet ppl in person in public places like coffee shops and tell ppl where you're going espec if you're going to look at the rental etc etc, same safety rules for meeting anyone from the internet

if you got any responsible adults in your life (like parents/family/friends who have more experience renting) just talk shit thru w them. maybe they can literally help u look at any contracts if you're not used to reading them, or maybe just chat w them about how shits going so they can just be like "oh yeah that all sounds normal they sound cool" or "YEAH THATS A RED FLAG".

oh yeah, make sure you READ YOUR LEASE. i know we all just Agree To The Terms And Conditions all the time but yeah contracts should be read. even if you dont read every word at least skim it, make sure u read the big things like the money numbers (and stuff like uh. how much notice the apt requires on move out. recently fucked over by that! 🙃). check for extra fees and numbers that are different than discussed. dont just sign whatevers put in front of you!!

think about how much Stuff you have. are you moving out for the first time and have Jack Shit? well, you probs wont have conflicts like "whos couch do we keep?" which is nice. do you currently live on your own and have p much all your own furniture? might be a lil issue if your roomie is also established! just st you gotta work out with your roommate, and if nothing else you could always get a cheap storage locker to set aside shit you dont wanna get rid of til you know its gonna work out long term. if its st important, maybe say it in your listing. personally i noted in my listing "i got a big ass couch i dont wanna get rid of" and my roommate specifically contacted me like "oh yeah the couch is chill" so all twas fine 👍

and like. try to talk shit out w your roomie when issues arise instead of letting shit boil over. gotta get good at this myself!

sorry for being long and disorganized but those are just a few of the things that popped into my head lol, +anyone else w more roomie searching experience has any advice on the matter feel free to chime in! im not really an expert or nothin but also feel free to ask more questions, i can at least try to answer!

#buzzy #im not the best person for advice here but eh i tried #roommates

[cryptid-wizard]

Ok just had two weirdass fever dreams that i might turn to short stories

first

Five friends rent a house together and after a while they begin noticing weird stuff happening. It turns out there are secret corridors im the walls and stuff. Plus a bunch of other people living in the walls, attic and the basement.

The first friend who notices this has been having financial problems and just moves in with the people in the walls. After chatting a bit learns they were also renting the house before but couldn’t afford to stay and begun hiding in the house instead. there’s a whole community now. The other friends also move in one by one.

The owners of the house are convinced the house is haunted and that’s why people keep leaving.

second

A lesbian college student lives alone and one day going home, walks in to another girl fighting some monsters and passing out. takes her home, there’s an angel or something following the girl, some other magical stuff. she stays for a couple days.

They chat the lesbin starts crushing. The girl gets kidnapped to the underworld by mythical creatures and lesbin convinces the angel like thing to help her go after the girl to save her. and adventure happenes

(at this part i was watching a hell video edit like thing in my sleep)

#weird dreams #i usually dont remember my dreams #so these feel extra weird #story ideas

[abandoned-mars]

happy 4/20 here are some thoughts on my humanstuck au

kankri (marcus) + mituna (tatum) live together. damara (ana) has been crashing there for a few weeks/months after she found out her bf had been cheating on her

when marcus moved in with tatum he only had one stool and one couch that he would sprawl all over and tate told him to buy his own furniture. so he did, he bought an old love seat from the thrift store and would not let tatum get close to it. a couple days into ana crashing there, marcus told her that tatum will make her do that. the guys helped her get some of her old furniture from her exes and now all of their stuff is mix matched

latula (presley) + roxy (macy) live together and they have a chalkboard wall in their apartment

john (ivan), dave (dominic), + karkat (donnie) also live together

dominic had always been halfway interested in photography but never had the means to fully pursue it. so when ivan starts studying film and bringing home cameras, dominic started talking to him about it and looking over his notes and getting really into the science behind photography yk

this is like. a halfway college au. marcus studies law, tatum studies computer programming, porrim (elle) studies fashion marketing, meulin (laurie) studies art, macy studies bioengineering, and ivan studies film

marcus and donnie are half brothers, their dad married laurie’s mom when she + marcus were in highschool

pretty much everyone is 20-23ish, the oldest being kurloz (jesse) at 25 and the youngest is donnie at 20

jesse and laurie are dating + have been for 3~ years, which would’ve been right after laurie graduated (jesse is a bit of a creep in this but tbh in canon he ain’t much better)

i have a lot. a lot of ideas as far as backstories/how everyone met and im not really sure which one i want to stick with but here are some of those

marcus, tatum, and elle grew up together. marcus and tatum were really good friends (bcus of their dads) throughout elementary/early middle school, but then tatum started hanging out with the people that marcus had told him to stay away from. they drifted apart quickly and by high school tatum had become one of those. popular asshole stoner funny guys. and although he had tried to stop his new friends from making comments and jokes towards marcus, he ultimately realized he didn’t care too much. marcus and elle had stayed friends, but she too had made better friends that she had more in common with. honestly not quite sure what id do with ana in this idea, i bounced either having her move to town when she was like in 4/5th grade her and marcus become friends then, or having her be like elle or macy’s frjend first, or have everyone meet her later. idrk. basically this is just the “tatum/marcus friends to enemies to roommates tension” au (it is heavily inspired by this fic). as far as the other characters, i think tate would’ve met jesse in highschool and gone crazy w him, also met presley in highschool? maybe that whole situation could happen then? idrk. don’t love this idea there’s too much lore id have to detail

ana and marcus were friends all throughout middle school, but grew apart when she moved in highschool. at her new school she met tatum, presley, + macy and became quick friends. after graduation, tatum had moved in with jesse for a bit but got kicked out, and crashed at ana’s very tiny very shitty apartment for a couple days. by the end of day 2, they were already drunkenly formulating a plan of moving in together which became a real plan + they ended up renting a three bed one bath apartment ! they live together for like 2/3 years until ana moved out to live with her boyfriend at his very nice house (yes this is rufioh, his name is richie). tatum posts an ad for a new roommate, and eventually marcus responds. he moves in, and a few days later ana comes to visit and the two reconnect. anyway, after a bit of ‘tate/marcus roommate tension’, ana finds out abt her bf cheating, and crashes at their apartment. she relaxes the atmosphere greatly. i like this one in theory but i feel like it needs more marcus/tatum tension other than just. oh he’s messy and he’s bossy and they don’t like living together yada yada yk

okay so this one i haven’t really. written down the plots? of the backstory i just started writing a story and wanted to change the relationships so it’s kinda random. actually it’s just kind of a mix of the other ones. anyway, the whole marcus + tatum friends to enemies to roommates thing is still happening, but ana went to a different school. there she became besties with macy, and later presley when she moved there in 8/9th grade. macy + presley live together across town, and ana used to live near them w her boyfriend until they broke up and she wanted a change of scenery. not quite sure of how or when ana + presley met tatum and the rest but yea they all became good friends and ana started crashing there + ofc presley + tatum got together.

idk i have a lot more but also like not really .. i just need to get an actual story down

anyway. as far as romantic relationship goes the only ones i am for sure doing are presley + tatum, laurie + jesse, and eventually ana + marcus . also jumping between dominic + donnie or dominic + ivan but also like they’re more of background characters

tatum, presley, jesse, and laurie 100% go to raves together

elle is intersex and does drag

presley and macy are roommates + coworkers + besties (it sounds like it would be hell after a while but they make it work)

tatum, marcus, + anas apartment does allow animals, tate has two cats named j.peg + kitkat

presley + macy’s apartment only allows two pets but they secretly have four cats, vodka mewtini, geegee, citrine, + tulip (all of them besides tulip are macy’s, tatum gave presley tulip as a gift)

lauren + jesse aren’t supposed to have pets but jesse does keep a snake

ivan, dominic, + donnie’s aren’t allowed to have animals but dominic has been trying to test that theory with some of the crows that come to his window

elle can have pets, she has a big german shepard type guard dog named fangs and a soft calico named felicity

one of ana’s top teeth is chipped from a soccer accident

presley is from new jersey

tbh this has been the only thing i’ve been thinking about for like. months so i also have a bit of art of what i hc that they look like, so i might post some of that. it’s not very good but i also made them all in the sims like multiple times LMAO . i also have some stories that are mainly about ana + marcus but according to chatgpt they are not good so. maybe eventually … idk i just hope all of this makes sense to anyone else but me

#damara medigo #kankri vantas #mituna captor #rufioh nitram #meulin leijon #porrim maryam #latula pyrope #kurloz makara #john egbert #dave strider #karkat vantas #roxy lalonde #humanstuck #humanstuck au #humanstuck headcanons #hs headcanons #idk how tumblr works

[jechristine]

Your baby is so sweet. 😍 I’m glad I got to glimpse him before you take it down. As a woman in her late 20s/early 30s, do you have any advice for those of us who are on the fence about children and motherhood? When I think about having and supporting a child, I just don’t know how to wrap my head around it. My partner and I both work and make enough to get by, but we don’t have generational wealth and don’t live close to family. We’d be amazing parents but there’s so many obstacles. We both deal with chronic but manageable health issues. How would we afford childcare and healthcare and student loan debt and safe housing (we rent, probably forever with the housing market like it is)? Or when considering having kids, do you just hope for the best and not think about all of the scary things?

You and I are a lot alike. My husband and I doing pretty well and are happy in our jobs, but we both went to school for a long time (some would say too long!) and we didn’t get any money from our parents to buy property so we, too, rent and we have seemingly interminable student loans. And our parents live far away, but they will come visit if, say, my husband is going to be away for a week on a work trip. To be honest, we would have more kids if we felt that we could afford more daycare and aftercare and college savings, etc.

Yes, we basically just hoped/are hoping for the best lol. We had my daughter before I was employed, when I was still finishing my degree. And it was really rough for a while, financially! Still we can’t afford everything that my daughter wants (like, ballet OR gymnastics? Favorite restaurant on Friday but not on Tuesday, too, etc.) We’d probably travel more or live in a bigger house or fancier neighborhood if we had more money and fewer expenses, too. So there are compromises.

One thing I’ll say about kids is that before they show up, they can feel like strangers who are coming to ruin your life. You don’t know them, let alone love them, and so it’s not really rational to invite this massive responsibility and financial burden into your life. BUT when they arrive, and IME increasingly over the first year, they become the most lovable, magical little people, and also IME there’s no love like the love for a child. Speaking for myself, I never truly imagined what that love would feel like before it was there. It’s life altering. I would give up every other experience I’ve ever had to keep motherhood.

Back down to earth, I’d say look into state and local benefits around childcare and food. We have so far to go as a country (I’m assuming you’re American), but depending where you live and your income, there may be supports that you haven’t considered.

And last thing—I’m speaking for my experience only, and part of that is that I have a wonderful partner who gladly does 50% or more of domestic labor and at-home childcare. I’m not saying it can’t be done otherwise. One of my very good friends on her own adopted a child 6 years ago and is making it work. But that’s another thing to consider.

#tw pregnancy #tw motherhood

[duncebento]

you study abroad right? how has that been? i want to but im worried its going to be too hard to adjust to plus school

i do!! i’ll give pros n cons though they might be specific

pros:

- i’m confident that i’m getting some of the best education i could be, which even though i’m from new york where there r many college options i still feel that it would’ve been settling to stay at home. to me it’s worth being there for the school

- i do like having the opportunity to immerse myself in another language as someone interested in linguistics!

- for italy specifically, food, art, architecture, pre-capitalist city planning which i feel is more….human-centric?

- since my school is in english, i have meet ppl from allll around the world. my class was originally 16 ppl and we were from 10 different countries across 5 continents. of the friends i’ve made there, one is chinese from hungary, one is from portugal, one is from india, one is from zimbabwe, and two are other usamericans.

- the cost isn’t great since it’s a private school, but i’m still paying less than i could have been in the US, n godwilling i will not graduate w student debt

- europe has trains so i can go places so easily

- night-out bar and club culture that i wouldn’t have access to yet in the US w/out a fake, but which i feel is crucial to the college experience lol. will treasure memories dancing to live music at the cuban bar, drinking spritzes on the river, bringing bottles of prosecco to house parties

cons:

- paperwork is so annoying ESPECIALLY because italian bureaucracy is ill-managed. BUT americans have such a passport privelege, my old roommate from iran couldnt come to school for months bc of her visa

- apts are still expensive i general, especially in places like florence w a high tourist appeal bc they are also airbnb infected, which has totally jacked up rent rates. right now i’m blessedly paying what i would definitely call reduced rent because a rich friend of a friend of a friend had an old apartment that she’s renting to me for far less than market price. but without knowing people from the area already apt hunting is hell.

- it’s not entirely a con, but def a learning curve around communication, because european profs are often excitable or brusque or sometimes even cruel in my experience in a way that wouldn’t fly so much in american colleges (though part of that is the fashion element imo.) it was hard for many americans to adapt to this sort of criticism

- i am definitely more conscious of my blackness in italy, ppl are more ignorant about black people (though imo not actually more hateful.) but ppl are also so amazed by my hair which is nice sometimes lol…..american whites will like never compliment black hair cos theyre scared. but yeah white ppl in europe dont have much of a faux pas developed against certain racism yet

- i do miss my family when i’m there— though now i miss my friends when i’m not there! and the time zone diff >_<

- it is very easy to be lonely, esp. at first. at fashion school i’m not really around “my type” of people, which means i feel really isolated even around the other americans. they just don’t know how to make heads or tails of me i suppose. but then, if i really think of it, that might just be a con of being weird in general. my usual odds of finding someone i really gel with are about 1/500, so that puny statistic decreases even further when most ppl around me don’t speak english as a first language.

[ramcharantitties]

How was your exam bhay

hi. so uhm, Im gonna rant. Well first of all to answer your question, the exam got cancelled because server sucked ass but I still did what i could incase it doesn't. It was super easy- and if the nta decides not to retake, i'm still getting in college.

furthermore- I really, really hate my, the people who live w me. I don't like calling them "family" or "p*rents" anymore. I only like my brother but that fucker is doing mba in bihar. Now, tell me, what were your dreams when you were 15? Small girl, thinking what job she would get. what college she should go. maybe a celebrity crush, right?

that was the first time i thought about k*lling my father. and no he didn't do anything bad to me, but all of it was mental abuse. My mom, in mid 2021, was extremely sick. It was the peak of covid and sooner or later she caught it too. Of course bhaiya and papa did all they could- and thankfully we did get hospital and she was admitted. 2 days later my brother caught covid. they are better now, mom and i are going out tomorrow to buy her some hair colour if anyone's wondering.

but imagine so much tension on a teen 17 yo. well my father always thinks that we did nothing and only he suffered through it. He wants all of us have to same passwords so he can access any of our- mail or any account on his wish. He yelled at me in a fucking moving metro in delhi on 7 pm because i was texting a guy from school. He has confiscated my phone thrice now for no fucking reason. like. in his eyes texting a friend Is a reason, apparently. Hell, he told me to "sit in sunlight in school" because my doctor said i am extremely sick and need vitamin d. you know why? because the fucking house he bought has no ventilation. and dude, lack of sunlight cause some real shit to brain. my mom got migraine in 2016 because of it.

i just want to talk my girlfriend tani and i had to make a whole plan w her that whom she can call so that we can pretend talking about college and i get to talk to her. last time he took my phone and when i got it back, i was texting a friend of mine. He said "why do u have to talk to anyone". My first dream was to move out of this fucking house. and no, my mom doesn't defend me. Instead her only god and world is her dear husband who has never done anything wrong. and let me tell you- they both will rot alone when old because they haven't done any less shit to my bhaiya. i wish they will rot alone. im crying so much i hate them alot. This one time i got hurt and i was crying because it just hurt so fkn much- my thumb got trapped somewhere and it was bleeding and he had the audacity to say "you just pretend so that you dont have to ever work" and when i said that to my mom she denied accepting it.

everytime he goes out i wish he gets in an accident. or i do. like, fr. Anyways i think let's see when will the govt release new dates or smth- also i still have second slot to attend for business studied- so yeah i think it's cool if i get to attend and its still cool if i dont :)

#im sorry #i hate him #sorry lmao #trauma dump #uwu <3

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 5/3/22

fucking doozy of a making section

listening: Pink Panther by Scene Queen. i have been awaiting this for some time bc she did a very sensible and well thought out social media campaign across literally every platform several months before this dropped, which is how i ran across it in the process of looking up things on tik tok for work. every fucking day my job gets harder and harder to explain unless you are also in this extremely specific entertainment/tech brainrot corner of capitalism.

anyway this is an EXTREMELY horny song i love it a lot. contains the lyrics “don’t call you know i can’t answer/gettin pussy like the pink panther”. very early aughts! very ke$ha, very charlie’s angels, very D.E.B.S. if ANYONE else on this godforsaken gay nostalgia website has seen that movie.

there is in fact a very fun sample of the pink panther theme in this pop? metal? pop song with a headbanging interlude? song

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reading: fallow week

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watching: also fallow week

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playing: through an elaborate game of friend barter i have acquired a switch and breath of the wild. it is fucking hysterical to me how much this is just skyrim but good and how much genshin impact is just breath of the wild but with some tits and a lot of ass. it’s also screamingly funny to me that breath of the wild has made about a billion and a half since launch and genshin made 2.1B its first year. just on mobile. so much appetite for these kinds of games (big open world rpg-lite with puzzle solving and kind of grindy mob-based combat) but they’re hysterically expensive to make.

said “oh fuck that’s the guy” out loud when i spotted prince sidon through the ol binocs, he does not have the personality or voice acting i was led to believe

im having a slightly frustrating time mostly bc i don’t really have the hand dexterity to do combos and i didn’t grow up with controllers. it’s easier to map things to separate keyboard keys, although mouse and keyboard is quite hard on the wrists. actually my problem is probably that it’s slightly more brainpower than i want to give to a game rn.

really looking forward to playing a bunch of visual novels in bed this winter. maximum coze

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making: im extremely stressed due to a combination of work and life and not balancing them very well lately. so im buying a bunch of house shit bc it is college grad season so half the people in this area are going home or otherwise moving and looking to ditch their shit.

the first and most important thing is that a new evil lair has been rented. this will be the first place where i am the only one on the lease and it comes unfurnished. i will be slowly moving in, as i did last year, bc this  current above-the-second-floor apartment’s stairs are quite bad for the knees. hopefully everything i can pick up by myself will (at minimum) be in a storage unit by the time my sister comes up memorial day weekend to help me move things that don’t fit in my car. the tuesdayposts may be a little light on content for the next four to six weeks.

i am annoyed i have to pay double rent for a month and a half, and i am annoyed i spent a bunch of money in march for some shit that was Extremely specific to making this apartment nicer (like idk i’m gonna need an eight foot ladder in the new place, which was not built in the 1800s and has somewhat low ceilings and way fewer windows, also there isn’t really a good place to put my swiss dot and pom pom trim cafe curtains :(

anyway here are some objects and very few pictures of things i acquired last week from paying attention to craigslist curb alerts: huge pile of frames, a milk glass object, and this floor lamp. which i think is brass plated and desperately needs a new shade. project for future kay. maybe i’ll get really into lampshades next who knows. my new living room has no good ceiling light so between this and the big green lamp and i guess the plant lights that’ll have to do it

disGOSTang. v excited to get that weird shellac and all that grime off.

some objects i acquired from a moving sale but have no pics of bc they Immediately went into the storage unit: microwave, another little pyrex strage container (glass lid!), a cool vase, a brass vase holder thing, a campaign dresser/nightstand thing that is mostly made out of real wood (may hold out for a 1920s style waterfall dresser with the rounded nose, bc i fear with the brass bed AND a campaign dresser my bedroom may look a little too apartment therapy)

“kay what’s the deal with you and brass?”

well

i feel like brass implies that at least some minimum baseline of thought and effort has been put into an object. i like how mellow and warm it looks. i think it’s an easier finish to decorate around than steel or “oiled bronze” which is usually just treated steel but we don’t have time to get into that. i also like how it leans industrial without going full steampunk. also i hate trying to clean verdigris without ruining it.

also here’s a good post about recreational labor from tumblr user hellenhighwater that made something in my brain go “ping”

#tuesday again #tuesday again no problem #didn't proofread this one even a little bit #you may be asking: wait kay you proofread these? when i have time yeah but yeah i do fewer clarity edits than i really need probably

[gvftea]

This is not coming from a place of judgement, only curiosity, but like what do the ppl that go to every show do for money? 😭? I have a lame 9-5 so I've been able to travel to the shows that have been on weekends, but like are ppl in college and just miss school? Do you have flexible work schedules? I don't get it someone plz explain 😭

most of them really do just live off of daddy’s money and use their vacation/ all at once to go on a concert bender (again it doesn’t really matter if they miss more than what their job offers bc they already come from money) and some also have really shitty/lazy etsy stores where they sell the cheapest looking fan merch, yet still some how manage to make sells. as for myself, on the first leg of tour I was in cosmetology school (so obvi not anything as important as college, it was ok for me to miss days I just had to make them up by doing services on my family/friends to get credit). for my income, I house/pet sit for an extremely rich lady and tbh she over pays me for what I do but I’m not complaining 💀 as well as sell handmade jewelry, and now that I’m certified/licensed I run my own business from my house doing hair/nail so that im able to make my own work schedules and keep all of the income. I’m also lucky enough to still live with my parents who don’t expect me to pay rent (we aren’t white and don’t follow american customs) but I do help them out by buying groceries, paying for all of our subscriptions, once in a while I’ll pay a water/electricity bill, and I’m also in charge of vet bills if our pets ever have an emergency…oh and I’m also their housekeeper 😭 so while I do have a life that works out to be a constant concert goer, a lot of the other fans also who work 9-5s just aren’t being truthful with how they are getting their money/if they even have a job period. before I started working for this rich lady, selling jewelry, and offering cosmo services, I was working a 9-5 and couldn’t even afford gas sooo 💀

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#greta van fleet #gvf #josh gvf #sam gvf #jake gvf #josh kiszka #danny wagner #danny gvf #jake kiszka #sam kiskza

[parsleyrosemarybotch]

hit me with all the info

Zom!!! Lifts you up!!! I wish i had pictures of everyone but alas im at work

So Tester is a architect student who is about to finish college and he is flat broke so broke in fact he has taken 3 jobs which he adores. A live model for the college art classes, A Dom, and a Mason where he helps makes bricks. He has a hard time trying to live outside the confines of his job structures and if he's got nothing to do he unravels so so fast. His best friend Reed jokes all the time that he's pissed off some love god because he just has a string of unfortunate ex's. Reed on the other hand is an art major whos way more relaxed than Tester. She's really jokey and tends to more focus on doing her paints than anything but she DREADS doing any sort of shows of her work even though thats really how she make money. She just would rather eat glass because she doesn't really get or like the structure of mingling with snooty assholes that don't get her work.

There's also Jackie, Tester's cousin and Reed's long time girlfriend. She works part time at a bookstore and loves the hell out of ghosts much to everyones dismay-- especially Tester he's super afraid of ghosts.

uhhh theres also Gus, one of Tester's latest unfortunate ex's. He's a baseball scholarship guy that dumped Tester with a half-ass letter and then ghosted him and *now* he's back trying to be friends with Tester who is now trying to avoid him at all costs.

I'm also working on a puppeteer guy that Tester kinda has a crush on.

But most of the story i got so far is mostly vignettes of Tester and Reed hanging out and being buds and trying to hype each other up so they can make rent at their crummy artist shared house and trying very hard not to think about whats gonna happen once they all graduate

I WILL finish everyones refs eventually

eventually...

#art for art's sake

[melancholybliss92]

I'm so excited !! I will be going to look at a house next year. It's not available on the market yet until the 16th. I am set on this house because of the area so I will wait to see what it looks like inside. I am set on it so I'm really hoping it's not a fucked up house. Whether I'm in a relationship or not I will have my OWN house. Unlike them homeless hoes that seek a relationship to have a place to stay. Or that stupid fat Italian bitch the crazy 40 yr old was with . If he wanted to be with her, he would have stopped her from moving when she was In philly. And also when she moved and he came to visit for 2 weeks . He would have rented an apartment already to prove he serious. I looked up rent in kansas its cheaper than philly. She know she ugly as fuck and she in denial and making herself sound like she's wanted. And also he tried to string me along saying stay with him in the current house for 5 years so when he sells it he makes more money to buy a bigger house. I'm already seeing alot red flags with him and his stupid ass homeless hoe family. Hes not speaking up for me .The sister and husband is unstable welcoming more runaway homeless bitches and then lying and making corny post to make them look good . That's the only bitch her fat son can get. A homeless hoe that is submissive because the min she argue with them she will be kicked out. They all liars and hoes looking to breed and get married so they have a place to stay .they said her family is rich, own properties, own a nail salon etc. but why is the bitch inside a fat dudes parents house to this day. If they are so rich why don't they get her an apartment or give her a house. Why does she have to park and stay in someone else's house for 2 years . They fronting and lying . I don't like people who ask about me behind my back, spying on me out of jealousy, making snide comments about my business but their shit stinks. and then hyping an actual loser bitch up. Her actions speak for herself and his neice is still homeless in her moms basement. I see why they both best friends. Two corny homeless bitches go hand in hand . Trust me , if her family is rich. They will never ever let her stay in some fat dudes parents house in the hood. They will make sure she goes to college and she has a place to stay. I don't lie like that and I don't need to hide my business . I'm praying if my realtor can check for an earlier date. The faster I get out the faster i feel like im free with my own space. I know the ugly ass fat bitch in kansas is jealous because i look better and is smarter she waiting for the relationship to end. He still has pics of me and him on fb. He can either apologize to me or be alone in his small piece of shit house. U can be in a relationship with other people and visit them from your own house. I'm done living with another piece of shit. It's all types of issues when one isn't working and doesn't have a life and their family is jealous of u and he's not speaking up. I didn't ask him for money back in early August 2020. This was before I even pass my exam and got thus job. We both decided he goes back to his mom's house to play his stupid league of legend game. The man downstairs didn't make any noise at that time because I wasn't really working. The man downstairs is another one of them welfare disability people that doesn't work they stalk u all day and watch your routine. I stopped talking to him at night for only one week. He hurried up and came back right away to open another internet in my apartment . Thats on him . He's crazy . If he didn't open internet in my house, I already have Comcast. We wouldn't see each other or argue. If I don't get that house I'm going to see then I will be really sad. But I don't know yet. Gotta wait till it hits the market .

[queentours-blog]

Kodaikanal Tours and Travels | Peter Holidays

Table of Contents:

Introduction

Which is the best Kodaikanal Tours and Travels?

Types of Services

Conference Hall

Dormitory Rooms

Car Rentals

Sum-it Up

Nowadays people are searching for genuine Tours and Travels in Kodaikanal. In Kodaikanal there are many Tours and travels with a high budget. But Im searching for budget tours and travels in Kodaikanal. I asked my friend which is the best Kodaikanal Tours and Travels.

Which is the best Kodaikanal Tours and Travels?

There are many travel providers in Kodaikanal with high budgets like star-graded hotels. But I recommend Peter Holidays because Peter Holidays is the best Kodaikanal Tours and Travels. We provide homestays, conference halls, dormitory rooms, South India Tours, and Kodai Tours for customers at an affordable price.

Types of Services by Peter Holidays

Homestays

Conference Hall

Dormitory Rooms

South India Tours

Kodai Tours

Car Rentals

In this article, we are going to see about the Dormitory Rooms, Conference Halls, and Car Rentals in Kodaikanal.

Conference Hall:

What is Conference Hall?

A conference hall is a large room or place specifically designed to host conferences, corporate meetings, and other similar events. It typically has a stage at one end of the room, as well as audiovisual equipment such as microphones, speakers, and projectors to facilitate presentations and discussions. Conference halls can vary in size and have the maximum number of capacity to be seated in the hall with some able to accommodate hundreds or even thousands of attendees. They are commonly found in hotels, convention centers, and other event spaces, and may be rented out for a variety of purposes, including business meetings, academic conferences, and social gatherings.

Benefits of using the Conference Hall:

Professional Setting for the Attendees

Technical Support from the management

Capacity measurement for the attendees

Network Opportunities will avail in this meeting

Convenience 

Dormitory Rooms:

What are Dormitory Rooms in Kodaikanal?

A dormitory room is a shared living space typically found in colleges, universities, or other school educations. Also known as a dorm room or simply a dorm, it is a living space designed for students to live in while attending school. You can see this Dormitory room, especially in hill areas Kodaikanal, and Ooty in Tamilnadu. Dormitory rooms are usually small and sparsely furnished, with two or more students sharing the same space. Typically, a dormitory room will include beds, desks, chairs, dressers, and closet space for each student.

Why Dormitory Rooms in Kodaikanal?

Dormitory rooms are a common housing option for students who are attending colleges, universities, or other educational institutions. Peter Holidays provides dormitory rooms and have some benefits for the students such as Affordability, Convenience, Community, Safety, Support, and Independence for the students. Here, Peter Holidays also doing this service for the past 32 years in Kodaikanal. Here I personally recommend that Peter Holidays is the best Travel Services in Kodaikanal.

Benefits of using Dormitory Rooms:

Proximity to resources for the students 

Safe and secure for the students

Independence and forming a community with them an understandable 

Flexible to talk to others without any hesitation.

Car Rentals 

What is Car Rental?

Car rental is a service that allows individuals to rent a car, typically for a short period of time in especially hill stations. Car rental companies operate in many locations, such as airports, cities, railway stations, and tourist destinations. Customers can choose from a variety of car types and travel in that and sightsee all the major places in Kodaikanal.

How Car Rental Works in Kodaikanal?

A popular tourist destination in South India, works similarly to car rentals in other locations, especially in hill stations. To rent a car in Kodaikanal, customers can either book in advance through the car rental company's website or by contacting them directly over the phone. Car rental companies in Kodaikanal may also offer optional add-ons such as GPS navigation systems, child safety seats, and additional insurance coverage. During the rental period, customers are responsible for the vehicle's fuel and maintenance costs. 

Who provides the best Car Rental Service in Kodaikanal?

A car rental service in Kodaikanal can be a convenient option for tourists who want to explore the scenic hill station in their own place. Here Peter Holidays driver never asks for any extra charges to the customers to sightsee in Kodaikanal. They will charge one time and that will be inclusive of toll fees, fuel, and tips in Kodaikanal at a reasonable price. I suggest Peter's Holidays. Because Peter Holidays provides the best Kodaikanal Travels for the past 32 years for the customers at a reasonable price with good quality of service.

Benefits of using Car Rentals:

Convenient for the customers without any urge

Flexible to travel within Kodaikanal without any hassle.

Cost Effective and there were no extra charges 

Customers can access any type of car in Kodaikanal

Sum-it Up:

We saw the types of services by the Peter Holidays. I traveled there for 3 days and stayed with my friends to live a luxurious life in Kodaikanal. We enjoyed with nature view and sightsee the major places in Kodaikanal. Especially the Peter Holidays ambiance was pretty good and comfortable to stay there without any hassle. Here I strongly suggest that Peter Holidays is the best Low budget tours and travels in Kodaikanal. If you like this blog please appreciate it by hitting the like button and if this article was useful please share it with your friends. If you have any suggestions please drop your comments in the comment section. If you knows any travel agents like Peter Holidays please mention them in the comment section. Don’t forget to share your Kodaikanal Travel experience with us.

#Kodaikanal Travels #Kodaikanal Tours and Travels #Travel Services in Kodaikanal #Travel agents in Kodaikanal

[goose-diary]

feburary 3, 2023

mostly venting.

so for years my plan after highschool was to move in and be roommates with my friend while i went to college, bc we'd live well together and its literally impossible to pay rent where i live without a roommate.

except, this friend told me today that theyre going to the military after they graduate and probably wont be back for four years. so we cant be roommates while im in college

and like, i dont want to be mad and i dont think i am cuz they gave me a good amount of time before we graduate and its not like it was set in stone that we were gonna room, so its fine i just. what the hell am i supposed to do now

my living situation rn is kinda shit, n ive been looking forward to that life so much of living with them, and now im not really sure what to do. i think the only reason im not having a panic attack over it right now is cuz im high

but like, im just terrified of the possibility that id have to stay living at home after highschool because by god do i want out of this house. and like, what if i cant pay for college cuz im too busy paying rent??

im just. ugh

i might be able to move in with a different friend, or i can look into if taking a gap year would make it easier. or i dont fuckin know. i could live with roommates i dont know but that kinda terrifies me

im like, i dunno. i had so much trust in that being the plan that i dont fucking know what to do now. im so frustrated with myself for not having made a plan b sooner.

another opportunity is that my other friend lives in a different state, i could go live with them. i think rent and college is cheaper there, i have to look into it i guess

ugh, im simultaneously happy im high rn cuz its preventing panic and frustrated bc i cant think fully straight or really feel my emotions about this

drinking some tea right now. probably gonna go to sleep once i finish it, or try to.

its also like, this is kinda devastating news for me but my friend is really excited for it, and like i wanna be excited for them too but 1. devastated and 2. honestly i know theyll get benefits but im so worried the military will treat them like shit and spit them out the back end, but what they need is support about it right now so thats what im giving. i can give them advice but i cant tell them not to do smthn with their life if its what they want. its just frustrating and scary. i dunno.

i might post again tmr when im sober and experiencing a more full blow of this info. for now im gonna. sleep.

#vent #online diary

[eggcats]

one thing that gets me is that the more "high tech" ghost hunting equipment I see, the more "proof" I'm given, the more im positive it's almost entirely bullshit, I just become more of a shaniac the more "evidence" I see

which is an insane take from someone who's had legitimate experiences I can't explain (which isn't to say there ISN'T an explanation, but other than it being possible mental illness and occasional hallucinations, I don't know what it could be other than possibly paranormal)

I should be the easiest motherfucker to fool how did we even get to this point

And yet? Any time anyone tells ME anything I'm immediately like have you checked your carbon monoxide detector? Is the building structurally sound?, bc if it's not that also causes hallucinations. It's just a spec of dust or the house shifting or sleep paralysis or etc. I barely believe MY OWN experiences.

Ghosts aren't scary, y'know what is? Someone secretly living in your house. Any random who decides they wanna kill you. Living people. Ghosts are just invisible freeloaders who don't pay rent (assuming they even exist). They can't just stab me in the middle of the night like a human can.

(I've actually had some scary sleep paralysis experiences too but those I'm aware of what that is. Didn't make them any less scary tho.)

(long list of experiences after the readmore. I'm honestly making this post more so I can just talk about them tbh)

I've had:

moving shadows in my house

one was a full grown man shape, about 6+ feet tall running down the hallway that I could see from my bedroom. I just went "huh. Not my problem." And went back to listening to my radio

another was like, a huge tail-like shape just fucking swinging on the wall when I walked into the desk room at like 3am, and I even checked the light switch to make sure it wasn't causing a weird shadow, it wasn't, there wasn't anything that could have caused it (also the shadow was like, pitch black) so then I was like "huh. Not dealing with that" and turned out the light, turned around, walked down the hallway to my bedroom and climbed into my bed and went to sleep

saw literal floating orbs MORE THAN ONCE

one was on Halloween when my friends and I were hanging out at a graveyard (a moving floating orange one)

the other way me walking downstairs at night and hitting/walking into this huge bright blue blinding light that disappeared once I turned a real light on

had stuff constantly changing positions in my room

(that I explicitly asked my mom if she moved, the only person to enter my room other than me, and she was like "no? why would I do that?")

- one was a fucking nesting doll that KEPT TURNING AROUND TO FACE ME DESPITE ME FACING IT TO THE WALL WHENEVER I NOTICED IT MOVED...I kept it bc my aunt bought it for me from China so it was special even if it was possessed.

Sidenote: my brain HATES anything human-like with eyes, I will become CONVINCED it's following me I cannot handle the uncanny valley of it. That's only related bc that's the only reason I regularly turned it around, I didn't want it looking at me.

another memorable one was my huge cardboard dragon model that somehow got in my loft bed from my bookshelf, a feat it could absolutely not have gotten there without help

had some presence enter my college dorm room when I had a dorm to myself, and y'know how you can kind of feel when people walk behind you? I felt that as I was napping before class, and like I said, my roommate had moved out absolutely no one had keys to my room and it startled me enough it straight up woke me up. I think I had a few other experiences, but that was the most notable one

one time my cat woke me up bc he was chirping intently at the corner of a wall at like 2am. I looked. There was nothing there. So I sat down and looked at it and went "hey it's 2am can you stop bothering my cat so I can sleep?" and then suddenly my cat calmed down. So I went back to sleep.

more than once I'd turn off the kitchen light and I'd HEAR the light switch hit and it'd turn back on. likely faulty wiring but it was freaky to turn the lights off, sit down, and have them turn back on

I couldn't take a NAP on the beanbag chair under my bed without it feeling like something was grabbing me from my body

whenever I'd force myself back into myself (one time I straight up heard a voice go "you NEED to wake up" before I even could do so), and wake up FREAKED OUT, I'd be hit with this sense of "oh it was fine, you're So Tired go back to sleep" that just didn't feel natural, like it wasn't coming from me and was overpowering my actual reaction

Like, I'd suddenly feel exhausted (almost unnaturally so?) where if I didn't force myself to get up off the floor RIGHT THEN, I'd go right back to this half-asleep state and the feeling of being forced from by body would be much quicker this time

It felt like a kind of full-body tingle on the places I'd be yanked from by body, except it wasn't my arm going to sleep or anything bc it'd be on the side I Wasn't sleeping on, and would progressively get further down the more I was yanked

(if I was actually tired and fell legitimately asleep nothing happened, so I'd only sleep on the beanbag chair under my bed when I wanted to nap for a few hours, and not just doze)

Speaking of that spot - more than once I've heard a noise from there that I couldn't identify the cause of. It's possible I had some auditory hallucinations, but considering everything else it'd freak me out to hear a voice or a knock or something that like, was intentional and I couldn't identify what caused it.

I only had the "removed from my body" IN my bed once but it was way scarier

I was snoozing/relaxing during summer break late morning in bed, reading Shonen Jump, and got hit with such exhaustion that I suddenly couldn't stay awake - like, I Was fine a second ago, and now suddenly I'm almost passed out, can barely keep my eyes open

So I was like, okay I'll go back to sleep. And then???? I hear someone washing their hands in the bathroom down the hall??? And THEN I hear them walk down the hall towards my room, and the entire time I hear the approach I'm hit with an overwhelming sense of fear/dread - like I knew somehow it wasn't an intruder, but instead something paranormal? In a way I knew my only defense was to pretend I was still asleep

And suddenly I feel something grab me and lift me directly up into the air, and then forward, like incredibly fast?

(and listen, I was like an early teenager filled with indoctrination. I thought this was the second coming. I started praying, lmao. But! It seemed to have worked bc suddenly the thing dragging me moved SO MUCH MORE QUICKLY and I'm fucking DROPPED back into my body. Like, I legitimately think I moved when I re-entered it was so violent)

And I KNOW y'all are going to say I was asleep or something, but listen. I was absolutely awake. It was a CONSCIOUS EFFORT on my end to keep my eyes closed and PRETEND I was still asleep. I straight up waited a few minutes after I got back into my body before opening my eyes I was so freaked. I did NOT want to see whatever it was and I didn't want IT to know I was conscious.

I straight up agreed to go with my aunt and grandma to go swimming like they wanted me to. And I absolutely hated doing stuff like that. It just scared me so badly I didn't want to be home alone anymore.

and is, to THIS DAY, convinced my cat was possessed by something that I had to exorcise

listen. I know it sounds insane. Trust me. My cat's eyes were pitch black (not normal night cat eyes, like pure black), he glared at me in a "is THAT the best you can do" way when I flicked him on the nose for biting me, he bit me when I petted him (he does NOT bite unless you're handing him treats), and then when I "exorcised" it bc I was pissed it DARED to mess with my cat he was so exhausted he snuggled with me near my chest for about 10 minutes, and he HATES sleeping there (after he moved back to my feet where he normally sleeps)

If I had another explanation I'd give you one.

I should be susceptible to this shit, and yet you show me the ovilus and I'm like cool that's a scam

#in rambling but still #HOW DO I BARELY BELIEVE IN GHOSTS IM PRIME BELIEVER TERRITORY #long post #i feel like that comic relief character that's being haunted and there's so much evidence and they refuse to believe in ghosts #how did i see moving shadows and exorcised my cat and am still like yeah it's all bullshit #like ill agree that there's stuff i don't know #but at least 99% of evidence or experiences are bs #ill accept that 1% but honestly rather than ghosts its probably just science we dont understand yet #like all of human history

[flanarchy]

dropped off my little sister at the airport for college today, surreal when she leaves before me, so now i really gotta find somewhere to be and out of this house. my mom won me this year long national parks pass this year and i only have half a year left and i really wanna use it but all the ones with a price that makes having a free one worth it are so far from me :( AR is within good driving distance of me and has beautiful nature so maybe i’ll road trip there for a couple days but my parents are so weird about me sleeping in a motel alone…i’m 21 but this situation is that it’s better to just not stress them out, so anything they know about has to be careful. i want to visit my one friend there and she hasn’t picked up the phone in weeks. i’d also have to borrow one of the ‘rents’ cars, and my mom’s is old and gasping for breath. or i could fly up to college early and try to get around up there and see some sights i jsut don’t have too many friends up there but i’m resigned to this being by myself anyway. (my tts friends im not super close to and haven’t seen since then and it would be fun if i could find them but they’re all like. off the grid. guess that’s what happens when you study abroad together for months without a phone…ya don’t need one anymore. also so few of us got along lol). just would have to figure out transportation. apparently you CAN rent a car if you’re under 25 they just charge you at least $25 extra a day 😭😭 i am also open to camping somewhere if i stay down in this area but i don’t have a tent so i’d have to find one i could borrow and so few people here are outdoorsy. hm. but i do have a new high quality winter blanket with a national park design courtesy of christmas present :) just texted a friend who’s all over the place so maybe she’ll host me wherever she’s at. ramble ramble ramble i just neeeeeed to travel and it’s so hard what happened to the days where you had buddies who would hop in a van or bus with you and figure it out when you got there. anyway will maybe be continuing to search through the people who love me enough to host me even if i haven’t seen them in years and places that are cheap enough to drive or fly to

#i’m okay doing the traveling part alone although might try to stay with someone i know somewhere #but i’m okay doing it all alone i think it would be good for me #my parents are super anxious people and i don’t have my own car tho -_- #it sucks to be good at traveling but have no friends and thus be restrained by what is thought to be safe for a young woman!! #i am so depressed. #international travel…that would fix me

[soft--dragon]

SOOOOOFTTT -cry-

I HAD MY ENGLISH LITERATURE AND BIOLOGY MOCKS TODAY

IM LITERALLY GONNA FAIL MY GCSES AHHHHHHHhh

TW bit of a rant

I have maths non calculator tomorrow and im good at maths but like i hate exams as anyone would yanno? but its so fuckinhg stressful omg im also grounded im not allowed to go out AT ALL i cant talk to any of my friends unless im in school and i have gigs coming up as my uncles in a band n shit and its so annoying because im left out of all of my group activities because my report was bad from last term and i need to "sort my shit out" but i really dont. i also need to apply for colleges like WHAT WhY nO and i cant find any good colleges that do a food course because i wanna be a chef and i obviously need a food course to learn to do that like duh and im not gonna get into college if my grades are FUCKED like maybe theyll give me a chance to see if i pass my exams ut if they dont i literally cant go to college unless i find a different course that accept my grades but its not my fault that my target grade is too high like its a 6-7 and im reaching a 3 rn in science and thats all 3 sciences combined (biology, physics, chemistry) LIKE UGH I DONT WANT TO GROW UP.

rant over, i apologise for that.

on a better note, my christmas tree has been put up and i decorated it so im better than everyone in my house fuck you guys

i also have tutoring in 40minutes and im sat on my bed writing this instead of doing important things

fuckkk i really am sorry this is a lot

uh, bye

Oh boy Bean, I'm so sorry to hear you've been so stressed out D:

By now, your mocks are probably done and I apologise I wasn't able to answer this sooner to help you. I'm sure you've done the best you could for the mock exams, some grade expectations are absolute horse shit and it's really unfair for the education system to expect so much from students when they have so many different classes. Surely there's some extra credit work you could apply for?? My college offered it throughout the year to students, so maybe your school does the same?

Growing up sucks, I get it. I recently bought a car and I'm going for my restricted licence in a few weeks. Next year I'm not going to university so I need to work full time and pay rent to stay at home, probably making it harder to meet up with my friends with my hours being filled.

I completely understand why you're nervous about the future and what it brings, becoming an adult where you have to think about your life goals and such is the absolute worst, but it's necessary for development and maturity.

I hope things get better for you Bean, again I'm sorry you've been so stressed :(

#dragons asks #b3an1e io