#The ghost breakdancing beside you ( ooc )

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A little Malika in a cup

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If you don't think Eden has nervously tried opening the door for his crush, but ended up ripping the door off the hinges instead, then I don't know what to tell you.

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👻 Capitalist H.ad.es can and will harm u

#the ghost breakdancing beside you 👻 ooc #reposts this sketch #because he's so fucking smug #a little shit #myart

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// Please remember what ever you’re sending to my muse, you’re ALSO sending to ME to look at. There’s another person running these blogs. Please, PLEASE, remember that.

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I wanna be active on blogs like Striker and Husk, and despite liking my portrayals a lot I feel like they push people away, or don’t give them what they want so they go to others instead. Like I made Striker gay, so there goes some interactions because I had a lot of thirsty people at the start for him. And I have to blame myself for that. I probably set that president when I started that blog.

Husk is hard to love and purposefully hard to love. He’s afraid of the stuff. Like how he doesn’t drink water because fish fuck in it!

I feel like I’m bringing nothing to the table creativity wise. I feel like I can hardly come up with an idea anymore.

But I know my depression has stemmed from other things too. Like being so uncomfortable in my own skin, and my cute face getting fucked up by chronic illness that I’m trying to treat, but it’s not working yet. And I have to lose weight too, because of chronic illness again. Looking in the mirror fucking sucks. Like yeah I can look at myself and think “I’m cute!” but most of the time I see myself and I see my waist, and I wanna scratch my face off. 

People keep saying I sound happier on the phone, and in those moments I say I am. But I think I’m just happy to talk to someone for a moment. 

TDLR: Shit’s rough, it’s dinner time, but I just wanna sleep.

#vent cw #weight cw #self harm mention #And now i need to clean my snotty face and try and act like I don't have a headache from suddenly sobbing #I want a nap #like I go between being able to laugh about it #and then being so sad #gosh idk anymore #The ghost breakdancing beside you 👻 ooc

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👻 Thinks about how big and beautiful and full of compassion Rune is.

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// I love my canon characters and their blogs, and i have such supportive friends who have told me that they do love my canon muses too, but sometimes I’m 

#vent cw #for various reasons #and it's not even doubt because I do like my characterizations??? #And it's likely my own fault for the kind of interactions that I do get??? #mayhaps I close myself off from more good content happening #or sometimes I feel like I'm followed for just my art and I'm expected to fulfill fan service of sorts #(no one has every suggested this btw it's me speculating) #Or despite me liking what i produce I see what OTHER people are jumping on that I don't provide and go #Hm yes I have nothing to contribute yet again #The ghost breakdancing beside you 👻 ooc

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👻 I feel sick as fuck but I'm thinking about Mio, and Rune, and just all my oc's. Please send asks about them.

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// i'm in trials but when that's done and i've done self care 👀

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The lesson of the day is: Draw and write what you want and enjoy <3

#the ghost breakdancing beside you 👻 ooc #also thank you everyone for the support yesterday #I feel so much better #I think I needed a hard cry #the headache was worth it lmaoooo

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calling corey out hours???? big boys with big tiddies. tall? beefy? dorito and/or hour glass figure? doesn't matter so long as they got big tiddies

World cold and cruel, tiddy soft and warm.

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Have I told you all about Malika's tiny demonic pom dog named Soul Eater?

#the ghost breakdancing beside you 👻 ooc #imagine this itty bitty fluff ball #and imagine it becoming an eldritch terror at horribly timed moments

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👻// it's pretty nice being able to step away from tumblr to work on other things without feeling like I HAVE to post. The old feeling that I HAD to tell people my whereabouts so strange, like I was reporting to HR. This is a hobby with friends. I don't text my friends "hey sorry i won't be online today." I just go about my business and let them reach out to me when they want, and vice versa.

#the ghost breakdancing beside you 👻 ooc #i'm getting way better about online interaction and #needing validation and i'm glad for that

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It’s all fun and games until you catch Eden drinking and doing “human” things while a wolf

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👻// Friendly reminder from your local Ghost Artist/ Art Dad (idk what anyone calls me anymore) to wash your reusable face masks! Also drink water. Have you eaten anything in the last 3-4 hours? Maybe do you if you haven’t. Also, please take your medicine.

Okay, proud of you, champ. Carry on.

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👻 Thus far Graves has fallen for a representation of life, one of death, one of life-

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