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inkskinned · 2 months

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before you know about women, you hear that you do not need to love the man, just that you need to love him through his manhood. which is to say you have seen the future painted in lamb's blood over your eyes - how your mother shoots you a look about your father's inability to cook right. how your aunt holds her wineglass and says i'm gonna kill em. men, right! how your best friend bickers with her boyfriend, how she says i can't help it. i come back to him.

you learn: men are gonna cheat. men aren't going to listen when you're talking, because you're nagging. men think emotions are stupid. they think your life is vapid and your hobbies are embarrassing. men will slam things, but that's because men are allowed to be angry. if you get loud, you're hysterical. if a man gets loud - well, men are animals, men are dogs, men can't control their hands or their eyes or their bodies. they're going to make a snide comment about you in the locker room, about your body, about how you're so fucking annoying. you're going to give him kids, and he will give you the money for the kids, and you're going to be running the house 24/7 - but he gets to relax after a long day, because his job is stressful. the man is on stage, and is a comedian, and says "women!"

and you are supposed to love that. you are supposed to love men through how horrible they are to you - because that's what women do. that's what good women do. wife material. your father even told you once - it'll make sense when you're older. it was like staring down a very lonely tunnel.

it feels like something's caught in your throat, but it's all you know, so. it's okay that you see sex as a necessary tool, a sort of okay-enough ritual to keep him happy, even though he doesn't seem to care about happiness as-applied-to you. it is relationship upkeep. it is kissing him and smiling even though he didn't brush his teeth. it is getting on your knees and looking up and holding back a sigh because he barely holds you as you panic through the night. it's not like the sex is bad and you do like feeling wanted. and besides! he's a man! like... they're another species. you'll never be able to actually communicate, right. he isn't listening.

you just don't get it. you don't feel that sense of i'm gonna climb him like a tree. mostly it just feels fucking exhausting. you play the part perfectly. you smile and nod and are "effortlessly" charming. and it's fine! it's alright! you even love him, if you're looking. you could have good life, and a good family, and perfectly happy.

in the late night you google: am i broken. you google i'm not attracted to my husband. you google i get turned on by books but not by him. you google how to get better in bed.

the first time he yells at you, it almost feels like blankness. like - of course this is happening. this is always how it was going to end up. men get angry, and they yell, and you sit there in silence.

you mention it to your friend - just the once - while you're drunk. she shrugs and says it's like that with me too, i just try to forget and move on. men are always gonna hear what they want to. pick your battles and say sorry even though he's in the wrong. you play solitaire online for a month. you go to your therapist appointment and preach about how you're both so in love.

after all, you have a future to want. nobody lied about it - how many instagram posts say marriage is hard. say real love takes work. say we fight like cats and dogs but the best part is that we always make up. how many of your friends say happy anniversary to the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. if you really loved him - loved yourself too - you'd accept that men are just different from you.

the first time she kisses you, it's on a dare at a party. something large and terrifying whips through your body. you wake up sweating from dreams where her mouth is encrusted with pearls and you pick them off one by one with your teeth. fuck. you sit at the computer and your almost-finished game of sim city. you think about your potential perfect life and your potential future family. you google am i gay quiz with your little hands shaking.

you delete each letter slowly. you don't need to love him. you just need to keep going.

#warm up #writeblr #this is also about being ace btw #my identity has slowly shifted over time and maybe if everyone is REAL cool i'll talk bout it #bc it's complicated and nuanced. but this is like #trying to warn u that if you find it “relationship upkeep” to have sex with ur partner #and don't actually enjoy it or seek it for urself. u might just not be attracted to them.#which is fine ! ace ppl can be perfectly happy in any relationship they feel good in!#but also i wasn't as straight as i had expected!#> the first time i saw dick i was like. huh. oh okay that's fine i guess #> the first time i saw pussy i was like. WAIT ACTUALLY HANG ON I GET IT #i just assumed sex wasn't all it was cracked up to be ya know #but also like. btw? this IS NOT saying ''u might be gay not ace''#bc tbh i'm grey ace/demisexual #it's saying u might not be into ur partner. explore urself & ur feelings. turn inward.#TAKE THIS IN THE MANNER IT WAS MEANT> GENTLE AND KIND #AND NOT IN A WEIRD INTERNET WAY PLEASE #bc the truth is that there ARE ppl who are gay who assume that they just ''don't like'' sex #and ace ppl who might need a different partner w/different needs #and i would have REALLY needed to hear ''check in w/urself about if u actually like sex''#WAY EARILIER in my life. but nobody said anything bc they assume if ur having sex. u like it.#not just the actual act of sex. not once ur turned on. do you ACTUALLY like it. or is it a burden?#even if ur gay. check w/urself. maybe ur more ace than u realized. in which case. ADDITIONAL FLAG BB #i love collecting my flags. i'm at like 354 at this point #but also btw this is about how toxic relationships are SO normalized that u can be in one #and have everyone around u being like ''THATS JUST MEN LOL''

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ghost-bxrd · 4 months

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Prompt:

Jason learns how to dream walk and terrorizes his family before they become aware of his resurrection.

(it backfires)

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 6 months

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still unwell over the prospect of Howdy slowly putting the pieces together and having a complete mental breakdown over it. Laughingstock edition!

#i have a whole Scene in my mind...#he loses it!! he very much loses his marbles!!!#he has all the pieces but he doesnt know how they fit and hes falling apart!#howdy: ohhhhh none of this is real #howdy: ....hm....#howdy: alrighty im gonna lose my shit now #IT HAS POTENTIAL OK I SWEAR #scribble garnish #laughingstock #welcome home #brain wants me to write an outline for a fic centered on this #not - not laughingstock. not really it'd be Neutral and as canon compliant as i can manage #but oughhhhhhh the potentiallllllll #i really do feel like he's in a good place to glimpse behind the curtain #i take the caterpillar. i whip him around like a neanderthal with a palm frond #if you can't get puppet breakdowns from the store home-made is fine #from the store *Yet.#sighing dreamily as i consider the prospect of future updates having the beloved puppets lose their absolute minds <3 #cant wait for things to go south For Them <3 #i hope it genuinely disturbs me <3

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unpretty · 5 months

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didn’t you have a whole thing about Clark’s parents you were writing as well? did I make that up?

"Focus, Jor-El," Lara said, the thought chiding as she nudged him with her elbow.

"I swear there's something over there," he said with frustrated curiosity, though he put the bot back on course. Flickers of thought about strange structures, ancient ruins. He had the thought that he'd be able to see better if the bot were higher, if it had been carried by something they could have launched into the air, fire and noise. She nudged him again because he hadn't bothered keeping the thought from her.

"Stop looking for problems you can solve with rockets," she said, still not looking up from the screen. She loved her mate dearly, but this struck her as one of his moments, a blade in search of a throat. He feigned offense at the thought.

"Most problems can be solved with rockets," he insisted, with a distant thought about her parents that failed to coalesce into anything coherent. The shadow of a tasteless joke unmade.

"When I tire of the sky being above my head instead of on top of it, I'll let you know," she said. It was hard to make out any of what the bot was transmitting. She tried lowering her glasses to look past the tinted lenses, but this close to the surface was still too bright for her. She winced, sliding her glasses back up her nose.

"My poor perfect mate," Jor-El teased, "with her perfect eyes stuck in imperfect conditions."

"Contemplate emptiness," she shot back, and he laughed aloud.

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starrystevie · 1 year

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i love the idea of eddie working jobs that no one expects him to. eddie as a baker, hasn't slept at all between finishing his concert and needing to get to work, so he's surviving off coffee alone because he has to start on the muffins. eddie as a barista, hair pulled back into a tight ponytail as he smiles with fake politeness at overworked jerks complaining about the price of soy milk. eddie as a grocery store bagger, taking the time to put all the similar foods into the same bags to make it easier for the shopper to unload at home and his rings turn ice cold from holding onto a carton of ice cream for too long.

eddie as a daycare greeter, throwing kids over his shoulder to march them into their classrooms with a warrior's roar as they squeal and pound at his back with grubby fists. eddie as a valet at a fine dining restaurant, opening doors with an outstretched hand to assist guests and then peeling away in a too nice car once the driver was out of earshot. eddie as a florist, wrapping smiley face bandaids around his fingers that were pricked by one too many thorns before setting out a curbside vase with free flowers for tourists to grab.

and you know what else i love? steve falling for him in every possible universe. he's first in line to get the blueberry muffins that he's grown to crave every wednesday morning, and it absolutely has nothing to do with the man at the register. he's at the end of the mid-morning rush to get his coffee and blushes when he sees the barista give him a real smile instead of the fake ones he throws around. he stays long after his bags are tucked neatly in his shopping cart so he can invite the guy who went the extra mile to pack his things nicely to his house for dinner because they both know he bought enough for two.

he's the single dad who's a little rundown but sees a future in mr. eddie as he holds his crying kid to his chest and sings something to get her smiling again. he's the guy standing off to the side in the parking lot laughing because the hot valet doesn't know how to drive stick and he has to yell instructions to him for how to put it in gear so he won't get fired. he's the new to town fireman that's looking for a fresh start who takes a flower from the free vase every day only to bring it inside and give it to the guy who's prettier than all the other flowers combined.

the idea that they can find each other time and time and again and the love story feels right. the idea that they can be two strangers or best friends or enemies or teammates and let whatever blossom between them until they're madly in love. the idea that eddie is eddie and steve is steve and that they are a match no matter the circumstances.

#there is truly nothing that gets me going more than an au i'm not even sorry #steddie #steddie headcanon #my writing #me casually making like 6 new aus that i now wnat to write it's fine #WAIT i just realized how i can write all these without having to make new fics for all of them hell yeah #steddie drabble #steddie ficlet #steve harrington #eddie munson

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lamardeuse · 2 months

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yes buck and eddie's popularity is totally down to their fun energy, the fun energy of clawing at the ground with your bare hands trying to dig your friend out from under 30 feet of mud, the fun energy of being splattered with his blood, the fun energy of futilely trying to haul up his lifeless body -

#also you're both hot and we want to see you bone #but okay yes fun energy is part of it too fine oliver #buddie #these interviews are hilarious actually #I cannot wait until they finally make it canon and they can tell all

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mysticarcanum · 1 month

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the issue with the current fallen london event is that it lets you choose the difficulty (or rather, the quantity of explosives you are willing to pack onto your ship) and that's very hard for me, because even though it would likely be much more profitable overall to go on any difficulty but the hardest (which is comically, punishingly difficult) i am incapable of such WEAKNESS. what am i, a COWARD??? pack every last inch of this zubmarine with explosives, lads!!! we sail into the mouth of hell!! DEATH OR GLORY!!!!!!!

#ehhhh its fine what did i spend all that time getting my cider for if not to EXPLODE MORE TIMES #i will EXPLODE WITH GREATER FREQUENCY than you CIDERLESS FOOLS #fallen london #(also wait ive just realized that in a universe where hell is a place you can go and that i built a railroad to get to #saying youre sailing into the mouth of hell is no longer hyperbolic but just plain inaccurate #like. what do you mean we're sailing into the mouth of hell? we're sailing northeast! hell is west! should we turn around??)

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rbtlvr · 2 months

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And for a moment, Donnie met Prime's gaze through staticky purple, and let himself smirk. Giving himself that perfect arched brow that Leo called his supreme bitch face. Then he summoned a portal. It was just how Leo said, he only had to think about where he wanted to go.

i'm uh. i'm not normal about firefight @remedyturtles

#rottmnt #tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt donnie #rise donnie #donnie #firefight au #vibrates at the speed of sound. been sitting on this one for DAYS and i can finally post it >:3 #feel like i didnt make his injuries bad/obvious enough considering [gestures at the last few chapters] but Oh Well jalfjdks #debating how long i want to wait before posting it to avoid spoiling ppl who havent had a chance to read it yet #vs oh my god i want to post it Right Now Immediately #<- bad at waiting #my art #anyway its like. basically afternoon for most ppl. and a weekend also. so like its fine probably

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mamawasatesttube · 11 months

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kon bart and cass as a trio who have just never had a childhood experience could be so funny. i want to see it

#kon and bart are debating about the tooth fairy and cass is like we can test it! here i have some teeth #kon: WHOSE TEETH ARE THOSE????#cass: tim's baby teeth :)#kon: oh okay that's fine then. WHY DO YOU HAVE THOSE--#cass: stole them from dick :)#bart: wait then won't he notice if we trade them to the tooth fairy??#kon: im not even gonna--tim gave them to dick didn't he. didn't he.#cass: yes :)#bart: does the tooth fairy even pay you for someone else's teeth???#all 3 of them: 10 full seconds of stumped silence #and then all 3 of them: WELL! ONE WAY TO FIND OUT--#rimi talks #kon #bart #cass

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years

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did some dumb shit today and immediately thought of my favorite quote to cope

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 2 #yakuza 2 #ryuji goda #snap sketches #ever since he said that i've been able to cope with so many things better and i'm 100% serious #it's just such a funny quote but it also speaks to me on a spiritual level #anyways i thought i had to go to the court house today so i drove out like half an hour #and then i waited another half hour cause i was too early and then i go there #and the lady's like 'we sent you an email :o you didnt have to come in today- youre actually fine for the next three years :o'#AND I JUST SAT IN MY CAR AFTER THAT SO DEFEATED #I COULDNT EVEN GET ANY FOOD OR GO SHOPPING CAUSE ALL THE SHOPS WERE CLOSED #AND THEY ONLY OPENED THREE HOURS LATER OR LIKE. /TOMORROW/#ryuji goda my beloved thank you for letting me be able to live with my dumbass #my stupidity is an illness and i'm glad i can coexist with it now #tbh i coulda made this funnier cause i just remembered ryuji's shirtless in the og cutcene but whatever #i just wanted to get my truth out there #plus i like his coat :)

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karinasbaby · 1 month

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so jake is just walking around with a face like that like it’s just another regular tuesday evening.

#literally WHAT is he so fine for.#like ???? how can someone be so fine #i will literally get on one knee myself please 💍#he’s so unreal #like there’s no way this man is actually a real human being #the angelic vibes & aura #— jake?!#wait this is so professor jake coded…#adding that idea to my list rn.#— stella can’t stfu (•̀ ᴖ •́)❗️

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shepscapades · 6 months

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Your art has awakened something within me

Never have I looked at Xisuma and went 😳 but now……….

Xisuma kinda….

YOU AND ME BOTH BROTHER!!!

just wait til our fearless leader of hermitcraft, the man full of smiles and derpy energy, is scared witless with a rampaging murderous android on his hands!

#dbhc #dbhc ask #im fine #im FINE OKAY #everyone gets a fair helping of trauma this go round #maybe a dappling of lore here and there #can you tell i haven't stopped thinking about this all day #my students can WAIT #THERES DBHC TO BE THOUGHT ABOUT #this is a joke i promise im prioritizing my real life jobs #LGRSJLGSKFG #dbhc xisuma #anon #ask

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 7 months

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