#Withdrawn

[rainytypology]

Enneagram Type 4

An overview of an enneagram type. Not an expert. May change later.

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Type 4

Center: Heart/Image/Shame

Other triads: Reactive, Withdrawn, Frustration

Basic motivation: Create a unique identity, make personal significance

Basic fear: Being forgotten, not feeling important

Wings: 4w3, 4w5

Disintegration/stress: 2

Integration/growth: 1

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Traits

- Strengths -

In tune with emotions

Expressive and creative

Have an eye for beauty/aesthetics

Empathetic

Tries to be genuine, be themselves

- Weaknesses -

Can be moody and overly sensitive

Self conscious

Feel defective

Can be self pitying

Focus too much on themselves

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Wings

- 4w3 -

The 3 wing adds a spit of spark to the typically melancholic 4 core. A bit more outgoing and friendly. May feel envious of others more often. Want to have validation and praise for their unique accomplishments. 3 wing helps them set goals, which are usually aligned with expression and creativity. 4s want to make a mark/influence on the world and 3 wants to be successful in making that mark. They want their uniqueness to be seen.

- 4w5 -

4 and 5 are both withdrawn types, so it's no surprise 4w5s are often introverted and/or private. Independent type who does what they want. Can intellectualize their emotions. Can get lost in their own world as they are focused on building their creativity and skills rather than focusing on relationships.

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Disintegration: 2

Disintegration to 2 can cause a 4 to lose sense of their independence, instead throwing themselves into relationships. They want to be rescued somehow without putting much effort into building genuine connections. Very clingy and intrusive.

Integration: 1

Integration to 1 can cause a 4 to become more objective and more bold to take actions towards their desired goals and dreams. They learn not to be trapped in their self absorptions. They learn to control/balance their feelings so they are less moody. Integrating 4s have a desire to contribute to the world and make a better difference rather than simply only doing things they want whenever they want.

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Subtypes of 4

- Sp 4 -

Sp 4 is the most internalized and least expressive about their pain and suffering compared to the typical 4. They learn to deal with it by themselves. They want to be recognized and accepted for being so "tough" for not complaining about going through heavy things. They may instead look for those who are visibly suffering in order to provide empathy and help for them.

- Sx 4 -

Sx 4 is the most expressive and intense. They want to be their most authentic selves and chase after their desires. They are very deliberate in trying to attract others with their unique and genuine character - with the way they dress, act, any sort of self expression, they need people to like their uniqueness. They can be more assertive with their needs, which can be used to cover up the actual sadness they have inside. They have a deep need to prove they are worthy.

- So 4 -

So 4 is the most connected to their suffering and will openly show this. They compare themselves a lot to others and feel shame for not having the traits they envy. They want to be accepted but fear their flaws will drive people away. Inferiority and victim complex. There is a lot of inner conflict of wanting to be original and different but fearing having something wrong with them and longing for others acceptance.

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[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

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[howifeltabouthim]

. . . she began to crave his touch. But he was no longer interested in intimacy. For he had withdrawn into himself, much farther than before, and she couldn't reach him.

Anna Biller, from Bluebeard's Castle

#touch starved #lack of intimacy #withdrawn #closed off #shut out #unreachable #out of reach #sad #relationship problems #quotes #lit #words #excerpts #quote #literature #anna biller #bluebeard's castle

[buggedmind]

"How did you spend the weekend?"

"On Tumblr..."

#tumblr addict #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #introvert #social isolation #withdrawn #bpd problems #lonely #loneliness #i am lonely

[officialyourdailyinspiration]

God's Judgment on Israel and Judah

With their flocks and with their herds they will go to seek Adonai, but they will not find Him— He has withdrawn from them. — Hosea 5:6 | Tree of Life Version (TLV) Tree of Life Translation of the Bible. Copyright © 2015 by The Messianic Jewish Family Bible Society. Cross References: Proverbs 1:28; Isaiah 1:15; Jeremiah 11:14; Jeremiah 14:12; Ezekiel 8:6; Hosea 8:13; Amos 5:21

#Israel #Judah #seek #seeking #flocks #Adonai #withdrawn #Hosea 5:6 #Book of Hosea #Old Testament #TLV #Tree of Life Version #Holy Bible #The Messianic Jewish Family Bible Association

[1introvertedsage]

Lost and Found

Where is it you think that I've gone? The deep end or some place beyond. Seeming a bit more withdrawn listening to different songs. Back in no time or taking too long.

Movement through all of the prongs. Crab walk turned into a swan. Trials that I've undergone No longer being their pawn. Finding the place my Soul belongs.

~Ruby L.S.~

#Lost and Found #poetry #Intsa original #poem #Ruby L.S. poetry #Ruby L.S. speaks #poetic #lha #1introvertedsage #original poem #my poem #lost #found #withdrawn #calling #Soul speaks #spirituality #Intsa Allegories

[funkymbtifiction]

Hi Charity! I wanted to ask if it could be related to a function/enneatype or if it's just self-deprication creeping in. 

The thing is that for a big portion of my life I've been feeling as if I'm invisible. In a sense that unless directly speaking to me, people don't really perceive me - don't think about me in their spare time, nothing can remind them of me, they don't look forward to meet up with me unless I initiate plans. The last bit I am still unsure about since majority of people who were my friend ended up being this type of people who are afraid of "intruding" and "being annoying", so they afraid to initiate anything. And in theory, I guess I understand that feeling but I also think it could have contributed to my thoughts about myself. For some reason people don't remember me (usually, if I run into someone and I am with my friends, they always remember my friend(s), even if my friend(s) only met them once and we hung out a lot), even though the way I dress could be described as somewhat eccentric, so it's not really me blending into the crowd or something. This "invisibility" used to really upset me but overtime I became comfortable with it, and now the thought that someone is thinking about me or perceiving me as an existing person even if we aren't physically together/texting is deeply uncomfortable. In theory, it should feel pleasant and nice that someone is remembered me or thought about me but I can't help but feel that I want to disappear out of existence and completely detach from everyone.  

This sounds very withdrawn (4/5/9). Flying under the radar, being not noticed, and then becoming discomfort with being noticed... it feels 5ish in a way, although being "forgettable" is one way a lot of 9s use to go about life unaffected by other people. It might be 9, if it bothered you at first, but you got used to it (instead of getting angry about it and more assertive / taking up more space, you are now taking up less and fading even more into the background). It also sounds like a low social instinct (sp/so). I think it might be worth pondering WHY you want to disappear from everyone -- is it because that would feel more comfortable to you?

#question #mbti #enneagram #withdrawn

[piercedbritt]

And I was his biggest sin.

A downfall.

I don't believe anymore.

#artblr #painting #spotify #bpd #emotinal #mindset #original art #real talk #inkart #art is hard #angel #fallen london #church #christianity #tell me lies #athiest #confused #cast out #withdrawn #acrylic #prismacolour pencils #watercolor #religous trauma #trust no one #im hurtin #it speaks #sorry for being depressing #im working on it #artists on tumblr #rainyweather

[aneverydaything]

Day 1794, 22 May 2023

#India #bank note #1000 rupee #withdrawn #real or fake? #currency

[iamda05]

I got a rogue one book from the thrift store my dad got a spiderman soundtrack of the first movie which I'm jealous of and here's K2S0s insides if anyone was interested

It was withdrawn from the library look at how cool I was hoping the force would be with me and the thrift store and it was, i like finding star wars books!

#rogue one #spiderman #star wars rogue one #jyn erso #k2so #cassian andor #dk #death star #withdrawn #the force is strong with this one #the force is with me #k2s0 #star wars movies #star wars prequels

[arrhythmiacomic]

I got lucky enough to get commissioned for a holiday piece by the creator of the webcomic Withdrawn!! and then instead of drawing either main character I drew the disaster sister.

anyway the first chapter is done and it's charming as hell

#webcomics #fanart #withdrawn #the opportunity to combine several ugly christmas sweaters into one. a blessing #lucksart

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

#sad #lonely #depressed #isolated #withdrawn #introverted #avoidant #misunderstood #emotionallyunavailable #socialanxiety #depression #mentalhealth #loneliness #lonelinesshurts #alone #isolatedfeelings

[howifeltabouthim]

You are cold and your soul is dark.

Iris Murdoch, from The Philosopher’s Pupil

#cold #soul #dark #ominous #aloof #withdrawn #quotes #lit #words #excerpts #quote #literature #isolated #iris murdoch #the philosopher's pupil

[obsesjasworld]

Miłość jest tęsknotą po utraconej połowie nas samych...

#i miss u #loveislove #justbadlove #petrified #withdrawn

[vera-deville]

Loneliness

Created On: 04/27/2021

Edited On: 06/01/2022

I saw you standing there

I had never seen you ne'er

You seemed so lonely and mysterious

Thinking back, I must have been delirious

Your being eluded me constantly, leaving me breathless

I struggle to stay upfront on my feet, my lungs airless

When I couldn't move no longer, you sauntered to me

Your dark dress flowing; you lifted me up, listening to my plea

Dainty graceful fingers caressed my tear-stricken face

My dangerous mind sent thoughts to chase

I knew I should not have allowed her in

My forever refreshing being diminishing its grin

When the world failed me, she was always there

How did I not sense the danger in the air?

Soon, my feelings changed, blossomed into something

Something that excited me; made me, of her, trusting

Days turned to weeks, weeks turned into months

Months turned to years, my mind a place of labyrinths

I often found myself in the refuge of her safe arms

Whispered sweet nothings in my ears like charms

Promises of a life so lonesome, tempting me greatly

I find myself lost in an indescribable abyss as of lately

I knew she was me, I was her, and it was meant to be

Written in the stars, we found ourselves in a black sea

I could have sworn that there it was, but it wasn't

I was a fool, deluding myself into thinking it doesn't

I thought I had everything, but I was only under a illusion

But once doubts surrounded me, I was in a state of confusion

I felt distressed; she had given me everything

Yet here I was, wanting something more, the sting

I could feel a barrier rising in between the two of us

It felt like a searing pain, littered across my body, are cuts

I tried so hard to break away from the one I needed the most

To our relationship before it is no more, a parting toast

Now I find myself lighter, the abyss staring back

The right choice? My resolve begins to crack

Despite all this, with every fibre of my being

I leave her, us, everything behind, to keep me from bleeding

It has been a long while now and I wonder of the "what ifs"

There are others now, and in some way they are like gifts

I don't know what has become of her

Or if she still lingers on what we were

I am still unsure of many things

However, I have cut my strings

That's all, I suppose

After all, it's what I chose

Original work's link: https://www.wattpad.com/1056812504-my-poetry-loneliness

I truly encourage you to check out the link above (which is included in every single one of my poems) as they also provide author's notes which explain the context of my poems as well as some other details.

#poetry #original poetry #poems #feelings #loneliness #lonesome #lonesomeness #personification #depression #depressed #anti social #withdrawn #alone #mysterious #woman #persona #thoughts

[renewed4truth]

Disapperance

Deliberately concealed

Vanished to avoid

Finding humor in my pain

Whilst hurling through the void

Truth be told I’m fine

Yet I’m not the same

deserved all I’ve endured

For my soul to be regained

You think I am fooled

Someone to be controlled

You’ll have only yourself to blame

When I’ve been freed and let go

You betray not only my heart

But our children’s before they grow

You can pretend to be innocent

But the truth will be made known

Take pride in your wickedness

Beguile yourself that I have no proof

Hopefully you are still amused

When it is my turn to go “poof!” 💨😅

#only me #raw truth #i deserve better #fake love #withdrawn #poof