From Staring into open flame, Book I: Chapter 7, drawn by the stellar @punkzcakes!
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"You would think you would get tired of doing that," he commented, mentally following along the tracks of Obi-Wan's fingers as they traced his markings, down his shoulder and arm. "You know them better than I do."
"I do know them. But I have my favorite parts I like to revisit."
That got Maul to open his eyes again, skeptical. "Favorite parts?"
Obi-Wan was eying him, something sort of-- predatory, or mischievous, written on his face. Perhaps measures of both. "Yes, favorite parts. Things about you which I find either aesthetically pleasing or otherwise enjoyable."
"I was thinking about my wife... sorry, my ex-wife. I miss her. She's moved on, and I thought if I could have a fling, I might be able to move on too."
"Can I ask you a question? Did the sex feel like you were cheating?"
"It did. It felt like a betrayal."
oh i see the ref of arche hehe
he looks amaziiing
and oh i love the little detail that his little moon hoop above his head changes colour to his moods...
oh so im guessing its very much dark blue right now when he switches.. i see that angry face ref hehe
i love how intresting his detail is ^.^
Ehehehe tysm!! :DDD Im still trying to decide how I want their merged form to look.. Ive got this idea rn where elio's rays make up his halo, or where his halo is broken so it looks like horns?? I cant decide! SOB
i forget just how life changing turtleneck crowley is when i'm not physically looking at an image of him so whenever i do it's like someone hitting me with a truck at full speed. every time
Okay, now I can finally gush:
I love how the season 2 finale, particularly those last 10 minutes feel somehow preventable and yet were completely inevitable.
In terms of preventing it, there’s so many things that you can point at and go “If only …”, because so many things led to this exact sequence of events. Surely there could have been a happy ending in there somewhere. If Nina and Maggie had spoken to Aziraphale and Crowley both, if Aziraphale hadn’t insisted on speaking first, if Crowley hadn’t let Aziraphale go off with the Metatron alone, …
But changing these things wouldn’t have ultimately mattered, because this outcome isn’t the result of a few isolated factors or a couple of bad decisions. It’s the result of everything Crowley and Aziraphale have been doing or have neglected to do for thousands of years.
Because even now Crowley and Aziraphale still haven’t spoken about what really matters. And it’s not just how they feel about one another (which, yes, Crowley tried very hard to articulate). It’s about their core conflict, about Crowley’s desire to ditch all their problems and at least proverbially run away together colliding with Aziraphale’s desire to take responsibility and fix those problems, instead. And it’s about the lack of communication and lack of understanding that fuel this conflict. Crowley has never given Aziraphale the chance to fully understand him or his misgivings about the whole system they're stuck in and Aziraphale has never ventured to properly understand.
And that’s what, even without that particular Metatron-shaped intervention happening right then, would have kept them from forming anything lasting together. From forming a bond that would be stronger than any attempts to tear them apart.
Which is something they were always going to have to deal with eventually, because Heaven intervening has become inevitable, as well. Crowley and Aziraphale stopped the last attempted apocalypse, prevented each other’s executions, accidentally made an archangel-grade miracle together while actively trying not to and tried to take the matter of Gabriel out of Heaven's hands and into their own.
They were two uncontrolled variables “on their own side”. Heaven was never going to let this go on indefinitely. They were always going to try and do something about it. And since Crowley and Aziraphale were never going to get to talking about all those aforementioned things, they were always going to have a weak spot.
This was always going to happen in some way.
Those other things (Maggie and Nina, Beelzebub and Gabriel) just made everything far more emotional and allowed Crowley to make his confession. To make it at all and to make it the way he did. For better or worse. It allowed both of them to express a certain level of desperation to be together, even if they are stuck without a way to get there.
But, hey, that’s what an upheaval of the status quo is for.
Ok so that secondary account that the Pasta Impasta has started following you as of an hour ago. You probably saw but just in case, you should block it.
Jesus, after her smackdown, this is ballsy following me again.
THANK YOU FOR THIS! I must have unblocked to check the account or tag it for an update post and then forgot to block again. She probably wanted to see what I was up to or if it's blown over. Short answer: no it has not, people are still watching you in case you plagiarize, so don't try shit.
I know she's got another account somewhere, too, watching. She's reacted to everything that's gone down, blocking or taking down socials not long after I post about it. And so, I say this from the bottom of my heart to her:
i keep getting really fucking jumpscared everytime someone calls me "he" im like oh yeah! those are my pronouns and people actually call me them. i forgot that was a thing