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So I might get kicked out of my house because I can’t enroll into the school I want to due to bad grades, and I might not have my laptop or cell phone with me. I’m happy I have somewhere to go. Being the child of a narcissistic mother is emotionally traumatizing and I have the strong urge to stay here, because I don’t know exactly what to do. Also I’m afraid that if I do let her go, I’ll regret it, and feel guilty. I know she’ll take my laptop and cell phone away, and even if she lets me keep my phone, she’ll turn on GPS tracking to see where I’m at. Literally trying not to cry because I’m scared and I know she’s acting all nice and happy now because she doesn’t want me to “be sad and depressed”. Ugh. Life sucks right now.
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happy birthday to you, love, mom.
When you say you love me,
I wish I could believe you,
But I have 25 years experience
telling me you don’t.
So let’s play a numbers game,
and when my data’s through
you’ll have your explanation
of why I’ll never call.
25 is the number of years around this Earth
that I have struggled to find myself
in between your haunting screams of
“what I’ll always be.”
It’s been a war.
24, the number of years
I bit my tongue and hung my head
Ashamed of where I’d come from,
Ashamed of where I’ve been.
I cut you out for a reason.
23, the number of rotations
around a sun of despair and hurt and trauma and pain
while always getting lost on the roadmap
you told me I would never be smart enough to handle.
Dad’s death was just another tool to you.
22, the number of times
you could call me a “bitch” in a single conversation
as the only adjective possible
to describe the mess of pubescent me.
I cry when anyone raises their voice at me, are you proud?
21, the age you ran away.
“Following your heart,” you called it
while all that left your mouth was hatred,
all your excuses static to our ears.
You never wanted to take the long road.
20, I hadn’t even accomplished
before I almost died (the second time).
You didn’t even leave your bed to lie to my doctor,
or to tell me I deserved it.
I thought you would just be happy I had survived the rollover.
19, the year I ran away
because squatting at a friend’s apartment
was better than living at home
where the only name for me was “bitch.”
Even as a child, that’s all you would call me.
18, full of chaos, death, and anger.
There was no freedom permitted me.
I was just an ornamental plant
trimmed to conform to you.
You never allowed me my freedom if you couldn’t fly with me.
17, when my heart was broken
by a man we all loved dearly,
when you didn’t, and wouldn’t,
protect me from the wrath of others.
You laughed in my face when I’d cry for you to stop yelling at me.
16, the year my soul stopped growing.
15, when I knew I was trapped.
14, my passion for writing stripped from me
13, my privacy destroyed.
12, 11, 10, when you shamed me for my anxiety while you lavished in adultery.
9 when you let someone else publicly shame me for my developing eating disorder.
8 when you attached to the internet as your saving grace and wouldn’t play with your kids anymore,
7, 6, 5, I had to be your perfect clone, your “mini me” who couldn’t leave her mother’s side.
4, 3, 2, 1, the world is out to take me from you,
the perpetrators my bio family, the government, the church, whoever had pissed you off that day.
Do you like this numbers game?
Do you care, even?
Will you always try to apologize
while always making yourself the victim?
I wish I could believe you love me,
and that you miss me, and care,
but I have 25 years of hard experience of your love and care
and the signs all say you don’t.
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❤ #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #donm #aconm #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #youtuber #blogger #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthrecovery @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CLAisD5DoPX/?igshid=1lora7le7zcyz
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"Daughters and sons of narcissistic parents are special. They survive the most intimate abuse: that of a parent with limited capacity to love." ~ Dr. Karyl McBride This is so true. The people who are supposed to cherish and protect you from all harm are the ones hurting you. It's the ultimate betrayal. #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticparents #narcissisticmother #donm #aconm #adultchildrenofnarcissists #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #youtuber #blogger #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthrecovery @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CNMb2SjD6u1/?igshid=1gebxqw0l0f0t
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#survivalmechanism #gabormate #survivalmode #copingmechanism #copingskills #traumaresponse #fightflightfreezefawn #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #donm #aconm #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #youtuber #blogger #mentalhealthrecovery @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CNgdi6SjL0U/?igshid=12lpm3gva5erj
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I need to keep this in mind especially on days like today when I feel like I am stuck. @lizandmollie #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #donm #aconm #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #youtuber #blogger #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthrecovery @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CKcVW5mjr6p/?igshid=1ggstud3gsy3i
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Reposted from @wordsofworth #cptsdwarriors #cptsdsurvivors #mentalhealthadvocates #compassionforothers #healersofinstagram #healers #woundedhealer #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #donm #aconm #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #youtuber #blogger #mentalhealthrecovery @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CLL8rKdj7L0/?igshid=rs3ofhdukozr
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It's no secret that I experience a lot of anger. I've made videos about it. It's actually a symptom of CPTSD, so if you haven't experienced a little rage yet, chances are it's beneath the surface waiting to be expressed. The key is to not get stuck in the anger and to try not to hurt others. I wasn't allowed to express my anger at the mistreatment I received on a regular basis while growing up. Even as an adult child, I needed to turn the other cheek while my narcissistic mother continued her emotional abuse. Right up until the day I said no more and went no contact. Ongoing repeated relational trauma from the person who was supposed to keep me safe and love me unconditionally. Expressing anger could be dangerous. It needed to be stuffed down in order to survive. It's okay to be angry now. Just don't get stuck there. Peace and Love. ✌❤ #feelingishealing #feelingintelligence #emotionalintelligence #angerisokay #angerisokayjustdontlivethere #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #donm #aconm #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother https://www.instagram.com/p/CKfqWITD56t/?igshid=ok3x0cbvlgoh
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🙋♀️ Reposted from @fightthroughmentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalillness #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #donm #aconm #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #youtuber #blogger #mentalhealthrecovery @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CNeqO7OjUtq/?igshid=t1iudt1l7fja
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Yes, to all of the above. 😩😭 #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #donm #aconm #acon #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #youtuber #blogger #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthrecovery @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CLOWkk_jWB8/?igshid=1n9vp66a1myml
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True. #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #donm #aconm #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #youtuber #blogger #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthrecovery @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CLoZ7XdDmiH/?igshid=1cniwbisbakmf
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Nothing like an awesome infographic to explain everything I've been going through both mentally and physiologically. Even the weight gain and how hard it has been to lose it is explained. I'm not sure yet if there is an instagram account to tag, but this infographic can be attributed to Ruby Jo Walker whose website is rubyjowalker.com. #stuckinfreezeresponse #feelingstuck #traumaresponse #fightflightfreeze #fightflightfreezefawn #cptsd #complexPTSD #childhoodtrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #childhoodptsd #ptsd #trauma #cptsdrecovery #donm #aconm #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #youtuber #blogger #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthrecovery @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CLFtm9gDzeY/?igshid=a214ya6k1i9f
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