#all i hear is that you're old as fuck

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

It's an odd feeling when you make someone laugh with something you yourself didn't think was funny but it happens all the time because I guess most people irl just aren't used to the way neurodivergent internet-raised 20-somethings talk and an out of pocket meme phrase that you've heard 100 times is new and novel to them

#my old roommates once went into hysterics over ''fucking excuse me'' #confused the shit outta me #I mean that's not a meme that's just how I talk but the phrasing is kinda tumblr-y ig #when I hear someone make a direct tumblr meme reference irl and say it as if they made it up themselves dude the SIDE EYE I give them #nobody else in this room knows. They all think you're hilarious. But I know what you are 👁️👁️

[newtness532]

im so annoyed with everything today, i think i need some tasty food and a million hours of sleep and then I'll be back to normal

#the teacher at the first class today was so dibsjdhdhdhdhsgs 😫 #like she was teaching us things that are like unrelated to the class that shes teaching so idek why she was teaching it #but also its things that we have been learning since the 1st semester and we've done them in at least 10 classes and she was acting like #this was the 1st time we were hearing about it #like oh yeah we're on the 7th semester of studying nutrition but no one bothered to tell us how many calories are in a gram of fat #and she gave us homework 'to see if we know this' like #oh yes i can make a meal plan for a child with crohns or cystic fibrosis or celiac disease or everything else we've done this semester and #all the other semesters but i guess i cant tell you what micronutrients are in this one breakfast meal #like fuck off and stick to what you're supposed to be teaching #anyway i know im getting more annoyed than i should but she was just even more annoying than usual today #like she interrupted the lesson every 5 minutes to yell at someome to be quiet i wasnt even aware there were people talking until she yelled #anyway #also my new earphones aren't working well idk why ive definitely not been mistreating them that much for them to break in less than a month #like i had my old pair for at least 4 years until the broke and i dont think the wire got cut in them like the sound was coming out weird #but there was sound coming out. in the new ones you need to hold them in a very specific angle for sound to come out #and like im careful with how i put them away so what is up with them? #my theory is that they make wired earphones shitty on purpose so that you will spend a lot of money and buy wireless #also we had said from Tuesday that we would hang out with my friends today but i guess they forgot or idk and they made other plans #(to go home and sleep) and during the weekend the one friend wont be here and next week my family will be here so we probably wont hang out #again until next year and we have exams almost immediately so we wont be hanging out much then either #also my period is supposed to come soon and i hope that it will either come today or it will wait until after Christmas #ideally it will never come ever again but we cant always get what we want #anyway im gonna go eat the rest of my μεσογειακό and go take a nap #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

[uwulouis]

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#ok i will say smth abt it bc im a little pissed hehe #and verito is not answering my texts so now u all have to hear it #im not self absorbed enough to believe i know what's best for phoebe or if she planned it or not or whatever #the way she announced it seems she's pretty excited so good for her #but honestly some of the takes i've seen on here... #people in their middle/late 20s calling this 19 year old girl an idiot #saying that she must not know the difference between her vagina and her urethra #that louis must be soo disappointed and that he didn't pay and expensive school for her to get pregnant (????????) #do u guys hear yourselves what the actual fuck #ofc teen pregnancy is an issue worldwide but is this really the hill you're gonna die on?? that it's all the girl's fault bc she's stupid?? #u sound like a 50 yo congressman wtf is the actual matter with you #people i've seen joking about how long until her bf leaves her... #i literally encourage u to seek help it is not normal to lack empathy in this way and to be so cruel to a person who has #literally done nothing to you #also louis can pay for whatever school he likes he still doesn't have the right to decide over his little sister's body?? do u guys #hear yourselves be so real with me rn #also how do u even know he's upset?? #tfw some of u think u know louis.. it's insane #i literally am in shock at some of the things i had to read today #i really hope you are not in any field where people come to you for help #especially girls especially young girls #you guys are insane lmao #that's all <33 #shut up laura

[nonbinarychaoticstupid]

i mentioned this in the tags of another post somewhere but there rly is something so theatre kid core insane in rehearsing les mis and learning how to build a barricade and playing the role of a student in the rebellion at the same time as an awful winter is descending on you and you have no real way of knowing how much money you're going to have left and the coronation of king charles, which will most likely be millions of pounds worth of money spent on watching another racist idiot put a hat on, seems to be a more important use of the government's expenses than feeding and heating the homes of the rest of the country. like idk i really would love to hear the people fucking sing. or something.

#sep texxt #just in case you forgot i'm a theatre kid #another important factor is that at this time i was slowly becoming more and more of an anarcho-communist #its like. pov you're 17 year old me channeling all your rage and leftism into singing fucking one day more in your secondary school + #+ production of les miserables #we could barely even afford to buy the stuff for my costume so i had to borrow like half of it from a friend #i do have some pictures of my costume somewhere actually i did look great #i was also the captain in lovely ladies #and part of the chain gang at the start #and i was in master of the house too as part of the chorus of the inn #so sorry to zaphod and enid who have had to hear me ramble about this for several months straight #and to mercy to whom my rebellion costume looked like that of a confederate soldier #building the barriade (which we did with bits of wooden furniture) was great but awful for my joints g-dbless #<- disabled

[crunchycrystals]

i hate interpreting "give me back my girlhood it was mine first" as being about just virginity mostly because it feels so much more meaningful if you allow yourself to interpret it as your younger self and the childhood innocence you had that got taken from you but also because i hate the idea of calling someone's virginity their "girlhood"

#crunchyposts #ts #wcs #am i crazy for thinking i dont want to call virginity “girlhood” #that feels Wrong #but also like as a lyric its so much better if you don't interpret it like that #like come on. you're gonna hear lyrics about being preyed on at a young age by an older man and regretting that it happened #lyrics that explicitly said “i miss who i used to be” and youre just gonna say that lines about virginity. #“i'd like to be my old self again but i'm still trying to find it” come on. have you ever felt the deep grief of a past version of yourself #that youll never get back. also im not fucking speculating on someone's virginity #this makes me so angry now that im writing all of this i have no idea why #maybe its bc im ace and i connect a lot with the song and the themes of grief and like the childhood innocence that connects so much to #the religious imagery of the song (INNOCENT. HELLO) and reducing it to just that makes me so. oh my god #anyways another post that falls into the category of “every time i think about wcs i write an essay” #literally just about 9 words lol

[vamptastic]

i genuinely don't understand what capitalist countries stand to gain by fighting each other instead of collaborating economically. like why does the us warmonger against china when we would benefit more from trade? ostensibly it's for moral reasons, but regardless of the veracity of any given claim i think the united states has shown itself to prioritize economic success over human rights on a number of occasions especially during the cold war. i suppose i assume most wars are waged on the grounds of economic gain (natural resources, global political power, straight up money in the form of the military-industrial complex) but you could make an equally solid argument that just as many are waged over purely social and political issues- ethnic and religious conflict, blind nationalism, the whims of a dictator. it just confuses me at times, i guess. i have a hard time believing that the united states is bound and determined to wage war against china over human rights abuses, infringing on other countries sovereignty, and neo-colonialism in africa when we've propped up fascist dictators in many a country who've done far worse. is it literally just the association with communism? because surely whatever evil fuckers actually want war know that china is very far from communist right now. is it just nationalism? the idea that we must be on the top of the totem pole, even if our economy would stand to gain from trade? because i suppose i could believe that, but i think if that was true we wouldn't have gotten to where we are today in the first place. blegh. at the end of the day i am also ignoring the fact that many many different groups of people want war against china for reasons ranging from sinophobic jingoist nationalism to a genuine belief that the united states is a global moral watchdog determined to establish ~democracy~ worldwide. but there is a definite slant to media coverage on china right now, genuine attempts at disinformation, and given that the media in the us is so deeply tied to corporate interests it leads me to believe that there has to be some economic motive here, and it frustrates me that i can't figure out what it is.

#this post is long and convoluted and circuitous. sorry. #please do not try to like. publically own me or erupt into moral outrage over this post if you're reading it btw. #suppose i would be interested in hearing others takes on this but im just curious i genuinely don't have answers here #i don't want to argue or be accused of being immoral for not taking a hard stance on an incredibly complex issue. #anyway. i am also not trying to say that either the us or china are ' good ' or ' bad ' #insomuch as any country can be good or bad. particularly a country millenia old or one that changes leadership every four years. #individual actions taken by each government are undeniably bad. yes. #but as a us citizen i find it very difficult to find reliable information about what is happening in other countries. #our media has become so wildly polarized that you can often figure out national issues by looking at both sides #but when the media is unified on portraying one falsehood both left and right? you're fucked. #often media that claims to be neutral could be more accurately described as western #i trust ap and the bbc on us politics - not global politics. #all that being said when it comes to things like the treatment of uighur muslims or the political situation in hong kong and taiwan. #i'm not entirely sure what to believe. #and i also believe that if every single immoral act the us claims china has done is real... we still wouldn't wage war based purely on that #...i do genuinely think the claims that china is colonizing africa by offering loans is horseshit though #even if it was itd be fucking rich for european countries that wrecked africa in the first place #to moralize about the means by which another global power allows them potential economic power #the problem arises from capitalism on a global scale itself i mean #there is no way to build up infrastructure and trade routes for an entire continent without #in some way eventually profiting from it #i do see the comparison to the us and latin america and i think that's kinda apt but #the way ppl talk about it you'd think they were doing what france did to haiti good god

[neverendingford]

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#color says shit #this is about the twitterpocalypse and tumblr getting weird about it #do y'all realize that these communities have existed on tumblr already. it's not all superwholock and quirky tumblr U #Christians exist on tumblr. Maga-heads exist on tumblr. alt-right exist on tumblr. #it's just that there's no algorithm pushing it in front of you. #without that unifying algorithm tumblr remains disparate social circles that are very clear and easy to map out #which is what I love about it. you can see the web of social dynamics so clearly because there's no hand of god pushing anyone forward #but to condescend and try to get Twitter users to go through Tumblr U orientation so they know about your ten year old memes is blind #unless you're following tags. you won't see any of the new people until people you follow reblog that shit. #entire groups and cultures can live and die next door and you won't notice shit because their posts simply do not circulate to you #anyway not that any of you care. and that's alright. maybe I just need to curate my feed so I stop seeing people be dumb about it #our glorious hellsite. their hideous tweetbook. you know the drill #saw someone try and throw in that classic opinion that reddit is the worst. like 'at least it's not redditors immigrating' like bruh stfu #internet xenophobia is fucking hilarious but I'm kinda tired of laughing #tumblr isn't the only goddamned place that has inside jokes #it's just tumblr nationalism #this feels like one of those posts that I could make actual text and then use the appropriate tags to get some traction but idgaf #I don't need a bunch of people agreeing with me. I just want to complain #I would absolutely love to hear opinions though. other people's experiences are cool as shit #that 'not that any of you care' wasn't meant to be passive aggressive it was a 'I don't expect you to feel strongly about this'

[hippo-pot]

just learned how cochlear implants work. even more disgusted now with the contingent of people who insist that *not* giving a deaf child a cochlear implant is somehow neglect

“i’m fine with - actually, insistent upon - making permanent medical alterations to children as long as it benefits *me*, not the children themselves” - asshole proverb

#a) you're signing up for at least one CI-related doctor appointment per year for the rest of your life #and constant maintenance (changing batteries etc) #not to mention the huge initial investment of like learning how to interpret the sounds which takes months #b) up until now getting a CI was guaranteed to destroy any residual hearing in one ear #so if you don't like how the CI processes sound uh too bad you already gave up some of the ability to process sound the way you're used to #(i guess there are new surgery techniques now where this isn't necessarily the case) #c) it's surgery! surgery is invasive! period! #imo this is absolutely something where you can wait for the kid to be old enough to decide for themselves #'but it works better on little kids -' literally don't care #adults get them all the time #it's fine #d) being Deaf is not akin to neglect jesus fucking christ #as long as they have consistent access to communication (other people who sign) they're not being neglected #cochlear implants also have really varied results #so it's likely that you'd just be signing the kid up for working really hard reading lips the rest of their life #and doing speech therapy for years #when easy communication via sign is Right There #like why not let your child take it easy????? like let them have a nice easy childhood? #'neglect' my ass #i actually do think it's fine for a parent to decide they want their kid to have a cochlear implant #i mean idk. i'm no expert. just seems fine to me #as long as they also provide an environment of signing so the kid doesn't have to constantly struggle or lack communication #i'm just saying that parents who opt out of CI for their kids should not be demonized

[rxkuyo]

love people who are like 'can't wait for it to be spring' like you do realize that we've been having spring for the past 1½ months right ? it practically came right after fall my guy like we've had about 9 days of winter back in december and yet here you are. complaining. get a reality check mayhaps idk

#like ??? cat brought home the first fucking tick at the start of january ???? #my horses' allergies started acting up mid-january too #it's been literally far too warm all 'winter' #and y'all are like ough can't wait for it to be spring #like that's not spring you're waiting for. that's straight up summer. y'all say spring and what you mean is. a fucking summer hellscape. #be real #I will start killing btw <3 #anyway s/o to that random old lady who overheared someone whining about how they want winter to be over #and went on to tell them that we haven't had winter yet because the creek in town hasn't frozen over yet. #and that creek used to always freeze over in winter #like yaaaas queen !!!! you tell them !!!!!! #yes this is passive aggressive. yes I've been hearing this since january. yes I am immensely tired of hearing it. #we've licherally got 8 months of summer hellscape every year. isn't that fucking enough omg

[stannussy]

This game makes me bananas, but it has so much info, I want to compile in a single place.

#anyways #im gonna dust off my old man alisher #i used to have a cod cold war blog and all #but I want my m*actavish blog up and running to #too* #mmmhhh #ah fuck it you're gonna hear me ramble abt Cold war until then #I remember doing a ton of notes the first time I saw the gameplay #now taht i get to roam the safehouse B) #get ready #also angsty cold war spy

[v-iv-rusty]

bloodborne is one of the few games that can be kind of emotionally draining for me if I play it for too long (in a good way) but the main thing that keeps me going is the need to see what new kind of fucked up creature is creaching just around the corner

#misc.txt #echo plays bb #the sound design in this game is great #you hear the worst noises you've ever heard just as you're about to put down the controller for the night #and then it's like 'oh well I just have to go see whatever the fuck that thing is now.' #got to bloodstarved beast today and it is soooo so gross and wet looking. I love it. it's awful. bestie <3 #I also noticed that the crawling guys down in the sewers are still wearing clothes. I'm. unsure how I feel about that #curious what the lore is on what determines the different types of beasts people turn into? I assume that's what's going on down there #I 'finished' the quest with gascoigne's daughter as well. or at least she's not at the window anymore. :( #idk what I expected honestly. I've been spoiled on all the main things in this game (lore+most bosses) but not all the inbetween stuff #was sort of hoping that maybe if I gave her the brooch she would stay put..but I knew that wasn't going to happen #BUT I did get an old lady to go to the chapel. she kinda sucks but that's ok #chapel dweller has a friend now :) btw if anything happens to him I'm killing everyone in this room and then myself #(I say in regards to a game that's even worse than ds when it comes to 'everyone you love dies')

[vamptastic]

i have a genius 10000 IQ theory about how the black parade is about being lgbt and this idea that you're dead to your loved ones when you come out as gay or trans but you can still live as ghost and keep going but every time i try to explain it i have to essentially replay the entire album and go song by song and it's probably infuriating to listen to unless you're my mom and we're on a six hour road trip so alas it will remain my burden to bear.

#something something beginning with a song about nobody caring when you die to people being happy #to being rejected in life to your own grief about leaving your love ones to not being remembered #to finally deciding you have to keep going even if you're dead #it all connects. trust me. #i also did this for cemetary drive tbf. it just ties the whole album story together its like. so fucking good #i paused it midway through and then talked about for like. an hour. #thank god for my poor old mother otherwise you'd all have to hear it

[clarissaexplainingitall]

okay the neuroimmune talk at dysautonomia international is really cool.

(it's also extremely nice every year to hear a bunch of researchers and clinicians affirm that the medical institution needs to do significantly better than they are now, because they are actively contributing to worse health outcomes in patients. i want to make all my doctors sit down for a lecture.)

#i say this five or so days after my GI doc and GP decided to have fun punting me between each other #dysautonomia international #cw medical malpractice #hearing that case study of the girl with the 180 hour colonic transit time is just like YEP that shit happens with unapologetic docs #they are like oh um hm perhaps there is something wrong with you after all #and then like pretend they never told you that you're insane to ask for further workup #shoutout to the doctor who told me only to come back when i was shitting blood and when i did he was like eh not enough blood #i was being poisoned at the time #zero acknowledgement of the fact that he fucked up #also shoutout to the time i had to be sent to the ER because of reglan and i was told i was making it up #because only 75 year old ladies react to reglan apparently #anyway i am now banned from the entire drug class!!!! get fucked doctor d