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snorlax-and-co · 3 months
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wearequantum · 3 months
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1. hyperfixate on system
2. start to categorize system and take notes
3. become dissociated and blurry for __ hours
4. repeat steps 1 thru 3 until desired results
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subsystems · 1 year
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Things that can happen in DID/OSDD but people don’t talk about them as much:
An alter being co-conscious or influencing you without you knowing.
Being aware of a co-con alter but not knowing who they are.
Having difficulty telling apart your inner experiences. (Was that an alter or was I just feeling differently or was I just daydreaming?)
Having difficulty identifying your own emotions. (I feel “something”)
Knowing how to do something yet feeling like you don’t or shouldn’t know how to do it. (How do I know how to use this phone? I feel like it’s 1998 when I didn’t know what a phone was yet.)
Being in a familiar place/situation yet feeling confused, like it’s unfamiliar. (I’ve lived in this house for 7 years but I feel like this is my first time ever being in it.)
Being confused that your body is smaller/taller than you thought.
Feeling or being unable to do things that you normally can do at other times. (I just couldn’t drive the other day. I don’t know how. I just forgot how to do it.)
Things that happened a few days ago feel like months ago, or things that happened months ago feel like a few days ago.
Experiencing pain, headaches, visual impairment, or other physical symptoms that doctors can’t find a cause for.
Waking up as a different alter than the one who went to bed.
A co-conscious alter being able to influence or take control of certain body parts (like using the arms to hold & comfort you).
Being unable to tell if you’re dreaming or awake.
Feel free to add on!
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justanothersyscourse · 11 months
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Hi! On anon for my safety, but I saw the ISSTD tweeted smth on the etiology of DID and I wanted to know your thoughts on it? Mostly for processing’s sake as well, as I can struggle with understanding studies now and then
The link to the paper! http://ow.ly/r40x30mZF79
The paper is Revisiting the etiological aspects of dissociative identity disorder: a biopsychosocial perspective. A very good one that I recommend to anyone interested in the causation of DID! I don't think I can do it justice if I tried to summarize the entire thing, so I'll just write down some bullet points of things I found interesting:
What is DID?: 
DID is a complex, posttraumatic, developmental disorder that is caused by trauma in childhood (usually very early childhood).
What causes DID?:
DID arises when a child’s ability to develop an ordinary sense of self in relation to others is impeded by unintegrated trauma.
Emotional neglect by parents and/or siblings is the strongest predictor of DID (and any other dissociative disorder).
More covert trauma such as dysfunctional communication in families or subtle emotional neglect can lead to milder presentations DID.
DID VS PTSD:
Switching between alters is considered to be a more elaborated version of PTSD intrusions & avoidance.
People with PTSD & DID generally experience the same amount of feeling shame, betrayal, self-blame, anger and fear.
People with DID tend to experience more feelings of alienation, loneliness, and disconnection than people with PTSD.
DID VS normal experiences:
The human mind is naturally made up of multiple interconnected “modes” that make up their whole self.
Trauma & dissociation causes modes to become decoupled and start existing in smaller, isolated pockets.
In DID, the modes have become so disconnected that individual modes start functioning as if they, independently from each other, are the whole self.
In a non-DID brain, new modes are always being created and old modes are always being updated.
In DID, this process is impaired. New modes are created in a disjointed way, and old modes don't get updated correctly if at all.
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diaryofthelapine · 10 months
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healing from trauma is such an ordeal god made ita group project
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sysmedsaresexist · 7 months
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could you maybe explain emotional neglect? I am questioning OSDD and don't know what counts as emotional neglect (especially when physical neglect isn't present)
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Emotional neglect is a form of child abuse.
Emotional neglect can be defined as a relationship pattern in which an individual’s affectional needs are consistently disregarded, ignored, invalidated, or unappreciated by a significant other or caregiver.
When this type of abuse occurs in childhood, it can lead to significant disruption to mental growth, health, and behaviour in adulthood.
Emotional neglect is the main cause of complex PTSD.
I really, really like the way this therapist writes about it. It's clear, easy to read and understand, and points out a lot of the nuance in experiencing and spotting emotional neglect.
"Many people who experienced Childhood Emotional Neglect (CEN) describe their childhood as “good” and it’s only on closer examination that they recognize that something important was missing."
"Significant, but invisible, damage is done when parents fail to meet their children’s emotional needs. Childhood Emotional Neglect is the result of your parent’s inability to validate and respond adequately to your emotional needs. Childhood emotional neglect can be hard to identify because it’s what didn’t happen in your childhood. It doesn’t leave any visible bruises or scars, but it’s hurtful and confusing for children."
"Many people who experienced Childhood Emotional Neglect grew up in families without obvious dysfunction. They weren’t beaten or belittled. Their parents were well-meaning but lacked the emotional skills themselves to notice and tend to their children’s feelings. Such parents never learned to cope with their feelings or express them in healthy ways and don’t know how to deal with their children’s feelings either."
"When your emotional needs aren’t met and your internal state isn’t acknowledged, you’ll be disconnected from yourself. You will constantly seek attention and try to prove your worth through clingy or needy behaviors, perfectionism, overworking, and achievements. But these external validations never fix the problem; they never leave you feeling good enough."
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adviceforsystems · 1 year
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Realizing that experiences or memories you thought were okay were actually traumatic is incredibly upsetting.
It's not your fault for not realizing sooner - in fact, that was your brain's way of protecting you from it. It's okay if you're struggling with denial, anger, pain, disgust, guilt or anything else whilst figuring this out.
Give yourself the space and time you need to process what you've discovered; whatever it is, it is valid, it was "bad enough", and healing is possible.
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ed-recoverry · 2 months
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dinosaursindisarray · 4 months
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No one will ever really know how hard we've worked just to be in this world, to undo the damage that was done to us.
But we'll know. And that just might be enough.
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pluraldeepdive · 1 year
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This is the initial survey for my project to spread awareness about the diversity of systems! Please consider taking it or reblogging! More info under the read more.
It seems like a lot of people were interested in this project so I decided to take a stab at it! Creating a huge collage of personal experiences would be a really cool way to spread awareness but of course I need to collect personal experiences from the community, first.
I decided to start small and focus on a few topics that I think are often misunderstood or overlooked: nonhuman system members, introjects/fictives/factives, and fragments. Even if you don't experience any of these, please consider checking out the survey! There are still a couple questions that anyone can answer.
Now, about the project... I'm thinking we have two routes here. It can either be a website or a full on e-magazine. If it's a website, maybe it can be like one of the layouts below?
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Regardless, I can only make this project with the help of the community. Please consider taking the survey!
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rott3nmutt · 3 months
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"you're faking DID" light work, no reaction
"you should support endos" light work, no reaction
"I don't wanna talk to you, I wanna talk to [headmates name]" ah-awh it's got a little kick to it 😀
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snorlax-and-co · 5 months
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wearequantum · 8 months
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I saw this splash screen on Minecraft and it made me giggle
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subsystems · 5 months
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If you were hurt by another child in your childhood, I want you to know that you aren’t alone.
If you experienced COCSA (child on child sexual abuse), I’m here for you. If you were bullied by other children, I support you. If another child committed any sort of violence or abuse onto you, I believe you. If it was a family member, a friend, or someone who you trusted a lot, I hear you. If it was complete stranger or someone you didn’t trust at all, I see you.
I understand how incredibly complicated and agonizing it can feel to know you were traumatized by another child, while you were a child. Especially if you hurt them back or were coerced by adults to hurt each other. That shit’s incredibly tough.
But you are not alone. I believe you. Know that recovery is possible and you’re on your way, even if it doesn’t feel like you are. I promise.
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I'm going to say it
Tiktok often makes me feel really fake as a system
So as a general reminder:
It's okay to not have noticeable switches
It's okay to not have an overt presentation of the disorder
It's okay for alters to be similar to you and to each other
Its okay to not have accents, or huge differences in styles, interests, likes, etc
It's okay to not switch for long periods of time
It's okay to never fully switch
It's okay if they're not constantly talking in the background
It's okay to not be able to feel/hear everyone all the time
It's okay to have a big OR small system, and for it to work however it's working
It's okay if your disorder IS disordering and you don't always like it, or them
It's a GREAT if your disorder isn't causing any distress or dysfunction right now
It's okay to be angry and frustrated with each other, just as much as it's okay to be happy and close-knit
It's okay that if, as you're getting older, things start to quiet down and settle, and things are less active and overt symptoms happen less
It's okay to not want those things
And it's just as okay to experience all of those things
None of these things, whether you experience them or not, are signs of someone else faking
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system-dad · 1 year
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Its better to brush your teeth once a day rather then not at all. It's better to take a bath rather then not bathe at all. It's better to snack or eat easy meals rather then not eat at all. It's better to drink juice or milk rather then not drinking anything. Self care can be hard sometimes, but as long as you're doing something towards it, even if it only 20% I'm proud of you for taking care of yourself that much.
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