#WTF HOW IS IT 4 YEARS

[ash-and-starlight]

one day, in a thousand years

#I THINK I HAUVE COVID #oh to meet your love after a thousand years at a museum exhibit of your past lives #thinking about them makes me so sick so ILL DISEASED #I AM NOT IMMUNE #spc i’m cursing u forever for this wtf. WTF bro wtf #ouyang’s last thoughts were a desperate plea for esen to wait for him. #he has NEVER called him by first name he has NEVER asked him anything #and his last thought is asking him to wait #and esen does. bc he would have given ouyang anything he asked for #god i hope u get rawed so good it makes up for all the lost lifetimes u earned it #he who drowned the world #she who became the sun #the radiant emperor #general ouyang #esen-temur #(zhu also present in the golden imperial dragon and the golden light of gayness that brought them together again) #my art #not super proud of how it turned out tbh tbh it looks better in my head 😔😔 #would’ve stayed in the drafts if not for my need to feed this 4 ppl fandom #and if not for robin motivation nfngdjfb ty kissa you forever #id in alt text

[avimates]

omg is that glowduo 😰

#glowduo art #glowduo #ranboo #ranboo art #how do i use this #i haven’t used this app in 4 years wtf #please help #follow me thanks #avimates art #art

[bizarrelittlemew]

pssst hey if you want an Ed/Stede wedding there is one in the epilogue of Something timeless going on 💕 my first multi-chapter fic that i wrote almost a year ago (37k, E, canon divergence/pining while fucking)

#it's not spoilers if it's tagged “matelotage” is it #wow we are really coming up on the anniversary of this fic wtf #things i am proud of in this fic: 1) doing the stede writing ed letters thing without knowing it would be a thing in s2 #2) the “they're both the manic pixie dream girl” tag considering how djenks has called stede ed's manic pixie dream girl in interviews lmao #3) that scene where they both top and both bottom i always hc both as vers but that is still the most vers i have managed to write them #4) the wedding outfits 😭 i really wish i could see those #5) honestly just finishing this fic in the first place because at the time it was the longest thing i'd written in 12 years #now it's of course five birthdays and a funeral #“slow burn but they're fucking” tag my beloved <3 #my fics #ofmd fic

[tomatoluvr69]

Ohhhhhh my goddddddddd so I’ve basically been to the doctor three times since turning 18 and aging out of the pediatrician because of my horrible doctor fears and issues. So it’s a MOMENTOUS occasion and the culmination of years of glacial self-work that I felt ready FINALLY READY to sit down and make a doctors appointment for a routine visit!! Like that is give or take a decade in the making…….and all the ethereal alchemical elements were correct so I could finally do it this morning. But the clinic is closed and you can only do it weekdays ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️ ok guess I am going to the doctor in 10 years probably. See you 2034

#the year when the water riots destroy Los Angeles finally #i want to go bc I need an inhaler and a blood panel ;-; #that’ll be $200 total probably!!!!!! agghdgdgdh #ok lucky for me my tax statement from 2023 was lowwwww bc I did most of my work under the table… #me who is low income when services for low income exist: but that’s 4 ppl who really need it!!!!! meanwhile I only eat dried beans #but basically I’ll probably make a bit more this year so I might try to get all the 10 years of accumulated cavities taken care of now #while it only costs 6 months’ paycheck and not 6 years! #I’ve got a really insane visible hole in my canine it’s soooo bad #:-/ #the thing is that my mental health is so good rn I’m like wtf was I doinggggggg and I get so mad at myself. how quickly we forget the #horrors… #and also my hope is that since it’s a low income clinic they’ll be really kind to me when they tell me I have 18 cavities :-( #also me who has slipped through the cracks of the healthcare system due to mental health and gets flagged by social services meant to catch #people slipping through the cracks: but you guys should focus on the ppl who REALLY need it!!!!! I’m literally fine *dies of completely #preventable ailment that would’ve been flagged by routine bloodwork*

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#theres gotta be. like there has to be something wrong with my head #ugh. not wrong. wrong is a bad word. just. i should not b this hard to get my brain to focus on literally anything that matters #its just so frustrating. im doing the best i ever have. and yet i still cant focus. wtf else can i do? #god dammit. all i wanna do is listen to garbage and draw and draw and draw my shitty little scribbles #maybe my head jsut wasnt built for what im trying to do with it #so idk how tf im supposed to get thru the next 4 years of my phd. or wtf im gonna do after #maybe i should just have just started working at a lab when i graduated. just be a lab manager for thr rest of my life #i dunno. i dunno what to do. how to make my head work. it shouldnt be this hard. my dad can just do things he doesnt want to and im like #HOW??? Im too much like my mom. especially now that im way less anxious. she was a procrastinater and a messy disaster #ay. im just frustrated and feeling guilty abt the lack ot work getting done. i just wanna get back into thr lab #unrelated

[09lover]

my reaction after ()’s attempt to gaslight me for the uncountable time into trying to repair this broken relationship that they ruined

#es talks #no because why………… #you ended it i didnt do… anything…. (head in hands in disappointment) #story time here.. click for more if u wanna read..? #ill call them (). one day they texted me about our friend who ill call koru who unfollowed(?) them on twt because they kept #commenting (more of in a critical way..) about how their art was missing fingers despite it being drawn correctly. so they tried to somewhat #force me to stop talking to koru and shit talks about them to me…. which i still remained in contact with koru and told them everything #so we stayed as besties and eventually () came by to visit me and eventually found out i was still friends with koru then decided to throw a #temper tantrum and ignore me to the point their mother had to get involved… which still didnt work out after their mother helping us 3 times #then our … like 4 years or longer relationship just went down the drain… all because of that. #unfriended me and also started shit talking me to their friends then just yesterday which i found out today #<- discord btw -> she then sent me multiple messages in some gcs we were in… calling me disgusting & said i shouldnt ignore wtf i did in #an attempt to gaslight me thinking what i did was gen wrong and also guilt tripping me to crawl back to her to beg and apologize as i always #do… but i just had enough ehfjejdje #well ill most likely delete this later just needed to get this out of my system!

[skunkes]

what do u guys do with non clothing items you dont want anymore and cant rlly sell.... need sum advice.....

#talkys #didnt wanna make the post longer but god #over the years ive just amassed little things ppl give me that i just have 0 space for. i hate owning things it stresses me out! #but its stuff i cant sell or idk how id give away and just throwing them in the trash feels horrible in every direction #both in like. wastefulness for discarding things and ''god im a horrible person'' way. #but i have no room for any of this nor a need to eventually have to carry it with me from home to home #an example im having rn (im cleaning + reorganizing my room) is once my uncle and aunt got me like a pack of 4 rubber ducks #from the dollar section at somewhere. and theyre like. not my style. one even has that unicorn headband thing. one says hoppy easter. #''bc you like ducks lol'' i dont want them. but its 4 chunks of Waste wtf do i do with them. UGH. #what do you do with ANYTHING i wish i cld throw everything in the trash and not feel bad and not harm da planet. i hate owning things i #dont want to own many items i hate having things

[arandomcat64]

WHAT IN THE SEKAI??? I JUST GOT MIZUKI BIRTHDAY CARD ON MY FIRST PULL? AND IT WAS A ONE PULL???? ONE?????? I-

#how #just how the- #I went “lol doing a one pull on this limited banner that I don't really mind that much” #AND BOOM #when I expect nothing I get lim birthday card #like #wtf Miku where the in the whole that is the universe is this luck when it's Tsukasa or Emu???? #WHY IS THIS GAME SO- #hatsune miku colorful stage #hatsune miku project sekai #project sekai #any Emu 4☆ please come home it's been a year and a half since I started playing please- #mizuki akiyama #akiyama mizuki #mizuki pjsk

[half-a-hetero]

guys im not kidding this time. i actually forgot how to draw

#wtf #im not even kidding i havent drawn in over a year #and im so upset cuz i think abt how much i had progressed in less than a year and how much farther i could have gone if i had kept at it #art #artists on tumblr #i literally tried to draw a 3/4 profile and. #i can only draw noses once again #and side profiles

[archervale]

going through my 4 year old destiel art and getting nostalgic

#HOW has it been 4 years wtf #man I wish me rn had the inspiration old me had lol #stupid posts

[4giorno]

oh my god. i just saw some of my OLD OLD digital art like before i made my art blog and holy fuck. suddenly faith in myself completely restored

#this is why its vital to save your old art like you can get yourself so down and be like wtf am i doing this for im not improving #nothing like seeing something you made 4 years ago to bonk you on the head and make you see sense #ofc im not improving AS fast as i could be bc i dont draw enough but still #now my priority should be to become faster like its absolutely necessary. it already was years ago #i just checked how long it took me to draw my latest post and ill tell you. those two drawings took me 39 FUCKING HOURS #like that is absolutely unacceptable. no 'just go at your own pace' or anything no. that should not happen and i need to fix it #hopefully there is an actionable plan and advice out there ill have to look <3 #waah im so sad it seems the steady trickling in of notes has stopped finally. i was so close to getting my first drawing with over 200 notes #im sorry if this is shallow but it is a big deal to me #im so thankful for the notes i did get tho! it is my most well received drawing ever and that makes me happy

[mumblesplash]

see on one hand oppositional defiance disorder is a bullshit diagnosis and i hate that it exists but on the other hand i would like further scientific investigation into why my high school cross country team had to cheer against me to make me run faster

#like wtf is this shit #to be clear i specifically requested they do this #because around k 4 of the 5k races i couldn't summon the strength of character to overcome the Defiance Instinct #and no matter how hard i tried hearing any variation of 'go go go' made me run significantly slower #so i told my coach and he was like hm what if i tell you to stop running instead #and i was like idfk might as well try it this is literally a high school extracurricular nothing matters #and my times improved so much i made it to states #i hadn't even done distance running before that year #mumbling

[oh-meow-swirls]

imagine being nate/katie n just having to deal with world-ending schemes or whatever four summers in a row. possibly just over the span of like three summers-

#puppy rambles #yo-kai watch #at oldest they're 14 in 4 n at youngest they're 12 n have dealt with so much bullshit- #they don't even get to relax during the school year. nate fucking dies during the school year in blasters #how do you think his family n human friends reacted to him dying n then just showing up again perfectly fine fffgcngbd- #“hey guys” “nate wtf we thought you were dead” “i was. now i'm not” #“we had a funeral for you it was really sad” “well i'm alive now so” #i'm pretty sure in m02 his injuries just weren't bad enough to kill him (just knock him unconscious) #so when he fucked shit up as fuu 2 he just. got to be alive again #n given that he dies the same way in blasters it's probably the same #but also it's funny to imagine everyone being extremely confused how he's just casually alive again-

[tamarieatsbatteries175]

ZERAORAS YOUR MEME SQUAD

#GONNA RANT ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVE ZERAORA ♡♡♡♡ #Reason 1. SO. DAMN. CUTE #I COULD DIE #IF ANYTHING BAD HAPPENS TO ZERAORA #I CEASE TO EXIST. #Reason 2. VERY KITTY. #Reason 3. JUST L O O K A T T H E M #OH MY GOOOOD #Reason 4. ELECTRIC CAT??? HELL YEAH #And now i rant about how Zeraora should come back in future games. and other stuff. #I AM SO A N G R Y AT MYSELF FOR MISSING THE SHINY ZERAORA EVENT FROM LIKE 3 YEARS AGO ON POKEMON SWORD #CUZ NOW I CANT HAVE A N Y ZERAORAS :[ WHY GAMEFREAK WHYYYYYYY #TAKE THEM TO POKEMON VIOLET #AS LIKE #IDK A 7 STAR RAID OR SOME SHIT. I JUST WANT MY SILLY MAN #THE WORST PART: I DONT HAVE THE MONEY TO GET WHATEVER CONSOLE SUN AND MOON ARE ON CUZ THAT SHIT IS PROBABLY EXPENSIVE AS HELL #WTF MAN #In conclusion: Zeraora is love and Zeraora is life. Live laugh Zeraora. #Thank you for coming to my tedtalk. #sillyart #zeraora #i aint tagging allat

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak #who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad #and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur #research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a #bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way #i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit #i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like #i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt #wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide #stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the #predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing #i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh. #i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just #send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel #ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart #ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants 🥳 but nah no excuses we run #this body into the ground. like the good old days. #unrelated

[stardustings]

My partner heard that some babies say dada first because mothers are always saying it, but they don’t hear mama as often. So whenever he has the baby I hear him saying, “Mama. MA MA!” over and over.

#it’s our 4 year anniversary this year and I still wake up every day like wtf how did I get so lucky #(it was working on myself and manifestation) #motherhood