#a task for work on my DAY OFF

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

rough day...

#i might come back and color this. Eventually.... #scribbled this after a busy day of lots of moving things into storage and hauling boxes around #i felt a bit like a workhorse! #at some point i sat down on the uhaul w/ my water and thought. Wow. How Does Eddie Manage #poor guy deserves a break... #he needs a day off smh #i mean the neighborhood would fall apart w/o him probably but still. he needs a vacation! #he works too hard! someone tell him to prioritize himself for once! #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #eddie dear #alrighty well its 12 am i need to get up in less than 6 hours and i still have Several Things To Do before i can sleep! #so! queuing this and getting those last chores done #wait fuck. what where they #well! i'll remember when i get up to do them! probably! #yknow 7 hours into tomorrow's drive im gonna be like OH FUCK I FORGOT THE [insert task here] #oh. shit did i eat dinner? hm... im not gonna be ready for breakfast when i wake up #so i might as well add 'quick cup of noodles' onto tonight's Before-Sleep list.... #im rambling! sorry! #anyway i have Much affection for eddie! somebody get him a spa day and some shiny new stamps!!!

[puppyeared]

doodles of my fav sillies

anton belongs to @poicyss

#my brain is a barbie dreamhouse and theyre all just living in it #im especially fond of the second one because my mom used to hold me like that all the time <3 #im drawing them a lot lately because im being crushed by the horrors and have to compensate for it somehow #homemade comfort blorbos...... #watch me draw anton inconsistently bc i can never decide if i wanna draw him close to how he actually looks #or yassify him and give him soft fluffy hair and kind eyes and defined features. head in my hands #i dont really have a lot of drawing ideas for them bc they dont have like. a canon storyline or anything methinks #its just stuff me and bow toss around and giggle abt thru messages lol. maybe ill draw infant vincent one of these days #i just come up with stuff and draw them doing it. it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside #cuz like anton works for lobocorp as an abnormality BUT hes super duper chill and cute and does his funny little tasks so its fine #AND hes unkillable. auggie is an oc ive had since like 6th grade and i smushed them together. and vincent was for fun but i got attached #i dont have much of a read on anton either bc i think hes meant to be more of an insert character??? if im using that right #on one hand i dont think too hard abt anything being ooc since im not taking it seriously. on the other hand i just hold them in my hands #and stare into space until i can come up with something to draw since i dont have much to go off of. but its fun to build on small tidbits! #i think bow called it an au so i guess??? its an au????? im not really sure. bow if youre reading this im just willy nilly #the only thing i know for sure is that they boink like rabbits. im talking gomez and morticia levels of boinking #maybe ill go back and look at my old doodles for them and redraw em lol #myart #my art #my oc #oc #friend oc #augusta #anton #vincent #sillies family #doodles

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Anyone else have near-perfect executive function at work; but at home, have literally no energy or motivation to do anything except lie in a dark room, with something in or on your ears for several hours?

#It’s got to be the schedule keeping me on task at work #I love microdosing strict routines (not having an actual routine for the day; but having routines for small tasks #which piss me off if I can’t carry them out precisely the way I planned) #For instance: If I’m asked to paperclip a bunch of stuff together with multicolored paperclips of various sizes #I cannot just indiscriminately pick paperclips from the container because that is WRONG and ILLEGAL #The colors must fit the theme of the assignments; and the colors must alternate in a specific order #and the paperclips must all be the same size #If I’m asked to dump out and clean containers of writing utensils I am going to sort them by type and color #whether you like it or not #Black permanent markers have their own container in a different section from the blue permanent markers #Dry-erase markers are not to be mixed with permanent markers because they are easily confused and it is WRONG and ILLEGAL #Do not fuck with the system. It’s the only organizational skill I have and by fucking GOD I’m going to use it in EXCESS #I stuff and fill out envelopes the exact same way every time because if I do it any other way it is WRONG and ILLEGAL #The stamp always goes on last to minimize monetary waste if there is a mistake #Now you’d think my room is squeaky clean and organized because of how particular I am about these small tasks #Right? Right? #NO IT IS NOT. It looks like a bomb went off. Cleaning the room is a big task which cannot be accomplished within two hours #therefore I have discarded it as anything I need a routine for because it would take too long to come up with #and it is very hard for me to do things like that without instructions or a sense of consistency #So I simply don’t #“After five years the dust doesn’t get any worse” correct; but the mold certainly does #I am convinced half my problems with organization as a kid would have been solved if I just had a hamper #“We have a clothes chute; you don’t need a hamper” Maybe you don’t but I DO #I want one now; but I’m going to use it as incentive to get an apartment #because that’s another thing I need to smuggle and I have too much already

[tmae3114]

the example people always go for with 'taking things literally' is 'not understanding idioms and metaphors' or 'not understanding sarcasm' and that's frustrating for Me, Specifically, Personally because I am a person who has a lot of social struggles with Taking Things Literally but, crucially, not in that sense. I understand idioms & metaphors just fine and, as someone who's primary special interest is the written word & storytelling, actually am pretty good at them and thrive with them. I miss sarcasm occasionally but catch it most of the time and am often sarcastic myself.

No, my Taking Things Literally is that if you say something to me or give me an instruction, I will Understand It Literally. I will get what you said and not at all what you meant. There are exceptions to this in cases where I've learned the script and even use it myself (e.g. the other day I asked my mum "Is this Not Butter" about a thing, and she replied "Yes but it has buttermilk", because we both understood the real question was "is this the lactose-free spread?" because I was making food for my sister) but in the vast majority of cases, I just. will miss implications and unspoken assumptions. I will just completely miss them, they will not register, I Did Not Know They Were There.

Implications in a narrative? I am on it immediately, this is my bread and butter, I can pull a story apart to get to five layers of subtext & implication & theme like breathing

Reliably understanding that the request "Can you empty the dishwasher?" includes emptying the drying rack which is not physically part of the dishwasher because the real request is "Can you put the clean dishes away?"? Not a chance

#me #fortunately I know a lot of Techy Computer People #so I can go ''you know how if you input a command your computer will do Exactly What You Told It To? my brain works like that' #and then they get it #and that last one is one we've been working on #the request is now usually phrased as ''Can you get the dishes?'' which is mutually understood to be either #''can you put the clean dishes (in both dishwasher & drying rack) away'' #or ''can you load the dishwasher & do the handwashing?'' #depending on the time of day & which of those tasks needs done #however sometimes my mum & dad do forget and use ''can you empty the dishwasher'' and then later they go ''you didn't get the drying rack'' #and I go ''you said dishwasher!! you didn't mention the drying rack!!'' and they go ''okay fair'' #ANYWAYS. I AM HAVING SOME. COMMUNICATION DIFFICULTIES THOUGHTS ATM #[squints at this post] [sighs] okay I'm going to add the relevant tag but if this break containment I WILL be turning off reblogs posthaste #bc my activity STILL gets influxes from my last autism post to break containment #actuallyautistic

[canisonicscrewyou]

You know. A lot of the times it really doesn’t feel like it at all. But Ohmygod am I trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and I am. Tired. But I have to keep trying and that’s fucked up.

#idk I’m just tired of being in burnout all the fucking time it makes me forget how to be a person and drop everyone and everything I like #I have been trying to make myself reach out to someone outside of my apartment and job once a day at least #I am trying to do the chores and tasks I dislike and have been putting off #the anxiety is being worked on. slowly but surely. maybe. #I think the whole ‘haha I forgot how to be a person entirely’ isn’t as bad as it was even like. a month ago.

[miodiodavinci]

there’s a more correct way of saying it though

#which is to say that one #i am mandated by my university to take on a certain number of tasks each week #all of which require extensive documentation both before and after they take place #but my supervisor is so fucking. disorganized that i can’t plan more than a day ahead #and even then they have been. repeatedly brushing off the tasks We Agreed I Would Do #in favor of them just taking the lead and making all of my planning documentation. redundant. #and then at the end of the week they’re like ‘oh what was if you needed to do #and i end up having to cram all these stupid redundant tasks into one day. #and Two. #because of this ongoing issue of them kind of just. agreeing on something one day and then changing the story on me the very next day #i am Horribly behind on my portfolio project #and having to do Very stupid and difficult things to make it seem like i’m Not horribly behind #and in both cases i just feel like screaming and crying and weeping #but i aldo feel like i have expended the emotionsl good graces of everyone around me #so all that’s left to do is suffer. #(but my brain is so fucking burned out that it feels like i’m just) #(repeatedly jabbing electrodes into a piece of shoe leather meat and begging for it to work again) #oughhhhh i just want to collapse already #someone let me………

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT. #i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe? #which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.” #“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.” #and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

[very-uncorrect]

So I've been off for 3 days in a row (flu got me bad) and this is something that happened today, the day I finally got back to school

One of my English teachers whilst picking up a school book: by the way, Sarah, I wanted to talk to you about something

Me, thinking it's gonna be about the work I missed: oh sur-

Teacher: this opinion journalism homework you did was absolutely phenomenal, it's almost completely flawless and I was wondering if I could use it as an example of good essay writing for other students if you don't mind

Me, completely taken back:

#feels good man #the book she held up was my essay book with the work in #i wrote it the day it was due in the morning while i was tired #i kinda half assed it so this was really surprising #i mean i did enjoy doing it but i didn't think it would be that good #i was actually kinda worried that it was bad #the writing task was about if emoji usage is causing english to decay #a-level #alevel #sixth form #a level #a level english #this was the pick up off the floor i needed aftwr being ill

[starbuck]

got a BUNCH of mundane tasks done today that i have not had time for for weeks and i am SO grateful!

#cleaned my bathroom kitchen and den #did four loads of laundry #paid off my credit card… finally secured my unofficial transcript… drafted a text to my uncle about tuition funds for next semester #made a detailed work schedule with pre-written tasks for each day over the next month or so #to make sure i stay on track #my friend came over and we watched a film and chatted a bunch #i did another Master Naturalist class #i got a good amount of this week’s schoolwork done #did i have a single moment to myself just to chill? No. #BUT i’m glad i got stuff done #it was worth it #and i’ll have chill time on Thursday #whew… #mansion tours tomorrow can’t WAIT!!!!!

[papercutsmp3]

god i hate working a two person job being someone who doesn't miss or forget a thing with my coworker who idgafing through her life bc the way it hurts my pride when i have to also bear the burden of her not doing the job properly

#and my head of department just texted me likee well please be more careful next time (both of us) #and theres no way to just straight up tell him that i am always careful and i was not even there when that happened #well i still said that as carefully worded as possible bc theres no way im taking the blame for being careless #but i just hate it so much bc i always make sure everything is going properly i feel like im this girl's second team lead for fucks sake #i had a day off yesterday and just clocked in today and immediately have to listen how we didn't see important tasks #well there is no we actually i am fighting for my life #tbh this is such a minor unfairness but it still makes me feel million years worth of rage #and the situation at my mom's work is way more unfair to her genuinely i can't imagine how she is able to push through it #it's unrelated but it just crossed my mind. actually even with my shit coworker i am at least treated fairly in the eyes of my team lead #00

[gideonisms]

Does any library in Texas want to get the translation state audiobook just for me 💕 if I ask really nicely....

#i have the ebook on hold but there's something about the imperial radch books that just lends itself well to #being listened to on walks and while doing household tasks #tried some sci fi podcasts lately to fill that spot in my heart #it's kind of working although i will listen to half of episode one and be like. yeah evil ai. oh reality warping monster in the depths #also can't get into the comedy ones bc our senses of humor usually don't mesh. one day i will power through wolf 35something #i've heard it's so good but the first ep put me off but i WANT to like it #anyway #i've heard there's more body horror in translation state omg #yess love when it gets weird #sphene cameo alone will make this book for me

[camgoloud]

i simply feel that if you burn shit in your roommate’s skillet you should then feel the obligation to be the one who scrapes it out and cleans up

#sometimes i think about the fact that i’m literally the only person who’s cleaned the kitchen in this place for the entire year and a half #i’ve lived here and i get. a little pissed off #i’ve tried being polite and bringing up the problem without explicitly pointing fingers by leaving cleaning products (which i bought) #out on the counters and sending a text in the group chat like ‘hey! 😊 i got these wipes for us! i think that all of us could #use these a little more often so that the kitchen doesn’t get so gross!’ but it seems that everyone either has no sense of shame or just #genuinely doesn’t mind living in filth for the periods between the marathon cleaning sessions i do every few weekends when i have the time #one of the guys who lives downstairs will just walk right by me cleaning up on his way to the fridge and pretend he can’t see me #which is still better than the other one (the one who just burned shit in my skillet) who once saw me cleaning and asked if he could help #and when i got all pleased and asked if he could maybe take the trash out for me while i was cleaning counters (a small and simple task! #when he’d literally asked me if there was anything he could do!) he visibly deflated. said ‘well i’m not really around here much [so it’s #not my trash in there etc.]’ and wandered off. without doing anything #like. HELLO???? you could have just been like the other guy and pretended you didn’t see me doing all the work if this was how you were #going to be about it #but i guess he wanted to feel good about himself having offered/expected me to just say ‘oh no thanks i love being your housekeeper 😊’ #tbh i really need to be more assertive and be like ‘hey guys i’m sick of this’ and maybe. bring up the Sexism of it all. because. #you know. the whole situation feels pretty gendered #was complaining about all this to an irl friend the other day and she said i should start a chore chart but i don’t want to be responsible #for maintaining the chore chart either! take on the mental load of managing the housework and also turning into Resident Bitch for asking #men to do things for me. you know. there is simply no way out here #there is another woman who lives here as well but unfortunately i don’t think she’ll be much help in forcing the issue because. she doesn’t #clean shit either! #actually in the days since she moved in the shower drain in our bathroom has become horrendously clogged which. well. i mean not to point #fingers but one of us has got about two inches of hair and the other has got a foot and a half. so #i also simply feel that if you clog a drain you should be the one to unclog it but i’ll probably do that as well #sorry for the massive tag rant by the way i really shouldn’t make myself out to be some kind of martyr because i’m not particularly neat #myself but…. ooooh god if the bar isn’t all the way down in hell #anyway i just did a whole bunch of dishes but i left that one skillet to soak passive-aggressively overnight #i don’t think the aggression will come across though because i think he genuinely won’t even pay attention to the fact that it’s still #dirty and i’ll end up being the one to clean it tomorrow #caseyposting

[gigginox]

thought i had today off but apparently i had an old schedule and was supposed to come into work today 😁😃😀

#i offered to come in cuz i need tge money anyways but. #my brain is in ''its my day off'' mode im not mentally prepared for work im going to run into traffic #AND ive already done stuff please i only have one major task in me today i cant do another. looks at you

[sinni-ok-sessi]

need to get an air horn sound I can play over zoom meetings for whenever this one particular co-worker misgenders me

#you would think the part where I fully did not realise that the things coworker told my boss 'she' would do were in fact tasks for *me* #might have been a clue. a clue to go with the last five times i corrected her #And Yet #gonna spend the rest of the day working myself into a State about crafting a professional 'hey this is really upsetting and also directly #contravenes our company's policy on trans employees so knock it off' message I guess #everyone else is super good about it is the thing! and I don't even think she's doing it deliberately #but at a certain point refusing to give enough of a fuck to get it right is pretty indistinguishable from being a jerk on purpose

[greppelheks]

It's just if I don't micromanage every single minute of my day, my physical and mental health starts to suffer in so many different ways. People without physical and mental illnesses are so lucky to not constantly have to think about it, and to not have a daily task list you don't have the energy for so it doesn't all go to shit. :')

#I'm like always this tired because if I relax for a few hours I'm immediately hit with all the stuff I need to do to stay healthy :“) #personal #first days of days off are exhausting 'cause I didn't get to do all that stuff because of work #because I didn't get to do all the things I need to do to stay healthy because of work #and now my day is filled with a huge task list #self pity thursday bb

[arnold-layne]

kinda sad that i wanted this job so much and its only been half a year and i already detest it. staying in the office every day feels like torture. all the tasks are not intellectually stimulating enough and i feel an all-encompassing boredom. and boredom is the worst feeling in the world

#pleabs let me work at a localization agency #i sent off the test task a couple days ago and now have to wait god knows how long for the result…. #and doing another task from another agency now also #i have to do my best and it makes me so anxious #like i realise im good at this. im good at translating. but i have zero experience in the field. none. null. nada. #what if that stops them from considering me? #the person that gave me a lead on these agencies said they look first and foremost at the quality of the test task…. #sure hope so #arnold’s laments