#That adds up to the nerves

[theswordnthepen]

The thing that drives me up a wall about the ed and cj discourse is that I feel like people conflate the ed we see on screen as the same exact person he was when we was younger and I just don’t think that’s accurate.

Like I’m not gonna say that those parts of him that liked nice soft things didn’t exist because I think they certainly did but I don’t think that’s the whole picture. I think at one point in his life, ed did not find the lifestyle he’d been living a total bore or a drag. I won’t say that he outright enjoyed it, because the show makes it a point to say “we don’t do this because we like it” because it is born out of necessity and survival. However, I don’t think that means ed didn’t and couldn’t find something to be excited about in it.

The way we see him now though, is someone who has grown and matured and has come to the realization that “hey I actually hate this.” And does try to change that (and is successful at changing it after some work bc he does leave piracy).

Anyway people are capable of growth and change and I think that that’s one of the best things we see in this show.

#allie shut the fuck up #i’m not tagging this #if it finds you it finds you #if you’ve got something to add that’s fine #but I don’t think my nerves can take a lot of being perceived today #there’s honestly a lot I can say about this topic but I’ll probably keep it to myself

[unexpectedbrickattack]

Im so excited to almost be done w comms bc i cannot wait to Also jump on the bandwagon and play dress up w Peppino

#chattin #so many fun outfits #im debating if i should make like a private twitter for some of the stuff i would Like to draw #bc i feel like #what happens is i go through a RUSH where i am enjoying drawing things and it flows out naturally #and then i hit a wall bc something i would like to draw is overwhelmingly Not sfw #and im like well thats okay ill just skip past that and work on other things! #only i CANT bc its like ‘oops u did not draw and post the thing that has been on ur mind so now ur punishment is thinking about it 24/7’ #which like sucks bc then i get caught on it for so long that i lose steam #and i DONT want to lose steam w this fandom i REALLY dont and i wanna keep it w me for as long as possible #so the only solution i think is to find a place to post it and i think a locked twitter account would help w that #bc like the pic i reblogged w the hot pink outfit is SO fucking good and im frothing at the mouth thinking about it #but i blocked someone bc they saw it From Me and had the nerve to add a rudeass reply #like shut ur whole mouth up u dick #and if i dont have the patience to deal w that on OTHER ppls posts #i will be actually angry if someone does that to me #i will think on it

[khaotunq]

Friendly reminder for everyone to be kind to their spine today. And tomorrow. And. Forever.

#i have been laid up 2 days because trapped cervical nerve #i am in tears every 20 minutes it's so much fun #i have slept perhaps a collective 8 hours total #i'm possibly out of my mind and jot experiencing reality #my neck hurts mh shoulder hurts my jaw hurts for some fucking reason everything hurts dhssssgdhdjf #someone send me a new spine pls #about jay #i have misyuped my own fuckinh name as jab and jat and hat and #its goin gwell #so it is decreed #edit to add i'm also mad at whoever came up with the idea of calling cervical vertibra cervical but also giving me a cervix because #i doubt myself every time for the rest of time

[good-beansdraws]

Happy Valentine's to ME 😤

One of those last Fuutas and the last two Lukas ones are traces of other art -- I don't have the originals on hand but I can try to find them for credit if people want👍

#retroactively tagging for organization but if you find this in the main tag oops #i hope you enjoy 😤👍and. sorry. 🙈🙈🙈 #ive actually got up the nerve to post some of those fuutas normally but i figure id add them to this collection hehe >:3 #the other lukas one was from a cosplay reference if im remembering right? i can find that too if needed #i had a few others of lukas from a while ago but im not as happy with them -- #if im gonna expose myself i at least gotta use my best art ya know 😂 #my ace ass gets one (1) suggestive post. as a treat. 😌 #milgram #fuuta kajiyama #fe echoes #fe lukas

[graham--folger]

*through gritted teeth* what the fuck do people want from a resume

#this semester i've had three different people look at my resume and all three of them were like contradicting whatever the other person said #one said add references. the other said don't add references. the other said no add them back in #one said add color. one said only do black & white. one said no you should have color #also in terms of content they all differed as well like. guys i just want to get this fucking internship so i can get out of here #i appreciate the feedback but i think it's made me more stressed in the long run #alex’s inane ramblings #plus just now finding out im gonna need to do a fucking seminar probably in addition to my internship unless i want to do 4 credits of #internship. i fucking hate seminars. and it's taught by my advisor who i like. but he knows how fucking quiet i am and calls me out on it o #the daily. which gets on my fucking nerves let me tell you #im the most non-english-major english major to ever exist #don't make me talk. please dear god don't make me talk #plus in this seminar we would be writing a 20 page paper. on american romance lit. #sorry dr. phillis but that sounds godawful #and if i decide to do the seminar it conflicts with another class i need to take so id have to talk to my graphic design advisor about maki #a substitution #hell on earth. why the fuck is graduating so goddamn hard #i don't have enough credits to be staying an extra semester so i have to get this all wrapped up by december #alright im gonna shut up now. college is hard guys

[morzowo]

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#it's not enough that job market is rancid and in absolute shambles and job offers are pilling up but weirdly not a single person is hired #ofc there have to be some fucks that add scams to all that irritating nerve-racking noise #i want to strangle somebody

[advisorsage]

My nerve pain is really bad, and I keep collapsing. I'm being selfish and wishing for a comfort fic but at the same time being a coward and not asking anyone for one. And yes, I know this sounds like complaining. It kinda is. But it's aimed at myself. I just want my body to stop hurting, and since I can't have that, I wish I could get the courage to ask someone for a comfort fic. Ya know?

#this isn't me asking by the way #no one should feel obligated #i just wanted to complain and i know that not very many people see my personal posts so i figured i was safe #I'm also frustrated because i keep missing work because of my pain and accompanying symptoms #like i tried to go to work yesterday and i fell in front of a resident and ended up leaving only a few hours in with no coverage #i felt so fucking bad physically and just had to add on the guilt of leaving work with no staff #anyway #I'm trying to get things under control but my nerves are on fire and the rest of my body is just attacking itself #y'all can ignore this. it's pretty much a vent post

[ayakashibackstreet]

No, no, this is fine. I can't bring myself to look at this wretched thing anymore and I'm at least a month behind schedule but this is fine. I will graduate, this is totally fine. I couldn't be more fine. This is fine. I am fine. I am so fine.

#the moment my supervisor messages me I am dropping dead on the spot #mum told me to 'just add a few sentences to it to get rid of the anxiety' the way I usually do #but lads. I don't think it's working anymore. #I'm 17 pages into this damn chapter #and I can't even see the end #I wrote an outline for this subchapter #but so what? #I still have one to go after that #and they're taking an awfully long time #and they're awfully long in general #gahhhhhhhh maybe the pinched nerve /was/ caused by stress after all #if I ended up going to that PhD programme it would legitimately kill me #and GOD I still am yet to submit abstracts to those damn conferences #do I even /want/ to put myself through that? God help me

[hueshift]

Advice on making physically disabled characters?

I've been wanting to explore a wider variety when it comes to character design for a while, and I wanted input about ones with physical disabilities! I know a little bit, but any and all advice or even tips for drawing are welcome.

#sorry if this is vague!! #disabled #disability #<- for reach #i can retag as needed so as to not take up space i shouldnt #just let me know :) #i know a little bit about prosthetics and how they dont work for everyone #and how they can be physically exhausting #along with the impacts of phantom pain #but things like wheelchairs or canes or even lesser known aids for those with physical disabilities.. i would like to learn about #as of rn i have a character with prosthesis who i want to write properly #my own personal experience with physical pain is my damaged nerves in my shoulder and arm #apologies if anything is worded improper i just wanna learn more! #disabled art #physical disability #replies/reblogs/however you wanna add are preferred as i dont like dms very much

[worm-wood-words]

Too tired to write but also can't stop The Scenes™ from playing out in my mind.

#bits about Arvel's healing magic and also the man in the bar healing Kahn's broken bones #i mean it's not perfect and it's painful for both the man and Kahn for different reasons but it does work in the end #also just sort of trying to flesh out the healing magic in my head. for most people who have it (mostly loethan) it's close #range or on touch. depending on the person it might hurt or drain the caster too and they might have to be able to see #the specific injury or at least where it is (such as when the man in the bar has to cut into Kahn's leg and arm to see his bones) #it almost never works on nerve damage. never on organs except maybe internal bleeding or injuries so severe the organs are #exposed. (basically just trying to say it won't heal organ failure). so it's pretty much best for broken bones and cuts. works better the #more recent the injury was. technically has the ability to regrow limbs but that's most likely never shown. (torn between whether #or not veren gets his arm regrown or a prosthetic. probably prosthetic since he lost it years ago) #doesn't work on illnesses or poisoning or stuff like that. that's still the domain of alchemists. also since on the areas it shuts #does. I'm not retyping that. on the areas it does heal its just rapid cell regrowth which most of the time is fine. but then there's #Arvel. who can do it both on touch and at range and uses the whole rapid cell growth thing as a method of torture. add the whole #light minions thing and the fact that his abilities include a rapid healing factor on himself (and that unlike a lot of people #his abilities work rapidly on others and he can easily get over any drain it has on him) #and yeah it's understandable why Len loses the first fight and why a lot of people don't stand up to him much. even his wife who doesn't #have powers at all ends up progressively more afraid of him. like the only way to possibly wound him in a meaningful way is to get the #drop on him and find some way to inflict severe damage on a vital spot and keep whatever you used to do that inside of him long enough #for him to eventually not be able to heal around it anymore. i don't know just thinking about how he's such a twisting of typically 'good #guy' powers. like his main things are light and healing he should be the hero or like high up supporting cast but nope he's just #trying to subjugate everyone and rule the whole damn continent because of a might makes right ethos and the fact that he does #certainly have might on his side #maggot original

[spaceangst]

i always forget how much returning to the tumblr fandom means having to hate canon

#like i get it #it’s not perfect #my sibling in fandom i too #am not straight #or white #but like #why stay in a fandom #where you hate the characters in the book #and the plot #and don’t get me started on the passive aggressive comments to shannon #y’all this is her book #and yes it’s not perfect #i have issues with it #and in terms of ethnic diversity #i would like to add that the main cast has greatly expanded #and that race is not the same among elves and humans #i mean they literally matchmake to mix skin tones and genetics #to prevent those related from ending up together #and idk some of the canon headcanons do get on my nerves #like just blatantly ignoring canon but claiming that it is #which might not have been what anyone wanted #but idk what do i know #this is just a little rant about returning to a fandom #for a thing i love greatly #and maybe that’s why i’m upset idk #kotlc discourse #ig??

[hopetorun]

oh that little sibling take is so intriguing because i feel like matthew DOES come off as a little bit of a tryhard with how he tries to be on good terms with everyone “off the ice” or w/e (ie being a pest on the ice but off the ice he spits out this bs about how it’s just a game etc…). It’s like one of the more … intruding things about him to me because i’m like does he lack that much self awareness. Does he really not know WHY he wasn’t made captain in cgy etc???Although I also think he also may not be as socially inclined as other guys but tries sometimes to not shake the table?? When he was with the flames there was frequent gossip that he wouldn’t accompany the team on nights out to bars or whatever and if he did, he’d leave early lol

i super agree with you about the tryhard please-like-me that matthew gives off but i don't know if i agree that it's due to a lack of self-awareness? at least to me it feels like more of an excess of self-awareness, like he knows exactly why people might not like him (being a pest, not being friendly in the right ways, being the most annoying person on the planet) and is overcompensating in places

but also more broadly one of the things i really enjoy about writing rpf and being in rpf fandoms is poking at things like this, because real people are full of contradictions and things that just make no sense! we're our own worst enemies and we all do things like wishing everyone would like us while not bothering to do the things that would make people like us, and there's a really fun challenge in turning those messes of character traits into something that makes narrative sense for a story

#because you see the thing about real life is that it doesn't have to make sense #your flaws and foibles and hypocrisies don't have to add up to a coherent narrative point #we're all just raw bundles of nerves out here doing our best #but to turn it into a story you have to make sense of it somehow! #anyway sorry anon i got this ask midafternoon and then spent two hours drinking wine and explaining my feelings to a friend #(also i did NOT have that gossip about matthew in calgary and it is fascinating i am incorporating it into my characterization immediately) #answers #anonymous

[my-sleepy-head]

I don’t really like getting involved in petty drama but I really think people need to calm down with their hate of the new Monster high dolls.

I LOVED the original and when I write about Monster High G1 is where I’m going. But I’ll still incorporate things from the new G3.

The main thing that bothers me with all the hate the new series is getting is that most, if not all, of it is so superficial it makes people sound like toddlers who met someone who’s named like their favourite babysitter but looks and acts different. They’re also acting like AUs don’t exist. Like. News flash! This isn’t the original because it happens in a separate universe!

But seriously. Calling Clawdeen “ugly now”, misgendering Frankie AND fat shaming Draculaura? That’s taking things too far.

Yes you can be upset that Lagoona’s skin is now pink instead of blue and that she’s now Latina instead of Australian but that’s like having an Australian friend named Clara Smith and getting upset that you met a Clara Smith who’s of Mexican decent! It makes no sense.

And the Cleo criticism is not any more excusable. I saw some people call her outfit “Tacky” and “ugly” for having patterns you can find on actual clothes in countries where Cleo would come from. That’s just being flat out racist at this point!

For Deuce. In the live action movie he sort of looks like Wilbur Soot, I admit I thought that, but the “Minecraft streamer” look kinda suits him. Heat’s animated design could be better, he does look like an early 2000’s Barbie movie villain but I’m a little biased since everyone else looks so cute.

But hating on actual people by saying you “hate the new monster High dolls” and that “the series should have stayed dead if they were gonna do that to your childhood” you should have actually listened to your beloved childhood show and realized that its not very Monster High of you to be judging the characters that harshly(or to be fatphobic, transphobic and racist towards plastic dolls).

#monster high #it was just really getting on my nerves because I’m genuinely exited about the new dolls! #G1 will always be my favourite. I grew up with it. but I really don’t see where all the hate is coming from. #and all that hate for the box art??? drawing is hard ok! it looks cute and lovely! #tw: fat shaming #variety in the doll bodies is also so good! it adds depth to the doll colecting! #and I say that as someone who’s starting to collect Monster High. I’m trying to get all the reproduction dolls that’ll come out #I’ll probably also get the new dolls. a specially that ‘’coffin bean’’ playset!

[figueroths]

something something inserting iris as the obstacle instead of examining carlos’s culpability in his own omissions or providing tk time and space to process his feelings

#like i think it’s stupid but not enragingly so for me #like in his mind it’s nothing he’s just helping iris out these days #insane but alright fine #what’s getting on my nerves is that they just breezed past that reveal to be like teehee she’ll only sign after she meets him #and currently it appears to be her holding up the nuptials when like #perhaps this wedding should hinge on smth more significant than iris’s whims #perhaps these men should be having deeper conversations #not a fight just not like wrapped up in a single scene #tho i will add that like i understand that tk understands carlos’s pov #and so there aren’t really feelings to dwell on #but at the same time it was Written That Way #creating an external problem they can face together as carlos tackles personal growth is valid but like #bruh #i’m not trying to start shit btw ik everybody disk horsing 2nite but i’m just saying thots #camille watches things #911ls spoilers

[ttgodhead]

> thinks about him calling me cute

> thinks about him calling me cute

> thinks about him calling me cute

> thinks about h

#turntechgaypost #turntechblogpost #i am so unable to tell if hes flirting with me or just being nice #and i am *also* so unable to tell if he knows i like him or not #people in my life have very different opinions about that #it feels like every time i work up the nerve to ask some shit happens in his life and i dont wanna add more stress if he doesnt reciprocate #may delete this one later idk

[damnedifivoodoo]

infinitely jealous of people who are easy to draw blood from

#two phlebotomists three sticks and 30 minutes later... #pretty sure one struck a nerve or smthng because the pain lit up my entire arm and up my neck #cant even blame them because this has been a lifelong issue #even well hydrated and doing arm exercises for the week in advance to help prepare #every time i have a bad time like this it just makes it so much harder to show up for the next one. i have a high pain tolerance but like... #it adds up over the years :/