#THIS PASSAGE..HEAD IN HANDS

[raayllum]

sometimes i reread my old pre / early post-s4 fics and i feel like i probably wrote this exchange post 4x09 for obvious reasons but

“I never thought I wouldn’t understand my mother. I never thought I’d understand King Harrow so well, but...” “Callum.” Soren pulls him away from the balcony—away from the moon. “There is always someone else out there. There is always the ability to move on. Your mother found happiness because she went looking. King Harrow didn’t, too choked up with guilt and—” “It wasn’t guilt,” Callum almost shouts, jerking away. “It wasn’t—not completely. He just—he knew, Soren. He knew. And I never thought it’d happen to me, but sometimes you fall in love and that’s it. It’s over. There will never be anyone else. There could never be anyone else. And I—” He grips his chest over his heart, looking so heartbreakingly angry at himself yet resolute that Soren doesn’t know what to say. It’s like watching someone drown without any water. “I know.” 

—a frightening thought, january 2023 / book five: ocean, july 2023

#rayllum #tdp #the dragon prince #parallels #i forget if i gave this motif a name or not but #predictions achieved #closely enough anyway #4x09 'i know' my beloved #i forget if i wrote this passage Before the season aired and cleaned up the middle sections later but #if it hits it hits #my fic #arc 2 #pining!callum #giving myself extra points for the water motif at least #head in my fucking hands bro #knowledge motif #there

[svtskneecaps]

FRIENDS I HAVE BEEN PLAYING WITH SOME OF THE QSMP MODS AND I AM FROTHING AT THE MOUTH

BEHOLD THESE THREE PARTICULAR BLOCKS FROM THE FRAMEDBLOCKS MOD!!!!! FROM LEFT TO RIGHT, THE "FRAMED SECRET STORAGE", THE "FRAMED DOOR", AND THE "FRAMED ONE-WAY WINDOW"

FRAMED SECRET STORAGE, A BLOCK WITH SOME STORAGE THAT CAN BE CAMOUFLAGED TO LOOK LIKE WHATEVER BLOCK YOU DESIRE!!!! WANT TO BUILD YOUR WHOLE HOUSE OUT OF CHESTS AND STILL MAINTAIN AESTHETIC?? GO FOR IT!! HAVE SECRET CONTRABAND BUT NEED EASY ACCESS? HIDE IT RIGHT IN YOUR WALLS!!!

THE FRAMED DOOR, ABLE TO BE CUSTOMIZED TO LOOK LIKE A WALL!! THE TOP AND BOTTOM CAN BE ASSIGNED BLOCKS INDEPENDENTLY!!

SECRET TUNNEL!!!!!!!!!

THE FRAMED ONE-WAY WINDOW!! ANY ONE SIDE OF THIS BLOCK CAN BE MADE TRANSPARENT, INCLUDING THE TOP AND BOTTOM!!! the transparency can also be REMOVED, so if your friend forgets to look at the name of the block their crosshair is on, YOU CAN TOTALLY PRETEND IT'S A TOTALLY NORMAL SOLID BLOCK AND ADD THE TRANSPARENCY ONLY WHEN NECESSARY >:D

NEEDLESS TO SAY, I AM SO EXCITED FOR WHEN THE PARANOID MEMBERS WITH MANY SECRETS AND MANY THINGS TO HIDE DISCOVER THESE BLOCKS HEHEHEHEHEHE. AS SOMEONE WHO LOVES AND CHAMPIONS ESPIONAGE THIS CONSTITUTES AN ABSOLUTE WIN

#qsmp #I LOVE ESPIONAGE I LOVE SECRETS I LOVE HIDDEN PASSAGES #HOHOHOHOEHOEHOEHOEHOHEHOE #reading through the mod notes apparently if you use phantom membrane on a block it allows you to walk through it like ghost blocks #how FUCKIGN DOPE IS THAT #THIS MAKES ME SO FUCKIGN EXCITED LIKE ACTUALLY I LOVE ESPIONAGE AND SECRETS AND HIDEY HOLES SO MUCH #if mr badboy 'paranoia incarnate' halo stops being deceased i hope he discovers these blocks bc he'd go CRAZY #cellbit would also like DAMN like DAMN #imagine if he'd been able to conceal the security door in the fear room behind a door that looked the same as the wall #jaiden being able to see through the fog using the waterframes couldn't have revealed the door >:D #this is so COOL this is so DOPE i'm in tears i love espionage i hope someone finds these blocks soon #also don't mind that you can't see my hand in any of the screenshots i found a scarf that gives me invisibility #WHICH IS ALSO FUCKING DOPE #the artifacts mod is actually so OP like genuinely #i have bunny slippers that make me jump the height of three fences and take 0 fall damage (i make bunny noises when i'm hit too >:D) #i have a snorkel that gives me 15 seconds of water breathing every time i surface for air #i have night vision goggles AND i have a CLOUD IN A JAR that gives me a DOUBLE JUMP so combine that with the bunny slippers and :DDDDD #and NONE OF THESE have durability and i can have them on AT ALL TIMES unless they conflict in slots ofc like no two in the head slot or smt #tho this is assuming that i downloaded the correct mod (i would have grabbed it from seeing it in a tooltip on a stream so jury's out) #(i don't remember what stream either lmao) #but yeah assuming these items exist on the server they're so fucking cool; i'm assuming they'll pop up in a shop later #since i haven't seen people find many yet #anyway not to be a fucking nerd or anything lmfao just got a lil excited #long tags #shut up vic #block game brainrot

[sowhumpful]

#whump #hands in the air #interlocked fingers behind head #hands behind head #held at gunpoint #The passage #Season 1 Episode 4 #mark paul gosselaar

[banished-away]

I honestly can't wait to get to generations bc i need the massive shotgun of the whole zak-drizzt father-son relationship to go off

#i love zak and he did the best he could #but when i see art of him being all cutesy with small drizzt all i can think of #is that one of the first things he did when meeting him was dislocating his jaw #which makes sense in context. physical punishment is near daily for male drow so it doesnt stand out as particularly cruel #its just what zak knows and he may even have been soft by menzo drow standards #but i think a lot abt that one passage in one of drizzt's thinkpieces #i cant for the love of god remember which book #where drizzt outright mentions how he was grateful that his father tried to kill him (twice!) #and how incredibly fucked up that is #zak's hand was forced to a degree. in his head the drizzt he knew might've been already dead anyway #and zak's life is all about kill-or-die. so he didnt know any other option. and if he did they wouldn't have mattered anyway #but it is still an incredibly fucked up thing to do. and imo erasing that part of him does an incredible disservice to zak's character #the zak drizzt remembers is not the full picture. its the image created by a young man desperate to have someone guide him #of a man that he had just discovered was his father and then was killed that very day #IDK. just. gestures vaguely. zak Do'Urden #bani.txt #legend of drizzt

[skyward-floored]

So the Incredibles au was officially a year old on Sunday

#AAAAH THE PASSAGE OF TIME #ITS BEEN A YEAR AND I HAVENT EVEN POSTED ANY OF THE MAIN FIC #WHY AM I LIKE THIS #WHY AM I SO SLOW #*head in my hands* #*wails* #rambles from the floor #incredibles au #guh #I should probably do something to mark the anniversary... #idk what tho #sigh

[bookwyrminspiration]

me from two years ago is actually my favorite author now

#kotlc wings au #oh my god it was basically two years ago...head in HANDS #but anyway! look at the funny quote guys :) #ignore the passage of time :)

[reckless-rider]

the animation for Frieren is so pretty

#i absolutely love this show #the subtle details are amazing #this show has made me tearup waaaayy too many times to be on ep 4 #but its too good to stop #the subtle passage of time as if we are viewing everything from frierens perspective #idek if that is making sense but thats a feeling i get watching it #also frieren patting fern's head like her friends used to do to her #her adding the flower crown to himmel's statue #and adding the flowers from his hometown around it #him putting all his faith into her hands with the Qual fight #like he knew she was going to be there even tho she seems cold she really cares #and pays attention to small details #frieren: beyond journey's end

[funnierasafictive]

We personally see ourselves as more of a machine system than people in a human body so our "mascot" of sorts is more so what we feel we look like, a pink TV head

I doubt this is very helpful but I thought I'd share

It is alright, I think it is a fun design and concept! there are many forms a mascot or sona can take. Human, humanoid, furry, object head, object..

I usually see furries and the usual humanoids, but not much of object heads. =)

#ask #retr0stati0n #From Chara #We personally (on main) have four to five. #One pony and a caracal (who share a colour palette) #One lion with a pink mane. #and a secret fourth one! #I am kidding. It is not a secret. #It is this little guy named Gee. We made it for a system-vent blog that we wanted to focus on at one point. #Gee looks like a Game of Life Peg but white. So no hands. Just a body and a head. #It was back before we started showing more obvious system symptoms.. #But it was originally a mascot for our old host's *pen name* if you will. #But over time It became a collective mascot for this blog.. #The blog was made to make comics. #ah... the old days. #Our most popular post there to this day is a small comic about he passage of time.

[hungriestheidi]

accidentally took a 5hrs long nap and now my head hurts and I ruined my schedule, i hate it here.

#*sobbing with my head in my hands* make it stop (passage of time and tiredness of my bones) #goose talks

[selkiecoded]

ive inherited a copy of lolita from my parents (i.e. i stole it from the library in our basement and started treating it like its mine) with the 1989 vintage international cover and i think its actually not that bad. better than the 50th anniversary one with the lips anyway imo (which is the cover for the library ebook vers ive checked out).

like i think any cover that incorporates the "only convincing love story of our generation" quote anywhere kind of sucks on principle, and the fact that it features a photo of a girl at all really goes against nabakovs instructions, but compared to other covers that break those two rules, the haziness of the photo creates a really evocative atmosphere i feel matches the book more or less.

#im keeping most of my lolita thoughts to myself because i know it can be an uncomfortable book to talk about when #not intentionally trying to engage with it but. good lord ive highlighted a lot! #mostly stuff where H.H. is being a lying little bastard even in his narration #theres also this passage in ch14 after he um. 'stole the honey of a spasm' when dolores sat on his lap (not a fun passage to read lol!) #where he goes: What I had madly possessed was not she‚ but my own creation‚ another‚ fanciful Lolita—perhaps‚ more real than Lolita; #overlapping‚ encasing her; floating between me and her‚ and having no will‚ no consciousness—indeed‚ no life of her own. #(end quote. forgot quotation marks) which ohhhhh my god. subtlety is for losers lmao. #H.H. IS VERY VERY BAD AT MAKING HIMSELF LOOK GOOD DESPITE HIS BEST EFFORTS. #he claims he memorized charlottes confession of love perfectly and had conveyed in on paper perfectly #but also he completely skipped parts of it (including where she talks about her late son) and inserted the line: #'you would be a criminal--worse than a kidnapper who rapes a child.' #yes. im sure she said that. to the letter. #or when hes like i didnt marry charlotte with the intention to (extremely detailed grusome murder plan). but ill admit. i thought about it. #and then she oh so conveniently gets run over by a car when she discovers his journal. yeah. sure. right. #SORRY again i havent been Posting My Thoughts on it but i am having thoughts on it in general. #it really is a beautifully worded book though. its got great prose. makes the actions worse almost because its filtered through this #dreamy artistic self-justification. which - to go back to the original point of this post - i feel this cover conveys well LMAO #its so much better than the movies oh my god head in my hands #jumping between the most 2008 musical to ever exist‚ legally blonde fanfiction‚ and a controversial literary classic. im versatile.

[handgiven]

it's my bday tomorrow and the only reason i remembered is because my flatmate attempted to bake banana cookies for me (she messed up adorably but they are still good !!) but hm. i really am not ready. and what's more once again my bday is during finals season and i don't even have time or energy to process it haha

#ooc tbt #head in my hands about the passage of time

[leatherbookmark]

an idea that i think would be funny: a fic in which nhs wants to Do Something. he is genuinely very bad at it and is flying by the seat of his uhhhh underpants all the time. i repeat: no hidden genius powers. he is not very smart, and struggling all the time. however, because he’s also god’s favourite little comedian, somehow some things happen to have good results, some have bad results but people magically don’t notice, and in some cases his squirming actually helps someone. he is incredibly stressed and tired all the time and nmj is like “what the fuck, he’s not even doing anything” and, yes but he’s Trying (and failing, and it takes energy too)

#i'm talking like. nhs wants A and B (unrelated; some randoms) to get along but in the process he makes A think B is their enemy #therefore A conjures up a wonderfully idiotic slapstick-level assassination plan that nhs now has to stop #but in the process of THAT he somehow helps B voice their feelings for C #it's like. a pouch filled with deadly poison falls from the ceiling aimed precisely at B's head but they lean in to kiss C. danger avoided! #but wait! C seems surprised. do they... not...? B steps away about to apologize for their misunderstanding -- but they step on nhs's hand #and almost fall! only for C to catch them and confess THEIR feelings! #(nhs's hand was there because he wanted to snatch the poison pouch away and dispose of it) #stuff like this. i think it would be neat #idk if it needs to be said again but just in case: i am not calling nhs stupid with the intention of offending him. it is vitally important #for me to have idiot representation. his brain shows the highest immunity to academic/cultivation knowledge lqr has ever seen BUT he can #stay at his rooms and paint for SHICHEN UPON SHICHEN without even noticing the passage of time! isn't it cool! #(no. this is how you get a young master nie who SPRINTS out of his room to find a toilet (has been ignoring his bladder for hours) #but who swoons (because he also forgot about eating) and bangs his head on the wall and a disciple notices him like NIE GONGZI?! #YOU'RE HURT WE NEED TO TAKE YOU TO THE HEALERS' PAVILLION and he's like Oh God OH Fuck No i just wanted to PEE :((( #if he's actually super smart but only pretending then what's the fuckening point. where's the punch that comes with the realization that an #innocent boy who loves art poetry and leisure has turned into a ruthless adult driven by revenge who doesn't even care how many people die #on his path to it!!! if he's protective od nmj and hypercompetent then what's the poooooint! #he must be stupid and in an ideal world Stupid He Remains. #thanks for coming to my insanity. i'm about to have breakfast at 3pm. cheers #shrimp thoughts

[pikkish]

why do the secret walls in quake bleed when you hit them.

#quake #pikspeak #like from a game dev perspective it makes sense #they want to add some visual effect to let you know that hitting the wall has done something #so they just go yeah lets change the impact particle effect #and what particle effect do they have on hand? the blood particles of course. gotta reuse assets to save memory. #so they just slap that on there and whaddya know! the games design theme is already lovecraftian nightmare so why shouldnt the walls bleed? #it fits perfectly! #but like from a story perspective? #ranger punches a seemingly random wall and it *bleeds.* and before he can figure out how the heck to respond to that #the wall shifts and writhes and curls away from his fist and conveniently reveals a hidden passage #the wall bleeds and is alive and feels pain so that it crawls away from him to keep from being injured more #was it always a secret door? was it replaced with a living wall when quake invaded? #or was the hallway just an ordinary hallway and quake placed the blood-filled wall there to hide it? #and what exactly is going on in rangers head to make him think 'hm yes i should swing my axe at every single wall in case it Bleeds :)' #huh maybe im going to write a short fic later about that.

[samthecookielord]

BITING TWINE IN HALF

#IT OVERLAYED AN OLD VERSION OF MY GAME ON TOP OF MY CURRENT VERSION OF MY GAME. THERE ARE NOW NEARLY 400 PASSAGES #HALF OF WHICH I DO NOT NEED BECAUSE THEY ARE OLD VERSIONS OF THAT PASSAGE. #AND NOW ITS A CLUTTERED MESS AND I NEED TO GET RID OF EVERY SINGLE DUPLICATE PASSAGE #HOLDS HEAD IN HANDS #ALSO THIS IS FOR A SCHOOL PROJECT WHICH IS DUE IN LIKE A WEEK OR SO!!!! #A

[lesbiten]

I CRACKED IT. jesus fucking CHRIST

#head in my hands that was os much harder than the other one. that was so much worse #i found a part where he says 'mom and dad' as well as 'stanley' and those helped a LOT #im still missing a few letters but i have enough to start hopefully going through and translating some of these passages #simon says

[xue-mei]

feeling cracked open like a watermelon with a bat and seen

#when i tell u this is almost word for word except without the #ya know love interest #did i finish this book? no #but i do think about this passage often #guomen #i dont feel seen by ya queer media often but sometimes i do #books #priest #danmei #quotes #i was like heads in hands when i got to this part