#To reach where to go for the shot

[cowlvent]

clara reaching back into the unknown darkness for several long, agonizing seconds "i'm right please god say i'm right" AND THEN SHE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the core of their relationship plays out right there: clara can and will defy death, and the doctor will always save clara, even when it seems impossible. (and it's crucial that this is the first really doctor-y moment he has as twelve.) the growth and distortion of these fundamental beliefs drive the two of them to their eventual end.

#going through deep breath induced madness here on this day #that shot of her reaching out into the unknown darkness. yeah it's bouncing around my brain like a windows screensaver #something about it makes me so. like. you can physically FEEL the nothingness there and the desperation+fear she has. whew #also “i'm right aren't i say i'm right” and thats when he grabs her. Where do i even begin with that #clara oswald #twelfth doctor #twelveclara #dw #clara + dr

[majimassqueaktoy]

#Legit one of my fave thjngs about Daigo is hes not above a dog shot #like he ran right in when ryuji wasnt fully paying attention and punched him in the side of the head #in a series where everyones too preoccupied with stupid as fuck honour it makes me love him #like yes pull a gun and shoot people #like does he almost always end up losing? yes #but thats not the point #like if daigo was actually kiryus lil buddy and he was there more #we could have saved a few people bc while kiryus being honourable and doin his spiel and the villains takin the time to pull a gun #n then shoot someone daigo could have pulled his own and head shotted them and kiryu would go Oh daigo-chan I was tryna save his soul n shi #and daigo would go sorry kiryu-san *anime girl my bad pose* he did reach for a gun tho #alls well that ends well #daigo dojima #dojima daigo #ryuji goda #yakuza kiwami 2 #yk2edit #yakuzaedit #rggedit #goda ryuji #video game gifs

[lazycranberrydoodles]

the people in the tags understand me. starembers art is super pretty but also weird at times.

#xie lian has been doing manual labor for a living (breaking boulders on his chest WITH NO SPIRITUAL ENERGY brick laying farming etc) #im anti twink xie lian #also i dont think he should have mxtx protagonist snowy white skin. maybe as a sheltered prince. but he has been planting rice for years. #AT LEAST GIVE HIM A TAN #and hua cheng died as a malnourished 17 year old (he has been working out since then but i still prefer skinnier headcanons). #why does everybody have light eyes (even putting aside the colorism in the novel.) #why does xie lian have this wide-eyed-lips-parted-blank look and hua cheng have bedroom eyes all of the time #(not that they can't necessarily make these expressions but augh.) #why are they tall as fuck in every full body shot #why are their hands so big. #again i don't want to put any opinions in an actual post because i havent read the comic and it might be different than i think #but just based on the art ive seen... theyve been very yaoified. thats the best word i have #even by the point the manhua has reached (lqq arc iirc) #they've been having sincere and vulnerable moments #and i havent really seen panels that tell me that. let them be silly and awkward and fuck up. even if it makes them less sexy for a moment #and also?? xie lian (again just based off the art) seems to have lost a lot of agency? #he is a 'go with the flow' guy but he is also pretty situationally aware and clever #but the vibes i get are that he gets wide-eyedly dragged from plot point to plot point #(in the case where hua cheng slung him over his shoulder literally??) #(he would not fucking do that book 1.) #please correct me if i'm wrong #i'll probably get around to reading the manhua faster if someone tells me theyre more in character than i think they are #lmao #if you love the manhua disregard me. #not art #to delete l8er #(possibly) #(if i turn out to be wrong about this which is possible) #(or if someone decides they are very emotionally invested in my medium intensity feelings)

[silvery-stars]

would it be sacrilege of me to say that i am kinda hashtag Underwhelmed by the percy jackson show

#first off. the directing is just not that good. #like you could have taken the unique story and made interesting choices that make the story feel more exciting but so far it’s just so basi #basic shot composition basic camera movement fairly basic lighting #also like i can understand changes from the book. going from a first person novel to a show is difficult and you have to make changes. #but also some of them are just like nonsensical. why would you change the claiming from a moment of victory for percy to whatever that was #<- well okay not really victory. more confusion and fear and desperation with a tad bit of victory #(also the claiming symbol looked bad and i’m salty about that) #i liked that annabeth had it figured out though that was fun. the introduction to her character kinda slayed #oh my god also the decision for that scene where luke is telling percy abt him annabeth and thalia to Not have any broll type shots overtop #-of the explaination actually Showing what luke was saying was lame #i get that they don’t have the actor for thalia chosen yet but you could have easily done it to where you only showed young luke+annabeth- #-and just thalia’s like sillohuette or hand reaching out or whatever #also again about the claiming scene they just took away all of the hints toward future twists. the hellhound summoned by someone in camp- #-and the hints toward the Big prophecy :( #anyway overall it’s awesome and it’s so fun to see pjo on screen. it’s just a bit lacking imo ☹️ #oh and the reduction of gabe into an almost comedic character rather than as an absolutely foul person that percy and sally have had to- #-suffer just does not work for me. it’s such an important detail thematically and also gives so much more context and meaning to percy and- #-sally’s lives and relationship. i think it’s so important but they changed it to something more palletable :( #ash rambles #ash.txt

[wttcsms]

i’ve finally had a breakthrough on my nanami fic that i’ve literally been holding so close to my heart for the past two years. I’ve been struggling on making any actual headway and all i knew is that i wanted it to be well done, and to like every aspect of it, and im so so happy to be able to say we might actually be able to view it together (finally!!!) before this year is over <3

#it’s a looooong one shot #ive been stuck at 6k words and then I’ll scrap everything bc it feels wrong or stiff #but I’ve reached a really good point where i think the narration is there ! the plot is there ! the reader is fleshed out #it is (unfortunately) canon compliant. #im estimating at least 21k upon completion but could very well go over #we deal w tricky things like coping w death and the grieving process #the manipulation of the higher ups within the jujutsu sorcerer hierarchy #falling in love! #very much ‘my love mine all mine’ hehe #and ‘let the light in’ 🤞🏻 #ive been saying for years it’ll be my magnum opus #and i think it’ll deliver

[helianthus-hellion]

god doing my shots makes me SO fucking anxious. my doctor is on leave until next month but tomorrow i'm gonna message his office and see if anyone else is available before then and able to prescribe me gel bc i am sick and tired of approaching a full-blown panic attack every single week over this

#tiny.txt #aves on t #i'm also kinda salty bc i didn't have any issues doing my first injection at the clinic itself and i was fine #doing the first one at home UNTIL it bled a bunch and i freaked out bc my doctor didn't warn me that might happen #and i think it did genuinely cause A Degree Of Trauma that is massively increasing my anxiety around doing my shots #and if my doctor had just fuckin warned me that might happen then maybe i wouldn't be having these problems but Here We Are 🙃 #but like i have reached the point where i would honestly rather stop doing T until i can have someone help me with the shots #than continue like this indefinitely #edit: someone reblogged this? idk why u would reblog this very personal post but uh. don't. don't do that. reblogs are going off now.

[hook-on-fandoms]

The Strings of Fate

#lovm #critical role #look liam mentioned the strings of fate just hit him so hard #cause for them to reach where they are #so many things have to go just right #and I don't expect this to become a meme #but hearing that made me think of the dominoes meme that starts with liam wanting to play dnd for his birthday #and where it leads #so felt like making a strings of fate one #because i'm not good with edits so this is just photo shop on printscreen from my computer they say #matt hearing use to play dnd and wants to dm a game for him to get him back into it #liam agreed and asks matt to dm a one shot for his birthday #new friends made and stronger friendships formed #animated opening #art show #books #one shots #a live stream of their dnd game #mighty nein cartoon and first look movie #a cartoon #showed in theater #comic books #dnd books #multiple campaigns #live shows #tlovm

[sparkles-rule-4eva]

Working on another Wachowski family one shot (this one is significantly angstier than the shopping one 🫠) and it's already over 1,500 words 😂

I wanted to finish it tonight, but my day starts at 6:30 tomorrow and tomorrow is going to be a long day 🥴 so I'll likely need to wait for another writing night to finish

#sonic wachowski #Wachowski family #fic coming soon #one shot #it's a request about swimming #it's worse bc im right where it's reaching the height of angsty conversation and i really have to go bed #augh #maddie is a good mom tho #sonic is uh traumatized #i mean all three Wachowski brothers are but yknow #someone else had already written Sonic Wachowski learning to swim amidst a much bigger fic #so i was struggling a little with how to write essentially the same thing with less context #im liking how its going #but also #just realized it would be a full natural disaster if sonic goes full emotional sparky mode at the freaking swimming pool #spoilers lol #water is an excellent conductor of electricity #nsnsjdskjdskjdssjj #sonic the hedgehog #sonic #sth #scu #sonic cinematic universe #sonic movie universe

[takeyourpillsbitchh]

Galladrabbles: Fresh

Okay so I’m excited for @galladrabbles this week because I’ve decided I’m gonna start a series! Starting with @juliakayyy prompt of fresh, here is part 1 of the “Shot in the Dark” series.

***

“Mick, c’mon, just download the app!” Mandy nearly screeches at him, her cold feet shoved under his thigh, a wine glass in her hands.

“Okay, okay.” He waves her off, hits the install button for Shot in the Dark, a new dating app that’s more or less designed to set up blind dates.

Matches get a few details about the other before deciding if they wanna go on a date. Mandy’s been raving about it. Says all of her dates have been “magical” matches.

So he agrees, makes his profile.

This could be his fresh start in the dating world.

#I think you know where this about to go #do we think Ian and Mickey are gonna match quickly? #do we think they’ll hit it off on their blind date? #who reaches out first? does Mickey pick Ian’s profile or does Ian pick his? #Where are they gonna go on their blind date? #so many question #all will be answered in due time my loves #Shot in the Dark #shameless #mickey milkovich #ian gallagher #gallavich #gallavich fanfic #chey writes #galladrabbles

[quietwingsinthesky]

god. fuck. gah. nine in day of the doctor. on the one hand, he’s spared being written in day of the doctor but on the other. this is the man whose introductory episode includes him screaming until his voice breaks that he ‘couldn’t save any of them!’ so.

#fuck!!!!! #also would have killed for war crying out ‘thank you bad wolf girl’ and ten turning around wild with such a strong reaction to hearing that #phrase. right next to nine who doesn’t. because he doesn’t even KNOW yet he doesn’t even know………… #day of the doctor in my head where we see the bad wolf in the background of a shot staring at nine like she might cry. reaching out towards #him. and he moves out of reach. she couldn’t have touched him anyway but. that’s her doctor. more than any other doctor that is the #doctor the bad wolf was born out of love to save. she is here now as this echo to help him make this choice as the war doctor. because she #came to exist to save nine….. and im going to. god. #AND HE WOULDNT EVEN KNOW YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[aparticularbandit]

Finished chapter one! Am actually very much enjoying UDG, even though I'd heard bad things!

It's possible that's because this fits a bit more in my general game play style than the main games do?

But also Toko and Komaru bickering like and old married couple is fantastic, and while I don't enjoy Toko's fantasies, I expect Byakuya's VA had a LOT of fun voicing some of them.

Meanwhile I feel bad for Masaru. I hope he's not actually dead dead. I don't think he is. But, you know, it's Danganronpa. They're probably okay with dead kids.

(Except I think all the kids come back at the end? And other than Monaca they become, like, anti-heroes or something? Maybe? I don't remember much about UDG. I remember the kinds of abuse two of the other kids have. And also Monaca twist. And separate from that I still don't like her, UGH I do NOT like Monaca. Anyway.)

I'm enjoying this significantly more than I thought I would, actually, is the take away here!

....

Also I'm sad I couldn't make the super huge sentai robot dance. ://

#musings #bandit liveblogs #bandit liveblogs danganronpa #that's one of my go-tos #make the monokuma dance #then take my time and shoot it in the eye! #also i think i did pretty well with komaru in the boss fight! #but reached a point where i couldn't get the ground to avoid attacks or make shots #so i switched to jack and decimated! #:D #jack's playstyle is so much easier than komaru's #but...the dance bullet

[bisan-is-trying]

I miss when i was able to just drive to the city whenever i felt like it without having to worry about whether or not i will actually make it back this time.

#now i have to check all the possible news apps and community fb groups and group chats to make sure that yeah me getting shot #in that particular hour is not likely #i really need to go tomorrow but im terrified that something might happen after the week we all had #weve reached the point where the iof soldiers could walk into a mall shoot people (something theyve already done months ago) #and leave like nothing happened #too many people died and yet we have to carry on to keep going because what else could anyone do #dec 2023

[todayisafridaynight]

grabbing rainbow sherbet vodka for the stream because I know it's what ichi would want 🤞

bro grabbing that fucking super mario vodka what the shit 😭

#snap chats #i dont know what im gonna get...... i SHOULD get soju since i can get more for cheaper #and soju's more potent now innit... but i am a sake fan... sake my best friend.. #but i like my sake hot. unless its nigori then OF COURSE you have to have it chilled.... #gddammit i left my shot glass at my moms. i didnt think id need it </3 #maybe sake's the game then..... #just to make sure i dont ACTUALY black out NO DID I TELL THE TIME I BLAKCED OUT FOR THE FIRST AND ONLY TIME #ILL TELL IT AGAIN SINCE ITS TOPICAL IT WAS THE NIGHT OF MY SISTER'S WEDDING #and i went out post-wedding drinking with my dad and my sis and her hubby yeah #and /im/ a master of acting like im fine when im not when i care to and since i never want to look A Fool in front of my father again #i acted fine after i reached the point where I Very Much Was Not Fine #LIKE THERE WERE DRINKS AT THE WEDDING OOFC BUT I ALSO GOT SOME WHISKEY AT A BAR WE WENT TO #AND SO EVENTUALLY MY DAD AND HIS WIFE AND I ALL GO BACK TO THE HOTEL WE'RE ALL STAYING AT #god theyre so embarrassing i was walking (read: wobbling) back to the room i shared with my bro #and theyre just :) 👋 Good Niiiight We're Gonna Watch You Go Until You're Safe :) 👋 <- im literally down the hall from them #and the fucking. SECOND i get into my room im just hhoUUGGHGHHH BROTHER OF MINE. WHAT IS HAPPENING #i dont remember what happened i know i started watching Why Dont You Play In Hell again and then i suddenly woke up in my bed #I WAS ON THE COUCH LIKE I CANNOT STRESS THE ABRUPTNESS OF ME WAKING UP IN BED #I SAT ON THE COUCH TO WATCH THE MOVIE I THINK I GOT 27 MINUTES IN AND I BLINKED AND I INSTATRANSMISSIONED #hilarious. anyway i refuse to let that happen ever again AFLKEFJKAJ #so sake's the call. i think. idk we'll see what my wallet thinks cause the sake is a lil pricier than the soju.. #it a special occasion live a little. is what ill tell myself ☠️

[and-stir-the-stars]

Got the brainworms.

A Nest Torn Empty, the month Mike is away. There are some flavors of trauma that might interestingly suit that scenario. These are just little brainstorms, don't feel like. Compelled to use them lmao

One might fit the idea of being medicalized, poked and prodded. Psych test after psych test, evaluations and therapy as it was in the eighties, possibly by particularly shitty professionals who try to go the therapy version of "bad cop" and INSIST mike is lying just to see if he breaks?

Another might be someone deciding to enact some kind of revenge on Evan's behalf. This could go any number of ways, but I think it would be interesting if someone who has been in Evan's position before decided to try and create some version of "a taste of his own medicine" for Mike, though obviously without the near death bit bc of plotlines etc.

And then there are less obvious things that kind of get left out. Being torn from your family all of the sudden is traumatic. He doesn't know what's going to happen to him, or to his brother and sister. Whether or not he's in another abusive place, the sheer amount of differences could throw him off. All the rules are different, all the people are different. He probably feels very isolated.

(You're giving me ideas for the au where Mike thinks Evan died after they're split up, lmao)

In terms of reactions, I think there might be more of a shutdown than his earlier behavior. If nothing he's doing yields ANY reaction– good or bad– then why bother? I think a lot of it would just lead him to be very tired by the end of it all.

Final aspect that I think would be interesting: as the kids grow up and actually learn to talk about the shitty upbringing they had, I think Mike's month away might fall to the wayside for a while. Nobody else thinks about it; it doesn't come up.

Eventually, though, it does need to be addressed. Maybe it kind of pales in comparison to the bite itself, but the experience still hurt.

(Or disregard all of this! Just brainstorming dhfjdkdksk)

okay first off I think it's so funny that I have to outsource all my "how would Mike react to xyz trauma" stuff to you,, like how dare you know him so well and have so many tantalizing Mike thoughts /honorary /pos

i think my initial idea was more along the lines of like,, Mike keeps insisting that he didn't mean to hurt Evan, but the more the psychiatrists poke and prod and question him, the less certain Mike is.

All of Mike’s claims that "I didn't know that would happen" and "i didn't mean for him to get hurt" and "i didn't want to kill him" are met with stuff like. "So there's no history of you hurting him?" "So Evan hasn't been put in danger by your actions before?" "So this behavior is a recent thing that came out of nowhere?" And just like. General questions that, whether asked out malice or from people genuinely trying to understand if Mike is a danger to himself or others, only serve to highlight in Mike’s mind that maybe he is inherently evil, because every time he swears that he didn't mean it, he's just met with a reminder of all the times he has in fact hurt Evan and others before and with the reminder that he could do it again at any time.

The idea that there are certain "professionals" there who just insist that Mike is lying about not meaning for the Bite in an effort to get him to cave and break???? Oooooh boy. Angsty, I love it. Maybe as time passes and Mike gets more and more frustrated, his "medical treatment" and "psychiatric professionals" just get worse and worse as a result of his lashing out. It starts out with the psychiatrists just trying to be thorough and get a detailed understanding of what happened, and the mere nature of their questioning frays Mike as he interprets their questions as them not believing him. He tells himself that he's crazy for feeling so attacked by them when they're professionals trained to help people, but like. It doesn't make the problem go away. Mike starts lashing out as he feels like they don't believe him. And his lashing out is ofc seen as signs of hostility, leading to worse and worse "treatment" (in both sense of the term), and leading to him being placed with awful "professionals" who blatantly tell him to his face now that he's lying about not meaning to hurt Evan to get Mike to break.

And the whole experience just, like, shreds every sense of faith Mike had in his own judgment. He doesn't know what to do or think anymore, and it doesn't matter anyway, because no matter WHAT he does or thinks it has the same result of people just. Making him feel cruel and evil, like he'll inevitably hurt someone, like he's a monster and has always been a monster and is trying to manipulate everyone here in the psych facility and everyone he's ever known into thinking he's NOT a monster for his own personal gain.

Worst thing is that in Mike’s eyes, these are strangers who don't even know him or know anything about him, and yet they don't NEED to know him to know that he's evil. Mike coming to the conclusion that theres something so fundamentally broken about him that people can PHYSICALLY SEE IT, he reeks of it, it's the first thing people see when they look at him, the ONLY thing people see. People don't even need to know him to see straight into the evil in his heart. Which is only furthered when he goes back home and all these classmates he never talked to before are calling him a murderer, not to mention Liz's ambivalent reaction to seeing him again.

#Like low key there's an ask sitting in my inbox abt how saffron mike would react to smth #And I've just been staring at it like. No idea my guy. I am not the mike expert here. Lmao #Now I'm thinking about mike begging and praying for william to come get him out of this facility #And will not doing so feeds into Mike’s reluctance to trust will later on #And feeds into mikes frustration that will has been so absent #ie the scene where mike freaks out in ch1 of bcoh and he's like. FATHER should be #The one giving ev his meds so he doesn't try ripping his own head off from the pain so WHERE IS HE?? #Like Will just. Consistently does this #Also mike not knowing what's gonna happen to him or liz or evan... #Do the psychiatrists even tell mike whether or not ev is still alive? #Does mike assume that liz is in a psych facility herself? She didn't cause the bite but SHE has been hurting ev too #Does mike wonder if he's ever getting out of here #And then no one in the fam talking about mike's month away!!! #Ur giving me thoughts for a one shot that takes place several years after the bite #With evan begging mike to stop pushing him away #And mike is just. So traumatized not just from going thru this but from no one talking or caring abt it #(On top of his normal trauma abt not wanting to burden/hurt anyone w his issues and not feeling they're important #And and and plus all the time mike spent trying to reach out to ev after the bite only for ev to be so traumatized that he kept #Rejecting mike) that he can't stop holding people at arms length. #A nest torn empty #my brother my wound #tw medical malpractice #Tw child abuse

[mommalosthermind]

Kaeya thoughts part a lot: This is stream of consciousness, not really thought out at all, but I’m making it the tag’s problem anyway because I Can. So. Apologies in advance, this is messy and ridiculous.

Side effect of writing fic about characters with very inconsistent canon personalities, possibly, but I find myself thinking about the choice to have Kaeya’s constellation be the peacock. Especially as I’ve discovered the way I tend to write him is… specific.

From what little I know of birds, (which is very little. I grew up in a kennel, y’all, not a bird run, I can talk Great Danes for days, but I know jack shit about birds besides Pretty and Loud) the eyespots are meant for attracting a mate. This isn’t necessarily relevent, but I do tend to always have shipper lenses on, so it is also…not not-relevant? …moving on.

My silly rabbit hole is more about symbols.

Peacocks are stunning. Bright colors, lots of contrast, a fan of glorious feathers much larger than their bodies, utterly covered in false eyes. They’re meant to be flashy and attention-getting.

But it’s not actually the peacock you’re looking at, is it?

The tail, those false eyes, that’s what you’re looking at when you marvel at a peacock. Not the bird itself. I mean, sure, you might drop your eyes for a moment and coo over the brilliant sapphire feathers on the body, the little fluffy bits around the head, maybe the delicate curve of their neck, or just how tiny their head seems in comparison. But it’s the damn tail that you’re centered on, that you’re supposed to be staring at.

I know it’s hardly revolutionary, but every now and then I just have to sit with the realization that this is exactly what Kaeya, what little we’ve been given, is.

He’s beautiful, he’s bright, he’s carefully cultivated his appearance to be eye-catching. He seems to modify his behaviors and even his voice to keep whoever’s attention he’s after, and then he shifts that attention to exactly where he wants it.

Kaeya as he presents himself is his own tail, his own false, misleading eye. And since you’re looking there, you’re not looking at the smaller parts of him that are Real Kaeya. You’re missing his actual goals or intentions.

Add in the fact that he’s got an eye-patch, the possibility of an otherworldly eye hidden beneath it, add in the various godly Oculus— the god’s eyes scattered throughout Teyvat, the way the visions themselves are also sometimes referred to as gods’ eyes, and it just makes it a little more interesting to me that Kaeya’s ‘destiny’ is represented by an animal known for being covered in gorgeous, attention funneling fake eyes.

Then, of course, there’s other things, like how supposedly peacocks are surprisingly delicate needy idiots, and well. How could he have ever been anything else?

In all fifty billion of my wips, I can’t seem to escape the fact that Kaeya is both the lure and the trap. He’s turned himself into the target, the siren’s call, but in such a way where *his* target never notices the teeth they’ve walked right into. How could they? They’re too busy being lost in beautiful blue eyes that aren’t there.

But, Archons, he wishes someone would find the real one. Just once, and maybe, if he plays his cards right, they’ll keep him close.

#kaeya #genshin impact #momma talks #random thoughts I had because tumblr showed me a stunning shot of a peacock and my brain is awful #I feel like I need to apologize to Ked for posting about peacocks when I know jack about peacocks #I Do Apologize to peacocks for any untentional slander youre lovely #Im just stuck on the part where kaeya is ENTIRELY standing in the middle of mond #and all but begging someone *cough—* to SEE HIM AS HE IS #while doing every fucking thing he can to make sure no one ever sees anything he hasn’t already approved #which is nothing #i have feelings and I should be writing and this is entirely hoyo’s fault for their weird inconsistency with personality #THE MAN WANTS YOU TO LOOK #but then HE WEARS ARMOR AND SPIKES to make SURE you won’t get too close #wont be tempted to reach out and realize he’s a mirage #oh god imma write an essay in the tags i need to go back to my WIP and pour this out there instead the fuck is wrong with me #im. so sorry lmao

[lupismaris]

Evil hell work week is over and i avoided going out to eat at a restaurant full of florescent lights and over attentive waiters time for taco bell left overs, beer, t shots, and a very long bath

#im trying to make my friday nights self care nights where i do my shot and decompress and tend to myself but the universe wont let me #turns out the people responsible for making our lives hell this week are now pissing off other people and its reached the president #and my boss has been encouraged to speak up and explain his side of what we've been dealing with considering how bad its been #so thats fun! #we're officially remote hybrid as of Monday which is a relief but i have to spend all weekend getting the flat in order #augh im so tired #i had to get toilet paper frpm target and left with a plush seagull in a sea captain outfit. two new body sprays. and two face masks. #none of which i needed but we are going to attempt to avoid a complete meltdown again. ive had three in 48 hours already