#UGH I feel like shit

[galwithalibrarycard]

Do you ever stumble on just the summary of a work on AO3 that’s so reprehensible that you spend a whole week feeling guilty and obsessing over whether just having work existing on the same website as that shit makes you a terrible person? Thoughts?

#non-reblogable bc I don’t want a tumblr wide forum here #i just want to hear from my fellow ficwriters I actually follow and interact with #how do I stop feeling dirty #and no this isn’t kinkshaming #i don’t judge any kink between consenting adults #but there are things I can’t condone #ugh I feel like shit #(yes I know I should use filters more aggressively this isn’t about that)

[definitelynotnia]

I'm sick.

fuck this shit

#math exam is literally 24 hours away #i still have so much to do #i got my period this morning and I've been feeling super tired but i chalked it up to periods #i tried really hard to deny it all day #all night too #headache and body pain and sore throat and blocked nose ofc I'm sick #my boyfriend told me at 12 am to go sleep #it's 5 am #i should've listened cz now i have all of that plus fever #fuck thishonestly #even after staying up all night my brain was so slow i could only do like 3 chapters #i still have like 7 left #i hate this i hate this i hate this #ugh i feel like shit #i can't anymore I'm going to sleep i don't care

[castiel-left-his-mark-on-me]

Today, I felt like a kid again.

I ate so much ice cream, I threw up.

#not the revisit to my youth I was hoping for tbh #ugh i feel like shit

[sunwarmed-ash]

I've been sick for 9 days with a non covid illness that's now taking its toll on my mental health 🙃

Send me asks or cute stuff plz

Or let me know if you liked the chapter updates, I was able to crank those out with a fever 🤘

#ugh i feel like shit #this is not a cash money kinda week #wtf bruhhh

[darby-rowe]

i woke up with such a deep headache, and i’ve been trying to let it go away on its own without having to take medicine but i dont think thats happening 🙃

#🧸; dally speaks #what a terrible start to my morning #i was supposed to drive to my parents house so my dad could change my oil #but thats not happening #ugh i feel like shit #i stg if my coworker got me fucking sick #i truly might have a meltdown

[insantia]

a little rant after the break :) feel free to skip it!

i am a very strict vegetarian — i barely eat any dairy because im lactose intolerant. ive been strict for 7 years, but in the last year I have became more flexible with it... i eat non-mammal meat once in a lifetime. its both because it doesn't match my lifestyle and because i have a very specific intolerance at digesting mammals' meat.

but there's times that — for god's sake... I just crave eating it. and i can't help but feel awful.

#i also have chronic illnesses related to b12 vitamin and iron deficiency! what makes everything worde #ugh i feel like shit

[rainbow-fairylandsystem]

i hate it when jez deals with her triggers by going out and getting wasted. i don’t mind her going out and getting a couple drinks, but she always overdoes it. she spends way too much of MY money, and then leaves me to deal with the hangover the next day

#ugh i feel like shit #and i still have to do lesson prep today

[withered-tears]

Tried out kfc last night

Aint eating that again

#ugh i feel like shit #my guts T-T

[pepperonidk]

woke up from a nightmare… hate that 😭

#i’ve been having insanely vivid dreams lately #and i know they’re dreams too while i’m dreaming #and they’ve been like very realistic #ugh i feel like shit #jem speaks

[luna-light-eclipse]

When your head is throwing a shit fit and you don’t even know if you sent an ask to the right person.

#luna’s brainbox #ugh I feel like shit #it’ll ease off later #probably #hopefully

[biohazard-inevitable]

Ugh I started sleeping on my back recently to try to help my back pain and it made my LOWER back pain a little worse but my shoulders dont hurt anymore soooo i guess i just need a leg pillow or something. Blegh

#minor vent post #small vent #i ache like an old man #i’ve been doing daily stretches and some yoga exercises too when i remember #a big issue in general for routine changes like this are reminders #i forget often #thanks to adhd i go blind to stickynotes and other reminders #they stop existing if they exist long enough #which is like about a week #pain helps me remember though #which is why the back issue is even getting worked on #also cause being sick with bronchitis kinda forced me into it #body said: nope! we’re gonna make you change positions every 4 hours #and dehydrate you #i’ve easily drinken 4 gallons or somethin these past 3 days #ugh i feel like shit #but my nose is congested now so #means its getting better #i just gotta let it run its course

[trees-to-meet-you]

This has been Such a Week

#ugh i feel like shit #chatter

[masokissslasher]

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#gets booted off Twitter for a bit #when you direct rage at someone and then immediately realize it’s not the person you were directing it at like rip #I do feel bad bc I wanna let them know that I’m sorry #at least I deleted the post like immediately after and followed them I hope they understand it was wrong person #ugh i feel like shit #I’m so tired of feeling like shit I just wanna diseappear

[solarpunkani]

"Oh no, someone's attracted to the aesthetics of my -punk movement but doesn't know the praxis and history behind it like I do--"

OK. Tell them. Make it a teaching moment. Everyone who's in your movement learned the background from somewhere at some point, maybe this is that point for that person. Give them a jumping off point that they can dive into later.

"Oh but I shouldn't be responsible for teaching baby -punks about the history and the how-tos and--"

OK. Then don't tell them. You don't have to be responsible for teaching people with a budding interest in your group the ins and outs and how-tos. That's fair and valid! It can be a lot of work. Someone else will handle it

"But I'm annoyed that they would try to claim to be part of/be interested in my community without knowing all the details that I know after being in it for months/years/decades, they're dumb, they're posers, they're--"

OK. Then don't engage with them, if it's that bad. Maybe someone else will come around and tell them the history, maybe they'll pick it up on their own, maybe they'll just enjoy the fashion elements for awhile.

"But they shouldn't claim to be part of the -punk community if they don't know the--"

I feel like we have a few options here. People can either talk to them, share the history, share the values, share the praxis. Or they can just chase off anyone who even thinks about dipping a toe in their community, and then wonder why it's dying off later down the line.

I dunno, maybe I'm too naive and patient or whatever. But if people are entering your -punk spaces without knowing The Rundown of what you feel they need to know, maybe being nice about it and informing people instead of immediately assuming stupidity and malicious intent could help you make a new friend. Even the loudest voices in a space had to learn from somewhere, and not everyone has the luxury of being in the space as the History was Happening--whether it's an age thing or a not being aware of the space thing. Or maybe I just don't see what the big deal is behind people hating people who like the aesthetic of something and don't know the behind the scenes history about it yet.

Because I believe in the word 'yet.' No one comes into this world knowing everything about everything, and we're all constantly learning new things. I'm not gonna degrade someone and call them a poser for not knowing what I know. Because if it were me, interested in a scene but getting chased out and called a poser? I wouldn't hit the books and study up, I'd go 'that fuckin sucks, those people sucked' and then avoid anyone and anything having to do with it.

So chase people off and call them posers if you want. But if your community starts dwindling, don't be fucking shocked.

#out of queue #ani rambles #punks and posers #i cant even call this a 4am hot take because its 7pm but like #idk i keep seeing posts about like 'how DARE people think I bought my punk clothes how DARE they not know the how-tos and DIYs' #or 'ugh people only care about the ~aesthetics~ of my movement if you don't know shit get out of here' and like #maybe I'm just a shy ass introverted nerd whos scared of social rejection! but I avoid that shit like the plague #so if someone were to reject me based on not knowing about something I'd never even heard about? something i was JUST getting into? #there's a high chance I'd just scram and never look back. i don't wanna be the one who causes that emotion in someone else #granted this is coming from someone who STILL doesn't know how to make her own patches or worked up the courage to do direct action praxis #outside of offering neighbors to my tomatoes and trying to talk to people about what I'm passionate about #but still imo unless someone's a malicious intentional bad actor i dont see the point in scaring newbies off #thats how movements die imo #i know this is my solarpunk blog but its not a solarpunk specific thing #i think the main post that inspired this was about store-bought versus self-made spiked leather jackets #which honestly just feels petty to me but who knows. #might delete later

[front-facing-pokemon]

#genesect #oh shit this is the last pokémon in generation 5 #huh. that's. kinda fucked up #i don't feel like we've been in gen 5 that long. but now we're already moving on to gen 6. my favorite generation #ugh this is also where it gets a little harder from me. bc we've moved on past pokédex 3d pro. BUT the next pokémon is one of my faves #so you all have to enjoy it #genesect is also really fucking cool. my first ever playthrough of bw i used a genesect bc i used the mystery gift DNS thing to get it #back in like 2020 and it came at level 15 or smth. so i just used it throughout the game. it basically replaced my starter

[darlingod]

Cardan: *brings his ex back to live on the land and then exiles Jude who he married the night before & who just got back from enduring over a month of torture*

Cardan: *does not have any doubts that Jude could possibly misinterpret this situation*

#out of context just calls out to me I’m sorry #also poor Jude saved his life the day before too #Cardan and Jude not realizing how insecure the other feels about themselves in their relationship is just #I understand Cardan’s perspective I just love giving him shit for this #like you created the biggest misunderstanding that has ever been misunderstood #the way we could have avoided that #fuck you too Lady Asha you miserable waste of space #like ew keep out of ur sons love life I cannot believe u did that #Jude is the only reason that bitch was ever out in about in the first place and Asha did the opposite of paying her back #UGH like Cardan ripped out his heart and put it in those letters #and you just destroyed them?? #alarming #excruciating #distressing #cardan greenbriar #the wicked king #jude duarte