#a serious thing to be alive

[lesbianralzarek]

"life doesnt get better, you just get stronger" does NOT include ages 11-17. life does in fact just get better from there. those years are dogshit. like, you do get stronger but its mostly just a factor of not being 11-17 anymore. positive thinking helps but it doesnt fix whatevers going on at 15, you have to brute force through that one raw

#i originally posted this as just a 'hey remember how fuckin bad middle/highschool was? shit was wild' type post but now #there are a bunch of teens in the notes being like 'oh my god are you serious? it gets better? im not stuck in hell forever??' #and im reminded that the only people who told teenage ella 'it gets better' were speakers at mental health assemblies #aka the least relatable people alive who were seemingly born to lie to you #so. uh. yeah im a certified adult who isnt here to lie or sugarcoat the realities of being a teenager #the only thing more certain than the pain is the transcience

[firstfullmoon]

If you persevere, in time you will have an entirely different problem – not that life is meaningless, but rather that life has almost too much meaning. As the scales fall from your eyes the world rushes into focus, presenting itself with a kind of vibrational eloquence that can, at first, be almost overwhelming. Everything shimmers, everything clarifies, everything wrestles for your attention. Trees feel super-real, their roots plunged into the earth, their branches stretching to the sky, birds are flesh and blood souls, fragile with life, the sky unfolds and rolls, the ocean crashes, people fascinate, books are beautiful, children are whirling dynamos of chaos, dogs bark and cats meow, flowers shout, your neighbour glows, and God runs like a helix through all things. The world awaits you, humming with meaning. You are alive with potential. You are not dead.

— Nick Cave on getting clean, Red Hand Files #258

#w #letters #nick cave #it is a serious thing just to be alive on this fresh morning in this broken world

[babygirlificationn]

The Edgeworths :)

#sidufhvckjs i read a fic at some point. an au #where gregory was alive (which is usually not a thing im fond of but this was some sort of off the walls au where nothing was the same so i #will allow it) and peoiple were calling edgeworth the senior gregory and his (adult) son mr edgeworth and its just. insane as a concept. #super serious baby edgeworth going out with his father greg #miles edgeworth #ace attorney #ace attorney fanart #gregory edgeworth #fanart #traditional art #art #my art :D #aa #wow second aa post to hit one thousand notes. yall do NOT mess around #1k #2k

[gingerswagfreckles]

How is the Musk vs. Zuckerberg cage fight not all over tumblr immediately this is insane this is God's gift to mankind this is the funniest thing that's ever happened in the history of planet earth. Eat the rich???? Eat the rich??!!?!?! We aren't going to even get the CHANCE to eat the rich bc they are literally, LITERALLY going to kill each other with their teeth!!!!!

#gingerswagfreckles #elon musk #elon #the muskrat #mark zuckerberg #zuckerberg #musk vs zuckerberg #i think maybe bc none of yall check the real news ur not understanding that this is forreal and like actually fucking happening?? #that they have a place set and an agency organizing it already and have both confirmed theyre dead fucking serious?? #like its not a joke they are actually literally actually going to beat the shit out of each other on live TV this is the crazy #craziest thing ive evrr seen irl #like we have had a lot of crazy shit happen the past couple of years but this might just take the cake forreal christ alive

[greenstudies]

Sometimes self care looks like a 3 hour long walk through the forest and looking for birds and plants you don't know and getting your shoes all dirty and just walking off to the forest

sometimes self care is also finishing the walk with hot chocolate in a local café

#i am so serious #this is the only thing keeping me alive lately #walk that is shorter than 7km is not worth it #mental health #it is really time consuming ye but so is depression #goblin core

[carpathiians]

very late happy new year wish from me to you 🎆

#they had a fun time #john is going through it #he doesnt have his scars yet bc this would have to take place before rdr2 to make sense i think #this drawing isnt the greatest but like. its not very serious lmao #wanted to do something on time but just couldnt. #new years eve fucking killed me i had the worst hangover of my life and then i slept for almost two days #but its ok now im alive we move on #2023 had some highs for me. but some very low lows. all i dare to hope for now is that things calm down lol #but to everyone else — hope your 2024 is great <3

[altocat]

More cringe memes. Lucrecia Edition.

#ff7 #ffvii #final fantasy 7 #dirge of cerberus #lucrecia crescent #Hojo #sephcanons #And don't @ me for this #I recognize that Lucrecia was very much in the wrong for her involvement in the Jenova Project #She is just as guilty as everyone else #HOWEVER there's lots of room to suggest she had no idea what she was really getting herself into #And unlike Hojo she isn't doing this to be a sadist nor was her intention to have her own child taken from her #Lucrecia needs a rewrite but what's there has some serious layers #Also I feel like there's an ugly underbelly of misogyny within the fandom when it comes to its hatred for Lucrecia #Lucrecia is allowed to have done horrible things without being the villain #Good people can do horrible HORRIBLE things #Lucrecia isn't evil she's a stubborn dumbass who kept trying to fix her mistakes and dug herself deeper as a result #But she never wanted Vincent or Sephiroth to suffer #She wanted Vincent alive #And she wanted to hold her son #There's nothing saying that Hojo wasn't manipulating her the entire time #Remember in the OG it's implied he was drugging her into compliance #Part 3 may very well clear some things up

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tom & B'Elanna give off closeted gay vibes in that I think if you asked them to describe their ideal woman and man they would respectively describe a swimsuit model (bonus: who's Not Like Other Girls) and the lead in some sort of romantic novel. Nothing even close to a real person. The most generic you can get about straight romantic and sexual attraction.

#B'Elanna would say that OR she'd just name some incredibly basic things that make you sad when you hear them #I can 1000% see a canon scene where B'Elanna is upset about random ensign guy not meeting her standards for a date #and everyone's of course of course of course like 'well YOUR standards aaare a little high B'Elanna' ha ha ha and B'Elanna's like #(she's upset but trying to work to take her mind off it) 'Is it SO hard to find a guy who-' then proceeds to list off basic things #the writers think women want and it's all soft romantic things and Tom's like (bc this is ostensibly a romance scene between them) #'B'Elanna are you serious?' (What???) 'If you went out with a guy like that you'd eat him alive. You need a guy who can keep up with #your-' (I swear to God if you say my temper.) '-Passion.' <- his hands are held defensively in the air and his tone is sarcastic. B'Elanna #is pointing a space wrench or something at him. she quickly pulls away. frustrated and embarrassed. #and everyone's like wow this a very good romantic scene we did that really well I think. #in reality the scene was B'Elanna being upset - Tom making fun of her and ignoring the fact that she's a romantic but in the writer's minds #its Tom being romantic and charming and signaling that he's interested in her

[caffeinatedopossum]

I think I know now what it is about life that makes it worth living and I hate that I can't tell anyone. I can't write it down for me to reread when I forget because it's... just a feeling. And maybe you aren't supposed to be able to put that into words or hold onto it. You just have to trust that you'll feel it again

#im crying and i probably sound insane talking about the meaning of life on tumblr dot com #but i am insane! and im completely serious #im so glad im alive..im so glad i didnt kill myself. im so glad im here right now still feeling things i dont understand #i know im only 20 and i know this life has more to offer but... i get the feeling ill have had enough at just the right time #i hope i get to die old and happt #and before that i hope i get to experience... well. everything #i know i won't. but ill know when ive experienced *my* everything. when im ready to die it wont feel like this #which means im not ready to die yet #what a silly thing to feel liberated by questions most people may never ask themselves

[ratskool]

I’m like Johnny Truant in the tags of every goddamn post I make or reblog on this site and I’m not apologizing. If you want me to apologize come over to my house and you can talk to the minotaur about it

#House of leaves #im literally going insane these days I should go back to journaling but I’m also afraid of how far off the deep end I’ll go #Literally I am losing it and I’m being serious #I’m so fucking tired of being lonely and being left out and not being able to make connections #Sometimes I feel as if im doing things without realizing and no one is telling me about it #Other times it feels like I must have something incredibly wrong with my face or body and no one will say anything #People make plans and don’t bother to ask me if I want to join and then when I find out there’s a group chat that all my friends are in #Except me and when I asked if I could join I was given a bunch of reasons that were frankly bullshit why I couldn’t join #Are they talking shit about me? I know everybody there it’s not like I am a stranger #Am I just a stranger in this world as I unllikeable? I try my best to be nice and charitable but what am I missing? #Do I black out and say things and do things? Am I more mentally ill than I know? #The only reason (or one of the very few) why I stay alive is because of my horses because I know they would miss me and I already feel bad #Not seeing them everyday #I’m tired of being the odd one out I’m tired of being entertaining when necessary #I don’t want my only friends to be horses because it further alienates me from the rest of society and I just want to be accepted I’m not #Looking to fit in I just want connection and friendship and I can barely seem to manage that #Maybe I’m just not worth it.

[qcellbit]

It's so depressing to me that not a single person doubted that Quackity had "kidnapped" Richarlyson for a second when the news came out. There was no doubt in anyone's minds that this "sinister plot" was his doing despite Cellbit going completely off the deep end and threatening to take full custody of Richas the day before, and forging letters to place the blame on Quackity to take Richas for himself would be a very reasonable thing to suspect him of doing. Makes me wonder what Quackity can do to fully redeem himself in everyone’s eyes when he's infamously poor and unskilled and his good intentions alone will never be enough

#at least they're not orchestrating plots to get him drunk and vulnerable anymore i guess. #that was crazy. the fact that nobody is going to face any consequences for that is insane to me #sorry for being a q!quackity apologist i've got bugs in me #and before anyone comes at me it's not that serious it's not real i don't care that much TALKING ABOUT LORE IS SO SCARY #they're eating each other alive over things like this on twitter. make no mistake.....i wouldn't go to war for a fictional character #it's not real. it's cubes #mine

[firstfullmoon]

I leaned against the beauty of the world / And I held the smell of the seasons in my hands

Anna de Noailles, as quoted in Les Années (The Years) by Annie Ernaux

#w #poetry #anna de noailles #annie ernaux #it is a serious thing just to be alive on this fresh morning in this broken world

[magicshop]

trying to stay positive is so hard when everything is falling apart

#I'm so serious when I say bangtan is my lifeline #literally the only thing that brings me any joy these days #where would I be without them to hold on to? #parasocial relationship this parasocial relationship that but they're keeping me alive

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I was obsessively listening to Fake Out over and over and thinking I needed to tell you, and then I pick up my phone and see you’ve blown up my notifications <3 THIS ALBUM IS SO GOOD AND FAKE OUT IS THE SONG THAT STUCK WITH ME THE MOST!!!!!! You are SO right!!!!!!!!

YESSSSSS it's the way it's such a bop but the lyrics actually sound so defeated EXCEPT. then you REALIZE. there's a "but"!!!! but it was all a fake-out!! the defeat and the burial and the trappedness were not real they were all fake!!! the window was already open!!!!!!!!

#SHAKING SOBBING THROWING UP #whenever I'm in a tough situation or am feeling defeated about my circumstances I just think. I gotta figure out a window to break out #like literally I'm so serious it's so important to me #also I'm literally gonna say this every time I can but that's pete wentz's daughter shrieking at the end of Kintsugi Kid #SOOOOO SPECIAL TO ME. #the most ''look at where we are; look at where we started the fact that you're alive is a miracle'' thing ever to me #Lu rambles #asks #music #fob #smfs #<3

[hauntingblue]

Ace...?? they cloned my beautiful wife...

#ace if he was born with his mother's hair but without freckles....... #this 3d intro... damn they spent their coins here but didnt age that well xd #i love how there is nearly a movie for every character that joins since usopp.... sanji got the last one. chopper has one i havent seen #and robin now.... i mean its not their movie but you know what i mean #zoro and nami on the same wavelength i miss you.... my fag and hag sisters.... #robin old design i miss you.... her and nami look so different.... not like now.... #I MISS CHOPPER OLD DESIGN HE LOOKS SO SILLY!!! #the goofy scenes are too good..... 'luffy what are you doing''nothing just a fight' 'okay dont get lost' #also sanji with robin and nami while the others fight... the girls AND sanji #this guy looks like ace with his kinds long middle part hair and eyes.... and luffy likes seeing hum fight #i am seeing things where there are non but my beautiful not dead yet wife keeps haunting me once again #seeing luffy talk about how if he dies fighting to be pirate king then so be it and like HE DID!!!! AND THAT DIDN'T STOP HIM!! #kids with guns TUN TUN kids with guns TUN TUN #robin made a gigantesco mano.... this was visionary #ROBIN giving back the gun to the child so he shoots luffy and he can bounce it back.... luffy enabler num 1. #nami threatening a child with zoros sword.... i needed this so bad. #shryer.... your drip too hard.... your swag too different.... your smoke too hot.... they will kill you #NOOOOOOO the clone of my beautiful dead wife died just like him.... face down... #the old man is dying and zoro knows.... #shryer is alive who woulda thot..... #'be serious' 'im always serious... didnt i get out?' this is him. omg #sanji with the cooking hacks for the fight.... i am sure of it... also sanji spy come back to me.... #THE BOY IS THE SISTER??? AND THE OLD MAN AND ACE CLONE ARE BLOWN UP??? #it is flour lmao they got their ideas from the fight with crocodile #everyone is alive and well 👍🏻including the hat #that was kinda beautiful with that plot twist and everyone wanting to live and all.... #nami strangling zoro!!!! more!!! #talking tag #watching one piece #watching one piece movies

[medi-bee]

making a two minute animatic for a podcast 99% of my followers have never heard of well that’s just how it goes sometimes

#im alive hello hi can you hear me #the cycle continues #medi bee talking #i’ve never animatic’d anything before in my life this whole process has been a learning disaster #but you know what. it’s actually coming together i think #even though i started it without so much as figuring out what i want the characters to look like #i’ve drawn more humans for this stupid thing than i have in the rest of my entire life #the podcast is dungeons and daddies btw #single-handedly carried me through these past two months #binged all two season and now i’m in ‘waiting for the next episode to come out’ hell #get me out of this office i want to go home and draw‼️ #i wasn’t actually sure how serious i was abt this but now i’m like. 80% done somehow? #but i am the master of jinxing myself so let’s see