Fic title “I tried”
Sam spins around the doorway and feels like she can finally breathe for the first time all night. Her sister had been missing for hours, upset and borderline hysterical when she ran from the twins, but she’s finally found her.
Whatever it is, whatever’s wrong, Sam can fix it. She's here now.
Her sister is huddled in the corner of some stranger's bedroom, music thumping up from the floor below. The room isn’t lit, brightened only by the light of the hallway from the open door, but something tells Sam this is nothing short of deliberate. Tara's face is hidden behind her hair and turned away, but Sam doesn't need to see the figure’s face to know it's her sister.
Bright pink boots stand out in the darkness with recognisable peeling stickers on the toes. There’s the glint of a bracelet around her wrist, a carefully selected gift from Sam herself, given this past Christmas and decorated with a unique selection of charms.
And who else would go to a party only to hide away somewhere dark and alone, except someone who knows they shouldn’t be there at all?
Besides, Sam has always known her sister. Even if she doesn’t know herself.
She steps into the room, pushing the door closed behind her, left open only by a crack. Hey, she whispers into the dark.
Her greeting is answered only by the shuffle of feet against the carpet as the figure huddles themself tighter, like she could become less visible if only she made herself smaller.
Sam has no choice but to take it as an invitation, dropping herself down next to her sister, leaving no space between them. She presses her arm against her, hoping she takes as much comfort from the contact as Sam would herself.
They sit there together in silence for minutes, before Tara can take it no longer.
“I tried,” she whispers, gaze fixed on her fingers, shaking and wrapped around a bottle nestled into her lap. “I really really tried.”
Sam drops her head to Tara’s shoulder, desperate to comfort her but not knowing where to start, what she needs.
“I know,” she murmurs softly. She wonders which Tara’s referring to – the exam she failed, the avoidance and running, the refusal to pick up her phone, or the drinking habit she’d been trying to quit. She wonders if Tara even knows herself.
It doesn’t matter. Sam’s here to help her through it all. Her sister will never have to struggle alone, not while Sam breathes.
She reaches out for the bottle in Tara’s hands and slides it free. Expensive, and out of place at this last-minute frat party.
This isn’t the first place Tara has stopped at tonight, Sam thinks.
Dropping it beside her, she reaches back to tilt her sister’s face towards her. Her eyes are red and puffy, tear tracks shining on her face. She’d been crying for a while, it feels a lot like a noose around her neck to know Tara thought she had to deal with this pain alone.
Tara’s lip shakes as her eyes well with fresh tears. “I don’t know what to do,” she cries.
In an instant, Sam is upright and pulling her sister into her lap. “We’ll figure it out, my love,” she promises. “You’re not alone.”
Tara clings onto her sister, fingers digging tightly into her back.
“I fucked up, I really fucked up Sam.”
“There is nothing you can do that we can’t fix, together.
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I've finally been playing more of the CotL Sins of the Flesh update (I was gonna stream it but my twitch is On Hold bc work/health stuff came up lol) and it's so much fun and also a little bit broken for me lmao. I accidentally damned Hallows to hell and she came back with all her sprites reversed so she was moonwalking everywhere and refused to look at me when I talked to her so I had to rekill, re-revive, and restart the game to fix her again and it's very fun. My first introduction to kids in the game was when two mammals (a bunny and a deer) had a dripping wet bug creature baby which wasn't a glitch but did catch me extremely off guard. Also I like the drinking mechanic way more than I thought I would!! They're very cute and it also means I get to see my girlfriend's avatar drunkenly beat Paul Blart 2 to death with her bare hands while everyone in the town square laughs. Plus I love making silly little outfits even if I'm really really really fucking bad at timing minigames :]
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Are au's where Belos is "good" or get's a redemption an insult / offensive to abuse victims?
I don’t think so. I’m going to share an example of something similar that happened in my family for an explanation.
My dad grew up with a pretty terrible alcoholic for a father. He would yell, hit his family, and threaten them. A couple times the police were called from what I heard. One of the stories he ever told me specifically was when my dad was young. My grandfather threw a mug at him from across the room, and it hit him in the head. Dad still has the scar from that, and it was forty years ago.
In short, it was hellish and incredibly unsafe. My dad got himself out of there, put himself through college, and did a lot of really amazing things.
When dad was older, my grandfather started going to alcoholic support groups and therapy so he could work on his addiction. He was able to go to my parents’ wedding, and was an actual part of my dad’s life again. When he died, he was more than twenty years sober, and my dad speaks fondly of him.
If people can change that way in real life, I don’t understand how it could be harmful to depict it in fiction. It would need to be done carefully, because abuse is a complicated situation. It doesn’t always get better, and people don’t always redeem themselves from that.
But it’s possible, and I find it heartening to read.
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sorry if you’ve done anything similar to this, but what about HCs for getting wine drunk with the papas? could be spicy or silly! ty ty ilysm!
I need a little silly in my life, so I did some wine drunk shenanigans! Hope you enjoy! <3
Minor Tag Warning for Alcohol and Drunkeness
Reader Getting Wine Drunk with the Papas!! (Ambiguous relationship)
Papa Nihil: Nihil isn't a big wine drinker, but he won't say no to wine with dinner or a good movie. The easiest way to get him to want a wine is watching a movie while you eat some good old authentic italian pasta. Nihil claims he can't eat pasta without it! It's always a red wine and an older horror movie. You can't beat the classics! But you have a good time every time you get wine drunk. The wine turns you both in Mystery Science Theatre, and you do nothing but laugh and comment on any and everything about the movie! Sometimes the wine makes you do something crazy, like try to play a board game! But the night always ends the same. All the food and drinks gone and you both just chatting until you fall asleep. It's always safe and cozy, even when you wake up hung over. Though the wine is always blamed for when suddenly Nihil is getting billed for several new movie streaming services he can't remember signing up for.
Papa I: Neither of you were TRYING to become drunk. It started innocently enough! There had been too many complaints about the Unholy Communion wines tasting awful. The Siblings of Sin were not shy in requesting something more decadent and easier to stomach. You and Papa, on your insistence, decided to find something to start using Clergy wide. In your mind it was a fun time to try all the fancy drinks with your favorite person! Papa was more happy to indulge you and just wanted to solve this as quickly as possible. But you are a bad influence. Convincing him it was a waste to do a traditional wine tasting! So after many glasses neither of you found the perfect communion wine... instead you found yourselves laughing on his couch. Trying to have unserious philosophical discussions through slurred speech. Papa admits it's the type of fun he needs outside of his brooding and serious ministry duties. Imagine your surprise when he invites you over again. This time to share a bottle just for you two!
Papa II: You were never a big wine drinker until you became close to the second Emeritus. Papa has the most well stocked wine cellar you have ever seen! Many people forget that under his classy and collected exterior is a man who loves to party! Or at least unwind and let go. So every once in a while he will ask you to pick something for dinner, or if you just want to sit and drink with him. Most of the time it's in his music room where you put in vinyls and just sink into the expensive sofa. You find he's much more talkative when properly drunk, and more willing to have fun. There have been many times Papa has decided that being drunk is the perfect time to teach you how to dance! You've fallen a few times, but both of you always laugh it off and go back to finding a good song to listen to! You always enjoy the looser side of Papa! The man who drunkingly explains the rise and fall of the Beatles in the music industry. Or he enjoys the way you cried once because you found your favorite song on one of his albums, and insisted he put it on repeat.
Papa III: Now THIS is when you both get the best gossiping time! It's actually a biweekly ritual you two share when you both have the time! Wine bottles out, the charcuterie boards full, and both of you ready to blow off steam! Life is so stressful, so why not find time to have a good wine with the best company? It always starts the same. One of you raging about the current annoyance in your life, and the other popping open a cork and pouring your glasses full. It usually starts with both of you venting, to both of you chatting, to both of you laughing your asses off about nothing. Sometimes you get drunken ideas, like rearranging the furniture that neither of you can move! Other times you decide you need a late night take out run (DRIVEN BY A GHOUL OF COURSE) and come back with bags full of fast food. This last time you both woke up to Papa's closet sloppily 'organized'. the only clue being a Marie Kondo video on your phone, and all of his socks in a basket. It's always in good fun!
Papa IV/Cardinal Copia: When it comes to wine, you and Copia always promise yourselves 'one glass'. But sometimes, you just need a whole bottle or two. You both agreed it's not that you NEED wine to unwind; but it's nice to indulge once in a while. So the times you do get drunk off of wine, it's planned and thought out. Copia will select the best bottles he can for the night, and you get the best dinner or snacks to pair with it. You always do a quick glass cheers to each other and have at it! Like with Terzo, sometimes you just need to gossip or vent. Other times it's to unwind and NOT think about the day. Others it's to celebrate and find something fun to do! You've both woken up from your two person party wearing expensive lamp shades! This is one of the few times you both get into mischief together! Terrorizing the gardens at night, or finding your way into Copia's office to fuck around with his paper work. Anything to keep you two occupied! Your favorite time so far had been turning his office into a miniature club with strobe lights and his lava lamp collection. You were both pretty bewildered when you saw the mess you made the next day!
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I found this reaction to 5sos5 and it provided a new perspective on what the album could be about: https://youtu.be/OELCdhmi2io?si=3kLmP0fP2S3-VSWB
Wait wait wait I'm sorry but having shit like caramel be about the color of some hard licors and the comedown of getting sober is kinda mind-blowing. You add that to tracks like ydgtp and red line and tears and bloodhound even bleach and efyts and have that be about you fighting yourself and themes like addiction and alcoholism actually adds a whole new layer of interpretations about the songs. I think you can actually contextualize most of the song on the album around this and OH MY GOD. I'm legit staring at the wall trying to formulate something more coherent but he legit broke me. The whole motif of running around in circles trying to chase something you cant find anymore applied to trying to find the person you felt like you were when drinking or getting high was fun and made you feel good but now every time you crash, you crash harder so you try to stay away but you keep relapsing is actually fascinating. And it works? "When I lived between the bars" "it's hard to fake when I'm not faded" "I guess that's why I'm always high" "all my friends are up in mars... another lonely night" the entirety of bloodhound??? Like legit I'm sitting here 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯 thank you so much for sending this, will be thinking about it forever.
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