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No way out > MCxLucas [PT. 1]

AU where everything is the same but Lucas’ drug addiction affect the story more.

I’ve seen lot of people complain about the fact Lucas’ drug addiction should have affected the story plot more. I totally agree on that since drug addiction is not something you can get rid off that easily without professional help…

So this will be one little *coughs* oneshot in which Lucas’ addiction affected the story line a little bit more :)

Also I think Lucas is kinda underrated but I get the fact not everyone will like same character. I for example, literally fell in love with him (more than I did with Jake) just because I realized Lucas and I are so damn similar (dont worry I am not on drugs, i am talking about ‘never good enough’ problem) so thats why this is going to be MCxLucas one shot. Also please keep in mind that I play as MALE so thats why I always use they/them pronouns for MC because I feel left out when I see people always using she/her pronuns.

ANYWAYs ENJOY :D

Pairing; MCxLucas

For some odd reason I have a feeling like I should put a trigger warning because this oneshot mostly talks about the need of taking drugs and drug addiction itself PLUS mental disorders (mental disorders will mostly be in part 2)

Let’s begin!

You’ve always known the drug addiction was a serious subject. You were learning about it in school ever since you were old enough to understand it. You could remember every single lesson you had about it, the exact words that left professors’ mouths, you could remember the exact colour of their voices as they spoke about it; cold, dark. No one had to tell you twice the drug addiction is something you should joke about, even though most of people, especially when you reached the age of 14, began to mention that topic more and more.

Of course no one ever actually offered you weed or drugs. The world did not know you existed, that’s all, since you didn’t have any friends except your own demon of your past.

But you have seen what results any kind of addiction leaves behind on a person. You’ve seen utter idiots in your class before ruining themselves completely. The only things they could think about were; when were they going to be able to smoke again, how much will it cost, will someone find out their dirty little secret, where/when will they smoke, etc. etc., and the exact same thing was about drugs too.

You were never bothered too much about the topic of drugs itself. You knew you simply didn’t want to ruin your life like that; once when you’re in, there’s no way out.

No way out.

So that’s why you knew Lucas couldn’t just throw those little plastic bottles away that easily. Of course you felt proud in that moment, but the tiny part of your mind was screaming desperately to get your attention;

This is not the end.

This is not the way out.

However, no matter of the fact that your head throbbed in pain as those words kept echoing in your mind, you pushed the thoughts aside and decided to believe Lucas was strong enough to get over it just like that.

You spent restless nights thinking about the problem itself. However, you didn’t mention it around Lucas ever again, afraid you would wake his own thoughts up too. He still seemed paranoid all the time, he had the constant need of doing something with his hands, he already began to lack off in school… like the part of him was missing. It made your heart break, really. But the thought everyone was like that since Mr. Red was back now won over the more serious thought.

Maybe that’s also why you weren’t surprised– not even a little, when the following event happened…

You sat there unable to move or get up, slowly watching every single one of your friends get dragged in darkness, one by one. Soon, the only people left were Lucas, Stacy, Noah and you as Lily was dragged into the darkness with the rest of your crew.

You could feel your heartbeat in your throat. You suddenly felt like vomiting as the sickening feeling settled in your stomach, and you forgot how to breathe.

Why is this happening?

Your thought was cut off by Lucas’ sudden wheeze. Your head immediately snapped into the direction of your lover, only to give you dizzy feeling once when you saw the person you care about the most shaking his head and being on the verge of tears.

“This can’t be happening.. it’s not real… this can’t be real…”

You felt your heart throb at the sight of his terrified expression. You had an urgue to run into his arms and tell him that everything was going to be fine. But it was not, and you couldn’t move once when you tried to reach out for his cheek.

“JANE!” Your worried feelings were all of the sudden replaced with pure rage that was strong as fire. “Why are you doing this?! What do you want?! Just tell us what do you want!” You growled at the demonic figure that pulled itself into the darkness, giggling evilly.

“…want?”

You began to argue with Noah, trying to be as gentle as possible to wake him up from the trance; knowing that if you just yell at him things won’t be any better. But you didn’t even get a chance to finish as Jane came out of darkness again, slowly turning to Lucas.

No.

Not him.

Nononononono….

As Jane began to circle around him, laughing, you heard a quiet whimper. “I can’t deal with this… I can’t.. I–”

STOP.

“Too much… can’t do it all… give up…” Jane hummed as Lucas closed his eyes, shaking violently.

“NO! LEAVE HIM ALONE! YOU FUCKING BASTARD–” you screamed loudly, your voice echoing through the cave as you did so. The rage was burning in your eyes as you tried your hardest to get up.

Jane’s hands came to rest on Lucas’ shoulders. The fabric of his vest started to smoke…

“STOP! JANE– FUCKING STOP ALREADY! IT IS ENOUGH–” now you were crying, begging her to stop as you felt burning sensation in your throat. Not him, not my Lucas…

Your own screaming voice trailed off when Jane unexpectedly reached down to Lucas’ pocket, slowly, like a cat. Your heart stopped as Jane whispered something in Lucas’ ear, making his eyes snap wide open, a fear colouring his face.

“You kept one...”

No…

“Don’t–” he tried, but his shaky voice of protest trailed off when Jane’s hand full of long, sharp claws pulled a tiny bottle out of his jean pocket… and you knew exactly what it was.

Your eyes didn’t leave Lucas until he met your gaze. You could easily read off the emotions drawing on his face as you two held an eye contact. The fear and saddness coloured his expression as the tears slipped down his face like waterfall… yet you weren’t shocked, you weren’t surprised, nor even disappointed… just sad.

“I am so sorry…” he choked on his own tears as he broke the eye contact with you, and your heart broke into million pieces. Something was screaming inside your head as you tried not to sob out loud in front of Jane.

“No no… Lucas it’s alright, I understand please–”

“Are you sared?” Jane’s voice echoed, making you shiver down the spine. The cave was awfully quiet, leaving nothing but tension hanging in the air yet your eyes never left Lucas’ sad expression.

Please dont give up on me now…

Suddenly, Lucas snapped back to clarity, screaming in Jane’s face!

“GET AWAY FROM ME!”

* * *

You staggered out of the ruins. All around you, the woods lie still and quiet. As you stepped into the moonlight, you were greeted by several figures.Your friends surrounded you and pulled you in a group hug as everyone greeted you back. You tried not to wince when someone’s body pressed against your wound where Noah stabbed you once. You tried to smile, but never managed to do so. The tears streamed down your face as the stone fell of your heart. Everyone made it out alive…

You enjoyed the warm embrace as your legs shook violently. You could feel warm, thick blood streaming down your skin but you tried to ignore it. Soon, everyone pulled away except for one person. You slowly looked up to meet brown, sad eyes staring down at you. You gave Lucas a weak smile before a sobbing sound escaped his lips, pulling you tight against his chest. Your blood immediately soaked his vest but he didn’t care (probably didn’t even notice, oops).

You inhaled the last traces of his parfume as you closed your tired eyes, your grip around his neck weakening.

“I forgive you.”

And then Lucas’ whisper became muted as you lost your consciousness, and the world went black.

***

You were awaken by the sound of heart machine and warm, soft bed.

You opened your eyes, only to be greeted by blurred, light coloured vision. The first thing you noticed, was the pain in your shoulder and the storm thundering in your head. You tried to not cry as you brushed your fingers against the wound, the pain washing over your body.

The second thing you noticed were the needles in your arms. You pushed down the urgue to vomit at this, since you were not exactly really good with needles.

And the last thing you noticed, was a warm body lying next to you and a slender hand wrapped around your waist. You blinked once, twice, until the vision unblurred itself and became clear. Turning your head, you were greeted by well gelled dark hair (but seriously, how is his hair so perfect after all of THAT?!). You managed to smile weakly as you noticed Lucas was sleeping peacefully next to you, his face expression calm as he slept. Your legs were wrapped around his tand you could feel his breath slowly blowing against your skin, making shivers run down your spine.

You couldn’t help yourself but notice the dirt on this boy’s beautiful, flawless face. His face was now soaked in already dry tears, what made your heart stop and breath stuck in your throat.

With healthy hand, you slowly reached out to coup his face, ignoring the warning pain coming from needles. You placed your palm against his smooth cheek weakly, and with your thumb brushed off the little bit of dirt. As soon as your hand made a contact with his skin, his eyes snapped open in shock as the tears formed themselves in the corners of his eyes again. His glasses were nowhere on his face to be seen.

“Hey shh don’t cry…” you whisper, only to be disgusted by your hoarse voice that was so quiet you wondered if the boy even heard it.

Lucas pulled you in warm embrace again, his hand that was wrapped around your waist pulled you closer, pressing your body against his so tightly as if he wanted to make sure there was no gap between you two. You winced but ignored the pain as your hand ran up to the back of his head, your fingers running through his hair.

“Easy…” you mumbled quietly, not able to say it any louder. “I am not made of your hair gel..” You said sarcastically as you chuckled saddly, closing your eyes.

“I thought I was going to lose you…” you heard him mumble softly as he burried his face in your neck, inhaling deeply. “..also I am so–”

“Lucas, it’s alright. The drug addiction is hard to get over with… I promise we’ll find a way out of it… together.”

There was a quiet silence in the room before you heard a faint whisper coming from your lover. “There’s no way out.”

Feeling attacked, you suddenly decided to change the topic. “Why are you in my bed? Did nurse actually allow that?”

“Actually no. They separated us all. No one was too badly injuried except for you though… and Noah who died– a-anyways, I insisted I needed to see you.”

“Did it work?”

“No, but here I am, right?”

You chuckled quietly, closing yor eyes again as you let yourself relax against Lucas’ embrace. “I still cannot believe it’s finally over.” You muttered quietly, not opening your eyes again.

Lucas was awfully quiet in the embrace, and you suddenly felt very uncomfortable with yourself. Did I say something wrong?

“Lucas, what’s wro–”

“Do you really think it’s over?” He cut you off with trembling voice. You pulled away from the embrace to meet his eyes which were puffy red, as if he cried for hours and hours. The sight made you feel guilty because he probably cried because of you. “Love… I don’t want to scare you but… just now shit begins. But for a change, in our minds.”

“What do you mean by that?” You cocked your head in confusion.

Lucas bit his lip uneasily, tearing his eyes off you. “Dan suffered from really bad…PTSD just because the traumatical experience we had as kids…” he trailed off again, closimg his eyes and taking big breath. You place your healthy arm on his, drawing in circles as you try to calm him down. “What kind of mental illnesses are we going to suffer from after all of this..?”

You didn’t know how to answer on that. You knew to list all possible mental illnesses that could appear after this experience and you were afraid to even think about it.

“Lucas… if we’re really going to… I promise I’ll be here for you. And for all of our friends.” You smiled at him as you squeezed his hand, lacing your fingers with his warm ones. Lucas met your gaze once again and you got lost in those chocolate eyes for millionth time. Something warm gripped your heart and you began to feel all warm and fuzzy; of course Lucas noticed as he smiled back at you in amusment before a faint laugh escaped his light lips. You kept staring at his face even after the laugh was long gone.

He suddenly leant in before pressing his soft lips agains yours. You automatically closed your eyes as you smiled against his lips, kissing him back weakly with dizzy feeling running through your head. His lips were warm as yours were cold as ice and everytime those two meet, a spark would light up between you two and you would melt into him every single time. He kissed you again and again as he pulled your waist closer to him, carefully not to hurt you on any way possible. Your hand ran through boy’s hair as the other one stayed perfectly still on its position because the wound. However, even though your head and shoulder were screaming in pain, Lucas lips were like a drug that would make all the pain go away, and you could never get enough of it. You desperately wanted more and more as you could feel his warm hands running down the skin on your waist under your white shirt hospital had probably gave you.

For a moment, those soft poisonous lips pulled away and you opened your eyes, already ready to protest but you were quickly cut off by Lucas’ voice. “You know, back there, once when I was pulled out of that house… I thought I would ever get a chance to taste your lips again.”

“Cheesy.” You grinned, leaning in again.

There’s no way out.

END OF PT. 1

I realized it would be better to make two parts of it just in case your brain suddenly overheat… DON’T WORRY I WILL POST PART TWO WHOOPS.

I still don’t know how this thing works :]

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jimintoxication · 7 years

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tagged by @cha-inyeon thanks for tagging me you cutie ;u;

a) Always post the rules. Answer the questions asked then write 11 new ones b) Tag 11 people and link them to the post. Tell the person who tagged you that you’ve answered their questions.

1. Favorite boy group choreography?

Oh man this is hard...how am i supposed to choose??? idk if i’d say it’s my favorite but i can always go back and watch knk’s knock choreo video. but honestly i’m super bad at remembering what a group’s choreo looks like cause i space out a lot when i watch them

2. Favorite girl group choreography?

ughhhldakfjsd this is also super hard, can i just say that i like all of twice’s choreo?? cause they’re always super cute and fun!!! ooh also gfriend has some great choreo

3. When did you get into kpop?

I think it was like the end of 8th grade??? which was like end of 2008/beginning of 2009 so it’s been like nine years now lmao

4. Do you watch anime? If so, what’s your favorite?

I used to watch anime a lot before!!! my favorite....oh man that’s so hard i can’t really choose alskdjfa oh i loved rurouni kenshin tho also fruits basket keeps coming to mind

5. Favorite book?

Harry Potter series oh and also this book by Diana Peterfreund called For Darkness Shows the Stars

6. Favorite movie?

uhhhh the avengers?? i’ve watched that one many times

7. Who’s your ultimate kpop bias, and why?

oh dear i am not good with words..but my ultimate kpop bias is none other than Park Jimin from BTS. he became my ult after i saw them live for the first time at their Red Bullet tour in NYC in 2015 and like he was always my bias in bts but i didn’t realize how much i loved him till that concert. i guess it was just smth about seeing him in person and experiencing his stage presence in person that changed everything. it’s so hard to explain tho??? like i just look at him and all i can think of is how much i love him and want him to be happy and see him smiling all the time and all this mushy gushy crap. also he’s just the cutest sweetest little peach who loves his members so much and he’s so talented and beautiful and caring yet he’s also a little shit too but i love him no matter what and this is getting super long so i should stop before i start babbling nonsense about how much i love his smile and his eyes cause they’re two different sizes and it just makes me weak rip

8. So far, what do you think was the best comeback or debut of 2017?

so far my biased ass says BTS because Spring Day is such a beautiful song and the mv was so nice too and also Not Today is a jam and the dance is fantastic. debut-wise i dont think i’ve paid much attention to any yet ;; but i am excited for kard’s debut!!!

9. What’s your favorite thing about where you live?

my favorite thing about where i live is my mom and dad :) ok but talking seriously i think it might be the snow because i love winter and snow so much but ALSO garbage plates too cause those are delicious and i know they don’t sound appetizing but they’re good trust me (spoiler: it’s not a plate full of garbage!!)

10. Dream vacation destination?

oooh well i’ve always wanted to go to France, especially Paris cause i wanna see the eiffel tower and the louvre and i just think France has always seemed like a beautiful country to go to and just sightsee everywhere

11. What’s one kpop song that is really underrated, but that you love and just can’t get enough of?

RAINY DAY BY TOPP DOGG!!!!!! it’s just so beautiful and different from all their other stuff they’ve done and i really want people to give it a chance especially those who weren’t into their old stuff (but honestly how could you not love their old stuff???)

My questions will be:

1. Who are your top 5 favorite kpop male voices?

2. Who are your top 5 favorite kpop female voices?

3. Favorite MV (kpop or anything)?

4. If you could have an unlimited supply of anything (except money sorry) what would it be and why?

5. What’s your favorite animal?

6. If you could choose one male idol to be your brother, who would it be and why?

7. If you could choose one female idol to be your sister, who would it be and why?

8. What’s your favorite dessert?

9. Do you prefer a vocalist, dancer, or rapper?

10. What would you do if you saw your bias or a member of your fave group in person?

11. What’s a song you like to listen to when you’re down?

Tagging: @rnyungsooo @bangboys @satansonyeondan @yoojinluv @peperoprincess and idk who else to tag rip

#tagged #cha inyeon #thanks for tagging me!!!!#i'm sorry it's taking a thousand years for me to do all this stuff #im just lazy and i forget #t

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