#THEY REALLY DON’T but whatever ugh

[smilesrobotlover]

Sometimes when I’m writing my lbl au I get nervous and self conscious about how the different Link’s are written and I’m afraid that people won’t like it, but then I remember that it’s my au and I shouldn’t care what other people think and that they can suck it

#smiles rambles #I hated that trend where people started posting and shaming other people for writing Links wrong #like it was mostly LU #but it’s mostly why I don’t enjoy LU that much anymore. it out a bad taste in my mouth #especially wild #gonna be fr with y’all I don’t care for Wild or any botwink #he was ruined for me #and it’s a shame cuz so many people are invested in lbl wild but I have nothing to say about him #which is annoying how people are especially upset about he in particular is written #cuz botwink is the most blank slate character in existence so the many versions that people write for him seem fine to me #cuz… he’s a literal blank slate #has no expression #and the small moments of where he’s cooking and whatever don’t count #he’s expressionless in cutscenes 90% #so really #I feel like Wild should be the most flexible Link to write #but he’s not #UGH sorry I get so upset thinking about this #tldr; unfortunately I do not care for Wild or any botwink #minus some botwinks that my friends have written

[latter-day-gay]

CW: talk of LDS general conference, religious guilt tripping, religious trauma, etc

despite the fact that I’m technically an adult, I’m still basically “forced” to watch conference because I live with family (currently with grandparents in Mexico, other times parents in the US). the result of not watching/refusing would be my family going into a huge panic and crying because they’re scared of me losing my faith/leaving the church (I guess technically valid concerns bc I’m already somewhat entering that general headspace lol). I’m allowed to watch alone which helps but conference genuinely brings me UNFATHOMABLE amounts of stress and there’s no outlet for me to express that without being guilted/it being a Whole Thing. especially living with my grandparents, who have no idea I’m queer and are EXTREMELY faithful to the church, there is no sense of emotional security or personal choice for me. they’re even making me watch the additional evening session. and I’m terrified of sitting through another session where the speakers just say the most heinous shit. idk why I’m even typing this; I suppose it just feels good to get it out of my system. and maybe it will find its way to someone in a similar situation

#ugh #I’m really NOT the type to ‘vent’ on social media or whatever but #it’s quite literally my only emotional outlet for this #because I’m too embarrassed to put that pressure on my friends who just wouldn’t understand #they’d be sweet about it but ik their internal thoughts would be ‘why don’t they just leave?? or not watch??’ #I feel like only other Mormons who struggle with the church would ever understand #idk #ldsconf #queerstake #religious trauma #cw religious trauma #fae’s stuff

[runningatypufullspeed]

I AM BEING FORCED TO ROLEPLAY AS SCYTHE FUCKING GODDARD FOR MY SCHOOLA SISIGNMRNT CAN SOMEONE END ME PLEASE END ME NOW

#CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME?? LIKE GIVE ME SOME POINTERS #arc of scythe #only talking about the first book btw I forgot literally everything else #IVE ANNOTATED HIS CHARACTER FRONT AND BACK BUT LIKE DESPITE ALLAT IM STILL REALLY SHIT AT ROLEPLAY #also I SUCK at 0aying these sorts of villains if he was creepy that’d be a different story but he’s just pompous #and greedy and sadistic and power hungry like YEAH he is KIND of creepy but not like. captain beatty #weird comparison but *vague hand gestures #scythe goddard #I actually think it’s really interesting how both he and scythe curie glean for the sake of solving stagnation #it’s just that scythe curie gleans handpicked stagnant people whereas #goddard thinks that EVERYONE is stagnant thus he feels the need to not only glean them but traumatize them as well #‘’remind them of their mortality’’ or whatever bs I CANT ACTUALLY TELL IF HES BEING GENUINE BUT #THATS WHAT I GOT FROM HIS JOURNALS #who knows maybe that’s just an excuse to end lives excessively ugh he’s such a #I don’t wanna say shallow character? but. but #SOMEBODY HELP ME? PLEASE? #I WANNA GO BACK TO F451ING

[ghostbnuy]

feeling quite :/ currently about a few posts i’ve seen recently

#i don’t really want to rant about it over text because it’s a lot harder to be expressive but like #ugh #i wanna talk about it sometime though cus it’s annoying. but whatever

[itspileofgoodthings]

Porfiry telling Raskolnikov that at least he was honest and in one bound took the furthest leap to put his theory to the test of actual action——

#Taylor believing a man who is obviously lying to her #like. it’s fascinating to me how they’ll say anything to her and she’ll be like ‘okay let’s go’ #she’s never read Jane Austen and it shows. but that’s okay because she’s the character in an Austen novel #she has no sense of self-preservation she has no common sense when it comes to love #and the reason I have endless patience for that is because she IS different. she is extraordinary. she is WEIRD. she’s so needy #so angry so fragile so stupid so brilliant so completely helpless #like the bolter———I can’t even LOOK at it right now #because you know she was like this since she was 5 and SHE knows it #just so. Different. so strange. I mean she ruled her family with an iron fist from the age of 11 #and her packaging is so basic and she she had so much access to everything anyone could want #so there are none of the usual marks of someone being so Different #but like. people HATED her from day one. you know her own strength of personality was drawing out many people’s hatred or envy #and she’s so helpless in her own personality because she can never change #like thank you aimee? or whatever? heck yeah there was some girl who bullied her and brutalized her on the playground #and you know it devastated Taylor from day one and still does #and it’s just. I don’t know how people can’t see that someone with that extraordinary set of gifts #wouldn’t also suffer in such an extraordinary way #and ways that elicit so much scorn and non-sympathy because people are unsettled and jealous and annoyed by her #because she WILL find a way to win #but isn’t that proof enough that she is the very OPPOSITE OF NORMAL #it’s why people have to be like ‘oh she sold her soul to the devil for this success.’ or whatever the psy-op spy thing is #because there’s no human way to explain her success if she really were as basic/talentless as people say #ugh this is all so incoherent and irritating and I’m so sorry but I just. I cannot explain how protective my heart is of her #and all the many many mistakes she’s made and the prisons she’s made for herself because she’s LIVING the tragedy #of never having denied herself one time/getting everything she wants #and discovering the poison at the bottom of everything she reached for with desperate hands #like. I love her so much and I am so protective of her because she is so helpless and she is getting shot in the face every time #and she feels every blow! #whew I need to turn off reblogs and will probably delete but I just #this album is all of her spilled out and people DO hate to see it because a lot of people hate her!!!!

[boltgunkiller-archive]

i find it damn near impossible to get mad at santana’s behavior in 3x06 and 3x07 because i genuinely do think she had the right to be lashing out at everybody. sue me idk

#idgaf if she was mean to kurt and blaine when they were “trying to help” in IKAG #they were the first performance & santana was put under the spotlight by the guy who fully outed her to the ENTIRE STATE OF OHIO & now she #-was expected to be just happy and jolly about some bullshit lady music week to celebrate women as if that has anything to do with wtf just #-happened to her by finn’s hands & of course she was upset because she was only back in the new directions because finn basically #-blackmailed her into rejoining like hello!!! so of course she was snippy with them… and tbh i don’t even think she was being that mean. #i think she’d have reason to be even MEANER actually. that reaction of hers was completely reasonable. and honestly it must’ve hurt seeing #-two people who are meant to Get what it’s like.. participate in that? especially when the last thing she wants is her sexuality that she’s #-still very insecure with Being broadcasted. to the whole damn club. it’s already about to be shown to all of ohio with names addresses #-details about her whole personal life etc like she really didn’t need that spotlight right then she needed to have space and love and #-support… none of which she got. #also the glee writers tend to make a character do a bad thing and then have another character do an INFINITELY WORSE THING #and then they’re like “oh but. the first character was being so mean. this absolutely deplorable and wayyyy too far reaction is definitely #-justified now because that was just so mean of the first character ugh!” and basically spins what happened into showing the first characte #-as the most evil person alive??? as if that’s even remotely true.??? and yes this is about santana cause they do this w her #and quinn. a LOTTTT. like a LOT. rn i’m talking ab santana though so i won’t cover quinn sorry fabrayers… one day! #like yes santana was being mean sure whatever. but finn didn’t have an excuse IDGAF what the hell anybody says about the body shaming stuff #it was mean. yes that’s true. but i don’t think you understand how different those two things are #they’re both bad but the outing is infinitely more despicable and personal and filled with malice and it’s so much more endangering in a wa #-that can’t even be compared to the dangers of body shaming you know. like they’re completely different and the outing thing is just too #-personal and Wrong like. idk. just get that through ur head they’re both so different and finn went way too far and personal. he could’ve #-just mocked her looks if he really wanted to get back at her. mocked ANYTHING else. but he chose the worst thing you could do to somebody #who is scared and in the closet and hurting #also yes santana’s written to be rude a lot of the time but her degree of rudeness in those episodes was Overplayed and def not in characte #like it didn’t feel much like santana’s brand of meanness it was 100% the writers trying to justify finn more because they continued to #-paint finn as the good guy who chose the high road… when that couldn’t be further from the truth thanks. he didn’t choose the high road he #-completely blackmailed santana and used her to make him look good basically. so you can’t change my mind on that Def being a writer issue #and just them Hating Women. especially santana. thanks. #also this is all coming from somebody who loves finn. so. 🤣 #i fuckingggg hate seeing people say santana was mean and had no right to be doing all of that in those eps.. BITCH YES SHE DID #like in other eps sure (<- nuanced topic/take) but this one? No. she was justified IDGAF. should’ve been meaner

[cerayanay]

I bought Cains Jawbone two fucking days ago and had to stay up all night tonight. Popped an adderall, worked nonstop for 12 hours with a single 30 minute break.

I have a spread sheet, notebook, a scrivener Doc with every character and every event, every weather change and every date mentioned with their corresponding page numbers. A doc with the timeline and potential page orders. A map of the United Kingdom with the mentioned towns circled. I have 47 Wikipedia tabs open. I have two pens for writing in the book. My eyes hurt

I’m on page 80 out of 100. I have no fucking idea what the story is. I’m still not even sure what the narrators name is. The deadline is December 31st. Fuck my life

#I didn’t know it was a thing until two days ago! #ugh if I don’t finish all the way I’ll cheat and peak Reddit #but I really hope I don’t have too #writing everything down my methods I think I have a better than average shot #if I didn’t have stupid fucking work later I’d keep going #like henry HAS to be a killer of at least 3 people but idk why I’m so hesitant like girl if it wasn’t henry then it would be impossible #also the narrators name is William right!?!?!? #ugh whatever

[shepards-folly]

not tagging this properly cuz its just concept sketches but I have a bad habit of deleting my art and I like these first concept doodles so well up they go

#shep arts #i didnt really do any color balancing for these first pass designs so ragh not 100% on the colors but i like these 2 #I did do winged designs for everyone this go around but tbh finley and florence might end up wingless #i really like them as just a deer/faun and a cat hybrid respectively #florence would absolutely wear like cosplay wings though…. like specifically a pair that he made himself thats shitty but he’s proud of. #gonna be honest I don’t know shit about actual like colorza lore or whatever besides their names. I just went insane abt the concept lol #i love designing pretty much the same guy several times… #anyway other notes for future design attempts… ‘m considering making frey a dragon… #i do like the concept of skeletal wings or idk i think I usually draw them with clipped wings cause something something headcanon #cant remember why exactly but my designs are inconsistent as hell anyway lol #uhh considering giving phil some angel stuff… cause phin is a demon and I do love things like that… somthjn somethin opposites #ACTUALLY WAIT I HAD A WHOLE THING ABOUT THE OPPOSITE COLOR ONES #angel n demon / good n bad / peace and violence (<- phil and phin) but i think both of them get to be morally complex as a treat so yeah #black cat and yellow bird (<- florence and fletcher) [i think they had sun and moon imagery at one point too??] #and uh tbh i forgot finley and flynns… i think it was something about like nature (finley) and technology (flynn) #frey and pheo… death and life… decay and bloom… ugh their colors aren’t opposites but out of the rainbow they’re both outliers

[justmwahstruly]

I might be on hiatus for a bit you guys.

I hate saying it but it’s true. It’s a BIG maybe, but still.

#I don’t wanna leave here. I’ve met really cool people. #But I may have to because of my stupid parents #NOT EVEN MY DAD! JUST MY STUPID MOM! #she doesn’t want me to have any social life whatsoever… i know its to protect me #but I don’t think she realizes how kinda dumb it is #like. I could just?? Have an acc on private?? #like be real lady #plus if I just randomly joined when I was like 17 I wouldn’t have any sort of idea if text tones n all that #IT WOULD SOUND LIKE I WAS COMPLETELY SERIOUS ABT EVERYTHING! #ugh stupid mom. #I hope I won’t have to leave you all because of her. I really do. #whatever you guys enough of my shite

[hag-lad]

Good GOD the dopamine hit I get when I come home and my wife is listening to prog rock of her own accord.

#she’s one of those crust-punk-turned-sad-folk-rock-and-alt-country lesbians #that pipeline is so fucking ubiquitous lmao it’s so strange #and hey she’s allowed to like whatever she likes! her music taste only overlaps with mine once in a blue moon and that’s okay #but UGH YES now she listens to yes and chroma key and devin townsend and that makes me so gd happy #she also REALLY got into Gojira which is fucking awesome and so outta left field lmao #I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: women love Gojira!! #even when they don’t listen to any other metal bands they love gojingus #hag life

[starlooove]

Ok but Dana being like ‘you don’t get it you don’t get it you don’t get it’ and Jason can’t respond bc he DOES get it! And he reacted worse! Dana, if a bit irresponsible, is doing smth purely productive for her community. Despite her issues with her sister she’s not targeting her or being fueled purely by anger (eh..complicated but yknow) etc. Jason DOES get it and he doesn’t know how to approach Dana besides telling her to just relax bc for him he went 10000% and then hit rock bottom and THATS when he had to pause and step back. If he and dick had that convo when he was at HIS worse it would’ve ended in a fist fight at best. He gets what Dana’s going through but he doesn’t know how to approach her because she’s coping! She has her supportive loving community around her, there’s never a question of whether she’ll go to bat for her sister; unlike early RH Jason! He doesn’t know how to deal with her because she has that safety net and the worst part is that he knows she’s disregarding it to an extent bc she’s never been in that same position he’s been in; she can’t ever be because she’s good and he’s not and he needs her to keep that and if he has to hound her and be backup and the voice of reason; by god if he has to be the Batman to her red hood he will!

#guys can you tell I’m losing my mind #btw for everyone who forgot there’s a point in time where Jason was JUST villain #like his future was Gotham rogue not whatever the fuck he is now #that’s how u got ooc ass titans tower #but also shit I enjoy like him getting locked up and deciding to take every nigga out in that jail too 😭 #his beef with Dick was so unnecessary at that time like it came from NOTHING #anyways #i really like that jason is clearly seeing himself in Dana #but he doesn’t go to extreme measure not just bc she’s not going to methods as extreme #but bc he also knows what he would’ve wanted and hated #WHICH THATS SMTH I DIDNT MENTION #jason basically going ‘i hear u but please take care of urself’ is NOT what he would’ve wanted to hear #he would’ve wanted someone ten toes down behind him #and he’s kinda half providing that but what he knows he NEEDED in hindsight is that voice of reason and space to be comfortable and sad #and he HATES that he has to provide bc he knows exactly how it’s causing a tiny bubble of resentment or how it’s coming off as condescendin #he KNOWS it’s pissing her of but he KNOWS that’s the best he can do and what she needs #ugh u don’t get ittt #also the way jason exploded outwards in a way that intentionally hurt others #but Dana is running herself ragged and unintentionally hurting those closest to her in the process #smth smth white mens emotional expression vs how black women are allowed to express the very same emotions #but more like how they’re socialized to do so #but thats a diff story #guys I’m loving it #Dana Harlowe #IM COMING MY BABY <3 #and #jason Todd #too. ig. hi.

[miralparis]

ahhh 🫣

#30 today #i really will miss 29 i liked that age #all these pandemic birthdays though have just flown by like I don’t really remember my late 20s when i think about it rn #law school didn’t help with that haha but eh whatever #i miss liking my birthday not like I’m afraid to get older by any means (other than that weird feeling of no longer in my 20s) #which is mostly just hoping I didn’t waste it all away #i just need one of these jobs to pan out like I feel like I’m on autopilot lately and it’s not fun #i don’t want to do anything grand with life #but just wanna try and enjoy it more?? ugh once again why can’t we live with universal basic income #if i could afford to make coffee all day i would keep doing that tbh #katie.txt

[sad-emo-dip-dye]

hmmmm

#*eye twitches* #a bunch of people are tagging some of my posts as ships that I do not fw #and on one hand I’m like idc it’s whatever I have them filtered out #but now so many people have done it I’m like ugh what if they think op (me) supports that and I don’t #idk if I want to be a bitch abt it tho #and also recently there’s been a bunch of blogs that have like random keysmash names #and I’m high key getting flashbacks to that damn Dazai anon #like my heart rate goes up when I check my notes #really disrupting my peace of mind lately

[brattybottomdyke]

we only see children at my job. we are specifically a children only facility. and this man just came in - wanting to get a sleeping aid prescription which isn’t even what we do if we did see adults - and when i said im sorry we only see kids, he told me that google told him we see adults too. and then asked me if i was sure!!!!!!!!!! like…no my guy. it’s not like my mom’s been working for this company for literally more than half my life time. it’s in our name!!

#i really hate when people tell me oh but my doctor said you could do this #or my insurance company said you could #or whatever and then they fight me when i tell them no #like im sorry someone gave you the wrong information but now you are actually speaking with someone who works here #and unfortunately there are a few things we just don’t do #UGH anyway this made me more frustrated than it should have #but i think it was the way he asked me if i was sure #bro i’ve been working here for two and a half years i think i know what im talking about #bottom.spm

[boltgunkiller-archive]

i LOVE shake it out. it has my 3 favorite glee singers ohhhh my god they’re just so good they all sound amazing together and MERCEDES’ PART??? chills. i always always always get chills when she sings. and her voice in that song ohhhhh it’s so deep and emotional it’s like the ocean

#juno speaks #there is so much wrong with that episode #but i like the songs the girls sang in it #as in cell block tango and shake it out #santincedes my favorite trio. santincedes my FAVORITES #sugar and brittany were just kind of there honestly it was really random they weren’t even singing #especially sugar. she was not paying attention to even the singing #Just sitting there 😭 #god what was RM even doing in s3. #<- slightly unrelated. i mean to the sugar thing #anyway. ugh i love santincedes together and their voices are so good separately andddd They compliment e/o so well #LIKE WHY DID WE NOT GET MORE OF ALL 3 OF THEM #grhrhrhrhr. #and mercedes singing slower more somber songs 🤭🤭🤭 always always on the brain #mercedes reminds me of orchids actually i think #she is kind and talented and pretty. and that’s what orchids make me think of. and when she sings slow songs #it makes me think of an orchid being watered kind of. i don’t really know much about flowers themselves but i like orchids #sunflowers are my fave but you know hdbsvdhd orchids are my second fav #Ugh. ugh. we were robbed of not only so many great songs those 3 could’ve sang but also the BEST friendship duo the world’s ever seen #whatever ☹️ #wish we got more troubletones in general actually too… and quinn and tina deserved to be there #maybe that’s why edge of glory is one of my faves #gleeposting

[pallases]

the weak spot of this audition being my singing DEATHHHH

#cannot believe i did well on the dancing and bad on the singing. THIS IS SO BACKWARDS can we please switch that #like bad dancing in a musical audition is whatever they know you’re just learning the choreography and it’s just not as much of a priority #as other parts of the production like you know. The Music. #personal #the music chronicles #i wish they’d had us do dancing and even maybe acting before the singing but they started w singing. doing dancing esp beforehand would have #helped make everyone more comfortable and hyped them up i feel #i got back in the swing of my song as it built up but the way i started was soooo. ugh like i was singing it 20x better an hour earlier 😐 #and even toward the end it was still like. good lord you can do so much better than this what is happening #and it’s not a matter of being unable to perform in front of ppl!! god knows how many solos ive done. but The Auditions #but whatever. honestly i hope i just got in at all bc literally any role in it including ensemble i think would be a lot of fun. and they #seem like a really nice group of ppl i don’t think ive felt that comfortable in a group of ppl that fast like. ever since getting to college #actually scratch the i don’t think i ABSOLUTELY haven’t #i miss theatre sooo bad