#There are so many goddamn reasons

[qcomicsy]

Do I find Damian incredible annoying? Yes Will I fight every single motherfucker who resumes his entire character to violent and 'bad'? Also Yes.

#I don't know how many times I'm going to repeat myself but this is a goddamn child soldier getting repeatedly traumatize #in a family that has so many chaos that he always feels the need to prove himself in the terms he was taught #i didn't give a fuck what Damian does thats the responsibility of his father until he actually becomes responsible to his actions #and dc comics literally bought him out of nowhere just to shit on him and then repeatedly try to get rid of him for no fucking reason #Damian goin off as a way of getting Batman emotional damage it's actually very stupid dc you tried the same shit with jason in this last #ten years and not even then anybody liked #few things makes me more unreasonable piss off than batman letting his kids get away from him and then act like they don't need him #he did te same shit with dick but at least dick had the titans #this whole shit with Damian is making me read with my eyes while my hands are dialing the cps #Batman come get your fucking children your useless middle age man #bruce hate hours #damian wayne #damian al ghul #damian al ghul wayne

[artsy-book]

I cant stop thinking about the roomies and session 7 and the potentials of session 8

like etho causing so many people to fail their task and miss out on hearts they desperately need in some cases. etho being threatened by gem right before end of session was called. there is at least one name tagged warden on the surface (idk if the second one was named tagged or not) that I dont think got killed. bdubs is so hurt and angry at etho NOT promising he would fail a task for bdubs but doing it for cleo and grian.

like I cant wait to see what happens in session 8 but also. i need the roomies to pull through. they have made it through a zombie apocalypse stronger than anyone else it seems. surely they can pull through whatever happens next.

#artsy.text #secret life #grian #zombiecleo #ethoslab #trafficblr #sorry i cant stop having thoughts about this goddamn team #i lobe them so much #and i love the way session 7 left things #there are many reds that would have a good reason to want to target etho specifically and i cant wait to see how it all plays out #and even those that are yellow that werent infected #i just love secret life so much its so cool

[corpsentry]

at the asian american studies sponsored movie screening i run out of my seat to press a button for the presenter and you look away, not in shame, but in anger

go make your own movie.

One where you’re the star

and everything’s my fault

the way you want it to be. I know, it’s easy

to let someone else hold this grief

and sit in the bathtub,

all dressed up to go to the party.

Maybe in this movie it’s your party

and I the party crasher,

holding cymbals and a baseball bat, et cetera.

But we don’t stop getting older when we’re angry

and you’re only twenty,

can’t listen to lullabies at night,

can’t sleep without a blanket

over your head like you’re scared

of your own shadow. God, go

write your own movie.

You could do it,

you’re still

pretty. Angry? Me too.

The bathtub’s overflowing,

the bathroom’s flooding

with whatever you couldn’t say

to the poet with their palms glued shut

in a cheap simulacrum of prayer.

Didn’t you say you were tired? Angry? Me too.

Upset? Unhappy? Me too. Hungry? Lonely? Me too. Me too.

Standing barefoot in the grass

I remembered the month of bad weather.

How I parted the fog with broken hands each night,

looking for your voice.

Oh, I will not forgive you.

Not like this.

With your fingers splayed

against the brute February sky,

lips cracked open like windows,

waiting, like you always are, for me to say the first word.

#my writing #my words #there are many reasons i like tumblr. for example the number of people who keep getting older is very impressive #but also it is nice because unlike my goddamn poetry account (self inflicted damage) half my friends irl do not follow me here #so i can put this poem down. it’s not public grief here it’s anonymous grief! woo #anyway i have just survived possibly the most brutal four weeks of my life and this is including getting dumped a week #before the dance concert in which my ex and i were in more than half the items together. this is including that #but i am OUT #and this poem was written while i was still in but i am O U T #lord being hurt and hurt and being mature and brave and smart makes your HR voice get really good #not by choice #for survival purposes #i am wondering if i should get this laptop. as my water bottle exploded and destroyed my old laptop #i think i will do it #yes. i think so #it is time to start taking care of myself. and so on #so here’s this poem. i wanted to share it because it’s raw and unedited and it has some lines that i think are neat #if it makes you feel some stuff that would make me very happy

[dadrielle]

I really, really hope that Imogen and Deanna have a nice long talk next episode, because they really seem to be made to provide each other a message of catharsis.

Here is a woman back from the dead, who is unmoored by the fact that she doesn't even know her full grown children, really, who has left the choice whether to tell them that she's alive again up to their father who didn't stick around to raise them - maybe because she worried whether they would even want to know her and and deal her issues? Maybe because she can't conceptualize that she's missed so much of their lives, and it hurts so much that she fears to face them?

Here is a women who thought her mother was dead, only to find out her distant father has kept the fact that she's alive from her; whose mother, when faced with Imogen begging her not to do the thing she's sworn to do for Imogen, ignores Imogen's own choice, perhaps because she still can't understand that Imogen is an adult who she doesn't even actually know, but who would rather have the chance to know her mother over whatever power or peace her mother thinks she's bought with all this blood.

Here is a mother who looked at Imogen and said "it's bad, but I know you're not" and gave her a moment of peace and maternal care; here is a full grown daughter who shows that despite not knowing her mother, she wanted so desperately to have her in her life.

Yeah, I want them to talk about that.

#deanna leimert #imogen temult #critical role #cr3 #also I want aabria to ask about laudna because I'm a predictable bitch but like THAT'S NOT THE ONLY REASON #anyway aabria is so goddamn smart it’s amazing how many of the hells deanna is built to be a foil for at once #while being a fantastic and coherent character in her own ight #fucking love her

[jirai-kei-freak]

idk I just hate how mean everyone is, especially my generation :(

#Yeah yeah ik it has always been this way #And probably always will be #But damn people are just cold and hateful for no good goddamn reason #And social media certainly isn’t helping #I just feel so embarrassed when I’m out and I’m wearing anything that’s not general clothing #I’m always so afraid someone will take a pic or photo of me and post it on social media to laugh at me #And honestly it probably has already happened a few times #For example in middle school I didn’t have earbuds at the time (I refuse to use those devil airpods) #So I would have my music at the lowest volume possible and put it up at my ear to listen to it #Since 5th grade I’ve been a huge fan of Vocaloid and I’ve been listening to it non-stop for years #And I’d do it at school and… #Yeah you can probably guess how kids were #Wouldn’t be surprised if that got filmed/photographed #And I’ve been mocked/humiliated so many times for being autistic ugh #Vent #emma.txt

[thetruearchmagos]

Decided to make an Interactive Fic / CYOA thing for a friend, and holy damn is anything related to Choicescript a genuinely terrifying experience. My heart rate was measurably increased by the third failed run.

But. Here it is.

Probably not you're type of game, but I hope you don't mind me Tagging you @allieebobo . After all, I wouldn't have been introduced to this whole thing without you!

#writing #interactive fiction #if #this was absolutely agonising in so many ways #for some goddamn reason I couldn't rename the 'startup' file from 'startup (1)' without deleting a startup file for another thing #I made months ago #I am such a noob #this is gonna be fun to polish... at some point

[catmanbowser]

Jock 4 jock

Skater x jock

Idk take your pick

#tim drake #kon el #dc #catman's art #good morning lol #i have too many assignments but my head’s full so i need to draw something else #so have these two #tim drake has always been a skater jock #kind of prick that would skate to your place and takes you to some expensive ass dining place for no goddamn reason #oh wait one reason. he’s rich #kon’s just kon #regular ass kent farmer boy but he’s also a jock #wow #what am i saying here idk ok its 7 am i have a lot in my mind i havent slept since yesterday #reminder to useyour own fucking tags bcs if i see one more person tagging shit with my personal shit you are in the block blaster 5000 row

[shima-draws]

So apparently my brain has decided to get back into Sonic again I say already 27 episodes through rewatching Sonic X. Anyway. I love my kids ESPECIALLY Chris to this day I do not understand why people hate on him so much. He’s baby

#Insert joke Chris haters DNI banner #Sonic #Sonic X #Chris Thorndyke #Sonic the Hedgehog #HE’S BABY!!! Cinnamon roll too good for this world too pure #Looking back on all the major reasons why people dislike him I watch the show and I’m like. Bro. There’s SO many things that disprove all #of the bullshit stuff people say about his character #It makes me so angry. My boy deserves better #Also can we PLEASE talk about how both Sonic AND Knuckles lost their shit when Chris got kidnapped. Ridiculous I hate them (lying) #Anyway you know what this means. You KNOW what this means. #It’s time for more GODDAMN ROOMIE AU SHENANIGANS BABY #I have SO many thoughts and headcanons. Please #Chris: I’m going to cause problems on purpose :) #Shadow: #He’s just there. Acting as Chris’ safety net for his crazy schemes. And impulsive decisions. LMAO #Also slightly off that topic but. I can’t remember if Shadow ever meets Helen. I doubt he does in canon but like #She’s literally…a carbon copy of Maria…I imagine Shadow seeing her and losing his SHIT bc he thinks it’s hee #*her #Shadow forever tortured by Maria’s lookalike copy (Helen) and her personality copy (Chris) #Shadow watching Chris accidentally blow himself up while inventing: He’s just like Maria fr 🤧 #I love them. Very much actually #Shima speaks

[roraimae]

Inquisitor Casper Lavellan, officially having a bad time

#dragon age inquisiton #dai #dai inquisitor #inquisitor lavellan #I have so many feelings and thoughts about this game #especially the dlc #and not gonna lie I am not a sappy person but the romance between casper my inquisitor and dorian has me feeling things #i picked dorian on a whim because he seemed fun but oh did it work out oddly well for the type of inquisitor cas ended up being #also the man repeatedly broke my heart in trespasser some of his lines goddamn #to be fair I didn't feature the most heartbreaking one here but dorian was the one who kept reassuring cas the most when the anchor got bad #and I am curious if that is because he's the love interest or just lucky game rng #but anyway for some reason that line also just hung in my head #cause that line came up before they knew about solas and any hope to deal with the anchor #which has implications #but alas I ramble too much in these tags lmao

[sleep-escapes-me]

So many rambling thoughts about Laudna and Imogen after that episode. The insistence for Imogen to move on if Laudna dies and telling Imogen she's a DEAD END is STAGGERING like ????????? and then the thing that gets imogen 100% devoted to the stop predathos cause is the chance that the gods will in turn help with delilah riddance

like my favorite thing about their relationship is they're not technically on the same page of what their futures look like. Laudna has made it clear from the beginning that all she wants for Imogen is for her to live and have a life. Then you have Imogen, from the beginning, making it clear that a happy life is one shared with Laudna. all of that was indicated before romance was ever involved.

and then the delilah of it all!!!

Reasons why I love Delilah is part of this threesome because you cannot make up these fucking parallels of love and devotion.

“I’ll help create a god so I will stay together with my love forever.”

“I'm gonna do everything in my power so I can have a chance to stay together with my love forever.”

#critical role spoilers #imodna #ship of all time #my thoughts are jumbled idk #I love tragic lovey dovey angst so goddamn much #this episode was so great for me for many reasons

[daylighteclipsed]

Part of my sanity depends on Riku getting credit for his true love’s sacrifice from KH3

#i know he will they showed it so many times for a reason okay i know he will #but oh my fucking god if he doesn’t …. #only the ​real ones know how close i was to quitting the goddamn game #after all the credit went to kairi #only the real ones (those who saw my live-blogging) know #if not for the wayfinder and sea salt trios i would’ve divorced the series right then and there

[queen0fm0nsterz]

Reading my fave thin man and lady fic. Kicking my feet a lot because tbh. Sometimes a sad man really is just a weird woman's science project in a way that is so homoerotic

#carols.txt #when i tell you i've been re-reading this single one shot religiously every single month for almost three years I mean it #《straight》 ship so good we call it queerbaiting #LMAOOOOOO #call it yaoyuri the way these old people r tragic and doomed by the narrative or whatever #listen as a bi person on the aroace spectrum whatever this fic was trying to convey really strikes a cord #while its not the same as my own this characterization of them is so intriguing. im so hooked on it #^^ one thing i think this person really nailed was thin man's immaturity (stemming from his emotions oftentime being too big to control) -> #and the desire of attention that comes with said immaturity while also having the lady be both cold (normal) and intrigued in a way that -> #that really fits her character. curiosity is one of the many facets that make up her character that don't get explored much and i think its #done so well here for like no reason💀 THIS AUTHOR COOKED TOO HARD YOU GUYS #like ofc she wouldnt send him away. shes studying him under a microscope. even though hes annoying as hell #thin man is plagued by sassy man syndrome in this which is really fucking funny cus it lasts a total of 3 seconds before she finds him out #PLUS THE TALK ABOUT THE TOWER AND THE WORLD... AUGHHH #i need this author to give me their brain NOW #AUGHHHHHAAGGGHEEHH #everyone needs to start doing thinlady the way this person was doing it #this is the biblically accurate old people (in case my theory abt baby lady having been in the pale city is wrong) #live laugh love. its my birthday. spoiling myself a bit. goddamn.

[sweetshire]

So, @silv-paru sent Sherlock Holmes for the character opinion bingo. thanks a bunch for this (and for your patience. my god, i’m answering this a week late. typical me behaviour). you’re a darling :D

Did you know, i used to tell these stories to my friends? they delighted in them AND i got a chance to sort of ramble on and on abt him and watson. it was a win-win, really. ah, those were the days! now i haven’t reblogged much of him this month at all. i miss him. I MISS HIM.

Onto the bingo: well. he’s The quintessence of gender™ to me. and i relate to him so so much. fav character of all time fr. i want to carry him in my pocket at all times & study him. like. do i want to BE him OR am i IN LOVE with him, ykwim? pssh who knows? certainly not me. uh-huh ‘a beast unleashed’ -does this refer to me or him? you choose. oh re: canon, i’m ignoring the part where holmes dies (or y’know, is dead for 3 years). that’s too angsty.

#sherlock holmes #my dearest blorbo #he’s my belovedest chewtoy basically #if i think abt how modern adaptations *looking at you bbc sherlock* have ruined his character i get so angry i have to take deep breaths #*mutters darkly* he is NOT an arrogant cold-hearted bitch like he’s portrayed; well he IS a bitch but not a cold-hearted one!! #see. the thing abt holmes is that he’s SUCH a sweet boy okay. and he’s compassionate #he cares sooo much. that’s the reason people come to him when they’re distressed. they trust him #he hates the police. he is a jester at heart. loves his watson #he’s here to help the truly desparate helpless people even if they have no money to pay him for the case. no questions asked. But- #he fucking despises obnoxious rich men. the first time he meets watson a total stranger he *very excitedly* tells him abt his experiment #it’s very adorable. he never stops trying to impress ever. infact blushes furiously when complimented by him #my guy has 0 knowledge of our solar system but he’s written several monographs abt different types of ASHES. go figure! #OH i almost forgot the most important fact he’s special to me bc holmes is an audhd gay disaster bastard. sometimes he’s even bisexual #but mostly he’s acespec and in a qpr w watson. he’s VERY adhd. behaves like an excited cat and oh so cute when he stims. everytime he does #i go SQUEEE. when he’s depressed it’s a goddamn hashtag big mood. as in many other ways he is me i am him #he’s PASSIONATE and KIND that’s all you need to know #acd stories are about just some guy who loves his job (which he invented himself btw after quitting college) that’s it #i am overcome with an almighty need to squeeze his cheeks #he’s everything to me <3 #alright if i don’t stop now i doubt i ever will LMAO bye #acd holmes #if u read till the end u get a cookie and a kiss on the nose i love u

[noahtally-famous]

not me popping back on here with a post after months of semi-inactivity (uni is being a bitch) just to reiterate how much i love writing the pahkitew island cast.

aside from sammy and amy (obviously), literally everyone else can be shipped with one another and it'd make sense to some degree, like it takes skill to create a group of people so inherently shippable (platonically and/or romantically) and ofc the writers didn't know it they just shoved a bunch of random ppl together and dusted their hands off on it but fr tho 😭

(yeah im planning out my leonave 'stranger things inspired' au, and the gears are turning, and i forgot just how much i love writing for this dumbass group)

(i swear im working on the next chapter of a guide to surviving the apocalypse too)

#no but i've way too many ideas lmaoo #i forgot ive a whole longass post in my drafts dedicated to ramblings abt this longfic and i came across it today ahaha #like amy leading a manhunt for leonard bc shes got everyone to think he killed her sister (who she didn't even like much smh) #and topher's one of the ppl involved and when shawn hears he's like “topher? yeah i can handle him dw” (possible tophawn minor pairing??) #and leonard's abt to get the equivalent of being burnt at the stake literally #when guess who shows up in a fucking mercedes of all cars #fucking dave #and he helps leonard escape narrowly by driving fast af and leonard's so confused bc like “i thought you'd be with those guys” #and get this: dave doesnt believe leonard killed sammy bc of his vehement belief that leonard doesn't know magic LMAOOO #and leonard doesnt know whether to be affronted or grudgingly thankful bc if it wasn't for dave's desire for everything to be normal #leonard would have been part of the witch trials 2.0 #and idk who's watched st but the plot is somewhat inspired by it #like shawn goes missing first and dave as his best friend is panicking abt it (in this one axel is shawns cousin???) #and then when they find him at last the weird deaths start leading to leonard finding sammy dead and this whole situation #and theres a whole different world underneath them and its up to leonard dave ella and sky to team up and prevent certain destruction #and theres slowburn leonave (with pining leonard and oblivious dave) #and leonard lives with his uncle whos understanding of his passions (unlike his dad who basically gave him away for the same reason) #and leonard's life is total opppsite from dave's #and they both know it #and omgggg this au has been a brainrot for so goddamn long #but idk why i just got a slew of ideas for it today #and like dave stays over at leonards at one point and leonard gives him his bed (like a gentleman) #and the next morning shawn barges in like “wheres my best friend” bc ever since he was taken he's been v paranoid abt losing the ppl he lov #and he hugs dave and daves like “how dirty are you rn” and shawns like “nothing yet i waited so that i can hug you when i see your dumb ass #and everyones like abt dave to leonard “idk if he's the right one for you” #but then later on dave saves his life by going a little bit unhinged classic dave-style #and ends up scaring a nurse and receptionist into retiring early #total drama #td leonard #td dave

[sapphic-loser16]

genuinely thinking of deleting this blog

#Just #whats the point anymore #I can’t fucking stand Zelda anymore which makes me sick #Because I used to love it so much #I try with my art but what’s the goddamn point of having 360+ followers if I can’t even get twenty notes on a piece? #So many creators are getting harassed because the Zelda fandom is fucking entitled and insufferable and cruel #I’ll never be good at art so what’s the point of even making any #All the friends I used to have are gone #And I just feel so damn empty and tired #I want to do stuff with the power play au #But it’ll never measure up to what’s in my head so why even try?? #I swear to god the only reason this still exists is because I’m terrified of losing my rebels blog #I’m just so tired #i want to go to sleep forever and never wake up

[rocketbirdie]

man. now that i think about it. crisis core sure did do that to zack's potential as a character huh

#listen. i respect the creators' original vision. however #i also firmly believe that their vision was stupid af. #zack had so much potential to be an interesting character with his own motivations and goals and agency #and then angeal hewley happened with his dreams and honor bs... and it all went downhill from there. #and that's the thing!!! the potential is still there!! all zack has to do is realize that angeal was talking out of his ass #and that genesis was a lunatic and didn't need to be taken seriously #and that he can make his own goddamn decisions without having to consult spectres of a bygone era of insanity. #babygirl they are a terrible influence on you. break free. you are so close to the epiphany come onnnn. #sigh. oh well. canon and fanon zack are different out of necessity and i love and loathe them both for many reasons. #but man. canon zack needs a push. rebirth ALMOST had it too. so damn close yet so far away. #rant over it's one of those mornings folks. happy wednesday. sparkle on! #zack fair #ffvii