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cassjackson-22 · 8 months

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Moved from @cassie-writes-things

Tagging everyone following my old writing account which I will no longer be using at all or deactivating. Still haven't decided which one I'll be using. I literally have missed you all so much though!

Hi everyone, long time no see! I'm back and better than ever though on this account. Having multiple emails just got to be a bit too much. I'm still very much Cassidy Jackson, a STEM major who writes realistic fiction as well as dystopian now. I'm a year older, maybe a year wiser and back to bring you full force into me taking over writeblr (I'd never do this, there are too many amazing writers out there!)

Will follow you all from @cassieschaosdimension asap if I don't follow you already. This is purely my writing blog. I will take dms and asks later tomorrow about where I've been and how I am. Feel free to vibe. I am hopefully going to bed soon.

@annlillyjose, @shaonsim, @ashe-hallow, @sparklyeevee,@writing-with-I, @illuminatedmoth, @lend-your-lungs-to-me, @sleepy-night-child, @arsenwormwood, @silassghost, @insidedamienshead, @cometkov, @drippingmoon, @talesofsorrowandofruin, @all-my-dreams-and-ambitions, @solcomfortssouls, @ficsinhistory, @splashinkling, @wildswrites, @freyawinther, @tripppedintoa-volcano, @isherwoodj, @monstrouswrites, @dadaaesthetic, @the-young-and-forgotten, @damhalfblood, @nights-withhoney, @enchantingbluebirdpeace, @natalieironside, @creaturress, @werehamburglar, @nallthatjazz, @queenravenwood, @that-girl-in-grey-again, @rinatthemin, @daughter-of-sunshine, @ryns-ramblings, @emwhyarentyouwriting, @arigalefantasynovels, @adie-dee, @primroseprime2019, @jaquessayshello, @caspia-writes, @cwritesfiction, @joyfulpolicehologram, @xanindigo

#cassie rambles about writing #moved accounts #hi everyone again #missed you all #please bear with me while i attempt to figure this out again #if i missed people please forgive tis late am tired #moving blogs is hard work #i will not use the blog in the header of this post #please read it #feel free to ignore if not tagged

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eddiebabygirldiaz · 8 months

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transitioning from a job where it was safe for me to be out and was affirmed every day due to the use of my actual name and pronouns to a job where it isn't safe for me to be out and am constantly deadnamed and misgendered is one hell of an experience

#and it sucks because the job is good and i think ill like it #but i cant be me and am stuck back in this mold that i had to fight so hard to allow myself to step out of #i want to change my name legally but again not in a safe place to do so yet especially since its such a small town #and the court i would have to go through is full of people that know me and my family and can and will make life difficult for me #so yeah fucking sucks #ryan rambles #personal #feel free to ignore i just needed to rant

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sga-owns-my-soul · 4 months

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lol my mom just texted me merry christmas and asked how i've been and i'm about to fucking break down completely on public transit bc of it!!!!

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whumpy-wyrms · 4 months

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can someone just like spam me with tllr things you want me to draw. can be anything i just neeeed motivationnn

#wyrms says stuff #speaking of asks #i should PROBABLY answer them shouldn’t i #i’m not ignoring u guys i’m just lazy or busy or i forgor #it’s weird i have soooo many wips but when my art has a deadline i can finish it EASY and FAST #(i did an art secret santa yesterday and i finished mine in 4 hours ON the due date and even though i finished it at the last second #it turned out AWESOME. and i drew so much cool stuff during art fight in only a few hours. but when it comes to my ocs or fanart #i’m just slow without a deadline) so guys. honest to glob just threaten me in my ask box.#i wanna get all my cool tllr art wips done but i have no motivation!!! feel free to threaten me with a deadline. or something else #in fact just scream at me to finish chapter 12 i actually work very very well under pressure you guys #anyway i don’t know what im rambling about. its just me procrastinating drawing/writing again isn’t it #OH SHIT I JUST REMEMBERED MY GOOSE CAME IN TJE MAIL

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scrawnytreedemon · 7 months

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Is it so bad that I don't really like ships of characters I simp and I only like the reader insert fics with them?

Yeah I can't deny I'm jealous of the canon x canon ships with my faves, knowing that they possibly can be together while I can't. I know it's dumb,so that's why I never hate on someone who likes those ships I just ignore it

Like Sefikura for example, I don't like it cuz I'm a massive hoe for Sephiroth,also bcuz sometimes they make the ship pretty icky,also bcuz Cloud is baby and I'm still angy at Sephy for mentally torturing my Babyboy like that

IT'S CHAOS WITH MY FICTIONAL FAVES!!!!!!

Nothing wrong with that, personally! I get wanting to indulge in the warmth of a good fantasy-- That is what alot of fiction is for, after all.

Bless you, anon. Alas, as someone also plagued with my own Dumb and Horrid Fictional Feelings, the brain can be such a little bitch when it comes to that stuff. Good on you for recognising how and why you feel that way, ignoring the stuff you don't like and focusing on what you do.

LMAO I get that completely. I should mention, though, that I am one of those people who indulges in the nastier side of the ship, lmaooo. Even so, I get why it wouldn't click with you.

(FR when is it not?)

#scrawny rambles #scrawny answers #ty for your letter anon <3 #completely different tangent aside from yours #very introspective stuff ahead feel free to ignore you know the deal #i have alot of respect for selfshippers #considering my sisters kicked me out of the habit very early on and i've been Mortified ever since #but man... i think if i want an reader!fic i can jive with i'd have to write my own #once again no shade to the writers you guys keep living it up #but alot of it ends up being 'i would NOT say that' for mehgkjfgdjh #GOD i remember this ghirahimxreader fic i read ages ago #and at some point y/n's parents show up as yiga #and i'm like. what father. I HAVE NO FATHER. or i have two. it fucking depends. both absent either way.#POINT IS i think there are alot of ways my life and cultural experiences differ that if anything makes it *harder* for me to be immersed #also the Shame. but i think that can be overcome. spite my siblings lmaooo.#again anon entirely different thread from yours #just plopping some thoughts here i've had for awhile

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rotten-carcass · 1 year

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Y'all, i am this close to open the flood gates on all my other cringy art and make this Blog a fandom chaos

THIS CLOSE

#I just ramble #Feel free to ignore me #Just back in the feelings again

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natequarter · 1 year

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as humans we like to be able to divide the world clearly into "good" and "bad." in the world we live in this is perfectly fine when it comes to the issue of, say, western european imperialism (quite easy to label as Bad, capital b and all), but i worry it lends itself to a tendency to flatten complex issues down into something more appealing. if western european imperialism (as evinced primarily, to establish precisely what i'm talking about, by the british; the spanish; the portuguese; the french; and the dutch) is definitively bad, so the logic goes, then perhaps imperialism, when done by people who are not western europeans (in the sense that i am using it here, even though, from a geographical perspective, the western roman empire was in part western european) is... not bad. after all, there is good, and there is bad; western european imperialism goes in bad, therefore any opposing force must belong to good.

this is a genuinely convincing logic, because we're human, and to be human is to be fallible. but it's far too simple an idea - that just because someone is not part of a group, they must lack or have a certain moral quality. while painting non-white people out as irrationally/inherently violent is part of racist, colonialist rhetoric, to simply parrot the opposite back at white people does not actually deconstruct said rhetoric in the slightest. to continue on from the perfectly acceptable statement 'western european imperialism is bad' to 'therefore non-western european imperialism is good' is as inane as continuing on with 'therefore there must be something innately barbaric about (the culture of) western europeans.' both rely on faulty leaps of logic and ascribing a fixed moral value to an entire swathe of people, who within them undoubtedly have varying feelings on the actions of their leaders and their group as a whole. worse, neither of them actually challenge the tools of imperialism - if anything they simply further it, by failing to reject in the former case the idea that imperialism is not uniformly bad and in the latter case the idea that there are some people who are simply beyond saving, and therefore there exists a group of people who deserve the violence they are subjected to by virtue of their relation to said group. both are deeply colonialist ideas; to simply turn around and level them at the people who came up with them does not actually achieve anything.

also, dealing in such moral absolutes of 'good' and 'bad' (or, worse, 'evil') is never a good idea; the world is messy and defies such cut-and-dry categorisation. as long as we are alive, we are still capable of change. thanks for reading this post, if you got to the end of it.

#sorry i've been studying the medieval era and early spanish imperialism #and Popular Misconceptions of the Past got to me again #feel free to ignore this is just rambling

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fuzz-onyx · 7 months

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Feeling a little sick to the stomach atm.

I gained the courage to say that I don't need to be part of a thing after a whole year of technically not needing that thing. And during the part where I say I don't need the thing anymore I say that I felt bad cause i felt like I was taking advantage of said thing.

In response to that sentence, the person helping to run the thing said "yeah, true."

And now I feel horrible.

#don't mind me #feel free to ignore #random ramble #vent #the thing was job support #but it was supposed to help me find and adjust to the job #now i feel sick #ugh #fml #wanna die again

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asherasgayagenda · 6 months

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mutuals nice people associated with my blog FRIENDS im coming for u ☆

#its not the 31st yet but lets do this early #if you get a trick or treat message from me and you don't want to feel free to delete/ignore!!!!#is ashe rambling again

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healingheartdogs · 1 year

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Heavy content concerning cancer and euthanasia ahead.

Need to call the vet today. We made a follow up appointment for a month out the last time we went in but I'm thinking that was probably an overly optimistic time frame. When she called to give the cancer screening results she asked us about whether or not we were potentially interested in chemo and we said we needed to talk about it and she told us to take our time and that he should be okay for as long as this round of meds he's on (2 weeks). The swelling in his face, legs, and throat is already back though and he's starting to lose coordination again, although he is still up and being more active so far and walking on his own which he couldn't last week. He's also starting to not want to take his pills but only the antibiotics, he still is taking the three pain meds he's on easily enough. He is especially avoidant of the amoxicillin which I have to give him twice a day and it's becoming a struggle. I think he must have decided it's making him feel bad.

Those few good days after he got antibiotic shots at the vet last week really had me getting hopeful for a moment, but now seeing him start to get sick of his meds and deteriorating again I'm wondering how I could possibly maintain his QOL to put him through chemo. Especially because he is fear reactive, he is a bite risk, he is terrified of the vet office, and he has seizures when he gets stressed out. Our last vet visit was short and sweet and painless so it wasn't so bad for him, but I can't imagine the care required for chemo would be that way. And what would the end goal be? Just keeping him alive longer? From what I've read remission for lymphoma tends to be very temporary, and everyone I know who has lost a dog to lymphoma is telling me they regret prolonging life as long as they did for their dogs.

I keep going through this over and over in my head and talked about it with Selene and we both agree that we have doubts about our ability to keep his QOL up for something like that. Logically, I know what the choice that will cause the least suffering in the long run is. But there's such a loud voice in my head screaming furiously at me that I can't give up on him yet because he wants to live and that if I don't try everything first I'm failing him. I think no matter what choice I make here I'm going to be filled with a crushing amount of regret, either for waiting too long and prolonging suffering or because of all the what ifs of making an earlier decision and the more active role that makes me play in choosing for him to die.

#its almost enough to make me never want to get attached to a short lived domestic animal again #banana #lymphoma #euthanasia #euthanasia tw #cancer tw #my dogs #this is just emotional rambling and talking through things with myself yet again feel free to ignore it

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curious-rabbit · 1 year

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It makes me.happy that Columbo has become a popular tumblr thing because like I love that show, and grew up watching episodes of it with my dad on tv and dvd. Just good times :D

#my dad is largely the reason why i like mystery things #this is just me rambling again feel free to ignore lol

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we-survive-endlessly · 1 year

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Tonight was absolutely terrible (my brother is going through some shit and all my dad will do is harp on him instead of acknowledging how he’s feeling) and ended with my brother punching a wall and leaving.

I feel like I’m always on here complaining so I’m sorry, but I also am too tired to pretend that my home life and mental health are not both in shambles. There is always so much tension in my house and I’m pretty much always on the verge of an anxiety attack. I’m constantly feeling sick, like I’ll straight up forget to eat which makes me feel terrible, but also when I do eat I feel sick most of the time. I would pretty much always rather be asleep because at least my dreams are nice. I have no energy for anything even when I sleep a lot, and I can feel myself wanting to cancel all my plans and just hermit in my room.

#anywho sorry again for being a debbie downer #I promise I’ll get back to reblogging shit and losing my mind over men that live across the globe from me #like feel free to ignore this I just gotta put it somewhere #rae’s ramblings

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do-it-for-the-fandom · 11 months

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A: How did you come up with the title to Maelstrom?

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

P: Are you what George R. R. Martin would call an “architect” or a “gardener”? (How much do you plan in advance, versus letting the story unfold as you go?)

Z: Major character death–do you ever write/read it? Is there a character whose death you can’t tolerate?

A. Let’s see… I heard the word somewhere - I think it was in an old movie or something - and it just kind of stuck in my brain.

I wrote the story Seven for my Like Potpourri… series just for funsies. It was a song prompt, I was playing around with stylistic ideas and had no intention of it going anywhere but I got great feedback for what a posted and a silly little oneshot turned into a 3-parter.

When I was asked (oh so very nicely) to explore the idea further, I sat down and plotted a timeline to try and figure out how I could tie it in with canon as much as possible and I remember thinking to myself “wow, what a cluster fuck!” I knew this story was going to be a whirlpool of chaos and emotion… and that’s when my little brain went ding ding ding! And that is how Maelstrom was born.

N. All of them, preferably. I suck at writing endings. Part of me never wants the story to end and part of me thinks it should have ended a long time ago, you know? I’m a rambler (as we know) and my biggest fear is that my stories will drag on too much which usually leads to me writing rushed endings that I don’t even like.

P. I plan and plan and plan… And then I start writing and my plan goes out the window.

I was kinda like “why bother” but then I wrote a story without a plan and oh my god it was a disaster!

So… I guess I’m in between?

Z. 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀yes🤭

I have a MCD story sitting in my files that I am too scared to post because I know people hate them!

But I love a story that will rip my heart out. Reading them, writing them, talking about them incessantly because HOW DARE YOU but also can you do it again?

It’s gotta be good though. One thing about me is I will read just about anything if it’s done well. And I’m not talking about perfect grammar and punctuation (although that does help) but if your writing flows and pulls me into your world omg I will read whatever you want me to, darling! 😏

#ask game #just me rambling again #feel free to ignore #answered #fanfic #castle fandom

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thatfaerieprincess · 2 years

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#friends I can not stop coughing #I know I’ve been joking that I’ll have this cough until it becomes pneumonia #but I’m like genuinely not joking #every few days I feel like maybe im starting to loosen something up #but then it goes back to this right dry cough and I can’t catch my breath #cough drops barely help #water barely helps #i just cough constantly #to absolutely no end #the only solace rn is that I don’t have a rattle when I breath #but deeps breaths make me cough again #so it is what it is #idk I’m just rambling here bc it satisfies the desire to complain to someone without having to direct this at someone specifically #so feel free to ignore #I’ll stop coughing eventually probably #im a rambling sam

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caruliaa · 1 year

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yes offense actually but like "uuhmm this trans headcanon doesnt make SENSE though" has always been one of just. the most inane takes in fandom ever like. assuming the person making it is someone whos otherwise an ally to trans people/not transphobic (just because with people who are transphobic that an issue thats obviously much bigger than just fandom stuff) whyy !! do you give a shit !!! like why !!! like bla bla i understand if you dont think the idea of that character being trans makes sense or you think something is canon contradicts it or you dont think its in character whatever it is you dont have to hc them as trans if you dont see them as trans you can even talk about how you think theyre cis if you want but like. its literally not hard to just not treat people who do have those trans headcanons as if theyre wrong or that their interpretation of the character is stupid/something to be mocked or act as though your superior for not reading them that way like. even if that doesnt come from a place of transphobia you will inevitably read that way to some people and regardless like. who gives a shit if someone is seeing themselves within a character/reading that character the way they want to esp in regards to a group of people with such a pitiful lack of positive representation as trans people. like get over yourself

#^^^^^ what my last post was about. i told u it wld b very obvious tht these ppl were in the wrong #(and i wonder why i was afraid to have any opinion on this show around these mutual in laws. jfc)#anyway like. please read this and like. consider it esp if you know who im talking about bc i feel like they received very little pushback #for acting that way and like. im not saying go give them that pushback do whatever u want im j saying pls consider tht that attitude #is wrong and like. You Should Not Mock Trans Headcanons as basic as that feels to say #sorry if im being like. mean or harsh or whatever tihs is just something i see as so like. fucked like why r acting that way !!!#abt trans ppl seeing themselves in characters they like !!! bc a lot of the time thats the 'reason' behind these trans hcs !!!l #i feel like my mutuals who arent from [REDACTED] fandom r gonna see this and b like what kind of ppl did u have to deal w and yk what #if i keep thinking about it ill start being mad at someone other than them who i really dont want to b mad at abt this again so lets move o #anyway this post is okay to rb btw its not just meant to b abt the ppl im kinda vauging #bc ik this is a phenomena in many fandoms and its just stupid. and downright cruel once it reaches mocking ppl #so feel free to ignore me nd j rb this and go of about ppl being stupid in whatever fandom ur in in the tags #let of some steam god knows i have plenty to let of thinking abt tihs phenomena. anyway time to be normal hopefully.#flappy rambles

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astrxealis · 1 year

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sometimes i think of scenarios in my head with my ocs and then sometimes for happy brain i kinda crossover them with my favorite medias atm and also insert myself in bcs i like being self-indulgent and yeah my brain is so fucked up that i just keep repeating the same first bits and can't get far in thinking and i end up just having my s/i ramble my thoughts and it's hard to explain but yeah but anyways it's interesting thinking about who or what my ocs would like in video games or colors or whatever because all my ocs seem to reflect a certain part of me and i can get into the psychology of that but also its hard to explain my thoughts but also anyways yeah i find it interesting thinking about who my ocs would kin

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#feel free to just ignore me oopsies i am just rambling but yeah i love my ocs so much #sorry besties you are all subject once more to my brainrots and rambles and random thoughts now that i am on tumblr rn #my brain is very interesting to me and the way i think but also i can't properly think in such a way and i find it really hard to explain #and i'm such a mess but also man i don't know and i'm going off-track and god i love vgm so much and i don't want to do homework #but anyways back to the goddamn point !!! so my oc merle. i have little crossover thoughts in my head right and i realize #he's similar with akira and then it makes sense as to why i like characters like akira and it's a little woa fr bcs #the way i imagine merle is really similar to akira actually but with a more purple color scheme (but still dark) and he doesn't wear #glasses (at least. wait. actually. i don't really know anymore) GOD my mind never stops but yeah uhm yeah #i think humans are so unbelievably interesting and it's all just so fascinating and and and #also i've awakened to the fact i really like sharks i think they're very cute! i still prefer dolphins though #people who hurt animals make me really angry and sad... i think about it and already want to cry #i have never had a pet but my grandparents had lots and it's funny how memory works. i forgot they once had a pet turtle #until something in a school group project involved my group involving a pet turtle in our storyline for something #and then i remember that past. my past. once again. and clearly even! and... yeah #but yeah... i know i will never abandon my pet if ever i do get a pet. or pets. i would never do that and i really know this is a fact with #all my heart but what's stopping me from getting a pet is that i need to take better care of myself first and learn how to take care of #pets! i think where i live there's actually an opportunity for me to do so. i'll try to see more about that. and hmm... this is a really #busy year for school. and then the next. and then tbh everything onwards from 2023 so... i don't want to put time to something #i'm not even sure if i can really make time for. but. i think i really do want a pet! a dog esp. but also a cat. but a dog esp #bcs i've always wanted one !! i know when it comes to something i really want i am very dedicated and passionate #like how i already calculated xiv expenses months before actually got the game? and planned how me and lune would do things too #and then because i want to handle money better and take note of all that i yeah and yeah and yeah im tired of typing now BYE #will now disappear again after rambling quite a lot ^__^ maybe? maybe not? who knows!#my thoughts are so. whack. wack? idk. but uhm yeah it went from ocs to sharks to pets to money and idk huh #man w some things i'm really shy about being perceived or asked about. like my ocs. egbhebgjhbjehs ;;;;;#and people being nice to me T__T sorry i rlly appreciate it but i can't really comprehend it and my coping mechanism is avoidance

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