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izpira-se-zlato · 17 hours
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Milan, 27.03.24
Gig report! Can't believe there's only two to go after this one :o (for me)
I showed up at 4:45pm (bc I'd chosen to get food at the station) and was still a lower number than in Munich at 2pm. Yeah.
didn't really queue thus, which always makes gigs a bit… different. I miss chatting with people before gigs, but I hadn't wanted to fly (even though after the venue move that would have been even easier. But also catching a 7:30 flight the morning after a gig. Yeah, no)
the queue kinda fell apart because you needed a membership card to get into the venue. We didn't have to pay. But they had to handwrite it for us. Emotions ran a little high
the venue was. Something. Sorta a… festival tent? Not quite outdoors, but definitely Interesting
due to the proximity to the airport, the radio frequencies from planes kept interfering with the equipment. Bojan attempted to explain it to us, but he didn't know it himself and thus mostly listened. I feared for the worst at that point, ngl. They didn't look particularly angry to me, but Bojan was like, "Don't be angry, Jan!" so I was like 😬
Bojan tried to get Jure and then also Nace to jam while they were figuring out their tech issues (Always Something Problem), but it meant Jan couldn't hear himself enough and so we just watched him wander on stage while Bojan tried to entertain us
We got ASTP and Proti Toku for soundchek. My first ASTP in 12 gigs on this tour! Curious to see what we'll get today
Bojan repeatedly called Jan "Jenzo" and then later claimed "Just so you know, Jan's Italian name is Jenzo!" with which the crowd disagreed (and let him know that it should be Gianni)
soundcheck was pretty cold and I almost regretted not having taken my jacket (but it did warm up)
the opener was a brass band. Unexpected but actually fun. Fit the gig, somehow
they played a lot of medleys of known songs and the crowd was pretty into it
JC! God, I barely can believe that it was the second-to-last tie I saw him live like that. I love his acoustic set a lot (in particular the first and last songs xD)
He accidentally unplugged his guitar last night. Kinda a funny moment
pretty sure the hype list was changed. Dirty Little Secret made it into the cut, and to our surprise, Zitti e Buoni didn't. Weird choice, Primož (or so I assume)
Actual gig!
We got Jan in a capybaster shirt and Nace in the cosy sweater and Bojan in a buttoned shirt he got gifted during soundcheck and Jure in the gorgeous metallic sweater and Kris in another cozy sweater
The Jance was off the fucking charts, jfc I hate them idk what was in the air. Probably hadn't seen each other all day (I'm not actually complaining)
We got SSOL opener into… Ne Bi Smel into Ona into Tokio
During Ne Bi Smel Jan was standing in front of Nace's mic so Nace had to push him away to sing the backing vocals (grinning all the while)
Bojan went, "This night is gonna be multilingual" so I was like, oh, Tokio, but no! "We had English, then Slovene, now we're gonna add some Serbian!" Changing his quips for the final stretch, huh?
Nace singing fucking "Dok tebe sunce greje, mi amore" at Jan. I hate him (While the sun warms you up, my love, according to lyrics translate)
They also played at each other during NBS because of course they did
Jan back on Jure's snare drum for the end. Multi-instrumentalist
Tokio! I didn't catch it on video, but Nace leaned in and bumped his nose into Jan's breast? Kissed his coat? I have no clue what he did but I was like ??? Nace?
At the end, they chased each ohter in circles again, and Nace either went down on one knee in front of Jan or almost did so. When the lights came back on, Nace patted Jan's chest while laughing (couldn't make out Jan's expression)
before NGVOT, Nace was thrown bread. A plushie? Actual bread? I don't know
Nace kept looking over at Jan during NGVOT, and when Jan finally met his gaze, he turned to him so they played at each other. Jan was making a mock-surprised grimacing face and playing? And then they just. Turned back to the front. What the fuck, guys
they just. kept looking at each other. Jan looking at Nace while Nace was doing backing vocals. Nace looking back as soon as he was done. Them swaying in sync while Nace smiled smugly about it. And at the end, they did the swaying like. In opposite cycles? So both sawying in and both swaying away, until Nace turned and bent his knees a little and yelled up into Jan's face. Yeah idk.
we didn't only get Bluza but got it before Šta bih ja
Kris came over to hug Jan during Bluza 🥰😭
Jan's expressions during the ending were. Something 😂
more silliness from Jan and Nace during Šta bih ja
Bojan: "This is a new song! Why do you know it"
also uh. Synchronised hip thrusting while facing each other at the end of the song. Yeah. Jfc remember you're on a stage, guys
Jan either messed up the opening of Demoni or his guitar gave out for a hot second but he was wearing a very oops expression
Jan grasped Nace's shoulders during Demoni and I think spoke the words at him? Or said something else? But that wouldn't make sense? Nace nodded and patted Jan's chest in turn
Got the Demoni scream
PiJano Padam. Bojan looked really tired during that song. Jfc get this man to take a break
Intense staring at each other at the beginning of Umazane until Nace said something to Jan and then both grinned and Nace wandered off
Nace was pretty silly at the start of the karaoke bit and like. gestured at Jan theatrically and then mimed falling over. Dork
We got the OG OG Umazane Misli chorus. The one Bojan wrote in a hurry the first time they performed it. Made my night -- and Kris's because it's where the very smiley/laughing Kris pics during UM came from
@kurooscoffee/@jokeroutsubs had prepared UNO reserve cards to make the boys sing. Which made the rounds already but gaaah it was !!!!!!
Jan declaiming the verse because "[he] can't sing so [he's] not gonna sing. [He's] gonna interpret it." And interpret he did😂
Nace with the "oh oh" before he started jfc the dork
Jan ducking under Nace's arm to play his bass after he failed to catch Nace's attention to offer, and then just. Going for it.
Nace slinging an arm around Jan
Nace singing "morning smells like you" right at Jan while Jan keeps looking up at him from playing chords on Nace's bass
Kris "Jan! Play, play the melody, I need the harmony!" (and Jan did)
god we need more Kris singing plssss
Kris sang the verse mostly at Nace
Jure going "oooh fuck!" and not knowing the entire lyrics 😂😂 Jance this and Jance that, but that made my night
I didn't see Bojan at barricade cheering his band mates on but he was and just. Gah. It was such a wholesome thing I hate them
Nace posed for pictures with a silly expression, and then Jance posed for a combined heart for someone
Plastika saw Bojan caress Nace and then hug Jan from behind (no choking tho)
During Novi Val, Jance stood off to the side being Jance for quite a while, while Jure had his hand weirdly on Bojan's back?
They looked really exhausted by the end which. Mood.
Post gig:
The venue had a scrolling LED screen that scrolled "Everybody's Waiting At The Ball" (thanks, Kris, for the restory!)
Had a chat with Dean (lovely) and JC Stewart (also lovely) and learned that JC and Conor used to live together which is why JC was out with Conor to be introduced to the boys (allegedly before Christmas, though JC wasn't 100%)
hung around the gate after the show even though it was pretty clear they wouldn't say hi, but it gave us a chance to see Mark (who'd surprised the boys with a visit) as he was waiting for someone to let him off the venue grounds. "Well, they'll have to open this at some point, they ordered McDonald's!"
Spoiler: they did not open the gate for McDonalds. Primož tried to scale it, which almost worked but looked dangerous, and so the delivery person threw it over the top. It was a spectacle
by that point, Mark had been let out the old-fashioned way though
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st-eve-barnes · 4 months
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Leverage (Michael Gavey x fem Reader)
Chapter 2
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Summary: When your ex threatens to release some very personal videos you are left with no choice but to do what he asks: seduce the biggest nerd on campus, Michael Gavey. Will you rock his world or will he fundamentally change yours?
This chapter: Michael starts tutoring you but things are off to a rocky start.
Word count: +1900
Warning for the entire fic: 18+ for explicit content and language. Kissing, oral sex (male receiving), dry humping, hand job, fingering, p in v sex. First kiss and loss of virginity. Experienced reader. Enemies to lovers vibes.
Fluff, smut and of course angst (my favorite combination! lol) I haven't watched Saltburn yet so all characters in this fic except for Michael are my own.
Read Chapter 1 Here
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After almost two hours of Michael’s tutoring you were beginning to contemplate throwing in the towel and just letting Ben release that video. What’s the worst that could happen anyway?
Michael had been cocky as soon as you had sat down in front of him in the library that evening. Right now he was bordering on rude and very obviously growing more impatient with you by the minute. And the faster he talked the less you listened, leaving you both frustrated.
You had a splitting headache and all the numbers and calculations were just dancing across the page now, mocking you. None of it made any sense, no matter how many different ways Michael tried to explain it all to you. 
You were good with history, languages, art or psychology. Numbers were hell on earth.
“Are you even listening?” Michael sighed impatiently, leaning back in his chair and stretching his arms behind his head.
“Yes,” you nodded, followed by a heavy sigh,”No, ugh..I’m sorry, I just…I lost my focus about an hour ago.”
“An hour ago? You didn’t even have it to begin with,” Michael called you out.
“I just don’t know how this is so easy for you, like you don’t even have to think about it at all.”
“That’s because I don’t,” he answered smugly, making you roll your eyes.”Go on. Ask me a sum.”
You sighed some more but indulged him anyway,”33 times 20.”
He gave you a look,”Don’t insult me, a real sum.”
“333 times 444.”
“147.852,” he answered without even blinking. You had no way of knowing if his answer was even correct but you didn’t doubt it for a second.
“How did you do that so fucking fast?”
“I don’t know, I can just do it, in my head, I don’t have to think about it.”
“Lucky you,” you rolled your eyes again.
“They’re gonna get stuck in your head if you keep doing that, you know,” he teased, making you squint your eyes at him.
He shook his head with a little amused grin,“Ask me another one then.”
“It’s fine, you made your point, you’re a genius.”
“Ask me another one, just to be sure,” he insisted.
“Michael, it’s fine, I get it.”
‘Ask me another fucking sum!” he raised his voice, making the few other people in the library look up at you both with annoyed looks on his face. You wanted to crawl under the table and disappear.
“Alright, fucking hell…1245 times 987.”
“1.228.815,” he answered, giving you another satisfied little smile.
You just stared at him without saying anything.
“My brain works different from yours,” he then explained.
“Yeah, no shit.”
You were beginning to see why Ben was so threatened by him, Michael was an actual mathematical genius, Ben didn’t stand a chance at that internship. That thought suddenly filled you with immense joy. And then fear, because if Ben didn’t stand a chance then what were you even doing here?
Michael watched as your face fell.
“Do you want to take a break?” he suggested.
You nodded,”Yeah, a permanent one, I’m never going to get this.” You dropped your head onto the table and let out a desperate little whine.
Michael just shook his head,”So you’re a quitter, I would say I’m shocked but my mum told me never to tell a lie.”
You lifted your head to give him an angry glare but he just ignored you and closed his books, not giving you time to object before he was up and out of his seat.
“When you’re serious about wanting to learn, you know where to find me,” he said,”Until then…stop wasting my time.”
“Michael,” you sighed but he was already walking away from you, and with it your last chance to stop Ben.
You couldn’t let this happen, if you let him go now your fate was sealed.
“Michael, wait!” you rushed after him without thinking, finding him halfway in one of the book shelves. 
You grabbed at his arm to stop him, taking him by surprise. 
He froze, eyes staring wildly at the spot where your hand was touching his arm. But he didn’t pull back or try to stop you. Instead he almost seemed to lean into your space a little, accepting your touch, his mouth opened in a surprised little sigh when your fingers gently closed around his elbow. 
Of course the nerd was touch starved, it was almost too predictable. And was that a blush creeping up on his pale cheeks?
Ben had been right, Michael clearly wasn’t used to being touched, especially not by a woman. But he didn’t seem to dislike it, at all.
Maybe this mission wasn’t so impossible after all.
It was a desperate move, you realized that, but desperate is what you were.
“Please, wait,” you begged again, placing your other hand on his wrist while you gave him your best sad eyes and pouty lips,”You can’t give up on me, Michael. Please, you’re the only one who can help me, I need you.”
You watched him swallow hard at those last words, his eyes flickering from yours down to your lips and back up again.
He was staring now, shamelessly, not even trying to hide it. You used his obvious interest to lean in closer, so close he could almost feel your breath against his cheek and when you slowly and very deliberately licked your lips you could hear him bite back a quiet whimper. 
You took another step forward and carefully pressed your body up against his. That’s when you felt it, undeniably, he was hard. You had barely touched him and yet he was rock hard in his stupid cargo pants. 
You had him right where you wanted him and you could have sworn he was about to close that final distance between you two and pull you in for a kiss.
But then he leaned back and his thin lips curled up into a smug, annoyed grin.
“What are you playing at?” he asked.
“What do you mean? I’m not playing….”
“Stop lying to me, you stupid girl,” he growled and took a few steps back from you,”You say you want a tutor but you don’t give a shit about what I’m trying to teach you and now you want to…what….seduce me? How daft do you think I am?”
“I don’t think you’re daft at all!”
“I know this isn’t about math and it sure as hell isn’t about you wanting to get into my pants, girls like you don’t want nerds like me.”
“Girls like me?” you asked, staring at him with anger in your eyes,”Oh, you mean stupid girls like me? Listen, you little shit…”
“I meant pretty girls like you,” he interrupted you, shutting you up instantly.
He took a step closer again, towering over you and forcing you to lean against the book shelves behind you.
“What is it you want from me then?” he mused, as if he was asking the question more to himself and not you,”You’ve never paid any attention to me before this week…not until…I saw you scheming with Ben in the library a few days ago.”
Your eyes widened at his statement and it was enough for Michael to know he was onto something.
“I fucking knew it,” he shook his head and laughed,”What does that twat want from me this time, hmm?”
“Nothing,” you answered, too quickly.
“You’re a bad liar, girl.”
His stare was making you nervous, you wanted to blurt out everything to him and at the same time run away and never speak another word again. But there was no place to run from Ben and his ugly threats. Michael was your only ticket out of that bad spot.
He stepped back from you with a sigh,“Fine. Whatever. Tell your rich little friend that whatever you and him want from me he’s not going to get it, under any circumstances. Can you remember that or should I write it down for you?”
You nodded, feeling tears well up in your eyes. Michael’s harsh tone combined with the hopelessness of your situation was suddenly too much and you burst out into tears.
To your surprise Michael’s whole demeanor changed instantly and he rubbed his hand over his face with a heavy sigh.
You started crying,“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to involve you in this shit, I’m so sorry, Michael.”
For a moment he just looked at you, your tears and desperation too real for him to ignore.
Then he leaned back against the book shelves next to you, not saying a word. You looked up at him through your teary lashes and it was the first time you could see real compassion in his blue eyes. ”What does he have on you?” he asked softly.
”We used to date, he has some…private material he’s threatening to release.”
“Fucking prick,” Michael spat out.
“Yeah, he really is and I’m an idiot for ever being with him,” you wiped at your tears and looked surprised when Michael reached into his pocket and handed you a handkerchief. It looked like the ones your grandma used to have and you couldn’t help but smile through your tears.
”Thanks,” you sobbed and used it to wipe your cheeks dry.
“So…what did he want you to do in return then?”
”He wants that internship at Charter Inc.”
Michael nodded knowingly,”Yeah, that one is mine.”
“I know,” you smiled weakly,”That’s why he…he wanted me to distract you.”
Michael scoffed,”Jesus fuck, what an idiot. There’s nothing on this earth he can do to keep me from getting that job.”
You nodded,”I know.”
And with that realization came more tears. You used Michael’s handkerchief to keep them at bay.
“Do you think he’d actually do it?” he asked,”Are they just empty threats?”
“I honestly don’t know what he’s capable of and I don’t want to find out.”
You both stayed quiet for a while. Michael didn’t make any attempts to comfort you or touch you, but he didn’t move from his spot right next to you either.
“What can I do?” he asked.
“I don’t know if there’s anything you can do, Michael, this isn’t your problem, or your fight.”
He nodded,”Yeah, you’re right, it isn’t.”
You could feel your stomach drop in defeat.
“But,” he then added,”I’d really fucking hate to see a rich kid win in life.”
You couldn’t help but laugh through your tears.”Got any ideas?”
He thought about that for a little while and then he nodded,”We could…make him believe his plan is working? I mean, for now, until we can come up with something better.”
“How?”
“He won’t do anything as long as he believes you’re on board, yeah?”
“I guess not.”
“So we pretend that you’re…distracting me.”
You laughed bitterly at his choice of words.”He wants me to fuck you, that’s what he means by distracting you. You realize that, right?” you then blurted out and Michael snorted out loud but he regained his composure quickly.
“Then…I guess we pretend that you’re fucking me,” he said calmly, letting his eyes meet yours. You felt a shiver run up your spine, the good kind.
“Alright,” you nodded.
“Alright,” Michael repeated, keeping his eyes on you for a few moments too long before he eventually looked away and nervously pushed his glasses up his nose, smiling shyly,”When do we start then?”
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myosotisa · 9 months
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Steve needing comfort angst ?
ah yes, the best. someone give this boy a hug!!!!!!
Running Late
ǁ  summary: Steve is late picking you up after work and fears the worst from you when he does show up.
ǁ  tags: hurt/comfort, established relationship. gender neutral, no pronouns, no y/n, nicknames are honey and sweetheart for reader. Steve has anxiety, description of symptoms similar to an anxiety attack, comfort for the man.
ǁ  word count: 2.1k
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Your boyfriend Steve had picked you up after work every day since the two of you had started dating 6 months ago.
He insisted it wasn’t a big deal – it was on his way home from his own job and it also meant he got to see you everyday, which he always insisted was the highlight of his day. You didn’t really enjoy walking home, and you did enjoy getting to look at Steve Harrington, so it seemed like a win-win.
You didn’t really think too much into it until tonight.
After your shift ended, you did the same thing you always did: you cleaned up a bit, clocked out, and pushed your way out of the back door and into the night air. When you looked over to where Steve was normally parked, leaning on his hood with his thick arms crossed over his chest, you only saw empty space.
Shrugging it off, you stepped to the side to lean back against the brick wall and wait. He’d never been late before but there was a first time for everything. Who isn’t late sometimes?
You waited an hour.
During that time, you’d stepped inside to try to call his house (no answer) and Family Video (wasn’t there). One of your coworkers had walked past and asked if you needed a ride home, but you were still positive Steve was coming to get you, so you waved him off. He wasn’t the type to just forget. Maybe he’d lost track of time or, god forbid, he got in some sort of accident.
You’d been considering just walking home and trying to call him again later when his maroon BMW comes careening into the parking lot.
It skids until the wheels lock up a safe distance away from the building, and by extension you, and has barely come to a full stop before the driver’s side door is rocketing open and a severely distressed Steve is jumping out.
“Honey! Hey, I’m…” He rounds the car toward you in a jog, voice raspy from being out of breath. “I’m so sorry I’m late, I can’t believe – wait, how late am I?” He flips his watch toward his face, squinting behind his wire rim glasses to try to read the time in the dark before they grow wide and flick back to you. “Oh my god, I didn’t – I’m so sorry – Sweetheart, I swear…”
He isn’t even able to finish a thought before the next one starts as his breathing only seems to start coming through faster, chest rising and falling visibly with the force of his inhales. When he reaches his hands out toward you, there’s a noticeable tremble in them and that, along with the flush of red crawling up his chest, clues you in that something is really not right.
“Steve, hey,” you step into his space, bypassing his outstretched hands and placing one of yours on his jaw and the other on his chest. “It’s okay, it’s really fine.”
“No, it’s not fine,” he murmurs, the space between his eyebrows folding into a sharp pinch. The next inhale he takes is choked, getting trapped in the bulk of his chest. “I’m so, so sorry. I… There’s no excuse, really, honest to god, there isn’t, I’m so sorry.”
Growing more concerned by the second, you step closer to try to ground him with your presence. You’ve seen Steve in moments like these before, when his anxiety feels like a python constricting around his chest, but it never gets any easier to watch. Especially not as his eyes start to water at the corners and the tremble of his hands infects the rest of him in a subtle shake.
“Hey, baby,” the petname, one that normally calms him down, produces a sharp inhale this time, like it was the wrong thing to say. “Why don’t you come sit in the backseat with me? Is that okay?” Your tone is slightly placating and you wish it wasn’t, but you’re at a bit of a loss for the best way to navigate this situation. Especially since you have little to no idea of what is causing his panic.
His eyes squeeze shut as the rest of his muscles go stiff, the tears that were collecting in the corners of his eyes falling swiftly down his reddened cheeks. Though it looks like it pains him, he gives a stunted nod and allows you to lead him back over to his car. You open the rear passenger side door and look over at him – he looks so lost and scared like this, 2 things you’re not used to your boyfriend being. But you’re here for it either way and motion for him to go in first, waiting for him to settle in the middle of the back before you slide in after him and shut the door behind you both.
The seal of the door makes the ambient noise of the outside fall away, leaving only the hum of the AC coming from the still running BMW. While you had worried it would feel too cramped for him at first, he had later explained to you that he didn’t find it cramped. It felt contained, which helped his panic when it came.
Twisting in your seat, you face him with a hand on his forearm. He stares straight forward, focusing far off. “I’m gonna sit in your lap, is that okay?” He doesn’t answer, just opens his arms and adjusts his legs to give you room to hop on. With the sedan’s low ceiling, it takes a bit of maneuvering, but you manage to crawl over to straddle his lap: knees by his hips, ass on his thighs, and hands resting on his chest. Almost instinctively, his arms wrap around you and pull you in to press along the entire front of his body.
Tucking your forehead against the side of his neck, you let him adjust as needed until he stills with his arms looped over your back. Like this, you’re effectively a warm, weighted blanket for him. A living, breathing one that grounds him to reality and gives him something to focus on. You make your breathing as obvious as you can, giving him a chance to try to mimic it, and listen to his heart rate slowly begin to lower with your ear pressed to his chest.
While the tension comes and goes in the silence between you for a little while, you know the worst of it has passed when his hands start to move. From stationary, they move into a subtle stroke along your curved spine from your position. Small at first, but gradually growing in length and firmness as he calms down further. You don’t want to push it, don’t want to move too soon, don’t want to cause him more upset, so you allow yourself to melt further into him with the soft touches and wait for him to be ready.
Eventually, Steve heaves a deep breath that comes much easier and fuller than those previous. It’s accompanied by a low hum that you feel more than hear from your place against his chest. His hands skate down to rest on your hips, giving a soft squeeze, before he murmurs, “Hey honey.”
With that, you slowly withdraw from your spot and straighten as much as you can, putting a few inches between your faces. His face is ruddy and his cheeks are damp, like he spent a lot of your hidden time crying, and you offer a sad smile through the stab of pain the sight causes you. “Hi handsome,” you hum back, tension easing when his mouth tilts in a shy smile. “You come here often?”
“Too often,” he replies with a soft, self-deprecating laugh. His hands slide further – from your hips to resting on the tops of your thighs. When he speaks next it’s rough and broken at the edges. “I’m sorry.”
Quick to react, you use your hands to cup both sides of his jaw, forcing him to keep eye contact with you to try to ebb any possibility of a second attack. “No sorries, no more.” You lean in to press a soft kiss to his pouting lips, pulling away just enough to press your forehead to his. “Nothing to be sorry for. I’m not mad, I’m not upset. You haven’t done anything wrong.”
His mouth presses into a tight line, jaw muscle rolling with tension as he clenches his teeth together. “I told Lucas I would drive him home after his game at the school tonight,” he explains through a sigh, eyes closed gently. “They went into overtime and he was out in the game, not even on the bench like he normally is, and I was just so excited for him. I completely lost track of time.”
“That’s okay, Steve,” you press your forehead a bit tighter before relaxing again. “That’s great for Lucas and I’m glad you had fun watching. It happens, losing track of time. Everyone does it once in awhile.” He heaves another shaky breath, the exhale ghosting warm over the lower half of your face from the proximity. “Do you want to talk about what just happened?”
You leave it up to him with no judgement. Sometimes he will say no, he’ll talk about it when he’s ready. But you always want to give him the option to talk about it right then when it’s fresh on his mind.
“I, uh… I thought you’d be mad.” He admits quietly, sounding ashamed. “Maybe not even mad but just… Disappointed?” 
Your expression cracks, sadness filling you, but you wait to make sure you don’t end up interrupting. You’d learned your lesson that if you tried to make it too much back and forth, he would get distracted and lose his train of thought.
“I guess I was worried that being late would make you feel like you can’t trust me anymore. That I’m unreliable. And if I’m unreliable, then maybe you won’t want me to give you rides anymore. And if I don’t drive you home from work anymore then…” He pauses, the continuous train of thought reaching its conclusion that he hadn’t anticipated at the beginning. “If I stop being useful, you won’t want me around anymore.”
“Oh, baby…” You can’t help but sigh, heart twisting in pain for the boy in front of you. “I don’t spend time with you because you’re ‘useful’. I’m not dating you because of the things you do for me or something like that. I like you because you’re you, Steve Harrington.” His eyes open when you say his full name, a bit watery behind the now smudged lenses. “You’re kind and loving and brave and genuine. Not to mention, kind of a stud muffin.”
He huffs a small, wet laugh at that, bringing little smiles to both of your faces. The sadness in his eyes begins to shift, steadily growing into awe and adoration the longer he looks at you. “You could never pick me up from work again and I would still be just as stupid crazy for you as I am right now, swear to god.”
“Oh yeah?” He sniffles slightly, clearing his throat as he tries to regain some footing. “How stupid crazy are we talking here? Because I think I might be a little bit deeper,” he teases, hands squeezing the meat of your thighs as his smile slowly grows.
“How about this,” you lean in to press one more quick kiss to his pink lips before you pull back to look at him head on. “How about we agree that I’m crazy for you and you’re stupid for me and we’re even in our prospective fields?”
“Prospective fields?” His head shakes with his shoulders when he chuckles again, the warmth of his smile once again meeting his bright eyes. “You’re kind of a nerd, you know that right?”
“Yup!” You answer happily, “That’s why I’m the crazy one and you’re the stupid one.”
“Oh gee, thanks,” comes his mocking reply, eyes rolling heavily. “It’s a good thing you’re cute, because you’re trouble.”
Fingers trailing down from his jaw to rest on the front of his chest, you aren’t able to bite back your cheeky grin. “I thought you liked that about me.”
With a grin that mirrors your own, his hands make an opposite trail, going from your thighs, brushing over the flesh of your ass before gripping tight on your hips again. “I do. I like everything about you actually.”
Flustered suddenly by the flattery, you hide your sudden shyness by leaning back in and wrapping your arms around his shoulders in a hug. He returns the embrace, leaving the two of you closer to how you had been when you first got in the car.
“Thank you, sweetheart,” he murmurs into your hair, fingers once again brushing up and down your spine. “For everything.”
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halsteadlover · 6 months
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𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐒𝐭𝐞𝐩𝐬
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• Paired: Spencer Reid x Female!Reader.
• Requested: no.
• Summary: your baby boy takes his first steps leaving Spencer a mumbling mess.
• Warnings: none, just fluff.
• Word count: 1591.
• A/N: just a quick Spencer fic since I realized I’m only writing for Jay once again (what can I say he’ll always be my first love). I hope you’ll like it, y’all know I’m a sucker for dad’s fics 😭. Please comment, reblog and like if you want. Thank you so much for all your support I love you all so much, my inbox and dms are always open if you want to talk ❤️
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“Spencer! Baby! Oh my God come here now!“.
Your voice made Spencer jump on his chair. He was writing a work report he didn’t manage to finish that day and for which Hotch would’ve his head if he didn’t turn it back by the next day.
Spencer's heart lost a beat and fear swept over him as his mind began to project every worst-case scenario possible.
He got up from his study desk, dropping his pen carelessly to the floor, and literally ran to the living room where he knew you and your baby were.
“Baby! What happened?! Are you all right? Is Noah okay?” He asked with concern and you instantly felt guilty for worrying him like that.
You were sitting on the floor, legs crossed while Noah was standing next to you and you were holding him by his little hands. He was babbling something nonsensical and began to fidget when he turned and saw his father, a huge smile on his face.
“Sorry love, everything’s okay. I didn't mean to scare you,” you giggled as you saw Spencer visibly relax and heave a sigh of relief.
“You gave me a fucking heart attack I thought something had happened,” he breathed out with a hand on his chest as he could feel his heart still pounding.
How long had he become so jumpy? He didn't know, he just knew that since he had become a father every little change and every little thing made him jump on the spot, making him tremendously worried about his child. God, that little being was making him lose years of life with each passing day.
“Don't ever do that again please,” Spencer admonished you as he approached you sternly but his expression immediately softened as his eyes rested on Noah who kept fidgeting wanting nothing more than to go to his father. “What have you been up to little one? You like to scare your dada huh? You are so lucky you and your mom are adorable, I hope both of you know that”.
You let go of his little hands but still being close to him as you proudly watched Noah hold himself up. His little legs trembled slightly as he continued to babble something.
“Oh god...” Spencer murmured almost imperceptibly in shock. Was it really going to happen? In that instant he realized why you had called him and he almost had a heart attack again.
“Yes baby! Come to dada, come here, I know you can do it,” he continued to encourage him, approaching him and kneeling down so he could immediately catch him if he fell. He stretched his arms toward his baby, a huge smile on his lips as he invited Noah to take his first steps.
You went to get your phone at the speed of light, wanting to capture that precious moment in a video so you could keep it with you forever.
Noah brought one leg forward and the other with instability, taking his first step and making his parents jump for joy.
The living room filled with the sounds of little squeals of excitement and clapping hands as you both continued to encourage your son to continue taking baby steps.
Spencer never felt such joy before, maybe he had a similar feeling the day he married you but seeing his baby walk, taking his first steps towards him, damn it, that feeling was something indescribable, something he’d never forget.
“Yeah buddy! You're so good, you're doing great my love. Come to your dada! I’m right here… “ Spencer continued to say while taking small steps backwards while Noah instead took the same number towards him.
His eyes didn't leave his child even for a second, almost forgetting you were there next to them while filming the whole scene with your cell phone. He analyzed every movement that little ray of sunshine was making, the way he was so focused, the way his walk was unsteady and rickety, the way he looked at him with a smile on his little face as he let slip some little frustrated screams when he never seemed to be able to reach his father. He wanted to imprint all these little details in his memory and never before did he thank whoever was up there for his eidetic memory.
Noah eventually stopped in his tracks and Spencer caught him before he even hit the floor, standing up and holding him close.
“Yes! You did it buddy!” Spencer exclaimed in joy as he lifted little Noah into the air who continued to giggle and drool while he waved his little arms. He showered kisses on his plump little cheeks, not being able to contain his joy. “I'm so proud of you little one, I love you so much.”
You were a complete mess as you looked at Spencer and the way he held his baby with so much love and pride, you could see it in his face, the way he looked at him. That man loved his son more than any other person in the world and then more than ever you couldn't help but think you couldn't have chosen a better father for your child.
Spencer gently caressed Noah's head, cradling him in his arms as his emotions overwhelmed him.
He had never been good at controlling them and keeping them at bay was harder than ever. He couldn't believe how quickly time was passing, how was it possible his son was already walking?
It seemed like yesterday that he held him as soon as he was born.
“Spence…” you called him when you saw the way Spencer had sheltered his face on Noah's small shoulders, as if to hide himself. You placed a hand on your husband's shoulder, immediately noticing he was crying.
“Take him,” he whispered and you picked Noah up as Spencer went to sit on the couch, hands on his face and elbows resting on his knees as he sobbed uncontrollably.
“Oh baby you'll make me cry too.”
As if you weren’t already a fountain of tears.
You hugged your baby too, crying with joy all the tears you had in your body while he unaware played with your hair.
“I love you so much my little angel,” you whispered, giving him a kiss on the cheek, thanking God for giving you such a beautiful gift.
You turned your head towards Spencer, noticing how he was sobbing and when he raised his head and you looked at each other, you both burst into a loud laughter, aware of how disastrous each other looked.
You sat next to him and he wasted no time in wrapping a hug around your shoulders. He pulled you towards him and left a kiss on your head, while tears continued to run down his cheeks, his eyes on Noah who just didn't seem to stay still.
“I… Damn… I can’t do this…” he cried, bringing his hands to his face after leaning against the back of the sofa and drying his tears.
How could anyone be so fucking happy?
He had never felt anything like this, he didn't know how to react and he hated not knowing how he felt.
He was afraid. Afraid it’d be too good to be true.
What had he done to deserve all this? What had he done to have the family he had always dreamed of?
Images and memories kept playing in his mind. From the moment you told him you were pregnant, from the joy and fear of having to be a father, from when you found out you were expecting a boy to the moment he felt him kicking for the first time in your womb. He remembered watching your belly grow for nine months until he finally held his son in his arms for the first time and now seeing him take his first steps.
He felt so incredibly grateful, so damn lucky.
You caressed his arm, trying to comfort him even though you were crying even more than him.
He tried to compose himself but all he had to do was pick up his baby again to let down more tears of joy, meanwhile laughing with you. It was so surreal.
He wrapped his other arm around your shoulders and pulled you back to him, letting you rest your head on his chest as you looked at Noah standing on his father's thighs.
“I love you so much baby, thank you for giving me the best gift I could ever ask for,” he whispered after leaving a sweet kiss on your forehead making your heart do a somersault in your chest. Even though years had passed, you never got tired of hearing him say it.
You lifted your head and pressed your lips to his in a chaste kiss as butterflies roamed freely across your stomach. “I love you so much Spence.”
You burst out laughing when Noah grabbed a lock of Spencer's hair and started pulling it, making the grown man let out a whine.
“Jesus christ how can they be so small but so strong?” Spencer complained as he tried to loosen his baby’s grip on his hair. The scene was comical, you didn't know if the way Noah pulled Spencer’s hair made you laugh more or your husband's face still streaked with tears and his eyes still red.
But he didn't care, even though Noah was hurting him quite a bit, he couldn't stop smiling, thinking he wouldn't change this for anything else in the world.
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babydollmarauders · 9 months
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MEAN — ALEX TURCOTTE
alex turcotte x fem!reader
part of the Speak Now Fic List
summary: in which y/n opens up to Alex about the hate she’s been receiving from his fans
notes: not proofread! so sorry if it sucks!
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y/nonthegram on a date and our waiter called me a bitch… anyone know what number i can call to complain?
tagged _alexturcotte and trevorzegras
user47 awww they went to dux in tux to support trevor!
_alexturcotte my girl 🖤
y/nonthegram my boy 🤍
user16 thank god she didn’t show her face
trevorzegras sorry, we don’t take complaints 🙅‍♂️ only compliments 💁‍♂️
y/nonthegram that feels very unprofessional
trevorzegras who ever said i was professional? 🤔
jackhughes my boys! looking dapper! and y/n!
y/nonthegram this is y/nphobic
jackhughes i acknowledged you, didn’t i?
y/nonthegram barely
colecaufield @/y/nonthegram i’ll acknowledge you! you look beautiful, y/n!
y/nonthegram @/colecaufield thank you! at least someone appreciates me!
user63 well… trevor wasn’t very far off
user77 have you ever even met her? she’s literally the nicest person ever
user21 she gives mean girl bitch vibes so idc
user98 impatiently waiting for him to dump her
user30 honestly, if he cheats on her on a roadie… would anyone really be upset?
user52 i know i wouldn’t! i think all of us are just praying on their downfall. like, he could do so much better
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my eyes sting, locked to my phone screen. my hearing is muffled, drowning out the sound of my boyfriend and his best friend just feet away from me.
they sit on the coffee table in front of me, NHL 23 displayed on the tv. they shout curses at each other and the tv, trying their hardest to win for their respective teams on the video game. but my focus is solely on the comments of my most recent instagram post.
all i wanted to do was show off my boyfriend of five years. but his fans were being so mean.
it was nothing new. these comments happened on nearly every post i made. whether they were insulting my looks, or saying Alex deserved better, i could never please them.
usually, i only let myself look at the comments for a moment before deleting them altogether, but today was already a hard mental health day and these comments were hitting me where it hurts. i can’t help but dwell on them longer than usual. today they took my worst fear, and used it as a ‘what if?’ scenario, one of the meanest things they’ve ever done.
i sniffle, standing from the couch. shuffling quickly past my boyfriend, my head hanging low to try and hide my tears as i make my way to our bedroom, shutting myself in the darkened room, the only light being that of the setting california sun peeking through the curtains on the windows.
i crawl up our bed, burrowing myself in a cocoon of blankets and pillows, and turn my phone back on, scrolling through the comments once more. this time, i let my tears flow freely, silent sobs racking my body.
all the comments on my body, my insecurities and flaws, my relationship, even some accusing me of cheating on Alex with our friends. it’s one blow after another, each one cutting deeper than the last.
a loud cry escapes my lips and i clap a hand over my mouth, squeezing my eyes shut and holding my breath; praying to whatever higher power that Alex and Trevor didn’t overhear me from the living room.
my prayers go unanswered when our bedroom door creaks open, the light switch being flipped on, and two sets of footsteps enter the bedroom.
“hey, sweet girl.” i bury my head deeper under the blanket at the sound of my boyfriend’s voice. “you wanna show me that pretty face?”
his gentle tone brings even more tears to my eyes and despite knowing he can’t see me, i shake my head.
“y/n? are you okay?” Trevor asks softly. i feel them both sit on the bed as i hum out a ‘mhm’.
“you sure?” Trevor questions.
“why won’t you let us see you, then?” Alex asks. a hand finds my back, rubbing it soothingly, and the soft touch causes me to let out another cry. i hear some muffled whispering before someone rises from the bed.
“i’m gonna leave you guys to talk, i’ll see you tomorrow.” Trevor announces. “y/n, if you need me, just call and i’ll come right over.”
i hear his footsteps retreating, the bedroom door falling shut behind him before my boyfriend’s hand leaves my back, coming up on the blankets and pulling it down to reveal my tear stained face.
“hey, what wrong, baby?” his eyes are filled with worry, concern dripping from his words like honey. “why are you crying, sweet girl?”
“i’m fine.” i choke and he obviously sees straight through my lie.
“if you were fine, you wouldn’t be crying.” he shifts his body, moving to lay down next to me on the bed. his arm wraps around my waist, pulling me in close, and on instinct, i throw my thigh over his abdomen. his hand comes up to play with my hair, the tips of his fingers scratching my scalp in a calming manner.
“you wanna tell me what’s got my girl so upset?” he questions. he knows he has me in the palm of his hand. he knows exactly what to do to ease my mind and make me feel safe.
“comments.” i whisper into his chest, muttered by lips against his shirt.
“hmm?” he hums. my eyes flicker up to see his brows pulled down in confusion.
“instagram comments.” i clarify, sniffling and wiping at my nose with my hand. “some of your fans aren’t very nice.”
“wait what?” he asks. his hands pause their actions and he pulls my face back to look me in the eyes. “what are you talking about?”
“i didn’t wanna say anything. you love your fans and some of them are so sweet.” i sigh.
his expression is one of betrayal and disappointment. this is exactly why i kept this all from him. he loves his fans so much, i know he would never want to hear that some of them are so cruel.
“y/n, what are they saying?”
“just mean things. things i’d rather not repeat.” i unlock my phone, the screen still on the hate comments of my latest post, and hand it to him, letting him see them for himself.
“what the fuck?” he murmurs to himself. “why have i never seen these?”
“i usually delete them right away.” i confess. “i never wanted you to see them.”
“baby, you should’ve told me about these. these are cruel.” he scrolls through the comments, deleting every comment that isn’t necessarily considered nice.
“i know, but your fans make you so happy. i never wanted to take that from you.” i cry, burying my face in his chest.
“but you make me happier.” his hand rests on my head, the other rubbing my back. “you make me so much happier than they ever could.”
“it just hurts. it didn’t used to hurt this much, but after so long, the comments are getting to me.” i sob. “i just wanna feel okay again.”
“hey, you know nothing they said is true, right? you’re beautiful, and sweet, and the best thing to ever happen to me. you’re the smartest, most thoughtful, kindhearted, loving girl i’ve ever met. and i would never do anything to jeopardize what we have. i would never even think about even entertaining the idea of sleeping with anyone on a roadie, you know that, don’t you?”
i nod my head, sniffling. i raise my head to look at him, his eyes glassy as he wipes my tears.
“i love them, but i love you so much more. and they’re clearly not fans of mine if they think it’s okay to say shit like this about you, let alone to you.”
my insecurities get the best of me and i can’t help but question.
“you’re sure you’re not sick of me?” i whisper.
“you ever looked in my nightstand?” he asks, my eyebrows furrow in confusion and i shake my head.
“not recently, no.” i don’t understand his question, or what it has to do with mine.
he pushes me off of him, my heart sinking in my chest.
this is it.
he’s decided we’re done.
i don’t know what i’ll do without him.
he leans over his side of the bed, shuffling around in his nightstand drawer for a moment before turning back to me, something clasped in his hand.
“i had a more romantic plan, i swear i did. i had a whole speech planned, but my mom said that i should do this when it feels right. and now feels right.”
my eyes widen, my breath going shaky as i consider what he could possibly be meaning in this moment.
i sit up quickly in the bed, as he reveals a black ring box in his hands, opening it to reveal a gorgeous diamond ring.
my hands rise shakily to my parted lips, more tears gathering in my eyes as they flicker between him and the ring.
“you asked if i’m sure, and i hope that this ring shows you that i’m absolutely positive. i can’t imagine a life without you. i can’t imagine what my life would’ve been like if you hadn’t called me a ‘stupid waste-of-a-pretty-face hockey player’ when we were sixteen.”
“all you got from that was ‘pretty’.” i let out a choked laugh through my tears.
“and i’m so glad i did, because that one word was all it took for me to fall to my knees. to chase after you and annoy you for an entire year until you agreed to go out with me. and now i never want to live a life without you.
“you’re my biggest supporter, my favorite person in the world, and the only girl i ever want. i love your kind soul, and the way your smile brightens my day. i love your beautiful eyes and the way you laugh over my dumbest jokes. i love that you fought for us to stay together, even when i wasn’t sure if we would work after i was drafted. i love that you dance in the kitchen when you cook, and the way you romanticize every part of our every day lives. i love that you refuse to go to bed angry, and that you sing in the shower and make me duet you. i love you, for everything you are, and everything you will be. and i would love to spend the rest of our lives together, if you’ll marry me.”
i can’t even get a response past my lips, opting to tackle him instead, nearly knocking us off the bed. but Alex’s quick thinking saves the moment, swaying us sideways instead to land on our sides on the mattress.
i straddle his waist, knocking him on his back as my lips glide along his face, peppering kisses on his cheeks, forehead, nose, chin, anywhere i can reach, before settling on his lips.
i pour all of my emotions into this kiss, filled with love and happiness, joy and affection. i suckle his bottom lip as i pull back to look into his eyes, a large grin taking up the bottom half of my face.
“is that a yes?” he chuckles, a hand resting on my lower back, the other still gripping the ring box.
“that’s a yes.” i nod excessively, holding my left hand out for him. he smiles widely, making quick work of removing the engagement ring from the box and sliding it onto my finger.
“i love you so much.” i tell him, grasping his face in my hands as i lower my lips to his once more.
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y/nonthegram
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y/nonthegram i said yes <3
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jackhughes HE DID IT?! WITHOUT US?! WHAT HAPPENED TO THE PLAN?!
y/nonthegram plan?
jackhughes i mean.. i’m so happy for you guys! i knew you guys were meant for each other!
y/nonthegram thank you rowdy!
_alexturcotte thanks bro!
trevorzegras HELL YEAH BRO! LOCK HER DOWN! SO HAPPY FOR YOU LOVEBIRDS!
y/nonthegram thanks Z! celebration lunch tomorrow?
trevorzegras just txt me the deets, doll!
_alexturcotte thanks bro, and thanks for keeping the secret, even though you usually have loose lips
trevorzegras @/_alexturcotte i resent that
colecaufield MY BEST FRIENDS ARE GETTING MARRIED!! CONGRATS YOU GUYS 🍾🎉🥳🥂💍
y/nonthegram thank you coley! 😙🤍
_alexturcotte thank you cole!
_quinnhughes when did you grow up? stop growing up! i’m happy for you two, but jeez y/n, i could’ve sworn you were still fourteen and stalking practices yesterday!
y/nonthegram hey! i never stalked practices! i simply liked to observe the sport!
y/nonthegram but thank you quinny 🤍 you’ll be my man of honor, right?
_quinnhughes it would be my pleasure, y/n/n
jackhughes hey! why is QUINN your man of honor and not me?!
y/nonthegram because if it’s you then you’re gonna wear a dress. you wanna be man of honor?
jackhughes ya know what? i’ll let Quinn be your man of honor. you’ve known him longest, so it’s only fair.
y/nonthegram that’s what i thought
lhughes_06 congratulations guys!! engagement party at the lake house?!
y/nonthegram engagement party at the lake house!
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drefear · 9 months
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Tears Don't Fall (Bullet For My Valentine)
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Let's go!
Katsuki Bakugou loved his wife more than anything. More than everything. So why? 
Why did he do that? 
Now she was on the ground of their home, their penthouse. Being a pro hero had given him the world, but she was his world and he did everything he could for her. Gave her diamonds and lavish clothing, spa trips and vacations. And in return, she had been loyal, given him two beautiful children and a lifetime of happiness. 
Why did he do that? 
He had no idea, but she was broken. He had broken her. Done the worst thing he could have possibly done and gotten caught. 
On a national fucking television site.
It was weeks ago, but it was just so much. A villain had targeted the school his kids went to and he didn’t get there until Midorya and Todoroki had, already working on getting survivors and victims out. He was lucky, his kids knew precautions and he had trained them on what to do, so they’d gotten out. 
But Midoriya’s… they weren’t as lucky. Midoriya had three, another on the way, and his middle child had gotten stuck between a falling piece of fire and a wall. 
Bakugou couldn’t stop playing Midorya’s face over and over again. He felt responsible for some reason, maybe if he’d gotten there on time then they’d have had enough hands to save all of those kids. Now he was on those stupid tubes and machines and Bakugou was crying at his desk. As he wrote the paperwork, his eyes wouldn’t stop smudging the black on his face. The only thing he wanted to do was hold his kids close at that moment. Hold his wife. 
With bloodshot eyes, I watch you sleeping The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading Would she hear me if I called her name? Would she hold me if she knew my shame?
But he was stuck in this stupid fucking office, and when the secretary knocked on the door, he lost all restraint. Grabbed the edge of the desk, he flipped it and she shrieked. He quickly regained control and slammed the door shut, knowing it wouldn’t look good if his anger got out. He’d worked too hard to get that under control since high school, he wouldn’t let it get him now. 
And then she was close to him. That tiny stupid blonde that always fucked up his lunch. She didn’t make it like his perfect wife. 
But his hands were too shaky. He couldn’t sign what she had for him, he couldn’t see straight, he couldn’t-
He couldn’t push her away when she kissed him. He couldn’t stop when she touched him, held him. 
He needed comfort and he couldn’t stop anymore, he was too far gone, too high strung. 
There's always something different going wrong The path I walk's in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me make things better?
A week later, a call came in through the telecoms of his office. 
“You have one week to get me 2 million dollars or that video plays on youtube.” His hands felt shaky again, and this time it wasn’t rage. It was fear. 
“I’ll have it to you in an hour, delete it immediately.” He said instantly. 
“An hour? Maybe I’m making this a bit too easy. How about 20?” 
“Do you want the money or for me to be scared? Because congrats, dumbass you did it. Delete it.” Bakugou was straining to not break the tiny office phone in his hands. His chest was heaving. 
“I want you to feel pain like I have. I want you to lose something.” 
Bakugou knew it. It was a sudden realization but he knew it. 
“Don’t. Please.” he begged and the laughter that came through was loud, strained. Insane. 
“Cmon now, Ground Zero! Don’t be so boring, you’re usually the life of the party!” 
Bakugou knew it would end with that stupid tape being public, but he didn’t think it would be this bad. 
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscience calls, the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscience calls, the guilty to come home
He saw it first when he was walking on patrol, someone glaring at him. He shrugged it off. Heroes were a controversial topic for everyone, he chalked it up to just that. He continued until he heard sounds. Pornigraphic sounds. Playing from that same person’s phone, he approached them. 
“Hey, you can’t be playing that shit-” 
“Ugh! Mr. Bakugou!” The phone sound rang out and his eyes fell to the screen they were previously looking at. It was a stupid little pink phone case, but he was on screen. And so was that blonde.  And he was running. Fast. He had to tell her before she found out like this. God, he knew he fucked up, he knew this was it, but he couldn’t let her find out from a fucking TMZ video.
The moments die, I hear no screaming The visions left inside me are slowly fading Would she hear me if I called her name? Would she hold me if she knew my shame?
Getting back to his office, he saw the blonde and sneered at her, then realizing she was bawling her eyes out. She must have seen, she was probably embarrassed. Young, dumb, she wasn’t in a good position either. He didn’t have time for her. He had to get home. Bakugou grabbed his clothing and bolted for his car. 
He sped. He didn’t care. His world was crumbling and he needed to at least make sure one last piece wasn’t completely shattered. The only piece that mattered to him.
There's always something different going wrong The path I walk's in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me make things better?
When he got home, he recognized Midoriya’s car and rushed to the top floor, his home. “DEKU!” He shouted and looked around after bursting through the door, seeing Izuku standing casually dressed in his kitchen with his children in their pajamas. He was holding some food and his kids ran to Bakugou. 
“Daddy!” They smiled and hugged him, as he bent down to hold them back, but his eyes never left Izuku’s. And Izuku’s were just as focused, shooting daggers at him. He deserved it, but he needed her right now. 
“Go to your rooms, bratz.” He chidded and patted their backs as they went off, Izuku tucking one hand in his pocket. They stood in silence and then Bakugou heard it. 
Ururaka’s voice, Momo’s consoling, and his wife’s cries. A part of him was crushed, turned to dust that instant. He was too late. Again. His fists shook by his sides and then raked through his blonde spikey hair.
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscience calls, the guilty to come home
“Deku-”
“Just go. Go in there and look at what you did for yourself.” Izuku leaned back against the counter and looked at the ground. “Ochaco and I are taking the kids tonight. They don’t need to see this.” And with that, he headed towards Bakugou’s kid’s rooms. Bakugou couldn’t even speak, his throat was dry. 
And his feet moved towards his bedroom door. His body shuddered, tears already streaming down his eyes. Knocking at the door, Momo was the first to answer. She opened it and stared at him for a second, then moving aside and walking out of the room. 
“Ururaka, let’s go. It’s time.” Momo’s voice was quiet. Bakugou didn’t move as the women brushed past him without a glance, then hearing his kids leaving with the three other pro heroes. 
Once the door shut, he felt empty. It was time to face her. Face his mistakes, and own it. And accept her choice. 
He opened the door a crack and saw his greatest fear.
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscience calls, the guilty to come home
She was in a ball on the floor, still as beautiful and perfect as the day they met, but this time, heartbroken and small. Her hair was a knotted mess, clothes stained with tears, hugging her knees to her chest. She was holding something, but he couldn’t make it out in the dark. 
He made small steps towards her and got on his knees before her, just grabbing her and holding her close. He didn’t know if he would ever get to again. 
This battered room I've seen before The broken bones they heal no more, no more With my last breath I'm choking Will this ever end? I'm hoping My world is over one more time
“I’m sorry… I’m so fucking sorry…” He whispered over and over and over, her whimpering the only other sound. A moment of this and then her cries roared, like she was being tortured, and he flinched. His own tears were blurring everything for him, but he wasn’t going to stop trying. Not now, not ever. “Please, baby… please. I love you, I swear, I was just distracted and I couldn’t get to you, and I was guilty about Midoriya and I just wanted to get home and see you, but then she walked it and I lost it, I lost it-” He was rambling, much like that damn nerd, but not about quirks, about his own fucking mistakes. 
A crack sounded out through the room, echoing off the walls. His face was sore, her hand leaving a red imprint on his cheek. He stared at her and her face was a combination of horrified and sad beyond comparison. He just closed his eyes and sniffled. 
“Do it again.” 
“What?” She whispered. 
“Do it until you feel it’s just. Hit me, kick me, punch me, I don’t care, just don’t- don’t stop loving me.” His eyes went back to hers and her body crumbled under his. Her hands fell against his chest weakly and her eyes closed again, his hands moving to cradle her head.  “I- I can’t…” She answered and Bakugou felt happiness for a split second before her next words ruined it. “I’m trying to… But I can’t.” 
Would she hear me if I called her name? Would she hold me if she knew my shame?
His world was over, nothing mattered, and whoever took that video was going to die.  “C-Carry me to the shower… please… I can’t walk and I just- I just want to-”
“Shhh I got it.” He answered and picked her up as she asked, carrying her to the bathroom and sitting her on the tub. He saw what was in her hands now. It was his tie from their wedding night, and his heart ached again. He began to help her undress, seeing the bags under her eyes and how red and puffy they were from her salty tears, lips dry and split from crying. Her hair looked like she’d run her fingers through a million times, almost painfully so. He hated seeing her like this, not when a month ago, they were planning their ten year anniversary. She was like a doll, so small and fragile right now, porcelain in his big, calloused hands. Her body looked hollowed, like she hadn't eaten yet that day. He stayed quiet, turning on the water and feeling it until it was her comfortable level of warmth.
There's always something different going wrong The path I walk's in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me make things better?
After a moment, he lifted her and let her settle in, moving to let her relax in peace. But something caught his hand, and he looked back down at the fragile woman in the tub. 
“Please… come in with me… I don’t want to be alone right now… I-I don’t have… the strength.” She mumbled and he sucked in a breath, pain surging through his veins. He hated this, but he would do anything she wanted. Forever. 
Removing his shirt, he felt the stress of the day hit him, muscles sore from work and then this all. He moved and took off his pants and underwear, shifting his weight and finally stepping in. He slid her forward slightly to sit her between his legs so he could hold her, cradle her as best he could. 
He felt her lean back and his hands moved to touch her skin, massage the ache she must have been having from sitting on the floor in a ball. He pushed the image away as he focused on kneading the woman’s tension. A comfortable sigh left her and he felt a swell of relief inside of him. This was… good, to say the least. They weren’t fighting, she didn’t hate him, and he was seeming to do almost everything right. He leaned his forehead to her temple and let his eyes close, feeling her reciprocate and nuzzle in closer. 
“Forgive me…” he whispered, “please… I can’t live without you.” 
“Katsuki…” Her voice cracked as she said his name, his hand brushing the wet hair stuck to her face behind her ear. “I want to… I do…” 
“Then I’ll do whatever it takes to fix this, to get you back, to keep you with me…” he answered, the rasp in his voice always soothing her, reminding her who she was talking to. “I love you too much to let myself ruin this…” She nodded at his words and he left a kiss on her temple, where his forehead had been, while a tear rolled down his cheek. 
After a bit of just silence in the bathtub, he got them both out and dry, then helped her change into pajamas and brushed her hair. He’d take care of her, make sure she didn’t do anything for herself. After that, he went to the kitchen and called his office.
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscience calls, the guilty to come home (tears don't fall) Your tears don't fall, they crash around me (conscience calls) Her conscience calls, the guilty to come
“I’m taking two weeks off. Fire the girl, make sure my next assistant is a man. Cancel everything in my calendar for the next few weeks. My phone is going off and it’s not turning back on until I get back. Understood?” 
“Bakugou,” he heard Sero’s voice, then a sigh and Kirirshima in the background, “do what you gotta do man, just don’t fuck it up again.” 
“Get her back, and man up to it, dude. I believe in you.” Kirirshima spoke after the other and there was a second of quiet. 
“Thank you guys. I owe you one for this. Really.” His grip on his cellphone tightened as he spoke and he knew they didn’t know how to react to his sensitive side. Only she did. “I’ve got to go.” He hung up and grabbed water and her favorite snack, chips and ketchup. It was so weird and gross and unnatural to him, but she loved it and he loved it because she loved it.
Going back into the bedroom, he put down the water and the bowl of chips, sitting across from her. 
“You need to eat something.” 
“I’m not hungry.” She whispered. 
“No, you’re depressed because I’m an ass, take one bite and I promise you’ll realize how hungry you are.” One bite turned into three into ten into the bowl, and soon it was empty. He brought it to the kitchen and went back to her, standing next to the bed. “I think- maybe I should sleep in the guest room.” 
“But… I’ll get cold…” she mumbled, “I mean, I just- I haven’t slept alone… in almost ten years…” His heart was jumping with joy. Holy shit, this was good. He nodded and moved to get in next to her. 
“I won’t touch you unless you-“ 
“Shut up, Katsuki.” She finally spoke directly and with volume, “just shut up.” And she pulled him close, head on his chest as she grabbed the light remote and hit a button, putting them in the pitch back darkness. He was stiff, a bit scared to move. His wife had never been a direct person, so gentle with her words and actions, but this made her really toughen up and set him straight. He relaxed and left a hand on her head, petting her hair and soon she was asleep. 
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me (conscience calls) Her conscience calls, the guilty to come home
Bakugou didn’t sleep at all. He was watching her the whole time, admiring her, praying that this would never end. And when she mumbled his name in her sleep and pulled him tighter to her, he knew. He would do everything for her. There was nothing in this world that could keep him from her, and he would make damn sure of that forever more. 
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kimsmuse · 9 months
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yandere childhood friend ♡ !!
gender neutral!reader. 1.7k words. warnings for irrational obsession for the reader. i'm not sure what it is but the guy is very, very delusional. i'm not sure what to think of this piece, but this one goes out for 🤏🍷anon, i loved the yandere drummer you drew so much so i hope you like this :) !!
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“here,” you bring the flower to his face but he’s still annoyed. lately, he’s annoyed by almost everything, was teenage so bad? you wouldn’t know yet. your best friend is almost 2 years older than you and only holds the position because you've been practically be forced to get along with each other, courtesy of your family being great friends.
he scrunches up his face. “i'm allergic, you should know that.” he responds, not even looking up from his homework. “make me a paper bouquet, then we’ll see.”
the first time you realized that you liked your bestfriend was the first time that he realized that romance was not his cup of tea and with you? no way in hell. he hated the idea of cheesy romcoms and pop songs, it disgusted him and he made a point of making it obvious.
but you were young, just about 12 or something, and he was the only one close enough to fantasise about, so you did - doodled hearts around his initials and yours, “2gether 4ever ♡” and made it so obvious to the adults around you that they often teased you about it, much to your friend’s dismay.
and the crush was so strong that the moment you went home, you were on youtube, looking for ways to make a paper flower, and then piecing it all together.
“bed time, now,” your mother calls out and you proudly show off your paper bouquet to her, “is that for him?” she asks, amused at your efforts to be seen by your crush. you nod.
“aw, baby, as much as i love his mother as my bestfriend, that kid doesn’t deserve you,” she kisses your forehead.
yes, there were times when it felt like your heart was breaking into pieces or however those songs called it, when you saw him around school hanging out with other girls and not even acknowledging your presence. but when you went home and he excitedly told you about the new game he was playing, you fell all over again. besides, this is what happened in the music videos, right? there will be a day when he sees you like that too, when he’ll be long over this phase of shouting “ew, ew, ew,” when his parents kiss and be a more mature guy.
you did think that. but it was always in such a future tense that it never seemed realistic enough, it seemed far, far away. and when you actually reached that time period, your family had to move away, dad got a job somewhere else.
so you left that paper bouquet, (which quite frankly you didn’t have the courage to give it to him in fear that he might mock you that he told you to make it for him and you did? what a fool…) and a letter detailing your feelings for him.
but obviously it didn’t hold much depth, as you can imagine, a preteen detailing their infatuation.
but long after you were gone, your friend started to do something which he never thought he would do, ever. he was missing you.
he missed you when he came home from school and there was no one to talk to, or no one to taunt about how much he hated a particular thing and not have you judge him. it was just so awesome on how you had never judged him for anything, because he was sure if he kept on repeating on how much he hated taylor swift to some other girl in his grade, she'd probably have flipped him off, even if she, herself hated her. that was the level of repetitive he could get.
but he missed you, making those random cakes with your mother and you ran down to him to make him taste it first and he acted disgusted. “this is the worst, did you put in salt instead of sugar?” and you still had a smile on your face when you answered. “no, i just tasted it.”
he fiddled with the paper bouquet you left him for a long while after that, thinking about that afternoon and many others like that again and again. he could just… call you but his ego wouldn’t let him. and he was so disappointed over the fact that you were talking to his mother almost every other day, but you never asked for him?
it was hurtful.
but he couldn’t just ignore it. even when it was the only thing he wanted to do, ignore you, keep you out of his mind. but even when in high school he began going on dates and dances, he kept coming back to the paper flowers you left him.
he didn’t have any allergies. he was just messing with you. he never knew you'd actually do it. just like he never thought you'd actually leave, or that he'd ever miss you like this.
when he was out of the local college, he was sure that he was going to come to you, he knew the city where you lived through his parents' daily conversation at the dinner table. you were still in college, about an year or two remaining and he looked for jobs in your area.
when he found one, he was absolutely relieved. he told his parents it was one of the best opportunities in his career and it was, just not in his career, but it helped that the city you were in was quite famous and the job wasn’t bad either.
so when he finally takes your number from his mother and calls you.
he’s so delighted to hear your voice, even though it has changed a lot. and you’re happy too! you sound really happy when you say that you're excited to meet him.
and oh, you’re right, he never considered your angle on it, you must have missed him so much! oh, poor thing, the move must have been so harsh to you. maybe the reason you didn’t ask his mom to give him the call was because it'd simply hurt too much to talk to him without being near him. right? this had to be the only explanation.
so when he moves in and settles into his apwrtment, he calls you in the morning, and you give him a recommendation for a cafè nearby, “it’s a good one, i think you'll like it,”
see! you know him so well!
he arrives there a few minutes late, but you’re already there. oh, you still love him so well.
but midway through drinking overexpensive coffees and reminiscing the old times, he chokes on his drink.
he honestly thinks you’re kidding.
“what?” he wants you to repeat it again.
“i said, i’m not in love with you, my friend, i’ve moved on,”
the friend stings more than applying sanitizer on a cut, he swears. but it was just unbelievable, you were just running after him (not quite literally, pardon him, he’s a little delusional) begging for him (again, he’s delusional) to make him go on a date with you, with the last part being true. you did want him to go on a date with you, but you respected his decisions.
yes, you did have the worst and incredibly humiliating crush on your childhood friend, but it was just all that was in your opinion, a crush that started when you were 12 because he was the only one you hung out with and spent all your time with and so you were convinced, from ages 12 to 16 almost that this was the guy you’d marry and start a family with, you’d already picked out the names for them. but the problem was? he didn’t like you back.
your childhood friend had better things to do, like all teenage guys do, ofcourse, but he was always stuck with the feeling that he didn’t want you, he physically cringed when at joint dinner sometimes both of your parents would joke about you both dating, it was just something that was unimaginable for him at that point. only at that point though.
he was too busy going out on dates with random people, unbeknownst to how much he was hurting you (because in his defense, he was just a kid and he wasn’t quite sure how deep your feelings ran).
but now? why not now?
he had finally realized that it was you he liked, genuinely. And now you say this? It was absolutely heartless, did you not even stop to consider his feelings, even for once? Did the fact that you loved him before mean nothing to you?
“why don’t you love me anymore? or are you lying? to avenge your hopeless pining and me turning you away, is that it? please, talk to me. please.”
“it was a childhood crush, they eventually go away,” you don’t know what more he wants to say to you.
“but i… but you,”
“there are no but's here, if you came here looking for me because you’re realizing your feelings almost 8-9 years later then it's absurd because did you really think i would wait for you that long? i have a life now, i have a boyfriend and.. just grow up, you have a job here you should focus on that.”
you mentally made a note to stay the fuck away from this guy, because he was spewing some crazy, crazy shit. never in your wildest dreams did you ever think he would come back and be insistent on his feelings, it was all like a fever dream.
“am i that bad..?” he whispers softly, you look up at him, he has both of his hands on the table and his head hanging down. great, he's crying now. “i'm sorry i was so rude to you before.”
“look, it's fine, okay? we were both kids and i don't even hold it against you, i didn’t back then and i still don't. so go live your life and move on,”
you didn’t think you could bear to stay sitting there for a minute more, so you got up and went to the counter to pay and without a second glance, you left the cafè.
all the while, your childhood friend is still sitting there, not looking up.
“i.. i can’t do that,” and he looks up and wipes his tears, he didn’t come all the way here just to get disheartened so easily, did he?
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cheeseceli · 3 months
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Scared?
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Pairing: Lee Know × Gn!Reader
Genre: fluff, drabble, friends to ??
Request: would you be down to write some Lee Know fluff about reader being scared of cats but slowly overcoming her fears with Linos help?
Warnings: not proofread, Lee know is a softie
A/n: as someone who is scared of cats, I need this to happen to me irl lmao. I hope you like it!
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Minho knew there was something wrong when he called you to pet this stray cat and you didn't even move. You just stood in the middle of the sidewalk while staring at the cat. There was a different glint in your eyes, something Minho couldn't quite identify yet.
"Y/n?"
You looked at him, still not moving an inch "you can pet it."
"You're not coming?" you just shook your head and fixed your gaze at the cat once more, which was laying down in the shadow. He looked so unbothered but you looked so tense "... Why?"
"I'm..." you lowered your voice, a bit embarrassed, a bit scared he'd tease you "afraid of cats."
For a whole minute no one said anything. You were still staring at the cat like it could attack you at any second and Minho was looking at you confused. It's true you never got to see his cats. He doesn't even know how the topic was never brought up before. He was obsessed with his cats and you'd always listen to him and watch the videos he filmed of them excitedly. You'd always send him reels and tiktoks about cats. He just assumed you'd love the animal in real life too, but apparently that was not the case.
You averted your eyes from the cat when you saw your friend stretch his hand towards you, motioning for you to hold it.
"I'm not coming any closer to this cat, Min."
"Trust me."
You could hear in his voice that he had no intention of teasing or scaring you. You couldn't help but drift closer to him and, hesitantly, hold his hand. It wasn't often that you'd have this sort of physical contact into your friendship, but it felt so right for a moment. You wished you could see his reaction to the touch, but he was looking forward, leading you both to the cat and leaning down to pet it. You don't know if it was on purpose, but you were glad he put himself in between the cat and you, as if he was your protection.
With his free hand, he started to caress the stray animal. It still looked unperturbed, like it paid no mind to what was happening. Minho looked at you with a little smile:
"See? It's okay."
Your breathing was still unsteady and your shoulders were still stiff. However, you were slowly getting comfortable with the idea of the cat not causing you any harm. Once Minho saw that your eyes weren't as scared as they once were, he called you: "do you want to caress it?"
And just like that the panic returned to your features.
You were going to distance yourself from both of them out of reflex, but you stopped when you felt Minho's hand on yours, kindly remembering you that everything was okay.
"I don't think this is a good idea" you replied with nothing but a whisper.
"You can put your hand over mine if you'd like."
You were hesitant to do it, even so you gave in when you saw his eyes. When it came to him, you knew his eyes could tell way more than his words. He was trying to convey the safety he was willing to give to you. You breathed deeply before coming closer to him. It's alright.
Minho tried, unsuccessfully, to contain his smile as he brought your hand over his and then placed it in the cat's fur.
It felt weird. You were the one who was facing your fear yet he was the one feeling all the conflicting emotions. He was proud of you. He was nervous because of the proximity. He was questioning his behaviour. It was in fact weird.
"I'm gonna remove my hand now, okay?"
Your breath hitched for a second. You really didn't want to be alone with the cat. As if he could read your mind, he gently whispered: "I'm still here. I'm not leaving."
With that last reassurance you nodded your head, already preparing yourself for the worst outcome possible. What would hurt the most, its claws or its fangs?
Surprisingly, nothing happened. The cat's pelage was soft. It didn't even move, just purred, like you had its approval. You allowed yourself to smile a bit, moving your hand up and down softly as to not startle the animal. Minho chuckled by your side, content with the results.
You were almost getting truly comfortable when the cat got bored of staying still for so long and decided to get up with no previous warning. The movement scared you, who retreated immediately with a gulp.
You were sure you were going to fall into the pavement and probably die of embarrassment until you felt Minho's hand in your back, holding you safely. That was until he lost his balance and fell, taking you both down.
He looked at you with worried eyes. He didn't think the cat would've moved so soon. He shouldn't have backed down. Now you were probably with some scratches, even more scared of the pet and... Laughing.
You were laughing. Like, a lot. Your cheeks were wet from the tears that were spilling and you were holding your tummy like it hurt from laughing so much. Needless to say that Minho was confused. "Are you... Okay?"
"Yeah" you replied, accompanied by a hiccup "yeah, I'm good. The cat didn't even bother to stay."
He followed your gaze to the other side of the street, where the cat was heading to now. He chuckled slightly, still worried about you. But you seemed okay, now drying your face with your sleeves.
"So, still scared of cats?"
"A bit. They don't seem like they will immediately kill me now, at least."
Minho openly laughed this time. He managed to get up and stretched his hand for you to grab it.
"C'mon. Now you can meet Dori, Soonie and Doongie."
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Dividers by @saradika-graphics
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trueshellz · 2 years
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Warnings: female reader, pregnancy, swearing, babies mentioned, hormones, some fluff that came to mind today
Set in the same timeline as THIS and THIS
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Sending Bakugou to go on patrol even though you're heavily pregnant, feet swollen and hips sore despite doing your stretches with him this morning. He's worried, frowning at you over the dining table when you push his mask into his hands (usually his gauntlets, but there ain't no way in hell you're picking those up when you're carrying that precious bundle). And he's worried the whole time, checking his phone and ensuring it's on loud not vibrate in case you or his mum call him.
It's an hour until he comes home and suddenly, he glances down for the umpteenth time and his battery is dead. Empty. Black screen, no matter how many times he presses the side buttons and he wants to throw the damned thing off the bridge for dying on him, even though he knows it's his own damned fault for messaging you every five minutes and checking the house cameras in case you've fallen over and cant get back up again. (The one time you sat down on the beanbag and couldnt lift yourself up, he came home to you in tears still stuck in that same place) His name being called loudly across the street as Kirishima runs at him, his mask in one hand as his eyes almost bug out his skull. The phone in his hand thrust into his face, Bakugou fearing the worst and panicking until he realises it's you on the other end yelling at him.
"Katsuki, you idiot."
"I-"
He barely gets a chance to speak when you're keening in pain, his eyes widen as he starts running to the hospital... except goes the wrong way and has to turn around again.
"Motherfu-"
"I'm on the way. Don't have the baby without me."
"Yeah, lemme just cross my legs." A gasp as you whine in pain, he can hear his mum in the background soothing you and honestly, he can't get there quick enough.
He's barely stuck his head into the room when you throw something at him, ducking down and hearing it crash to the floor as he glances back to see a paper bowl lying there. He would laugh but his mum pats his shoulders as he walks by and the look on her face tells him that would be a bad, bad idea. Closing the door behind himself, he nods at the nurses who, at this point, know him all too well before sitting on the chair next to your bed. (Learning the first time that he needed to stay at your head, not down by your legs even though he had already seen every inch of you)
"This is all your fault!"
What?!
"Babe, listen. I-"
Hands held up in surrender, he's vaguely aware of all the nurses and midwives smirking while they tend to you. Your skin all flushed and shiny, you look tired and your brows are furrowed in that cute way he loves so much. Your legs are up in the stirrups you hate with a passion and you're chomping on ice like it's going out of style... but you're still the most beautiful person in the world.
"Katsuki! Get that look off your face. That look got me pregnant. No!"
"What look? I was just thinking about how gorgeous my wife is."
Eyes narrowed at him, you reach over to grab his hand for support when another contraction hits, grunting low and long as you feel the pressure work through your body. Your knuckles white as you squeeze his hand, he doesn't even bat an eyelid at the force you're putting on him just reaches across and tucks your hair back before kissing your knuckles.
"No more babies, Katsuki."
A chuckle as you open your eyes and try to glare at him, failing when he raises a brow.
"You said that the last two times as well, babe. I even have that on video."
Fuck.
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What would Bucky do if he came home and saw Baby trying to hurt herself?
Wrong Number AU
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𝐖𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐍𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐛𝐥𝐞
𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤!𝐁𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐲 𝐁𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐬 𝐱 𝐅𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐥𝐞 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫
(𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝟏𝟖+ 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐔𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐮𝐭)
𝐅𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 @suzs-fic-library 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧 𝐨𝐧 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐀𝐔 𝐢𝐬 𝐮𝐩𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝
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Bucky didn’t know what to do, he didn’t know what he did wrong. The day had started out like it always did, he’d woken hard as a rock and sunk himself into your beautiful body before heading to the shower. Usually you would whimper, you’d groan and whine and eventually you’d beg him, he’d feel you clamping down on his cock as you came and he’d kiss you through it as he pumped you full of his cum. You’d been quieter than usual this morning when he’d fucked you but he hadn’t thought anything of it.
Bucky had made you breakfast like he usually did - muesli, Greek yogurt and some fresh fruit- and you’d barely touched it. You shook your head when he asked if you were going to shower, and he could admit to himself that he’d had a frisson of pleasure at the thought of you wearing his scent all day, slick and creamy between your thighs with his seed spilling out of you, so he’d pressed a kiss to your lips, tweaked at your nipple and headed out. He hadn’t planned on being long, but the day had gotten away from him.
Every time he’d called you’d barely spoken to him, he’d video called you and you were still in bed. No TV, no books, he could see your breakfast still untouched in the background, and you wouldn’t answer his texts.
You weren’t talking to him and he didn’t know why.
For a week it had been like this now, your face would remain blank no matter what he did, your body might respond to his touch but you no longer let him inside your head, your heart, and it hurt.
“Baby? Baby, talk to me, please?” Bucky sighed, resting his forehead against yours, his lips ghosting over the bridge of your nose, “Can you tell me what I did wrong, at least? Let me try and make it better?” His heart broke when he saw tears swimming in your eyes, and you turned away from him.
You looked beautiful in the early morning light, golden rays making your skin glow a shade he was so proud to be the only one to see, but he couldn’t enjoy it, not when you were wasting away before his eyes. Not when you seemed like you hated him, like you couldn’t even look at him.
“I’m going out for a few hours, okay? Please try and eat? I even downloaded that old tv you mentioned you liked from when you were younger? You can… you can watch that…” Bucky voice trailed off when you started crying in earnest when he mentioned your happy memory from childhood and he had to turn away and leave you there.
It broke his heart to see you so sad and to not have any idea how to fix it.
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Bucky pulled over, he was only a few miles away from you but his emergency alarm blared through the tiny speakers in his motorcycles helmet, and his AI talked through it,
Fire in the kitchen, Sergeant Barnes.
His heart started to pound in fear, how the hell had a fire started? Were you okay? Were you hurt? When his AI answered, his fear turned cold,
Y/N was the one to start the fire.
Bucky growled, and gunned his bike as fast as he could back to the home he shared with you. What the fuck had you been thinking?!
When he came home and yelled that at you, he had to stop dead at the state of the kitchen, and then he rushed to you. The fire was out now - the suppression system had worked than god - but you stood there, eyes blank, and the robe he allowed you to wear when he wasn’t there singed and blackened.
The worst part was your hand, clearly burned, it looked so painful, but you just stand there, staring at the foam covered spot on the counter with so much anger and sadness that Bucky almost fell to his knees.
Almost.
“I didn’t hear an answer to my question, Baby!” Bucky wanted to take you in his arms, kiss everything better, tell you it was okay and he forgave you for ruining his kitchen, but he didn’t. Not yet, anyway. He wanted to know why you’d done this first.
“I just… I just wanted it to be over.” You finally met his eyes, over a week of not looking at him and you finally held his gaze, “You left some lighter fluid here, and I… I lit that instead of the candles.”
“You wanted to burn our home down? Yourself with it? You wanted to do that to me?” Bucky held your chin so you couldn’t look away from him, pouring all his love for you into his voice, “How could you do that to me, Baby? How could you even think to hurt yourself? Kill yourself like that?!”
“This isn’t my home, Bucky.” A single tear rolls down your face, “You keeping me here, locking the doors, feeding me meals… It’s not a happy home. I hate it here, and I hate you, and I hate my life. I just wanted it… over.”
There’s a moment when Bucky really looks at you, where he sees everything he is putting you through. Sees how exhausted and overwhelmed and scared you are, and how you always have been. Bucky sees it… but he doesn’t care.
“It’s not over until I say it is, and that’s not going to be until I put you in the ground.” Bucky still holds your chin, his fingers do doubt causing bruises, but he wants them there, wants the painful reminder to you to never try to hurt yourself again when he kissed you over the next few days.
That was his job.
“Get this kitchen cleaned up, then get showered. I’ll bandage your hand once that’s done, and then you can put yourself over my lap. You won’t be sitting comfortably for a while, Baby. That little bit of fire won’t hurt anywhere near as bad as my hand.” Bucky coaxes a kiss from you, the salt of your tears making him hard as he pulls the ruined robe from your skin, “You’re mine. Get fucking used to it, Baby.”
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strniohoeee · 5 months
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Pairing: The Triplets X Female Reader
Synopsis: Chris asked Y/N to join him and his brothers for a smoke session, but when readers lip gloss messes up the blunt they get mad, and Chris takes revenge👄
Warnings⚠️: Smoking a joint, and that’s all. This is based on a tik tok I saw. I’ll put it at the end of the story. I thought it was so funny, and had to write it😭
Song for the imagine: Wu-Tang Forever- Drake
The worst part about showing the triplets how to smoke was that they thought they had better weed than me. Because of this they would always call me over to test out their new weed.
My weed was always the best, but they’d never admit that. But hey a free joint is a free joint, so anytime they asked me to smoke with them to try their weed I was fine with it.
I think the runner up for best weed was Nick, and I’m not sure who the fuck his plug was, but that shit almost beat me, but key word ALMOST. Matt and Chris hated this because they wanted to be better than Nick so badly.
Today I filmed a get ready with me for my YouTube channel, so I did my makeup. I loved makeup, and I haven’t put my makeup on in so fucking long. I did a shimmery glitter on my lids with fluffy lashes, and a brown lip liner with super glossy lips.
I was getting ready to remove my makeup when I got a text
Nightmare Blunt Rotation😧🍃
-I got some new weedddddddd -Chris
-good for you…my shits better-Me
-Come smoke with us pleaseeeee-Nick
-ehhhhh I don’t know-me
-Not knowing if you want to smoke weed is bizarre. Get your ass over here-Matt
-I just filmed a video, and have to edit it for my channel-Me
-Who gives a fuck!!! Come over now- Chris
-Fine god damn- Me
-YAYYY! See you in 10? -Nick
-I was going to take off my makeup
-We can not wait for you to remove your makeup, and do a whole 30 minute skincare routine just come over here with your makeup on- Matt
-OMFG yall are down bad to smoke, fine-Me
-YESSSS see you in 10-Nick
I grabbed my purse and my water canister and headed out. Driving 10 minutes down the road
-Let me in bitches-me
10 seconds after sending that message Matt opened the door
“Yoooo bitch” I said hugging him
“Look at you with your face all done up, you look good” he said hugging me back
“Thanks” I said pulling away and following him up the stairs
“Have no fear the bad bitch is here” I said announcing my arrival
“Never say that shit again” Nick said giving me a dirty look
“Alright Mr. Crabby pants” I said rolling my eyes at him
“Ready to smoke the best weed of your life?” Chris asked showing me the joint in his fingers
“Yeah sure whatever you say” I said rolling my eyes at him
We headed outside to the yard, and sat in a circle
“Y’all go first I want to film some tik toks” I said
They all started smoking while I filmed some tik toks of myself
“I don’t know Y/N…..this shits good as fuck” Matt said to me
“Yeah let me see” I said taking the joint and taking a hit, letting it fill my lungs before exhaling
“What do we think?” Chris asked me
“Mmmm it’s good” I said shrugging my shoulders
“It’s better than what I had last time” Nick said
“Yeah it is better I will say, but I don’t know I like mine the most” I said to them
We continued to smoke, until Chris sucked his teeth
“The fuck is all this sticky shit” Chris said examining the joint
“Let me see” Nick said grabbing the joint and looking at it
“The fuck is this” he said laughing, Matt took the joint and looked at it
“It’s making the joint unravel” he said passing it to me so I can look at it
“Yall are so fucking dumb, that’s my lipgloss” I said laughing
“Who the fuck smokes with lipgloss on” Chris said
“Well me…yall didn’t let me remove my makeup, so suck it up. Lick all that brown lipgloss off” I said laughing at him
“You made it unravel” Matt said looking at me with a straight face
“MY BADDDD” I said laughing and applying more lip gloss
“Stop putting that shit, I’m about to roll another joint, and you’re not fucking this one up” he said beginning to roll another joint
“Hoes mad” I said shrugging my shoulders
I took my phone out to film a tik tok
“These fuckers are mad that I got lip gloss on the joint, like can’t a bad bitch smoke in peace” I said to the camera
“Not when it’s making the joint unravel” Chris said
“Yall this is my nightmare blunt rotation….I can’t even smoke with my lip gloss on” I said shaking my head
“Take that shit off” Nick said laughing
“NEVERRRR LET ME LIVE” I said to him
I looked back at the camera “He mad cause my lip gloss is poppin” I said
Suddenly Chris leaned over, and wiped my mouth with the back of his hand wiping all my lipgloss off
My mouth dropped and all my lip gloss was gone…..
They all started to laugh behind the camera
“Chris your fucker” I said leaning over and smacking him
I ended the video, and posted it. Immediately it started to get so many views. All their fans were dying laughing, saying how this is such Chris behavior
“Your fans are on my side you bitch” I said to Chris
“Too fucking bad don’t be smoking my shit with gloss on” he said making a funny face at me.
We finished the second joint, and just sat outside laughing and talking, and we eventually ordered some food. We filmed tik toks and watched some movies.
The End
Hope yall enjoyed this one. This was personal self indulgence LMAOOO😭🖤
-J💅🏽
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justmeinatree · 4 months
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01 - Astoria : Ripplin On By
Summary : you find yourself trapped on a pirate ship, desperate to be saved. or is the pirate that needs saving …
feels far from home close to the veil, goodbye mother’s fairytale
TW : murder, talks of sexual assault
Word Count : 5k
A/N : we can all thank @niallthebadboi for reminding me of the niall/james corden halloween music video 🤐
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“oi, mate. mate, come here,” he whispers, his index finger in a come hither motion.
niall’s ears perk up, the quietness of the lower deck echoing even the faintest of sounds. he looks behind him, spotting one of the crew members, furrowing his eyebrows, “what is it ? m’a little busy.”
with his boots sludging through the thick waters on the bottom deck of the boat, the smell of the salt water mixed in with mould due to the slowly rotting wood, niall was filtering through boxes upon boxes. he knows he can find what he’s looking for, if he’s just given enough uninterrupted time. christ, there’s a lot of shit down here.
“did you hear ? there’s supposedly a lass on board.”
and well that, makes niall laugh, shaking his head, “don’t tell me you’ve fallen for that rumour. no way there’s a lady on this ship. not a single lass, in her right mind, would board onto a boat with a bunch of pirates. bloody death wish if she does,” he adds, muttering to himself.
“nah, s’not a rumour lad. can’t you feel it ?” he hums, smirking, dirty brown teeth poking through his chapped lips. “we can all tell. the energy’s different. oh what i would do to get my hands on a sweet young lady.”
“bloody disgusting you,” niall laughs, shaking his head. although he can’t help but fantasize about a woman from time to time. spending the majority of his adult life on a ship full of men, and maybe, just maybe, he can feel some sort of shift in the air. but that could simply be all the idiots up on deck getting themselves worked up for nothing. it’s not like it’s the first time niall hears about rumours like this one.
“can’t tell if i’d rather have a little taste, or pray for her wellbeing when she’s found,” he hums, shaking the thoughts out of his head, making his way back up, calling down to niall, “whoever finds her first gets first dibs.”
niall huffs, turning around and getting back to his task at hand. there was obviously nothing to get worked up about. because there was obviously no girl on the ship. they haven’t ported in almost a week now, no way a lady would have made it this long. pirate ships aren’t exactly anything close to nice accommodations.
but for now, he searches through crate upon crate, why they had so much crap stuffed away down here, he’ll never know. no one ever comes down here anyway, it’s too sludgy and too rotten. it’s not until he rounds a corner that he hears the small squeak. he’s no stranger to rats and mice, but this, well this wasn’t quite it.
peering over, he spots someone. 
you were terrified. fear stricken over your features, back pressed against a wall ? some boxes ? you weren’t sure. it felt like your breath had caught into your throat, fingertips going slightly numb, unable to move an inch, as you stare back at him, panic settling into every bone in your body.
“hey,” niall hums, confusion etched on his face, because fuck, there really was a girl on this ship. 
you coward back at the sound of his voice, small whimper leaving your chest, barely heard over the creaking of the old wood. your eyes squeezed shut, ready for the worst. it was hard to see his face, only small cracks of daylight filtering through the old wood to illuminate the dampened space. and with his hat perched upon his head, the specks of clarity weren’t quite reaching his face.
“no, no, s’alright,” niall murmurs, hand darting out for you, quickly retreating it when he notices you flinch away.
“please dont hurt me,” you hiccup, tears filling your eyes.
“m’not gonna hurt you, it’s okay,” he coos, trying to muster up as much calm as he can. although he can’t say he’s felt much of anything remotely close to calm since joining this crew.
“no,” you hiccup again, bottom lip starting to tremble, pressing yourself impossibly further back. “i- i heard yo-you talking,” you stutter. “i know you’re gonna-a hurt me.”
“no, no,” niall coos, shaking his head. “that’s not-. you heard the othe-.” he sighs, biting his lip and starting over. “m’niall, what’s your name, love ?”
“dont call me that,” you huff, the tiniest bit of bite to your voice.
that pulls a smile from niall, a slight breathy chuckle, “alright, m’sorry. how about you tell me your name so i know what to call you.”
“y/n,” you murmur around a few deep breaths, trying to regulate your heart as your brain determines if there’s any imminent threat or not.
“y/n,” he hums, tasting it out on his tongue. “what are you doing on this ship ? s’not safe for you.”
“i messed up,” you peep quietly, fresh tears gathering in your eyes. “everyone was gone, and i just picked a boat. didn’t think there were pirates ported at the docks.”
niall bites back a laugh, not wanting to upset you, but still, what were the odds really. he doesn’t think he’s ever met someone with such bad luck. “we have to eat too,” he chuckles, “gotta reach port sometimes. have ya seriously been here all week ?”
you nod softly, sighing, “when they started coming back onto the ship, i ran down. just kept running. v’been hiding out here. you’re the first one to come down this far below deck.”
“you’ve been down here all week ?” he asks, shocked, eyes grown wide. “fuck, you can’t stay down here that long, you’ll get sick. there’s too much mould for you to breathe in.”
“i’ll take my chances,” you murmur, biting your lip, looking up at him with desperation, “s’better than going up there with the crew.”
and well, niall cannot disagree there. thinks he’d rather live down here with the rot and the sludge if the alternative was to head up to the crew and have every shred of his being ripped apart. so he nods, looking sadly at you, because you’re right, there’s no denying it. “must be hungry then. how about i get you some food ? try to track down some fresh water,” he suggests. 
at that, you perk up, eyes shining with some level of hope for the first time, in a week, apparently. you nod, looking hopeful at niall, asking curiously, “when’s the next time we dock ?”
“not for at least another week, m’afraid,” he sighs, adding a bit more enthusiastically, “don’t think about that right now, just sit tight, i’ll be right back.”
and with that niall was off, bounding up the steps, loud wooden creaks echoing under each of his boots. he makes a bit of small talk with a few other crew mates as he passes them, fishing through crates and flour sacks full of beans, biscuits, and salted dried meats, grabbing a good handful of each, tucking them into his satchel. 
unfortunately, he doesn’t remember a single day as a pirate where he’s actually had access to water. it’s always been beers and ales and rums. at least that’s what’s made readily available. 
if he was going to find water, he’s going to have to sneak around, and sneaking around takes time. time he doesn’t think he has. for some reason, he fears for your safety. you were so innocent, so fragile, so full of fear when he found you gazing back at him. he can’t even begin to imagine what the others would do if they found you. doesn’t think he’ll be able to live with himself if he has to watch that innocence get wiped off your pretty porcelain face. he may be a pirate, but his mam raised a good man.
and although the crew typically never hits the lowest deck, one of them is bound to discover you. especially with the flying rumour of a young lass on board.
so he decides, for now, that some ale is the best he can do in terms of beverage, figuring he’ll have more time to sneak around once all the lads are passed out drunk for the night.
when he returns to the lowest deck, he finds you sitting on one of the large crates, feet tucked up to give your poor skin a break from the constant saturation. he feels his heart grow heavy. a now foreign feeling to him, as he’s learned to grow a thick callous around his emotions. if he spends too much time contemplating his life decisions over the last decade, he’ll throw himself overboard. there are countless moments for which he’s significantly less than proud of. murder being a number of them. he’s just had to do what he’s had to do.
but with you, being dealt a really bad hand, stuck on a pirate ship, condemned to a level that the pirates themselves don’t really come to, he feels real sadness, and real fear, and real protectiveness. he wants to help you. he’s not sure why, he’s never felt the need to help anyone. but seeing that desperation in your eyes, and the sheer willpower you’ve held onto for this long, he empathizes with you in ways he’s not even sure he fully understands.
niall trudges over to you, placing his satchel down on the crate next to you, opening it up to show you its contents. “sorry it’s nothing better. s’really all that survives the long trips.”
“don’t worry about it, please. it’s food,” you smile, reaching in and taking a handful of beans. 
“i couldn’t find any water,” he sighs, “that one’s going to be a bit harder to come by. i’ll go lurking later tonight, when they’re all passed out,” he nods towards the upper deck, where the crew are currently working. “for now though, i hope ale’s okay ? at least it’ll fix the thirst for a bit, yeah ?” he hums hopefully.
your smile only grows wider, swallowing down a bite of the biscuit you had reached for, “niall, don’t make a fuss,” you murmur softly. “you’ve gotten me a meal, and you’ve been nothing but kind to me. i really appreciate all of it,” you hum, taking a sip and another bite, finding yourself hungrier than you thought. the slowly waning adrenaline causing your body to need a  refuel.
“it’s no problem,” niall smiles, “really. just want you to stay safe, and to make it off this ship unharmed.”
you feel heat rise to your cheeks, your eyes trained down on the food he’s provided. you could not have a crush on a pirate. you. could. not. you had to get off this ship and never, ever, look back. fuck.
you take a deep breath, looking over at him, “you seem too nice to be a pirate.”
niall’s mouth quirks up in a smirky smile, breathy chuckle rumbling from his chest, he shakes his head, “there’s a lot of nice lads here. but pirate mentality tends to take over and the next thing you know, you’re doing something you’d never ever thought of doing.”
your eyes lock with his, reading him for a moment, a silent moment, as you both exchange a sad, knowing gaze, “would it have been different if you weren’t alone when you found me ?”
at that, niall sighs, shoulders deflating. he reaches up on his head, gripping his hat and taking it off, resting it on the crate, behind you. it’s the first time you see him without it, expecting to finally get a glace at his hair, you’re only slightly disappointed to see a tattered, muted green bandana wrapped around his head. although you do note peaks of brown tousles poking through behind his ears and by his neck. small hoops pierced through his lobes.
without his hat, more light hits his eyes, which you note are a deep blue. his skin was tanned, darkened from long days in the blistering sun. he’s gorgeous. you cannot. cannot. have a crush on a pirate.
“i’d like to believe that i would have stood up for you,” niall murmurs. “like to believe that when i saw that look in your eyes, i’d be getting them away from you. can’t even begin to imagine the alternative, to be honest, darling.”
you let the pet name slide, too caught up with the fact that he keeps saying he’d like to believe. it’s not quite as reassuring as you’d hoped. you aren’t completely sure how much you can trust him yet. after all, a bit of food is a nice peace offering, but he hasn’t proven himself just yet.
it’s a few hours after that, before you see niall again. he does need to spend some time, enough time, with the crew, working. he can’t let anyone notice that he’s gone too long. or at least, where he’s going. if any of the lads find out that he’s spending time down there, they’ll suspect something. he needs to do this very delicately. needs to be smart about this. 
as he returns, he smiles wide at you, waving a pair of boots around. “smallest ones i could find, keep your feet dry.”
your eyebrows furrow squinting your eyes, the darkness of early evening settling, less and less daylight filtering through the small cracks in the wood.
“s’hard to see innit ?” niall hums, patting his pants, fingers finding some matches in one of the pockets, striking one against a crate to light it, the dim flame just enough to illuminate his face and the pair of boots he’s holding up.
“you got me some boots ?” you look up at him, a burst of warmth spreading through your chest, biting your lip softly as you reach for them, slipping them on. “these are perfect,” you hum, clicking your feet together.
niall searches the walls and ceiling, finding a small gas lamp, unhooking it from its perch, and lighting it. a small corner of space sees proper lighting for the first time in a long time. taking a look around, he thinks he prefers it when it’s dark.
but upon looking over at your feet, he sees you were exaggerating quite a bit. the boots were far from perfect, much too big on you. “you seem to be handling all of this really well for someone as prim and proper as you are.”
you laugh, a true laugh, your first one in god knows how long, shaking your head. “didn’t grow up like this,” you explain, hands waving up and down to display your expensive dress. “one of the richest men in town, for some reason, had his sights set on me.”
“make that sound like a bad thing,” niall hums, hoisting himself up on the crate across from you, setting his hat down again.
“i hate him,” you murmur vehemently. and again, you both lock eyes in a silent moment, the flame flickering a dim glow over both of your features, intensifying the connection. 
niall snaps out of it first, “wanted to bring you the boots, and check in on ya. it’s gotten pretty dark out, the crew’ll be out cold in a bit. i’ll try to find you some water. i’ll be back. keep that light, makes it a little less glum.”
and again, he’s off, just as quickly as he came. you were forever grateful for the bits of company. and the little things he’d bring you every time he dropped on by. in the meantime though, you were lonely. tucked away in the depths of despair, longing and awaiting for your gorgeous pirate’s return.
christ, stop. you did not have a crush. you did not. however, you could admit to yourself that having a place of escape, in your mind that is, helped pass the time a little bit. a place where you and niall were on a grand adventure at sea, wind billowing in your hair, fresh salty air, nothing but beautiful sunsets on the horizon.
how you longed for a breath of fresh air. to feel the wind on your skin. it was getting increasingly hard to be held up like you were. you had no idea that rot and severe lack of sunlight could affect someone so quickly.
you were growing increasingly desperate. and thinking back, niall had mentioned countless times that the crew pass out cold at night. maybe you could sneak around too ? just enough to make it a bit higher up. 
this was foolish, you kept telling yourself as you take slow steps towards the stairs, and yet, you couldn’t stop yourself. it’s like if your body could feel its impending death if it stayed put. your sheer will to have some clean air seemingly taking over the fear for a split moment. 
you were two floors up before you started noticing signs of life. sticking to the empty staircase, peering over quietly to notice breathing lumps of men, tucked into hammocks slung around randomly. 
continuing on your way, you stop a few steps from the very top, sitting on it, not risking being seen on the wide open deck. you breathe in deeply, crisp nighttime air filling your lungs. tilting your head back, eyes blinking up, you notice the vast array of stars. smiling to yourself, you enjoy a moment of calm. 
that is, until you hear some sounds from below you. what seems to be a conversation. and by the rumbling, tumbling steps, and the slurring, cackling voices, you’d best believe they were drunk. with the sounds getting louder, they were heading up to the top deck.
panic rising in your chest, your eyes dart from side to side, figuring there was nowhere to go but up. you climb the rest of the stairs, finding the large expanse of the ship to be empty. rushing, you look around to find a hiding spot, just about to take your first step towards a barrel, when a bone chilling sentence hits your brain. 
“well, well, well. look at what we have here.”
“hmm, pretty young lady. looks like we get to have some fun tonight.”
you whimper, frozen in fear, hearing the loud chuckle from behind you, “i get her first !” one of them shouts, surging forward and gripping your shoulder. he walks you forward towards the very barrel you were planning to dash for, just moments ago, pressing on your upper back, between your shoulder blades, bending you over.
you can feel him lean over you, pressed up against you, murmuring against your ear, “such a little treat aren’t you ?”
“what the-“ you hear from further behind you, the man no longer pressed against you, as he looks behind himself. 
“fuck- what are you-“ just as you look behind yourself, curiously panicked, worried that you may have an even worse imminent future ahead. 
instead you’re met with the sight of your attacker, pulled back into niall’s chest, held down by his mouth to muffle any sounds, watching niall glide a blade through your attacker’s throat. 
you feel as if your heart was about to beat out of your throat, eyes bulging wide, trying to take in the scene in front of you. two men, in a heap on the floor, throats gushing blood. you were gasping for breath, slowly backing away, until your back hit the barrel.
“what in god’s name are you doing ?” niall snaps, looking around to make sure no one’s seen anything. “why would you do something so fucking stupid ?”
he was furious. and you could tell. instantly regretting your decision to try and reach some upper floors. “i-“ you sigh, looking down, unable to look him in the eye. you felt like a small child, being scolded. and truthfully, you deserved it. what you did was stupid. and if niall hadn’t found you right then and there, you’re not sure what would be happening right now. 
your gaze tentatively flicks up towards his, shame plastered on your features, as you do something you never imagined doing. you lunge forward, wrapping your arms around niall, the force of it all making him take a few steps back.
he was shocked. he hadn’t been privy to a hug in over a decade. his eyes blink rapidly a few times, before slowly wrapping his arms around your waist, holding you to him, hearing a faint, “thank you for saving me,” puff out from your lips, warm breath hitting his neck. 
niall’s eyes flutter closed, his head resting against yours, taking in a breath. the fresh cleanliness of the soap you used in your hair was still clinging on, under the scent of the sea, a welcomed change his nostrils revelled in. 
he found himself relaxing into your arms, the protective anger he was feeling over you fading, murmuring, “please tell me what the fuck you were doing.”
you slowly pull away from the hug, sighing, “i was desperate for some fresh air. you kept talking about the crew passing out at night, figured it’d be my best shot,” you shrug.
“christ, darling, let me in on your plans next time yeah ? let me keep you safe. d’ya have any idea how bad that could have been if i wasn’t here ?” he shakes his head. “fuck, lets not think about that. need to take care of my mess. then m’gonna find you a change of clothes. can’t have ya sneaking around in that dress. s’too obvious.” 
he turns around, hoisting the bodies one at a time, rolling them over the edge of the ship, to crash into the frigid waters below.
“niall, you-“ you take a deep breath, your shoulders slugging, “you killed two people. for me. i- fuck, i can’t believe i-“
“shh,” he hums, shaking his head, pressing his index finger against your lips when he notices you about to speak again. “don’t have ta say it. m’honestly so fucking glad i was here.”
your breath catches as his finger makes contact with your mouth, a tingle of warmth spreading through your entire body, leaving your fingers and toes slightly numb. for a moment you find yourself wanting nothing more than to kiss him. with the sweat on his brow and the dirt on his skin, and fuck even the blood on his hands, you were so attracted to him. you cannot have a crush on a bloody pirate.
he slowly pulls his finger away, eyes locked on yours, feeling the erratic beating in his chest, because my god, he’s never felt such soft lips. doesn’t remember wanting to kiss anyone so bad in so long. not that there’s been even remotely close to a kissing prospect. “c’mon, that’s gotta be enough fresh air for today. can’t risk it any longer. lets get you back down there, darling. i’ll go sleuthing for some clothes.”
“niall,” you rush out, gripping into his arm just as he was trying to walk away, “thank you. for everything.”
a small smile tugs at his lips, blush rising to his cheeks, turning away again and setting off with you, making sure the coast is clear every step of the way, until you’re back to the safety of the bottom deck.
it had been days since your little adventure to the outside. and as much as you were craving a trip back up, you were slightly petrified. 
niall had brought you some clothes, and even though you could fairly blend in with the crew, you weren’t quite ready to test it for real. 
in the meantime, niall’s been your source of friendship, coming to check on you regularly, whenever he could sneak away, bringing you food and drinks. he even tracked down some water for you a couple of times. 
tonight, however, you couldn’t hold out anymore. so when niall comes by for his late evening visit, you hop down from the crate you’d made yourself comfortable on, bounding over to him, “can we go up tonight ?”
he looks over you, eyes wide, “you really want to try that again ?” he asks quietly, out of fear for you. fear of what could happen to you, to him for hiding you. 
but with the large puppy eyes you were feeding him and the severe level of empathy he has for you, he ends up giving in pretty quickly, nodding his approval, “yeah, alright. suppose it’s something you need. please stay close. and do whatever i say.”
“yes sir,” you smirk, saluting him. as soon as your hand left your forehead, you felt like a complete fool. embarrassing yourself in front of the man whom you’ve grown more and more affection towards.
he giggles though, a real giggle, shaking his head at you, “m’a pirate, not in the fuckin navy, darling.”
you laugh along with him, ever grateful for him. you’re unsure of how you’ll ever be able to thank him for all that he’s done for you. including murder for fuck sake. you have to come up with something before leaving the ship.
you stay quiet, following him up the stairs, niall checking each floor as he goes, confirming that everyone is rightfully asleep. once he makes it to the top deck, he takes one look around, finding the entirety of the space, completely abandoned. niall’s hand reaches out for yours, helping you up the last few steps.
taking a deep breath, your eyes close momentarily, enjoying the feeling of whipping wind against your skin, tiny droplets of sea water spraying you from time to time. it was so refreshing, so incredibly needed after the time down below.
walking over to the edge, hands gripped into the side of the ship, looking at the vast expanse of pure, pitch, darkness. there was nothing but stars as far as the eye could see. 
niall coming over to stand next to you, he hums softly, “what’s got you so focused ? s’nothing but black out there.”
“kinda nice innit ?” you ask quietly, “the stars, the open sea, how tiny we really are in the grand scheme of things.”
“you think that’s nice ?” he asks, slightly confused. “isn’t that a bit scary ? what’s the point of it all ? we wont really make a difference anyway.”
at that, you hum, your head resting against niall’s shoulder, his arm instinctively wrapping itself around your shoulders. you never thought you’d be over the moon to be cuddled up with a pirate, but he actually made you feel comfortable, safe, a feeling that was fairly foreign for you at this point. and you were revelling in it.
“you think you won’t make a difference ?” you ask softly, turning yourself a bit more into him, “you’ve already made a huge one,” you explain. “you’ve saved me. saved my life.”
“but-“ niall furrows his eyebrows, “that’s just how my mam raised me. to be kind. s’not really making a difference in the world.”
you shake your head, humming a protest, “one person can’t change the entire world, that would be a bit of a pompous thought,” you chuckle, adding quietly, “but you’ve made a difference in my world.”
niall feels his heart burst, prickling heat shooting from his chest throughout his entire body. he buries his face in your hair, pulling you closer to him, “think you’ve made an even bigger difference in mine.”
moments before he was about to turn your face towards his, he hears it, a deep chuckle coming from behind, “looks like nialler found a treasure. gonna share with your brothers ?”
he feels you go stiff as a board next to him, feels the moment the air leaves your body, feels the panic encompassing every fibre of your being. he looks down at you, trying to convey any form of safety in his gaze, mouthing to you, “run,” before pushing you off towards the stairs. 
instantly, the other man is taking off after you, bounding down the stairs two at a time, niall quickly in toe. 
you just make it back to your dark and dingy secluded hideout, when a large, rough hand presses you into one of the crates in front of you, making your forehead smack down hard on the wood. 
you whimper, the man’s hands closing on your hips, squeezing roughly, painfully. and just like the last time, a moment later, he’s lifted off of you, niall’s blade slicing through his neck.
niall’s catching his breath, trying to calm his nerves, as he looks down at the scene, taking the moment in for the first time, because fuck, this is not good.
he looks up at you, noting the gash on your forehead, “christ, darling, you alright ?” he asks, fingertip darting out to gently touch the wound.
you flinch back, bottom lip trembling, as you feel yourself giving out, niall quick to catch you before you fall into the sludge water, leaning heavily on him, face tucked into his neck, “i can’t do this anymore,” you cry softly. “i can’t, i can’t. i need air, i need sun, fuck,” you tremble. “m’always so scared. i just can’t anymore niall.”
he holds you tightly, heart shattering for you. you hadn’t asked for this. you were a good person. you didn’t deserve any of this. mind reeling after the events of just moments ago, niall comes up with a plan, “we’re getting off this ship.”
“what ?” you ask exhaustedly, peering up at him, every ounce of your being, drained.
“you can’t stay here anymore. s’too dangerous. and you need air. we’ll take one of the lifeboats,” he explains, before nodding towards the body, “s’the first mate. someone’s going to notice he’s missing. and m’not about to lug him all the way up to throw him overboard, someone’ll see.”
“niall, i can’t make you do that,” you sigh. “can’t make you leave the safety of the ship for me.”
he cups your neck in his large hand, his thumb stroking your jaw, eyes peering into your own, conviction in his tone, “can’t go alone, darling. i told you i’d keep you safe. couldn’t live with myself if you were out there all alone. we’re leaving. tonight.”
Part 2
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This Can’t Be The End Pt. 3
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Nick Stokes X Reader
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Word count: 6,175
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Post Date: December 30th 2023
Post Time: 12:27 AM
Summary: Based off of S5 Es24 & 25 When Nick gets kidnapped, the reader is forced to fear the worst for her husband as she and the team work the case with hopes of bringing him home safe. 
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Third Person Pov:
The computer shows Nick and the countdown that is at 00:00:01. It then clicks off the video and 4672 CARNEY LANE — BOULDER HWY are the words that slide across the screen. Then the words BE THERE IN 20 MINUTES slide onto the screen next before OR DON’T BOTHER COMING slide across the screen too.
Grissom finds himself standing in front of a warehouse that doesn’t look like it’s been used for some time with the bag of money in his hand. He looks around for any sight of anything, but finds nothing out of the ordinary so he takes a step toward the building. He walks up to the building keeping an eye out for anything. 
He walks up to the door, grabs the handle and slides the door open. It makes a loud clunking sound as he does, but he pays it no mind. Once it’s open he steps in and takes his glasses off as he looks around the inside. 
He sees an SUV parked to his right, but nothing else really. He sets the bag down and reaches around himself to pull his flashlight out of his back pocket. He shines the flashlight out and continues to look around the warehouse. 
“Las Vegas crime lab!” He calls out into the void in front of him. 
“Through the door!” Another man’s voice shouts out and Gil bends down slowly to pick the money bag back up. 
He then starts to walk, shining his light in front of him. As he walks he notices a dead dog laying on the floor with flies buzzing around. He sees other things a dog would need, a bed, food and water bowls. 
He sees a box of random things and what seems to be a bed in the corner. He keeps walking and soon makes his way to the door the voice had told him to go through. He walks up a few steps before coming face to face with an older looking man who sits behind a computer watching the feed of Nick. 
“Pretty quiet outside,” the man comments as Gil comes to a stop in front of him. 
“Almost sounds like you came alone,” the guy continues to taunt. 
“I’ve got your money,” Gil tells him and the guy stands. 
“Put it down,” the guy commands as he leans on his arms against the table. 
Grissom slowly lowers the bag and it makes a light thud as it hits the ground. He stands back up to full straight position before the guy comes out from behind the desk and up to the few steps to the podium he’s on. 
“Slide it over,” he commands and Grissom uses his foot to kick it over closer to the guy. 
It’s only when the bag stops, maybe about fifteen to twenty feet from him that the man walks down the steps and over to the bag. He uses a flashlight to look down on it and he looks back up at Gil. 
“You’re telling me there’s a million dollars in here?” The guy asks and Gil gives a very decisive “yes,” to his question. 
“Along with some cute little booby traps? Which is it? A tracker, a dye pack? A…” he asks, trying to figure out if they played any tricks on him. 
“Normally, you’d be 100% right, but this time you’re 100% wrong. We want Nick back. No tricks,” Grissom promises him and it goes silent for a moment. 
The guy takes a moment before bending down to the bag. He moves it so it’s facing him and unzips it. He digs though for a moment before grabbing a wad of the cash and holding it up to his light. He inspects it thoroughly before starting to chuckle. 
“This looks real,” he comments as he holds it up. 
“It is real,” Gil proclaims before pausing. 
“Where is Nick?” He asks and the guy stands back up dropping the money back into the bag as he does. 
“You know, I was under the impression that it was against departmental policy to negotiate with terrorists,” the guy comments, using his free hand to try and motion out his meaning. 
“Are you a terrorist?” Gil asks him in a calm tone. 
“Depends,” the guy replies in a nonchalant tone before shining the light at Grissom’s face. 
“Are you terrified?” The guys asks in a playful tone and Grissom takes a deep breath. 
“Look, I really don’t want to talk to you. Where is my guy?” Gil asks in a slightly irritated voice. 
“Oh, so… he is your guy, huh?” The man asks in a fake astonished tone. 
“Yes, he is. Where is he buried?” Gil asks in a demanding tone. 
“Are you two close?” The man asks with a hint of amusement in his voice. 
“That’s none of your business,” Gil tells him in a clipped tone. 
“What does Nick Stokes mean to you? How do you feel when you see him in that coffin? Does your soul die every time you push that button? How do you feel knowing that there’s nothing you can do to get him out of that hell? Helpless…useless… impotent? How does it feel having to tell his darling of a wife he’s not coming home?” The guy asks again dodging the question with his own million to one questions and Grissom doesn’t respond. 
“Good. Welcome to my world,” the man tells him before revealing that he has a bomb strapped to his waist. 
“Uh, if I were you, I’d back up a little,” he tells Grissom in a condescending tone, but yet there’s also humor laced in with it. 
Grissom takes one, two, no three little steps back and before he has a chance to do anything else the guy presses the button that he’s holding. The whole place gets wrecked with the magnificent boom, windows shatter and wood shards go flying every which way. Once the bomb is done dust over takes the air and starts to rain down along with blood painting the walls. 
Grissom wakes and starts to huff for breath as he struggles to sit up. His ears ring and he can feel blood on his face as he looks over the desolate scene in front of him. 
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Reader’s Pov: 
I wake up to someone shaking my shoulder lightly and with a small groan, I open my eyes. The bright light burns my eyes, making me shy away before looking back up to see Warrick standing in front of me. He gives me a small smile as I sit up, the blanket falling from my arm to my lap. 
“What’s up, B?” I ask him and he smiles lightly. 
“Griss just left to take the ransom money. If we’re lucky, Nicky boy should be home by tonight,” he tells me as his grin slowly grows more and more. 
“You mean I’ll get him back?” I inquire softly and Warrick nods. 
“Warrick, you better not be playing with me…” I warn him and he shakes his head, holding his hands up in surrender. 
“I promise you mamas that I am not messing with you,” he tells me and I take a moment to let the words sink in. 
“Oh, B… you were right, he’s coming home,” I whisper out as tears come to my eyes. 
“It’s all just a waiting game now, mama. Once Grissom calls in, we can go get our boy,” he informs me and I can’t help but jump forward and hug him. 
“Wait…” I pause before pulling back from the hug. 
“How did Gil get the ransom money? I thought the department wasn’t going to pay it out. Did Nicky’s parents put it out?” I question and Warrick shakes his head. 
“We’re not really supposed to talk about it… because Grissom insists on it staying anonymous, but you have Catherine to thank… she went to her father and asked for the money…” Warrick explains to me and I freeze as gratitude overflows me. 
“Where is she?” I ask him after a moment of silence and he shakes his head. 
“She’s in her office,” he informs me and I nod as I get up. 
I quickly rush out of the break room and down the many halls I know will take me to her office. I slow down once I see the office and lightly knock on the door. She looks up and smiles when she sees it’s me. 
She takes her glasses off and gives a small nod, mouthing a small ‘come in,’ before I push the glass door open. I walk in, closing the door behind me and Catherine smiles softly at me as I take a seat in one of the chairs in front of her desk. Her walkie-talkie chats quietly from beside her with a sound of static every time someone isn’t talking. 
“What do you need, y/n?” she asks me as she folds her hands on her desk. 
“Rick… he, uhh… told me what you did. I… I don’t know how to thank you,” I answer her in a choked tone and she smiles softly at me again. 
“No need to thank me, y/n. Both you and Nicky are family. I hated seeing you and him in pain,” she explains softly before reaching her hand out to me. 
“No. You deserve a thank you. Without you, I wouldn’t be getting my husband back. I… I wouldn’t have made it if—” I start but she squeezes my hand as she cuts me off. 
“Don’t even start to wonder. That road can be a dangerous one, y/n. Just think of what you’ll do with all your time off,” she tells me and I give her a confused look. 
“Time off?” I ask in confusion and she nods as she pulls her hand back. 
“Nick gets time off for mental evaluation after all of this. I assume Griss will make you do the same thing,” she informs and I purse my lips as I nod. 
“Honestly, we need the time off anyway. We were hoping to put in for some after these cases finished up,” I tell her and she grins, making me smile too. 
“And you guys deserve it. You’ve done a lot of work with no breaks lately,” she muses and it goes quiet with the radio static being the only noise. 
“Would you like to—” Catherine starts, but gets cut off with a voice coming over the radio. 
“Dispatch, this is Gill Grissom of the crime scene lab. I request assistance at 4672 Carney Lane - - Boulder HWY. There’s been an explosion that needs analysis as soon as possible,” comes Grissom’s voice over the radio and I quickly suck in a breath as Catherine picks it up. 
“Copy that, we’re sending units to your location right now,” Dispatch replies and Catherine looks up at me. 
“You stay here. Someone will update you if we find anything at all, I promise,” she tells me as she stands up and I nod quickly. 
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After Catherine and the others leave, I’m left alone so I decide to take a shower and change my clothes. I walk to the locker room and open my locker. 
Immediately I regret it when I see a picture of me and Nick on the inside of the door:
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I smile softly at the old picture as I look at Nick and me from back when we were still in our second year of being CSI’s. With a soft smile, I find myself mentally thanking Nick’s sister Janet for taking the picture. I reach up and touch the picture as I sniffle. 
I sigh and grab my change of clothes and a small toiletries bag before closing the locker. I go over to the shower and grab a towel from the cabinet before setting all my stuff on the counter. I then get into the shower and monotonously go about it. 
I stay in the shower until the water runs cold and sigh as I reluctantly turn it off. I make work of getting out and quickly drying off before getting dressed. After I’m dressed, I drop my towel in the hamper and walk back to my locker. 
I open it and set my toiletries bag in first before folding my clothes up. I put my clothes into the locker and catch sight of another one of the pictures I have hanging up: 
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I smile as the memory from college plays in my head and all I can hear is Nick’s laugh. That day was just one of our many lazy days that turned into him forgetting that he had a project to finish for his class. He ended up working on it while I sat reading my book, until I got bored and reached over for my camera that was on his bedside table. 
~Flash back~ 
“Hey, Nicky,” I sing-song to him. 
“Hmm?” he hums out, not even looking at me and I roll my eyes. 
“Look over here, babe,” I tell him and he takes a moment to lean back in his chair, looking over one last detail before looking at me.
He smiles when he sees me and I grin as I take the picture. He laughs while shaking his head, making me grin even more. 
“You and taking pictures of me. Did it at least turn out good?” he asks through his own grin and I pull the camera back to look at the screen. 
“Hmm. Yes, it did. That one’s being printed,” I comment, only to giggle when he shakes his head before going back to his work. 
~End of Flashback~ 
“Come home to me, Nicky,” I whisper, wiping at the tear that falls as another picture makes me giggle softly:
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I remember that day so well. Nick was working on a separate case alongside Greg and I just so happened to walk by and see them both in really deep thought. Me being me, I decided to take a picture of them and send it to Nick with the text “someone looks a little grumpy :(”. He had immediately looked up to see me after reading the text and smiled at me, making me smile back softly before continuing on my way. 
I sigh as I look over all the many pictures I have of us from over the years. Some Janet had taken, some taken by Nick’s brother Shane, as well as his brother Mason, sister Piper, and brother Braxton, all of whom saw me as a sibling the moment me and Nick started hanging around each other. There’s some we took together and some of us just being goofy together:
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I let all the memories slowly play out in my head before shaking myself out of my thoughts. 
“He’s coming home. He’ll be ok…” I keep repeating to myself in my head. I bite my lip and look over all the pictures one last time before closing my locker. 
I wipe away tears that I didn’t even notice had fallen and start to walk to the break room. Once in the break room, I decide I should try to eat something, so I start looking for something that seems appetizing. I find a bowl of leftover spaghetti in the fridge with the name ‘Stokes’ on it in big bold letters. I shake my head at the note I find under it:
Sweets, I know you’ll find this. You better eat it, I know you haven’t had anything at all today. Remember I love you and EAT the damn food please. 
~Nicky ^>^
“Even when he’s not here, he’s still taking care of me,” I comment out loud to myself, shaking my head as I give a soft chortle. 
I take the foil off the top of the glass bowl and open the microwave. I then set the bowl in carefully and close it before setting it to three minutes. 
As it warms it up, I walk back over to the fridge to get my soda from earlier this morning out before walking back over. I then grab a plastic fork from a container on the counter just as the microwave comes to a stop and beeps. I take the food out and walk over to the round table in the center of the room. 
I sit down and start to stab at my food, but all of a sudden it doesn’t seem appetizing anymore. I twirl some on the fork and take one bite in hopes it’ll at least taste appetizing, but it doesn’t. I sit there trying to work up to wanting it, but it just keeps looking gross. 
I sigh and push the bowl away from me before putting my hands over my eyes. I sit there for a few minutes with my hands over my eyes when I feel a hand on my shoulder. I look up and see Warrick standing there with a solemn look on his face. 
“What happened?” I ask him and he sighs, moving to sit down next to me. 
“The bastard blew himself up. Talk about cowardice to end it all,” he chortles in disbelief, shaking his head. 
“Griss was lucky and didn’t get hit by the blast. He has minor hearing loss, but unfortunately no Nick,” he continues to explain and I suck in a breath. 
“You process the scene yet?” I inquire and he pursues his lips. 
“Yeah. Me and Greg worked on the car. GPS wasn’t a lot of help at all. All we got was general information of around where he was,” he informs me and I bite my lip in hopes of holding my emotions back. 
“What— what about a body? Did the guy have anything on him?” I question and he pauses a moment as if debating whether to tell me. 
“There wasn’t much of a body. He was literally in pieces… and no, we didn’t find anything on him,” he answers me and my face changes to one of anger. 
“Did you guys find anything useful at all?! Or did you just quit?!” I angrily seethe out, my hormones completely out of whack and Warrick looks shocked for a moment. 
“Mamas, I know you're angry. You have every right to be, but you gotta stay calm or I’m taking you home,” he informs me and I nod as my anger washes away. 
“You're right. I’m sorry. I don’t know what just came over me,” I apologize as I put my head in my hands again and sniffle. 
“It’s okay, mamas. You're entering the anger stage and not to mention you're probably hungry. I get it. It’s hard when all you want is him here with you,” he sympathizes with me as he pulls my chair to his and hugs me. 
“Did you get anything at all, though?” I ask him and he nods. 
“Yeah. Sara got a thumb, so we got a thumb print. She just went to run the print to see what we get,” he explains to me and I sigh. 
“I just want him home, Rick,” I tell him and he pulls away from our hug to look me in the eyes. 
“And he will be, mama. He will be, but for now you gotta take care of yourself, you hear me? He wouldn’t like knowing that you didn’t,” he says and I sigh, shaking my head. 
“I hear you. I do, I just…” I trail off and he nods. 
“I get it mama, I do. Have you eaten?” he questions and I motion to the bowl in front of us. 
“I tried, took one bite and just wanted to throw up. So, no, I haven’t eaten,” I answer and he sighs. 
“Ok. Here’s what we’re going to do. Grab the bowl and come with me,” he commands and I give him a shocked look, knowing what he’s doing. 
“But B, there’s no food in the lab,” I reiterate the rules of the lab and he shrugs. 
“Will you eat if you can see he’s doing ok?” he questions and I take a moment to think about it. 
“I mean, maybe…” I tell him and he nods again as he gets up. 
“I’m sure Griss would allow it this one time,” he explains as he pushes his chair in and I smile softly at him. 
“Ok. Then let’s go,” I agree as I get up and grab the bowl. 
“That’a girl. Let me just get myself a coffee, then we can go,” he tells me and I nod as he walks over and grabs himself a cup. 
He quickly pours the coffee and adds a little bit of sugar before turning back to me. “Let’s go,” he says as he walks over to me and I nod. 
Together we walk through the hallways and some of the labs before coming up to Archie’s computer lab. We see him sitting at the computer, just watching the feed as we walk up next to him. 
“How’s he doing?” Warrick asks as he walks up to the chair next to Archie, who looks over at him. 
“Hard to say… about the same, I guess,” he replies to Warrick before looking at me. 
“Hi, y/n,” Archie greets me with a small sympathetic smile and I give a small one back. 
“Hi, Arch. Is it ok if I eat my food in here? I just needed to see him,” I question him and he nods. 
“Definitely. Just don’t make it a habit,” he jokes and I smile at him again. 
“I promise I won’t,” I playfully joke back and he nods. 
“Here. You can have my chair. I’m gonna go get some coffee,” he informs us as he gets up and I send him a thankful smile. 
“Yeah,” Warrick agrees as he sets his coffee down on the table as I sit down next to him and Archie leaves. 
Once Archie is gone, I finally turn to the monitor and sigh when I see Nick. He just lays there so still, but I can tell he’s still breathing as his chest rises and falls. Warrick reaches up and rubs at his tired eye before holding his balled up fist next to his mouth and looking over at me. 
“Eat,” he tells me as he taps my leg under the bench, effortlessly pulling me out of my fixed stare on Nick. 
I nod and lift the bowl up before taking a bite. I chew slowly and the food doesn’t taste as bad as before, but it’s still hard to get myself to eat. Nick then turns to the air vent that’s to his left and breathes before the video slowly closes out. 
The ‘YOU CAN ONLY WATCH’ pops up again and Warrick quickly moves to click the link again. The video comes back on and Nick mouths something, but it’s hard to make out. I continue to take many slow bites of the food and soon it’s gone. 
I set the bowl on the table and Warrick looks over at me, then the bowl. “Good job, mamas,” he praises me and I nod my thanks. He pulls me over and wraps an arm around my shoulder and I lean into it as we continue to just watch Nick in silence.
Again all too soon, though, the video goes off again and Warrick moves to click the link again. Nick mouths more words that are hard to make out and my eyes start to well up a bit. We continue to watch and it’s only a little later that we watch him take out some gum from his pocket. Warrick and I look at each other, intrigued before looking back at Nick as he chews the gum. 
He then takes the gun out of his mouth and shoves it in his ears. Warrick and I both sit up a little as we watch in wonder of what he’s doing. 
“What are you doing, Nicky?” Warrick voices the question we’re both thinking as Nick lays his head back for a moment. 
He reaches down to his side and I let out a gasp as his service weapon pops up. He holds onto the barrel for a moment and then takes it off. 
“What are you doing, Nicky?” Warrick voices again as we both fully get out of our chairs. 
He turns the barrel to his chin like he’s going to shoot himself and all the air leaves my chest as I quickly turn around. I regret turning around that fast as everything spins and the sick feeling from earlier returns. I close my eyes as I try to regain my equilibrium while I wait for Warrick to react in any way. 
“Don’t do it, Nicky!”  Warrick exclaims as he continues to watch when I can’t. 
“Ahhh!” Warrick shouts and I jump, a sob escaping my mouth. 
“You son of a bitch!” Warrick screams out and another sob leaves my throat as I bring my hand up to cover my mouth. 
The shock takes over and I slowly start to sink to the ground as all sounds become muffled. It’s only a second after my knees hit the ground that I hear Warrick again. 
“Shit. Y/n. He’s ok. Look, mama. Look. He just shot the light,” Warrick informs me as he comes over to me and lifts me up so I’m standing. 
“Look at the monitor, mama. Look,” he prompts me and I shake my head. 
“Come on. Look. He’s still alive…” he tells me and finally I listen. 
I look at the screen to see my husband still breathing and alive, just now he has a glow stick as his light. I let out another sob and turn to Warrick, throwing myself into his arms. He sighs and wraps his arms around me, rubbing my back as I continue to cry. 
“I’m so sorry you had to see that. I wasn’t expecting it and I should have. I am so, so sorry mamas,” he apologizes as he leaves a kiss on the side of my forehead. 
“I…it’s ok, B. You… you couldn’t have known,” I tell him though my hiccups as he holds my head to his shoulder and sighs. 
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Warrick’s Pov: 
After Nick shot out the light, I held a sobbing y/n in my arms for a few minutes. She cried until she made herself tired and fell asleep on my arm. I carefully carried her back to the break room and set her on the couch. 
I make sure her head is on the pillow and then cover her with the blanket she’s been using. She lets out a puff of air and I smile sadly at the girl who’s like my baby sister. I make sure she stays asleep and I’m glad when she does, knowing she desperately needs it. 
I sigh as I run my hands over my face. I decide to leave, knowing if she wakes and needs me she’ll come find me. I walk to the locker room and open my locker, but stop before I get anything out of it. 
I rub my forehead as my emotions start to hit. It’s then that I remember that only just this morning I had been laughing and talking with Nick in this very spot. I slam my locker closed and sit back on the bench he’d sat on before taking a deep breath. 
The tears started to flow and I let them for a while, just taking time for myself. After a few minutes, Catherine walks in and looks at me. 
“Griss wants you, me, and Greg back at the scene. He wants us to look for anything else we can find,” she informs me and I rub my face. 
“Ok. Let me just get my gear and jumpsuit. I’ll meet you guys there?” I ask and she nods before turning around and leaving. 
I take a moment of silence just to try to process everything before sighing and pushing myself up off the bench. I quickly grab all my gear and head out to my car to drive back to the scene. 
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When I arrive, Catherine walks over to my car and I turn it off before getting out. I walk to the back to get my kit out and she walks with me. 
“Greg and I decided that we should split up. Divide and conquer,” she explains and I nod as I pull my kit out and close the trunk. 
“Ok. Who’s doing what?” I ask her and she points at Greg as we walk in. 
“Greg’s on sifting, I’m taking the car, so that leaves you with mapping,” she answers me and I nod as I set my kit down. 
“Well, let’s get to it, then,” I comment and she nods before going over to the car. 
I pull out my clipboard and start to map the place as Catherine takes photographs of the car. Greg sifts through all the stuff that we put into the sifting bucket and we all quietly work on our individual projects for a bit. 
After a little while of mapping, it seems hopeless and I roll my eyes as I rip the pieces of paper off of my pad. I throw it down to the floor and try to start over. 
“Hey. I found a trigger wire,” Greg announces as he holds it up. 
“Maybe once we reassemble all the components, we’ll be able to tell where the bomb came from. Maybe…” Greg starts to explain in hope, but I roll my eyes. 
“Yeah, maybe, maybe, maybe. Maybe if we count up all the damn ‘maybes’, maybe Nick will be alive!” I cut him off, shouting in anger as I kick a container in front of my foot. 
“You know what I’m saying?!” I shout as the container lands next to Greg, spilling onto the ground. 
“Was that necessary?!” Greg shouts back as he stands up. 
“Never mind my clothes. Look at the evidence!” Greg shouts as he motions to his clothes before throwing his clipboard aside as he looks over the evidence. 
“Damn it!” I shout as I throw my clipboard down and turn away from him. 
I walk off to the side, my anger seething as I try to push it down. I stop just in front of the door as Catherine calls out to me. 
“Hey. Warrick. Hey,” she says, walking up to me as I turn around to look at her. 
“Hey. How you holding up?” she asks as she rubs my arm ever so slightly. 
“I’m not,” I tell her as I take my glove off and cross my arms, only to uncross them.
“I know,” she comments as she reaches up and moves her mask a bit. 
“I just can’t help but think that could have been me in that box. You know?” I voice my thoughts to her and suck in a breath of air. 
“We flipped a coin for that trash run,” I add on and tears brim my eyes. 
“Hey. Nick is not inside a box because of the flip of a coin,” Catherine cuts in before I can continue. 
“If that was me, I would’ve… mmm…” I cut her off, my voice rising as I point to my head like I'd shoot myself before rubbing my finger at my forehead. 
“Hey. You know what? I know you. I don’t believe that,” she says with her voice rising as she points at my chest and I back away a bit. 
“Okay?!” she asks and I look at the ground. 
“No. You’re wrong. I wouldn’t have lasted this far,” I tell her and she shakes her head, scoffing lightly in disbelief. 
“You’ve taken care of y/n better than anyone else. I DON’T believe that,” she reiterates herself and I shake my head. 
“I had to hold y/n as she cried herself to sleep today. That’s something I never wanted to ever have to do…” I tell her and she sighs as I pause for a moment. 
“Catherine, if something happens to Nick… If we don’t bring him back in one piece… she’ll be done for. I don’t think y/n can handle it. I promised her I’d get him home,” I inform her and her eyes widen. 
“You prom-” she starts, but stops when Greg calls out for us. 
“Hey, guys, come here,” Greg shouts and Catherine turns around.  
“I found something,” he adds on as we both start walking over to him. 
“Look at this,” he tells us once we’re next to him. 
He lifts a bottle of liquid and pours it on the dirt. He pours it in a line with it turning the sand a little darker and sets the bottle back down to the side. 
“There’s something underneath there,” he comments as he looks up at us. 
Catherine is the first to bend down and help him. They start pushing the sand away with their hands and I use my foot. Once we see something else poke through, I bend down with them and together we all use our hands to push the dirt away. 
“Oh, it’s got an edge. Right here,” I tell them as I reach for it. 
“All right,” I say as we each move around, still moving sand. 
“Another one over here,” Greg calls out as we continue to all feel around in the sand. 
“Greg, get some crowbars,” Catherine shouts out and Greg immediately jumps up. 
He runs off only to come back a few seconds later. He tosses me a crowbar and hands one to Catherine. 
“You think Nick could be under here?” Greg questions as we each grab onto our crowbars and start trying to pry it open. 
“I don’t know, man. It would have to be at least six feet long,” I answer him as we continue to pry at it. 
Finally it starts to open and together we all push the board away to find more dirt. I sink my crowbar into the dirt and start to dig out as much dirt as I can.
“Yeah, but if he buried him lengthwise— and who’s to say he didn’t— he could be,” Catherine explains the way that she thinks he could possibly be below us. 
She puts her mask back on before she and Greg help me dig. I quickly race over and grab our shovels. I hand them both one and together we all dig with the shovels as fast as we can. 
About halfway through, Catherine and Greg take a break as others come in to take over for them. I keep going in hopes of finding him so I can get him home to his wife. We all keep digging and digging until finally I hit something. 
“I hit something,” I announce as I hit it a couple more times with the shovel to make sure. 
I throw my shovel to the side and bend down to it. I quickly make work of moving the last little bit of sand aside. I finally get down to it and we can see what’s underneath it all now. 
“It’s plexiglass,” Catherine observes as I keep moving sand away. 
“Nick!” I yell out in hopes of getting a response. 
“Nick?” Catherine yells out after me as we keep going with our hands. 
“Nick, hold on there, buddy!” I shout as I keep going. 
“Nick?!” Catherine shouts as we finally can see into the box. Only instead of finding Nick, we find a Dalmatian inside the box. 
“What?” Catherine says in confusion as we look down at it. 
“It’s a dog,” she shouts out and sighs as she starts to rub her forehead. “It’s a dog,” she reiterates herself as she starts to cry. 
I huff in anger as I shake my head before standing up and walking off. I shout out as I kick another container in frustration. 
“Who’s gonna tell y/n?” Greg asks and I sigh, letting my head hang. 
“I will,” I say and Catherine shakes her head. 
“No. I’ll tell Griss and he’ll tell her. I still need you to look over this once we get it out of the ground,” Catherine explains and I sigh, looking at her. 
“But it’s not out of the ground yet. Please let me go tell her. She’ll need me. I’ll look it over when you guys get it to the lab, but I’m the only one keeping her going. This will deviate her, I need to be there,” I beg Catherine, who sighs before nodding in agreement. 
“Yeah. Ok. Go. I’ll let you know when it’s at the lab,” she agrees and I nod, jumping up and getting my stuff. 
“Thanks, Catherine!” I yell out to her and she nods, waving me off. 
I quickly head to my car and put my kit in before getting in myself. I sit back in my seat with a sigh as I mentally prepare to go tell y/n. With one last deep breath, I start my car up and head back to the lab. 
To Be Continued…
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Cause Baby You're My Muse [Chapter 50]
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Genre: Romance, Idol!AU, Music, Slight angst
Pairing: Mingi x Reader (y/n)
Characters: Producer!Reader, IdolLyricist!Mingi, IdolProducer!Hongjoong, Idol!Seonghwa, Idol!Yunho, Idol!Wooyoung, Idol!San, Idol!Yeosang, Idol!Jongho, cameo(s) by other celebrities
Summary: You always preferred producing underground, having an unknown face and governed by your own rules. But when you start freelancing for idol groups, you say goodbye to your lone wolf lifestyle as you learn to work with idol producers and lyricists.
Word count: 3.3K
As comeback season right around the corner, you saw the boys a lot lesser. You dealt with whatever came at you on your own until it hit you that your worst fears came true.
You've grown dependent on them.
Having to grow up and take care of Haneul independently, you've always told yourself that you would never be dependent on anyone else. Because you lend yourself to heart break. It was too daunting to trust someone so much that you've built walls around yourself and your heart.
But these 8 boys made you lower your defenses. No one has ever been able to worm their way into your life so easily.
You never thought you were capable of loving another person like you love Mingi. You don't regret nor deny your feelings for Mingi but it still scared you. A part of you felt like you didn't deserve him.
RINGGGGG
The phone ringing on your desk made you jump, breaking your internal monologue. You cleared your throat and lower the volume of your music before answering the phone.
"INDIGO!"
"Don't YELL! My ear is right next to your mouth!" Hongjoong exclaimed.
"Now you're yelling, hyung." Jongho stated.
"Umm... Hello? Is everything okay?" You chuckled at how the boys just turned to arguing amongst themselves or more like Hongjoong scolding them, momentarily forgetting that you were on the other side of the line. But you were used to this.
"Yes, Indigo. Everything is fine, don't worry... Guys, can we get back to the reason we called Indigo? She's waiting for us and you're all just bickering like kids." Yunho got everyone's attention.
"This is why I should have just been the one to call her." Mingi voiced.
"Oh shush, Mingi. But Yunho is right. We want to invite you out for dinner tonight! We'll watch the music video release together." San explained.
"Music video release...?" You tilted your head, frowning in slight confusion. That was when you pulled open your calendar and looked at the date today.
"Dear Indigo. Did you forget that tonight is the music video release?" Yeosang chuckled.
"I... No! I remembered!" You grew flustered. With everything happening, you didn't even remember that today was the music video release day. It was so anticipated, the first time the song with made with Ateez would be put out there. You hated that this person threatening you that took away your excitement.
"It's okay, baby. We understand that you're busy with all your projects and deadlines now, it happens to the best of us. Yah! Stop making her feel bad." Mingi comforted.
"Aww, thanks, Mings." You giggled. Trust Mingi to always be on your side and protect you.
"You're just saying that because you're biased! You let her get away with everything." Wooyoung yelled.
"Of course, she's my girlfriend! If I don't protect her, who will? And I'm not the only one. Hongjoong hyung and Seonghwa hyung are Mr Big Brothers." Mingi argued.
"So I guess we'll see you tonight at the dorm?" You heard Seonghwa's voice through the bickering.
"Yes, Hwa. I'll see you all tonight." You replied.
"Baby, are you in the studio now? Is it a good time for me to drop by for a bit?" Mingi asked before you could hang up. You looked at the studio around you. It wasn't a good idea for Mingi or anyone to be in your studio now.
"Sorry, Mings. Today's schedule is quite packed. I've got back to back calls with clients for my projects then a meeting with Maddox after." You apologised.
"Nothing for you to apologise for, baby. I'll catch you around later then. If not, I'll see you tonight." Mingi assured.
"Okay before you guys start having your own little couple's conversation. I'm taking my phone back and cutting the call."
"I can just call her on my own phone..." Mingi said.
"DO THAT THEN!" Hongjoong yelled, ending the call, either on purpose or accidentally. You blinked in shock and picked up the phone to see that indeed, the call got cut.
The music video releasing tonight marked the start of comeback season, it also meant that the promotional showcase would be happening soon. And before you knew it, the boys would be actively promoting their new album across multiple platforms; music shows, radio appearance, variety shows, even overseas performances.
*DING DONG*
"Coming." You went to the door. You answered it by poking your head out first, in case it was one of the Ateez boys. But it was just Eden so you let him in.
"What's up?" You asked.
"Just wanted to come and see how you were doing. By the looks of it, you got things handled?" He said, looking around the studio space.
"Yeah. But I've been so caught up, I didn't even realise that the music video release was tonight. The boys just invited me over for dinner tonight and to watch the video release." You informed.
"That's good. You should enjoy it, Indigo. Forget all this for a bit, you know?" He chuckled.
"Don't worry, I will. It'll be nice to see what an idol's comeback season is like or at least, witness the start of it." You smiled. Eden nodded, patting your head. He was another person you were grateful for, not only helping you through this but also mentoring you.
"I'll see you at the promotional showcase. If you need help with the other stuff, let me know." He said. You nodded and bowed gratefully, walking him out.
'Hi baby, sorry Hongjoong hyung hung up on you just now. It was rude. But don't worry, Seonghwa hyung scolded him. - Mings'
'Hi, Mings. Don't worry about it, I'm used it. Not the hanging up part, the part about how you guys are utter chaos. Joong must have been driven up the wall by all of you. - Baby'
'They should have just let me invite you to dinner. There wouldn't be fighting over the phone then. - Mings'
'That wouldn't be fair. - Baby'
'Fair?! What fairness is there?! I'm the one dating you! We're a couple, a pair, our minds are linked. These things like inviting you for dinner is my DUTY! - Mings'
Even though fans like to tease Mingi over how possessive he is of his best friend, Yunho, you always thought it was adorable when he acted like that. He would have this little pout when he tells you how upset or jealous he is. And of course, he was rather dramatic, as if you've betrayed an entire kingdom.
'Okay okay, Mr Jealous Pants. I swear, you're just as possessive as Wooyoung. - Baby'
'I'm not going to let you shame me for being possessive over my girlfriend. That's a priviledge of being a couple. And don't compare me to Wooyoung. - Mings'
'Alright, I have to go. I'll text you later. I love you. - Baby'
'Work hard, baby! I love you too. Knowing that I'll be thinking of you. ;) - Mings'
You couldn't help but laugh at how cheesy he was. Mingi liked to play things cool but he was an absolute cheesy goofball around you. It was the real, honest side of him that only you saw.
"Indigo? You free to start our session early?" Jongho appeared outside your studio.
"Sure. Let me get my stuff and I'll meet you in the recording studio." You told him. He nodded and walked to the recording studio. Even Jongho and Seonghwa didn't know the current state of the studio, you didn't want to bother them with it.
"Sorry, I was busy with some calls from other project partners and forgot we're even meeting today." You laughed as you entered and sat down at the table, setting up the system.
"No worries. Take your time." He smiled. While you got ready, Jongho warmed up his vocals behind you.
Jongho offered to help you record some guide vocals for some draft tracks that you have and of course you weren't going to say no.
"Are you sure you have time to do this? You know, with the comeback and all." You asked, facing the screen as you pulled up your notes and composing softwares.
"It's all good. This is under my comeback schedule." He chuckled.
"Sure..." You turned around with a raised eyebrow. When you were ready, Jongho went to the recording booth.
"Ah, ah, ah. Can you hear me?" He spoke into the mic as he put on the headphones, adjusting the volume of the audio that was being fed through.
"Loud and clear." You pressed the button and spoke into your own mic. Jongho sang a tester line to get his starting pitch right. When he was ready, he gave the thumbs up and you played the music. You watched him recording, holding his phone up to refer to the lyrics that he wrote for the guide.
"Sorry, let's go again." He stopped singing to apologise, the track still playing behind him.
"No worries. No need to rush through. Take it slow." You told him upon stopping the music to replay it for him again. Jongho's vocals were so strong, you were honoured to be able to work with him.
"I'll record the chorus again, please." He requested, taking a drink of water as he waited for you to play just the chorus for him.
"Counting into the chorus." You said.
"That's a great one. Take a few minutes and let me know which track you want to do next." You told him.
You worked with Jongho for a few hours, it was a very productive session with Jongho's professionalism and keen ears. Even after the recording was done, he sat with you and was able to offer some advice on what to change.
"Thanks again for today." You patted his shoulder as you both stood outside the recording studio.
"No need to. I had fun. So I guess I'll see you tonight?" He tilted his head. You nodded with a smile and waved to him before you both parted ways.
"Oh, Hwa." You were shocked the see the male standing by your studio door.
"Hey. Did you just come from a meeting?" He smiled, pushing himself off the wall to wrap an arm around you.
"Uh, yeah. Just some guide recording with Jongho." You told him. Seonghwa already noticed the way you suddenly grew nervous but made no attempt to open your studio door.
"So... what's up?" You asked him.
"We've been busy preparing for the comeback and haven't been able to see how you've been doing. Or at least physically visit you. So since I have some free time and I was in the building, I wanted to check in and see if everything is okay. Is now not a good time?" He asked, his expression softening.
"Sorry... But rest assured, I'm fine. Just been busy with everything else." You reassured him. Seonghwa guessed your apology was referring to it wasn't a 'good time' now.
"Don't apologise. I'm glad you're doing okay, at least. Make sure you eat your meals and get some sleep." He patted your head.
"I will. I just..." You chewed on your bottom lip.
"No need to explain yourself to me. I understand." He smiled softly, making you let out a soft sigh of relief. No one should see the state of your studio now.
"I'll see you tonight at the dorm then." He said. You nodded and gave him a brief hug.
Once Seonghwa left, you entered your studio, making sure to lock the door behind you. You sat back at your desk, opening your laptop to start working on the guide vocals Jongho just recorded, distracting you from the moving boxes that sat around you.
-
"There she is." Yunho grinned, seeing you rush out of the lift and into the basement carpark. You waved, knowing they wouldn't be able to see you smile with your mask on.
"Hi, Yuyu." You hugged him. He patted your head and held your bag for you while you climbed into the van.
"Thanks for waiting." You said, removing your mask once the van door was closed.
"We didn't wait long. We just ended too." San assured, moving to the back so you could sit next to Mingi, who had his headphones on. You sat between him and Yunho.
"Hi." Mingi whispered. Since he couldn't kiss you, he slipped an arm around your waist, softly squeezing your hip to show you affection.
"Hey, how was work?" You asked.
"Good. The work out was tiring but we need to build stamina and endurance for the comeback." He replied. You nodded, knowing that all the boys have been working hard in the gym. Throughout the drive, you chatted with Yunho and San about how they have been too since it's been a while.
"Well, your new skincare routine must be working out well because you're glowing, Sannie." You giggled.
"I am? Thank you." San blushed slightly, hands coming up to touch his cheek. Mingi's arm remaind around your waist securely but he was more focused on listening to his music.
"Actually, now that I think about it, we've never seen you dance before, Indigo. Even in informal settings." Yunho pointed out.
"Why would you suddenly bring that up? And I'll have you know, you have never seen me dance because I have two left feet. I suck at dancing." You sighed.
"Really?" San blinked.
"Haneul can tell you all about it. She's always making fun of my dancing." You rolled your eyes.
"Maybe you need a dance lesson. I'll give you a free dance lesson any time you like." Yunho winked. That made Mingi clear his throat really loudly, glaring at his best friend for flirting with his girlfriend right in front of him.
"Thanks but I have no intention of being a dancer. I'll stick to being behind the scenes, producing in my studio, in front of my computer." You chuckled.
When the van pulled up, the manager let you all get out of the van. Mingi wordlessly took your bag and slung it over his shoulder.
"We're home!" San and Yunho announced as you all removed your shoes at the entrance of the dorm.
"Finally. I've been waiting to do this." Mingi wrapped his arms around your waist, drawing you in so he could kiss you. You giggled into the kiss, hands moving to hold his biceps.
"I've missed you, baby." He stroked his head.
"I've missed you too." You smiled fondly at him, tip toeing to plant another kiss on his cheek.
"I missed you the most!" Wooyoung exclaimed as he came over, scooping you up and spinning you around. You burst out laughing as Mingi yelled at Wooyoung for stealing you. With one hand on either side of your face, he aggressively pressed a kiss to your cheek with a loud smack.
"Jung Wooyoung!" Mingi yelled.
"Joongie!" You went to hug the captain, who was standing by the kitchen. He smiled at you and wrapped his arms around you, patting your lower back lovingly.
"How have you been?" He asked, patting your head.
"Good. You've lost weight." You pouted, feeling how small his waist has gotten since you've last hugged him.
"Hi, Yeosangie." You greeted. Yeosang smiled through his wet bangs, having just stepped out of the shower. He wrapped an arm around you to pull you in for a hug.
"We've missed you being around." He chuckled.
"I miss all of you too." You said as he ruffled your hair. Since you were in a hoodie and sweats, you momentarily went to Mingi's room to change into lighter clothes. You stole onto of Mingi's shirts to wear instead. Just as you pulled the shirt down, someone came in.
"Relax, it's just me." Mingi said when you turned around quickly to see who had come in.
"You should still knock when you know I'm changing." You crossed your arms and raised an eyebrow at him. Mingi's hands came to rest at your hips.
"I really missed you. I'm glad you're here." He pressed his lips to your forehead. When he pulled away, you leaned against him.
"Even though we live in the same building, our schedules still take us away from each other." You chuckled.
"Mhmm, it's gonna get harder as comeback season begins." He said, one hand coming up to rub your back as he held you to his body. You bunched the material of his shirt.
"But we'll be okay." He whispered, kissing the crown of your head.
"You two have 5 minutes to come out or I'm going in, and you wouldn't want me going in there especially since I haven't even greeted my daughter yet." You two heard Seonghwa knocking the door. Seonghwa was lying, acting like you didn't have the exchange with him earlier today outside your studio.
"Alright, we're coming!" You giggled. Mingi grasped your hand as you pulled away and left him to the door. Seonghwa opened his arms to hug you. He patted your head like Hongjoong did.
"Have you been well? Taking care of yourself and eating meals?" He asked. You nodded your head.
"Good." He praised. You and Mingi walked to the living room area to see everyone bringing the multiple plates of food out.
"Wow. That's a lot of food." You said.
"We never have enough food." Jongho scoffed, making you laugh. You momentarily let go of Mingi's hand to help Yeosang bring the eating plates and cutlery out.
Mingi stared at the hand that you just let go of, why did it suddenly feel weird when you hand slipped away from his? A heavy feeling settled in his chest. Mingi didn't understand it. His hand felt so empty and cold that he clenched it.
"Mingi hyung, are you okay?" Jongho asked, noticing the taller just stand there, staring at his hand weirdly. Mingi nodded his head. At Jongho's question, you lifted your head to see Mingi walking away.
"Where's he going?" You came to the maknae. He shrugged and you followed where Mingi left.
"Mings?" You knocked on the bathroom door. The lock clicked and you let yourself in. Mingi leaned against the sink.
"You okay?" You frowned in concern.
"Yeah, I'm fine, baby. I just spaced out for a moment and needed to wash my face." He said. You stood between his legs as his arms circled around you.
"Are you not feeling well?" You tried to touch his forehead but he avoided your hands, instead leaning down to press his eyes against your shoulder. It was silent and all you could hear was Mingi's slightly heavy breathing right by your ear. Your hands came up to brush the hair at the back of his neck.
"Are you tired? You can sleep if you want." You spoke softly. He shook his head.
"I'm fine. I just wanted to hold you." He mumbled. You let out a hum, giving him as much time as he needed. When he was ready, you both went out to join the others at the table.
"The countdown!" Wooyoung cheered excitedly as you all looked at the Youtube countdown on the screen.
"Turn the volume up." Hongjoong said to Seonghwa, who had the remote. You held Mingi's hand, squeezing it nervously. Even if you didn't appear in the music video, you felt the nerves in your stomach.
"Don't be nervous." He comforted.
"You're nervous? Don't be! The song is great, ATINY will love it for sure." Seonghwa added after hearing Mingi comfort you.
"Shh, it's starting!" San hushed everyone. This was the first time you were watching the video after all the editing. You were offered a chance to watch it by the video production team after the cut and editing but you had declined.
As the video started, you cast glances at the 8 boys around you, their eyes glued to the screen with anticipation and excitement. You couldn't help but smile sadly, knowing you'll miss this.
~
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darkest secrets (part 2 of FRIENDSHIP TEST)
Pairing: jack harlow x famous!reader
Genre: fluff
A/N: i think you can read this part alone, but for more context it is better to read the first part. Also, originally this was going to be just one part, but I already wrote a third one today 💀, I really liked this concept of the interviews, so i'll post it soon!
PART 1 HERE
enjoy! hope you like it
Ever since the Friendship Test video, the world has gone crazy when it comes to your friendship with Jack. And not only the fans, obviously also the media: all the magazines, all the youtube channels, all the late night shows, etc, each and every one of them wanted a piece of you and Jack.
After thousands of calls, emails, conversations between your manager and Jack's, finally his schedule coincided with yours, and you agreed to give the world more of the two of you.
This sudden interest in your relationship was a great opportunity for both of you careers, but none of that mattered to you seconds from seeing Jack again.
your makeup artist was doing the finishing touches when you heard a knock on your dressing room door.
"come in!" you yelled, and saw the figure of jack appear behind the door. your heart skipped a beat, and you couldn't help but smile, as jack felt exactly the same, the butterflies in his stomach almost unbearable as you got up from the chair and hugged him with all your strength.
“I missed you” he whispered in your hair.
“missed you too” you said separating yourself from his body and looking at his eyes, you couldn't help but squeeze his face and he smiled harder.
***
“okay guys, the game it’s just questions and answers, there are cards face down on the table that have the questions, if the conversation flows from one of them, just continue, until there is nothing more to say, you pick another” the producer said and you both nodded.
first you recorded your greetings and then continued with the game.
“who goes first?” you asked
“ladies first”, jack answered and you rolled your eyes, but you picked a card.
“what is your worst fear?” you read, “uhh, we started off hard” jack smiled and thought for a few seconds before answering
“losing the people that I love” he said, and you pouted. smiling, he put his thumb to your lips, undoing the pout, "don't pout, luckily it hasn't happened to me yet" you smiled, but inside you felt your pulse quicken from the brief contact, too intimate for the cameras, but too natural between you. He picked his first card.
“how do you see yourself in ten years?” he asked and you thought for a few seconds.
“I hope starting my own family… with someone who loves me and that i can trust” you said.
“so cute” he commented, and you felt the heat permeate your cheeks.
"Which animal do you identify with?" you read, "ohh, let me guess please" you said, and jack nodded, the smile never leaving his face, "with a lion"
"I quite like that answer" he said, leaving you in suspense
"But is that what you were thinking?"
"yes", he confessed, "they are the king of the jungle... besides, I think I look a bit like them" he said, touching his beard and then his hair, you laughed loudly
"you're so stupid"
“but you love me”
“yes” you quickly admitted, making him smile
“love you too”
“I know”
“cocky” he joked, and you shrugged your shoulders, smiling. He picked another card.
“Who is your celebrity crush?”
“Ummm”, you thought, “well, I have two actually”, jack raised his eyebrows in expectation, "first one is leo dicaprio, but but I'm on the verge of failure, I only have a year to conquer him” you said, making the behind-the-scenes crew laugh. you smiled hoping not to get in trouble for that comment, “and the second one is harry styles, but this time i’m too young for him, since he likes older women” you said pouting and jack laughed
“obviously one of your crushes was going to be harry styles”
“are you saying I’m too predictable?” You said pretending you were offended
“nah, I’m just saying that he seems the type of guy you would like”
“Reallyyy?”
“Yes”
“And how do you think is the type of guy I like?”
“physically? tall, with curls, light eyes. personality, well, i don't know what harry is like, so I don't know if I'm going to describe him or not, but i know you like to laugh a lot so he must be funny, and i know you like to have deep conversations, so he must be interested in different types of art and things like that”
“Wow, i didn't know you knew me so well” he winked at you and you laughed, “ok, who is your celebrity crush?” you asked, emphasizing the word "your"
“You”, he said without hesitation, you rolled your eyes
“Be for real jack”, you said and he laughed almost nervously
“Im being for real!”
“I know who your celebrity crush is” you said crossing your arms over your chest and jack had to use all his willpower not to look away at your cleavage
“oh, yeah?”
“yeah”
“And who is it?”
“Alexa Demie”
He laughed, “you caught me”, he said, and even if you didn't want it your stomach fell in disappointment, you would have liked him to keep insisting that you were his celebrity crush, but you knew you weren't.
“You know… if you had admitted that, I would have give you a free pass to be with her” you said without thinking
“Oh, you would give me a free pass?” He said, emphasizing the “you”, and you blushed
“Yes, because I own you”, you said quickly, trying to make your slip pass as a joke, not letting him see your nervousness. He laughed loudly.
“although you’re not wrong”, he said this time and you blushed harder, but rolled your eyes in an attempt to seem calm.
“It drives me crazy when you roll your eyes”, he said almost in a whisper, like only for you to hear, but he knew he was using a microphone. You gulped hard.
“Would you give me a free pass to be with harry styles?” You said, trying to ignore his comment, getting back on topic
“Oh, so you’re implying that I own you?”
“Maybe”, you said elevating one of your shoulders and one of your eyebrows, he smiled widely.
“I would not”, he answered, and your smile dropped.
“What!”
“I don’t like to share”
“I gave you a free pass! I take it back”
“Fine by me, I only want you”
“Jackkkk”, you whined, “stop it!” he just smiled at you, he knew he was making you nervous and he loved it, for a second you just looked at each other, and then you spoke, “you want to pick a card? Since I made the last question” you said, but he ignored your instruction, asking you directly
“Who was your first celebrity crush?” He asked, really interested to know the answer.
“Mmmm, my first celebrity crush was Daniel Radcliffe, you know who he is?”
“I don’t think so”
“The actor that played harry potter, I remember seeing him in the first movie when I was five or maybe six, and found him cute, but when I saw the third one, oh my god”, you widened your eyes and jack raised a brow, “I fell in love”
Jack was trying so hard not to show his jealousy, he couldn’t believe he felt this way about your childhood celebrity crush.
“then I saw the fourth one and I fell harder”, you said
“did you see any of the movies in the theater?”
“Yes, I did, the fifth, and wanted to see part two of the seventh, but I was too sad to do it, I didn’t wanted it to end, i even saw it three years later because I refused to believe it ended”
“I didn’t know you were such a big fan of harry potter”
“Oh, there’s a lot you don’t know about me”, you joked
“That’s not fair”
“Why?”
“You know everything about me”
“No, I don’t”
“Yes, you do”
“I don’t know your darkest secrets, just as you don't know mine” you said and jack thought for a second
“Well, I can tell you one, but since it’s a secret…” he said, removing the microphone from his shirt and indicating you to come closer, you did and he brought his lips close to your ear, “I’m in love with you” he said, and your breath hitched. Jack didn’t know where the urge to confess his feelings had come from, perhaps from the silly jealousy of talking about your celebrity crushes.
“Jack”, you said serious
“You don’t believe me?”
“No, but I'll still tell you one of my darkest secrets” you replied
“Ok”
You also took off your microphone and put your lips close to his ear, “I’m in love with you too” you confessed to him, hoping with all your heart that his had not been a joke, because otherwise the damage would be tremendous.
***
After the game was over and the goodbyes were recorded, you ran to your dressing room as if death itself were chasing you. jack asked his and your team to give you a few minutes alone before he came after you.
"why are you running away from me?" he said opening the door you had left unlocked, finding you in your chair looking at yourself in the mirror, “stop playing”, jack spoke again, approaching you
“I’ll stop playing if you stop playing” you answered, without taking your eyes off the mirror, and you looked at it through the reflection. he quickly turned your chair so you could look him in the eye, and leaned towards you, with each of his hands resting on the armrests, encircling you between his arms
“Ok, I’m being totally serious right now”, he said, feeling the nerves run through his entire body, “what I said was completely true”
“what I said too” You said completely serious, and Jack didn't wait a second before bringing your lips together in a hungry kiss.
Fortunately, Jack already had locked the door.
***
the video came out only a week later, and the comments were crazy again:
user 1: I WANT TO KNOW WHAT THEIR DARKEST SECRETS WERE
user 2: WHAT WERE THE DARKEST SECRETS? I CAN'T DIE WITHOUT KNOWING
user 3: he described himself as the boy she would like 💀 love him
user 4: IT'S SO EVIDENT THAT THEY LIKE EACH OTHER, JUST DATE ALREADY, OR AT LEAST FUCK
user 5: THE SEXUAL TENSION
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jackharlow we read your comments, and here is the answer… the darkest secrets were: we’re in love with each other 😚🥵🤤
jackfan1 I FUCKING KNEW IT
user1 it was so obvious bro 💀
jackfan2 THE EMOJIS AJLDK stoppp
urbanwyatt 🖤
yourinstagram 🥺 i’m so fucking in love with you
->yourfan Y/N 😭
->user2 I've never seen her in love before, it's surreal
jackfan3 WHAT IF THIS WAS MY LAST STRAW
jackfan4 this is my 13th reason
->jackfan5 girllll 💀
emmachamberlain BEST COUPLE EVER
yourfan2 mom and dad
troyesivan the IT couple
user3 hearts are breaking rn
yourfan3: WHAT ABOUT HARRY yourinstagram?
->yourfan6 LMAO
->yourinstagram my heart is big enough ❤️
->jackharlow yourinstagram stop playing
->yourfan7 she's so funny 😭
->youandjackfan LMAO LSADKJASDJ
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coming home
pairing: Bradley “Rooster” Bradshaw x reader
summary: Rooster’s homecoming doesn’t quite go as planned, but all’s well that ends well (i still suck at summaries but oh well) 
warnings: swearing, mentions of Rooster and Mav’s near death experience, insinuations to sex 
a/n: did someone say abandon all my other wips for now and finally let the rooster bradshaw brainrot settle in? :D
i added him and a few other top gun: maverick characters to my taglist form but feel free to message me or shoot me an ask if you'd like to be added!
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You hardly slept when Rooster was deployed. You couldn’t sleep, not when he was out there doing god knows what and you didn’t know if he was okay. And you knew it was stupid, that this was his job and he always came home to you in one piece, but you couldn’t help but think that there would be one time where your worst fear would come true. 
Tonight was no exception. 
All you could do was toss and turn in bed, counting down the hours until the empty space beside you was filled by his annoyingly loud snoring form, and you could relax again. 
Before you could fall into a fruitless sleep, your phone buzzed on the table next to you. 
roo <3: coming home tomorrow. meet me @ the hard deck, 6PM. can’t wait to kiss you ♡
You couldn’t help the grin that split your face as you tapped out a response. 
y/n: see u tmrw handsome <3
Now you could go to sleep a little bit easier. 
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You pulled up to the Hard Deck at 6PM sharp, fixing your hair and touching up your lip gloss one last time before hopping out of your car and heading for the doors. 
“Hey, Y/N!” A cheerful and familiar voice called, causing you to turn and come face to face with Bob, one of Rooster’s dagger squadron friends. 
“Hey, welcome back!” You reached out, rubbing his shoulder affectionately. 
“Yeah, thanks! Glad to be back,” Bob nodded rapidly. “Y’know, Rooster’s really lucky to be back in one piece. What he did out there was super dangerous, risking his life in enemy territory like that.” He chuckled like you knew what he was talking about, but your brow just creased in confusion, and he must’ve taken it as concern, because he quickly tried to save face. “But super heroic! Saved Maverick’s life and all, totally didn’t almost die!” 
You froze, barely registering Bob saying a hurriedly awkward goodbye as your mind tried to wrap around the fact that Rooster had almost died, and he didn’t even tell you. Most of you was relieved he was still alive, but there was still a part of you that was pissed the fuck off that he just forgot to mention this small detail in your daily video chats, and it was that part of you that had you storming into the bar. 
Clocking in on Rooster leaning against one of the pool tables in the back immediately, you stalked over to him angrily. His eyes lit up when he saw you, opening his arms for a hug, but you just gritted your teeth as you barrelled into him. 
“You! Absolute! Fucking! Asshole!” You snapped, harsh smacks against his firm chest punctuating your every word. All of Rooster’s friends fell silent, watching you both with wide, expectant eyes. But he had the nerve to look bewildered. 
“Baby?” He wondered aloud, eyebrows furrowed in confusion, searching for any semblance of an explanation on your end. You just stared back at him, breathing heavily. 
Rooster was confused, you were confused, everything was a jumble of emotions balling tight in your chest, but one very quickly broke through the rest of them—relief. He was still here. 
Rooster was home. 
You grabbed his stupid Hawaiian shirt in your fist and you kissed him, smashing your lips against his firmly. Maybe a little too much so, seeing as the force of your kiss knocked the aviators right off his forehead, to which he fumbled to slide them into his breast pocket before splaying his hands across your back as he let out a surprised grunt at you throwing yourself at him and kissed you back with just as much fervor. It was a messy kiss—all clashing teeth and desperate clutching hands—so much so that you almost forgot you were in the middle of a packed bar. 
Key word—almost. 
“Ten bucks says they’re gonna go for a quickie real soon,” Hangman’s drawling voice drew snickers from the rest of the naval aviators and a middle finger in the air from Rooster. 
You pulled away from Rooster breathlessly, smoothing down his shirt clumsily before punching him on the shoulder; light enough so it didn’t actually hurt him, but hard enough so he knew that just because you kissed him, didn’t mean you weren’t still upset. 
“I’m so mad at you right now.” You hissed. 
“I can see that,” He mumbled, still looking a little dazed. “You wanna…go outside and talk about it?” You didn’t respond, just letting Rooster guide you through the crowded bar and outside to the much quieter beachfront with a hand on the small of your back. The breeze coming off the ocean was cool, a nice contrast to your heated cheeks as you stared clench-jawed out at the lapping waves. “Talk to me, honey.” 
“You almost died…and I had to hear it from Bob???” You exclaimed, turning to face him seethingly. Rooster’s eyes widened at your words, mouth falling open but no words coming out. “Were you even gonna tell me? Or were you just planning to brush it under the rug and pretend nothing happened?” 
“Of course I was going to tell you, I just didn’t want you spiraling before I got back to explain the whole story! Because I know how worried you get, and I didn’t want you giving yourself an ulcer freaking out about me,” He shot back, more desperate than frustrated with his hands lodged in his hair. “I was planning on telling you tomorrow, I swear. I just—I just wanted a night, okay? One night with my buddies and my beautiful, gorgeous girlfriend after the craziest mission of my entire life, baby. But I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. I know I should’ve.” 
You suddenly felt horrible for blowing up on him back inside, clamping a hand over your mouth tearfully. “God, no, I’m the one who should be sorry, Roos. You’re right, you deserve to relax. I shouldn’t have come at you like that in there.” 
Rooster stepped forward as soon as he saw your chin begin to wobble, bringing you into his arms tightly. “Hey, it’s okay, baby, you were worried. I get it.” He sighed against your hair. “But I’m here. I’m still here, I’m safe.”
“I know, I just…I don’t know what I’d do without you, Bradley.” Your voice was barely audible, so soft that Rooster probably wouldn’t have heard your words at all if you weren’t tucked against his chest like you were now. 
But you called him by his first name. Not Rooster, or Roos, or even Roo—Bradley. His full government name. That was how he knew how much this was affecting you. 
“You don’t have to do anything without me, baby, I’m right here,” He assured you gently, giving you another tight squeeze. You just sighed, pressing your cheek against the soft cotton of his Hawaiian shirt, right above his heart. Because if you closed your eyes and just listened to the steady thudding of his heart, then maybe—just maybe—you could convince yourself that Rooster almost dying a thousand miles away was just some freak accident. That it wouldn’t happen again. 
“I love you so much, Roos.” You gazed up at him lovingly, brushing your knuckles across the scar on his cheek, and he smiled, turning his head to kiss your fingertips lightly. 
“I love you more than anything, Y/N. More than life itself.” He murmured, whispered words ghosting across your skin in a promise that Rooster intended to keep forever, as long as he was still breathing and even when he no longer was. Leaning down, he nudged his nose against yours, his mustache tickling your cheek. “Now can I pretty please with a cherry on top kiss my perfect girlfriend without her smacking the shit out of me? That actually kinda hurt, by the way.” 
“Shut up.” You shook your head with a huff of laughter that died on your lips as soon as Rooster kissed you again. As opposed to your earlier, very emotionally charged kiss, this one was tamer. Sweeter. Like you were saying ‘nice to see you’ instead of ‘I’m really pissed off at you’. Like everything was better now that Rooster was home, and you were home in his arms too. 
“Whaddya say we get out of here and head home?” Rooster mumbled against your mouth, lips curving into a cheeky smile. 
“What happened to wanting to spend a night with your buddies?” 
“Honey, there are a hundred other things I’d rather be doing than spending another second with those dumbasses. Starting with,” He hummed, hooking his fingers into the belt loops of your shorts and giving them a little tug, “getting these off and on the floor of our bedroom.” 
“Slow your roll, Lieutenant Bradshaw,” You snorted, batting his hands away. “You’re gonna be the one paying Hangman that ten bucks if we leave right now.” 
“Call me Lieutenant Bradshaw again and I’ll give him however much he wants as long as we leave right now.” 
“Lead the way.” 
Rooster pumped his fist in the air before lacing his fingers through yours and all but yanking you across the sand to his blue Bronco in the parking lot, but not before shoving a ten into a very confused looking Fanboy’s hands with a haphazard mumble of ‘give that to Bagman’. 
Then you were off, Rooster gunning it through the empty streets of Fightertown (and probably breaking the speed limit all the while) to give your pilot a proper welcome home. 
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